"LepointdujourCauseparfois,causedouleurextreme;
  Quel’espacedesnuitsestcourtPourlebergerbrulantd’amour,Forcedequittercequ’ilaimeAupointdujour!"
  ItwasbitterlyplaintoEustaciathathedidnotcaremuchaboutsocialfailure;andtheproudfairwomanbowedherheadandweptinsickdespairatthoughtoftheblastingeffectuponherownlifeofthatmoodandconditioninhim。
  Thenshecameforward。
  "Iwouldstarveratherthandoit!"sheexclaimedvehemently。
  "Andyoucansing!Iwillgoandlivewithmygrandfatheragain!"
  "Eustacia!Ididnotseeyou,thoughInoticedsomethingmoving,"hesaidgently。Hecameforward,pulledoffhishugeleatherglove,andtookherhand。
  "Whydoyouspeakinsuchastrangeway?ItisonlyalittleoldsongwhichstruckmyfancywhenIwasinParis,andnowjustappliestomylifewithyou。Hasyourloveformealldied,then,becausemyappearanceisnolongerthatofafinegentleman?"
  "Dearest,youmustnotquestionmeunpleasantly,oritmaymakemenotloveyou。"
  "DoyoubelieveitpossiblethatIwouldruntheriskofdoingthat?"
  "Well,youfollowoutyourownideas,andwon’tgiveintominewhenIwishyoutoleaveoffthisshamefullabour。Isthereanythingyoudislikeinmethatyouactsocontrarilytomywishes?Iamyourwife,andwhywillyounotlisten?Yes,Iamyourwifeindeed!"
  "Iknowwhatthattonemeans。"
  "Whattone?"
  "Thetoneinwhichyousaid,’Yourwifeindeed。’Itmeant,’Yourwife,worseluck。’"
  "Itishardinyoutoprobemewiththatremark。
  Awomanmayhavereason,thoughsheisnotwithoutheart,andifIfelt’worseluck,’itwasnoignoblefeeling——
  itwasonlytoonatural。There,youseethatatanyrateIdonotattemptuntruths。Doyourememberhow,beforeweweremarried,IwarnedyouthatIhadnotgoodwifelyqualities?"
  "Youmockmetosaythatnow。Onthatpointatleasttheonlynoblecoursewouldbetoholdyourtongue,foryouarestillqueenofme,Eustacia,thoughImaynolongerbekingofyou。"
  "Youaremyhusband。Doesnotthatcontentyou?"
  "Notunlessyouaremywifewithoutregret。"
  "Icannotansweryou。IremembersayingthatIshouldbeaseriousmatteronyourhands。"
  "Yes,Isawthat。"
  "Thenyouweretooquicktosee!Notrueloverwouldhaveseenanysuchthing;youaretoosevereuponme,Clym——Iwon’tlikeyourspeakingsoatall。"
  "Well,Imarriedyouinspiteofit,anddon’tregretdoingso。Howcoldyouseemthisafternoon!andyetI
  usedtothinkthereneverwasawarmerheartthanyours。"
  "Yes,Ifearwearecooling——Iseeitaswellasyou,"
  shesighedmournfully。"Andhowmadlywelovedtwomonthsago!Youwerenevertiredofcontemplatingme,norI
  ofcontemplatingyou。Whocouldhavethoughtthenthatbythistimemyeyeswouldnotseemsoverybrighttoyours,noryourlipssoverysweettomine?Twomonths——isitpossible?Yes,’tistootrue!"
  "Yousigh,dear,asifyouweresorryforit;andthat’sahopefulsign。"
  "No。Idon’tsighforthat。Thereareotherthingsformetosighfor,oranyotherwomaninmyplace。"
  "Thatyourchancesinlifeareruinedbymarryinginhasteanunfortunateman?"
  "Whywillyouforceme,Clym,tosaybitterthings?I
  deservepityasmuchasyou。Asmuch?——IthinkIdeserveitmore。Foryoucansing!Itwouldbeastrangehourwhichshouldcatchmesingingundersuchacloudasthis!
  Believeme,sweet,Icouldweeptoadegreethatwouldastonishandconfoundsuchanelasticmindasyours。
  Evenhadyoufeltcarelessaboutyourownaffliction,youmighthaverefrainedfromsingingoutofsheerpityformine。God!ifIwereamaninsuchapositionIwouldcurseratherthansing。"
  Yeobrightplacedhishanduponherarm。"Now,don’tyousuppose,myinexperiencedgirl,thatIcannotrebel,inhighPrometheanfashion,againstthegodsandfateaswellasyou。Ihavefeltmoresteamandsmokeofthatsortthanyouhaveeverheardof。ButthemoreI
  seeoflifethemoredoIperceivethatthereisnothingparticularlygreatinitsgreatestwalks,andthereforenothingparticularlysmallinmineoffurze—cutting。
  IfIfeelthatthegreatestblessingsvouchsafedtousarenotveryvaluable,howcanIfeelittobeanygreathardshipwhentheyaretakenaway?SoIsingtopassthetime。Haveyouindeedlostalltendernessforme,thatyoubegrudgemeafewcheerfulmoments?"
  "Ihavestillsometendernessleftforyou。"
  "Yourwordshavenolongertheiroldflavour。Andsolovedieswithgoodfortune!"
  "Icannotlistentothis,Clym——itwillendbitterly,"
  shesaidinabrokenvoice。"Iwillgohome。"
  3—SheGoesOuttoBattleagainstDepressionAfewdayslater,beforethemonthofAugusthasexpired,EustaciaandYeobrightsattogetherattheirearlydinner。
  Eustacia’smannerhadbecomeoflatealmostapathetic。
  Therewasaforlornlookaboutherbeautifuleyeswhich,whethershedeserveditornot,wouldhaveexcitedpityinthebreastofanyonewhohadknownherduringthefullflushofherloveforClym。Thefeelingsofhusbandandwifevaried,insomemeasure,inverselywiththeirpositions。Clym,theafflictedman,wascheerful;
  andheeventriedtocomforther,whohadneverfeltamomentofphysicalsufferinginherwholelife。
  "Come,brightenup,dearest;weshallbeallrightagain。
  SomedayperhapsIshallseeaswellasever。
  AndIsolemnlypromisethatI’llleaveoffcuttingfurzeassoonasIhavethepowertodoanythingbetter。
  Youcannotseriouslywishmetostayidlingathomeallday?"
  "Butitissodreadful——afurze—cutter!andyouamanwhohavelivedabouttheworld,andspeakFrench,andGerman,andwhoarefitforwhatissomuchbetterthanthis。"
  "IsupposewhenyoufirstsawmeandheardaboutmeI
  waswrappedinasortofgoldenhalotoyoureyes——amanwhoknewgloriousthings,andhadmixedinbrilliantscenes——inshort,anadorable,delightful,distractinghero?"
  "Yes,"shesaid,sobbing。
  "AndnowIamapoorfellowinbrownleather。"
  "Don’ttauntme。Butenoughofthis。Iwillnotbedepressedanymore。Iamgoingfromhomethisafternoon,unlessyougreatlyobject。Thereistobeavillagepicnic——agipsying,theycallit——atEastEgdon,andI
  shallgo。"
  "Todance?"
  "Whynot?Youcansing。"
  "Well,well,asyouwill。MustIcometofetchyou?"
  "Ifyoureturnsoonenoughfromyourwork。Butdonotinconvenienceyourselfaboutit。Iknowthewayhome,andtheheathhasnoterrorforme。"
  "Andcanyouclingtogaietysoeagerlyastowalkallthewaytoavillagefestivalinsearchofit?"
  "Now,youdon’tlikemygoingalone!Clym,youarenotjealous?"
  "No。ButIwouldcomewithyouifitcouldgiveyouanypleasure;though,asthingsstand,perhapsyouhavetoomuchofmealready。Still,Isomehowwishthatyoudidnotwanttogo。Yes,perhapsIamjealous;
  andwhocouldbejealouswithmorereasonthanI,ahalf—blindman,oversuchawomanasyou?"
  "Don’tthinklikeit。Letmego,anddon’ttakeallmyspiritsaway!"
  "Iwouldratherloseallmyown,mysweetwife。Goanddowhateveryoulike。Whocanforbidyourindulgenceinanywhim?Youhaveallmyheartyet,Ibelieve;
  andbecauseyoubearwithme,whoamintruthadraguponyou,Ioweyouthanks。Yes,goaloneandshine。
  Asforme,Iwillsticktomydoom。Atthatkindofmeetingpeoplewouldshunme。MyhookandglovesareliketheSt。Lazarusrattleoftheleper,warningtheworldtogetoutofthewayofasightthatwouldsaddenthem。"
  Hekissedher,putonhisleggings,andwentout。
  Whenhewasgonesherestedherheaduponherhandsandsaidtoherself,"Twowastedlives——hisandmine。
  AndIamcometothis!Willitdrivemeoutofmymind?"
  Shecastaboutforanypossiblecoursewhichofferedtheleastimprovementontheexistingstateofthings,andcouldfindnone。SheimaginedhowallthoseBudmouthoneswhoshouldlearnwhathadbecomeofherwouldsay,"Lookatthegirlforwhomnobodywasgoodenough!"
  ToEustaciathesituationseemedsuchamockeryofherhopesthatdeathappearedtheonlydoorofreliefifthesatireofHeavenshouldgomuchfurther。
  Suddenlyshearousedherselfandexclaimed,"ButI’llshakeitoff。Yes,IWILLshakeitoff!Nooneshallknowmysuffering。I’llbebitterlymerry,andironicallygay,andI’lllaughinderision。AndI’llbeginbygoingtothisdanceonthegreen。"
  Sheascendedtoherbedroomanddressedherselfwithscrupulouscare。Toanonlookerherbeautywouldhavemadeherfeelingsalmostseemreasonable。ThegloomycornerintowhichaccidentasmuchasindiscretionhadbroughtthiswomanmighthaveledevenamoderatepartisantofeelthatshehadcogentreasonsforaskingtheSupremePowerbywhatrightabeingofsuchexquisitefinishhadbeenplacedincircumstancescalculatedtomakeofhercharmsacurseratherthanablessing。
  Itwasfiveintheafternoonwhenshecameoutfromthehousereadyforherwalk。Therewasmaterialenoughinthepicturefortwentynewconquests。Therebellioussadnessthatwasrathertooapparentwhenshesatindoorswithoutabonnetwascloakedandsoftenedbyheroutdoorattire,whichalwayshadasortofnebulousnessaboutit,devoidofharshedgesanywhere;sothatherfacelookedfromitsenvironmentasfromacloud,withnonoticeablelinesofdemarcationbetweenfleshandclothes。Theheatofthedayhadscarcelydeclinedasyet,andshewentalongthesunnyhillsataleisurelypace,therebeingampletimeforheridleexpedition。Tallfernsburiedherintheirleafagewheneverherpathlaythroughthem,whichnowformedminiatureforests,thoughnotonestemofthemwouldremaintobudthenextyear。
  Thesitechosenforthevillagefestivitywasoneofthelawnlikeoaseswhichwereoccasionally,yetnotoften,metwithontheplateauxoftheheathdistrict。Thebrakesoffurzeandfernterminatedabruptlyroundthemargin,andthegrasswasunbroken。Agreencattletrackskirtedthespot,without,however,emergingfromthescreenoffern,andthispathEustaciafollowed,inordertoreconnoitrethegroupbeforejoiningit。ThelustynotesoftheEastEgdonbandhaddirectedherunerringly,andshenowbeheldthemusiciansthemselves,sittinginabluewagonwithredwheelsscrubbedasbrightasnew,andarchedwithsticks,towhichboughsandflowersweretied。
  Infrontofthiswasthegrandcentraldanceoffifteenortwentycouples,flankedbyminordancesofinferiorindividualswhosegyrationswerenotalwaysinstrictkeepingwiththetune。
  Theyoungmenworeblueandwhiterosettes,andwithaflushontheirfacesfootedittothegirls,who,withtheexcitementandtheexercise,blusheddeeperthanthepinkoftheirnumerousribbons。Faironeswithlongcurls,faironeswithshortcurls,faironeswithlovelocks,faironeswithbraids,flewroundandround;andabeholdermightwellhavewonderedhowsuchaprepossessingsetofyoungwomenoflikesize,age,anddisposition,couldhavebeencollectedtogetherwheretherewereonlyoneortwovillagestochoosefrom。Inthebackgroundwasonehappymandancingbyhimself,withclosedeyes,totallyobliviousofalltherest。Afirewasburningunderapollardthornafewpacesoff,overwhichthreekettleshunginarow。Hardbywasatablewhereelderlydamespreparedtea,butEustacialookedamongtheminvainforthecattle—dealer’swifewhohadsuggestedthatsheshouldcome,andhadpromisedtoobtainacourteouswelcomeforher。
  ThisunexpectedabsenceoftheonlylocalresidentwhomEustaciaknewconsiderablydamagedherschemeforanafternoonofrecklessgaiety。Joininginbecameamatterofdifficulty,notwithstandingthat,wereshetoadvance,cheerfuldameswouldcomeforwardwithcupsofteaandmakemuchofherasastrangerofsuperiorgraceandknowledgetothemselves。Havingwatchedthecompanythroughthefiguresoftwodances,shedecidedtowalkalittlefurther,toacottagewhereshemightgetsomerefreshment,andthenreturnhomewardintheshadytimeofevening。
  Thisshedid,andbythetimethatsheretracedherstepstowardsthesceneofthegipsying,whichitwasnecessarytorepassonherwaytoAlderworth,thesunwasgoingdown。
  Theairwasnowsostillthatshecouldhearthebandafaroff,anditseemedtobeplayingwithmorespirit,ifthatwerepossible,thanwhenshehadcomeaway。
  Onreachingthehillthesunhadquitedisappeared;
  butthismadelittledifferenceeithertoEustaciaortotherevellers,foraroundyellowmoonwasrisingbeforeher,thoughitsrayshadnotyetoutmasteredthosefromthewest。Thedancewasgoingonjustthesame,butstrangershadarrivedandformedaringaroundthefigure,sothatEustaciacouldstandamongthesewithoutachanceofbeingrecognized。
  Awholevillage—fullofsensuousemotion,scatteredabroadalltheyearlong,surgedhereinafocusforanhour。
  Thefortyheartsofthosewavingcoupleswerebeatingastheyhadnotdonesince,twelvemonthsbefore,theyhadcometogetherinsimilarjollity。Forthetimepaganismwasrevivedintheirhearts,theprideoflifewasallinall,andtheyadorednoneotherthanthemselves。
  Howmanyofthoseimpassionedbuttemporaryembracesweredestinedtobecomeperpetualwaspossiblythewonderofsomeofthosewhoindulgedinthem,aswellasofEustaciawholookedon。Shebegantoenvythosepirouetters,tohungerforthehopeandhappinesswhichthefascinationofthedanceseemedtoengenderwithinthem。
  Desperatelyfondofdancingherself,oneofEustacia’sexpectationsofParishadbeentheopportunityitmightaffordherofindulgenceinthisfavouritepastime。
  Unhappily,thatexpectationwasnowextinctwithinherforever。
  Whilstsheabstractedlywatchedthemspinningandfluctuatingintheincreasingmoonlightshesuddenlyheardhernamewhisperedbyavoiceoverhershoulder。
  Turninginsurprise,shebeheldatherelbowonewhosepresenceinstantlycausedhertoflushtothetemples。
  ItwasWildeve。Tillthismomenthehadnotmethereyesincethemorningofhismarriage,whenshehadbeenloiteringinthechurch,andhadstartledhimbyliftingherveilandcomingforwardtosigntheregisteraswitness。
  Yetwhythesightofhimshouldhaveinstigatedthatsuddenrushofbloodshecouldnottell。
  Beforeshecouldspeakhewhispered,"Doyoulikedancingasmuchasever?"
  "IthinkIdo,"sherepliedinalowvoice。
  "Willyoudancewithme?"
  "Itwouldbeagreatchangeforme;butwillitnotseemstrange?"
  "Whatstrangenesscantherebeinrelationsdancingtogether?"
  "Ah——yes,relations。Perhapsnone。"
  "Still,ifyoudon’tliketobeseen,pulldownyourveil;
  thoughthereisnotmuchriskofbeingknownbythislight。
  Lotsofstrangersarehere。"
  Shedidashesuggested;andtheactwasatacitacknowledgmentthatsheacceptedhisoffer。
  Wildevegaveherhisarmandtookherdownontheoutsideoftheringtothebottomofthedance,whichtheyentered。
  Intwominutesmoretheywereinvolvedinthefigureandbeganworkingtheirwayupwardstothetop。
  TilltheyhadadvancedhalfwaythitherEustaciawishedmorethanoncethatshehadnotyieldedtohisrequest;
  fromthemiddletothetopshefeltthat,sinceshehadcomeouttoseekpleasure,shewasonlydoinganaturalthingtoobtainit。Fairlylaunchedintotheceaselessglidesandwhirlswhichtheirnewpositionastopcoupleopeneduptothem,Eustacia’spulsesbegantomovetooquicklyforlongruminationofanykind。
  Throughthelengthoffive—and—twentycouplestheythreadedtheirgiddyway,andanewvitalityenteredherform。
  Thepalerayofeveninglentafascinationtotheexperience。
  Thereisacertaindegreeandtoneoflightwhichtendstodisturbtheequilibriumofthesenses,andtopromotedangerouslythetenderermoods;addedtomovement,itdrivestheemotionstorankness,thereasonbecomingsleepyandunperceivingininverseproportion;andthislightfellnowuponthesetwofromthediscofthemoon。
  Allthedancinggirlsfeltthesymptoms,butEustaciamostofall。Thegrassundertheirfeetbecametroddenaway,andthehard,beatensurfaceofthesod,whenviewedaslanttowardsthemoonlight,shonelikeapolishedtable。
  Theairbecamequitestill,theflagabovethewagonwhichheldthemusiciansclungtothepole,andtheplayersappearedonlyinoutlineagainstthesky;exceptwhenthecircularmouthsofthetrombone,ophicleide,andFrenchhorngleamedoutlikehugeeyesfromtheshadeoftheirfigures。
  Theprettydressesofthemaidslosttheirsubtlerdaycoloursandshowedmoreorlessofamistywhite。
  EustaciafloatedroundandroundonWildeve’sarm,herfaceraptandstatuesque;hersoulhadpassedawayfromandforgottenherfeatures,whichwereleftemptyandquiescent,astheyalwaysarewhenfeelinggoesbeyondtheirregister。
  HownearshewastoWildeve!itwasterribletothinkof。
  Shecouldfeelhisbreathing,andhe,ofcourse,couldfeelhers。Howbadlyshehadtreatedhim!yet,heretheyweretreadingonemeasure。Theenchantmentofthedancesurprisedher。Aclearlineofdifferencedividedlikeatangiblefenceherexperiencewithinthismazeofmotionfromherexperiencewithoutit。
  Herbeginningtodancehadbeenlikeachangeofatmosphere;
  outside,shehadbeensteepedinarcticfrigiditybycomparisonwiththetropicalsensationshere。
  Shehadenteredthedancefromthetroubledhoursofherlatelifeasonemightenterabrilliantchamberafteranightwalkinawood。Wildevebyhimselfwouldhavebeenmerelyanagitation;Wildeveaddedtothedance,andthemoonlight,andthesecrecy,begantobeadelight。
  Whetherhispersonalitysuppliedthegreaterpartofthissweetlycompoundedfeeling,orwhetherthedanceandthesceneweighedthemoretherein,wasanicepointuponwhichEustaciaherselfwasentirelyinacloud。
  Peoplebegantosay"Whoarethey?"butnoinvidiousinquiriesweremade。HadEustaciamingledwiththeothergirlsintheirordinarydailywalksthecasewouldhavebeendifferent:hereshewasnotinconveniencedbyexcessiveinspection,forallwerewroughttotheirbrightestgracebytheoccasion。LiketheplanetMercurysurroundedbythelustreofsunset,herpermanentbrilliancypassedwithoutmuchnoticeinthetemporarygloryofthesituation。
  AsforWildeve,hisfeelingsareeasytoguess。
  Obstacleswerearipeningsuntohislove,andhewasatthismomentinadeliriumofexquisitemisery。
  Toclaspashisforfiveminuteswhatwasanotherman’sthroughalltherestoftheyearwasakindofthingheofallmencouldappreciate。HehadlongsincebeguntosighagainforEustacia;indeed,itmaybeassertedthatsigningthemarriageregisterwithThomasinwasthenaturalsignaltohishearttoreturntoitsfirstquarters,andthattheextracomplicationofEustacia’smarriagewastheoneadditionrequiredtomakethatreturncompulsory。
  Thus,fordifferentreasons,whatwastotherestanexhilaratingmovementwastothesetwoaridinguponthewhirlwind。
  Thedancehadcomelikeanirresistibleattackuponwhateversenseofsocialordertherewasintheirminds,todrivethembackintooldpathswhichwerenowdoublyirregular。
  Throughthreedancesinsuccessiontheyspuntheirway;
  andthen,fatiguedwiththeincessantmotion,Eustaciaturnedtoquitthecircleinwhichshehadalreadyremainedtoolong。
  Wildeveledhertoagrassymoundafewyardsdistant,whereshesatdown,herpartnerstandingbesideher。
  Fromthetimethatheaddressedheratthebeginningofthedancetillnowtheyhadnotexchangedaword。
  "Thedanceandthewalkinghavetiredyou?"hesaidtenderly。
  "No;notgreatly。"
  "Itisstrangethatweshouldhavemethereofallplaces,aftermissingeachothersolong。"
  "Wehavemissedbecausewetriedtomiss,Isuppose。"
  "Yes。Butyoubeganthatproceeding——bybreakingapromise。"
  "Itisscarcelyworthwhiletotalkofthatnow。
  Wehaveformedothertiessincethen——younolessthanI。"
  "Iamsorrytohearthatyourhusbandisill。"
  "Heisnotill——onlyincapacitated。"
  "Yes——thatiswhatImean。Isincerelysympathizewithyouinyourtrouble。Fatehastreatedyoucruelly。"
  Shewassilentawhile。"Haveyouheardthathehaschosentoworkasafurze—cutter?"shesaidinalow,mournfulvoice。
  "Ithasbeenmentionedtome,"answeredWildevehesitatingly。
  "ButIhardlybelievedit。"
  "Itistrue。Whatdoyouthinkofmeasafurze—
  cutter’swife?"
  "Ithinkthesameaseverofyou,Eustacia。Nothingofthatsortcandegradeyou——youennobletheoccupationofyourhusband。"
  "IwishIcouldfeelit。"
  "IsthereanychanceofMr。Yeobrightgettingbetter?"
  "Hethinksso。Idoubtit。"
  "Iwasquitesurprisedtohearthathehadtakenacottage。
  Ithought,incommonwithotherpeople,thathewouldhavetakenyouofftoahomeinParisimmediatelyafteryouhadmarriedhim。’Whatagay,brightfutureshehasbeforeher!’
  Ithought。Hewill,Isuppose,returntherewithyou,ifhissightgetsstrongagain?"
  Observingthatshedidnotreplyheregardedhermoreclosely。Shewasalmostweeping。Imagesofafuturenevertobeenjoyed,therevivedsenseofherbitterdisappointment,thepictureoftheneighbour’ssuspendedridiculewhichwasraisedbyWildeve’swords,hadbeentoomuchforproudEustacia’sequanimity。
  Wildevecouldhardlycontrolhisowntooforwardfeelingswhenhesawhersilentperturbation。Butheaffectednottonoticethis,andshesoonrecoveredhercalmness。
  "Youdonotintendtowalkhomebyyourself?"heasked。
  "Oyes,"saidEustacia。"Whatcouldhurtmeonthisheath,whohavenothing?"
  "BydivergingalittleIcanmakemywayhomethesameasyours。IshallbegladtokeepyoucompanyasfarasThroopeCorner。"SeeingthatEustaciasatoninhesitationheadded,"Perhapsyouthinkitunwisetobeseeninthesameroadwithmeaftertheeventsoflastsummer?"
  "IndeedIthinknosuchthing,"shesaidhaughtily。
  "IshallacceptwhosecompanyIchoose,forallthatmaybesaidbythemiserableinhabitantsofEgdon。"
  "Thenletuswalkon——ifyouareready。Ournearestwayistowardsthathollybushwiththedarkshadowthatyouseedownthere。"
  Eustaciaarose,andwalkedbesidehiminthedirectionsignified,brushingherwayoverthedampingheathandfern,andfollowedbythestrainsofthemerrymakers,whostillkeptupthedance。Themoonhadnowwaxedbrightandsilvery,buttheheathwasproofagainstsuchillumination,andtherewastobeobservedthestrikingsceneofadark,raylesstractofcountryunderanatmospherechargedfromitszenithtoitsextremitieswithwhitestlight。
  Toaneyeabovethemtheirtwofaceswouldhaveappearedamidtheexpanseliketwopearlsonatableofebony。