"Imean,becauseIunderstandbetterhowonecantortureone’sselfoverunrealities。"
AsDarrowlistened,thetensionofhisnervesbegantorelax。Hergaze,sograveandyetsosweet,waslikeadeeppoolintowhichhecouldplungeandhidehimselffromthehardglareofhismisery。Asthisecstaticsenseenvelopedhimhefounditmoreandmoredifficulttofollowherwordsandtoframeananswer;butwhatdidanythingmatter,exceptthathervoiceshouldgoon,andthesyllablesfalllikesofttouchesonhistorturedbrain?
"Don’tyouknow,"shecontinued,"theblissofwakingfromabaddreaminone’sownquietroom,andgoingslowlyoverallthehorrorwithoutbeingafraidofitanymore?That’swhatI’mdoingnow。Andthat’swhyIunderstandOwen……"Shebrokeoff,andhefelthertouchonhisarm。"BECAUSE
I’DDREAMEDTHEHORRORTOO!"
Heunderstoodherthen,andstammered:"You?"
"Forgiveme!Andletmetellyou!……ItwillhelpyoutounderstandOwen……ThereWERElittlethings……littlesigns……onceIhadbeguntowatchforthem:yourreluctancetospeakabouther……herreservewithyou……asortofconstraintwe’dneverseeninherbefore……"
Shelaughedupathim,andwithherhandsinhishecontrivedtosay:"NOWyouunderstandwhy?"
"Oh,Iunderstand;ofcourseIunderstand;andIwantyoutolaughatme——withme!Becausetherewereotherthingstoo……crazierthingsstill……Therewaseven——lastnightontheterrace——herpinkcloak……"
"Herpinkcloak?"Nowhehonestlywondered,andasshesawitsheblushed。
"You’veforgottenaboutthecloak?ThepinkcloakthatOwensawyouwithattheplayinParis?Yes……yes……Iwasmadenoughforthat!……Itdoesmegoodtolaughaboutitnow!
ButyououghttoknowthatI’mgoingtobeajealouswoman……aridiculouslyjealouswoman……yououghttobewarnedofitintime……"
Hehaddroppedherhands,andsheleanedcloseandliftedherarmstohisneckwithoneofherraregesturesofsurrender。
"Idon’tknowwhyitis;butitmakesmehappiernowtohavebeensofoolish!"
Herlipswerepartedinanoiselesslaughandthetremorofherlashesmadetheirshadowmoveonhercheek。Helookedatherthroughamistofpainandsawallherofferedbeautyhelduplikeacuptohislips;butashestoopedtoitadarknessseemedtofallbetweenthem,herarmsslippedfromhisshouldersandshedrewawayfromhimabruptly。
"ButsheWASwithyou,then?"sheexclaimed;andthen,ashestaredather:"Oh,don’tsayno!Onlygoandlookatyoureyes!"
Hestoodspeechless,andshepressedon:"Don’tdenyit——oh,don’tdenyit!Whatwillbeleftformetoimagineifyoudo?Don’tyouseehoweverysinglethingcriesitout?Owenseesit——hesawitagainjustnow!WhenItoldhimshe’drelented,andwouldseehim,hesaid:’IsthatDarrow’sdoingtoo?’"
Darrowtooktheonslaughtinsilence。Hemighthavespoken,havesummoneduptheusualphrasesofbanteranddenial;hewasnotevencertainthattheymightnot,forthemoment,haveservedtheirpurposeifhecouldhaveutteredthemwithoutbeingseen。ButhewasasconsciousofwhathadhappenedtohisfaceasifhehadobeyedAnna’sbiddingandlookedathimselfintheglass。Heknewhecouldnomorehidefromherwhatwaswrittentherethanhecouldeffacefromhissoulthefieryrecordofwhathehadjustlivedthrough。Therebeforehim,staringhimintheeyes,andreflectingitselfinallhislineaments,wastheoverwhelmingfactofSophyViner’spassionandoftheactbywhichshehadattestedit。
Annawastalkingagain,hurriedly,feverishly,andhissoulwaswrungbytheanguishinhervoice。"Dospeakatlast——
youmustspeak!Idon’twanttoaskyoutoharmthegirl;
butyoumustseethatyoursilenceisdoinghermoreharmthanyouransweringmyquestionscould。You’releavingmeonlytheworstthingstothinkofher……she’dseethatherselfifshewerehere。Whatworseinjurycanyoudoherthantomakemehateher——tomakemefeelshe’splottedwithyoutodeceiveus?"
"Oh,notthat!"Darrowheardhisownvoicebeforehewasawarethathemeanttospeak。"Yes;IdidseeherinParis,"hewentonafterapause;"butIwasboundtorespectherreasonfornotwantingitknown。"
Annapaled。"Itwassheatthetheatrethatnight?"
"Iwaswithheratthetheatreonenight。"
"Whyshouldshehaveaskedyounottosayso?"
"Shedidn’twishitknownthatI’dmether。"
"Whyshouldn’tshehavewisheditknown?"
"ShehadquarrelledwithMrs。MurrettandcomeoversuddenlytoParis,andshedidn’twanttheFarlowstohearofit。I
cameacrossherbyaccident,andsheaskedmenottospeakofhavingseenher。"
"Becauseofherquarrel?Becauseshewasashamedofherpartinit?"
"Oh,no。Therewasnothingforhertobeashamedof。ButtheFarlowshadfoundtheplaceforher,andshedidn’twantthemtoknowhowsuddenlyshe’dhadtoleave,andhowbadlyMrs。Murretthadbehaved。Shewasinaterribleplight——thewomanhadevenkeptbackhermonth’ssalary。SheknewtheFarlowswouldbeawfullyupset,andshewantedmoretimetopreparethem。"
Darrowheardhimselfspeakasthoughthewordshadproceededfromotherlips。Hisexplanationsoundedplausibleenough,andhehalf—fanciedAnna’slookgrewlighter。Shewaitedamoment,asthoughtobesurehehadnomoretoadd;thenshesaid:"ButtheFarlowsDIDknow;theytoldmeallaboutitwhentheysenthertome。"
Heflushedasifshehadlaidadeliberatetrapforhim。
"TheymayknowNOW;theydidn’tthen————"
"That’snoreasonforhercontinuingnowtomakeamysteryofhavingmetyou。"
"It’stheonlyreasonIcangiveyou。"
"ThenI’llgoandaskherforonemyself。"Sheturnedandtookafewstepstowardthedoor。
"Anna!"Hestartedtofollowher,andthencheckedhimself。
"Don’tdothat!"
"Whynot?"
"It’snotlikeyou……notgenerous……"
Shestoodbeforehimstraightandpale,butunderherrigidfacehesawthetumultofherdoubtandmisery。
"Idon’twanttobeungenerous;Idon’twanttopryintohersecrets。Butthingscan’tbeleftlikethis。Wouldn’titbebetterformetogotoher?Surelyshe’llunderstand——she’llexplain……Itmaybesomemeretrifleshe’sconcealing:
somethingthatwouldhorrifytheFarlows,butthatI
shouldn’tseeanyharmin……"Shepaused,hereyessearchinghisface。"Aloveaffair,Isuppose……that’sit?
Youmetherwithsomemanatthetheatre——andshewasfrightenedandbeggedyoutofibaboutit?Thosepooryoungthingsthathavetogoaboutamonguslikemachines——oh,ifyouknewhowIpitythem!"
"Ifyoupityher,whynotlethergo?"
Shestared。"Lethergo——goforgood,youmean?Isthatthebestyoucansayforher?"
"Letthingstaketheircourse。Afterall,it’sbetweenherselfandOwen。"
"Andyouandme——andEffie,ifOwenmarriesher,andIleavemychildwiththem!Don’tyouseetheimpossibilityofwhatyou’reasking?We’reallboundtogetherinthiscoil。"
Darrowturnedawaywithagroan。"Oh,lethergo——lethergo。"
"ThenthereISsomething——somethingreallybad?SheWASwithsomeonewhenyoumether?Someonewithwhomshewas————"Shebrokeoff,andhesawherstrugglingwithnewthoughts。"Ifit’sTHAT,ofcourse……Oh,don’tyousee,"shedesperatelyappealedtohim,"thatImustfindout,andthatit’stoolatenowforyounottospeak?Don’tbeafraidthatI’llbetrayyou……I’llnever,neverletasoulsuspect。ButImustknowthetruth,andsurelyit’sbestforherthatIshouldfinditoutfromyou。"
Darrowwaitedamoment;thenhesaidslowly:"Whatyouimagine’smeremadness。Shewasatthetheatrewithme。"
"Withyou?"Hesawatremorpassthroughher,butshecontrolleditinstantlyandfacedhimstraightandmotionlessasawoundedcreatureinthemomentbeforeitfeelsitswound。"Whyshouldyoubothhavemadeamysteryofthat?"
"I’vetoldyoutheideawasnotmine。"Hecastabout。"ShemayhavebeenafraidthatOwen————"
"Butthatwasnotareasonforheraskingyoutotellmethatyouhardlyknewher——thatyouhadn’tevenseenherforyears。"Shebrokeoffandthebloodrosetoherfaceandforehead。"EvenifSHEhadotherreasons,therecouldbeonlyonereasonforyourobeyingher————"
Silencefellbetweenthem,asilenceinwhichtheroomseemedtobecomesuddenlyresonantwithvoices。Darrow’sgazewanderedtothewindowandhenoticedthatthegaleoftwodaysbeforehadnearlystrippedthetopsofthelime—
treesinthecourt。Annahadmovedawayandwasrestingherelbowsagainstthemantel—piece,herheadinherhands。Asshestoodtherehetookinwithanewintensityofvisionlittledetailsofherappearancethathiseyeshadoftencherished:thebranchingblueveinsinthebacksofherhands,thewarmshadowthatherhaircastonherear,andthecolourofthehairitself,dullblackwithatawnyunder—surface,likethewingsofcertainbirds。Hefeltittobeuselesstospeak。
Afterawhilesheliftedherheadandsaid:"Ishallnotseeheragainbeforeshegoes。"
Hemadenoanswer,andturningtohimsheadded:"Thatiswhyshe’sgoing,Isuppose?Becauseshelovesyouandwon’tgiveyouup?"
Darrowwaited。Thepaltrinessofconventionaldenialwassoapparenttohimthatevenifitcouldhavedelayeddiscoveryhecouldnolongerhaveresortedtoit。Underallhisotherfearswasthedreadofdishonouringthehour。
"SheHASgivenmeup,"hesaidatlast。
XXVIII
WhenhehadgoneoutoftheroomAnnastoodwherehehadlefther。"Imustbelievehim!Imustbelievehim!"shesaid。
Amomentbefore,atthemomentwhenshehadliftedherarmstohisneck,shehadbeenwrappedinasenseofcompletesecurity。Allthespiritsofdoubthadbeenexorcised,andherlovewasoncemoretheclearhabitationinwhicheverythoughtandfeelingcouldmoveinblissfulfreedom。Andthen,assheraisedherfacetoDarrow’sandmethiseyes,shehadseemedtolookintotheveryruinsofhissoul。
Thatwastheonlywayshecouldexpressit。Itwasasthoughheandshehadbeenlookingattwosidesofthesamething,andthesideshehadseenhadbeenalllightandlife,andhisaplaceofgraves……
Shedidn’tnowrecallwhohadspokenfirst,oreven,veryclearly,whathadbeensaid。Itseemedtoheronlyamomentlaterthatshehadfoundherselfstandingattheotherendoftheroom——theroomwhichhadsuddenlygrownsosmallthat,evenwithitslengthbetweenthem,shefeltasifhetouchedher——cryingouttohim"ItISbecauseofyoushe’sgoing!"andreadingtheavowalinhisface。
Thatwashissecret,then,THEIRsecret:hehadmetthegirlinParisandhelpedherinherstraits——lenthermoney,Annavaguelyconjectured——andshehadfalleninlovewithhim,andonmeetinghimagainhadbeensuddenlyovermasteredbyherpassion。Anna,droppingbackintohersofa—corner,satstaringthesefactsintheface。
Thegirlhadbeeninadesperateplight——frightened,penniless,outragedbywhathadhappened,andnotknowing(withawomanlikeMrs。Murrett)whatfreshinjurymightimpend;andDarrow,meetingherinthisdistractedhour,hadpitied,counselled,beenkindtoher,withthefatal,theinevitableresult。TherewerethefactsasAnnamadethemout:that,atleast,wastheirexternalaspect,wasasmuchofthemasshehadbeensufferedtosee;andintothesecretintricaciestheymightcovershedarednotyetprojectherthoughts。
"Imustbelievehim……Imustbelievehim……"Shekeptonrepeatingthewordslikeatalisman。Itwasnatural,afterall,thatheshouldhavebehavedashehad:defendedthegirl’spiteoussecrettothelast。Shetoobegantofeelthecontagionofhispity——thestir,inherbreast,offeelingsdeeperandmorenativetoherthanthepainsofjealousy。
Fromthesecurityofherblessednessshelongedtoleanoverwithcompassionatehands……ButOwen?WhatwasOwen’sparttobe?Sheowedherselffirsttohim——shewasboundtoprotecthimnotonlyfromallknowledgeofthesecretshehadsurprised,butalso——andchiefly!——fromitsconsequences。
Yes:thegirlmustgo——therecouldbenodoubtofit——Darrowhimselfhadseenitfromthefirst;andatthethoughtshehadawildrevulsionofrelief,asthoughshehadbeentryingtocreateinherheartthedelusionofagenerosityshecouldnotfeel……
TheonefactonwhichshecouldstayhermindwasthatSophywasleavingimmediately;wouldbeoutofthehousewithinanhour。Onceshewasgone,itwouldbeeasiertobringOwentothepointofunderstandingthatthebreakwasfinal;ifnecessary,toworkuponthegirltomakehimseeit。Butthat,Annawassure,wouldnotbenecessary。ItwasclearthatSophyVinerwasleavingGivrewithnothoughtofeverseeingitagain……
Suddenly,asshetriedtoputsomeorderinherthoughts,sheheardOwen’scallatthedoor:"Mother!————"anameheseldomgaveher。Therewasanewnoteinhisvoice:thenoteofajoyousimpatience。Itmadeherturnhastilytotheglasstoseewhatfaceshewasabouttoshowhim;butbeforeshehadhadtimetocomposeithewasintheroomandshewascaughtinaschool—boyhug。
"It’sallright!It’sallright!Andit’sallyourdoing!I
wanttodotheworstkindofpenance——bellandcandleandtherest。I’vebeenthroughitwithHER,andnowshehandsmeontoyou,andyou’retocallmeanynamesyouplease。"Hefreedherwithhishappylaugh。"I’mtobestoodinthecornertillnextweek,andthenI’mtogouptoseeher。AndshesaysIoweitalltoyou!"
"Tome?"Itwasthefirstphraseshefoundtoclutchatasshetriedtosteadyherselfintheeddiesofhisjoy。
"Yes:youweresopatient,andsodeartoher;andyousawatoncewhatadamnedassI’dbeen!"Shetriedasmile,anditseemedtopassmusterwithhim,forhesentitbackinabroadbeam。"That’snotsodifficulttosee?No,Iadmititdoesn’ttakeamicroscope。Butyouweresowiseandwonderful——youalwaysare。I’vebeenmadtheselastdays,simplymad——youandshemightwellhavewashedyourhandsofme!Andinstead,it’sallright——allright!"
Shedrewbackalittle,tryingtokeepthesmileonherlipsandnotlethimgettheleastglimpseofwhatithid。Nowifever,indeed,itbehovedhertobewiseandwonderful!
"I’msoglad,dear;soglad。Ifonlyyou’llalwaysfeellikethataboutme……"Shestopped,hardlyknowingwhatshesaid,andaghastattheideathatherownhandsshouldhaveretiedtheknotsheimaginedtobebroken。Butshesawhehadsomethingmoretosay;somethinghardtogetout,butabsolutelynecessarytoexpress。Hecaughtherhands,pulledherclose,and,withhisforeheaddrawnintoitswhimsicalsmilingwrinkles,"Lookhere,"hecried,"ifDarrowwantstocallmeadamnedasstooyou’renottostophim!"
Itbroughtherbacktoasharpersenseofhercentralperil:
ofthesecrettobekeptfromhimatwhatevercosttoherrackednerves。
"Oh,youknow,hedoesn’talwayswaitfororders!"Onthewholeitsoundedbetterthanshe’dfeared。
"Youmeanhe’scalledmeonealready?"Heacceptedthefactwithhisgayestlaugh。"Well,thatsavesalotoftrouble;
nowwecanpasstotheorderoftheday————"hebrokeoffandglancedattheclock——"whichis,youknow,dear,thatshe’sstartinginaboutanhour;sheandAdelaidemustalreadybesnatchingahastysandwich。You’llcomedowntobidthemgood—bye?"
"Yes——ofcourse。"
Therehad,infact,grownuponherwhilehespoketheurgencyofseeingSophyVineragainbeforesheleft。Thethoughtwasdeeplydistasteful:Annashrankfromencounteringthegirltillshehadclearedawaythroughherownperplexities。Butitwasobviousthatsincetheyhadseparated,barelyanhourearlier,thesituationhadtakenanewshape。SophyVinerhadapparentlyreconsideredherdecisiontobreakamicablybutdefinitelywithOwen,andstoodagainintheirpath,amenaceandamystery;andconfusedimpulsesofresistancestirredinAnna’smind。
ShefeltOwen’stouchonherarm。"Areyoucoming?"
"Yes……yes……presently。"
"What’sthematter?Youlooksostrange。"
"Whatdoyoumeanbystrange?"
"Idon’tknow:startled——surprised"Shereadwhatherlookmustbebyitssuddenreflectioninhisface。
"DoI?Nowonder!You’vegivenusallanexcitingmorning。"
Heheldtohispoint。"You’remoreexcitednowthatthere’snocauseforit。WhatonearthhashappenedsinceIsawyou?"
Helookedabouttheroom,asifseekingthecluetoheragitation,andinherdreadofwhathemightguesssheanswered:"WhathashappenedissimplythatI’mrathertired。WillyouaskSophytocomeupandseemehere?"
Whileshewaitedshetriedtothinkwhatsheshouldsaywhenthegirlappeared;butshehadneverbeenmoreconsciousofherinabilitytodealwiththeobliqueandthetortuous。
Shehadlackedthehardteachingsofexperience,andaninstinctivedisdainforwhateverwaslessclearandopenthanherownconsciencehadkeptherfromlearninganythingoftheintricaciesandcontradictionsofotherhearts。Shesaidtoherself:"Imustfindout————"yeteverythinginherrecoiledfromthemeansbywhichshefeltitmustbedone……
SophyVinerappearedalmostimmediately,dressedfordeparture,herlittlebagonherarm。Shewasstillpaletothepointofhaggardness,butwithalightuponherthatstruckAnnawithsurprise。Orwasit,perhaps,thatshewaslookingatthegirlwithneweyes:seeingher,forthefirsttime,notasEffie’sgoverness,notasOwen’sbride,butastheembodimentofthatunknownperillurkinginthebackgroundofeverywoman’sthoughtsaboutherlover?Anna,atanyrate,withasuddensenseofestrangement,notedinhergracesandsnaresneverbeforeperceived。Itwasonlytheflashofaprimitiveinstinct,butitlastedlongenoughtomakeherashamedofthedarknessesitlitupinherheart……
ShesignedtoSophytositdownonthesofabesideher。"I
askedyoutocomeuptomebecauseIwantedtosaygood—byequietly,"sheexplained,feelingherlipstremble,buttryingtospeakinatoneoffriendlynaturalness。
Thegirl’sonlyanswerwasafaintsmileofacquiescence,andAnna,disconcertedbyhersilence,wenton:"You’vedecided,then,nottobreakyourengagement?"
SophyVinerraisedherheadwithalookofsurprise。
Evidentlythequestion,thusabruptlyput,musthavesoundedstrangelyonthelipsofsoardentapartisanasMrs。Leath!
"Ithoughtthatwaswhatyouwished,"shesaid。
"WhatIwished?"Anna’sheartshookagainstherside。"I
wish,ofcourse,whateverseemsbestforOwen……It’snatural,youmustunderstand,thatthatconsiderationshouldcomefirstwithme……"
Sophywaslookingathersteadily。"Isupposeditwastheonlyonethatcountedwithyou。"
ThecurtnessofretortrousedAnna’slatentantagonism。"Itis,"shesaid,inahardvoicethatstartledherassheheardit。Hadsheeverspokensotoanyonebefore?Shefeltfrightened,asthoughherverynaturehadchangedwithoutherknowingit……Feelingthegirl’sastonishedgazestillonher,shecontinued:"Thesuddennessofthechangehasnaturallysurprisedme。WhenIleftyouitwasunderstoodthatyouweretoreserveyourdecision————"
"Yes。"
"Andnow————?"Annawaitedforareplythatdidnotcome。
Shedidnotunderstandthegirl’sattitude,theedgeofironyinhershortsyllables,theplainlypremeditateddeterminationtolaytheburdenofproofonherinterlocutor。Annafeltthesuddenneedtolifttheirintercourseabovethismeanlevelofdefianceanddistrust。
ShelookedappealinglyatSophy。
"Isn’titbestthatweshouldspeakquitefrankly?It’sthischangeonyourpartthatperplexesme。Youcanhardlybesurprisedatthat。It’strue,IaskedyounottobreakwithOwentooabruptly——andIaskedit,believeme,asmuchforyoursakeasforhis:Iwantedyoutotaketimetothinkoverthedifficultythatseemstohavearisenbetweenyou。
Thefactthatyoufeltitrequiredthinkingoverseemedtoshowyouwouldn’ttakethefinalsteplightly——wouldn’t,I
mean,acceptofOwenmorethanyoucouldgivehim。ButyourchangeofmindobligesmetoaskthequestionIthoughtyouwouldhaveaskedyourself。Isthereanyreasonwhyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen?"
Shestoppedalittlebreathlessly,hereyesonSophyViner’sburningface。"Anyreason————?Whatdoyoumeanbyareason?"
Annacontinuedtolookathergravely。"Doyoulovesomeoneelse?"sheasked。
Sophy’sfirstlookwasoneofwonderandafaintrelief;
thenshegavebacktheother’sscrutinyinaglanceofindescribablereproach。"Ah,youmighthavewaited!"sheexclaimed。
"Waited?"
"TillI’dgone:tillIwasoutofthehouse。Youmighthaveknown……youmighthaveguessed……"SheturnedhereyesagainonAnna。"Ionlymeanttolethimhopealittlelonger,sothatheshouldn’tsuspectanything;ofcourseI
can’tmarryhim,"shesaid。
Annastoodmotionless,silencedbytheshockoftheavowal。
Shetoowastrembling,lesswithangerthanwithaconfusedcompassion。Butthefeelingwassoblentwithothers,lessgenerousandmoreobscure,thatshefoundnowordstoexpressit,andthetwowomenfacedeachotherwithoutspeaking。
"I’dbettergo,"Sophymurmuredatlengthwithloweredhead。
ThewordsrousedinAnnaalatentimpulseofcompunction。
Thegirllookedsoyoung,soexposedanddesolate!Andwhatthoughtsmustshebehidinginherheart!Itwasimpossiblethattheyshouldpartinsuchaspirit。
"Iwantyoutoknowthatnoonesaidanything……ItwasI
who……"
Sophylookedather。"YoumeanthatMr。Darrowdidn’ttellyou?Ofcoursenot:doyousupposeIthoughthedid?Youfounditout,that’sall——Iknewyouwould。InyourplaceI
shouldhaveguesseditsooner。"
Thewordswerespokensimply,withoutironyoremphasis;buttheywentthroughAnnalikeasword。Yes,thegirlwouldhavehaddivinations,promptingsthatshehadnothad!Shefelthalfenviousofsuchasadprecocityofwisdom。
"I’msosorry……sosorry……"shemurmured。
"Thingshappenthatway。NowI’dbettergo。I’dliketosaygood—byetoEffie。"
"Oh————"itbrokeinacryfromEffie’smother。"Notlikethis——youmustn’t!Ifeel——youmakemefeeltoohorribly:asifIweredrivingyouaway……"Thewordshadrushedupfromthedepthsofherbewilderedpity。
"Nooneisdrivingmeaway:Ihadtogo,"sheheardthegirlreply。
Therewasanothersilence,duringwhichpassionateimpulsesofmagnanimitywarredinAnnawithherdoubtsanddreads。
Atlength,hereyesonSophy’sface:"Yes,youmustgonow,"
shebegan;"butlateron……afterawhile,whenallthisisover……ifthere’snoreasonwhyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen————
"shepausedamomentonthewords——"Ishouldn’twantyoutothinkIstoodbetweenyou……"
"You?"Sophyflushedagain,andthengrewpale。Sheseemedtotrytospeak,butnowordscame。
"Yes!ItwasnottruewhenIsaidjustnowthatIwasthinkingonlyofOwen。I’msorry——oh,sosorry!——foryoutoo。Yourlife——Iknowhowhardit’sbeen;andmine……mine’ssofull……Happywomenunderstandbest!"Annadrewnearandtouchedthegirl’shand;thenshebeganagain,pouringallhersoulintothebrokenphrases:"It’sterriblenow……youseenofuture;butif,byandbye……youknowbest……butyou’resoyoung……andatyouragethingsDO
pass。Ifthere’snoreason,norealreason,whyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen,IWANThimtohope,I’llhelphimtohope……ifyousayso……"
WiththeurgencyofherpleadingherclasptightenedonSophy’shand,butitwarmedtonoresponsivetremor:thegirlseemednumb,andAnnawasfrightenedbythestonysilenceofherlook。"IsupposeI’mnotmorethanhalfawoman,"shemused,"forIdon’twantmyhappinesstohurther;"andaloudsherepeated:"Ifonlyyou’lltellmethere’snoreason————"
Thegirldidnotspeak;butsuddenly,likeasnappedbranch,shebent,stoopeddowntothehandthatclaspedher,andlaidherlipsuponitinastreamofweeping。Shecriedsilently,continuously,abundantly,asthoughAnna’stouchhadreleasedthewatersofsomedeepspringofpain;then,asAnna,movedandhalfafraid,leanedoverherwithasoundofpity,shestoodupandturnedaway。
"You’regoing,then——forgood——likethis?"Annamovedtowardherandstopped。Sophystoppedtoo,witheyesthatshrankfromher。