IreadintoLadyJohn’swonderfulmanner——whichquiteclamoured,moreover,foraninterpretation——allthatwasimpliedinthelessonIhadextractedfromotherportionsofthebusiness。Itwasdistinctlypoorshewhogavemethelead,anditwasnotlessdefinitethatsheputittomethatI
  shouldrenderheraserviceeitherbyremainingwiththemorbyinventingsomething—thatwouldlureherpersecutoraway。Shedesiredhim,evenatthecostofherbeingleftalone,distractedfromhispursuit。
  Poorhe,inhisquarter,Ihastentoadd,contributedtomypickingoutthisembroiderynothingmorehelpfulthanasustaineddetachment。Hesaidaslittleaspossible,seemedheedlessofwhatwasotherwisesaid,andonlygavemeonhisownaccountalookortwoofdimsuggestiveness。
  Yetitwastheselooksthatmosttoldwithme,andwhatthey,fortheirpart,conveyedwasapleathatdirectlycontradictedLadyJohn’s。Iunderstoodhimthatitwashewhowasbored,hewhohadbeenpursued,heforwhomperversityhadbecomeadreadfulmenace,he,infine,whopleadedformyintervention。HewassowillingtotrustmetorelievehimofhiscompanionthatIthinkhewouldsimplyhaveboltedwithoutdeferringtomeifIhadnottakenmyprecautionsagainstit。Ihad,asithappened,anothermomentaryuseforhimthanthis:IwishedontheonehandnottolosehimandontheothernottoloseLadyJohn,thoughIhadquicklyenoughguessedthisbrilliantwoman’srealpreference,ofwhichitinfactsoonbecamemylivelywishtoseetheproof。Theunionofthesetwowastooartificialformenotalreadytohaveconnectedwithittheserviceitmightrender,inherladyship’sview,tothatundetectedcultivation,onherpart,ofasentimentforGilbertLongwhich,throughhisfeignedresponsetoit,fittedsocompletelytotheotherpiecesinmycollection。Toseeallthiswasatthetime,Iremember,tobeasinhumanlyamusedasifonehadfoundonecouldcreatesomething。IhadcreatednothingbutaclueortwotothelargercomprehensionIstillneeded,yetIpositivelyfoundmyselfovertakenbyamildartisticglow。Whathadoccurredwasthat,formyfulldemonstration,IneededLong,andthat,bythesamestroke,IbecamesureIshouldcertainlygethimbytemporisingalittle。
  LadyJohnwasinlovewithhimandhadkickedup,tosavehercredit,thedustofafictiverelationwithanotherman——therelationoneofmereartificeandthemanoneinherencouragementofwhomnobodywouldbelieve。
  Yetshewasalsodiscoverablydividedbetweenherprudenceandhervanity,forifitwasdifficulttomakepoorBrissfigureatallvividlyasaninsistentsatellite,thethanklesstactshehadtoemploygaveherexactly,sheargued,therighttoberefreshinglyfannedwithanoccasionalflapoftheflagunderwhichshehad,assheridiculouslyfancied,trulyconquered。
  IfshewaswhereIfoundherbecauseherescorthaddraggedherthere,shehadmadethebestofitthroughthehopeofassistancefromanotherquarter。ShehadheldoutonthepossibilitythatMr。Long——whomoneCOULD
  withoutabsurditysitinanarbourwith——mighthavehadsomehappydivinationofherplight。Hehadhadsuchdivinationsbefore——thankstoaconditioninhimthatmadesensibilityabnormal——andtheleastawretchedwomancoulddowhenbetrayedbytheexcessofnature’sbountywastoplayadmireragainstadmirerandbe"talkedabout"onherownterms。Shewouldjustthisoncehaveadmittedit,Iwastogather,tobeanoccasionforpleadingguilty——oh,soharmlessly!——toaconsciousnessofthegentlemanmutelynamedbetweenus。Well,the"proof"IjustalludedtowasthatIhadnotsatwithmyfriendsfiveminutesbeforeGilbertLongturnedup。
  IsawinamomenthowneatlymybeingtherewiththemplayedHISgame;
  IbecameinthisfashionawitnessforhimthathecouldalmostaslittleleaveLadyJohnaloneas——well,asotherpeoplecould。Itmayperfectlyhavebeenthepleasureofthisreflectionthatagainmadehimfreeandgay——producedinhim,inanycase,adifferentshadeofmannerfromthatwithwhich,beforeluncheon,astheconsequenceperhapsofavagueflairformypossiblepenetration,Ihadsuspectedhimofedgingawayfromme。
  NotsincemyencounterwithhimatPaddingtontheafternoonbeforehadIhadsotorecognisehimasthetransfiguredtalker。ToseeLadyJohnwithhimwastohavelittleenoughdoubtofHERrecognitions,justasthisspectaclealsodottedeach"i"inmyconvictionofhisvenial——Icanonlycallitthat——duplicity。Imadeupmymindonthespotthatithadbeennopartofhisplantopractiseonher,andthattheworsthecouldhavebeenaccusedofwasagood—naturedacceptance,moreapparentthanreal,forhisownpurposes,ofhertheory——whichshefromtimetotimeletpeepout——thattheywouldhavelikedeachotherbetteriftheyhadn’tbeeneach,alas!sogood。Heprofitedbythehappyaccidentofhavingpleasedapersonsomuchinevidence,andindeeditwastolerablycleartomethatneitherpartywasduped。LadyJohndidn’twantalover;thiswouldhavebeen,aspeoplesay,alargerorderthan,giventheothercomplicationsofherexistence,shecouldmeet;butshewanted,inahighdegree,theappearanceofcarryingonapassionthatimposedalikefearlessrealisationsandconsciousrenouncements,andthiscircumstancefullyfellinwiththeconvenienceandthespecialsituationofherfriend。Hervanityrejoiced,sofarasshedaredtoletitnibble,andthemysteriesshepractised,thedissimulationssheelaborated,thegeneraldangerofdetectioninwhichsheflatteredherselfthatshepubliclywalked,wereafterallsomuchgristtothemillofthatappetite。
  Byjustsomuch,however,asitcouldnevercomeupbetweenthemthattherewasanotherwomaninGilbert’shistory,byjustsomuchwoulditontheotherhandhavebeenanarticulateaxiomthatasmanyofthepoorBrissesoftheworldasshemightcaretoaccommodatewouldbewelcometofigureinherown。Thispersonage,underthatdeeperinduction,IsuddenlybecameawarethatIalsogreatlypitied——pitiedalmostasmuchasIpitiedMrs。Server;andmypityhaddoubtlesssomethingtodowiththefactthat,afterIhadproposedtohimthatweshouldadjourntogetherandwehad,onhisprompt,eventhoughslightlydryresponse,placedtheinvidiousarbouratacertaindistance,Ipassedmyhandintohisarm。TherewerethingsIwantedofhim,andthefirstwasthatheshouldletmeshowhimIcouldbekindtohim。Ihadmadeofthecircumstanceofteaatthehouseapretextforourleavingtheothers,eachofwhomIfeltasrathershowilycallingmyattentiontotheirgoodoldgroundfornotwishingtorejointhecrowd。AstowhatBrissendenwishedIhadmadeupmymind;Ihadmadeupmymindastothesubjectofhisthoughtswhiletheywandered,duringhisdetention,fromLadyJohn;andifthenextofmywisheswastoenterintohisdesire,Ihaddecidedongivingiteffectbythetimewereachedtheshortestofthevistasattheendofwhichthehouserearedabravefront。
  Chapter7
  IstayedhimtherewhileIputittohimthathewouldprobablyinfactprefertogoback。
  "You’renotgoingthenyourself?"
  "No,Idon’tparticularlywanttea;andImayaswellnowconfesstoyouthatI’mtakingalonely,unsociablewalk。Idon’tenjoysuchoccasionsasthese,"Isaid,"unlessIfromtimetotimegetoffbymyselfsomewherelongenoughtotellmyselfhowmuchIdoenjoythem。That’swhatIwascultivatingsolitudeforwhenIhappenedjustnowtocomeuponyou。WhenIfoundyoutherewithLadyJohntherewasnothingformebuttomakethebestofit;butI’mgladofthischancetoassureyouthat,everyappearancetothecontrarynotwithstanding,Iwasn’tprowlingaboutinsearchofyou。"
  "Well,"mycompanionfranklyreplied,"I’mgladyouturnedup。Iwasn’tespeciallyamusingmyself。"
  "Oh,IthinkIknowhowlittle!"
  Hefixedmeamomentwithhispatheticoldface,andIknewmorethaneverthatIwassorryforhim。Iwasquiteextraordinarilysorry,andI
  wonderedwhetherImightn’twithoutoffenceorindiscretionreallylethimseeit。ItwastothisendIhadheldhimandwantedalittletokeephim,andIwasreassuredasIfelthim,thoughIhadnowreleasedhim,lingerinsteadofleavingme。Ihadmadehimuneasylastnight,andanewreasonortwoformydoingsohadpossiblyevensincethencomeup;yetthesethingsalsowoulddependonthewayhemighttakethem。ThelookwithwhichheatpresentfacedmeseemedtohintthathewouldtakethemasIhoped,andtherewasnocurtness,butonthecontrarythedawnofadimsensethatImightpossiblyaidhim,inthetonewithwhichhecamehalf—way。"You’know’?"
  "Ah,"Ilaughed,"Iknoweverything!"
  Hedidn’tlaugh;Ihadn’tseenhimlaugh,atNewmarch,once;hewascontinuously,portentouslygrave,andIatpresentrememberedhowtheeffectofthishadtoldformeatluncheon,contrastedasitwaswiththatofMrs。Server’sdesperate,exquisitelevity。"YouknowIdecidedlyhavetoomuchofthatdreadfuloldwoman?"
  Therewasasoundinthequestionthatwouldhavemademe,tomyownsense,start,thoughIasquicklyhopedIhadnotdonesotoBrissenden’s。
  Icouldn’thavepersuadedmyself,however,thatIhadescapedshowinghimtheflushofmyefforttoshownothing。IhadtakenhisdisgustedallusionastoMrs。Brissenden,andtheactionofthatwasupsetting。Butnothing,fortunately,waspsychologicallymoreinterestingthantograspthenextmomentthetruthofhisreference。ItwasonlythefactofhishimselflookingsomucholderthanLadyJohnthathadblindedmeforaninstanttotheproprietyofhisnotthinkingofherasyoung。Shewasn’tyoungasHEhadarighttocallpeople,andIfeltaglow——also,Ifeared,toovisible——assoonasIhadseenwhomhemeant。HismeaningLadyJohndidmesomehowsomuchgoodthatIbelieveditwouldhavedonemestillmoretohearhimcallheraharridanoraJezebel。Itwasnoneofmybusiness;
  howlittlewasanything,whenitcametothat,mybusiness!——yetindefinably,unutterably,Ifeltassuagedforhimandcomforted。Iverilybelieveithunginthebalanceaminuteortwothatinmyimpulsetodrawhimout,sothatImightgivehimmysympathy,Iwaspreparedtoriskoverturningtheedificeofmyprecautions。Iluckily,asithappened,didnothingofthesort;Icontrivedtobreatheconsolinglyonhissecretwithoutbetrayinganintention。Therewasalmostnooneintheplacesavetwoorthreeoftheveryyoungestwomenwhomhewouldn’thavehadarighttocallold。
  LadyJohnwasahag,then;Mrs。Serverherselfwasmorethanontheturn;
  GilbertLongwasfatandforty;andIcastaboutforsomelightinwhichIcouldshowthatI——aplusforteraison——wasapantaloon。"Ofcourseyoucan’tquiteseethefunofit,anditreallyisn’tfairtoyou。Youstruckmeasmuchmoreinyourelement,"Iventuredtoadd,"when,thismorning,morethanonce,IchancedtoobserveyouledcaptivebyMrs。Server。"
  "Oh,that’sadifferentaffair,"heansweredwithanaccentthatpromisedagrowthofconfidence。
  "Mrs。Server’sanoldwoman,"Icontinued,"butshecan’tseemtoafellowlikeyouasoldasLadyJohn。Shehasatanyratemorecharm;thoughperhapsnot,"Iadded,"quitesomuchtalk。"
  Onthishesaidanextraordinarything,whichallbutmademestartagain。"Oh,shehasn’tanyTALK!"
  Itook,asquicklyaspossible,refugeinasurpriseddemurrer。"NotANY?"
  "Nonetospeakof。"
  Iletallmywondercome。"Butwasn’tshechatteringtoyouatluncheon?"
  Itforcedhimtomeetmyeyesatgreaterlength,andIcouldalreadyseethatmyexperiment——forinsidiouslyandpardonablysuchIwishedtomakeit——wasonthewaytosucceed。Ihadbeenrightthen,andIknewwhereIstood。Hecouldn’thavebeen"drawn"onhiswife,andhecouldn’thavebeendrawn,intheleastdirectly,onhimself,butashecouldthuseasilybeonLadyJohn,solikewisehecouldonotherwomen,orontheparticularone,atleast,whomatteredtome。IfeltIreallyknewwhatIwasabout,fortodrawhimonMrs。Serverwasintruthtodrawhimindirectlyonhimself。
  ItwasindeedperhapsbecauseIhadbythistimeinameasureexpressed,intermshowevergeneral,theinterestwithwhichheinspiredme,thatInowfoundmyselffreetoshiftthegroundofmyindiscretion。IonlywantedhimtoknowthatonthequestionofMrs。ServerIwaspreparedtogoasfarwithhimasheshouldcaretomove。HowitcametomenowthathewasTHEabsolutelysafepersoninthehousetotallofherwith!"I
  wastoofarawayfromyoutohear,"Ihadgoneon;"andIcouldonlyjudgeofherflowofconversationfromtheanimatedexpressionofherface。Itwasextraordinarilyanimated。Butthat,Iadmit,"Iadded,"strikesonealwaysasasortofpartipriswithher。She’sneverNOTextraordinarilyanimated。"
  "Shehasnoflowofconversationwhatever,"saidGuyBrissenden。
  Iconsidered。"Really?"
  Heseemedtolookatmequitewithoutuneasinessnow。"Why,haven’tyouseenforyourself——?"
  "Howthecasestandswithheronthathead?Doyoumeanhaven’tItalkedwithher?Well,scarcely;forit’safactthateverymaninthehouseBUT
  Istrikesmeashavingbeendelugedwiththatprivilege:ifindeed,"I
  laughed,"herabsenceoftopicssuffersittobeeitheraprivilegeoradeluge!Sheaffectsme,inanycase,asdeterminedtohavenothingtodowithme。Shewalksalltherestofyouabout;shegivesyoueachyourturn;meonlysheskips,shesystematicallyignores。I’mhalfconsoledforit,however,"Iwoundup,"byseeingwhatshortinningsanyindividualofyouhas。Youpersonallystrikemeashavinghadthelongest。"
  BrissendenappearedtowonderwhereIwascomingout,yetnotasifhefearedit。Therewasevenaparticularplace,ifIcouldbutguessit,wherehewouldhavelikedmetocome。"Oh,she’sextremelycharming。Butofcourseshe’sstrikinglyodd。"
  "Odd?——really?"
  "Why,inthesense,Imean,thatIthoughtyousuggestedyou’venoticed。"
  "Thatofextravagantvivacity?Oh,I’vehadtonoticeitatadistance,withoutknowingwhatitrepresents。"
  Hejusthesitated。"Youhaven’tanyideaatallwhatitrepresents?"
  "HowshouldIhave,"Ismiled,"whenshenevercomesnearme?I’vethoughtTHAT,asItellyou,marked。WhatdoesheravoidanceofMErepresent?Hasshehappened,withyou,tothrowanylightonit?"
  "Ithink,"saidBrissendenafteranothermoment,"thatshe’sratherafraidofyou。"
  Icouldonlybesurprised。"Themostharmlessmaninthehouse?"
  "AREyoureally?"heasked——andtherewasatouchofthecomicinhearinghimputitwithhisinveterategravity。
  "Ifyoutakemeforanythingelse,"Ireplied,"Idoubtifyou’llfindanyonetobackyou。"
  Mycompanion,onthis,lookedawayforalittle,turnedabout,fixedhiseyesonthehouse,seemed,aswithadropofinterest,onthepointofleavingme。Butinsteadofleavingmehebroughtoutthenextmoment:
  "Idon’twantanyonetobackme。Idon’tcare。Ididn’tmeanjustnow,"
  hecontinued,"thatMrs。Serverhassaidtomeanythingagainstyou,orthatshefearsyoubecauseshedislikesyou。SheonlytoldmeshethoughtyoudislikedHER。"
  Itgavemeakindofshock。"Acreaturesobeautiful,andso——so——"
  "Sowhat?"heaskedasIfoundmyselfcheckedbymydesiretocometoheraid。
  "Well,sobrilliantlyhappy。"
  Ihadallhisattentionagain。"IsthatwhatsheIS?"
  "Thendon’tyou,withyouropportunities,know?"Iwasconsciousofratheraninspiration,apartofwhichwastobejocose。"Whatareyoutrying,"Ilaughed,"togetoutofme?"
  Itstruckmeluckilythat,thoughheremainedasproofagainstgaietyasever,hewas,thankstohispreoccupation,notdisagreeablyaffectedbymytone。"Ofcourseifyou’venoidea,Icangetnothing。"
  "Noideaofwhat?"
  ThenitwasthatIatlastgotitstraight。"Well,ofwhat’sthematterwithher。"
  "Isthereanythingparticular?IfthereIS,"Iwenton,"there’ssomethingthatI’vegotoutofYOU!"
  "Howso,ifyoudon’tknowwhatitis?"
  "Doyoumeanifyouyourselfdon’t?"Butwithoutdetaininghimonthis,"Ofwhatinespecialdothesigns,"Iasked,"consist?"
  "Well,ofeveryone’sthinkingso——thatthere’ssomethingorother。"
  Thisagainstruckme,butitstruckmetoomuch。"Oh,everyone’safool!"
  Hesaw,inhisqueerwanway,howithaddoneso。"ThenyouHAVEyourownidea?"
  Idaresaymysmileathim,whileIwaited,showedadiscomfort。"Doyoumeanpeoplearetalkingabouther?"
  Buthewaitedhimself。"Haven’ttheyshownyou——?"
  "No,noonehasspoken。MoreoverIwouldn’thaveletthem。"
  "ThenthereyouARE!"Brissendenexclaimed。"Ifyou’vekeptthemoff,itmustbebecauseyoudifferwiththem。"
  "Ishan’tbesureofthat,"Ireturned,"tillIknowwhattheythink!
  However,Irepeat,"Iadded,"thatIshouldn’teventhencare。Idon’tmindadmittingthatshemuchinterestsme。"
  "Thereyouare,thereyouare!"hesaidagain。
  "That’sallthat’sthematterwithhersofarasi’mconcerned。Yousee,atanyrate,howlittleitneedmakeherafraidofme。She’slovelyandshe’sgentleandshe’shappy。"
  Myfriendkepthiseyesonme。"Whatistheretointerestyousointhat?Isn’titadescriptionthatappliesheretoadozenotherwomen?
  Youcan’tsay,youknow,thatyou’reinterestedinthem,foryoujustspokeofthemassomanyfools。"
  Therewasacertainsurpriseformeinsomuchacuteness,which,however,doubtlessadmonishedmeastotheneedofpresenceofmind。"Iwasn’tthinkingoftheladies——Iwasthinkingofthemen。"
  "That’samiabletome,"hesaidwithhisgentlegloom。
  "Oh,mydearBrissenden,Iexcept’you。’"
  "Andwhyshouldyou?"
  Ifeltatriflepushed。"I’lltellyousomeothertime。AndamongtheladiesIexceptMrs。Brissenden,withwhom,asyoumayhavenoticed,I’vebeenhavingmuchtalk。"
  "Andwillyoutellmesomeothertimeaboutthattoo?"Onwhich,asIbutamicablyshookmyheadforno,hehadhisfirstdimnessofpleasantry。
  "I’llgetitthenfrommywife。"
  "Never。Shewon’ttellyou。"
  "Shehaspassedyouherword?Thatwon’talterthefactthatshetellsmeeverything。"
  Hereallysaiditinawaythatmademetakerefugeforaninstantinlookingatmywatch。"Areyougoingbacktotea?Ifyouare,I’ll,inspiteofmydesiretoroam,walktwentystepswithyou。"Ihadalreadyagainputmyhandintohisarm,andwestrolledforalittletillIthrewoffthatIwassureMrs。Serverwaswaitingforhim。TothisherepliedthatifIwishedtogetridofhimhewasaswillingtotakethatasanythingelseforgranted——anobservationthatI,onmyside,answeredwithaninquiry,thoughaninquirythathadnothingtodowithit。"DoyoualsotelleverythingtoMrs。Brissenden?"
  ItbroughthimupshorterthanIhadexpected。"DoyouaskmethatinorderthatIshan’tspeaktoherofthis?"
  Ishowedmyselfataloss。"Of’this’——?"
  "Why,ofwhatwe’vemadeout——"
  "AboutMrs。Server,youandI?Youmustactastothat,mydearfellow,quiteonyourowndiscretion。AllthemorethatwhatonearthHAVEwemadeout?IassureyouIhaven’tasecrettoconfidetoyouabouther,exceptthatI’veneverseenapersonmoreunquenchablyradiant。"
  Healmostjumpedatit。"Well,that’sjustit!"
  "Butjustwhat?"
  "Why,whatthey’realltalkingabout。ThatsheISsoawfullyradiant。
  Thatshe’ssotremendouslyhappy。It’sthequestion,"heexplained,"ofwhatintheworldshehastomakeherso。"
  Iwincedalittle,buttriednottoshowit。"Mydearman,howdoiknow?"
  "SheTHINKSyouknow,"heafteramomentanswered。
  Icouldonlystare。"Mrs。ServerthinksIknowwhatmakesherhappy?"
  Ithemoreeasilyrepresentedsuchaconvictionasmonstrousinthatittrulyhaditssurpriseforme。
  ButBrissendennowwasallwithhisownthought。"SheISN’Thappy。"
  "Youmeanthatthat’swhat’sthematterwithherunderherappearance——?
  Thenwhatmakestheappearancesoextraordinary?"
  "Why,exactlywhatImention——thatonedoesn’tseeanythingwhateverinhertocorrespondtoit。"
  Ihesitated。"Doyoumeaninhercircumstances?"
  "Yes——orinhercharacter。Hercircumstancesarenothingwonderful。
  Shehasnonetoomuchmoney;shehashadthreechildrenandlostthem;
  andnobodythatbelongstoherappearsevertohavebeenparticularlynicetoher。"
  Iturneditover。"HowyouDOgetonwithher!"
  "DoyoucallitgettingonwithhertobethemorebewilderedthemoreIseeher?"
  "Isn’ttosayyou’rebewilderedonly,onthewhole,tosayyou’recharmed?
  Thatalways——doesn’tit?——describesmoreorlessanyengrossedrelationwithalovelylady。"
  "Well,I’mnotsureI’msocharmed。"Hespokeasifhehadthoughtthisparticularquestionoverforhimself;hehadhiswayofbeinglucidwithoutbrightness。"I’mnotatalleasilycharmed,youknow,"hethenextmomentadded;"andI’mnotafellowwhogoesaboutmuchafterwomen。"
  "Ah,thatIneversupposed!WhyintheworldSHOULDyou?It’sthelastthing!"Ilaughed。"Butisn’tthis——quite(whatshallonecallit?)innocently——ratherapeculiarcase?"
  Myquestionproducedinhimalittlegestureofelation——agestureemphasisedbyasnapofhisforefingerandthumb。"Iknewyouknewitwasspecial!
  Iknewyou’vebeenthinkingaboutit!"
  "Youcertainly,"Irepliedwithassurance,"have,duringthelastfiveminutes,mademedosowithsomesharpness。Idon’tpretendthatIdon’tnowrecognisethattheremustbesomethingthematter。Ionlydesire——notunnaturally——thatthereSHOULDbe,toputmeintherightforhavingthought,if,asyou’resosure,suchafreedomasthatcanbebroughthometome。
  IfMrs。Serverisbeautifulandgentleandstrange,"Ispeciouslywenton,"whatarethosethingsbutanattraction?"
  Isawhowhehadthem,whatevertheywere,beforehimasheslowlyshookhishead。"They’renotanattraction。They’retooqueer。"
  Icaughtinaninstantmywaytofallinwithhim;andnotthelessthatIbythistimefeltmyselfcommitted,uptotheintellectualeyes,toascertainingjustHOWqueerthepersonunderdiscussionmightbe。"Oh,ofcourseI’mnotspeakingofherasapartytoasillyflirtation,oranobjectofanysortoftrivialpursuit。Buttherearesomanydifferentwaysofbeingtaken。"
  "Forafellowlikeyou。Butnotforafellowlikeme。Formethere’sonlyone。"
  "Tobe,youmean,inlove?"
  Heputitalittledifferently。"Well,tobethoroughlypleased。"
  "Ah,that’sdoubtlessthebestwayandthefirmground。Andyoumeanyou’reNOTthoroughlypleasedwithMrs。Server?"
  "No——andyetIwanttobekindtoher。Thereforewhat’sthematter?"
  "Oh,ifit’swhat’sthematterwithYOUyouaskme,thatextendsthequestion。Ifyouwanttobekindtoher,yougetonwithher,asweweresaying,quiteenoughformyargument。Andisn’tthematteralso,afterall,"Idemanded,"thatyousimplyfeelshedesiresyoutobekind?"
  "Shedoesthat。"Andhelookedatmeaswiththesenseofdrawingfromme,forhisrelief,somegreaterhelpthanIwasasyetconsciousofthecouragetooffer。"Itisthatshedesiresme。Shelikesit。Andtheextraordinarythingisthatilikeit。"
  "Andwhyintheworldshouldn’tyou?"
  "Becausesheterrifiesme。Shehassomethingtohide。"
  "But,mydearman,"Iaskedwithagaietysingularlyoutofrelationtothesmallsecretthrillproducedinmebythesewords——"mydearman,whatwomanwho’sworthanythinghasn’t?"
  "Yes,buttherearedifferentways。WhatSHEtriesforisthisfalseappearanceofhappiness。"
  Iweighedit。"Butisn’tthatthebestthing?"
  "It’sterribletohavetokeepitup。"
  "Ah,butifyoudon’tFORher?Ifitallcomesonherself?"
  "Itdoesn’t,"GuyBrissendenpresentlysaid。"Ido——’for’her——helptokeepitup。"Andthen,stillunexpectedlytome,cameouttherestofhisconfession。"Iwantto——Itryto;that’swhatImeanbybeingkindtoher,andbythegratitudewithwhichshetakesit。Onefeelsthatonedoesn’twanthertobreakdown。"
  Itwasonthis——fromthepoignanttouchinit——thatIatlastfeltI
  hadburntmyshipsanddidn’tcarehowmuchIshowedIwaswithhim。"Oh,butshewon’t。Youmustkeephergoing。"
  Hestoodalittlewithathumbineachpocketofhistrousers,andhismelancholyeyesrangingfarovermyhead——overthetopsofthehighesttrees。"Whoamitokeeppeoplegoing?"
  "Why,you’rejusttheman。Aren’tyouhappy?"
  Hestillrangedthetree—tops。"Yes。"
  "Well,then,youbelongtotheusefulclass。You’vethewherewithaltogive。It’sthehappypeoplewhoshouldhelptheothers。"
  Hehad,inthesameattitude,anotherpause。"It’seasyforYOUtotalk!"
  "BecauseI’mnothappy?"
  Itmadehimbringhiseyesagaindowntome。"Ithinkyou’realittlesonowatmyexpense。"
  Ishookmyheadreassuringly。"Itdoesn’tcostyouanythingif——asI
  confesstoitnow——Idotosomeextentunderstand。"
  "That’smore,then,than——aftertalkingofitthiswaywithyou——Ifeelthatido!"
  Hehadbroughtthatoutwithasuddensigh,turningawaytogoon;sothatwetookafewstepsmore。"You’venothingtotroubleabout,"Ithenfreelyremarked,"butthatyouAREaskindasthecaserequiresandthatyoudohelp。Idaresaythatyou’llfindherevennowontheterracelookingoutforyou。"Ipattedhisback,aswewentalittlefurther,butasI
  stillpreferredtostayawayfromthehouseIpresentlystoppedagain。
  "Don’tfallbelowyourchance。Noblesseoblige。We’llpullherthrough。"
  "Yousay’we,’"hereturned,"butyoudokeepoutofit!"
  "Whyshouldyouwishmetointerferewithyou?"Iasked。"Iwouldn’tkeepoutofitifshewantedmeasmuchasshewantsyou。That,byyourownadmission,isexactlywhatshedoesn’t。"
  "Well,then,"saidBrissenden,"I’llmakehergoforyou。IthinkI
  wantyourassistancequiteasmuchasshecanwantmine。"
  "Oh,"Iprotestedforthis,"I’vereallygivenyoualreadyeveryounceofmineIcansqueezeout。AndyouknowforyourselffarmorethanIdo。"
  "No,Idon’t!"——withwhichhebecamequitesharp;"foryouknowHOW
  youknowit——whichI’venotanotionof。It’sjustwhatIthink,"hecontinued,facingmeagain,"yououghttotellme。"
  "I’malittleindoubtofwhatyou’retalkingof,butIsupposeyoutoalludetotheoddityofmybeingsomuchinterestedwithoutmyhavingbeenmoreinformed。"
  "You’vegotsomeclue,"Brissendensaid;"andaclueiswhatImyselfwant。"
  "Thengetit,"Ilaughed,"fromMrs。Server!"
  Hewondered。"Doessheknow?"