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TheverydaythatTraversandd’AlcacerhadcomeonboardtheEmmaHassimandImmadahaddepartedontheirmission;forLingard,ofcourse,couldnotthinkofleavingthewhitepeoplealonewithJorgenson。Jorgensonwasallright,buthisineradicablehabitofmutteringinhismoustacheabout"throwingalightedmatchamongstthepowderbarrels"hadinspiredLingardwithacertainamountofmistrust。And,moreover,hedidnotwanttogoawayfromMrs。Travers。
ItwastheonlycorrectinspirationonCarter’sparttosendJaffirwithhisreporttoLingard。Thatstout—heartedfighter,swimmer,anddevotedfolloweroftheprincelymisfortunesofHassimandImmada,hadlookeduponhismissiontocatchthechiefofficeroftheyacht(whichhehadreceivedfromLingardinCarimata)asatriflingjob。IttookhimalittlelongerthanheexpectedbuthehadgotbacktothebrigjustintimetobesentontoLingardwithCarter’sletterafteracoupleofhours’rest。
HehadthestoryofallthehappeningsfromWasubbeforeheleftandthoughhisfacepreserveditsgraveimpassivity,inhishearthedidnotlikeitatall。
Fearlessandwily,Jaffirwasthemanfordifficultmissionsandabornmessenger——asheexpressedithimself——"tobearweightywordsbetweengreatmen。"Withhisunfailingmemoryhewasabletoreproducethemexactly,whethersoftorhard,incouncilorinprivate;forheknewnofear。Withhimtherewasnoneedforwritingwhichmightfallintothehandsoftheenemy。Ifhediedonthewaythemessagewoulddiewithhim。Hehadalsothegiftofgettingatthesenseofanysituationandanobservanteye。Hewasdistinctlyoneofthosemenfromwhomtrustworthyinformationcanbeobtainedbytheleadersofgreatenterprises。Lingarddidputseveralquestionstohim,butinthisinstance,ofcourse,Jaffircouldhaveonlyverylittletosay。OfCarter,whomhecalledthe"youngone,"hesaidthathelookedaswhitemenlookwhentheyarepleasedwiththemselves;thenaddedwithoutwaitingforadefinitequestion——"Theshipsouttherearenowsafeenough,O,RajahLaut!"Therewasnoelationinhistone。
Lingardlookedathimblankly。WhentheGreatestofWhiteMenremarkedthattherewasyetapricetobepaidforthatsafety,Jaffirassentedbya"Yes,byAllah!"withoutlosingforamomenthisgrimcomposure。WhentoldthathewouldberequiredtogoandfindhismasterandtheladyImmadawhoweresomewhereinthebackcountry,inBelarab’stravellingcamp,hedeclaredhimselfreadytoproceedatonce。Hehadeatenhisfillandhadsleptthreehoursonboardthebrigandhewa(丁香书院小说)snottired。Whenhewasyoungheusedtogettiredsometimes;butformanyyearsnowhehadknownnosuchweakness。Hedidnotrequiretheboatwithpaddlersinwhichhehadcomeupintothelagoon。Hewouldgoaloneinasmallcanoe。Thiswasnotime,heremarked,forpublicityandostentation。Hispent—upanxietyburstthroughhislips。"Itisinmymind,Tuan,thatdeathhasnotbeensonearthemsincethatnightwhenyoucamesailinginablackcloudandtookusalloutofthestockade。"
LingardsaidnothingbuttherewasinJaffirafaithinthatwhitemanwhichwasnoteasilyshaken。
"Howareyougoingtosavethemthistime,ORajahLaut?"heasked,simply。
"Belarabismyfriend,"murmuredLingard。
InhisanxietyJaffirwasveryoutspoken。"Amanofpeace!"heexclaimedinalowtone。"Whocouldbesafewithamanlikethat?"heasked,contemptuously。
"Thereisnowar,"saidLingard"Thereissuspicion,dread,andrevenge,andtheangerofarmedmen,"retortedJaffir。"Youhavetakenthewhiteprisonersoutoftheirhandsbytheforceofyourwordsalone。Isthatso,Tuan?"
"Yes,"saidLingard。
"Andyouhavethemonboardhere?"askedJaffir,withaglanceoverhisshoulderatthewhiteandmistystructurewithinwhichbythelightofasmalloilflamed’AlcacerandMrs。Traverswerejustthenconversing。
"Yes,Ihavethemhere。"
"Then,RajahLaut,"whisperedJaffir,"youcanmakeallsafebygivingthemback。"
"CanIdothat?"werethewordsbreathedoutthroughLingard’slipstothefaithfulfollowerofHassimandImmada。
"Canyoudoanythingelse?"wasthewhisperedretortofJaffirthemessengeraccustomedtospeakfranklytothegreatoftheearth。"Youareawhitemanandyoucanhaveonlyoneword。AndnowIgo。"
Asmall,roughdug—outbelongingtotheEmmahadbeenbroughtroundtotheladder。Ashadowycalashhoveringrespectfullyinthedarknessofthedeckhadalreadyclearedhisthroattwiceinawarningmanner。
"Yes,Jaffir,go,"saidLingard,"andbemyfriend。"
"Iamthefriendofagreatprince,"saidtheother,sturdily。
"Butyou,RajahLaut,wereevengreater。Andgreatyouwillremainwhileyouarewithus,peopleofthisseaandofthisland。Butwhatbecomesofthestrengthofyourarmsbeforeyourownwhitepeople?Wheredoesitgoto,Isay?Well,then,wemusttrustinthestrengthofyourheart。"
"Ihopethatwillneverfail,"saidLingard,andJaffiremittedagruntofsatisfaction。"ButGodaloneseesintomen’shearts。"
"Yes。OurrefugeiswithAllah,"assentedJaffir,whohadacquiredthehabitofpiousturnsofspeechinthefrequentationofprofessedlyreligiousmen,ofwhomthereweremanyinBelarab’sstockade。Asamatteroffact,hereposedallhistrustinLingardwhohadwithhimtheprestigeofaprovidentialmansentatthehourofneedbyheavenitself。Hewaitedawhile,then:"WhatisthemessageIamtotake?"heasked。
"TellthewholetaletotheRajahHassim,"saidLingard。"Andtellhimtomakehiswayherewiththeladyhissistersecretlyandwithspeed。Thetimeofgreattroublehascome。Letus,atleast,betogether。"
"Right!Right!"Jaffirapproved,heartily。"Todiealoneundertheweightofone’senemiesisadreadfulfate。"
Hesteppedbackoutofthesheenofthelampbywhichtheyhadbeentalkingandmakinghiswaydownintothesmallcanoehetookupapaddleandwithoutasplashvanishedonthedarklagoon。
ItwasthenthatMrs。Traversandd’AlcacerheardLingardcallaloudforJorgenson。InstantlythefamiliarshadowstoodatLingard’selbowandlistenedindetachedsilence。Onlyattheendofthetaleitmarvelledaudibly:"Here’samessforyouifyoulike。"ButreallynothingintheworldcouldastonishorstartleoldJorgenson。Heturnedawaymutteringinhismoustache。LingardremainedwithhischininhishandandJaffir’slastwordstookgradualpossessionofhismind。ThenbrusquelyhepickedupthelampandwenttoseekMrs。Travers。Hewenttoseekherbecauseheactuallyneededherbodilypresence,thesoundofhervoice,thedark,clearglanceofhereyes。Shecoulddonothingforhim。
OnhiswayhebecameawarethatJorgensonhadturnedoutthefewMalaysonboardtheEmmaandwasdisposingthemaboutthedeckstowatchthelagooninalldirections。OncallingMrs。TraversoutoftheCageLingardwas,inthemidstofhismentalstruggle,consciousofacertainsatisfactionintakingherawayfromd’Alcacer。Hecouldn’tspareanyofherattentiontoanyotherman,nottheleastcrumbofhertime,nottheleastparticleofherthought!Heneededitall。Toseeitwithdrawnfromhimforthemerestinstantwasirritating——seemedadisaster。
D’Alcacer,leftalone,wonderedattheimperioustoneofLingard’scall。Tothisobserverofshadesthefactseemedconsiderable。"Sheernerves,"heconcluded,tohimself。"Themanisoverstrung。Hemusthavehadsomesortofshock。"Butwhatcoulditbe——hewonderedtohimself。Inthetensestagnationofthosedaysofwaitingtheslightesttremorhadanenormousimportance。D’Alcacerdidnotseekhiscampbedstead。Hedidn’tevensitdown。Withthepalmsofhishandsagainsttheedgeofthetableheleanedbackagainstit。InthatnegligentattitudehepreservedanalertmindwhichforamomentwonderedwhetherMrs。TravershadnotspoiledLingardalittle。Yetinthesuddennessoftheforcedassociation,where,too,d’Alcacerwassuretherewassomemoralprobleminthebackground,herecognizedtheextremedifficultyofweighingaccuratelytheimperiousdemandsagainstthenecessaryreservations,theexactproportionsofboldnessandcaution。Andd’AlcaceradmireduponthewholeMrs。Travers’cleverness。
Therecouldbenodoubtthatshehadthesituationinherhands。
That,ofcourse,didnotmeansafety。Shehaditinherhandsasonemayholdsomehighlyexplosiveanduncertaincompound。
D’Alcacerthoughtofherwithprofoundsympathyandwithaquiteunselfishinterest。Sometimesinastreetwecrossthepathofpersonalitiescompellingsympathyandwonderbutforallthatwedon’tfollowthemhome。D’AlcacerrefrainedfromfollowingMrs。
Traversanyfurther。HehadbecomesuddenlyawarethatMr。
Traverswassittinguponhiscampbedstead。Hemusthavedoneitverysuddenly。Onlyamomentbeforehehadappearedplungedinthedeepestslumber,andthestillnessforalongtimenowhadbeenperfectlyunbroken。D’AlcacerwasstartledenoughforanexclamationandMr。Traversturnedhisheadslowlyinhisdirection。D’Alcacerapproachedthebedsteadwithacertainreluctance。
"Awake?"hesaid。
"Asuddenchill,"saidMr。Travers。"ButIdon’tfeelcoldnow。
Strange!Ihadtheimpressionofanicyblast。"
"Ah!"saidd’Alcacer。
"Impossible,ofcourse!"wentonMr。Travers。"Thisstagnatingairnevermoves。Itclingsodiouslytoone。Whattimeisit?"
"Really,Idon’tknow。"
"Theglassofmywatchwassmashedonthatnightwhenweweresotreacherouslyassailedbythesavagesonthesandbank,"grumbledMr。Travers。
"ImustsayIwasneversosurprisedinmylife,"confessedd’Alcacer。"WehadstoppedandIwaslightingacigar,youmayremember。"
"No,"saidMr。Travers。"Ihadjustthenpulledoutmywatch。Ofcourseitflewoutofmyhandbutithungbythechain。Somebodytrampledonit。Thehandsarebrokenoffshort。ItkeepsontickingbutIcan’ttellthetime。It’sabsurd。Mostprovoking。"
"Doyoumeantosay,"askedd’Alcacer,"thatyouhavebeenwindingitupeveryevening?"
Mr。Traverslookedupfromhisbedsteadandhealsoseemedsurprised。"Why!IsupposeIhave。"Hekeptsilentforawhile。
"Itisn’tsomuchblindhabitasyoumaythink。Myhabitsaretheoutcomeofstrictmethod。Ihadtoordermylifemethodically。
Youknowverywell,mydeard’Alcacer,thatwithoutstrictmethodIwouldnothavebeenabletogetthroughmyworkandwouldhavehadnotimeatallforsocialduties,which,ofcourse,areofverygreatimportance。Imaysaythat,materially,methodhasbeenthefoundationofmysuccessinpubliclife。Therewereneveranyemptymomentsinmyday。Andnowthis!……"HelookedallroundtheCage……"Where’smywife?"heasked。
"Iwastalkingtoheronlyamomentago,"answeredd’Alcacer。"I
don’tknowthetime。Mywatchisonboardtheyacht;butitisn’tlate,youknow。"
Mr。Traversflungoffwithunwontedbrisknessthelightcottonsheetwhichcoveredhim。Hebuttonedhastilythetunicwhichhehadunfastenedbeforelyingdown,andjustasd’Alcacerwasexpectinghimtoswinghisfeettothedeckimpetuously,helaydownagainonthepillowandremainedperfectlystill。
D’AlcacerwaitedawhileandthenbegantopacetheCage。Afteracoupleofturnshestoppedandsaid,gently:
"Iamafraid,Travers,youarenotverywell。"
"Idon’tknowwhatillnessis,"answeredthevoicefromthepillowtothegreatreliefofd’Alcacerwhoreallyhadnotexpectedananswer。"Goodhealthisagreatassetinpubliclife。
Illnessmaymakeyoumissauniqueopportunity。Iwasneverill。"
Allthiscameoutdeadenedintone,asifthespeaker’sfacehadbeenburiedinthepillow。D’Alcacerresumedhispacing。
"IthinkIaskedyouwheremywifewas,"saidthemuffledvoice。
Withgreatpresenceofmindd’AlcacerkeptonpacingtheCageasifhehadnotheard。——"Youknow,Ithinksheismad,"wentonthemuffledvoice。"UnlessIam。"
Againd’Alcacermanagednottointerrupthisregularpacing。"DoyouknowwhatIthink?"hesaid,abruptly。"Ithink,Travers,thatyoudon’twanttotalkabouther。Ithinkthatyoudon’twanttotalkaboutanything。AndtotellyouthetruthIdon’twantto,either。"
D’Alcacercaughtafaintsighfromthepillowandatthesametimesawasmall,dimflameappearoutsidetheCage。Andstillhekeptonhispacing。Mrs。TraversandLingardcomingoutofthedeckhousestoppedjustoutsidethedoorandLingardstoodthedeck—lamponitsroof。Theyweretoofarfromd’Alcacertobeheard,buthecouldmakethemout:Mrs。Travers,asstraightasanarrow,andtheheavybulkofthemanwhofacedherwithaloweredhead。Hesawitinprofileagainstthelightandasifdeferentialinitsslightdroop。Theywerelookingstraightateachother。Neitherofthemmadetheslightestgesture。
"Thereisthatinme,"Lingardmurmured,deeply,"whichwouldsetmyheartharderthanastone。IamKingTom,RajahLaut,andfittolookanymanhereaboutsintheface。Ihavemynametotakecareof。Everythingrestsonthat。"
"Mr。d’Alcacerwouldexpressthisbysayingthateverythingrestedonhonour,"commentedMrs。Traverswithlipsthatdidnottremble,thoughfromtimetotimeshecouldfeeltheacceleratedbeatingofherheart。
"Callitwhatyoulike。It’ssomethingthatamanneedstodrawafreebreath。Andlook!——asyouseemestandingbeforeyouhereI
careforitnolonger。"
"ButIdocareforit,"retortedMrs。Travers。"Asyouseemestandinghere——Idocare。Thisissomethingthatisyourveryown。Youhavearighttoit。AndIrepeatIdocareforit。"
"Careforsomethingofmyown,"murmuredLingard,veryclosetoherface。"Whyshouldyoucareformyrights?"
"Because,"shesaid,holdinghergroundthoughtheirforeheadswerenearlytouching,"becauseifIevergetbacktomylifeI
don’twanttomakeitmoreabsurdbyrealremorse。"
HertonewassoftandLingardreceivedthebreathofthosewordslikeacaressonhisface。D’Alcacer,intheCage,madestillanotherefforttokeepuphispacing。Hedidn’twanttogiveMr。
Traverstheslightestexcuseforsittingupagainandlookinground。
"ThatIshouldlivetohearanybodysaytheycaredanythingforwhatwasmine!"whisperedLingard。"Andthatitshouldbeyou——you,whohavetakenallhardnessoutofme。"
"Idon’twantyourhearttobemadehard。Iwantittobemadefirm。"
"Youcouldn’thavesaidanythingbetterthanwhatyouhavesaidjustnowtomakeitsteady,"flowedthemurmurofLingard’svoicewithsomethingtenderinitsdepth。"Hasanybodyeverhadafriendlikethis?"heexclaimed,raisinghisheadasiftakingthestarrynighttowitness。
"AndIaskmyselfisitpossiblethatthereshouldbeanothermanonearththatIcouldtrustasItrustyou。Isaytoyou:Yes!Goandsavewhatyouhavearighttoanddon’tforgettobemerciful。Iwillnotremindyouofourperfectinnocence。Theearthmustbesmallindeedthatweshouldhaveblunderedlikethisintoyourlife。It’senoughtomakeonebelieveinfatality。
ButIcan’tfinditinmetobehavelikeafatalist,tositdownwithfoldedhands。HadyoubeenanotherkindofmanImighthavebeentoohopelessortoodisdainful。DoyouknowwhatMr。
d’Alcacercallsyou?"
InsidetheCaged’Alcacer,castingcuriousglancesintheirdirection,sawLingardshakehisheadandthoughtwithslightuneasiness:"Heisrefusinghersomething。"
"Mr。d’Alcacer’snameforyouisthe’ManofFate’,"saidMrs。
Travers,alittlebreathlessly。
"Amouthful。Nevermind,heisagentleman。It’swhatyou……"
"IcallyouallbutbyyourChristianname,"saidMrs。Travers,hastily。"Believeme,Mr。d’Alcacerunderstandsyou。"
"Heisallright,"interjectedLingard。
"Andheisinnocent。Irememberwhatyouhavesaid——thattheinnocentmusttaketheirchance。Well,then,dowhatisright。"
"Youthinkitwouldberight?Youbelieveit?Youfeelit?"
"Atthistime,inthisplace,fromamanlikeyou——Yes,itisright。"
Lingardthoughtthatwomanwonderfullytruetohimandwonderfullyfearlesswithherself。Thenecessitytotakebackthetwocaptivestothestockadewassoclearandunavoidablenow,thathebelievednothingonearthcouldhavestoppedhimfromdoingso,butwherewasthereanotherwomanintheworldwhowouldhavetakenitlikethis?Andhereflectedthatintruthandcouragethereisfoundwisdom。ItseemedtohimthattillMrs。
Traverscametostandbyhissidehehadneverknownwhattruthandcourageandwisdomwere。Withhiseyesonherfaceandhavingbeentoldthatinhereyesheappearedworthyofbeingbothcommandedandentreated,hefeltaninstantofcompletecontent,amomentof,asitwere,perfectemotionalrepose。
DuringthesilenceMrs。Traverswithaquicksideglancenoticedd’Alcacerasoneseesamaninamist,hismeredarkshapearrestedclosetothemuslinscreen。Shehadnodoubtthathewaslookingintheirdirectionandthathecouldseethemmuchmoreplainlythanshecouldseehim。Mrs。Traversthoughtsuddenlyhowanxioushemustbe;andsherememberedthathehadbeggedherforsomesign,forsomewarning,beforehand,atthemomentofcrisis。
Shehadunderstoodverywellhishintedrequestfortimetogetprepared。Ifhewastogetmorethanafewminutes,THISwasthemomenttomakehimasign——thesignhehadsuggestedhimself。
Mrs。Traversmovedbacktheleastbitsoastoletthelightfallinfrontofherandwithaslow,distinctmovementsheputherlefthandtoherforehead。
"Well,then,"sheheardLingard’sforciblemurmur,"well,then,Mrs。Travers,itmustbedoneto—night。"
Onemaybetrue,fearless,andwise,andyetcatchone’sbreathbeforethesimplefinalityofaction。Mrs。Traverscaughtherbreath:"To—night!To—night!"shewhispered。D’Alcacer’sdarkandmistysilhouettebecamemoreblurred。HehadseenhersignandhadretreateddeeperwithintheCage。
"Yes,to—night,"affirmedLingard。"Now,atonce,withinthehour,thismoment,"hemurmured,fiercely,followingMrs。Traversinherrecoilingmovement。Shefeltherarmbeingseizedswiftly。
"Don’tyouseethatifitistodoanygood,thatiftheyarenottobedeliveredtomereslaughter,itmustbedonewhileallisdarkashore,beforeanarmedmobinboatscomesclamouringalongside?Yes。Beforethenightisanhourolder,sothatImaybehammeringatBelarab’sgatewhilealltheSettlementisstillasleep。"
Mrs。Traversdidn’tdreamofprotesting。Forthemomentshewasunabletospeak。Thismanwasveryfierceandjustassuddenlyasithadbeengripped(makingherthinkincongruouslyinthemidstofheragitationthattherewouldbecertainlyabruisethereinthemorning)shefeltherarmreleasedandapenitentialtonecomeintoLingard’smurmuringvoice。
"Andevennowit’snearlytoolate!Theroadwasplain,butIsawyouonitandmyheartfailedme。IwastherelikeanemptymanandIdarednotfaceyou。Youmustforgiveme。No,Ihadnorighttodoubtyouforamoment。IfeelasifIoughttogoonmykneesandbegyourpardonforforgettingwhatyouare,fordaringtoforget。"
"Why,KingTom,whatisit?"
"ItseemsasifIhadsinned,"sheheardhimsay。Heseizedherbytheshoulders,turnedherabout,movedherforwardasteportwo。Hishandswereheavy,hisforceirresistible,thoughhehimselfimaginedhewashandlinghergently。"Lookstraightbeforeyou,"hegrowledintoherear。"Doyouseeanything?"Mrs。
Travers,passivebetweentherigidarms,couldseenothingbut,faroff,themassed,featurelessshadowsoftheshore。
"No,Iseenothing,"shesaid。
"Youcan’tbelookingtherightway,"sheheardhimbehindher。
AndnowshefeltherheadbetweenLingard’shands。Hemovedittheleastbittotheright。"There!Seeit?"
"No。WhatamItolookfor?"
"Agleamoflight,"saidLingard,takingawayhishandssuddenly。
"Agleamthatwillgrowintoablazebeforeourboatcangethalfwayacrossthelagoon。"
EvenasLingardspokeMrs。Traverscaughtsightofaredsparkfaraway。ShehadlookedoftenenoughattheSettlement,asonthefaceofapaintingonacurtain,tohaveitsconfigurationfixedinhermind,toknowthatitwasonthebeachatitsendfurthestfromBelarab’sstockade。
"Thebrushwoodiscatching,"murmuredLingardinherear。"Iftheyhadsomedrygrassthewholepilewouldbeblazingbynow。"
"Andthismeans……"
"Itmeansthatthenewshasspread。AnditisbeforeTengga’senclosureonhisendofthebeach。That’swhereallthebrainsoftheSettlementare。Itmeanstalkandexcitementandplentyofcraftywords。Tengga’sfire!Itellyou,Mrs。Travers,thatbeforehalfanhourhaspassedDamanwillbetheretomakefriendswiththefatTengga,whoisreadytosaytohim,’Itoldyouso’。"
"Isee,"murmuredMrs。Travers。Lingarddrewhergentlytotherail。
"Andnowlookoverthereattheotherendofthebeachwheretheshadowsareheaviest。ThatisBelarab’sfort,hishouses,histreasure,hisdependents。That’swherethestrengthoftheSettlementis。Ikeptitup。Imadeitlast。Butwhatisitnow?
It’slikeaweaponinthehandofadeadman。Andyetit’sallwehavetolookto,ifindeedthereisstilltime。IsweartoyouI
wouldn’tdarelandthemindaylightforfeartheyshouldbeslaughteredonthebeach。"
"Thereisnotimetolose,"whisperedMrs。Travers,andLingard,too,spokeverylow。
"No,notifI,too,amtokeepwhatismyright。It’syouwhohavesaidit。"
"Yes,Ihavesaidit,"shewhispered,withoutliftingherhead。
Lingardmadeabrusquemovementatherelbowandbenthisheadclosetohershoulder。
"AndIwhomistrustedyou!LikeArabsdototheirgreatmen,I
oughttokissthehemofyourrobeinrepentanceforhavingdoubtedthegreatnessofyourheart。"
"Oh!myheart!"saidMrs。Travers,lightly,stillgazingatthefire,whichhadsuddenlyshotuptoatallblaze。"Icanassureyouithasbeenofverylittleaccountintheworld。"Shepausedforamomenttosteadyhervoice,thensaid,firmly,"Let’sgetthisover。"
"Totellyouthetruththeboathasbeenreadyforsometime。"
"Well,then……"
"Mrs。Travers,"saidLingardwithaneffort,"theyarepeopleofyourownkind。"Andsuddenlyheburstout:"Icannottakethemashoreboundhandandfoot。"
"Mr。d’Alcacerknows。Youwillfindhimready。Eversincethebeginninghehasbeenpreparedforwhatevermighthappen。"
"Heisaman,"saidLingardwithconviction。"Butit’softheotherthatIamthinking。"
"Ah,theother,"sherepeated。"Then,whataboutmythoughts?
LuckilywehaveMr。d’Alcacer。Ishallspeaktohimfirst。"
SheturnedawayfromtherailandmovedtowardtheCage。
"Jorgenson,"thevoiceofLingardresoundedallalongthedeck,"getalightonthegangway。"ThenhefollowedMrs。Traversslowly。
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D’Alcacer,afterreceivinghiswarning,steppedbackandleanedagainsttheedgeofthetable。Hecouldnotignoreinhimselfacertainemotion。Andindeed,whenhehadaskedMrs。Traversforasignheexpectedtobemoved——buthehadnotexpectedthesigntocomesosoon。Heexpectedthisnighttopasslikeothernights,inbrokenslumbers,bodilydiscomfort,andtheunrestofdisconnectedthinking。Atthesametimehewassurprisedathisownemotion。Hehadflatteredhimselfonthepossessionofmorephilosophy。Hethoughtthatthisfamoussenseofself—preservationwasaqueerthing,apurelyanimalthing。"For,asathinkingman,"hereflected,"Ireallyoughtnottocare。"
Itwasprobablytheunusualthataffectedhim。Clearly。Ifhehadbeenlyingseriouslyillinaroominahotelandhadoverheardsomeominouswhispershewouldnothavecaredintheleast。Ah,butthenhewouldhavebeenill——andinillnessonegrowssoindifferent。Illnessisagreathelptounemotionalbehaviour,whichofcourseisthecorrectbehaviourforamanoftheworld。
Healmostregrettedhewasnotveryill。But,then,Mr。Traverswasobviouslyillanditdidnotseemtohelphimmuch。D’AlcacerglancedatthebedsteadwhereMr。Traverspreservedanimmobilitywhichstruckd’Alcacerasobviouslyaffected。Hemistrustedit。
GenerallyhemistrustedMr。Travers。Onecouldn’ttellwhathewoulddonext。Notthathecoulddomuchonewayoranother,butthatsomehowhethreatenedtorobthesituationofwhateverdignityitmayhavehadasastrokeoffate,asacalloncourage。Mr。d’Alcacer,acutelyobservantandalertfortheslightesthints,preferredtolookuponhimselfasthevictimnotofaswindlebutofaroughmannaivelyengagedinacontestwithheaven’sinjustice。D’Alcacerdidnotexaminehisheart,butsomelinesofaFrenchpoetcameintohismind,totheeffectthatinalltimesthosewhofoughtwithanunjustheavenhadpossessedthesecretadmirationandloveofmen。Hedidn’tgosofaraslovebuthecouldnotdenytohimselfthathisfeelingtowardLingardwassecretlyfriendlyand——well,appreciative。Mr。
Traverssatupsuddenly。Whatahorriblenuisance,thoughtd’Alcacer,fixinghiseyesonthetipsofhisshoeswiththehopethatperhapstheotherwouldliedownagain。Mr。Traversspoke。
"Stillup,d’Alcacer?"