"Verywell,"Mrs。Traversassented,seriously。"Butinthatcasewehadbetternotremaintogether。"Sheasked,then,d’AlcacertogobelowandsitwithMr。Traverswhodidn’tliketobeleftalone。"Thoughhe,too,doesn’tseemtowanttobetoldanything,"sheadded,parenthetically,andwenton:"ButImustaskyousomethingelse,Mr。d’Alcacer。Iproposetositdowninthischairandgotosleep——ifIcan。Willyoupromisetocallmeaboutfiveo’clock?Iprefernottospeaktoanyoneondeck,and,moreover,Icantrustyou。"
  Hebowedinsilenceandwentawayslowly。Mrs。Travers,turningherhead,perceivedasteadylightatthebrig’syard—arm,verybrightamongthetarnishedstars。Shewalkedaftandlookedoverthetaffrail。Itwasexactlylikethatothernight。Shehalfexpectedtohearpresentlythelow,ripplingsoundofanadvancingboat。Buttheuniverseremainedwithoutasound。Whensheatlastdroppedintothedeckchairshewasabsolutelyattheendofherpowerofthinking。"Isupposethat’showthecondemnedmanagetogetsomesleeponthenightbeforetheexecution,"shesaidtoherselfamomentbeforehereyelidsclosedasifunderaleadenhand。
  Shewokeup,withherfacewetwithtears,outofavividdreamofLingardinchain—mailarmourandvaguelyrecallingaCrusader,butbare—headedandwalkingawayfromherinthedepthsofanimpossiblelandscape。Shehurriedontocatchupwithhimbutathrongofbarbarianswithenormousturbanscamebetweenthematthelastmomentandshelostsightofhimforeverintheflurryofaghastlysand—storm。Whatfrightenedhermostwasthatshehadnotbeenabletoseehisface。Itwasthenthatshebegantocryoverherhardfate。Whenshewokeupthetearswerestillrollingdownhercheeksandsheperceivedinthelightofthedeck—lampd’Alcacerarrestedalittlewayoff。
  "Didyouhavetospeaktome?"sheasked。
  "No,"saidd’Alcacer。"Youdidn’tgivemetime。WhenIcameasfarasthisIfanciedIheardyousobbing。Itmusthavebeenadelusion。"
  "Oh,no。Myfaceiswetyet。Itwasadream。Isupposeitisfiveo’clock。Thankyouforbeingsopunctual。Ihavesomethingtodobeforesunrise。"
  D’Alcacermovednearer。"Iknow。Youhavedecidedtokeepanappointmentonthesandbank。Yourhusbanddidn’tuttertwentywordsinallthesehoursbuthemanagedtotellmethatpieceofnews。"
  "Ishouldn’thavethought,"shemurmured,vaguely。
  "Hewantedmetounderstandthatithadnoimportance,"statedd’Alcacerinaveryserioustone。
  "Yes。Heknowswhatheistalkingabout,"saidMrs。Traversinsuchabittertoneastodisconcertd’Alcacerforamoment。"I
  don’tseeasinglesoulaboutthedecks,"Mrs。Traverscontinued,almostdirectly。
  "Theverywatchmenareasleep,"saidd’Alcacer。
  "Thereisnothingsecretinthisexpedition,butIprefernottocallanyone。Perhapsyouwouldn’tmindpullingmeoffyourselfinoursmallboat。"
  Itseemedtoherthatd’Alcacershowedsomehesitation。Sheadded:"Ithasnoimportance,youknow。"
  Hebowedhisassentandprecededherdownthesideinsilence。
  Whensheenteredtheboathehadthescullsreadyanddirectlyshesatdownheshovedoff。Itwassodarkyetthatbutforthebrig’syard—armlighthecouldnothavekepthisdirection。Hepulledaverydeliberatestroke,lookingoverhisshoulderfrequently。ItwasMrs。Traverswhosawfirstthefaintgleamoftheuncoveredsandspitontheblack,quietwater。
  "Alittlemoretotheleft,"shesaid。"No,theotherway……
  "D’Alcacerobeyedherdirectionsbuthisstrokegrewevenslowerthanbefore。Shespokeagain。"Don’tyouthinkthattheuttermostfarthingshouldalwaysbepaid,Mr。d’Alcacer?"
  D’Alcacerglancedoverhisshoulder,then:"Itwouldbetheonlyhonourableway。Butitmaybehard。Toohardforourcommonfearfulhearts。"
  "Iampreparedforanything。"
  Heceasedpullingforamoment……"Anythingthatmaybefoundonasandbank,"Mrs。Traverswenton。"Onanarid,insignificant,anddesertedsandbank。"
  D’Alcacergavetwostrokesandceasedagain。
  "Thereisroomforawholeworldofsufferingonasandbank,forallthebitternessandresentmentahumansoulmaybemadetofeel。"
  "Yes,Isupposeyouwouldknow,"shewhisperedwhilehegaveastrokeortwoandagainglancedoverhisshoulder。Shemurmuredthewords:
  "Bitterness,resentment,"andamomentafterwardbecameawareofthekeeloftheboatrunninguponthesand。Butshedidn’tmove,andd’Alcacer,too,remainedseatedonthethwartwiththebladesofhisscullsraisedasifreadytodropthemandbackthedinghyoutintodeepwateratthefirstsign。
  Mrs。Traversmadenosign,butsheasked,abruptly:"Mr。
  d’Alcacer,doyouthinkIshallevercomeback?"
  Hertoneseemedtohimtolacksincerity。Butwhocouldtellwhatthisabruptnesscovered——sincerefearormerevanity?Heaskedhimselfwhethershewasplayingapartforhisbenefit,oronlyforherself。
  "Idon’tthinkyouquiteunderstandthesituation,Mrs。Travers。
  Idon’tthinkyouhaveaclearidea,eitherofhissimplicityorofhisvisionary’spride。"
  Shethought,contemptuously,thattherewereotherthingswhichd’Alcacerdidn’tknowandsurrenderedtoasuddentemptationtoenlightenhimalittle。
  "Youforgethiscapacityforpassionandthathissimplicitydoesn’tknowitsownstrength。"
  Therewasnomistakingthesincerityofthatmurmur。"Shehasfeltit,"d’Alcacersaidtohimselfwithabsolutecertitude。Hewonderedwhen,where,how,onwhatoccasion?Mrs。Traversstoodupinthesternsheetssuddenlyandd’Alcacerleapedonthesandtohelpheroutoftheboat。
  "Hadn’tIbetterhangaboutheretotakeyoubackagain?"hesuggested,asheletgoherhand。
  "Youmustn’t!"sheexclaimed,anxiously。"Youmustreturntotheyacht。Therewillbeplentyoflightinanotherhour。IwillcometothisspotandwavemyhandkerchiefwhenIwanttobetakenoff。"
  Attheirfeettheshallowwatersleptprofoundly,theghostlygleamofthesandsbaffledtheeyebyitslackofform。Faroff,thegrowthofbushesinthecentreraisedamassiveblackbulkagainstthestarstothesouthward。Mrs。Traverslingeredforamomentneartheboatasifafraidofthestrangesolitudeofthislonelysandbankandofthisloneseathatseemedtofillthewholeencirclinguniverseofremotestarsandlimitlessshadows。
  "Thereisnobodyhere,"shewhisperedtoherself。
  "Heissomewhereaboutwaitingforyou,orIdon’tknowtheman,"
  affirmedd’Alcacerinanundertone。Hegaveavigorousshovewhichsentthelittleboatintothewater。
  D’Alcacerwasperfectlyright。LingardhadcomeupondecklongbeforeMrs。Traverswokeupwithherfacewetwithtears。Theburialpartyhadreturnedhoursbeforeandthecrewofthebrigwereplungedinsleep,exceptfortwowatchmen,whoatLingard’sappearanceretreatednoiselesslyfromthepoop。Lingard,leaningontherail,fellintoasombrereverieofhispast。Reproachfulspectrescrowdedtheair,animatedandvocal,notinthearticulatelanguageofmortalsbutassailinghimwithfaintsobs,deepsighs,andfatefulgestures。Whenhecametohimselfandturnedabouttheyvanished,allbutonedarkshapewithoutsoundormovement。Lingardlookedatitwithsecrethorror。
  "Who’sthat?"heaskedinatroubledvoice。
  Theshadowmovedcloser:"It’sonlyme,sir,"saidCarter,whohadleftorderstobecalleddirectlytheCaptainwasseenondeck。
  "Oh,yes,Imighthaveknown,"mumbledLingardinsomeconfusion。
  HerequestedCartertohaveaboatmannedandwhenafteratimetheyoungmantoldhimthatitwasready,hesaid"Allright!"
  andremainedleaningonhiselbow。
  "Ibegyourpardon,sir,"saidCarterafteralongishsilence,"butareyougoingsomedistance?"
  "No,Ionlywanttobeputashoreonthesandbank。"
  Carterwasrelievedtohearthis,butalsosurprised。"Thereisnothinglivingthere,sir,"hesaid。
  "Iwonder,"mutteredLingard。
  "ButIamcertain,"Carterinsisted。"Thelastofthewomenandchildrenbelongingtothosecut—throatsweretakenoffbythesampanswhichbroughtyouandtheyacht—partyout。"
  HewalkedatLingard’selbowtothegangwayandlistenedtohisorders。
  "Directlythereisenoughlighttoseeflagsby,makeasignaltotheschoonertoheaveshortonhercableandloosehersails。Ifthereisanyhangingbackgivethemablankgun,Mr。Carter。I
  willhavenoshilly—shallying。Ifshedoesn’tgoattheword,byheavens,Iwilldriveherout。Iamstillmasterhere——foranotherday。"
  Theoverwhelmingsenseofimmensity,ofdisturbingemptiness,whichaffectsthosewhowalkonthesandsinthemidstofthesea,intimidatedMrs。Travers。Theworldresembledalimitlessflatshadowwhichwasmotionlessandelusive。Thenagainstthesouthernstarsshesawahumanformthatisolatedandloneappearedtoherimmense:theshapeofagiantoutlinedamongsttheconstellations。Asitapproachedheritshranktocommonproportions,gotclearofthestars,lostitsawesomeness,andbecamemenacinginitsominousandsilentadvance。Mrs。Travershastenedtospeak。
  "Youhaveaskedforme。Iamcome。Itrustyouwillhavenoreasontoregretmyobedience。"
  Hewalkedupquiteclosetoher,bentdownslightlytopeerintoherface。ThefirstofthetropicaldawnputitscharacteristiccoldsheenintotheskyabovetheShoreofRefuge。
  Mrs。Traversdidnotturnawayherhead。
  "Areyoulookingforachangeinme?No。Youwon’tseeit。NowI
  knowthatIcouldn’tchangeevenifIwantedto。Iammadeofclaythatistoohard。"
  "Iamlookingatyouforthefirsttime,"saidLingard。"Inevercouldseeyoubefore。Thereweretoomanythings,toomanythoughts,toomanypeople。No,Ineversawyoubefore。Butnowtheworldisdead。"
  Hegraspedhershoulders,approachinghisfaceclosetohers。Sheneverflinched。
  "Yes,theworldisdead,"shesaid。"Lookyourfillthen。Itwon’tbeforlong。"
  Helethergoassuddenlyasthoughshehadstruckhim。Thecoldwhitelightofthetropicaldawnhadcreptpastthezenithnowandtheexpanseoftheshallowwaterslookedcold,too,withoutstirorripplewithintheenormousrimofthehorizonwhere,tothewest,ashadowlingeredstill。
  "Takemyarm,"hesaid。
  Shedidsoatonce,andturningtheirbacksonthetwoshipstheybegantowalkalongthesands,buttheyhadnotmademanystepswhenMrs。Traversperceivedanoblongmoundwithaboardplanteduprightatoneend。Mrs。Traversknewthatpartofthesands。Itwasheresheusedtowalkwithherhusbandandd’Alcacereveryeveningafterdinner,whiletheyachtlaystrandedandherboatswereawayinsearchofassistance——whichtheyhadfound——whichtheyhadfound!Thiswassomethingthatshehadneverseentherebefore。Lingardhadsuddenlystoppedandlookedatitmoodily。
  Shepressedhisarmtorousehimandasked,"Whatisthis?"
  "Thisisagrave,"saidLingardinalowvoice,andstillgazingattheheapofsand。"Ihadhimtakenoutoftheshiplastnight。
  Strange,"hewentoninamusingtone,"howmuchagravebigenoughforonemanonlycanhold。Hismessagewastoforgeteverything。"
  "Never,never,"murmuredMrs。Travers。"IwishIhadbeenonboardtheEmma……Youhadamadmanthere,"shecriedout,suddenly。Theymovedonagain,LingardlookingatMrs。Traverswhowasleaningonhisarm。
  "Iwonderwhichofustwowasmad,"hesaid。
  "Iwonderyoucanbeartolookatme,"shemurmured。ThenLingardspokeagain。
  "Ihadtoseeyouoncemore。"
  "ThatabominableJorgenson,"shewhisperedtoherself。
  "No,no,hegavememychance——beforehegavemeup。"
  Mrs。TraversdisengagedherarmandLingardstopped,too,facingherinalongsilence。
  "Icouldnotrefusetomeetyou,"saidMrs。Traversatlast。"I
  couldnotrefuseyouanything。YouhavealltherightonyoursideandIdon’tcarewhatyoudoorsay。ButIwonderatmyowncouragewhenIthinkoftheconfessionIhavetomake。"Sheadvanced,laidherhandonLingard’sshoulderandspokeearnestly。"Ishudderedatthethoughtofmeetingyouagain。Andnowyoumustlistentomyconfession。"
  "Don’tsayaword,"saidLingardinanuntroubledvoiceandnevertakinghiseyesfromherface。"Iknowalready。"
  "Youcan’t,"shecried。Herhandslippedoffhisshoulder。"Thenwhydon’tyouthrowmeintothesea?"sheasked,passionately。
  "AmItoliveonhatingmyself?"
  "Youmustn’t!"hesaidwithanaccentoffear。"Haven’tyouunderstoodlongagothatifyouhadgivenmethatringitwouldhavebeenjustthesame?"
  "AmItobelievethis?No,no!Youaretoogeneroustoameresham。Youarethemostmagnanimousofmenbutyouarethrowingitawayonme。DoyouthinkitisremorsethatIfeel?No。Ifitisanythingitisdespair。Butyoumusthaveknownthat——andyetyouwantedtolookatmeagain。"
  "ItoldyouIneverhadachancebefore,"saidLingardinanunmovedvoice。"ItwasonlyafterIheardtheygaveyoutheringthatIfelttheholdyouhavegotonme。HowcouldItellbefore?
  Whathashateorlovetodowithyouandme?Hate。Love。Whatcantouchyou?Formeyoustandabovedeathitself;forIseenowthataslongasIliveyouwillneverdie。"
  Theyconfrontedeachotheratthesouthernedgeofthesandsasifafloatontheopensea。Thecentralridgeheapedupbythewindsmaskedfromthemtheverymastheadsofthetwoshipsandthegrowingbrightnessofthelightonlyaugmentedthesenseoftheirinvinciblesolitudeintheawfulserenityoftheworld。
  Mrs。Traverssuddenlyputherarmacrosshereyesandavertedherface。
  Thenheadded:
  "That’sall。"
  Mrs。Traversletfallherarmandbegantoretracehersteps,unsupportedandalone。Lingardfollowedherontheedgeofthesanduncoveredbytheebbingtide。AbeltoforangelightappearedinthecoldskyabovetheblackforestoftheShoreofRefugeandfadedquicklytogoldthatmeltedsoonintoablindingandcolourlessglare。ItwasnottillaftershehadpassedJaffir’sgravethatMrs。Traversstoleabackwardglanceanddiscoveredthatshewasalone。Lingardhadlefthertoherself。
  Shesawhimsittingnearthemoundofsand,hisbackbowed,hishandsclaspinghisknees,asifhehadobeyedtheinvinciblecallofhisgreatvisionshauntingthegraveofthefaithfulmessenger。ShadinghereyeswithherhandMrs。Traverswatchedtheimmobilityofthatmanofinfiniteillusions。Henevermoved,heneverraisedhishead。Itwasallover。Hewasdonewithher。
  Shewaitedalittlelongerandthenwentslowlyonherway。
  Shaw,nowactingsecondmateoftheyacht,cameoffwithanotherhandinalittleboattotakeMrs。Traversonboard。Hestaredatherlikeanoffendedowl。Howtheladycouldsuddenlyappearatsunrisewavingherhandkerchieffromthesandbankhecouldnotunderstand。For,evenifshehadmanagedtorowherselfoffsecretlyinthedark,shecouldnothavesenttheemptyboatbacktotheyacht。ItwastoShawasortofimpropermiracle。
  D’AlcacerhurriedtothetopofthesideladderandastheymetondeckMrs。Traversastonishedhimbysayinginastrangelyprovokingtone:
  "Youwereright。Ihavecomeback。"Thenwithalittlelaughwhichimpressedd’Alcacerpainfullysheaddedwithanoddownward,"andMartin,too,wasperfectlyright。Itwasabsolutelyunimportant。"
  Shewalkedonstraighttothetaffrailandd’Alcacerfollowedheraft,alarmedatherwhiteface,atherbrusquemovements,atthenervouswayinwhichshewasfumblingatherthroat。Hewaiteddiscreetlytillsheturnedroundandthrustouttowardhimheropenpalmonwhichhesawathickgoldringsetwithalargegreenstone。
  "Lookatthis,Mr。d’Alcacer。ThisisthethingwhichIaskedyouwhetherIshouldgiveuporconceal——thesymbolofthelasthour——thecallofthesuprememinute。Andhesaiditwouldhavemadenodifference!Heisthemostmagnanimousofmenandtheuttermostfarthinghasbeenpaid。Hehasdonewithme。Themostmagnanimous……butthereisagraveonthesandsbywhichI
  lefthimsittingwithnoglancetospareforme。Hislastglanceonearth!Iamleftwiththisthing。Absolutelyunimportant。A
  deadtalisman。"Withanervousjerksheflungtheringoverboard,thenwithahurriedentreatytod’Alcacer,"Stayhereamoment。
  Don’tletanybodycomenearus,"sheburstintotearsandturnedherbackonhim。
  LingardreturnedonboardhisbrigandintheearlyafternoontheLightninggotunderway,runningpasttheschoonertogiveheraleadthroughthemazeofShoals。Lingardwasondeckbutneverlookedonceatthefollowingvessel。DirectlybothshipswereinclearwaterhewentbelowsayingtoCarter:"Youknowwhattodo。"
  "Yes,sir,"saidCarter。
  ShortlyafterhisCaptainhaddisappearedfromthedeckCarterlaidthemaintopsailtothemast。TheLightninglostherwaywhiletheschoonerwithallherlightkitesabroadpassedcloseunderhersternholdingonhercourse。Mrs。Traversstoodaftveryrigid,grippingtherailwithbothhands。Thebrimofherwhitehatwasblownupwardononesideandheryachtingskirtstirredinthebreeze。Byhersided’Alcacerwavedhishandcourteously。Carterraisedhiscaptothem。
  Duringtheafternoonhepacedthepoopwithmeasuredsteps,withapairofbinocularsinhishand。Atlasthelaidtheglassesdown,glancedatthecompass—cardandwalkedtothecabinskylightwhichwasopen。
  "Justlosther,sir,"hesaid。Allwasstilldownthere。Heraisedhisvoicealittle:
  "YoutoldmetoletyouknowdirectlyIlostsightoftheyacht。"
  ThesoundofastifledgroanreachedtheattentiveCarterandawearyvoicesaid,"Allright,Iamcoming。"
  WhenLingardsteppedoutonthepoopoftheLightningtheopenwaterhadturnedpurplealreadyintheeveninglight,whiletotheeasttheShallowsmadeasteelyglitterallalongthesombrelineoftheshore。Lingard,withfoldedarms,lookedoverthesea。Carterapproachedhimandspokequietly。
  "Thetidehasturnedandthenightiscomingon。Hadn’twebettergetawayfromtheseShoals,sir?"
  Lingarddidnotstir。
  "Yes,thenightiscomingon。Youmayfillthemaintopsail,Mr。
  Carter,"hesaidandherelapsedintosilencewithhiseyesfixedinthesouthernboardwheretheshadowswerecreepingstealthilytowardthesettingsun。PresentlyCarterstoodathiselbowagain。
  "Thebrigisbeginningtoforgeahead,sir,"hesaidinawarningtone。
  Lingardcameoutofhisabsorptionwithadeeptremorofhispowerfulframeliketheshudderofanuprootedtree。
  "Howwastheyachtheadingwhenyoulostsightofher?"heasked。
  "Southasnearaspossible,"answeredCarter。"Willyougivemeacoursetosteerforthenight,sir?"
  Lingard’slipstrembledbeforehespokebuthisvoicewascalm。
  "Steernorth,"hesaid。
  End