CHAPTERI。
THEBRIDE’SMISTAKE。
"FORafterthismannerintheoldtimetheholywomenalsowhotrustedinGodadornedthemselves,beinginsubjectionuntotheirownhusbands;evenasSarahobeyedAbraham,callinghimlord;
whosedaughtersyeareaslongasyedowell,andarenotafraidwithanyamazement。"
ConcludingtheMarriageServiceoftheChurchofEnglandinthosewell—knownwords,myuncleStarkweathershutuphisbook,andlookedatmeacrossthealtarrailswithaheartyexpressionofinterestonhisbroad,redface。Atthesametimemyaunt,Mrs。
Starkweather,standingbymyside,tappedmesmartlyontheshoulder,andsaid,"Valeria,youaremarried!"
Whereweremythoughts?Whathadbecomeofmyattention?Iwastoobewilderedtoknow。Istartedandlookedatmynewhusband。
HeseemedtobealmostasmuchbewilderedasIwas。Thesamethoughthad,asIbelieve,occurredtousbothatthesamemoment。Wasitreallypossible——inspiteofhismother’soppositiontoourmarriage——thatwewereManandWife?MyauntStarkweathersettledthequestionbyasecondtaponmyshoulder。
"Takehisarm!"shewhispered,inthetoneofawomanwhohadlostallpatiencewithme。
Itookhisarm。
"Followyouruncle。"
Holdingfastbymyhusband’sarm,Ifollowedmyuncleandthecuratewhohadassistedhimatthemarriage。
Thetwoclergymenledusintothevestry。ThechurchwasinoneofthedrearyquartersofLondon,situatedbetweentheCityandtheWestEnd;thedaywasdull;theatmospherewasheavyanddamp。Wewereamelancholylittleweddingparty,worthyofthedrearyneighborhoodandthedullday。Norelativesorfriendsofmyhusband’swerepresent;hisfamily,asIhavealreadyhinted,disapprovedofhismarriage。Exceptmyuncleandmyaunt,nootherrelationsappearedonmyside。Ihadlostbothmyparents,andIhadbutfewfriends。Mydearfather’sfaithfuloldclerk,Benjamin,attendedtheweddingto"givemeaway,"asthephraseis。Hehadknownmefromachild,and,inmyforlornposition,hewasasgoodasafathertome。
Thelastceremonylefttobeperformedwas,asusual,thesigningofthemarriageregister。Intheconfusionofthemoment(andintheabsenceofanyinformationtoguideme)Icommittedamistake——ominous,inmyauntStarkweather’sopinion,ofeviltocome。Isignedmymarriedinsteadofmymaidenname。
"What!"criedmyuncle,inhisloudestandcheeriesttones,"youhaveforgottenyourownnamealready?Well,well!letushopeyouwillneverrepentpartingwithitsoreadily。Tryagain,Valeria——tryagain。"
WithtremblingfingersIstruckthepenthroughmyfirsteffort,andwrotemymaidenname,verybadlyindeed,asfollows:
ValeriaBrintonWhenitcametomyhusband’sturnInoticed,withsurprise,thathishandtrembledtoo,andthatheproducedaverypoorspecimenofhiscustomarysignature:
EustaceWoodvilleMyaunt,onbeingrequestedtosign,compliedunderprotest。"A
badbeginning!"shesaid,pointingtomyfirstunfortunatesignaturewiththefeatherendofherpen。"Ihope,mydear,youmaynotlivetoregretit。"
Eventhen,inthedaysofmyignoranceandmyinnocence,thatcuriousoutbreakofmyaunt’ssuperstitionproducedacertainuneasysensationinmymind。Itwasaconsolationtometofeelthereassuringpressureofmyhusband’shand。Itwasanindescribablerelieftohearmyuncle’sheartyvoicewishingmeahappylifeatparting。Thegoodmanhadlefthisnorth—countryVicarage(myhomesincethedeathofmyparents)expresslytoreadtheserviceatmymarriage;andheandmyaunthadarrangedtoreturnbythemid—daytrain。Hefoldedmeinhisgreatstrongarms,andhegavemeakisswhichmustcertainlyhavebeenheardbytheidlerswaitingforthebrideandbridegroomoutsidethechurchdoor。
"Iwishyouhealthandhappiness,mylove,withallmyheart。Youareoldenoughtochooseforyourself,and——nooffense,Mr。
Woodville,youandIarenewfriends——andIprayGod,Valeria,itmayturnoutthatyouhavechosenwell。Ourhousewillbedrearyenoughwithoutyou;butIdon’tcomplain,mydear。Onthecontrary,ifthischangeinyourlifemakesyouhappier,I
rejoice。Come,come!don’tcry,oryouwillsetyourauntoff——andit’snojokeathertimeoflife。Besides,cryingwillspoilyourbeauty。Dryyoureyesandlookintheglassthere,andyouwillseethatIamright。Good—by,child——andGodblessyou!"
Hetuckedmyauntunderhisarm,andhurriedout。Myheartsankalittle,dearlyasIlovedmyhusband,whenIhadseenthelastofthetruefriendandprotectorofmymaidendays。
ThepartingwitholdBenjamincamenext。"Iwishyouwell,mydear;don’tforgetme,"wasallhesaid。Buttheolddaysathomecamebackonmeatthosefewwords。BenjaminalwaysdinedwithusonSundaysinmyfather’stime,andalwaysbroughtsomelittlepresentwithhimforhismaster’schild。Iwasverynearto"spoilingmybeauty"(asmyunclehadputit)whenIofferedtheoldmanmycheektokiss,andheardhimsightohimself,asifhetoowerenotquitehopefulaboutmyfuturelife。
Myhusband’svoicerousedme,andturnedmymindtohappierthoughts。
"Shallwego,Valeria?"heasked。
Istoppedhimonourwayouttotakeadvantageofmyuncle’sadvice;inotherwords,toseehowIlookedintheglassoverthevestryfireplace。
Whatdoestheglassshowme?
Theglassshowsatallandslenderyoungwomanofthree—and—twentyyearsofage。Sheisnotatallthesortofpersonwhoattractsattentioninthestreet,seeingthatshefailstoexhibitthepopularyellowhairandthepopularpaintedcheeks。Herhairisblack;dressed,intheselaterdays(asitwasdressedyearssincetopleaseherfather),inbroadripplesdrawnbackfromtheforehead,andgatheredintoasimpleknotbehind(likethehairoftheVenusdeMedicis),soastoshowtheneckbeneath。Hercomplexionispale:exceptinmomentsofviolentagitationthereisnocolortobeseeninherface。Hereyesareofsodarkabluethattheyaregenerallymistakenforblack。Hereyebrowsarewellenoughinform,buttheyaretoodarkandtoostronglymarked。Hernosejustinclinestowardtheaquilinebend,andisconsideredalittletoolargebypersonsdifficulttopleaseinthematterofnoses。Themouth,herbestfeature,isverydelicatelyshaped,andiscapableofpresentinggreatvarietiesofexpression。Astothefaceingeneral,itistoonarrowandtoolongatthelowerpart,toobroadandtoolowinthehigherregionsoftheeyesandthehead。Thewholepicture,asreflectedintheglass,representsawomanofsomeelegance,rathertoopale,andrathertoosedateandseriousinhermomentsofsilenceandrepose——inshort,apersonwhofailstostriketheordinaryobserveratfirstsight,butwhogainsingeneralestimationonasecond,andsometimesonathirdview。Asforherdress,itstudiouslyconceals,insteadofproclaiming,thatshehasbeenmarriedthatmorning。Shewearsagraycashmeretunictrimmedwithgraysilk,andhavingaskirtofthesamematerialandcolorbeneathit。Onherheadisabonnettomatch,relievedbyaquillingofwhitemuslinwithonedeepredrose,asamorselofpositivecolor,tocompletetheeffectofthewholedress。
HaveIsucceededorfailedindescribingthepictureofmyselfwhichIseeintheglass?Itisnotformetosay。Ihavedonemybesttokeepclearofthetwovanities——thevanityofdepreciatingandthevanityofpraisingmyownpersonalappearance。Fortherest,wellwrittenorbadlywritten,thankHeavenitisdone!
AndwhomdoIseeintheglassstandingbymyside?
IseeamanwhoisnotquitesotallasIam,andwhohasthemisfortuneoflookingolderthanhisyears。Hisforeheadisprematurelybald。Hisbigchestnut—coloredbeardandhislongoverhangingmustacheareprematurelystreakedwithgray。Hehasthecolorinthefacewhichmyfacewants,andthefirmnessinhisfigurewhichmyfigurewants。Helooksatmewiththetenderestandgentlesteyes(ofalightbrown)thatIeversawinthecountenanceofaman。Hissmileisrareandsweet;hismanner,perfectlyquietandretiring,hasyetalatentpersuasivenessinitwhichis(towomen)irresistiblywinning。Hejusthaltsalittleinhiswalk,fromtheeffectofaninjuryreceivedinpastyears,whenhewasasoldierservinginIndia,andhecarriesathickbamboocane,withacuriouscrutchhandle(anoldfavorite),tohelphimselfalongwheneverhegetsonhisfeet,indoorsorout。Withthisonelittledrawback(ifitisadrawback),thereisnothinginfirmoroldorawkwardabouthim;
hisslightlimpwhenhewalkshas(perhapstomypartialeyes)acertainquaintgraceofitsown,whichispleasantertoseethantheunrestrainedactivityofothermen。Andlastandbestofall,Ilovehim!Ilovehim!Ilovehim!Andthereisanendofmyportraitofmyhusbandonourwedding—day。
TheglasshastoldmeallIwanttoknow。Weleavethevestryatlast。
Thesky,cloudysincethemorning,hasdarkenedwhilewehavebeeninthechurch,andtherainisbeginningtofallheavily。
Theidlersoutsidestareatusgrimlyundertheirumbrellasaswepassthroughtheirranksandhastenintoourcarriage。Nocheering;nosunshine;noflowersstrewninourpath;nograndbreakfast;nogenialspeeches;nobridesmaids;nofathersormother’sblessing。Adrearywedding——thereisnodenyingit——and(ifAuntStarkweatherisright)abadbeginningaswell!
A_coup_hasbeenreservedforusattherailwaystation。Theattentiveporter,onthelook—outforhisfeepullsdowntheblindsoverthesidewindowsofthecarriage,andshutsoutallpryingeyesinthatway。Afterwhatseemstobeaninterminabledelaythetrainstarts。Myhusbandwindshisarmroundme。"Atlast!"hewhispers,withloveinhiseyesthatnowordscanutter,andpressesmetohimgently。Myarmstealsroundhisneck;myeyesanswerhiseyes。Ourlipsmeetinthefirstlong,lingeringkissofourmarriedlife。
Oh,whatrecollectionsofthatjourneyriseinmeasIwrite!Letmedrymyeyes,andshutupmypaperfortheday。
CHAPTERII。
THEBRIDE’STHOUGHTS。
WEhadbeentravelingforalittlemorethananhourwhenachangepassedinsensiblyoverusboth。
Stillsittingclosetogether,withmyhandinhis,withmyheadonhisshoulder,littlebylittlewefellinsensiblyintosilence。Hadwealreadyexhaustedthenarrowyeteloquentvocabularyoflove?Orhadwedeterminedbyunexpressedconsent,afterenjoyingtheluxuryofpassionthatspeaks,totrythedeeperandfinerraptureofpassionthatthinks?Icanhardlydetermine;Ionlyknowthatatimecamewhen,undersomestrangeinfluence,ourlipswereclosedtowardeachother。Wetraveledalong,eachofusabsorbedinourownreverie。Washethinkingexclusivelyofme——asIwasthinkingexclusivelyofhim?Beforethejourney’sendIhadmydoubts;atalittlelatertimeIknewforcertainthathisthoughts,wanderingfarawayfromhisyoungwife,wereallturnedinwardonhisownunhappyself。
Formethesecretpleasureoffillingmymindwithhim,whileI
felthimbymyside,wasaluxuryinitself。
Ipicturedinmythoughtsourfirstmeetingintheneighborhoodofmyuncle’shouse。
Ourfamousnorth—countrytroutstreamwounditsflashingandfoamingwaythrougharavineintherockymoorland。Itwasawindy,shadowyevening。Aheavilycloudedsunsetlaylowandredinthewest。Asolitaryanglerstoodcastinghisflyataturninthestreamwherethebackwaterlaystillanddeepunderanoverhangingbank。Agirl(myself)standingonthebank,invisibletothefishermanbeneath,waitedeagerlytoseethetroutrise。
Themomentcame;thefishtookthefly。
Sometimesonthelittlelevelstripofsandatthefootofthebank,sometimes(whenthestreamturnedagain)intheshallowerwaterrushingoveritsrockybed,theanglerfollowedthecapturedtrout,nowlettingthelinerunoutandnowwindingitinagain,inthedifficultanddelicateprocessof"playing"thefish。AlongthebankIfollowedtowatchthecontestofskillandcunningbetweenthemanandthetrout。IhadlivedlongenoughwithmyuncleStarkweathertocatchsomeofhisenthusiasmforfieldsports,andtolearnsomething,especially,oftheangler’sart。Stillfollowingthestranger,withmyeyesintentlyfixedoneverymovementofhisrodandline,andwithnotsomuchasachancefragmentofmyattentiontosparefortheroughpathalongwhichIwaswalking,Isteppedbychanceonthelooseoverhangingearthattheedgeofthebank,andfellintothestreaminaninstant。
Thedistancewastrifling,thewaterwasshallow,thebedoftheriverwas(fortunatelyforme)ofsand。BeyondthefrightandthewettingIhadnothingtocomplainof。InafewmomentsIwasoutofthewaterandupagain,verymuchashamedofmyself,onthefirmground。Shortastheintervalwas,itprovedlongenoughtofavortheescapeofthefish。Theanglerhadheardmyfirstinstinctivecryofalarm,hadturned,andhadthrownasidehisrodtohelpme。Weconfrontedeachotherforthefirsttime,Ionthebankandheintheshallowwaterbelow。Oureyesencountered,andIverilybelieveourheartsencounteredatthesamemoment。
ThisIknowforcertain,weforgotourbreedingasladyandgentleman:welookedateachotherinbarbaroussilence。
Iwasthefirsttorecovermyself。WhatdidIsaytohim?
Isaidsomethingaboutmynotbeinghurt,andthensomethingmore,urginghimtorunbackandtryifhemightnotyetrecoverthefish。
Hewentbackunwillingly。Hereturnedtome——ofcoursewithoutthefish。Knowinghowbitterlydisappointedmyunclewouldhavebeeninhisplace,Iapologizedveryearnestly。Inmyeagernesstomakeatonement,Ievenofferedtoshowhimaspotwherehemighttryagain,lowerdownthestream。
Hewouldnothearofit;heentreatedmetogohomeandchangemywetdress。Icarednothingforthewetting,butIobeyedhimwithoutknowingwhy。
Hewalkedwithme。MywaybacktotheVicaragewashiswaybacktotheinn。Hehadcometoourparts,hetoldme,forthequietandretirementasmuchasforthefishing。Hehadnoticedmeonceortwicefromthewindowofhisroomattheinn。HeaskedifI
werenotthevicar’sdaughter。
Isethimright。Itoldhimthatthevicarhadmarriedmymother’ssister,andthatthetwohadbeenfatherandmothertomesincethedeathofmyparents。HeaskedifhemightventuretocallonDoctorStarkweatherthenextday,mentioningthenameofafriendofhis,withwhomhebelievedthevicartobeacquainted。Iinvitedhimtovisitus,asifithadbeenmyhouse;Iwasspell—boundunderhiseyesandunderhisvoice。I
hadfancied,honestlyfancied,myselftohavebeeninloveoftenandoftenbeforethistime。Neverinanyotherman’scompanyhadIfeltasInowfeltinthepresenceof_this_man。Nightseemedtofallsuddenlyovertheeveninglandscapewhenheleftme。I
leanedagainsttheVicaragegate。Icouldnotbreathe,Icouldnotthink;myheartflutteredasifitwouldflyoutofmybosom——andallthisforastranger!Iburnedwithshame;butoh,inspiteofitall,Iwassohappy!
Andnow,whenlittlemorethanafewweekshadpassedsincethatfirstmeeting,Ihadhimbymyside;hewasmineforlife!I
liftedmyheadfromhisbosomtolookathim。Iwaslikeachildwithanewtoy——Iwantedtomakesurethathewasreallymyown。
Henevernoticedtheaction;henevermovedinhiscornerofthecarriage。Washedeepinhisownthoughts?andweretheythoughtsofMe?
Ilaiddownmyheadagainsoftly,soasnottodisturbhim。Mythoughtswanderedbackwardoncemore,andshowedmeanotherpictureinthegoldengalleryofthepast。
ThegardenattheVicarageformedthenewscene。Thetimewasnight。Wehadmettogetherinsecret。Wewerewalkingslowlytoandfro,outofsightofthehouse,nowintheshadowypathsoftheshrubbery,nowinthelovelymoonlightontheopenlawn。
Wehadlongsinceownedourloveanddevotedourlivestoeachother。Alreadyourinterestswereone;alreadywesharedthepleasuresandthepainsoflife。Ihadgoneouttomeethimthatnightwithaheavyheart,toseekcomfortinhispresenceandtofindencouragementinhisvoice。HenoticedthatIsighedwhenhefirsttookmeinhisarms,andhegentlyturnedmyheadtowardthemoonlighttoreadmytroubleinmyface。Howoftenhehadreadmyhappinessthereintheearlierdaysofourlove!
"Youbringbadnews,myangel,"hesaid,liftingmyhairtenderlyfrommyforeheadashespoke。"Iseethelinesherewhichtellmeofanxietyanddistress。IalmostwishIlovedyoulessdearly,Valeria。"
"Why?"
"Imightgiveyoubackyourfreedom。Ihaveonlytoleavethisplace,andyourunclewouldbesatisfied,andyouwouldberelievedfromallthecaresthatarepressingonyounow。"
"Don’tspeakofit,Eustace!Ifyouwantmetoforgetmycares,sayyoulovememoredearlythanever。"
Hesaiditinakiss。Wehadamomentofexquisiteforgetfulnessofthehardwaysoflife——amomentofdeliciousabsorptionineachother。Icamebacktorealitiesfortifiedandcomposed,rewardedforallthatIhadgonethrough,readytogothroughitalloveragainforanotherkiss。Onlygiveawomanlove,andthereisnothingshewillnotventure,suffer,anddo。
"No,theyhavedonewithobjecting。TheyhaverememberedatlastthatIamofage,andthatIcanchooseformyself。Theyhavebeenpleadingwithme,Eustace,togiveyouup。Myaunt,whomI
thoughtratherahardwoman,hasbeencrying——forthefirsttimeinmyexperienceofher。Myuncle,alwayskindandgoodtome,hasbeenkinderandbetterthanever。HehastoldmethatifI
persistinbecomingyourwife,Ishallnotbedesertedonmywedding—day。Whereverwemaymarry,hewillbetheretoreadtheservice,andmyauntwillgotothechurchwithme。ButheentreatsmetoconsiderseriouslywhatIamdoing——toconsenttoaseparationfromyouforatime——toconsultotherpeopleonmypositiontowardyou,ifIamnotsatisfiedwithhisopinion。Oh,mydarling,theyareasanxioustopartusasifyouweretheworstinsteadofthebestofmen!"
"Hasanythinghappenedsinceyesterdaytoincreasetheirdistrustofme?"heasked。
"Yes,"
"Whatisit?"
"Yourememberreferringmyuncletoafriendofyoursandofhis?"
"Yes。ToMajorFitz—David。"
"MyunclehaswrittentoMajorFitz—David"
"Why?"
Hepronouncedthatonewordinatonesoutterlyunlikehisnaturaltonethathisvoicesoundedquitestrangetome。
"Youwon’tbeangry,Eustace,ifItellyou?"Isaid。"Myuncle,asIunderstoodhim,hadseveralmotivesforwritingtothemajor。Oneofthemwastoinquireifheknewyourmother’saddress。"
Eustacesuddenlystoodstill。
Ipausedatthesamemoment,feelingthatIcouldventurenofurtherwithouttheriskofoffendinghim。
Tospeakthetruth,hisconduct,whenhefirstmentionedourengagementtomyuncle,hadbeen(sofarasappearanceswent)alittleflightyandstrange。Thevicarhadnaturallyquestionedhimabouthisfamily。Hehadansweredthathisfatherwasdead;
andhehadconsented,thoughnotveryreadily,toannouncehiscontemplatedmarriagetohismother。Informingusthatshetoolivedinthecountry,hehadgonetoseeher,withoutmoreparticularlymentioningheraddress。IntwodayshehadreturnedtotheVicaragewithaverystartlingmessage。Hismotherintendednodisrespecttomeormyrelatives,butshedisapprovedsoabsolutelyofherson’smarriagethatshe(andthemembersofherfamily,whoallagreedwithher)wouldrefusetobepresentattheceremony,ifMr。WoodvillepersistedinkeepinghisengagementwithDr。Starkweather’sniece。Beingaskedtoexplainthisextraordinarycommunication,Eustacehadtoldusthathismotherandhissisterswerebentonhismarryinganotherlady,andthattheywerebitterlymortifiedanddisappointedbyhischoosingastrangertothefamily。Thisexplanationwasenoughforme;itimplied,sofarasIwasconcerned,acomplimenttomysuperiorinfluenceoverEustace,whichawomanalwaysreceiveswithpleasure。Butitfailedtosatisfymyuncleandmyaunt。ThevicarexpressedtoMr。Woodvilleawishtowritetohismother,ortoseeher,onthesubjectofherstrangemessage。Eustaceobstinatelydeclinedtomentionhismother’saddress,onthegroundthatthevicar’sinterferencewouldbeutterlyuseless。Myuncleatoncedrewtheconclusionthatthemysteryabouttheaddressindicatedsomethingwrong。HerefusedtofavorMr。
Woodville’srenewedproposalformyhand,andhewrotethesamedaytomakeinquiriesofMr。Woodville’sreferenceandofhisownfriendMajorFitz—David。
Undersuchcircumstancesasthese,tospeakofmyuncle’smotiveswastoventureonverydelicateground。EustacerelievedmefromfurtherembarrassmentbyaskingaquestiontowhichIcouldeasilyreply。
"HasyourunclereceivedanyanswerfromMajorFitz—David?"heinquired。
"Yes。
"Wereyouallowedtoreadit?"Hisvoicesankashesaidthosewords;hisfacebetrayedasuddenanxietywhichitpainedmetosee。
"Ihavegottheanswerwithmetoshowyou,"Isaid。
Healmostsnatchedtheletteroutofmyhand;heturnedhisbackonmetoreaditbythelightofthemoon。Theletterwasshortenoughtobesoonread。Icouldhaverepeateditatthetime。I
canrepeatitnow。
"DEARVICAR——Mr。EustaceWoodvilleisquitecorrectinstatingtoyouthatheisagentlemanbybirthandposition,andthatheinherits(underhisdeceasedfather’swill)anindependentfortuneoftwothousandayear。
"Alwaysyours,"LAWRENCEFITZ—DAVID。"
"Cananybodywishforaplaineranswerthanthat?"Eustaceasked,handingtheletterbacktome。
"If_I_hadwrittenforinformationaboutyou,"Ianswered,"itwouldhavebeenplainenoughforme。"
"Isitnotplainenoughforyouruncle?"
"No。"
"Whatdoeshesay?"
"Whyneedyoucaretoknow,mydarling?"
"Iwanttoknow,Valeria。Theremustbenosecretbetweenusinthismatter。Didyourunclesayanythingwhenheshowedyouthemajor’sletter?"
"Yes。"
"Whatwasit?"
"Myuncletoldmethathisletterofinquiryfilledthreepages,andhebademeobservethatthemajor’sanswercontainedonesentenceonly。Hesaid,’IvolunteeredtogotoMajorFitz—Davidandtalkthematterover。Youseehetakesnonoticeofmyproposal。IaskedhimfortheaddressofMr。Woodville’smother。
Hepassesovermyrequest,ashehaspassedovermyproposal——hestudiouslyconfineshimselftotheshortestpossiblestatementofbarefacts。Useyourcommon—sense,Valeria。Isn’tthisrudenessratherremarkableonthepartofamanwhoisagentlemanbybirthandbreeding,andwhoisalsoafriendofmine?’"
Eustacestoppedmethere。
"Didyouansweryouruncle’squestion?"heasked。
"No,"Ireplied。"IonlysaidthatIdidnotunderstandthemajor’sconduct。"
"Andwhatdidyourunclesaynext?Ifyouloveme,Valeria,tellmethetruth。"
"Heusedverystronglanguage,Eustace。Heisanoldman;youmustnotbeoffendedwithhim。"
"Iamnotoffended。Whatdidhesay?"
"Hesaid,’Markmywords!ThereissomethingunderthesurfaceinconnectionwithMr。Woodville,orwithhisfamily,towhichMajorFitz—Davidisnotatlibertytoallude。Properlyinterpreted,Valeria,thatletterisawarning。ShowittoMr。Woodville,andtellhim(ifyoulike)whatIhavejusttoldyou——’"
Eustacestoppedmeagain。
"Youaresureyourunclesaidthosewords?"heasked,scanningmyfaceattentivelyinthemoonlight。
"Quitesure。ButIdon’tsaywhatmyunclesays。Praydon’tthinkthat!"
Hesuddenlypressedmetohisbosom,andfixedhiseyesonmine。
Hislookfrightenedme。
"Good—by,Valeria!"hesaid。"Tryandthinkkindlyofme,mydarling,whenyouaremarriedtosomehappierman。"
Heattemptedtoleaveme。Iclungtohiminanagonyofterrorthatshookmefromheadtofoot。
"Whatdoyoumean?"Iasked,assoonasIcouldspeak。"Iamyoursandyoursonly。WhathaveIsaid,whathaveIdone,todeservethosedreadfulwords?"
"Wemustpart,myangel,"heanswered,sadly。"Thefaultisnoneofyours;themisfortuneisallmine。MyValeria!howcanyoumarryamanwhoisanobjectofsuspiciontoyournearestanddearestfriends?Ihaveledadrearylife。Ihaveneverfoundinanyotherwomanthesympathywithme,thesweetcomfortandcompanionship,thatIfindinyou。Oh,itishardtoloseyou!itishardtogobackagaintomyunfriendedlife!Imustmakethesacrifice,love,foryoursake。Iknownomorewhythatletteriswhatitisthanyoudo。Willyourunclebelieveme?willyourfriendsbelieveme?Onelastkiss,Valeria!Forgivemeforhavinglovedyou——passionately,devotedlylovedyou。Forgiveme——andletmego!"