HisprogresswhenactuallywalkingwasmorerapidthanMrs。Yeobright’s;butshewasenabledtokeepatanequabledistancefromhimbyhishabitofstoppingwheneverhecametoabrakeofbrambles,wherehepausedawhile。
Oncominginherturntoeachofthesespotsshefoundhalfadozenlonglimpbrambleswhichhehadcutfromthebushduringhishaltandlaidoutstraightbesidethepath。
Theywereevidentlyintendedforfurze—faggotbondswhichhemeanttocollectonhisreturn。
Thesilentbeingwhothusoccupiedhimselfseemedtobeofnomoreaccountinlifethananinsect。
Heappearedasamereparasiteoftheheath,frettingitssurfaceinhisdailylabourasamothfretsagarment,entirelyengrossedwithitsproducts,havingnoknowledgeofanythingintheworldbutfern,furze,heath,lichens,andmoss。
Thefurze—cutterwassoabsorbedinthebusinessofhisjourneythatheneverturnedhishead;andhisleather—
leggedandgauntletedformatlengthbecametoherasnothingmorethanamovinghandposttoshowhertheway。
Suddenlyshewasattractedtohisindividualitybyobservingpeculiaritiesinhiswalk。Itwasagaitshehadseensomewherebefore;andthegaitrevealedthemantoher,asthegaitofAhimaazinthedistantplainmadehimknowntothewatchmanoftheking。"Hiswalkisexactlyasmyhusband’susedtobe,"shesaid;andthenthethoughtburstuponherthatthefurze—cutterwasherson。
Shewasscarcelyabletofamiliarizeherselfwiththisstrangereality。ShehadbeentoldthatClymwasinthehabitofcuttingfurze,butshehadsupposedthatheoccupiedhimselfwiththelabouronlyatoddtimes,bywayofusefulpastime;yetshenowbeheldhimasafurze—cutterandnothingmore——wearingtheregulationdressofthecraft,andthinkingtheregulationthoughts,tojudgebyhismotions。PlanningadozenhastyschemesforatoncepreservinghimandEustaciafromthismodeoflife,shethrobbinglyfollowedtheway,andsawhimenterhisowndoor。
AtonesideofClym’shousewasaknoll,andonthetopoftheknollaclumpoffirtreessohighlythrustupintotheskythattheirfoliagefromadistanceappearedasablackspotintheairabovethecrownofthehill。OnreachingthisplaceMrs。Yeobrightfeltdistressinglyagitated,weary,andunwell。Sheascended,andsatdownundertheirshadetorecoverherself,andtoconsiderhowbesttobreakthegroundwithEustacia,soasnottoirritateawomanunderneathwhoseapparentindolencelurkedpassionsevenstrongerandmoreactivethanherown。
Thetreesbeneathwhichshesatweresingularlybattered,rude,andwild,andforafewminutesMrs。Yeobrightdismissedthoughtsofherownstorm—brokenandexhaustedstatetocontemplatetheirs。Notaboughintheninetreeswhichcomposedthegroupbutwassplintered,lopped,anddistortedbythefierceweatherthatthereheldthematitsmercywheneveritprevailed。Somewereblastedandsplitasifbylightning,blackstainsasfromfiremarkingtheirsides,whilethegroundattheirfeetwasstrewnwithdeadfir—needlesandheapsofconesblowndowninthegalesofpastyears。TheplacewascalledtheDevil’sBellows,anditwasonlynecessarytocomethereonaMarchorNovembernighttodiscovertheforciblereasonsforthatname。Onthepresentheatedafternoon,whennoperceptiblewindwasblowing,thetreeskeptupaperpetualmoanwhichonecouldhardlybelievetobecausedbytheair。
Hereshesatfortwentyminutesormoreereshecouldsummonresolutiontogodowntothedoor,hercouragebeingloweredtozerobyherphysicallassitude。
Toanyotherpersonthanamotheritmighthaveseemedalittlehumiliatingthatshe,theelderofthetwowomen,shouldbethefirsttomakeadvances。ButMrs。Yeobrighthadwellconsideredallthat,andsheonlythoughthowbesttomakehervisitappeartoEustacianotabjectbutwise。
Fromherelevatedpositiontheexhaustedwomancouldperceivetheroofofthehousebelow,andthegardenandthewholeenclosureofthelittledomicile。Andnow,atthemomentofrising,shesawasecondmanapproachingthegate。Hismannerwaspeculiar,hesitating,andnotthatofapersoncomeonbusinessorbyinvitation。
Hesurveyedthehousewithinterest,andthenwalkedroundandscannedtheouterboundaryofthegarden,asonemighthavedonehaditbeenthebirthplaceofShakespeare,theprisonofMaryStuart,ortheChateauofHougomont。
Afterpassingroundandagainreachingthegatehewentin。
Mrs。Yeobrightwasvexedatthis,havingreckonedonfindinghersonandhiswifebythemselves;butamoment’sthoughtshowedherthatthepresenceofanacquaintancewouldtakeofftheawkwardnessofherfirstappearanceinthehouse,byconfiningthetalktogeneralmattersuntilshehadbeguntofeelcomfortablewiththem。
Shecamedownthehilltothegate,andlookedintothehotgarden。
Therelaythecatasleeponthebaregravelofthepath,asifbeds,rugs,andcarpetswereunendurable。Theleavesofthehollyhockshunglikehalf—closedumbrellas,thesapalmostsimmeredinthestems,andfoliagewithasmoothsurfaceglaredlikemetallicmirrors。Asmallappletree,ofthesortcalledRatheripe,grewjustinsidethegate,theonlyonewhichthroveinthegarden,byreasonofthelightnessofthesoil;andamongthefallenapplesonthegroundbeneathwerewaspsrollingdrunkwiththejuice,orcreepingaboutthelittlecavesineachfruitwhichtheyhadeatenoutbeforestupefiedbyitssweetness。
BythedoorlayClym’sfurze—hookandthelasthandfuloffaggot—bondsshehadseenhimgather;theyhadplainlybeenthrowndownthereasheenteredthehouse。
6—AConjuncture,andItsResultuponthePedestrianWildeve,ashasbeenstated,wasdeterminedtovisitEustaciaboldly,byday,andontheeasytermsofarelation,sincethereddlemanhadspiedoutandspoilthiswalkstoherbynight。Thespellthatshehadthrownoverhiminthemoonlightdancemadeitimpossibleforamanhavingnostrongpuritanicforcewithinhimtokeepawayaltogether。Hemerelycalculatedonmeetingherandherhusbandinanordinarymanner,chattingalittlewhile,andleavingagain。Everyoutwardsignwastobeconventional;
buttheonegreatfactwouldbetheretosatisfyhim——hewouldseeher。HedidnotevendesireClym’sabsence,sinceitwasjustpossiblethatEustaciamightresentanysituationwhichcouldcompromiseherdignityasawife,whateverthestateofherhearttowardshim。Womenwereoftenso。
Hewentaccordingly;andithappenedthatthetimeofhisarrivalcoincidedwiththatofMrs。Yeobright’spauseonthehillnearthehouse。Whenhehadlookedroundthepremisesinthemannershehadnoticedhewentandknockedatthedoor。
Therewasafewminutes’interval,andthenthekeyturnedinthelock,thedooropened,andEustaciaherselfconfrontedhim。
Nobodycouldhaveimaginedfromherbearingnowthatherestoodthewomanwhohadjoinedwithhimintheimpassioneddanceoftheweekbefore,unlessindeedhecouldhavepenetratedbelowthesurfaceandgaugedtherealdepthofthatstillstream。
"Ihopeyoureachedhomesafely?"saidWildeve。
"Oyes,"shecarelesslyreturned。
"Andwereyounottiredthenextday?Ifearedyoumightbe。"
"Iwasrather。Youneednotspeaklow——nobodywillover—hearus。Mysmallservantisgoneonanerrandtothevillage。"
"ThenClymisnotathome?"
"Yes,heis。"
"O!Ithoughtthatperhapsyouhadlockedthedoorbecauseyouwerealoneandwereafraidoftramps。"
"No——hereismyhusband。"
Theyhadbeenstandingintheentry。Closingthefrontdoorandturningthekey,asbefore,shethrewopenthedooroftheadjoiningroomandaskedhimtowalkin。
Wildeveentered,theroomappearingtobeempty;
butassoonashehadadvancedafewstepshestarted。
OnthehearthruglayClymasleep。Besidehimweretheleggings,thickboots,leathergloves,andsleeve—
waistcoatinwhichheworked。
"Youmaygoin;youwillnotdisturbhim,"shesaid,followingbehind。"Myreasonforfasteningthedooristhathemaynotbeintrudeduponbyanychancecomerwhilelyinghere,ifIshouldbeinthegardenorupstairs。"
"Whyishesleepingthere?"saidWildeveinlowtones。
"Heisveryweary。Hewentoutathalf—pastfourthismorning,andhasbeenworkingeversince。Hecutsfurzebecauseitistheonlythinghecandothatdoesnotputanystrainuponhispooreyes。"Thecontrastbetweenthesleeper’sappearanceandWildeve’satthismomentwaspainfullyapparenttoEustacia,Wildevebeingelegantlydressedinanewsummersuitandlighthat;
andshecontinued:"Ah!youdon’tknowhowdifferentlyheappearedwhenIfirstmethim,thoughitissuchalittlewhileago。Hishandswereaswhiteandsoftasmine;
andlookatthemnow,howroughandbrowntheyare!
Hiscomplexionisbynaturefair,andthatrustylookhehasnow,allofacolourwithhisleatherclothes,iscausedbytheburningofthesun。"
"Whydoeshegooutatall!"Wildevewhispered。
"Becausehehatestobeidle;thoughwhatheearnsdoesn’taddmuchtoourexchequer。However,hesaysthatwhenpeoplearelivingupontheircapitaltheymustkeepdowncurrentexpensesbyturningapennywheretheycan。"
"Thefateshavenotbeenkindtoyou,EustaciaYeobright。"
"Ihavenothingtothankthemfor。"
"Norhashe——exceptfortheironegreatgifttohim。"
"What’sthat?"
Wildevelookedherintheeyes。
Eustaciablushedforthefirsttimethatday。
"Well,Iamaquestionablegift,"shesaidquietly。
"Ithoughtyoumeantthegiftofcontent——whichhehas,andIhavenot。"
"Icanunderstandcontentinsuchacase——thoughhowtheoutwardsituationcanattracthimpuzzlesme。"
"That’sbecauseyoudon’tknowhim。He’sanenthusiastaboutideas,andcarelessaboutoutwardthings。
HeoftenremindsmeoftheApostlePaul。"
"Iamgladtohearthathe’ssograndincharacterasthat。"
"Yes;buttheworstofitisthatthoughPaulwasexcellentasamanintheBiblehewouldhardlyhavedoneinreallife。"
Theirvoiceshadinstinctivelydroppedlower,thoughatfirsttheyhadtakennoparticularcaretoavoidawakeningClym。
"Well,ifthatmeansthatyourmarriageisamisfortunetoyou,youknowwhoistoblame,"saidWildeve。
"Themarriageisnomisfortuneinitself,"sheretortedwithsomelittlepetulance。"Itissimplytheaccidentwhichhashappenedsincethathasbeenthecauseofmyruin。
Ihavecertainlygotthistlesforfigsinaworldlysense,buthowcouldItellwhattimewouldbringforth?"
"Sometimes,Eustacia,Ithinkitisajudgmentuponyou。
Yourightlybelongedtome,youknow;andIhadnoideaoflosingyou。"
"No,itwasnotmyfault!Twocouldnotbelongtoyou;
andrememberthat,beforeIwasaware,youturnedasidetoanotherwoman。Itwascruellevityinyoutodothat。
Ineverdreamtofplayingsuchagameonmysidetillyoubeganitonyours。"
"Imeantnothingbyit,"repliedWildeve。"Itwasamereinterlude。Menaregiventothetrickofhavingapassingfancyforsomebodyelseinthemidstofapermanentlove,whichreassertsitselfafterwardsjustasbefore。
OnaccountofyourrebelliousmannertomeIwastemptedtogofurtherthanIshouldhavedone;andwhenyoustillwouldkeepplayingthesametantalizingpartIwentfurtherstill,andmarriedher。"TurningandlookingagainattheunconsciousformofClym,hemurmured,"Iamafraidthatyoudon’tvalueyourprize,Clym……HeoughttobehappierthanIinonethingatleast。
Hemayknowwhatitistocomedownintheworld,andtobeafflictedwithagreatpersonalcalamity;
butheprobablydoesn’tknowwhatitistolosethewomanheloved。"
"Heisnotungratefulforwinningher,"whisperedEustacia,"andinthatrespectheisagoodman。Manywomenwouldgofarforsuchahusband。ButdoIdesireunreasonablymuchinwantingwhatiscalledlife——
music,poetry,passion,war,andallthebeatingandpulsingthataregoingoninthegreatarteriesoftheworld?Thatwastheshapeofmyyouthfuldream;
butIdidnotgetit。YetIthoughtIsawthewaytoitinmyClym。"
"Andyouonlymarriedhimonthataccount?"
"Thereyoumistakeme。ImarriedhimbecauseIlovedhim,butIwon’tsaythatIdidn’tlovehimpartlybecauseI
thoughtIsawapromiseofthatlifeinhim。"
"Youhavedroppedintoyouroldmournfulkey。"
"ButIamnotgoingtobedepressed,"shecriedperversely。
"Ibegananewsystembygoingtothatdance,andImeantosticktoit。Clymcansingmerrily;whyshouldnotI?"
Wildevelookedthoughtfullyather。"Itiseasiertosayyouwillsingthantodoit;thoughifIcouldI
wouldencourageyouinyourattempt。Butaslifemeansnothingtome,withoutonethingwhichisnowimpossible,youwillforgivemefornotbeingabletoencourageyou。"
"Damon,whatisthematterwithyou,thatyouspeaklikethat?"sheasked,raisingherdeepshadyeyestohis。
"That’sathingIshallnevertellplainly;andperhapsifI
trytotellyouinriddlesyouwillnotcaretoguessthem。"
Eustaciaremainedsilentforaminute,andshesaid,"Weareinastrangerelationshiptoday。Youmincematterstoanuncommonnicety。Youmean,Damon,thatyoustillloveme。Well,thatgivesmesorrow,forIamnotmadesoentirelyhappybymymarriagethatIamwillingtospurnyoufortheinformation,asIoughttodo。
Butwehavesaidtoomuchaboutthis。Doyoumeantowaituntilmyhusbandisawake?"
"Ithoughttospeaktohim;butitisunnecessary,Eustacia,ifIoffendyoubynotforgettingyou,youarerighttomentionit;butdonottalkofspurning。"
Shedidnotreply,andtheystoodlookingmusinglyatClymashesleptoninthatprofoundsleepwhichistheresultofphysicallabourcarriedonincircumstancesthatwakenonervousfear。
"God,howIenvyhimthatsweetsleep!"saidWildeve。
"IhavenotsleptlikethatsinceIwasaboy——yearsandyearsago。"
Whiletheythuswatchedhimaclickatthegatewasaudible,andaknockcametothedoor。Eustaciawenttoawindowandlookedout。
Hercountenancechanged。Firstshebecamecrimson,andthentheredsubsidedtillitevenpartiallyleftherlips。
"ShallIgoaway?"saidWildeve,standingup。
"Ihardlyknow。"
"Whoisit?"
"Mrs。Yeobright。O,whatshesaidtomethatday!I
cannotunderstandthisvisit——whatdoesshemean?Andshesuspectsthatpasttimeofours。"
"Iaminyourhands。IfyouthinkshehadbetternotseemehereI’llgointothenextroom。"
"Well,yes——go。"
Wildeveatoncewithdrew;butbeforehehadbeenhalfaminuteintheadjoiningapartmentEustaciacameafterhim。
"No,"shesaid,"wewon’thaveanyofthis。Ifshecomesinshemustseeyou——andthinkifshelikesthere’ssomethingwrong!ButhowcanIopenthedoortoher,whenshedislikesme——wishestoseenotme,butherson?
Iwon’topenthedoor!"
Mrs。Yeobrightknockedagainmoreloudly。
"Herknockingwill,inalllikelihood,awakenhim,"
continuedEustacia,"andthenhewillletherinhimself。
Ah——listen。"
TheycouldhearClymmovingintheotherroom,asifdisturbedbytheknocking,andheutteredtheword"Mother。"
"Yes——heisawake——hewillgotothedoor,"
shesaid,withabreathofrelief。"Comethisway。
Ihaveabadnamewithher,andyoumustnotbeseen。
ThusIamobligedtoactbystealth,notbecauseIdoill,butbecauseothersarepleasedtosayso。"
Bythistimeshehadtakenhimtothebackdoor,whichwasopen,disclosingapathleadingdownthegarden。
"Now,oneword,Damon,"sheremarkedashesteppedforth。
"Thisisyourfirstvisithere;letitbeyourlast。
Wehavebeenhotloversinourtime,butitwon’tdonow。
Good—bye。"
"Good—bye,"saidWildeve。"IhavehadallIcamefor,andIamsatisfied。"
"Whatwasit?"
"Asightofyou。UponmyeternalhonourIcamefornomore。"
Wildevekissedhishandtothebeautifulgirlheaddressed,andpassedintothegarden,whereshewatchedhimdownthepath,overthestileattheend,andintothefernsoutside,whichbrushedhishipsashewentalongtillhebecamelostintheirthickets。Whenhehadquitegonesheslowlyturned,anddirectedherattentiontotheinteriorofthehouse。
ButitwaspossiblethatherpresencemightnotbedesiredbyClymandhismotheratthismomentoftheirfirstmeeting,orthatitwouldbesuperfluous。
Atallevents,shewasinnohurrytomeetMrs。Yeobright。
SheresolvedtowaittillClymcametolookforher,andglidedbackintothegarden。Heresheidlyoccupiedherselfforafewminutes,tillfindingnonoticewastakenofhersheretracedherstepsthroughthehousetothefront,whereshelistenedforvoicesintheparlour。
Buthearingnonesheopenedthedoorandwentin。
ToherastonishmentClymlaypreciselyasWildeveandherselfhadlefthim,hissleepapparentlyunbroken。Hehadbeendisturbedandmadetodreamandmurmurbytheknocking,buthehadnotawakened。Eustaciahastenedtothedoor,andinspiteofherreluctancetoopenittoawomanwhohadspokenofhersobitterly,sheunfasteneditandlookedout。
Nobodywastobeseen。There,bythescraper,layClym’shookandthehandfuloffaggot—bondshehadbroughthome;
infrontofherweretheemptypath,thegardengatestandingslightlyajar;and,beyond,thegreatvalleyofpurpleheaththrillingsilentlyinthesun。Mrs。Yeobrightwasgone。
Clym’smotherwasatthistimefollowingapathwhichlayhiddenfromEustaciabyashoulderofthehill。Herwalkthitherfromthegardengatehadbeenhastyanddetermined,asofawomanwhowasnownolessanxioustoescapefromthescenethanshehadpreviouslybeentoenterit。
Hereyeswerefixedontheground;withinhertwosightsweregraven——thatofClym’shookandbramblesatthedoor,andthatofawoman’sfaceatawindow。Herlipstrembled,becomingunnaturallythinasshemurmured,"’Tistoomuch——Clym,howcanhebeartodoit!Heisathome;
andyetheletshershutthedooragainstme!"
Inheranxietytogetoutofthedirectviewofthehouseshehaddivergedfromthestraightestpathhomeward,andwhilelookingabouttoregainitshecameuponalittleboygatheringwhortleberriesinahollow。
TheboywasJohnnyNunsuch,whohadbeenEustacia’sstokeratthebonfire,and,withthetendencyofaminutebodytogravitatetowardsagreater,hebeganhoveringroundMrs。Yeobrightassoonassheappeared,andtrottedonbesideherwithoutperceptibleconsciousnessofhisact。
Mrs。Yeobrightspoketohimasoneinamesmericsleep。
"’Tisalongwayhome,mychild,andweshallnotgettheretillevening。"
"Ishall,"saidhersmallcompanion。"Iamgoingtoplaymarnelsaforesupper,andwegotosupperatsixo’clock,becauseFathercomeshome。Doesyourfathercomehomeatsixtoo?"
"No,henevercomes;normysoneither,noranybody。"
"Whathavemadeyousodown?Haveyouseenaooser?"
"Ihaveseenwhat’sworse——awoman’sfacelookingatmethroughawindowpane。"
"Isthatabadsight?"
"Yes。Itisalwaysabadsighttoseeawomanlookingoutatawearywayfarerandnotlettingherin。"
"OncewhenIwenttoThroopeGreatPondtocatcheffetsIseedmyselflookingupatmyself,andIwasfrightenedandjumpedbacklikeanything。"……"Iftheyhadonlyshownsignsofmeetingmyadvanceshalfwayhowwellitmighthavebeendone!Butthereisnochance。Shutout!Shemusthavesethimagainstme。
Cantherebebeautifulbodieswithoutheartsinside?I
thinkso。Iwouldnothavedoneitagainstaneighbour’scatonsuchafierydayasthis!"
"Whatisityousay?"
"Neveragain——never!Noteveniftheysendforme!"
"Youmustbeaverycuriouswomantotalklikethat。"
"Ono,notatall,"shesaid,returningtotheboy’sprattle。
"MostpeoplewhogrowupandhavechildrentalkasIdo。
WhenyougrowupyourmotherwilltalkasIdotoo。"
"Ihopeshewon’t;because’tisverybadtotalknonsense。"
"Yes,child;itisnonsense,Isuppose。Areyounotnearlyspentwiththeheat?"
"Yes。Butnotsomuchasyoube。"
"Howdoyouknow?"
"Yourfaceiswhiteandwet,andyourheadishanging—down—like。"
"Ah,Iamexhaustedfrominside。"
"Whydoyou,everytimeyoutakeastep,golikethis?"
Thechildinspeakinggavetohismotionthejerkandlimpofaninvalid。
"BecauseIhaveaburdenwhichismorethanIcanbear。"
Thelittleboyremainedsilentlypondering,andtheytotteredonsidebysideuntilmorethanaquarterofanhourhadelapsed,whenMrs。Yeobright,whoseweaknessplainlyincreased,saidtohim,"Imustsitdownheretorest。"
Whenshehadseatedherselfhelookedlonginherfaceandsaid,"Howfunnyyoudrawyourbreath——likealambwhenyoudrivehimtillhe’snearlydonefor。
Doyoualwaysdrawyourbreathlikethat?"
"Notalways。"Hervoicewasnowsolowastobescarcelyaboveawhisper。
"Youwillgotosleepthere,Isuppose,won’tyou?Youhaveshutyoureyesalready。"
"No。Ishallnotsleepmuchtill——anotherday,andthenIhopetohavealong,longone——verylong。NowcanyoutellmeifRimsmoorPondisdrythissummer?"
"RimsmoorPondis,butOker’sPoolisn’t,becauseheisdeep,andisneverdry——’tisjustoverthere。"
"Isthewaterclear?"
"Yes,middling——exceptwheretheheath—cropperswalkintoit。"
"Then,takethis,andgoasfastasyoucan,anddipmeuptheclearestyoucanfind。Iamveryfaint。"
Shedrewfromthesmallwillowreticulethatshecarriedinherhandanold—fashionedchinateacupwithoutahandle;itwasoneofhalfadozenofthesamesortlyinginthereticule,whichshehadpreservedeversinceherchildhood,andhadbroughtwithhertodayasasmallpresentforClymandEustacia。
Theboystartedonhiserrand,andsooncamebackwiththewater,suchasitwas。Mrs。Yeobrightattemptedtodrink,butitwassowarmastogivehernausea,andshethrewitaway。Afterwardsshestillremainedsitting,withhereyesclosed。
Theboywaited,playednearher,caughtseveralofthelittlebrownbutterflieswhichabounded,andthensaidashewaitedagain,"Ilikegoingonbetterthanbidingstill。
Willyousoonstartagain?"
"Idon’tknow。"
"IwishImightgoonbymyself,"heresumed,fearing,apparently,thathewastobepressedintosomeunpleasantservice。"Doyouwantmeanymore,please?"
Mrs。Yeobrightmadenoreply。
"WhatshallItellMother?"theboycontinued。