CHAPTERI。
Blessedshadeofabelovedsister!Thesacrificeofmyadverseanddreadfulfate!TheecouldIneveravenge!TheecouldthebloodofWeingartenneverappease!Noasylum,howeversacred,shouldhavesecuredhim,hadhenotsoughtthatlastofasylumsforhumanwickednessandhumanwoes——thegrave!TotheedoIdedicatethesefewpages,atributeofthankfulness;and,iffuturerewardsthereare,maythebrightestoftheserewardsbethine。Forus,andnotforours,mayrewardsbeexpectedfrommonarchswho,inapathy,havebeheldourmortalsufferings。Rest,noblesoul,murderedthoughthouwertbytheenemiesofthybrother。Againmybloodboils,againmytearsrolldownmycheeks,whenIrememberthee,thysufferingsinmycause,andthyuntimelyend!Iknewitnot;I
soughttothankthee;Ifoundtheeinthegrave;Iwouldhavemaderetributiontothychildren,butunjust,iron—heartedprinceshaddeprivedmeofthepower。Canthevirtuousheartconceiveafflictionmorecruel?MyownillsIwouldhaveenduredwithmagnanimity;butthinearewrongsIhaveneitherthepowertoforgetnorheal。
Enoughofthis。—
TheworthyEmperor,FrancisI。,shedtearswhenIafterwardshadthehonourofrelatingtohiminpersonmypastmiseries;Ibeheldthemflow,andgratitudethrewmeathisfeet。Hisemotionwassogreatthathetorehimselfaway。Ileftthepalacewithalltheenthusiasmofsoulwhichsuchascenemustinspire。
Heprobablywouldhavedonemorethanpitiedme,buthisdeathsoonfollowed。IrelatethisincidenttoconvinceposteritythatFrancisI。possessedaheartworthyanemperor,worthyaman。IntheknowledgeIhavehadofmonarchshestandsalone。FredericandTheresabothdiedwithoutdoingmejustice;Iamnowtooold,tooproud,havetoomuchapathy,toexpectitfromtheirsuccessors。
PetitionIwillnot,knowingmyrights;andjusticefromcourtsoflaw,howeverevidentmyclaims,wereinthesecourtsvainindeedtoexpect。LawyersandadvocatesIknowbuttoowell,andanarmytosupportmyrightsIhavenot。
Whatheartthatcanfeelbutwillpardonmethesedigressions!Attheexactandsimplerecitaloffactslikethese,thewholemanmustberoused,andthephilosopherhimselfshudder。
Oncemore:—Iheardnothingofwhathadhappenedforsomedays;atlength,however,itwasthehonestGelfhardt’sturntomountguard;
buttheportsbeingdoubled,andtwoadditionalgrenadiersplacedbeforemydoor,explanationwasexceedinglydifficult。He,however,inspiteofprecaution,foundmeanstoinformmeofwhathadhappenedtohistwounfortunatecomrades。
TheKingcametoareviewatMagdeburg,whenhevisitedStar—Fort,andcommandedanewcelltobeimmediatelymade,prescribinghimselfthekindofironsbywhichIwastobesecured。ThehonestGelfhardtheardtheofficersaythiscellwasmeantforme,andgavemenoticeofit,butassuredmeitcouldnotbereadyinlessthanamonth。Ithereforedetermined,assoonaspossible,tocompletemybreachinthewall,andescapewithouttheaidofanyone。Thethingwaspossible;forIhadtwistedthehairofmymattressintoarope,whichImeanttotietoacannon,anddescendtherampart,afterwhichImightendeavourtoswimacrosstheElbe,gaintheSaxonfrontiers,andthussafelyescape。
Onthe26thofMayIhaddeterminedtobreakintothenextcasemate;
butwhenIcametoworkatthebricks,IfoundthemsohardandstronglycementedthatIwasobligedtodeferthelabourtillthefollowingday。Ileftoff,wearyandspent,atdaybreak,andshouldanyoneentermydungeon,theymustinfalliblydiscoverthebreach。
Howdreadfulisthedestinybywhich,throughlife,Ihavebeenpersecuted,andwhichhascontinuallyplungedmeheadlongintocalamity,whenIimaginedhappinesswasathand!
The27thofMaywasacrueldayinthehistoryofmylife。MycellintheStar—ForthadbeenfinishedsoonerthanGelfhardthadsupposed;andatnight,whenIwaspreparingtofly,Iheardacarriagestopbeforemyprison。OGod!whatwasmyterror,whatwerethehorrorsofthismomentofdespair!Thelocksandboltsresounded,thedoorsflewopen,andthelastofmypoorremainingresourceswastoconcealmyknife。Thetown—major,themajoroftheday,andacaptainentered;Isawthembythelightoftheirtwolanterns。Theonlywordstheyspokewere,"Dressyourself,"whichwasimmediatelydone。IstillworetheuniformoftheregimentofCordova。Ironsweregivenme,whichIwasobligedmyselftofastenonmywristsandankles;thetown—majortiedabandageovermyeyes,and,takingmeunderthearm,theythusconductedmetothecarriage。ItwasnecessarytopassthroughthecitytoarriveattheStar—Fort;allwassilent,exceptthenoiseoftheescort;butwhenweenteredMagdeburgIheardthepeoplerunning,whowerecrowdingtogethertoobtainasightofme。TheircuriositywasraisedbythereportthatIwasgoingtobebeheaded。ThatIwasexecutedonthisoccasionintheStar—Fort,afterhavingbeenconductedblindfoldthroughthecity,hassincebeenbothaffirmedandwritten;andtheofficershadthenorderstopropagatethiserrorthattheworldmightremaininutterignoranceconcerningme。
I,indeed,knewotherwise,thoughIaffectednottohavethisknowledge;and,asIwasnotgagged,IbehavedasifIexpecteddeath,reproachedmyconductorsinlanguagethatevenmadethemshudder,andpaintedtheirKinginhistruecolours,asonewho,unheard,hadcondemnedaninnocentsubjectbyadespoticexertionofpower。
Myfortitudewasadmired,atthemomentwhenitwassupposedI
thoughtmyselfleadingtoexecution。Noonereplied,buttheirsighsintimatedtheircompassion;certainitis,fewPrussianswillinglyexecutesuchcommands。Thecarriageatlengthstopped,andIwasbroughtintomynewcell。Thebandagewastakenfrommyeyes。Thedungeonwaslightedbyafewtorches。Godofheaven!
whatweremyfeelingswhenIbeheldthewholefloorcoveredwithchains,afire—pan,andtwogrimmenstandingwiththeirsmiths’
hammers!
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Toworkwenttheseenginesofdespotism!Enormouschainswerefixedtomyankleatoneend,andattheothertoaringwhichwasincorporatedinthewall。Thisringwasthreefeetfromtheground,andonlyallowedmetomoveabouttwoorthreefeettotherightandleft。Theynextrivetedanotherhugeironring,ofahand’sbreadth,roundmynakedbody,towhichhungachain,fixedintoanironbarasthickasaman’sarm。Thisbarwastwofeetinlength,andateachendofitwasahandcuff。Theironcollarroundmyneckwasnotaddedtilltheyear1756。
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Nosoulbademegoodnight。Allretiredindreadfulsilence;andI
heardthehorriblegratingoffourdoors,thatweresuccessivelylockedandbolteduponme!
Thusdoesmanactbyhisfellow,knowinghimtobeinnocent,havingreceivedthecommandsofanothermansotoact。
OGod!Thoualoneknowesthowmyheart,voidasitwasofguilt,beatatthismoment。TheresatI,destitute,alone,inthickdarkness,uponthebareearth,withaweightoffettersinsupportabletonature,thankingTheethatthesecruelmenhadnotdiscoveredmyknife,bywhichmymiseriesmightyetfindanend。
Deathisalastcertainrefugethatcanindeedbiddefiancetotherageoftyranny。WhatshallIsay?HowshallImakethereaderfeelasIthenfelt?Howdescribemydespondency,andyetaccountforthatlatentimpulsethatwithheldmyhandonthisfatal,thismiserablenight?
ThismiseryIforesawwasnotofshortduration;IhadheardofthewarsthatwerelatelybrokenoutbetweenAustriaandPrussia。
Patientlytowaittheirtermination,amidsufferingsandwretchednesssuchasmine,appearedimpossible,andfreedomeventhenwasdoubtful。SadexperiencehadIhadofVienna,andwellI
knewthatthosewhohaddespoiledmeofmypropertymostanxiouslywouldendeavourtopreventmyreturn。Suchweremymeditations!
suchmynightthoughts!Dayatlengthreturned;butwherewasitssplendour?Fled!Ibehelditnot;yetwasitsglimmeringobscuritysufficienttoshowmewhatwasmydungeon。
Inbreadthitwasabouteightfeet;inlength,ten。Nearmeoncemorestoodanight—table;inacornerwasaseat,fourbricksbroad,onwhichImightsit,andreclineagainstthewall。OppositetheringtowhichIwasfastened,thelightwasadmittedthroughasemi—
circularaperture,onefoothigh,andtwoindiameter。Thisapertureascendedtothecentreofthewall,whichwassixfeetthick,andatthiscentralpartwasacloseirongrating,fromwhich,outward,theaperturedescended,anditstwoextremitieswereagainsecuredbystrongironbars。Mydungeonwasbuiltintheditchofthefortification,andtheaperturebywhichthelightenteredwassocoveredbythewalloftherampartthat,insteadoffindingimmediatepassage,thelightonlygainedadmissionbyreflection。This,consideringthesmallnessoftheaperture,andtheimpedimentsofgratingandironbars,mustneedsmaketheobscuritygreat;yetmyeyes,intime,becamesoaccustomedtothisglimmeringthatIcouldseeamouserun。Inwinter,however,whenthesundidnotshineintotheditch,itwaseternalnightwithme。
Betweenthebarsandthegratingwasaglasswindow,mostcuriouslyformed,withasmallcentralcasement,whichmightbeopenedtoadmittheair。Mynight—tablewasdailyremoved,andbesidemestoodajugofwater。ThenameofTRENCKwasbuiltinthewall,inredbrick,andundermyfeetwasatombstonewiththenameofTRENCK
alsocutonit,andcarvedwithadeath’shead。Thedoorstomydungeonweredouble,ofoak,twoinchesthick;withoutthesewasanopenspaceorfrontcell,inwhichwasawindow,andthisspacewaslikewiseshutinbydoubledoors。Theditch,inwhichthisdreadfuldenwasbuilt,wasenclosedonbothsidesbypalisades,twelvefeethigh,thekeyofthedoorofwhichwasentrustedtotheofficeroftheguard,itbeingtheKing’sintentiontopreventallpossibilityofspeechorcommunicationwiththesentinels。TheonlymotionI
hadthepowertomakewasthatofjumpingupward,orswingingmyarmstoprocuremyselfwarmth。Whenmoreaccustomedtothesefetters,Ibecamecapableofmovingfromsidetoside,aboutfourfeet;butthispainedmyshin—bones。
Thecellhadbeenfinishedwithlimeandplasterbutelevendays,andeverybodysupposeditwouldbeimpossibleIshouldexistinthesedampsaboveafortnight。Iremainedsixmonths,continuallyimmersedinverycoldwater,thattrickleduponmefromthethickarchesunderwhichIwas;andIcansafelyaffirmthat,forthefirstthreemonths,Iwasneverdry;yetdidIcontinueinhealth。
Iwasvisiteddaily,atnoon,afterrelievingguard,andthedoorswerethenobligedtobeleftopenforsomeminutes,otherwisethedampnessoftheairputouttheircandles。
Thiswasmysituation,andhereIsat,destituteoffriends,helplesslywretched,preyedonbyallthetortureofthoughtthatcontinuallysuggestedthemostgloomy,themosthorrid,themostdreadfulofimages。Myheartwasnotyetwhollyturnedtostone;myfortitudewassunkentodespondency;mydungeonwastheverycaveofdespair;yetwasmyarmrestrained,andthisexcessofmiseryendured。
Howthenmayhopebewhollyeradicatedfromtheheartofman?Myfortitude,aftersometime,begantorevive;IglowedwiththedesireofconvincingtheworldIwascapableofsufferingwhatmanhadneversufferedbefore;perhapsofatlastemergingfromthisloadofwretchednesstriumphantovermyenemies。Solongandardentlydidmyfancydwellonthispicture,thatmymindatlengthacquiredaheroismwhichSocrateshimselfcertainlyneverpossessed。
Agehadbenumbedhissenseofpleasure,andhedrankthepoisonousdraughtwithcoolindifference;butIwasyoung,inuredtohighhopes,yetnowbeholdingdeliveranceimpossible,oratanimmense,adreadfuldistance。Such,too,weretheothersufferingsofsoulandbody,Icouldnothopetheymightbesupportedandlive。
Aboutnoonmydenwasopened。Sorrowandcompassionwerepaintedonthecountenancesofmykeepers。Noonespoke;noonebademegoodmorrow。Dreadfulindeedwastheirarrival;for,unaccustomedtothemonstrousboltsandbars,theywerekeptresoundingforafullhalf—
hourbeforesuchsoul—chilling,suchhope—murderingimpedimentswereremoved。Itwasthevoiceoftyrannythatthundered。
Mynight—tablewastakenout,acamp—bed,mattress,andblanketswerebroughtme;ajugofwatersetdown,andbesideitanammunitionloafofsixpounds’weight。"Thatyoumaynomorecomplainofhunger,"saidthetown—major,"youshallhaveasmuchbreadasyoucaneat。"Thedoorwasshut,andIagainlefttomythoughts。
Whatastrangethingisthatcalledhappiness!HowshallIexpressmyextremejoywhen,afterelevenmonthsofintolerablehunger,I
wasagainindulgedwithafullfeastofcoarseammunitionbread?
Thefondloverneverrushedmoreeagerlytotheariasofhisexpectingbride,thefamishedtigermoreravenouslyonhisprey,thanIuponthisloaf。Iate,rested;surveyedthepreciousmorsel;
ateagain;andabsolutelyshedtearsofpleasure。Breakingbitafterbit,Ihadbyeveningdevouredallmyloaf。
Oh,Nature!whatdelighthastthoucombinedwiththegratificationofthywants!Rememberthis,yewhogorge,yewhorackinventiontoexciteappetite,andyetwhichyoucannotprocure!RememberhowsimplearethemeansthatwillgiveacrustofmouldybreadaflavourmoreexquisitethanallthespicesoftheEast,oralltheprofusionoflandorsea!Rememberthis,growhungry,andindulgeyoursensuality。
Alas!myenjoymentwasofshortduration。Isoonfoundthatexcessisfollowedbypainandrepentance。Myfastinghadweakeneddigestion,andrendereditinactive。Mybodyswelled,mywater—jugwasemptied;cramps,colics,andatlengthinordinatethirstrackedmeallthenight。Ibegantopourcursesonthosewhoseemedtorefineontorture,and,afterstarvingmesolong,toinvitemetogluttony。CouldInothavereclinedonmybed,Ishouldindeedhavebeendriven,thisnight,todesperation;yeteventhiswasbutapartialrelief;for,notyetaccustomedtomyenormousfetters,I
couldnotextendmyselfinthesamemannerIwasafterwardstaughttodobyhabit。Idraggedthem,however,sotogetherastoenablemetositdownonthebaremattress。This,ofallmynightsofsuffering,standsforemost。Whentheyopenedmydungeonnextdaytheyfoundmeinatrulypitiablesituation,wonderedatmyappetite,broughtmeanotherloaf;Irefusedtoacceptit,believingInevermoreshouldhaveoccasionforbread;they,however,leftmeone,gavemewater,shruggeduptheirshoulders,wishedmefarewell,as,accordingtoallappearance,theyneverexpectedtofindmealive,andshutallthedoors,withoutaskingwhetherIwishedorneededfurtherassistance。
ThreedayshadpassedbeforeIcouldagaineatamorselofbread;
andmymind,braveinhealth,nowinasickbodybecamepusillanimous,sothatIdeterminedondeath。Theirons,everywhereroundmybody,andtheirweight,wereinsupportable;norcouldI
imagineitwaspossibleIshouldhabituatemyselftothem,orendurethemlongenoughtoexpectdeliverance。Peacewasaverydistantprospect。TheKinghadcommandedthatsuchaprisonshouldbebuiltasshouldexcludeallnecessityofasentinel,inorderthatImightnotconversewithandseducethemfromwhatiscalledtheirduty:
and,inthefirstdaysofdespair,deliveranceappearedimpossible;
andthefetters,thewar,thepainIfelt,theplace,thelengthoftime,eachcircumstanceseemedequallyimpossibletosupport。A
thousandreasonsconvincedmeitwasnecessarytoendmysufferings。
Ishallnotenterintotheologicaldisputes:letthosewhoblamemeimaginethemselvesinmysituation;orratherletthemfirstactuallyenduremymiseries,andthenletthemreason。Ihadoftenbraveddeathinprosperity,andatthismomentitseemedablessing。
Fullofthesemeditations,everyminute’spatienceappearedabsurdity,andresolutionmeannessofsoul;yetIwishedmymindshouldbesatisfiedthatreason,andnotrashness,hadinducedtheact。Ithereforedetermined,thatImightexaminethequestioncoolly,towaitaweeklonger,anddieonthefourthofJuly。InthemeantimeIrevolvedinmymindwhatpossiblemeanstherewereofescape,notfearing,nakedandchained,torushandexpireonthebayonetsofmyenemies。
ThenextdayIobserved,asthefourdoorswereopened,thattheywereonlyofwood,thereforequestionedwhetherImightnotevencutoffthelockswiththeknifethatIhadsofortunatelyconcealed:
andshouldthisandeveryothermeansfail,thenwouldbethetimetodie。Ilikewisedeterminedtomakeanattempttofreemyselfofmychains。Ihappilyforcedmyrighthandthroughthehandcuff,thoughthebloodtrickledfrommynails。Myattemptsontheleftwerelongineffectual;butbyrubbingwithabrick,whichIgotfrommyseat,ontherivetthathadbeennegligentlyclosed,Ieffectedthisalso。
Thechainwasfastenedtotherunroundmybodybyahook,oneendofwhichwasnotinsertedintherim;therefore,bysettingmyfootagainstthewall,Ihadstrengthenoughsofartobendthishookback,andopenit,astoforceoutthelinkofthechain。Theremainingdifficultywasthechainthatattachedmyfoottothewall:thelinksofthisItook,doubled,twisted,andwrenched,tillatlength,naturehavingbestowedonmegreatstrength,Imadeadesperateeffort,sprangforciblyup,andtwolinksatonceflewoff。
Fortunate,indeed,didIthinkmyself:Ihastenedtothedoor,gropedinthedarktofindtheclinkingsofthenailsbywhichthelockwasfastened,anddiscoverednoverylargepieceofwoodneedbecut。ImmediatelyIwenttoworkwithmyknife,andcutthroughtheoakdoortofinditsthickness,whichprovedtobeonlyoneinch,thereforeitwaspossibletoopenallthefourdoorsinfour—
and—twentyhours。
Againhoperevivedinmyheart。TopreventdetectionIhastenedtoputonmychains;but,OGod!whatdifficultieshadItosurmount!
Aftermuchgropingabout,Iatlengthfoundthelinkthathadflownoff;thisIhid:itbeingmygoodfortunehithertotoescapeexamination,asthepossibilityofriddingmyselfofsuchchainswasinnowisesuspected。TheseparatedironlinksItiedtogetherwithmyhairribbon;butwhenIagainendeavouredtoforcemyhandintothering,itwassoswelledthateveryeffortwasfruitless。Thewholemightwasemployedupontherivet,butalllabourwasinvain。
Noonwasthehourofvisitation,andnecessityanddangeragainobligedmetoattemptforcingmyhandin,whichatlength,afterexcruciatingtorture,Ieffected。Myvisitorscame,andeverythinghadtheappearanceoforder。Ifoundit,however,impossibletoforceoutmyrighthandwhileitcontinuedswelled。
Ithereforeremainedquiettillthedayfixed,andonthedeterminedfourthofJuly,immediatelyasmyvisitorshadclosedthedoorsuponme,Idisencumberedmyselfofmyirons,tookmyknife,andbeganmyHerculeanlabouronthedoor。Thefirstofthedoubledoorsthatopenedinwardswasconqueredinlessthananhour;theotherwasaverydifferenttask。Thelockwassooncutround,butitopenedoutwards;therewasthereforenoothermeansleftbuttocutthewholedoorawayabovethebar。
Incessantandincrediblelabourmadethispossible,thoughitwasthemoredifficultaseverythingwastobedonebyfeeling,Ibeingtotallyinthedark;thesweatdropped,orratherflowed,frommybody;myfingerswereclottedinmyownblood,andmylaceratedhandswereonecontinuedwound。
Daylightappeared:Iclamberedoverthedoorthatwashalfcutaway,andgotuptothewindowinthespaceorcellthatwasbetweenthedoubledoors,asbeforedescribed。HereIsawmydungeonwasintheditchofthefirstrampart:beforemeIbeheldtheroadfromtherampart,theguardbutfiftypacesdistant,andthehighpalisadesthatwereintheditch,andmustbescaledbeforeIcouldreachtherampart。Hopegrewstronger;myeffortswereredoubled。
Thefirstofthenextdoubledoorswasattacked,whichlikewiseopenedinward,andwassoonconquered。ThesunsetbeforeIhadendedthis,andthefourthwastobecutawayasthesecondhadbeen。Mystrengthfailed;bothmyhandswereraw;Irestedawhile,beganagain,andhadmadeacutofafootlong,whenmyknifesnapped,andthebrokenbladedroppedtotheground!
GodofOmnipotence!whatwasIatthismoment?Wasthere,GodofMercies!wasthereevercreatureofThinemorejustifiedthanIindespair?Themoonshoneveryclear;Icastawildanddistractedlookuptoheaven,fellonmyknees,andintheagonyofmysoulsoughtcomfort:butnocomfortcouldbefound;norreligionnorphilosophyhadanytogive。IcursednotProvidence,Ifearednotannihilation,IdarednotAlmightyvengeance;GodtheCreatorwasthedisposerofmyfate;andifHeheapedafflictionsuponmeHehadnotgivenmestrengthtosupport,Hisjusticewouldnotthereforepunishme。ToHim,theJudgeofthequickanddead,Icommittedmysoul,seizedthebrokenknife,gashedthroughtheveinsofmyleftarmandfoot,satmyselftranquillydown,andsawthebloodflow。
Nature,overpoweredfainted,andIknownothowlongIremained,slumbering,inthisstate。SuddenlyIheardmyownname,awoke,andagainheardthewords,"BaronTrenck!"Myanswerwas,"Whocalls?"
Andwhoindeedwasit——whobutmyhonestgrenadierGelfhardt——myformerfaithfulfriendinthecitadel!Thegood,thekindfellowhadgotupontherampart,thathemightcomfortme。
"Howdoyoudo?"saidGelfhardt。"Welteringinmyblood,"answeredI;"to—morrowyouwillfindmedead。"——"Whyshouldyoudie?"repliedhe。"Itismucheasierforyoutoescapeherethanfromthecitadel!Hereisnosentinel,andIshallsoonfindmeanstoprovideyouwithtools;ifyoucanonlybreakout,leavetheresttome。AsoftenasIamonguard,Iwillseekopportunitytospeaktoyou。InthewholeStar—Fort,therearebuttwosentinels:theoneattheentrance,andtheotherattheguard—house。Donotdespair;
Godwillsuccouryou;trusttome。"Thegoodman’skindnessanddiscourserevivedmyhopes:Isawthepossibilityofanescape。A
secretjoydiffuseditselfthroughmysoul。Iimmediatelytoremyshirt,boundupmywounds,andwaitedtheapproachofday;andthesunsoonaftershonethroughthewindow,tome,withunaccustomedbrightness。
Letthereaderjudgehowfaritwaschance,ortheeffectofDivineprovidence,thatinthisdreadfulhourmyheartagainreceivedhope。
WhowasitsentthehonestGelfhardt,atsuchamoment,tomyprison?For,haditnotbeenforhim,Ihadcertainly,whenIawokefrommyslumbers,cutmoreeffectuallythroughmyarteries。
TillnoonIhadtimetoconsiderwhatmightfurtherbedone:yetwhatcouldbedone,whatexpected,butthatIshouldnowbemuchmorecruellytreated,andevenmoreinsupportablyironedthanbefore——finding,astheymust,thedoorscutthroughandmyfettersshakenoff?
Aftermatureconsideration,Ithereforemadethefollowingresolution,whichsucceededhappily,andevenbeyondmyhopes。
BeforeIproceed,however,Iwillspeakafewwordsconcerningmysituationatthismoment。ItisimpossibletodescribehowmuchI
wasexhausted。Theprisonswamwithblood;andcertainlybutlittlewasleftinmybody。Withpainfulwounds,swelledandtornhands,I
therestoodshirtless,feltaninclinationtosleepalmostirresistible,andscarcelyhadstrengthtokeepmylegs,yetwasI
obligedtorousemyself,thatImightexecutemyplan。
Withthebarthatseparatedmyhands,Iloosenedthebricksofmyseat,which,beingnewlylaid,waseasilydone,andheapedthemupinthemiddleofmyprison。Theinnerdoorwasquiteopen,andwithmychainsIsobarricadedtheupperhalfofthesecondastopreventanyoneclimbingoverit。Whennooncameandthefirstofthedoorswasunlocked,allwereastonishedtofindthesecondopen。ThereI
stood,besmearedwithblood,thepictureofhorror,withabrickinonehand,andintheothermybrokenknife,crying,astheyapproached,"Keepoff,Mr。Major,keepoff!TellthegovernorI
willlivenolongerinchains,andthathereIstand,ifsohepleases,tobeshot;forsoonlywillIbeconquered。Herenomanshallenter——Iwilldestroyallthatapproach;herearemyweapons;
lucrewillIdieindespiteoftyranny。"Themajorwasterrified,wantedresolution,andmadehisreporttothegovernor。Imeantimesatdownonmybricks,towaitwhatmighthappen:mysecretintent,however,wasnotsodesperateasitappeared。Isoughtonlytoobtainafavourablecapitulation。
Thegovernor,GeneralBorck,presentlycame,attendedbythetown—
majorandsomeofficers,andenteredtheoutwardcell,butsprangbackthemomenthebeheldafigurelikeme,standingwithabrickandupliftedarm。IrepeatedwhatIhadtoldthemajor,andheimmediatelyorderedsixgrenadierstoforcethedoor。Thefrontcellwasscarcelysixfeetbroad,sothatnomorethantwoatatimecouldattackmyintrenchment,andwhentheysawmythreateningbricksreadytodescend,theyleapedterrifiedback。Ashortpauseensued,andtheoldtown—major,withthechaplain,advancedtowardsthedoortosootheme:theconversationcontinuedsometime:whosereasonsweremostsatisfactory,andwhosecausewasthemostjust,I
leavetothereader。Thegovernorgrewangry,andorderedafreshattack。Thefirstgrenadierwasknockeddown,andtherestranbacktoavoidmymissiles。
Thetown—majoragainbeganaparley。"ForGod’ssake,mydearTrenck,"saidhe,"inwhathaveIinjuredyou,thatyouendeavourtoeffectmyruin?Imustanswerforyourhaving,throughmynegligence,concealedaknife。Bepersuaded,Ientreatyou。Beappeased。Youarenotwithouthope,norwithoutfriends。"Myanswerwas——"Butwillyounotloadmewithheavierironsthanbefore?"
Hewentout,spokewiththegovernor,andgavemehiswordofhonourthattheaffairshouldbenofurthernoticed,andthateverythingshouldbeexactlyreinstatedasformerly。
Hereendedthecapitulation,andmywretchedcitadelwastaken。TheconditionIwasinwasviewedwithpity;mywoundswereexamined,asurgeonsenttodressthem,anothershirtwasgivenme,andthebricks,clottedwithblood,removed。I,meantime,layhalfdeadonmymattress;mythirstwasexcessive。Thesurgeonorderedmesomewine。Twosentinelswerestationedinthefrontcell,andIwasthusleftfourdaysinpeace,unironed。Brothalsowasgivenmedaily,andhowdeliciousthiswastotaste,howmuchitrevivedandstrengthenedme,iswhollyimpossibletodescribe。TwodaysIlayinaslumberingkindoftrance,forcedbyunquenchablethirsttodrinkwheneverIawoke。Myfeetandhandswereswelled;thepainsinmybackandlimbswereexcessive。
Onthefifthdaythedoorswereready;theinnerwasentirelyplatedwithiron,andIwasfetteredasbefore:perhapstheyfoundfurthercrueltyunnecessary。Theprincipalchain,however,whichfastenedmetothewall,likethatIhadbeforebroken,wasthickerthanthefirst。Exceptthis,thecapitulationwasstrictlykept。Theydeeplyregrettedthat,withouttheKing’sexpresscommands,theycouldnotlightenmyafflictions,wishedmefortitudeandpatience,andbarredupmydoors。
ItisnecessaryIshouldheredescribemydress。Myhandsbeingfixedandkeptasunderbyanironbar,andmyfeetchainedtothewall,Icouldneitherputonshirtnorstockingsintheusualmode;
theshirtwasthereforetied,andchangedonceafortnight;thecoarseammunitionstockingswerebuttonedonthesides;abluegarment,ofsoldier’scloth,waslikewisetiedroundme,andIhadapairofslippersformyfeet。Theshirtwasofthearmylinen;andwhenIcontemplatedmyselfinthisdressofamalefactor,chainedthustothewallinsuchadungeon,vainlyimploringmercyorjustice,myconsciencevoidofreproach,myheartofguilt——whenI
reflectedonmyformersplendourinBerlinandMoscow,andcompareditwiththissad,thisdreadfulreverseofdestiny,Iwassunkingrief,orrousedtoindignation,thatmighthavehurriedthegreatestheroorphilosophertomadnessordespair。Ifeltwhatcanonlybeimaginedbyhimwhohassufferedlikeme,afterhavinglikemeflourished,ifsuchcanbefound。