"Aboutmymarriage?"
"Aboutyourmarriage。"
Shecontinuedtoconsiderhimbetweenhalf—drawnlids。"WhatcanIsaythatMrs。Leathhasnotalreadytoldyou?"
"Mrs。Leathhastoldmenothingwhateverbutthefact——andherpleasureinit。"
"Well;aren’tthosethetwoessentialpoints?"
"TheessentialpointstoYOU?Ishouldhavethought————"
"Oh,toYOU,Imeant,"sheputinkeenly。
Heflushedattheretort,butsteadiedhimselfandrejoined:
"Theessentialpointtomeis,ofcourse,thatyoushouldbedoingwhat’sreallybestforyou。"
Shesatsilent,withloweredlashes。AtlengthshestretchedoutherarmandtookupfromthetablealittlethreadbareChinesehand—screen。Sheturneditsebonystemonceortwicebetweenherfingers,andasshedidsoDarrowwaswhimsicallystruckbythewayinwhichtheirevanescentslightromancewassymbolizedbythefadinglinesonthefrailsilk。
"DoyouthinkmyengagementtoMr。Leathnotreallybestforme?"sheaskedatlength。
Darrow,beforeanswering,waitedlongenoughtogethiswordsintothetersestshape——notwithoutasense,ashedidso,ofhislikenesstothesurgeondeliberatelypoisinghislancetforacleanincision。"I’mnotsure,"hereplied,"ofitsbeingthebestthingforeitherofyou。"
Shetookthestrokesteadily,butafaintredsweptherfacelikethereflectionofablush。Shecontinuedtokeepherloweredeyesonthescreen。
"Fromwhosepointofviewdoyouspeak?"
"Naturally,thatofthepersonsmostconcerned。"
"FromOwen’s,then,ofcourse?Youdon’tthinkmeagoodmatchforhim?"
"Fromyours,firstofall。Idon’tthinkhimagoodmatchforyou。"
Hebroughttheansweroutabruptly,hiseyesonherface。
Ithadgrownextremelypale,butasthemeaningofhiswordsshapeditselfinhermindhesawacuriousinnerlightdawnthroughhersetlook。Sheliftedherlidsjustfarenoughforaveiledglanceathim,andasmileslippedthroughthemtohertremblinglips。Foramomentthechangemerelybewilderedhim;thenitpulledhimupwithasharpjerkofapprehension。
"Idon’tthinkhimagoodmatchforyou,"hestammered,gropingforthelostthreadofhiswords。
Shethrewavaguelookaboutthechillyrain—dimmedroom。
"Andyou’vebroughtmeheretotellmewhy?"
Thequestionrousedhimtothesensethattheirminuteswerenumbered,andthatifhedidnotimmediatelygettohispointtheremightbenootherchanceofmakingit。
"MychiefreasonisthatIbelievehe’stooyoungandinexperiencedtogiveyouthekindofsupportyouneed。"
Athiswordsherfacechangedagain,freezingtoatragiccoldness。Shestaredstraightaheadofher,perceptiblystrugglingwiththetremorofhermuscles;andwhenshehadcontrolleditsheflungoutapale—lippedpleasantry。"ButyouseeI’vealwayshadtosupportmyself!"
"He’saboy,"Darrowpushedon,"acharming,wonderfulboy;
butwithnomorenotionthanaboyhowtodealwiththeinevitabledailyproblems……thetrivialstupidunimportantthingsthatlifeischieflymadeupof。"
"I’lldealwiththemforhim,"sherejoined。
"They’llbemorethanordinarilydifficult。"
Sheshotachallengingglanceathim。"Youmusthavesomespecialreasonforsayingso。"
"Onlymyclearperceptionofthefacts。"
"Whatfactsdoyoumean?"
Darrowhesitated。"YoumustknowbetterthanI,"hereturnedatlength,"thatthewaywon’tbemadeeasytoyou。"
"Mrs。Leath,atanyrate,hasmadeitso。"
"MadamedeChantellewillnot。"
"HowdoYOUknowthat?"sheflungback。
Hepausedagain,notsurehowfaritwasprudenttorevealhimselfintheconfidenceofthehousehold。Then,toavoidinvolvingAnna,heanswered:"MadamedeChantellesentformeyesterday。"
"Sentforyou——totalktoyouaboutme?"Thecolourrosetoherforeheadandhereyesburnedblackunderloweredbrows。
"Bywhatright,Ishouldliketoknow?Whathaveyoutodowithme,orwithanythingintheworldthatconcernsme?"
Darrowinstantlyperceivedwhatdreadsuspicionagainpossessedher,andthesensethatitwasnotwhollyunjustifiedcausedhimapassingpangofshame。Butitdidnotturnhimfromhispurpose。
"I’manoldfriendofMrs。Leath’s。It’snotunnaturalthatMadamedeChantelleshouldtalktome。"
Shedroppedthescreenonthetableandstoodup,turningonhimthesamesmallmaskofwrathandscornwhichhadglaredathim,inParis,whenhehadconfessedtohissuppressionofherletter。Shewalkedawayasteportwoandthencameback。
"MayIaskwhatMadamedeChantellesaidtoyou?"
"Shemadeitclearthatsheshouldnotencouragethemarriage。"
"AndwhatwasherobjectinmakingthatcleartoYOU?"
Darrowhesitated。"Isupposeshethought————"
"ThatshecouldpersuadeyoutoturnMrs。Leathagainstme?"
Hewassilent,andshepressedhim:"Wasthatit?"
"Thatwasit。"
"Butifyoudon’t——ifyoukeepyourpromise————"
"Mypromise?"
"Tosaynothing……nothingwhatever……"Herstrainedlookthrewahaggardlightalongthepause。
Asshespoke,thewholeodiousnessofthescenerushedoverhim。"OfcourseIshallsaynothing……youknowthat……"Heleanedtoherandlaidhishandonhers。"YouknowI
wouldn’tfortheworld……"
Shedrewbackandhidherfacewithasob。Thenshesankagainintoherseat,stretchedherarmsacrossthetableandlaidherfaceuponthem。Hesatstill,overwhelmedwithcompunction。Afteralonginterval,inwhichhehadpainfullymeasuredthesecondsbyherhard—drawnbreathing,shelookedupathimwithafacewashedclearofbitterness。
"Don’tsupposeIdon’tknowwhatyoumusthavethoughtofme!"
Thecrystruckhimdowntoalowerdepthofself—abasement。
"Mypoorchild,"hefeltlikeanswering,"theshameofitisthatI’veneverthoughtofyouatall!"Buthecouldonlyuselesslyrepeat:"I’lldoanythingIcantohelpyou。"
Shesatsilent,drummingthetablewithherhand。Hesawthatherdoubtofhimwasallayed,andtheperceptionmadehimmoreashamed,asifhertrusthadfirstrevealedtohimhownearhehadcometonotdeservingit。Suddenlyshebegantospeak。
"Youthink,then,I’venorighttomarryhim?"
"Noright?Godforbid!Ionlymeant————"
"Thatyou’dratherIdidn’tmarryanyfriendofyours。"Shebroughtitoutdeliberately,notasaquestion,butasameredispassionatestatementoffact。
Darrowinturnstoodupandwanderedawayhelplesslytothewindow。Hestoodstaringoutthroughitssmalldiscolouredpanesatthedimbrowndistances;thenhemovedbacktothetable。
"I’lltellyouexactlywhatImeant。You’llbewretchedifyoumarryamanyou’renotinlovewith。"
Heknewtheriskofmisapprehensionthatheran,butheestimatedhischancesofsuccessaspreciselyinproportiontohisperil。Ifcertainsignsmeantwhathethoughttheydid,hemightyet——atwhatcosthewouldnotstoptothink——
makehispastpayforhisfuture。
Thegirl,athiswords,hadliftedherheadwithamovementofsurprise。Hereyesslowlyreachedhisfaceandrestedthereinagazeofdeepinterrogation。Heheldthelookforamoment;thenhisowneyesdroppedandhewaited。
Atlengthshebegantospeak。"You’remistaken——you’requitemistaken。"
Hewaitedamomentlonger。"Mistaken————?"
"Inthinkingwhatyouthink。I’mashappyasifIdeservedit!"shesuddenlyproclaimedwithalaugh。
Shestoodupandmovedtowardthedoor。"NOWareyousatisfied?"sheasked,turninghervividestfacetohimfromthethreshold。
XXI
Downtheavenuetherecametothem,withtheopeningofthedoor,thevoiceofOwen’smotor。Itwasthesignalwhichhadinterruptedtheirfirsttalk,andagain,instinctively,theydrewapartatthesound。WithoutawordDarrowturnedbackintotheroom,whileSophyVinerwentdownthestepsandwalkedbackalonetowardthecourt。
Atluncheonthepresenceofthesurgeon,andthenon—
appearanceofMadamedeChantelle——whohadexcusedherselfonthepleaofaheadache——combinedtoshifttheconversationalcentreofgravity;andDarrow,undershelterofthenecessarilyimpersonaltalk,hadtimetoadjusthisdisguiseandtoperceivethattheotherswereengagedinthesamere—arrangement。ItwasthefirsttimethathehadseenyoungLeathandSophyVinertogethersincehehadlearnedoftheirengagement;butneitherrevealedmoreemotionthanbefittedtheoccasion。ItwasevidentthatOwenwasdeeplyunderthegirl’scharm,andthatattheleastsignfromherhisblisswouldhavebrokenbounds;butherreticencewasjustifiedbythetacitlyrecognizedfactofMadamedeChantelle’sdisapproval。ThisalsovisiblyweighedonAnna’smind,makinghermannertoSophy,ifnolesskind,yetatriflemoreconstrainedthanifthemomentoffinalunderstandinghadbeenreached。SoDarrowinterpretedthetensionperceptibleunderthefluentexchangeofcommonplacesinwhichhewasdiligentlysharing。Buthewasmoreandmoreawareofhisinabilitytotestthemoralatmosphereabouthim:hewaslikeamaninfevertestinganother’stemperaturebythetouch。
AfterluncheonAnna,whowastomotorthesurgeonhome,suggestedtoDarrowthatheshouldaccompanythem。Effiewasalsooftheparty;andDarrowinferredthatAnnawishedtogiveherstep—sonachancetobealonewithhisbetrothed。
Onthewayback,afterthesurgeonhadbeenleftathisdoor,thelittlegirlsatbetweenhermotherandDarrow,andherpresencekepttheirtalkfromtakingapersonalturn。
DarrowknewthatMrs。LeathhadnotyettoldEffieoftherelationinwhichhewastostandtoher。TheprematuredivulgingofOwen’splanshadthrowntheirownintothebackground,andbycommonconsenttheycontinued,inthelittlegirl’spresence,ontermsofaninformalfriendliness。
Theskyhadclearedafterluncheon,andtoprolongtheirexcursiontheyreturnedbywayoftheivy—mantledruinwhichwastohavebeenthesceneoftheprojectedpicnic。Thiscircuitbroughtthembacktotheparkgatesnotlongbeforesunset,andasAnnawishedtostopatthelodgefornewsoftheinjuredchildDarrowlefthertherewithEffieandwalkedonalonetothehouse。Hehadtheimpressionthatshewasslightlysurprisedathisnotwaitingforher;buthisinnerrestlessnessventeditselfinanintensedesireforbodilymovement。Hewouldhavelikedtowalkhimselfintoastateoftorpor;totramponforhoursthroughthemoistwindsandthehealingdarknessandcomebackstaggeringwithfatigueandsleep。Buthehadnopretextforsuchaflight,andhefearedthat,atsuchamoment,hisprolongedabsencemightseemsingulartoAnna。
Asheapproachedthehouse,thethoughtofhernearnessproducedaswiftreactionofmood。Itwasasifanintenservisionofherhadscatteredhisperplexitieslikemorningmists。Atthismoment,wherevershewas,heknewhewassafelyshutawayinherthoughts,andtheknowledgemadeeveryotherfactdwindleawaytoashadow。Heandshelovedeachother,andtheirlovearchedoverthemopenandampleastheday:inallitssunlitspacestherewasnocrannyforafeartolurk。Inafewminuteshewouldbeinherpresenceandwouldreadhisreassuranceinhereyes。Andpresently,beforedinner,shewouldcontrivethattheyshouldhaveanhourbythemselvesinhersitting—room,andhewouldsitbythehearthandwatchherquietmovements,andthewaythebluishlustreonherhairpurpledalittleasshebentabovethefire。
Acarriagedroveoutofthecourtasheenteredit,andinthehallhisvisionwasdispelledbytheexceedinglysubstantialpresenceofaladyinawaterproofandatweedhat,whostoodfirmlyplantedinthecentreofapileofluggage,astowhichshewasgivinginvolvedbutluciddirectionstothefootmanwhohadjustadmittedher。ShewentonwiththesedirectionsregardlessofDarrow’sentrance,merelyfixinghersmallpaleeyesonhimwhilesheproceeded,inadeepcontraltovoice,andafluentFrenchpronouncedwiththepurestBostonaccent,tospecifythedestinationofherbags;andthisenabledDarrowtogiveherbackagazeprotractedenoughtotakeinallthedetailsofherplainthick—setperson,fromthesquaresallowfacebeneathbandsofgreyhairtothebluntboot—toesprotrudingunderherwidewalkingskirt。
Shesubmittedtothisscrutinywithnomoreevidenceofsurprisethanamonumentexaminedbyatourist;butwhenthefateofherluggagehadbeensettledsheturnedsuddenlytoDarrowand,droppinghereyesfromhisfacetohisfeet,askedintrenchantaccents:"Whatsortofbootshaveyougoton?"
Beforehecouldsummonhiswitstotheconsiderationofthisquestionshecontinuedinatoneofsuppressedindignation:
"UntilAmericansgetusedtothefactthatFranceisunderwaterforhalftheyearthey’reperpetuallyriskingtheirlivesbynotbeingproperlyprotected。Isupposeyou’vebeentrampingthroughallthisnastyclammymudasifyou’dbeentakingastrollonBostonCommon。"
Darrow,withalaugh,affirmedhispreviousexperienceofFrenchdampness,andthedegreetowhichhewasonhisguardagainstit;butthelady,withacontemptuoussnort,rejoined:"Youyoungmenareallalike————";towhichsheappended,afteranotherhardlookathim:"Isupposeyou’reGeorgeDarrow?Iusedtoknowoneofyourmother’scousins,whomarriedaTunstallofMountVernonStreet。MynameisAdelaidePainter。HaveyoubeeninBostonlately?No?I’msorryforthat。IheartherehavebeenseveralnewhousesbuiltatthelowerendofCommonwealthAvenueandIhopedyoucouldtellmeaboutthem。Ihaven’tbeenthereforthirtyyearsmyself。"
MissPainter’sarrivalatGivreproducedthesameeffectasthewind’shaulingaroundtothenorthafterdaysoflanguidweather。WhenDarrowjoinedthegroupaboutthetea—tableshehadalreadygivenatingletotheair。MadamedeChantellestillremainedinvisibleabovestairs;butDarrowhadtheimpressionthateventhroughherdrawncurtainsandbolteddoorsastimulatingwhiffmusthaveentered。
Annawasinherusualseatbehindthetea—tray,andSophyVinerpresentlyledinherpupil。Owenwasalsothere,seated,asusual,alittleapartfromtheothers,andfollowingMissPainter’smassivemovementsandequallysubstantialutteranceswithasmileofsecretintelligencewhichgaveDarrowtheideaofhishavingbeeninclandestineparleywiththeenemy。Darrowfurthertooknotethatthegirlandhersuitorperceptiblyavoidedeachother;butthismightbeanaturalresultofthetensionMissPainterhadbeensummonedtorelieve。
SophyVinerwouldevidentlypermitnorecognitionofthesituationsavethatwhichitlaywithMadamedeChantelletoaccord;butmeanwhileMissPainterhadproclaimedhertacitsenseofitbysummoningthegirltoaseatatherside。
Darrow,ashecontinuedtoobservethenewcomer,whowasperchedonherarm—chairlikeagraniteimageontheedgeofacliff,wasawarethat,inamoredetachedframeofmind,hewouldhavefoundanextremeinterestinstudyingandclassifyingMissPainter。Itwasnotthatshesaidanythingremarkable,orbetrayedanyofthoseunspokenperceptionswhichgivesignificancetothemostcommonplaceutterances。
Shetalkedofthelatenessofhertrain,ofanimpendingcrisisininternationalpolitics,ofthedifficultyofbuyingEnglishteainParisandoftheenormitiesofwhichFrenchservantswerecapable;andherviewsonthesesubjectswereenunciatedwithauniformityofemphasisimplyingcompleteunconsciousnessofanydifferenceintheirinterestandimportance。ShealwaysappliedtotheFrenchracethedistantepithetof"thosepeople",butshebetrayedanintimateacquaintancewithmanyofitsmembers,andanencyclopaedicknowledgeofthedomestichabits,financialdifficultiesandprivatecomplicationsofvariouspersonsofsocialimportance。Yet,assheevidentlyfeltnoincongruityinherattitude,sosherevealednodesiretoparadeherfamiliaritywiththefashionable,orindeedanysenseofitasafacttobeparaded。ItwasevidentthatthetitledladieswhomshespokeofasMimiorSimoneorOdettewereasmuch"thosepeople"toherasthebonnewhotamperedwithherteaandsteamedthestampsoffherletters("when,byamiracle,Idon’tputthemintheboxmyself。")Herwholeattitudewasofavastgrimtoleranceofthings—as—they—came,asthoughshehadbeensomewonderfulautomaticmachinewhichrecordedfactsbuthadnotyetbeenperfectedtothepointofsortingorlabellingthem。
Allthis,asDarrowwasaware,stillfellshortofaccountingfortheinfluencesheobviouslyexertedonthepersonsincontactwithher。Itbroughtaslightrelieftohisstateoftensiontogoonwondering,whilehewatchedandlistened,justwherethemysterylurked。Perhaps,afterall,itwasinthefactofherblankinsensibility,aninsensibilitysodevoidofegotismthatithadnohardnessandnogrimaces,butratherthefreshnessofasimplermentalstate。Afterliving,ashehad,astheyallhad,forthelastfewdays,inanatmosphereperpetuallytremulouswithechoesandimplications,itwasrestfulandfortifyingmerelytowalkintothebigblankareaofMissPainter’smind,sovacuousforallitsaccumulateditems,soecholessforallitsvacuity。
HishopeofawordwithAnnabeforedinnerwasdispelledbyherrisingtotakeMissPainteruptoMadamedeChantelle;
andhewanderedawaytohisownroom,leavingOwenandMissVinerengagedinworkingoutapicture—puzzleforEffie。
MadamedeChantelle——possiblyastheresultofherfriend’sministrations——wasabletoappearatthedinner—table,ratherpaleandpink—nosed,andcastingtenderlyreproachfulglancesathergrandson,whofacedthemwithimperviousserenity;andthesituationwasrelievedbythefactthatMissViner,asusual,hadremainedintheschool—roomwithherpupil。
Darrowconjecturedthattherealclashofarmswouldnottakeplacetillthemorrow;andwishingtoleavethefieldopentothecontestantshesetoutearlyonasolitarywalk。
Itwasnearlyluncheon—timewhenhereturnedfromitandcameuponAnnajustemergingfromthehouse。Shehadonherhatandjacketandwasapparentlycomingforthtoseekhim,forshesaidatonce:"MadamedeChantellewantsyoutogouptoher。"
"Togouptoher?Now?"
"That’sthemessageshesent。Sheappearstorelyonyoutodosomething。"Sheaddedwithasmile:"Whateveritis,let’shaveitover!"
Darrow,throughhisrisingsenseofapprehension,wonderedwhy,insteadofmerelygoingforawalk,hehadnotjumpedintothefirsttrainandgotoutofthewaytillOwen’saffairswerefinallysettled。
"ButwhatinthenameofgoodnesscanIdo?"heprotested,followingAnnabackintothehall。
"Idon’tknow。ButOwenseemssotorelyonyou,too————"
"Owen!IsHEtobethere?"
"No。ButyouknowItoldhimhecouldcountonyou。"
"ButI’vesaidtoyourmother—in—lawallIcould。"
"Well,thenyoucanonlyrepeatit。"
ThisdidnotseemtoDarrowtosimplifyhiscaseasmuchassheappearedtothink;andoncemorehehadamovementofrecoil。"There’snopossiblereasonformybeingmixedupinthisaffair!"
Annagavehimareproachfulglance。"NotthefactthatIam?"sheremindedhim;buteventhisonlystiffenedhisresistance。
"Whyshouldyoube,either——tothisextent?"
Thequestionmadeherpause。Sheglancedaboutthehall,asiftobesuretheyhadittothemselves;andthen,inaloweredvoice:"Idon’tknow,"shesuddenlyconfessed;"but,somehow,ifTHEY’REnothappyIfeelasifweshouldn’tbe。"
"Oh,well——"Darrowacquiesced,inthetoneofthemanwhoperforceyieldstosolovelyanunreasonableness。Escapewas,afterall,impossible,andhecouldonlyresignhimselftobeingledtoMadamedeChantelle’sdoor。
Within,amongthebric—a—bracandfurbelows,hefoundMissPainterseatedinaredundantpurplearmchairwiththeincongruousairofahorsemanbestridingaheavymount。
MadamedeChantellesatopposite,stillalittlewananddisorderedunderherelaboratehair,andclaspingthehandkerchiefwhosevisibilitysymbolizedherdistress。Ontheyoungman’sentranceshesighedoutaplaintivewelcome,towhichsheimmediatelyappended:"Mr。Darrow,Ican’thelpfeelingthatatheartyou’rewithme!"
ThedirectnessofthechallengemadeiteasierforDarrowtoprotest,andhereiteratedhisinabilitytogiveanopiniononeitherside。
"ButAnnadeclaresyouhave——onhers!"
Hecouldnotrestrainasmileatthisfaintflawinanimpartialitysoscrupulous。EveryevidenceoffeminineinconsequenceinAnnaseemedtoattestherdeepersubjectiontothemostinconsequentofpassions。Hehadcertainlypromisedherhishelp——butbeforeheknewwhathewaspromising。
HemetMadamedeChantelle’sappealbyreplying:"IftherewereanythingIcouldpossiblysayIshouldwantittobeinMissViner’sfavour。"
"You’dwantittobe——yes!Butcouldyoumakeitso?"
"Asfarasfactsgo,Idon’tseehowIcanmakeiteitherfororagainsther。I’vealreadysaidthatIknownothingofherexceptthatshe’scharming。"
"Asifthatweren’tenough——weren’tallthereOUGHTtobe!"MissPainterputinimpatiently。SheseemedtoaddressherselftoDarrow,thoughhersmalleyeswerefixedonherfriend。
"MadamedeChantelleseemstoimagine,"shepursued,"thatayoungAmericangirloughttohaveadossier——apolice—
record,orwhateveryoucallit:whatthoseawfulwomeninthestreetshavehere。Inourcountryit’senoughtoknowthatayounggirl’spureandlovely:peopledon’timmediatelyaskhertoshowherbank—accountandhervisiting—list。"
MadamedeChantellelookedplaintivelyathersturdymonitress。"Youdon’texpectmenottoaskifshe’sgotafamily?"
"No;nortothinktheworseofherifshehasn’t。Thefactthatshe’sanorphanought,withyourideas,tobeamerit。
Youwon’thavetoinviteherfatherandmothertoGivre!"
"Adelaide——Adelaide!"themistressofGivrelamented。
"LucretiaMary,"theotherreturned——andDarrowsparedaninstant’samusementtothequaintincongruityofthename——
"youknowyousentforMr。Darrowtorefuteme;andhowcanhe,tillheknowswhatIthink?"
"Youthinkit’sperfectlysimpletoletOwenmarryagirlweknownothingabout?"
"No;butIdon’tthinkit’sperfectlysimpletopreventhim。"
TheshrewdnessoftheanswerincreasedDarrow’sinterestinMissPainter。Shehadnothithertostruckhimasbeingapersonofmuchpenetration,buthenowfeltsurethathergimletgazemightboretotheheartofanypracticalproblem。
MadamedeChantellesighedoutherrecognitionofthedifficulty。
"Ihaven’tawordtosayagainstMissViner;butshe’sknockedaboutso,asit’scalled,thatshemusthavebeenmixedupwithsomeratherdreadfulpeople。IfonlyOwencouldbemadetoseethat——ifonecouldgetatafewfacts,Imean。Shesays,forinstance,thatshehasasister;butitseemsshedoesn’tevenknowheraddress!"
"Ifshedoes,shemaynotwanttogiveittoyou。Idaresaythesister’soneofthedreadfulpeople。I’venodoubtthatwithalittletimeyoucouldrakeupdozensofthem:haveher’traced’,astheycallitindetectivestories。Idon’tthinkyou’dfrightenOwen,butyoumight:it’snaturalenoughheshouldhavebeencorruptedbythoseforeignideas。
Youmightevenmanagetoparthimfromthegirl;butyoucouldn’tkeephimfrombeinginlovewithher。IsawthatwhenIlookedthemoverlastevening。Isaidtomyself: