Ilivedwithmynewmasterandmistressthreeyears。Theyhadnochildren。AttheendofthatperiodMr。Norcrossdied。Hewassharpenoughtoforeseethathisyoungwidowwouldmarryagain,andhebequeathedhispropertysothatitallwenttoMrs。
Norcrossfirst,andthentoanychildrenshemighthavebyasecondmarriage,and,failingthat,torelationsandfriendsofhisown。Ididnotsufferbymymaster’sdeath,forhiswidowkeptmeinherservice。IhadattendedonMr。Norcrossallthroughhislastillness,andhadmademyselfusefulenoughtowinmymistress’sfavorandgratitude。Besidesmeshealsoretainedhermaidinherservice——aquadroonwomannamedJosephine,whomshebroughtwithherfromtheWestIndies。EvenatthattimeIdislikedthehalf—breed’swheedlingmanners,andhercruel,tawnyface,andwonderedhowmymistresscouldbesofondofherasshewas。TimeshowedthatIwasrightindistrustingthiswoman。IshallhavemuchmoretosayaboutherwhenIgetfurtheradvancedwithmystory。
MeanwhileIhavenexttorelatethatmymistressbrokeuptherestofherestablishment,and,takingmeandthelady’smaidwithher,wenttotravelontheContinent。
AmongotherwonderfulplaceswevisitedParis,Genoa,Venice,Florence,Rome,andNaples,stayinginsomeofthosecitiesformonthstogether。Thefameofmymistress’srichesfollowedherwherevershewent;andtherewereplentyofgentlemen,foreignersaswellasEnglishmen,whowereanxiousenoughtogetintohergoodgracesandtoprevailonhertomarrythem。Nobodysucceeded,however,inproducinganyverystrongorlastingimpressiononher;andwhenwecamebacktoEngland,aftermorethantwoyearsofabsence,Mrs。Norcrosswasstillawidow,andshowednosignsofwantingtochangehercondition。
WewenttothehouseontheYorkshireestatefirst;butmymistressdidnotfancysomeofthecompanyroundabout,sowemovedagaintoDarrockHall,andmadeexcursionsfromtimetotimeinthelakedistrict,somemilesoff。OnoneofthesetripsMrs。Norcrossmetwithsomeoldfriends,whointroducedhertoagentlemanoftheirpartybearingtheverycommonandveryuninterestingnameofMr。JamesSmith。
Hewasatall,fineyoungmanenough,withblackhair,whichgrewverylong,andthebiggest,bushiestpairofblackwhiskersI
eversaw。Altogetherhehadarakish,unsettledlook,andabounceablewayoftalkingwhichmadehimtheprominentpersonincompany。Hewaspoorenoughhimself,asIheardfromhisservant,butwellconnected——agentlemanbybirthandeducation,thoughhismannersweresofree。WhatmymistresssawtolikeinhimI
don’tknow;butwhensheaskedherfriendstostaywithheratDarrock,sheincludedMr。JamesSmithintheinvitation。Wehadafine,gay,noisytimeofitattheHall,thestrangegentleman,inparticular,makinghimselfasmuchathomeasiftheplacebelongedtohim。IwassurprisedatMrs。Norcrossputtingupwithhimasshedid,butIwasfairlythunderstrucksomemonthsafterwardwhenIheardthatsheandherfree—and—easyvisitorwereactuallygoingtobemarried!Shehadrefusedoffersbydozensabroad,fromhigher,andricher,andbetter—behavedmen。
Itseemednexttoimpossiblethatshecouldseriouslythinkofthrowingherselfawayuponsuchahare—brained,headlong,pennilessyounggentlemanasMr。JamesSmith。
Married,nevertheless,theywere,induecourseoftime;and,afterspendingthehoneymoonabroad,theycamebacktoDarrockHall。
Isoonfoundthatmynewmasterhadaveryvariabletemper。Thereweresomedayswhenhewasaseasy,andfamiliar,andpleasantwithhisservantsasanygentlemanneedbe。Atothertimessomedevilwithinhimseemedtogetpossessionofhiswholenature。Heflewintoviolentpassions,andtookwrongideasintohishead,whichnoreasoningorremonstrancecouldremove。Itratheramazedme,consideringhowgayhewasinhistastes,andhowrestlesshishabitswere,thatheshouldconsenttoliveatsuchaquiet,dullplaceasDarrock。Thereasonforthis,however,sooncameout。Mr。JamesSmithwasnotmuchofasportsman;hecarednothingforindooramusements,suchasreading,music,andsoforth;andhehadnoambitionforrepresentingthecountyinparliament。Theonepursuitthathewasreallyfondofwasyachting。Darrockwaswithinsixteenmilesofasea—porttown,withanexcellentharbor,andtothisaccidentofpositiontheHallwasentirelyindebtedforrecommendingitselfasaplaceofresidencetoMr。JamesSmith。
Hehadsuchanuntiringenjoymentanddelightincruisingaboutatsea,andallhisideasofpleasureseemedtobesocloselyconnectedwithhisremembranceofthesailingtripshehadtakenonboarddifferentyachtsbelongingtohisfriends,thatIverilybelievehischiefobjectinmarryingmymistresswastogetthecommandofmoneyenoughtokeepavesselforhimself。Bethatasitmay,itiscertainthatheprevailedonher,sometimeaftertheirmarriage,tomakehimapresentofafineschooneryacht,whichwasbroughtroundfromCowestoourcoast—town,andkeptalwayswaitingreadyforhimintheharbor。
Hiswiferequiredsomelittlepersuasionbeforeshecouldmakeuphermindtolethimhavethevessel。Shesufferedsomuchfromsea—sicknessthatpleasure—sailingwasoutofthequestionforher;and,beingveryfondofherhusband,shewasnaturallyunwillingthatheshouldengageinanamusementwhichtookhimawayfromher。However,Mr。JamesSmithusedhisinfluenceoverhercleverly,promisingthathewouldnevergoawaywithoutfirstaskingherleave,andengagingthathistermsofabsenceatseashouldneverlastformorethanaweekortendaysatatime。Accordingly,mymistress,whowasthekindestandmostunselfishwomanintheworld,putherownfeelingsaside,andmadeherhusbandhappyinthepossessionofavesselofhisown。
Whilemymasterwasawaycruising,mymistresshadadulltimeofitattheHall。Thefewgentlefolkstherewereinourpartofthecountylivedatadistance,andcouldonlycometoDarrockwhentheywereaskedtostaythereforsomedaystogether。Asforthevillagenearus,therewasbutonepersonlivinginitwhommymistresscouldthinkofaskingtotheHall,andthatpersonwastheclergymanwhodiddutyatthechurch。
Thisgentleman’snamewasMr。Meeke。Hewasasingleman,veryyoung,andverylonelyinhisposition。Hehadamild,melancholy,pasty—lookingface,andwasasshyandsoft—spokenasalittlegirl——altogether,whatonemaycall,withoutbeingunjustorsevere,apoor,weakcreature,and,outofallsight,theveryworstpreacherIeversatunderinmylife。Theonethinghedid,which,asIheard,hecouldreallydowell,wasplayingonthefiddle。Hewasuncommonlyfondofmusic——somuchsothatheoftentookhisinstrumentoutwithhimwhenhewentforawalk。Thistasteofhiswashisgreatrecommendationtomymistress,whowasawonderfullyfineplayeronthepiano,andwhowasdelightedtogetsuchaperformerasMr。Meeketoplayduetswithher。Besideslikinghissocietyforthisreason,shefeltforhiminhislonelyposition;naturallyenough,Ithink,consideringhowoftenshewasleftinsolitudeherself。Mr。
Meeke,onhisside,whenhegotoverhisfirstshyness,wasonlytoogladtoleavehislonesomelittleparsonageforthefinemusic—roomattheHall,andforthecompanyofahandsome,kind—heartedlady,whomademuchofhim,andadmiredhisfiddle—playingwithallherheart。Thusithappenedthat,whenevermymasterwasawayatsea,mymistressandMr。Meekewerealwaystogether,playingduetsasiftheyhadtheirlivingtogetbyit。Amoreharmlessconnectionthantheconnectionbetweenthosetwoneverexistedinthisworld;andyet,innocentasitwas,itturnedouttobethefirstcauseofallthemisfortunesthatafterwardhappened。
Mymaster’streatmentofMr。Meekewas,fromthefirst,theveryoppositeofmymistress’s。Therestless,rackety,bounceableMr。
JamesSmithfeltacontemptfortheweak,womanish,fiddlinglittleparson,and,whatwasmore,didnotcaretoconcealit。
Forthisreason,Mr。Meeke(whowasdreadfullyfrightenedbymymaster’sviolentlanguageandroughways)veryseldomvisitedattheHallexceptwhenmymistresswasalonethere。Meaningnowrong,andthereforestoopingtonoconcealment,sheneverthoughtoftakinganymeasurestokeepMr。Meekeoutofthewaywhenhehappenedtobewithheratthetimeofherhusband’scominghome,whetheritwasonlyfromaridingexcursionintheneighborhoodorfromacruiseintheschooner。Inthiswayitsoturnedoutthatwhenevermymastercamehome,afteralongorshortabsence,inninecasesoutoftenhefoundtheparsonattheHall。
Atfirstheusedtolaughatthiscircumstance,andtoamusehimselfwithsomecoarsejokesattheexpenseofhiswifeandhercompanion。But,afterawhile,hisvariabletemperchanged,asusual。Hegrewsulky,rude,angry,and,atlast,downrightjealousofMr。Meeke。Thoughtooproudtoconfessitinsomanywords,hestillshowedthestateofhismindclearlyenoughtomymistresstoexciteherindignation。Shewasawomanwhocouldbeledanywherebyanyoneforwhomshehadaregard,buttherewasafirmspiritwithinherthatroseattheslightestshowofinjusticeoroppression,andthatresentedtyrannicalusageofanysortperhapsalittletoowarmly。Thebaresuspicionthatherhusbandcouldfeelanydistrustofhersetherallinaflame,andshetookthemostunfortunate,andyet,atthesametime,themostnaturalwayforawoman,ofresentingit。TheruderherhusbandwastoMr。Meekethemorekindlyshebehavedtohim。Thisledtoseriousdisputesanddissensions,andthence,intime,toaviolentquarrel。Icouldnotavoidhearingthelastpartofthealtercationbetweenthem,forittookplaceinthegarden—walk,outsidethedining—roomwindow,whileIwasoccupiedinlayingthetableforlunch。
Withoutrepeatingtheirwords——whichIhavenorighttodo,havingheardbyaccidentwhatIhadnobusinesstohear——Imaysaygenerally,toshowhowseriousthequarrelwas,thatmymistresschargedmymasterwithhavingmarriedfrommercenarymotives,withkeepingoutofhercompanyasmuchashecould,andwithinsultingherbyasuspicionwhichitwouldbehardevertoforgive,andimpossibleevertoforget。Herepliedbyviolentlanguagedirectedagainstherself,andbycommandinghernevertoopenthedoorsagaintoMr。Meeke;she,onherside,declaringthatshewouldneverconsenttoinsultaclergymanandagentlemaninordertosatisfythewhimofatyrannicalhusband。
Uponthat,hecalledout,withagreatoath,tohavehishorsesaddleddirectly,declaringthathewouldnotstopanotherinstantunderthesameroofwithawomanwhohadsethimatdefiance,andwarninghiswifethathewouldcomeback,ifMr。
Meekeenteredthehouseagain,andhorsewhiphim,inspiteofhisblackcoat,allthroughthevillage。
Withthosewordshelefther,androdeawaytothesea—portwherehisyachtwaslying。Mymistresskeptupherspirittillhewasoutofsight,andthenburstintoadreadfulscreamingpassionoftears,whichendedbyleavinghersoweakthatshehadtobecarriedtoherbedlikeawomanwhowasatthepointofdeath。
Thesameeveningmymaster’shorsewasriddenbackbyamessenger,whobroughtascrapofnotepaperwithhimaddressedtome。Itonlycontainedtheselines:
"Packupmyclothesanddeliverthemimmediatelytothebearer。
YoumaytellyourmistressthatIsailto—nightateleveno’clockforacruisetoSweden。Forwardmyletterstothepost—office,Stockholm。"
Iobeyedtheordersgiventomeexceptthatrelatingtomymistress。Thedoctorhadbeensentfor,andwasstillinthehouse。Iconsultedhimupontheproprietyofmydeliveringthemessage。Hepositivelyforbademetodosothatnight,andtoldmetogivehimtheslipofpaper,andleaveittohisdiscretiontoshowittoherornotthenextmorning。
ThemessengerhadhardlybeengoneanhourwhenMr。Meeke’shousekeepercametotheHallwitharollofmusicformymistress。Itoldthewomanofmymaster’ssuddendeparture,andofthedoctorbeinginthehouse。ThisnewsbroughtMr。MeekehimselftotheHallinagreatflutter。
Ifeltsoangrywithhimforbeingthecause——innocentashemightbe——oftheshockingscenewhichhadtakenplace,thatI
exceededtheboundsofmyduty,andtoldhimthewholetruth。Thepoor,weak,wavering,childishcreatureflushedupredintheface,thenturnedaspaleasashes,anddroppedintooneofthehallchairscrying——literallycryingfittobreakhisheart。"Oh,William,"sayshe,wringinghislittlefrail,tremblingwhitehandsashelplessasababy,"oh,William,whatamItodo?"
"Asyouaskmethatquestion,sir,"saysI,"youwillexcuseme,Ihope,if,beingaservant,Iplainlyspeakmymindnotwithstanding。Iknowmystationwellenoughtobeawarethat,strictlyspeaking,Ihavedonewrong,andfarexceededmyduty,intellingyouasmuchasIhavetoldyoualready;butIwouldgothroughfireandwater,sir,"saysI,feelingmyowneyesgettingmoist,"formymistress’ssake。Shehasnorelationherewhocanspeaktoyou;anditisevenbetterthataservantlikemeshouldriskbeingguiltyofanimpertinence,thanthatdreadfulandlastingmischiefshouldarisefromtherightremedynotbeingappliedattherighttime。ThisiswhatIshoulddo,sir,inyourplace。Savingyourpresence,Ishouldleaveoffcrying;andgobackhomeandwritetoMr。JamesSmith,sayingthatIwouldnot,asaclergyman,givehimrailingforrailing,butwouldprovehowunworthilyhehadsuspectedmebyceasingtovisitattheHallfromthistimeforth,ratherthanbeacauseofdissensionbetweenmanandwife。Ifyouwillputthatintoproperlanguage,sir,andwillhavetheletterreadyformeinhalfanhour’stime,Iwillcallforitonthefastesthorseinourstables,and,atmyownrisk,willgiveittomymasterbeforehesailsto—night。Ihavenothingmoretosay,sir,excepttoaskyourpardonforforgettingmyproperplace,andformakingboldtospeakonaveryseriousmatterasequaltoequal,andasmantoman。"
TodoMr。Meekejustice,hehadaheart,thoughitwasaverysmallone。Heshookhandswithme,andsaidheacceptedmyadviceastheadviceofafriend,andsowentbacktohisparsonagetowritetheletter。InhalfanhourIcalledforitonhorseback,butitwasnotreadyforme。Mr。Meekewasridiculouslyniceabouthowheshouldexpresshimselfwhenhegotapenintohishand。Ifoundhimwithhisdesklitteredwithroughcopies,inaperfectagonyabouthowtoturnhisphrasesdelicatelyenoughinreferringtomymistress。Everyminutebeingprecious,IhurriedhimasmuchasIcould,withoutstandingonanyceremony。Ittookhalfanhourmore,withallmyefforts,beforehecouldmakeuphismindthattheletterwoulddo。Istartedoffwithitatagallop,andneverdrewreintillIgottothesea—porttown。
Theharbor—clockchimedthequarterpastelevenasIrodebyit,andwhenIgotdowntothejettytherewasnoyachttobeseen。
Shehadbeencastofffromhermooringstenminutesbeforeeleven,andastheclockstruckshehadsailedoutoftheharbor。
Iwouldhavefollowedinaboat,butitwasafinestarlightnight,withafreshwindblowing,andthesailorsonthepierlaughedatmewhenIspokeofrowingafteraschooneryachtwhichhadgotaquarterofanhour’sstartofus,withthewindabeamandthetideinherfavor。
Irodebackwithaheavyheart。AllIcoulddonowwastosendthelettertothepost—office,Stockholm。
Thenextdaythedoctorshowedmymistressthescrapofpaperwiththemessageonitfrommymaster,andanhourortwoafterthat,aletterwassenttoherinMr。Meeke’shandwriting,explainingthereasonwhyshemustnotexpecttoseehimattheHall,andreferringtomeintermsofhighpraiseasasensibleandfaithfulmanwhohadspokentherightwordattherighttime。
Iamabletorepeatthesubstanceoftheletter,becauseIheardallaboutitfrommymistress,underveryunpleasantcircumstancessofarasIwasconcerned。
Thenewsofmymaster’sdeparturedidnotaffectherasthedoctorhadsupposeditwould。Insteadofdistressingher,itrousedherspiritandmadeherangry;herpride,asIimagine,beingwoundedbythecontemptuousmannerinwhichherhusbandhadnotifiedhisintentionofsailingtoSwedenattheendofamessagetoaservantaboutpackinghisclothes。Findingherinthattemperofmind,theletterfromMr。Meekeonlyirritatedherthemore。Sheinsistedongettingup,andassoonasshewasdressedanddownstairs,sheventedherviolenthumoronme,reproachingmeforimpertinentinterferenceintheaffairsofmybetters,anddeclaringthatshehadalmostmadeuphermindtoturnmeoutofmyplaceforit。Ididnotdefendmyself,becauseIrespectedhersorrowsandtheirritationthatcamefromthem;
also,becauseIknewthenaturalkindnessofhernaturewellenoughtobeassuredthatshewouldmakeamendstomeforherharshnessthemomenthermindwascomposedagain。TheresultshowedthatIwasright。Thatsameeveningshesentformeandbeggedmetoforgiveandforgetthehastywordsshehadspokeninthemorningwithagraceandsweetnessthatwouldhavewontheheartofanymanwholistenedtoher。
Weekspassedafterthis,tillitwasmorethanamonthsincethedayofmymaster’sdeparture,andnoletterinhishandwritingcametoDarrockHall。
Mymistress,takingthistreatmentmoreangrilythansorrowfully,wenttoLondontoconsulthernearestrelations,wholivedthere。
Onleavinghomeshestoppedthecarriageattheparsonage,andwentin(asIthought,ratherdefiantly)tosaygood—bytoMr。
Meeke。Shehadansweredhisletter,andreceivedothersfromhim,andhadansweredthemlikewise。Shehadalso,ofcourse,seenhimeverySundayatchurch,andhadalwaysstoppedtospeaktohimaftertheservice;butthiswasthefirstoccasiononwhichshehadvisitedhimathishouse。Asthecarriagestopped,thelittleparsoncameout,ingreathurryandagitation,tomeetheratthegardengate。
"Don’tlookalarmed,Mr。Meeke,"saysmymistress,gettingout。
"ThoughyouhaveengagednottocomeneartheHall,Ihavemadenopromisetokeepawayfromtheparsonage。"Withthosewordsshewentintothehouse。
Thequadroonmaid,Josephine,wassittingwithmeintherumbleofthecarriage,andIsawasmileonhertawnyfaceastheparsonandhisvisitorwentintothehousetogether。HarmlessasMr。Meekewas,andinnocentofallwrongasIknewmymistresstobe,Iregrettedthatsheshouldbesorashastodespiseappearances,consideringthesituationshewasplacedin。Shehadalreadyexposedherselftobethoughtofdisrespectfullybyherownmaid,anditwashardtosaywhatworseconsequencesmightnothappenafterthat。
Halfanhourlaterwewereawayonourjourney。MymistressstayedinLondontwomonths。Throughoutallthatlongtimenoletterfrommymasterwasforwardedtoherfromthecountryhouse。
CHAPTERII。
WHENthetwomonthshadpassedwereturnedtoDarrockHall。
Nobodytherehadreceivedanynewsinourabsenceofthewhereaboutsofmymasterandhisyacht。
Sixmorewearyweekselapsed,andinthattimebutoneeventhappenedattheHalltovarythedismalmonotonyoftheliveswenowledinthesolitaryplace。OnemorningJosephinecamedownafterdressingmymistresswithherfacedownrightlividtolookat,exceptononecheck,wheretherewasamarkasredasburningfire。Iwasinthekitchenatthetime,andIaskedwhatwasthematter。
"Thematter!"saysshe,inhershrillvoiceandherhalf—foreignEnglish。"Useyourowneyes,ifyouplease,andlookatthischeekofmine。What!haveyoulivedsolongatimewithyourmistress,anddon’tyouknowthemarkofherhandyet?"
Iwasatalosstounderstandwhatshemeant,butshesoonexplainedherself。Mymistress,whosetemperhadbeensadlyalteredfortheworsebythetrialsandhumiliationsshehadgonethrough,hadgotupthatmorningmoreoutofhumorthanusual,and,inanswertohermaid’sinquiryastohowshehadpassedthenight,hadbeguntalkingaboutherweary,miserablelifeinanunusuallyfretfulanddesperateway。Josephine,intryingtocheerherspirits,hadventured,mostimproperly,onmakingalight,jestingreferencetoMr。Meeke,whichhadsoenragedmymistressthatsheturnedroundsharponthehalf—breedandgaveher——tousethecommonphrase——asmartboxontheear。Josephineconfessedthat,themomentaftershehaddonethis,herbettersenseappearedtotellherthatshehadtakenamostimproperwayofresentingunduefamiliarity。Shehadimmediatelyexpressedherregretforhavingforgottenherself,andhadprovedthesincerityofitbyagiftofhalfadozencambrichandkerchiefs,presentedasapeace—offeringonthespot。AfterthatIthoughtitimpossiblethatJosephinecouldbearanymaliceagainstamistresswhomshehadservedeversinceshehadbeenagirl,andIsaidasmuchtoherwhenshehaddonetellingmewhathadhappenedupstairs。
"I!Malice!"criesMissJosephine,inherhard,sharp,snappishway。"Andwhy,andwherefore,ifyouplease?Ifmymistresssmacksmycheekwithonehand,shegivesmehandkerchiefstowipeitwiththeother。Mygoodmistress,mykindmistress,myprettymistress!I,theservant,bearmaliceagainsther,themistress!
Ah!youbadman,eventothinkofsuchathing!Ah!fie,fie!I
amquiteashamedofyou!"
Shegavemeonelook——thewickedestlookIeversaw,andburstoutlaughing——theharshestlaughIeverheardfromawoman’slips。Turningawayfrommedirectlyafter,shesaidnomore,andneverreferredtothesubjectagainonanysubsequentoccasion。
Fromthattime,however,InoticedanalterationinMissJosephine;notinherwayofdoingherwork,forshewasjustassharpandcarefulaboutitasever,butinhermannersandhabits。Shegrewamazinglyquiet,andpassedalmostallherleisuretimealone。Icouldbringnochargeagainstherwhichauthorizedmetospeakawordofwarning;but,forallthat,I
couldnothelpfeelingthatifIhadbeeninmymistress’splace,Iwouldhavefollowedupthepresentofthecambrichandkerchiefsbypayingheramonth’swagesinadvance,andsendingherawayfromthehousethesameevening。
Withtheexceptionofthislittledomesticmatter,whichappearedtriflingenoughatthetime,hutwhichledtoveryseriousconsequencesafterward,nothinghappenedatalloutoftheordinarywayduringthesixwearyweekstowhichIhavereferred。
Atthebeginningoftheseventhweek,however,aneventoccurredatlast。
OnemorningthepostmanbroughtalettertotheHalladdressedtomymistress。Itookitupstairs,andlookedatthedirectionasI
putitonthesalver。Thehandwritingwasnotmymaster’s;wasnot,asitappearedtome,thehandwritingofanywell—educatedperson。Theoutsideoftheletterwasalsoverydirty,andthesealacommonoffice—sealoftheusuallattice—workpattern。
"Thismustbeabegging—letter,"IthoughttomyselfasIenteredthebreakfast—roomandadvancedwithittomymistress。
Sheheldupherhandbeforesheopeneditasasigntomethatshehadsomeordertogive,andthatIwasnottoleavetheroomtillIhadreceivedit。Thenshebrokethesealandbegantoreadtheletter。
Hereyeshadhardlybeenonitamomentbeforeherfaceturnedaspaleasdeath,andthepaperbegantotrembleinherfingers。Shereadontotheend,andsuddenlyturnedfrompaletoscarlet,startedoutofherchair,crumpledtheletterupviolentlyinherhand,andtookseveralturnsbackwardandforwardintheroom,withoutseemingtonoticemeasIstoodbythedoor。"Youvillain!youvillain!youvillain!"Iheardherwhispertoherselfmanytimesover,inaquick,hissing,fierceway。Thenshestopped,andsaidonasudden,"Canitbetrue?"Thenshelookedup,and,seeingmestandingatthedoor,startedasifI
hadbeenastranger,changedcoloragain,andtoldme,inastifledvoice,toleaveherandcomebackagaininhalfanhour。
Iobeyed,feelingcertainthatshemusthavereceivedsomeverybadnewsofherhusband,andwondering,anxiouslyenough,whatitmightbe。
WhenIreturnedtothebreakfast—roomherfacewasasmuchdiscomposedasever。Withoutspeakingawordshehandedmetwosealedletters:one,anotetobeleftforMr。Meekeattheparsonage;theother,alettermarked"Immediate,"andaddressedtohersolicitorinLondon,whowasalso,Ishouldadd,hernearestlivingrelative。
Ileftoneoftheselettersandpostedtheother。WhenIcamebackIheardthatmymistresshadtakentoherroom。Sheremainedthereforfourdays,keepinghernewsorrow,whateveritwas,strictlytoherself。OnthefifthdaythelawyerfromLondonarrivedattheHall。Mymistresswentdowntohiminthelibrary,andwasshutuptherewithhimfornearlytwohours。Attheendofthattimethebellrangforme。
"Sitdown,William,"saidmymistress,whenIcameintotheroom。
"IfeelsuchentireconfidenceinyourfidelityandattachmentthatIamabout,withthefullconcurrenceofthisgentleman,whoismynearestrelativeandmylegaladviser,toplaceaveryserioussecretinyourkeeping,andtoemployyourservicesonamatterwhichisasimportanttomeasamatteroflifeanddeath。"
Herpooreyeswereveryred,andherlipsquiveredasshespoketome。IwassostartledbywhatshehadsaidthatIhardlyknewwhichchairtositin。Shepointedtooneplacednearherselfatthetable,andseemedabouttospeaktomeagain,whenthelawyerinterfered。
"Letmeentreatyou,"hesaid,"nottoagitateyourselfunnecessarily。Iwillputthispersoninpossessionofthefacts,and,ifIomitanything,youshallstopmeandsetmeright。"
Mymistressleanedbackinherchairandcoveredherfacewithherhandkerchief。Thelawyerwaitedamoment,andthenaddressedhimselftome。
"Youarealreadyaware,"hesaid,"ofthecircumstancesunderwhichyourmasterleftthishouse,andyoualsoknow,Ihavenodoubt,thatnodirectnewsofhimhasreachedyourmistressuptothistime?"
IbowedtohimandsaidIknewofthecircumstancessofar。
"Doyouremember,"hewenton,"takingalettertoyourmistressfivedaysago?"
"Yes,sir,"Ireplied;"aletterwhichseemedtodistressandalarmherveryseriously。"
"Iwillreadyouthatletterbeforewesayanymore,"continuedthelawyer。"Iwarnyoubeforehandthatitcontainsaterriblechargeagainstyourmaster,which,however,isnotattestedbythewriter’ssignature。Ihavealreadytoldyourmistressthatshemustnotattachtoomuchimportancetoananonymousletter;
andInowtellyouthesamething。"
Sayingthat,hetookupaletterfromthetableandreaditaloud。Ihadacopyofitgiventomeafterward,whichIlookedatoftenenoughtofixthecontentsoftheletterinmymemory。I
cannowrepeatthem,Ithink,wordforword。
"MADAM——Icannotreconcileittomyconsciencetoleaveyouintotalignoranceofyourhusband’satrociousconducttowardyou。