saidtoher:"Elizabeth,youappeartohavechangedyouropinionofthetwogirls,sinceIsawyou。"Sheanswered,withadelightfulcandorwhichremindedmeofoldtimes:"Completely!"I
said:"Awomanofyourintellectualcaliber,dear,doesn’tchangehermindwithoutagoodreasonforit。"Elizabethcordiallyagreedwithme。I
venturedtobealittlemoreexplicit:"Youhavenodoubtmadesomeinterestingdiscovery。"Elizabethagreedagain;andI
venturedagain:"IsupposeImaynotaskwhatthediscoveryis?"
"No,Selina,youmaynotask。"
Thisiscurious;butitisnothingtowhatIhavegottotellyounext。JustasIwaslongingtotakehertomybosomagainasmyfriendandconfidante,Elizabethhasdisappeared。And,alas!
alas!thereisareasonforitwhichnosympatheticpersoncandispute。
Ihavejustreceivedsomeoverwhelmingnews,intheformofaneatparcel,addressedtomyself。
Therehasbeenascandalatthehotel。Thatmonsterinhumanform,Elizabeth’shusband,isawareofhiswife’sprofessionalfame,hasheardofthelargesumsofmoneywhichsheearnsasthegreatestlivingprofessorofmassage,hasbeenlongonthelookoutforher,andhasdiscoveredheratlast。Hehasnotonlyforcedhiswayintohersitting—roomatthehotel;heinsistsonherlivingwithhimagain;hermoneybeingtheattraction,itisneedlesstosay。Ifsherefuses,hethreatensherwiththelaw,thebarbarouslaw,which,tousehisowncoarseexpression,will"restorehisconjugalrights。"
AllthisIgatherfromthenarrativeofmyunhappyfriend,whichformsoneofthetwoinclosuresinherparcel。Shehasalreadymadeherescape。Ha!themandoesn’tlivewhocancircumventElizabeth。TheEnglishCourtofLawisn’tbuiltwhichcancatchherwhensheroamsthefreeandgloriousContinent。
Thevastnessofthisamazingwoman’smindiswhatImustpausetoadmire。Inthefrightfulcatastrophethathasbefallenher,shecanstillthinkofPhilipandEuneece。Sheiseagertohearoftheirmarriage,andrenouncesHelenawithherwholeheart。"ItoowasdeceivedbythatcunningyoungWoman,"shewrites。"Bewareofher,Selina。UnlessIammuchmistaken,sheisgoingtoendbadly。TakecareofPhilip,takecareofEuneece。Ifyouwanthelp,applyatoncetomyfavoriteheroinreallife,TheGovernor。"Idon’tpresumetocorrectElizabeth’slanguage。I
shouldhavecalledyouTheidoloftheWomen。
Thesecondinclosurecontains,asIsuppose,aweddingpresent。
Itiscarefullysealed——itfeelsnobiggerthananordinaryletter——anditcontainsaninscriptionwhichyourhighly—cultivatedintelligencemaybeabletoexplain。Icopyitasfollows:
"Tobeinclosedinanotherenvelope,addressedtoMr。Dunboynetheelder,atPercy’sPrivateHotel,London,anddeliveredbyatrustworthymessenger,onthedaywhenMr。PhilipDunboyneismarriedtoMissEuniceGracedieu。PlacedmeanwhileunderthecareofMissSelinaJillgall。"
WhyisthismysteriouslettertobesenttoPhilip’sfather?I
wonderwhetherthatcircumstancewillpuzzleyouasithaspuzzledme。
Ihavekeptmyreportback,soastosendyouthelastnewsrelatingtoPhilip’sstateofhealth。Tomygreatregret,hisillnessseemstohavemadeaseriousadvancesinceyesterday。
WhenIaskifheisinpain,hesays:"Itisn’texactlypain;I
feelasifIwassinking。SometimesIamgiddy;andsometimesI
findmyselffeelingthirstyandsick。"IhavenoopportunityoflookingafterhimasIcouldwish;forHelenainsistsonnursinghim,assistedbythehousemaid。Mariaisaverygoodgirlinherway,buttoostupidtobeofmuchuse。Ifheisnotbetterto—morrow,Ishallinsistonsendingforthedoctor。
Heisnobetter;andhewishestohavemedicalhelp。Helenadoesn’tseemtounderstandhisillness。ItwasnotuntilPhiliphadinsistedonseeinghimthatsheconsentedtosendforthedoctor。
Youhadsometalkwiththisexperiencedphysicianwhenyouwerehere,andyouknowwhataclevermanheis。WhenItellyouthathehesitatestosaywhatisthematterwithPhilip,youwillfeelasmuchalarmedasIdo。IwillwaittosendthistothepostuntilIcanwriteinamoredefiniteway。
Twodaysmorehavepassed。Thedoctorhasputtwoverystrangequestionstome。
Heasked,first,iftherewasanybodystayingwithusbesidestheregularmembersofthehousehold。Isaidwehadnovisitor。Hewantedtoknow,next,ifMr。PhilipDunboynehadmadeanyenemiessincehehasbeenlivinginourtown。IsaidnonethatIknewof——andItookthelibertyofaskingwhathemeant。Heansweredtothis,thathehasafewmoreinquiriestomake,andthathewilltellmewhathemeansto—morrow。
ForGod’ssakecomehereassoonasyoupossiblycan。Thewholeburdenisthrownonme——andIamquiteunequaltoit。
Ireceivedthedoctorto—dayinthedrawing—room。Tomyamazement,hebeggedleavetospeakwithmeinthegarden。WhenI
askedwhy,heanswered:"Idon’twanttohavealisteneratthedoor。Comeoutonthelawn,wherewecanbesurethatwearealone。"
Whenwewereinthegarden,henoticedthatIwastrembling。
"Rouseyourcourage,MissJillgall,"hesaid。"IntheMinister’shelplessstatethereisnobodywhomIcanspeaktobutyourself。"
IventuredtoremindhimthathemightspeaktoHelenaaswellastomyself。
HelookedasblackasthunderwhenImentionedhername。Allhesaidwas,"No!"But,oh,ifyouhadheardhisvoice——andhesogentleandsweet—temperedatothertimes——youwouldhavefelt,asIdid,thathehadHelenainhismind!
"Now,listentothis,"hewenton。"EverythingthatmyartcandoforMr。PhilipDunboyne,whileIamathisbedside,isundonewhileIamawaybysomeotherperson。Heisworseto—daythanI
haveseenhimyet。"
"Oh,sir,doyouthinkhewilldie?"
"Hewillcertainlydieunlesstherightmeansaretakentosavehim,andtakenatonce。Itismydutynottoflinchfromtellingyouthetruth。IhavemadeadiscoverysinceyesterdaywhichsatisfiesmethatIamright。SomebodyistryingtopoisonMr。
Dunboyne;andsomebodywillsucceedunlessheisremovedfromthishouse。"
Iamapoorfeeblecreature。Thedoctorcaughtme,orIshouldhavedroppedonthegrass。Itwasnotafainting—fit。IonlyshookandshiveredsothatIwastooweaktostandup。Encouragedbythedoctor,IrecoveredsufficientlytobeabletoaskhimwherePhilipwastobetakento。Hesaid:"Tothehospital。Nopoisonercanfollowmypatientthere。Persuadehimtoletmetakehimaway,whenIcallagaininanhour’stime。"
AssoonasIcouldholdapen,Isentatelegramtoyou。Pray,praycomebytheearliesttrain。IalsotelegraphedtooldMr。
Dunboyne,atthehotelinLondon。
ItwasimpossibleformetofaceHelena;IownIwasafraid。ThecookkindlywentupstairstoseewhowasinPhilip’sroom。Itwasthehousemaid’sturntolookafterhimforawhile。Iwentinstantlytohisbedside。
Therewasnopersuadinghimtoallowhimselftobetakentothehospital。"Iamdying,"hesaid。"Ifyouhaveanypityforme,sendforEuneece。Letmeseeheroncemore,letmehearhersaythatsheforgivesme,beforeIdie。"
Ihesitated。ItwastooterribletothinkofEuneeceinthesamehousewithhersister。Herlifemightbeindanger!Philipgavemealook,adreadfulghastlylook。"Ifyourefuse,"hesaidwildly,"thegravewon’tholdme。I’llhauntyoufortherestofyourlife。"
"Sheshallhearthatyouareill,"Ianswered——andranoutoftheroombeforehecouldspeakagain。
WhatIhadpromisedtowrite,Ididwrite。But,placedbetweenEuneece’sdangerandPhilip’sdanger,myheartwasallforEuneece。WouldHelenaspareher,ifshecametoPhilip’sbedside?
InsuchterrorasIneverfeltbeforeinmylife,Iaddedawordmore,entreatinghernottoleavethefarm。IpromisedtokeepherregularlyinformedonthesubjectofPhilip’sillness;andI
mentionedthatIexpectedtheGovernortoreturntousimmediately。"Donothing,"Iwrote,"withouthisadvice。"Myletterhavingbeencompleted,Isentthecookawaywithit,inachaise。Shebelongedtotheneighborhood,andsheknewthefarmhousewell。
Nearlytwohoursafterward,Iheardthechaisestopatthedoor,andranout,impatienttohearhowmysweetgirlhadreceivedmyletter。Godhelpusall!WhenIopenedthedoor,thefirstpersonwhomIsawwasEuneeceherself。
CHAPTERLIX。
DEFENSE。
ONEsurprisefollowedanother,afterIhadencounteredEuneeceatthedoor。
Whenmyfondnesshadexcusedherforsettingthewell—meantadviceinmyletteratdefiance,Iwasconsciousofexpectingtoseeherintears;eager,distressinglyeager,tohearwhathopetheremightbeofPhilip’srecovery。Isawnotears,Iheardnoinquiries。Shewaspale,andquiet,andsilent。Notawordfellfromherwhenwemet,notawordwhenshekissedme,notawordwhensheledthewayintothenearestroom——thedining—room。Itwasonlywhenwewereshutintogetherthatshespoke。
"WhichisPhilip’sroom?"sheasked。
Insteadofwantingtoknowhowhewas,shedesiredtoknowwherehewas!Ipointedtowardthebackdining—room,whichhadbeenmadeintoabedroomforPhilip。Hehadchosenithimself,whenhefirstcametostaywithus,becausethewindowopenedintothegarden。andhecouldslipoutandsmokeatanyhourofthedayornight,whenhepleased。
"Whoiswithhimnow?"wasthenextstrangethingthissadly—changedgirlsaidtome。
"Mariaistakingherturn,"Ianswered;"sheassistsinnursingPhilip。"
"Whereis——?"Euneecegotnofurtherthanthat。Herbreathquickened,hercolorfadedaway。Ihadseenpeoplelookasshewaslookingnow,whentheysufferedundersomesuddenpain。
BeforeIcouldoffertohelpher,sherallied,andwenton:
"Where,"shebeganagain,"istheothernurse?"
"YoumeanHelena?"Isaid。
"ImeanthePoisoner。"
WhenIremindyou,dearMr。Governor,thatmyletterhadcarefullyconcealedfromherthehorriblediscoverymadebythedoctor,yourimaginationwillpicturemystateofmind。ShesawthatIwasoverpowered。Hersweetnature,sostrangelyfrozenupthusfar,meltedatlast。"Youdon’tknowwhatIhaveheard,"shesaid,"youdon’tknowwhatthoughtshavebeenrousedinme。"Sheleftherchair,andsatonmykneewiththefamiliarityofthedearoldtimes,andtooktheletterthatIhadwrittentoherfromherpocket。
"Lookatityourself,"shesaid,"andtellmeifanybodycouldreadit,andnotseethatyouwereconcealingsomething。Mydear,Ihavedrivenroundbythedoctor’shouse——Ihaveseenhim——I
havepersuadedhim,orperhapsIoughttosaysurprisedhim,intotellingmethetruth。Butthekindoldmanisobstinate。Hewouldn’tbelievemewhenItoldhimIwasonmywayheretosavePhilip’slife。Hesaid:’Mychild,youwillonlyputyourownlifeinjeopardy。IfIhadnotseenthatdanger,Ishouldneverhavetoldyouofthedreadfulstateofthingsathome。Gobacktothegoodpeopleatthefarm,andleavethesavingofPhiliptome。’"
"Hewasright,Euneece,entirelyright。"
"No,dear,hewaswrong。Ibeggedhimtocomehere,andjudgeforhimself;andIaskyoutodothesame。"
Iwasobstinate。"Goback!"Ipersisted。"Gobacktothefarm!"
"CanIseePhilip?"sheasked。
Ihaveheardsomeinsolentmensaythatwomenarelikecats。Iftheymeanthatwedo,figurativelyspeaking,scratchattimes,I
amafraidtheyarenotaltogetherwrong。AnirresistibleimpulsemademesaytopoorEuneece:"Thisisachangeindeed,sinceyourefusedtoreceivePhilip。"
"Istherenochangeinthecircumstances?"sheaskedsadly。
"Isn’theillandindanger?"
Ibeggedhertoforgiveme;IsaidImeantnoharm。
"Igavehimuptomysister,"shecontinued,"whenIbelievedthathishappinessdepended,notonme,butonher。Itakehimbacktomyself,whenheisatthemercyofademonwhothreatenshislife。Come,Selina,letusgotoPhilip。"
Sheputherarmroundme,andmademegetupfrommychair。Iwassoeasilypersuadedbyher,thatthefearofwhatHelena’sjealousyandHelena’sangermightdowasscarcelypresentinmythoughts。Thedoorofcommunicationwaslockedonthesideofthebedchamber。Iwentintothehall,toenterPhilip’sroombytheotherdoor。Shefollowed,waitingbehindme。IheardwhatpassedbetweenthemwhenMariawentouttoher。
"WhereisMissGracedieu?"
"Restingupstairs,miss,inherroom。"
"Lookattheclock,andtellmewhenyouexpecthertocomedownhere。"
"Iamtocallher,miss,intenminutesmore。"
"Waitinthedining—room,Maria,tillIcomebacktoyou。"
Shejoinedme。IheldthedooropenforhertogointoPhilip’sroom。Itwasnotoutofcuriosity;thefeelingthaturgedmewassympathy,whenIwaitedamomenttoseetheirfirstmeeting。Shebentoverthepoor,pallid,trembling,sufferingman,andraisedhiminherarms,andlaidhisheadonherbosom。"MyPhilip!"Shemurmuredthosewordsinakiss。Iclosedthedoor,Ihadagoodcry;and,oh,howitcomfortedme!
Therewasonlyaminutetosparewhenshecameoutoftheroom。
Mariawaswaitingforher。Euneecesaid,asquietlyasever:"GoandcallMissGracedieu。"
Thegirllookedather,andsaw——Idon’tknowwhat。Mariabecamealarmed。Butshewentupthestairs,andreturnedinhastetotellusthatheryoungmistresswascomingdown。
ThefaintrustlingofHelena’sdressassheleftherroomreachedusinthesilence。Iremainedattheopendoorofthedining—room,andMariaapproachedandstoodnearme。Wewerebothfrightened。Euneecesteppedforward,andstoodonthematatthefootofthestairs,waiting。Herbackwastowardme;Icouldonlyseethatshewasasstillasastatue。Therustlingofthedresscamenearer。Oh,heavens!whatwasgoingtohappen?Myteethchatteredinmyhead;IheldbyMaria’sshoulder。Dropsofperspirationshowedthemselvesonthegirl’sforehead;shestaredinvacantterrorattheslimlittlefigure,postedfirmandstillonthemat。
Helenaturnedthecornerofthestairs,andwaitedamomentonthelastlanding,andsawhersister。
"Youhere?"shesaid。"Whatdoyouwant?"
Therewasnoreply。Helenadescended,untilshereachedthelaststairbutone。There,shestopped。Herstaringeyesgrewlargeandwild;herhandshookasshestretcheditout,feelingforthebanister;shestaggeredasshecaughtatit,andheldherselfup。
Thesilencewasstillunbroken。Somethinginme,strongerthanmyself,drewmystepsalongthehallnearerandnearertothestair,tillIcouldseethefacewhichhadstruckthatmurderouswretchwithterror。
Ilooked。
No!itwasnotmysweetgirl;itwasahorridtransformationofher。Isawafearfulcreature,withglitteringeyesthatthreatenedsomeunimaginablevengeance。Herlipsweredrawnback;
theyshowedherclinchedteeth。Aburningredflushdyedherface。Thehairofherheadrose,littlebylittle,slowly。And,mostdreadfulsightofall,sheseemed,inthestillnessofthehouse,tobe_listeningtosomething。_IfIcouldhavemoved,I
shouldhavefledtothefirstplaceofrefugeIcouldfind。IfI
couldhaveraisedmyvoice,Ishouldhavecriedforhelp。Icoulddoneithertheonenortheother。Icouldonlylook,look,look;
heldbythehorrorofitwithahandofiron。
Helenamusthaverousedhercourage,andresistedherterror。I
heardherspeak:
"Letmeby!"
"No。"
Slowly,steadily,inawhisper,Euneecemadethatreply。
Helenatriedoncemore——stillfightingagainstherownterror:I
knewitbythetremblingofhervoice。
"Letmeby,"sherepeated;"IamonmywaytoPhilip’sroom。"
"YouwillneverenterPhilip’sroomagain。"
"Whowillstopme?"
"Iwill。"
Shehadspokeninthesamesteadywhisperthroughout——butnowshemoved。Isawhersetherfootonthefirststair。IsawthehorridglitterinhereyesflashcloseintoHelena’sface。I
heardhersay:
"Poisoner,gobacktoyourroom。"
Silentandshuddering,Helenashrankawayfromher——dauntedbyherglitteringeyes;masteredbyherliftedhandpointingupthestairs。
Helenaslowlyascendedtillshereachedthelanding。Sheturnedandlookeddown;shetriedtospeak。Thepointinghandstruckherdumb,anddroveherupthenextflightofstairs。Shewaslosttoview。Onlythesmallrustlingsoundofthedresswastobeheard,growingfainterandfainter;thenanintervalofstillness;thenthenoiseofadooropenedandclosedagain;thennosoundmore——butachangetobeseen:thetransformedcreaturewascrouchingonherknees,stillandsilent,herfacecoveredbyherhands。Iwasafraidtoapproachher;Iwasafraidtospeaktoher。Afteratime,sherose。Suddenly,swiftly,withherheadturnedawayfromme,sheopenedthedoorofPhilip’sroom——andwasgone。
Ilookedround。TherewasonlyMariainthelonelyhall。ShallI
trytotellyouwhatmysensationswere?Itmaysoundstrangely,butitistrue——Ifeltlikeasleeper,whohashalf—awakenedfromadream。
CHAPTERLX。
DISCOVERY。
ALITTLElater,onthateventfulday,whenIwasmostinneedofallthatyourwisdomandkindnesscoulddotoguideme,camethetelegramwhichannouncedthatyouwerehelplessunderanattackofgout。AssoonasIhadinsomedegreegotovermydisappointment,IrememberedhavingtoldEuneeceinmyletterthatIexpectedherkindoldfriendtocometous。WiththetelegraminmyhandIknockedsoftlyatPhilip’sdoor。
ThevoicethatbademecomeinwasthegentlevoicethatIknewsowell。Philipwassleeping。There,byhisbedside,withhishandrestinginherhand,wasEuneece,socompletelyrestoredtoherownsweetselfthatIcouldhardlybelievewhatIhadseen,notanhoursince。Shetalkedofyou,whenIshowedheryourmessage,withaffectionateinterestandregret。Lookback,myadmirablefriend,atwhatIhavewrittenonthetwoorthreepageswhichprecedethis,andexplaintheastoundingcontrastifyoucan。
IwasleftalonetowatchbyPhilip,whileEuneecewentawaytoseeherfather。Soonafterward,Mariatookmyplace;Ihadbeensentfortothenextroomtoreceivethedoctor。
Helookedcare—wornandgrieved。IsaidIwasafraidhehadbroughtbadnewswithhim。
"Theworstpossiblenews,"heanswered。"Aterribleexposurethreatensthisfamily,andIampowerlesstopreventit,"
HethenaskedmetorememberthedaywhenIhadbeensurprisedbythesingularquestionswhichhehadputtome,andwhenhehadengagedtoexplainhimselfafterhehadmadesomeinquiries。Why,andhow,hehadsetthoseinquiriesonfootwaswhathehadnowtotell。Iwillrepeatwhathesaid,inhisownwords,asnearlyasIcanrememberthem。WhilehewasinattendanceonPhilip,hehadobservedsymptomswhichmadehimsuspectthatDigitalishadbeengiventotheyoungman,indosesoftenrepeated。Casesofattemptedpoisoningbythismedicineweresorare,thathefeltboundtoputhissuspicionstothetestbygoingroundamongthechemists’sshops——exceptingofcoursetheshopatwhichhisownprescriptionsweremadeup——andaskingiftheyhadlatelydispensedanypreparationofDigitalis,orderedperhapsinalargerquantitythanusual。Atthesecondshophevisited,thechemistlaughed。"Why,doctor,"hesaid,"haveyouforgottenyourownprescription?"Afterthis,theprescriptionwasaskedfor,andproduced。Itwasonthepaperusedbythedoctor——paperwhichhadhisaddressprintedatthetop,andanoticeadded,tellingpatientswhocametoconsulthimforthesecondtimetobringtheirprescriptionswiththem。Then,therefollowedinwriting:
"TinctureofDigitalis,oneounce"——withhissignatureattheend,notbadlyimitated,butaforgerynevertheless。Thechemistnoticedtheeffectwhichthisdiscoveryhadproducedonthedoctor,andaskedifthatwashissignature。Hecouldhardly,asanhonestman,haveassertedthataforgerywasasignatureofhisownwriting。Sohemadethetruereply,andaskedwhohadpresentedtheprescription。Thechemistcalledtohisassistanttocomeforward。"Didyoutellmethatyouknew,bysight,theyoungladywhobroughtthisprescription?"Theassistantadmittedit。"DidyoutellmeshewasMissHelenaGracedieu?""Idid。"
"Areyousureofnothavingmadeanymistake?""Quitesure。"Thechemistthensaid:"ImyselfsuppliedtheTinctureofDigitalis,andtheyoungladypaidforit,andtookitawaywithher。YouhavehadalltheinformationthatIcangiveyou,sir;andImaynowask,ifyoucanthrowanylightonthematter。"OurgoodfriendthoughtofthepoorMinister,sosorelyafflicted,andofthefamousnamesosincerelyrespectedinthetownandinthecountryround,andsaidhecouldnotundertaketogiveanimmediateanswer。Thechemistwasexcessivelyangry。"YouknowaswellasIdo,"hesaid,"thatDigitalis,givenincertaindoses,isapoison,andyoucannotdenythatIhonestlybelievedmyselftobedispensingyourprescription。Whileyouarehesitatingtogivemeananswer,mycharactermaysuffer;Imaybesuspectedmyself。"Heendedindeclaringheshouldconsulthislawyer。Thedoctorwenthome,andquestionedhisservant。ThemanrememberedthedayofMissHelena’svisitintheafternoon,andtheintentionthatsheexpressedofwaitingforhismaster’sreturn。
Hehadshownherintotheparlorwhichopenedintotheconsulting—room。Noothervisitorwasinthehouseatthattime,orhadarrivedduringtherestoftheday。Thedoctor’sownexperience,whenhegothome,ledhimtoconcludethatHelenahadgoneintotheconsulting—room。Hehadenteredthatroom,forthepurposeofwritingsomeprescriptions,andhadfoundtheleavesofpaperthatheuseddiminishedinnumber。Afterwhathehadheard,andwhathehaddiscovered(tosaynothingofwhathesuspected),itoccurredtohimtolookalongtheshelvesofhismedicallibrary。Hefoundavolume(treatingofPoisons)withaslipofpaperleftbetweentheleaves;thepoisondescribedattheplacesomarkedbeingDigitalis,andthepaperusedbeingoneofhisownprescription—papers。"If,asIfear,alegalinvestigationintoHelena’sconductisapossibleevent,"thedoctorconcluded,"thereistheevidencethatIshallbeobligedtogive,whenIamcalledasawitness。"
ItismybeliefthatIcouldhavefeltnogreaterdismay,ifthelongarmoftheLawhadlaiditsholdonmewhilehewasspeaking。Iaskedwhatwastobedone。
"Ifsheleavesthehouseatonce,"thedoctorreplied,"shemayescapetheinfamyofbeingchargedwithanattemptatmurderbypoison;and,inherabsence,IcananswerforPhilip’slife。I
don’turgeyoutowarnher,becausethatmightbeadangerousthingtodo。Itisforyoutodecide,asamemberofthefamily,whetheryouwillruntherisk。"
ItriedtospeaktohimofEuneece,andtotellhimwhatIhadalreadyrelatedtoyourself。Hewasinnohumortolistentome。
"Keepitforafittertime,"heanswered;"andthinkofwhatI
havejustsaidtoyou。"Withthat,heleftme,onhiswaytoPhilip’sroom。
Mentalexertionwascompletelybeyondme。Canyouunderstandapoormiddle—agedspinsterbeingfrightenedintodoingadangerousthing?Thatmayseemtobenonsense。ButifyouaskwhyItookamorselofpaper,andwrotethewarningwhichIwasafraidtocommunicatebywordofmouth——whyIwentupstairswithmykneesknockingtogether,andopenedthedoorofHelena’sroomjustwideenoughtoletmyhandpassthrough——whyIthrewthepaperin,andbangedthedoortoagain,andrandownstairsasIhaveneverrunsinceIwasalittlegirl——Icanonlysay,inthewayofexplanation,whatIhavesaidalready:Iwasfrightenedintodoingit。
WhatIhavewritten,thusfar,Ishallsendtoyoubyto—night’spost。
Thedoctorcamebacktome,afterhehadseenPhilip,andspokenwithEuneece。Hewasveryangry;and,Imustown,notwithoutreason。Philiphadflatlyrefusedtolethimselfberemovedtothehospital;andEuneece——"ameregirl"——haddeclaredthatshewouldbeanswerableforconsequences!Thedoctorwarnedmethathemeanttowithdrawfromthecase,andtomakehisdeclarationbeforethemagistrates。Atmyentreatiesheconsentedtoreturnintheevening,andtojudgebyresultsbeforetakingtheterriblestepthathehadthreatened。
WhileIremainedathomeonthewatch,keepingthedoorsofbothroomslocked,EunicewentouttogetPhilip’smedicine。Shecameback,followedbyaboycarryingaportableapparatusforcooking。"AllthatPhilipwants,andallthatwewant,"sheexplained,"wecanprovideforourselves。Givemeamorselofpapertowriteon。"
Unhookingthelittlepencilattachedtoherwatch—chain,shepausedandlookedtowardthedoor。"Somebodylistening,"shewhispered。"Letthemlisten。"Shewrotealistofnecessaries,inthewayofthingstoeatandthingstodrink,andaskedmetogooutandgetthemmyself。"Idon’tdoubttheservants,"shesaid,speakingdistinctlyenoughtobeheardoutside;"butIamafraidofwhataPoisoner’scunningandaPoisoner’sdesperationmaydo,inakitchenwhichisopentoher。"Iwentawayonmyerrand——discoveringnolisteneroutside,Ineedhardlysay。Onmyreturn,IfoundthedoorofcommunicationwithPhilip’sroomclosed,butnolongerlocked。"Wecannowattendonhiminturn,"
shesaid,"withoutopeningeitherofthedoorswhichleadintothehall。Atnightwecanrelieveeachother,andeachofuscangetsleepaswewantitinthelargearmchairinthedining—room。
Philipmustbesafeunderourcharge,orthedoctorwillinsistontakinghimtothehospital。WhenwewantMaria’shelp,fromtimetotime,wecanemployherunderourownsuperintendence。
Haveyouanythingelse,Selina,tosuggest?"