"Yoursevertruly。"
IquotethepassagesinPhilip’sletterwhichmostdeeplyinterestedme——Iamhisdearmiss;andheismineevertruly。TheotherpartofthelettertoldmethathehadbeendetainedinLondon,andhelamentedit。Attheendwasadelightfulannouncementthathewascomingtomebytheafternoontrain。I
ranupstairstoseehowIlookedintheglass。
Myfirstfeelingwasregret。Forthethousandthtime,IwasobligedtoacknowledgethatIwasnotasprettyasHelena。Butthispassedoff。Acheeringreflectionoccurredtome。Philipwouldnothavefound,inmysister’sface,whatseemstohaveinterestedhiminmyface。Besides,thereismyfigure。
ThepityofitisthatIamsoignorantaboutsomethings。IfI
hadbeenallowedtoreadnovels,Imight(judgingbywhatpapasaidagainsttheminoneofhissermons)havefeltsureofmyownattractions;ImightevenhaveunderstoodwhatPhilipreallythoughtofme。However,mymindwasquiteunexpectedlysetateaseonthesubjectofmyfigure。Themannerinwhichithappenedwassoamusing——atleast,soamusingtome——thatIcannotresistmentioningit。
MysisterandIareforbiddentoreadnewspapers,aswellasnovels。ButtheteachersattheGirls’ScriptureClassaretoooldtobetreatedinthisway。Whenthemorninglessonswereover,oneofthemwasreadingthenewspapertotheother,intheemptyschoolroom;Ibeinginthepassageoutside,puttingonmycloak。
Itwasareportof"anapplicationmadetothemagistratesbytheladyofhisworshiptheMayor。"Hearingthis,Istoppedtolisten。Theladyofhisworship(whatafunnywayofdescribingaman’swife!)isreportedtobealittletoofondofnotoriety,andtolikehearingthesoundofherownvoiceonpublicoccasions。Butthisisonlymywriting;Ihadbettergetbacktothereport。"Inheraddresstothemagistrates,theMayoressstatedthatshehadseenadisgustingphotographintheshopwindowofastationer,latelyestablishedinthetown。Shedesiredtobringthispersonwithinreachofthelaw,andtohaveallhiscopiesoftheshamelessphotographdestroyed。Theusherofthecourtwasthereuponsenttopurchasethephotograph。"——Onsecondthoughts,Iprefergoingbacktomyownwritingagain;itissouninterestingtocopyotherpeople’swriting。Twoofthemagistratesweredoingjustice。Theylookedatthephotograph——andwhatdiditrepresent?ThefamousstatuecalledtheVenusde’Medici!Oneofthemagistratestookthisdiscoveryindignantly。Hewasshockedatthegrossignorancewhichcouldcalltheclassicidealofbeautyandgraceadisgustingwork。Theotheronemadepoliteallowances。Hethoughttheladywasmuchtobepitied;shewasevidentlytheinnocentvictimofaneglectededucation。Mrs。Mayorleftthecourtinarage,tellingthejusticessheknewwheretogetlaw。"IshallexposeVenus,"shesaid,"totheLordChancellor。"
WhentheScriptureClasshadbrokenupfortheday,dutyoughttohavetakenmehome。Curiosityledmeastray——Imean,ledmetothestationer’swindow。
ThereIfoundourtwoteachers,absorbedinthephotograph;
havinggottotheshopfirstbyashortcut。TheyseemedtothinkIhadtakenalibertywhomIjoinedthem。"Wearehere,"theywerecarefultoexplain,"togetalessonintheidealofbeautyandgrace。"Therewasquitealittlecrowdoftownsfolkcollectedbeforethewindow。Someofthemgiggled;andsomeofthemwonderedwhetheritwastakenfromthelife。Formyownpart,gratitudetoVenusobligesmetoownthatsheeffectedagreatimprovementinthestateofmymind。Sheencouragedme。Ifthatstumpylittlecreature——withnowaist,andoh,suchuncertainlegs!——representedtheidealofbeautyandgrace,Ihadreasonindeedtobesatisfiedwithmyownfigure,andtothinkitquitepossiblethatmysweetheart’sfavorableopinionofmewasnotill—bestowed。
IwasatthebedroomwindowwhenthetimeapproachedforPhilip’sarrival。
Quiteatthefarendoftheroad,Idiscoveredhim。Hewasonfoot;hewalkedlikeaking。NotthatIeversawaking,butI
havemyideal。Ah,whatasmilehegaveme,whenImadehimlookupbywavingmyhandkerchiefoutofthewindow!"Askforpapa,"I
whisperedasheascendedthehouse—steps。
Thenextthingtodowastowait,aspatientlyasIcould,tobesentfordownstairs。Mariacametomeinastateofexcitement。
"Oh,miss,whatahandsomeyounggentleman,andhowbeautifullydressed!Ishe——?"Insteadoffinishingwhatshehadtosay,shelookedatmewithaslysmile。Ilookedatherwithaslysmile。
Wewerecertainlyacoupleoffools。But,dearme,howhappysometimesafoolcanbe!
MyenjoymentofthatdelightfultimewascheckedwhenIwentintothedrawing—room。
Ihadexpectedtoseepapa’sfacemadebeautifulbyhiswinningsmile。Hewasnotonlyserious;heactuallyseemedtobeillateasewhenhelookedatme。Atthesametime,IsawnothingtomakemeconcludethatPhiliphadproducedanunfavorableimpression。Thetruthis,wewereallthreeonourbestbehavior,andweshowedit。PhiliphadbroughtwithhimaletterfromMrs。
Staveley,introducinghimtopapa。WespokeoftheStaveleys,oftheweather,oftheCathedral——andthenthereseemedtobenothingmorelefttotalkabout。
Inthesilencethatfollowed——whatadreadfulthingsilenceis!——papawassentfortoseesomebodywhohadcalledonbusiness。Hemadehisexcusesinthesweetestmanner,butstillseriously。WhenheandPhiliphadshakenhands,wouldheleaveustogether?No;hewaited。PoorPhiliphadnochoicebuttotakeleaveofme。Papathenwentoutbythedoorthatledintohisstudy,andIwasleftalone。
CananywordssayhowwretchedIfelt?
Ihadhopedsomuchfromthatfirstmeeting——andwhereweremyhopesnow?AprofanewishthatIhadneverbeenbornwasfindingitswayintomymind,whenthedooroftheroomwasopenedsoftly,fromthesideofthepassage。Maria,dearMaria,thebestfriendIhave,peepedin。Shewhispered:"Gointothegarden,miss,andyouwillfindsomebodytherewhoisdyingtoseeyou。
Mindyoulethimoutbytheshrubberygate。"Isqueezedherhand;
Iaskedifshehadtriedtheshrubberygatewithasweetheartofherown。"Hundredsoftimes,miss。"
WasitwrongformetogotoPhilip,inthegarden?Oh,thereisnoendtoobjections!PerhapsIdidit_because_itwaswrong。
PerhapsIhadbeenkeptonmybestbehaviortoolongforhumanendurance。
Howsadlydisappointedhelooked!Andhowrashlyhehadplacedhimselfjustwherehecouldbeseenfromthebackwindows!Itookhisarmandledhimtotheendofthegarden。Therewewereoutofthereachofinquisitiveeyes;andtherewesatdowntogether,underthebigmulberrytree。
"Oh,Eunice,yourfatherdoesn’tlikeme!"
Thosewerehisfirstwords。Injusticetopapa(andalittleformyownsaketoo)Itoldhimhewasquitewrong。Isaid:"Trustmyfather’sgoodness,trusthiskindness,asIdo。"
Hemadenoreply。Hissilencewassufficientlyexpressive;helookedatmefondly。
Imaybewrong,butfondlookssurelyrequireanacknowledgmentofsomekind?Isayoungwomanguiltyofboldnesswhoonlyfollowsherimpulses?Islippedmyhandintohishand。Philipseemedtolikeit。Wereturnedtoourconversation。
Hebegan:"Tellme,dear,isMr。Gracedieualwaysasseriousasheisto—day?"
"Ohno!"
"Whenhetakesexercise,doesheride?ordoeshewalk?"
"Papaalwayswalks。"
"Byhimself?"
"Sometimesbyhimself。Sometimeswithme。Doyouwanttomeethimwhenhegoesout?"
"Yes。"
"Whenheisoutwithme?"
"No。Whenheisoutbyhimself。"
WasitpossibletotellmemoreplainlythatIwasnotwanted?I
didmybesttoexpressindignationbysnatchingmyhandawayfromhim。Hewascompletelytakenbysurprise。
"Eunice!don’tyouunderstandme?"
IwasasstupidandasdisagreeableasIcouldpossiblybe:"No;
Idon’t!"
"Thenletmehelpyou,"hesaid,withapatiencewhichIhadnotdeserved。
UptothatmomentIhadbeenleaningagainstthebackofagardenchair。Somethingelsenowgotbetweenmeandmychair。Itstoleroundmywaist——itheldmegently——itstrengtheneditshold——itimprovedmytemper——itmademefittounderstandhim。Alldonebywhat?Onlyanarm!
Philipwenton:
"Iwanttoaskyourfathertodomethegreatestofallfavors——andthereisnotimetolose。Everyday,IexpecttogetaletterwhichmayrecallmetoIreland。"
Myheartsankatthishorridprospect;andinsomemysteriouswaymyheadmusthavefeltittoo。ImeanthatIfoundmyheadrestingonhisshoulder。Hewenton:
"HowamItogetmyopportunityofspeakingtoMr。Gracedieu?I
mustn’tcallonhimagainassoonasto—morrowornextday。ButI
mightmeethim,outwalkingalone,ifyouwilltellmehowtodoit。AnotetomyhotelisallIwant。Don’ttremble,mysweet。Ifyouarenotpresentatthetime,doyouseeanyobjectiontomyowningtoyourfatherthatIloveyou?"
Ifelthisdelicateconsiderationforme——Ididindeedfeelitgratefully。Ifheonlyspokefirst,howwellIshouldgetonwithpapaafterward!Theprospectbeforemewasexquisitelyencouraging。IagreedwithPhilipineverything;andIwaited(howeagerlywasonlyknowntomyself)tohearwhathewouldsaytomenext。Heprophesiednext:
"WhenIhavetoldyourfatherthatIloveyou,hewillexpectmetotellhimsomethingelse。Canyouguesswhatitis?"
IfIhadnotbeenconfused,perhapsImighthavefoundtheanswertothis。Asitwas,Ilefthimtoreplytohimself。Hedidit,inwordswhichIshallrememberaslongasIlive。
"DearestEunice,whenyourfatherhasheardmyconfession,hewillsuspectthatthereisanotherconfessiontofollowit——hewillwanttoknowifyouloveme。Myangel,willmyhopesbeyourhopestoo,whenIanswerhim?"
WhattherewasinthistomakemyheartbeatsoviolentlythatI
feltasifIwasbeingstifled,ismorethanIcantell。Heleanedsoclosetome,sotenderly,sodelightfullyclose,thatourfacesnearlytouched。Hewhispered:"Sayyouloveme,inakiss!"
Hislipstouchedmylips,pressedthem,dweltonthem——oh,howcanItellofit!Somenewenchantmentoffeelingrandeliciouslythroughandthroughme。Iforgotmyownself;Ionlyknewofonepersonintheworld。Hewasmasterofmylips;hewasmasterofmyheart。Whenhewhispered,"kissme,"Ikissed。Whatamomentitwas!Afaintnessstoleoverme;IfeltasifIwasgoingtodiesomeexquisitedeath;Ilaidmyselfbackawayfromhim——Iwasnotabletospeak。Therewasnoneedforit;mythoughtsandhisthoughtswereone——heknewthatIwasquiteovercome;hesawthathemustleavemetorecovermyselfalone。Ipointedtotheshrubberygate。Wetookonelonglastlookateachotherforthatday;thetreeshidhim;Iwasleftbymyself。
CHAPTERXX。
EUNICE’SDIARY。
Howlongatimepassedbeforemycomposurecamebacktome,I
cannotremembernow。ItseemedasifIwaswaitingthroughsomeintervalofmylifethatwasamysterytomyself。Iwascontenttowait,andfeelthelighteveningairinthegardenwaftinghappinessoverme。Andallthishadcomefromakiss!IcancallthetimetomindwhenIusedtowonderwhypeoplemadesuchafussaboutkissing。
IhadbeenindebtedtoMariaformyfirsttasteofParadise。I
wasrecalledbyMariatotheworldthatIhadbeenaccustomedtolivein;theworldthatwasbeginningtofadeawayinmymemoryalready。Shehadbeensenttothegardeninsearchofme;andshehadawordofadvicetooffer,afternoticingmyfacewhenI
steppedoutoftheshadowofthetree:"Trytolookmorelikeyourself,miss,beforeyouletthemseeyouatthetea—table。"
PapaandMissJillgallweresittingtogethertalking,whenI
openedthedoor。Theyleftoffwhentheysawme;andIsupposed,quitecorrectlyasitturnedout,thatIhadbeenoneofthesubjectsintheircourseofconversation。Mypoorfatherseemedtobesadlyanxiousandoutofsorts。MissJillgall,ifIhadbeeninthehumortoenjoyit,wouldhavebeenmoreamusingthanever。Oneofherfunnylittleeyespersistedinwinkingatme;
andherheavyfoothadsomethingtosaytomyfoot,underthetable,whichmeantagreatdealperhaps,butwhichonlysucceededinhurtingme。
Myfatherleftus;andMissJillgallexplainedherself。
"Iknow,dearestEuneece,thatwehaveonlybeenacquaintedforadayortwoandthatIoughtnotperhapstohaveexpectedyoutoconfideinmesosoon。CanItrustyounottobetraymeifIsetanexampleofconfidence?Ah,IseeIcantrustyou!And,mydear,Idosoenjoytellingsecretstoafriend。Hush!Yourfather,yourexcellentfather,hasbeentalkingtomeaboutyoungMr。Dunboyne。"
Sheprovokinglystoppedthere。Ientreatedhertogoon。Sheinvitedmetositonherknee。"Iwanttowhisper,"shesaid。Itwastooridiculous——butIdidit。MissJillgall’swhispertoldmeseriousnews。
"Theministerhassomereason,Euneece,fordisapprovingofMr。
Dunboyne;but,mindthis,Idon’tthinkhehasabadopinionoftheyoungmanhimself。HeisgoingtoreturnMr。Dunboyne’scall。
Oh,Idosohateformality;Ireallycan’tgoontalkingof_Mr。_
Dunboyne。TellmehisChristianname。Ah,whatanoblename!HowIlongtobeusefultohim!Tomorrow,mydear,aftertheoneo’clockdinner,yourpapawillcallonPhilip,athishotel。I
hopehewon’tbeout,justatthewrongtime。"
IresolvedtopreventthatunluckyaccidentbywritingtoPhilip。
IfMissJillgallwouldhaveallowedit,Ishouldhavebegunmyletteratonce。Butshehadmoretosay;andshewasstrongerthanIwas,andstillkeptmeonherknee。
"Italllooksbrightenoughsofar,doesn’tit,dearsister?Willyouletmebeyoursecondsister?Idosoloveyou,Euneece。
Thankyou!thankyou!Butthegloomysideofthepictureistocomenext!Theminister——no!nowIamyoursisterImustcallhimpapa;itmakesmefeelsoyoungagain!Well,then,papahasaskedmetobeyourcompanionwheneveryougoout。’Euneeceistooyoungandtooattractivetobewalkingaboutthisgreattown(inHelena’sabsence)byherself。’Thatwashowheputit。Slylyenough,ifonemaysaysoofsogoodaman。Andheusedyoursister(didn’the?)asakindofexcuse。Iwishyoursisterwasasniceasyouare。However,thepointis,whyamItobeyourcompanion?Because,dearchild,youandyouryounggentlemanarenottomakeappointmentsandtomeeteachotheralone。Oh,yes——that’sit!YourfatherisquitewillingtoreturnPhilip’scall;heproposes(asamatterofcivilitytoMrs。Staveley)toaskPhiliptodinner;but,markmywords,hedoesn’tmeantoletPhiliphaveyouforhiswife。"
Ijumpedoffherlap;itwashorribletohearher。"Oh,"Isaid,"_can_youberightaboutit?"MissJillgalljumpeduptoo。Shehasforeignwaysofshrugginghershouldersandmakingsignswithherhands。Onthisoccasionshelaidbothhandsontheupperpartofherdress,justbelowherthroat,andmysteriouslyshookherhead。
"Whenmyviewsaredirectedbymyaffections,"sheassuredme,"I
neverseewrong。Mybosomismystrongpoint。"
Shehasnobosom,poorsoul——butIunderstoodwhatshemeant。Itfailedtohaveanysoothingeffectonmyfeelings。Ifeltgrievedandangryandpuzzled,allinone。MissJillgallstoodlookingatme,withherhandsstillontheplacewhereherbosomwassupposedtobe。Shemademytemperhotterthanever。
"ImeantomarryPhilip,"Isaid。
"Certainly,mydearEuneece。Butpleasedon’tbesofierceaboutit。"
"Ifmyfatherdoesreallyobjecttomymarriage,"Iwenton,"itmustbebecausehedislikesPhilip。Therecanbenootherreason。"
"Oh,yes,dear——therecan。"
"Whatisthereason,then?"
"That,mysweetgirl,isoneofthethingsthatwehavegottofindout。"
Thepostofthismorningbroughtaletterfrommysister。Weweretoexpectherreturnbythenextday’strain。Thiswasgoodnews。
PhilipandImightstandinneedofcleverHelena’shelp,andwemightbesureofgettingitnow。
InwritingtoPhilip,Ihadaskedhimtoletmehearhowpapaandhehadgotonatthehotel。
Iwon’tsayhowoftenIconsultedmywatch,orhowoftenIlookedoutofthewindowforamanwithaletterinhishand。Itwillbebettertogetonatoncetothediscouragingendofit,whenthereportoftheinterviewreachedmeatlast。TwicePhiliphadattemptedtoaskformyhandinmarriage——andtwicemyfatherhad"deliberately,obstinately"(Philip’sownwords)changedthesubject。Eventhiswasnotall。AsifhewasdeterminedtoshowthatMissJillgallwasperfectlyright,andIperfectlywrong,papa(civiltoPhilipaslongashedidnottalkofMe)hadaskedhimtodinewithus,andPhiliphadacceptedtheinvitation!
Whatwerewetothinkofit?Whatwerewetodo?
Iwrotebacktomydearlove(socruellyused)totellhimthatHelenawasexpectedtoreturnonthenextday,andthatheropinionwouldbeofthegreatestvaluetobothofus。InapostscriptImentionedthehouratwhichweweregoingtothestationtomeetmysister。WhenIsay"we,"ImeanMissJillgallaswellasmyself。
Wefoundhimwaitingforusattherailway。Iamafraidheresentedpapa’sincomprehensibleresolutionnottogivehimahearing。Hewassilentandsullen。Icouldnotconcealthattoseethisstateoffeelingdistressedme。Heshowedhowtrulyhedeservedtobeloved——hebeggedmypardon,andhebecamehisownsweetselfagaindirectly。Iammoredeterminedtomarryhimthanever。
Whenthetrainenteredthestation,allthecarriageswerefull。
Iwentoneway,thinkingIhadseenHelena。MissJillgallwenttheotherway,underthesameimpression。Philipwasalittlewaybehindme。
Notseeingmysister,Ihadjustturnedback,whenayoungmanjumpedoutofacarriage,oppositePhilip,andrecognizedandshookhandswithhim。Iwasjustnearenoughtohearthestrangersay,"Lookatthegirlinourcarriage。"Philiplooked。"Whatacharmingcreature!"hesaid,andthencheckedhimselfforfeartheyoungladyshouldhearhim。Shehadjusthandedhertravelingbagandwrapstoaporter,andwasgettingout。Philippolitelyofferedhishandtohelpher。Shelookedmyway。Thecharmingcreatureofmysweetheart’sadmirationwas,tomyinfiniteamusement,Helenaherself。
CHAPTERXXI。
HELENA’SDIARY。
THEdayofmyreturnmarksanoccasionwhichIamnotlikelytoforget。HourshavepassedsinceIcamehome——andmyagitationstillforbidsthethoughtofrepose。
AsIsitatmydeskIseeEuniceinbed,sleepingpeacefully,exceptwhensheismurmuringenjoymentinsomehappydream。Towhatendhasmysisterbeenadvancingblindfold,and(whoknows?)
draggingmewithher,sincethatdisastrousvisittoourfriendsinLondon?Strangethatthereshouldbealeavenofsuperstitionin_my_nature!StrangethatIshouldfeelfearofsomething——I
hardlyknowwhat!
Ihavemetsomewhere(perhapsinmyhistoricalreading)withtheexpression:"Achainofevents。"WasIatthebeginningofthatchain,whenIenteredtherailwaycarriageonmyjourneyhome?
Amongtheotherpassengerstherewasayounggentleman,accompaniedbyaladywhoprovedtobehissister。Theywerebothwell—bredpeople。Thebrotherevidentlyadmiredme,anddidhisbesttomakehimselfagreeable。Timepassedquicklyinpleasanttalk,andmyvanitywasflattered——andthatwasall。
Myfellow—travelersweregoingontoLondon。Whenthetrainreachedourstationtheyoungladysentherbrothertobuysomefruit,whichshesawinthewindowoftherefreshment—room。Thefirstmanwhomheencounteredontheplatformwasoneofhisfriends;towhomhesaidsomethingwhichIfailedtohear。WhenI
handedmytravelingbagandmywrapstotheporter,andshowedmyselfatthecarriagedoor,Iheardthefriendsay:"Whatacharmingcreature!"HavingnothingtoconcealinajournalwhichIprotectbyalock,Imayownthatthestranger’spersonalappearancestruckme,andthatwhatIfeltthistimewasnotflatteredvanity,butgratifiedpride。Hewasyoung,hewasremarkablyhandsome,hewasadistinguished—lookingman。
Allthishappenedinonemoment。Inthemomentthatfollowed,I
foundmyselfinEunice’sarms。Thatodiousperson,MissJillgall,insistedonembracingmenext。AndthenIwasconsciousofanindescribablefeelingofsurprise。Eunicepresentedthedistinguished—lookinggentlemantomeasafriendofhers——Mr。
PhilipDunboyne。
"Ihadthehonorofmeetingyoursister,"hesaid,"inLondon,atMr。Staveley’shouse。"HewentontospeakeasilyandgracefullyofthejourneyIhadtaken,andofhisfriendwhohadbeenmyfellow—traveler;andheattendedustotherailwayomnibusbeforehetookhisleave。IobservedthatEunicehadsomethingtosaytohimconfidentially,beforetheyparted。Thiswasanotherexampleofmysister’schildishcharacter;sheisinstantlyfamiliarwithnewacquaintances,ifshehappenstolikethem。Ianticipatedsomeamusementfromhearinghowshehadcontrivedtoestablishconfidentialrelationswithahighly—cultivatedmanlikeMr。
Dunboyne。But,whileMissJillgallwaswithus,itwasjustaswelltokeepwithinthelimitsofcommonplaceconversation。
BeforewegotoutoftheomnibusIhad,however,observedoneundesirableresultofmyabsencefromhome。EuniceandMissJillgall——thelatterhaving,nodoubt,finelyflatteredtheformer——appearedtohavetakenastronglikingtoeachother。
Twocuriouscircumstancesalsocaughtmyattention。Isawachangeto,whatIcallself—assertion,inmysister’smanner;
somethingseemedtohaveraisedherinherownestimation。Then,again,MissJillgallwasnotlikehercustomaryself。Shehaddelightfulmomentsofsilence;andwhenEuniceaskedhowIlikedMr。Dunboyne,shelistenedtomyreplywithanappearanceofinterestinheruglyfacewhichwasquiteanewrevelationinmyexperienceofmyfather’scousin。
Theselittlediscoveries(afterwhatIhadalreadyobservedattherailway—station)oughtperhapstohavepreparedmeforwhatwastocome,whenmysisterandIwerealoneinourroom。ButEunice,whethershemeanttodoitornot,baffledmycustomarypenetration。Shelookedasifshehadplentyofnewstotellme——withsomeobstacleinthewayofdoingit,whichappearedtoamuseinsteadofannoyingher。IfthereisonethingmorethananotherthatIhate,itisbeingpuzzled。IaskedatonceifanythingremarkablehadhappenedduringEunice’svisittoLondon。
Shesmiledmischievously。"Ihavegotadelicioussurpriseforyou,mydear;andIdosoenjoyprolongingit。Tellme,Helena,whatdidyouproposeweshouldbothdowhenwefoundourselvesathomeagain?"
Mymemorywasatfault。Eunice’sgoodspiritsbecameabsolutelyboisterous。Shecalledout:"Catch!"andtossedherjournalintomyhands,acrossthewholelengthoftheroom。"Weweretoreadeachother’sdiaries,"shesaid。"Thereisminetobeginwith。"
Innocentofanysuspicionofthetruestateofaffairs,IbeganthereadingofEunice’sjournal。
IfIhadnotseenthefamiliarhandwriting,nothingwouldhaveinducedmetobelievethatagirlbroughtupinapioushousehold,thewell—beloveddaughterofadistinguishedCongregationalMinister,couldhavewrittenthatshamelessrecordofpassionsunknowntoyoungladiesinrespectableEnglishlife。
Whattosay,whattodo,whenIhadclosedthebook,wasmorethanIfeltmyselfequaltodecide。MywretchedsistersparedmetheanxietywhichImightotherwisehavefelt。Itwasshewhofirstopenedherlips,afterthesilencethathadfallenonuswhileIwasreading。Thesewereliterallythewordsthatshesaid:
"Mydarling,whydon’tyoucongratulateme?"
Noargumentcouldhavepersuadedme,asthispersuadedme,thatallsisterlyremonstranceonmypartwouldbecompletelythrownaway。
"MydearEunice,"Isaid,"letmebegyoutoexcuseme。Iamwaiting——"
Theresheinterruptedme——and,oh,inwhatanimpudentmanner!
Shetookmychinbetweenherfingerandthumb,andliftedmydowncastface,andlookedatmewithanappearanceofeagerexpectationwhichIwasquiteatalosstounderstand。
"Youhavebeenawayfromhome,too。"shesaid。"DoIseeinthisseriousfacesomeastonishingnewswaitingtooverpowerme?Have_you_foundasweetheart?Are_you_engagedtobemarried?"
Ionlyputherhandawayfromme,andadvisedhertoreturntoherchair。Thisperfectlyharmlessproceedingseemedabsolutelytofrightenher。
"Oh,mydear,"sheburstout,"surelyyouarenotjealousofme?"
Therewasbutonepossiblereplytothis:Ilaughedatit。IsEunice’sheadturned?Shekissedme!
"Nowyoulaugh,"shesaid,"Ibegintounderstandyouagain;I
oughttohaveknownthatyouaresuperiortojealousy。But,dotellme,woulditbesoverywonderfulifothergirlsfoundsomethingtoenvyinmygoodluck?Justthinkofit!Suchahandsomeman,suchanagreeableman,suchacleverman,sucharichman——and,nottheleastofhismerits,by—the—by,amanwhoadmiresYou。Come!ifyouwon’tcongratulateme,congratulateyourselfonhavingsuchabrother—in—lawinprospect!"
Herhead_was_turned。Idrewthepoorsoul’sattentioncompassionatelytowhatIhadsaidamomentsince。
"Pardonme,dear,forremindingyouthatIhavenotyetrefusedtooffermycongratulations。IonlytoldyouIwaswaiting。"
"Forwhat?"