butreasonhavingnowsomewhatrecovereditselfhesankintotaciturnity。
Oneeveningwhenhewasthusstandinginthegarden,abstractedlyspuddingupaweedwithhisstick,abonyfigureturnedthecornerofthehouseandcameuptohim。
"Christian,isn’tit?"saidClym。"Iamgladyouhavefoundmeout。IshallsoonwantyoutogotoBlooms—
Endandassistmeinputtingthehouseinorder。
IsupposeitisalllockedupasIleftit?"
"Yes,MisterClym。"
"Haveyoudugupthepotatoesandotherroots?"
"Yes,withoutadropo’rain,thankGod。ButIwascomingtotell’eeofsomethingelsewhichisquitedifferentfromwhatwehavelatelyhadinthefamily。
IamsentbytherichgentlemanattheWoman,thatweusedtocallthelandlord,totell’eethatMrs。Wildeveisdoingwellofagirl,whichwasbornpunctuallyatoneo’clockatnoon,orafewminutesmoreorless;
and’tissaidthatexpectingofthisincreaseiswhathavekept’emtheresincetheycameintotheirmoney。"
"Andsheisgettingonwell,yousay?"
"Yes,sir。OnlyMr。Wildeveistwankybecause’tisn’taboy——that’swhattheysayinthekitchen,butIwasnotsupposedtonoticethat。"
"Christian,nowlistentome。"
"Yes,sure,Mr。Yeobright。"
"Didyouseemymotherthedaybeforeshedied?"
"No,Ididnot。"
Yeobright’sfaceexpresseddisappointment。
"ButIzeedherthemorningofthesamedayshedied。"
Clym’slooklightedup。"That’snearerstilltomymeaning,"
hesaid。
"Yes,Iknow’twasthesameday;forshesaid,’Ibegoingtoseehim,Christian;soIshallnotwantanyvegetablesbroughtinfordinner。’"
"Seewhom?"
"Seeyou。Shewasgoingtoyourhouse,youunderstand。"
YeobrightregardedChristianwithintensesurprise。
"Whydidyounevermentionthis?"hesaid。"Areyousureitwasmyhouseshewascomingto?"
"Oyes。Ididn’tmentionitbecauseI’veneverzeedyoulately。Andasshedidn’tgetthereitwasallnought,andnothingtotell。"
"AndIhavebeenwonderingwhysheshouldhavewalkedintheheathonthathotday!Well,didshesaywhatshewascomingfor?Itisathing,Christian,Iamveryanxioustoknow。"
"Yes,MisterClym。Shedidn’tsayittome,thoughI
thinkshedidtoonehereandthere。"
"Doyouknowonepersontowhomshespokeofit?"
"Thereisoneman,please,sir,butIhopeyouwon’tmentionmynametohim,asIhaveseenhiminstrangeplaces,particularindreams。OnenightlastsummerheglaredatmelikeFamineandSword,anditmademefeelsolowthatIdidn’tcomboutmyfewhairsfortwodays。
Hewasstanding,asitmightbe,MisterYeobright,inthemiddleofthepathtoMistover,andyourmothercameup,lookingaspale——"
"Yes,whenwasthat?"
"Lastsummer,inmydream。"
"Pooh!Who’stheman?"
"Diggory,thereddleman。Hecalleduponherandsatwithhertheeveningbeforeshesetouttoseeyou。
Ihadn’tgonehomefromworkwhenhecameuptothegate。"
"ImustseeVenn——IwishIhadknownitbefore,"
saidClymanxiously。"Iwonderwhyhehasnotcometotellme?"
"HewentoutofEgdonHeaththenextday,sowouldnotbelikelytoknowyouwantedhim。"
"Christian,"saidClym,"youmustgoandfindVenn。
Iamotherwiseengaged,orIwouldgomyself。Findhimatonce,andtellhimIwanttospeaktohim。"
"Iamagoodhandathuntingupfolkbyday,"saidChristian,lookingdubiouslyroundatthedeclininglight;
"butastonight—time,neverissuchabadhandasI,MisterYeobright。"
"Searchtheheathwhenyouwill,sothatyoubringhimsoon。
Bringhimtomorrow,ifyoucan。"
Christianthendeparted。Themorrowcame,butnoVenn。
IntheeveningChristianarrived,lookingveryweary。
Hehadbeensearchingallday,andhadheardnothingofthereddleman。
"Inquireasmuchasyoucantomorrowwithoutneglectingyourwork,"saidYeobright。"Don’tcomeagaintillyouhavefoundhim。"
ThenextdayYeobrightsetoutfortheoldhouseatBlooms—End,which,withthegarden,wasnowhisown。
Hissevereillnesshadhinderedallpreparationsforhisremovalthither;butithadbecomenecessarythatheshouldgoandoverlookitscontents,asadministratortohismother’slittleproperty;forwhichpurposehedecidedtopassthenextnightonthepremises。
Hejourneyedonward,notquicklyordecisively,butintheslowwalkofonewhohasbeenawakenedfromastupefyingsleep。
Itwasearlyafternoonwhenhereachedthevalley。
Theexpressionoftheplace,thetoneofthehour,werepreciselythoseofmanysuchoccasionsindaysgoneby;
andtheseantecedentsimilaritiesfosteredtheillusionthatshe,whowastherenolonger,wouldcomeouttowelcomehim。
Thegardengatewaslockedandtheshutterswereclosed,justashehimselfhadleftthemontheeveningafterthefuneral。Heunlockedthegate,andfoundthataspiderhadalreadyconstructedalargeweb,tyingthedoortothelintel,onthesuppositionthatitwasnevertobeopenedagain。Whenhehadenteredthehouseandflungbacktheshuttershesetabouthistaskofoverhaulingthecupboardsandclosets,burningpapers,andconsideringhowbesttoarrangetheplaceforEustacia’sreception,untilsuchtimeashemightbeinapositiontocarryouthislong—delayedscheme,shouldthattimeeverarrive。
Ashesurveyedtheroomshefeltstronglydisinclinedforthealterationswhichwouldhavetobemadeinthetime—honouredfurnishingofhisparentsandgrandparents,tosuitEustacia’smodernideas。Thegauntoak—casedclock,withthepictureoftheAscensiononthedoorpanelandtheMiraculousDraughtofFishesonthebase;
hisgrandmother’scornercupboardwiththeglassdoor,throughwhichthespottedchinawasvisible;thedumb—waiter;
thewoodenteatrays;thehangingfountainwiththebrasstap——whitherwouldthesevenerablearticleshavetobebanished?
Henoticedthattheflowersinthewindowhaddiedforwantofwater,andheplacedthemoutupontheledge,thattheymightbetakenaway。Whilethusengagedheheardfootstepsonthegravelwithout,andsomebodyknockedatthedoor。
Yeobrightopenedit,andVennwasstandingbeforehim。
"Goodmorning,"saidthereddleman。"IsMrs。Yeobrightathome?"
Yeobrightlookedupontheground。"ThenyouhavenotseenChristianoranyoftheEgdonfolks?"hesaid。
"No。Ihaveonlyjustreturnedafteralongstayaway。
IcalledherethedaybeforeIleft。"
"Andyouhaveheardnothing?"
"Nothing。"
"Mymotheris——dead。"
"Dead!"saidVennmechanically。
"HerhomenowiswhereIshouldn’tmindhavingmine。"
Vennregardedhim,andthensaid,"IfIdidn’tseeyourfaceIcouldneverbelieveyourwords。Haveyoubeenill?"
"Ihadanillness。"
"Well,thechange!WhenIpartedfromheramonthagoeverythingseemedtosaythatshewasgoingtobeginanewlife。"
"Andwhatseemedcametrue。"
"Yousayright,nodoubt。Troublehastaughtyouadeeperveinoftalkthanmine。AllImeantwasregardingherlifehere。Shehasdiedtoosoon。"
"Perhapsthroughmylivingtoolong。Ihavehadabitterexperienceonthatscorethislastmonth,Diggory。
Butcomein;Ihavebeenwantingtoseeyou。"
HeconductedthereddlemanintothelargeroomwherethedancinghadtakenplacethepreviousChristmas,andtheysatdowninthesettletogether。"There’sthecoldfireplace,yousee,"saidClym。"Whenthathalf—
burntlogandthosecinderswerealightshewasalive!
Littlehasbeenchangedhereyet。Icandonothing。
Mylifecreepslikeasnail。"
"Howcameshetodie?"saidVenn。
Yeobrightgavehimsomeparticularsofherillnessanddeath,andcontinued:"Afterthisnokindofpainwilleverseemmorethananindispositiontome。
IbegansayingthatIwantedtoaskyousomething,butI
strayfromsubjectslikeadrunkenman。Iamanxioustoknowwhatmymothersaidtoyouwhenshelastsawyou。
Youtalkedwithheralongtime,Ithink?"
"Italkedwithhermorethanhalfanhour。"
"Aboutme?"
"Yes。Anditmusthavebeenonaccountofwhatwesaidthatshewasontheheath。Withoutquestionshewascomingtoseeyou。"
"Butwhyshouldshecometoseemeifshefeltsobitterlyagainstme?There’sthemystery。"
"YetIknowshequiteforgave’ee。"
"But,Diggory——wouldawoman,whohadquiteforgivenherson,say,whenshefeltherselfillonthewaytohishouse,thatshewasbroken—heartedbecauseofhisill—usage?Never!"
"WhatIknowisthatshedidn’tblameyouatall。
Sheblamedherselfforwhathadhappened,andonlyherself。
Ihaditfromherownlips。"
"YouhaditfromherlipsthatIhadNOTill—treatedher;
andatthesametimeanotherhaditfromherlipsthatI
HADill—treatedher?Mymotherwasnoimpulsivewomanwhochangedheropinioneveryhourwithoutreason。
Howcanitbe,Venn,thatsheshouldhavetoldsuchdifferentstoriesinclosesuccession?"
"Icannotsay。Itiscertainlyodd,whenshehadforgivenyou,andhadforgivenyourwife,andwasgoingtoseeyeonpurposetomakefriends。"
"Iftherewasonethingwantingtobewildermeitwasthisincomprehensiblething!……Diggory,ifwe,whoremainalive,wereonlyallowedtoholdconversationwiththedead——justonce,abareminute,eventhroughascreenofironbars,aswithpersonsinprison——whatwemightlearn!Howmanywhonowridesmilingwouldhidetheirheads!Andthismystery——Ishouldthenbeatthebottomofitatonce。
Butthegravehasforevershutherin;andhowshallitbefoundoutnow?"
Noreplywasreturnedbyhiscompanion,sincenonecouldbegiven;andwhenVennleft,afewminuteslater,Clymhadpassedfromthedullnessofsorrowtothefluctuationofcarkingincertitude。
Hecontinuedinthesamestatealltheafternoon。
Abedwasmadeupforhiminthesamehousebyaneighbour,thathemightnothavetoreturnagainthenextday;
andwhenheretiredtorestinthedesertedplaceitwasonlytoremainawakehourafterhourthinkingthesamethoughts。Howtodiscoverasolutiontothisriddleofdeathseemedaqueryofmoreimportancethanhighestproblemsoftheliving。TherewashousedinhismemoryavividpictureofthefaceofalittleboyasheenteredthehovelwhereClym’smotherlay。Theroundeyes,eagergaze,thepipingvoicewhichenunciatedthewords,hadoperatedlikestilettosonhisbrain。
Avisittotheboysuggesteditselfasameansofgleaningnewparticulars;thoughitmightbequiteunproductive。
Toprobeachild’smindafterthelapseofsixweeks,notforfactswhichthechildhadseenandunderstood,buttogetatthosewhichwereintheirnaturebeyondhim,didnotpromisemuch;yetwheneveryobviouschannelisblockedwegropetowardsthesmallandobscure。
Therewasnothingelselefttodo;afterthathewouldallowtheenigmatodropintotheabyssofundiscoverablethings。
Itwasaboutdaybreakwhenhehadreachedthisdecision,andheatoncearose。Helockedupthehouseandwentoutintothegreenpatchwhichmergedinheatherfurtheron。
Infrontofthewhitegarden—palingsthepathbranchedintothreelikeabroadarrow。TheroadtotherightledtotheQuietWomananditsneighbourhood;themiddletrackledtoMistoverKnap;theleft—handtrackledoverthehilltoanotherpartofMistover,wherethechildlived。
OnincliningintothelatterpathYeobrightfeltacreepingchilliness,familiarenoughtomostpeople,andprobablycausedbytheunsunnedmorningair。Inafterdayshethoughtofitasathingofsingularsignificance。
WhenYeobrightreachedthecottageofSusanNunsuch,themotheroftheboyhesought,hefoundthattheinmateswerenotyetastir。Butinuplandhamletsthetransitionfroma—bedtoabroadissurprisinglyswiftandeasy。
Therenodensepartitionofyawnsandtoiletsdivideshumanitybynightfromhumanitybyday。Yeobrighttappedattheupperwindowsill,whichhecouldreachwithhiswalkingstick;andinthreeorfourminutesthewomancamedown。
ItwasnottillthismomentthatClymrecollectedhertobethepersonwhohadbehavedsobarbarouslytoEustacia。
Itpartlyexplainedtheinsuavitywithwhichthewomangreetedhim。Moreover,theboyhadbeenailingagain;
andSusannow,aseversincethenightwhenhehadbeenpressedintoEustacia’sserviceatthebonfire,attributedhisindispositionstoEustacia’sinfluenceasawitch。Itwasoneofthosesentimentswhichlurklikemolesunderneaththevisiblesurfaceofmanners,andmayhavebeenkeptalivebyEustacia’sentreatytothecaptain,atthetimethathehadintendedtoprosecuteSusanfortheprickinginchurch,toletthematterdrop;
whichheaccordinglyhaddone。
Yeobrightovercamehisrepugnance,forSusanhadatleastbornehismothernoill—will。Heaskedkindlyfortheboy;
buthermannerdidnotimprove。
"Iwishtoseehim,"continuedYeobright,withsomehesitation,"toaskhimifheremembersanythingmoreofhiswalkwithmymotherthanwhathehaspreviouslytold。"
Sheregardedhiminapeculiarandcriticizingmanner。
Toanybodybutahalf—blindmanitwouldhavesaid,"Youwantanotheroftheknockswhichhavealreadylaidyousolow。"
Shecalledtheboydownstairs,askedClymtositdownonastool,andcontinued,"Now,Johnny,tellMr。Yeobrightanythingyoucancalltomind。"
"Youhavenotforgottenhowyouwalkedwiththepoorladyonthathotday?"saidClym。
"No,"saidtheboy。
"Andwhatshesaidtoyou?"
Theboyrepeatedtheexactwordshehadusedonenteringthehut。
Yeobrightrestedhiselbowonthetableandshadedhisfacewithhishand;andthemotherlookedasifshewonderedhowamancouldwantmoreofwhathadstunghimsodeeply。
"ShewasgoingtoAlderworthwhenyoufirstmether?"
"No;shewascomingaway。"
"Thatcan’tbe。"
"Yes;shewalkedalongwithme。Iwascomingaway,too。"
"Thenwheredidyoufirstseeher?"
"Atyourhouse。"
"Attend,andspeakthetruth!"saidClymsternly。
"Yes,sir;atyourhousewaswhereIseedherfirst。"
Clymstartedup,andSusansmiledinanexpectantwaywhichdidnotembellishherface;itseemedtomean,"Somethingsinisteriscoming!"
"Whatdidshedoatmyhouse?"
"ShewentandsatunderthetreesattheDevil’sBellows。"
"GoodGod!thisisallnewstome!"
"Younevertoldmethisbefore?"saidSusan。
"No,Mother;becauseIdidn’tliketotell’eeIhadbeensofar。Iwaspickingblackhearts,andwentfurtherthanImeant。"
"Whatdidshedothen?"saidYeobright。
"Lookedatamanwhocameupandwentintoyourhouse。"
"Thatwasmyself——afurze—cutter,withbramblesinhishand。"
"No;’twasnotyou。’Twasagentleman。Youhadgoneinafore。"
"Whowashe?"
"Idon’tknow。"
"Nowtellmewhathappenednext。"
"Thepoorladywentandknockedatyourdoor,andtheladywithblackhairlookedoutofthesidewindowather。"
Theboy’smotherturnedtoClymandsaid,"Thisissomethingyoudidn’texpect?"
Yeobrighttooknomorenoticeofherthanifhehadbeenofstone。"Goon,goon,"hesaidhoarselytotheboy。
"Andwhenshesawtheyoungladylookoutofthewindowtheoldladyknockedagain;andwhennobodycameshetookupthefurze—hookandlookedatit,andputitdownagain,andthenshelookedatthefaggot—bonds;andthenshewentaway,andwalkedacrosstome,andblowedherbreathveryhard,likethis。Wewalkedontogether,sheandI,andItalkedtoherandshetalkedtomeabit,butnotmuch,becauseshecouldn’tblowherbreath。"
"O!"murmuredClym,inalowtone,andbowedhishead。
"Let’shavemore,"hesaid。
"Shecouldn’ttalkmuch,andshecouldn’twalk;andherfacewas,Osoqueer!"
"Howwasherface?"
"Likeyoursisnow。"
ThewomanlookedatYeobright,andbeheldhimcolourless,inacoldsweat。"Isn’ttheremeaninginit?"
shesaidstealthily。"Whatdoyouthinkofhernow?"
"Silence!"saidClymfiercely。And,turningtotheboy,"Andthenyoulefthertodie?"
"No,"saidthewoman,quicklyandangrily。"Hedidnotleavehertodie!Shesenthimaway。Whoeversaysheforsookhersayswhat’snottrue。"
"Troublenomoreaboutthat,"answeredClym,withaquiveringmouth。"Whathedidisatrifleincomparisonwithwhathesaw。Doorkeptshut,didyousay?Keptshut,shelookingoutofwindow?GoodheartofGod!——whatdoesitmean?"
Thechildshrankawayfromthegazeofhisquestioner。
"Hesaidso,"answeredthemother,"andJohnny’saGod—
fearingboyandtellsnolies。"
"’Castoffbymyson!’No,bymybestlife,dearmother,itisnotso!Butbyyourson’s,yourson’s——Mayallmurderessesgetthetormenttheydeserve!"
WiththesewordsYeobrightwentforthfromthelittledwelling。
Thepupilsofhiseyes,fixedsteadfastlyonblankness,werevaguelylitwithanicyshine;hismouthhadpassedintothephasemoreorlessimaginativelyrenderedinstudiesofOedipus。Thestrangestdeedswerepossibletohismood。
Buttheywerenotpossibletohissituation。InsteadoftherebeingbeforehimthepalefaceofEustacia,andamasculineshapeunknown,therewasonlytheimperturbablecountenanceoftheheath,which,havingdefiedthecataclysmalonsetsofcenturies,reducedtoinsignificancebyitsseamedandantiquefeaturesthewildestturmoilofasingleman。
3—EustaciaDressesHerselfonaBlackMorningAconsciousnessofavastimpassivityinallwhichlayaroundhimtookpossessionevenofYeobrightinhiswildwalktowardsAlderworth。Hehadoncebeforefeltinhisownpersonthisoverpoweringofthefervidbytheinanimate;
butthenithadtendedtoenervateapassionfarsweeterthanthatwhichatpresentpervadedhim。ItwasoncewhenhestoodpartingfromEustaciainthemoiststilllevelsbeyondthehills。
Butdismissingallthishewentonwardhome,andcametothefrontofhishouse。TheblindsofEustacia’sbedroomwerestillcloselydrawn,forshewasnoearlyriser。
Allthelifevisiblewasintheshapeofasolitarythrushcrackingasmallsnailuponthedoor—stoneforhisbreakfast,andhistappingseemedaloudnoiseinthegeneralsilencewhichprevailed;butongoingtothedoorClymfounditunfastened,theyounggirlwhoattendeduponEustaciabeingastirinthebackpartofthepremises。
Yeobrightenteredandwentstraighttohiswife’sroom。
Thenoiseofhisarrivalmusthavearousedher,forwhenheopenedthedoorshewasstandingbeforethelookingglassinhernightdress,theendsofherhairgatheredintoonehand,withwhichshewascoilingthewholemassroundherhead,previoustobeginningtoiletteoperations。
Shewasnotawomangiventospeakingfirstatameeting,andsheallowedClymtowalkacrossinsilence,withoutturningherhead。Hecamebehindher,andshesawhisfaceintheglass。Itwasashy,haggard,andterrible。
Insteadofstartingtowardshiminsorrowfulsurprise,asevenEustacia,undemonstrativewifeasshewas,wouldhavedoneindaysbeforesheburdenedherselfwithasecret,sheremainedmotionless,lookingathimintheglass。
Andwhileshelookedthecarmineflushwithwhichwarmthandsoundsleephadsuffusedhercheeksandneckdissolvedfromview,andthedeathlikepallorinhisfaceflewacrossintohers。Hewascloseenoughtoseethis,andthesightinstigatedhistongue。
"Youknowwhatisthematter,"hesaidhuskily。
"Iseeitinyourface。"
Herhandrelinquishedtheropeofhairanddroppedtoherside,andthepileoftresses,nolongersupported,fellfromthecrownofherheadabouthershouldersandoverthewhitenightgown。Shemadenoreply。
"Speaktome,"saidYeobrightperemptorily。
Theblanchingprocessdidnotceaseinher,andherlipsnowbecameaswhiteasherface。Sheturnedtohimandsaid,"Yes,Clym,I’llspeaktoyou。Whydoyoureturnsoearly?CanIdoanythingforyou?"
"Yes,youcanlistentome。Itseemsthatmywifeisnotverywell?"
"Why?"
"Yourface,mydear;yourface。Orperhapsitisthepalemorninglightwhichtakesyourcolouraway?
NowIamgoingtorevealasecrettoyou。Ha—ha!"
"O,thatisghastly!"
"What?"
"Yourlaugh。"
"There’sreasonforghastliness。Eustacia,youhaveheldmyhappinessinthehollowofyourhand,andlikeadevilyouhavedasheditdown!"
Shestartedbackfromthedressing—table,retreatedafewstepsfromhim,andlookedhimintheface。"Ah!youthinktofrightenme,"shesaid,withaslightlaugh。
"Isitworthwhile?Iamundefended,andalone。"
"Howextraordinary!"
"Whatdoyoumean?"
"AsthereisampletimeIwilltellyou,thoughyouknowwellenough。Imeanthatitisextraordinarythatyoushouldbealoneinmyabsence。Tellme,now,whereishewhowaswithyouontheafternoonofthethirty—
firstofAugust?Underthebed?Upthechimney?"
Ashudderovercameherandshookthelightfabricofhernightdressthroughout。"Idonotrememberdatessoexactly,"
shesaid。"Icannotrecollectthatanybodywaswithmebesidesyourself。"
"ThedayImean,"saidYeobright,hisvoicegrowinglouderandharsher,"wasthedayyoushutthedooragainstmymotherandkilledher。O,itistoomuch——toobad!"
Heleantoverthefootpieceofthebedsteadforafewmoments,withhisbacktowardsher;thenrisingagain——"Tellme,tellme!tellme——doyouhear?"hecried,rushinguptoherandseizingherbytheloosefoldsofhersleeve。
Thesuperstratumoftimiditywhichoftenoverliesthosewhoaredaringanddefiantathearthadbeenpassedthrough,andthemettlesomesubstanceofthewomanwasreached。
Theredbloodinundatedherface,previouslysopale。
"Whatareyougoingtodo?"shesaidinalowvoice,regardinghimwithaproudsmile。"Youwillnotalarmmebyholdingonso;butitwouldbeapitytotearmysleeve。"