"IwishIhadthoughttobringWolfLarsen’schronometerandsextant,"
  Isaid,stillgloomily。"Sailingonedirection,driftinganotherdirection,tosaynothingofthesetofthecurrentinsomethirddirection,makesaresultantwhichdeadreckoningcannevercalculate。Beforelongwewon’tknowwherewearebyfivehundredmiles。"
  ThenIbeggedherpardonandpromisedIshouldnotbedisheartenedanymore。AthersolicitationIlethertakethewatchtillmidnight,——itwasthennineo’clock,butIwrappedherinblanketsandputanoilskinaboutherbeforeIlaydown。Isleptonlycat—naps。Theboatwasleapingandpoundingasitfelloverthecrests,Icouldheartheseasrushingpast,andspraywascontinuallybeingthrownaboard。Andstill,itwasnotabadnight,Imused——nothingtothenightsIhadbeenthroughontheGhost;nothing,perhaps,tothenightsweshouldgothroughinthiscockle—shell。Itsplankingwasthree—quartersofaninchthick。
  Betweenusandthebottomoftheseawaslessthananinchofwood。
  Andyet,Iaverit,andIaveritagain,Iwasunafraid。ThedeathwhichWolfLarsenandevenThomasMugridgehadmademefear,Inolongerfeared。
  ThecomingofMaudBrewsterintomylifeseemedtohavetransformedme。
  Afterall,Ithought,itisbetterandfinertolovethantobeloved,ifitmakessomethinginlifesoworthwhilethatoneisnotloathtodieforit。Iforgetmyownlifeintheloveofanotherlife;andyet,suchistheparadox,IneverwantedsomuchtoliveasrightnowwhenIplacetheleastvalueuponmyownlife。Ineverhadsomuchreasonforliving,wasmyconcludingthought;andafterthat,untilIdozed,IcontentedmyselfwithtryingtopiercethedarknesstowhereIknewMaudcrouchedlowinthestern—sheets,watchfulofthefoamingseaandreadytocallmeonaninstant’snotice。TheSeaWolf:Chapter28CHAPTER28
  Thereisnoneedofgoingintoanextendedrecitalofoursufferinginthesmallboatduringthemanydaysweweredrivenanddrifted,hereandthere,willy—nilly,acrosstheocean。Thehighwindblewfromthenorthwestfortwenty—fourhours,whenitfellcalm,andinthenightsprangupfromthesouthwest。Thiswasdeadinourteeth,butItookinthesea—anchorandsetsail,haulingacourseonthewindwhichtookusinasouth—southeasterlydirection。Itwasanevenchoicebetweenthisandthewest—northwesterlycoursewhichthewindpermitted;butthewarmairsofthesouthfannedmydesireforawarmerseaandswayedmydecision。
  Inthreehours,——itwasmidnight,Iwellremember,andasdarkasIhadeverseenitonthesea,——thewind,stillblowingoutofthesouthwest,rosefuriously,andonceagainIwascompelledtosetthesea—anchor。
  Daybrokeandfoundmewan—eyedandtheoceanlashedwhite,theboatpitching,almostonend,toitsdrag。Wewereinimminentdangerofbeingswampedbythewhitecaps。Asitwas,sprayandspumecameaboardinsuchquantitiesthatIbailedwithoutcessation。Theblanketsweresoaking。
  EverythingwaswetexceptMaud,andshe,inoilskins,rubberboots,andsou’wester,wasdry,allbutherfaceandhandsandastraywispofhair。
  Sherelievedmeatthebailing—holefromtimetotime,andbravelyshethrewoutthewaterandfacedthestorm。Allthingsarerelative。Itwasnomorethanastiffblow,buttous,fightingforlifeinourfrailcraft,itwasindeedastorm。
  Coldandcheerless,thewindbeatingonourfaces,thewhiteseasroaringby,westruggledthroughtheday。Nightcame,butneitherofusslept。
  Daycame,andstillthewindbeatonourfacesandthewhiteseasroaredpast。BythesecondnightMaudwasfallingasleepfromexhaustion。Icoveredherwithoilskinsandatarpaulin。Shewascomparativelydry,butshewasnumbwiththecold。Ifearedgreatlythatshemightdieinthenight;butdaybroke,coldandcheerless,withthesamecloudedskyandbeatingwindandroaringseas。
  Ihadhadnosleepforforty—eighthours。Iwaswetandchilledtothemarrow,tillIfeltmoredeadthanalive。Mybodywasstifffromexertionaswellasfromcold,andmyachingmusclesgavemetheseveresttorturewheneverIusedthem,andIusedthemcontinually。Andallthetimewewerebeingdrivenoffintothenortheast,directlyawayfromJapanandtowardbleakBeringSea。
  Andstillwelived,andtheboatlived,andthewindblewunabated。
  Infact,towardnightfallofthethirddayitincreasedatrifleandsomethingmore。Theboat’sbowplungedunderacrest,andwecamethroughquarter—fullofwater。Ibailedlikeamadman。Theliabilityofshippinganothersuchseawasenormouslyincreasedbythewaterthatweighedtheboatdownandrobbeditofitsbuoyancy。Andanothersuchseameanttheend。WhenIhadtheboatemptyagainIwasforcedtotakeawaythetarpaulinwhichcoveredMaud,inorderthatmightlashitdownacrossthebow。ItwaswellIdid,foritcoveredtheboatfullyathirdofthewayaft,andthreetimes,inthenextseveralhours,itflungoffthebulkofthedown—rushingwaterwhenthebowshovedundertheseas。
  Maud’sconditionwaspitiable。Shesatcrouchedinthebottomoftheboat,herlipsblue,herfacegrayandplainlyshowingthepainshesuffered。
  Buteverhereyeslookedbravelyatme,andeverherlipsutteredbravewords。
  Theworstofthestormmusthaveblownthatnight,thoughlittleInoticedit。IhadsuccumbedandsleptwhereIsatinthestern—sheets。Themorningofthefourthdayfoundthewinddiminishedtoagentlewhisper,theseadyingdownandthesunshininguponus。Oh,theblessedsun!Howwebathedourpoorbodiesinitsdeliciouswarmth,revivinglikebugsandcrawlingthingsafterastorm。Wesmiledagain,saidamusingthings,andwaxedoptimisticoveroursituation。Yetitwas,ifanything,worsethanever。WewerefartherfromJapanthanthenightwelefttheGhost。NorcouldImorethanroughlyguessourlatitudeandlongitude。Atacalculationofatwo—miledriftperhour,duringtheseventyandoddhoursofthestorm,wehadbeendrivenatleastonehundredandfiftymilestothenortheast。Butwassuchcalculateddriftcorrect?ForallIknew,itmighthavebeenfourmilesperhourinsteadoftwo。Inwhichcasewewereanotherhundredandfiftymilestothebad。
  WherewewereIdidnotknow,thoughtherewasquitealikelihoodthatwewereinthevicinityoftheGhost。Thereweresealsaboutus,andIwaspreparedtosightasealingschooneratanytime。Wedidsightone,intheafternoon,whenthenorthwestbreezehadsprungupfreshlyoncemore。Butthestrangeschoonerlostitselfonthesky—lineandwealoneoccupiedthecircleofthesea。
  Camedaysoffog,whenevenMaud’sspiritdroopedandtherewerenomerrywordsuponherlips;daysofcalm,whenwefloatedonthelonelyimmensityofsea,oppressedbyitsgreatnessandyetmarvellingatthemiracleoftinylife,forwestilllivedandstruggledtolive;daysofsleetandwindandsnow—squalls,whennothingcouldkeepuswarm;ordaysofdrizzlingrain,whenwefilledourwater—breakersfromthedripofthewetsail。
  AndeverIlovedMaudwithanincreasinglove。Shewassomany—sided,somany—mooded——"protean—mooded"Icalledher。Butcalledherthis,andotheranddearerthings,inmythoughtsonly。Thoughthedeclarationofmyloveurgedandtrembledonmytongueathousandtimes,Iknewthatitwasnotimeforsuchadeclaration。Iffornootherreason,itwasnotime,whenonewasprotectingandtryingtosaveawoman,toaskthatwomanforherlove。Delicateaswasthesituation,notaloneinthisbutinotherways,IflatteredmyselfthatIwasabletodealdelicatelywithit;andalsoIflatteredmyselfthatbylookorsignIgavenoadvertisementoftheloveIfeltforher。Wewerelikegoodcomrades,andwegrewbettercomradesasthedayswentby。
  Onethingaboutherwhichsurprisedmewasherlackoftimidityandfear。Theterriblesea,thefrailboat,thestorms,thesuffering,thestrangenessandisolationofthesituation,——allthatshouldhavefrightenedarobustwoman,——seemedtomakenoimpressionuponherwhohadknownlifeonlyinitsmostshelteredandconsummatelyartificialaspects,andwhowasherselfallfireanddewandmist,sublimatedspirit,allthatwassoftandtenderandclinginginwoman。Andyetamwrong。Shewastimidandafraid,butshepossessedcourage。Thefleshandthequalmsofthefleshshewasheirto,butthefleshboreheavilyonlyontheflesh。
  Andshewasspirit,firstandalwaysspirit,etherealizedessenceoflife,calmashercalmeyes,andsureofpermanenceinthechangingorderoftheuniverse。
  Camedaysofstorm,daysandnightsofstorm,whentheoceanmenaceduswithitsroaringwhiteness,andthewindsmoteourstrugglingboatwithaTitan’sbuffets。Andeverwewereflungoff,fartherandfarther,tothenortheast。Itwasinsuchastorm,andtheworstthatwehadexperienced,thatIcastawearyglancetoleeward,notinquestofanything,butmorefromthewearinessoffacingtheelementalstrife,andinmuteappeal,almost,tothewrathfulpowerstoceaseandletusbe。WhatIsawIcouldnotatfirstbelieve。Daysandnightsofsleeplessnessandanxietyhaddoubtlessturnedmyhead。IlookedbackatMaud,toidentifymyself,asitwere,intimeandspace。Thesightofherdearwetcheeks,herflyinghair,andherbravebrowneyesconvincedmethatmyvisionwasstillhealthy。
  AgainIturnedmyfacetoleeward,andagainIsawthejuttingpromontory,blackandhighandnaked,theragingsurfthatbrokeaboutitsbaseandbeatitsfronthighupwithspoutingfountains,theblackandforbiddingcoast—linerunningtowardthesoutheastandfringedwithatremendousscarfofwhite。
  "Maud,"Isaid。"Maud。"
  Sheturnedherheadandbeheldthesight。
  "ItcannotbeAlaska!"shecried。
  "Alas,no,"Ianswered,andasked,"Canyouswim?"
  Sheshookherhead。
  "NeithercanI,"Isaid。"Sowemustgetashorewithoutswimming,insomeopeningbetweentherocksthroughwhichwecandrivetheboatandclamberout。Butwemustbequick,mostquick——andsure。"
  IspokewithaconfidencesheknewIdidnotfeel,forshelookedatmewiththatunfalteringgazeofhersandsaid:
  "Ihavenotthankedyouyetforallyouhavedoneforme,but——"
  Shehesitated,asifindoubthowbesttowordhergratitude。
  "Well?"Isaid,brutally,forIwasnotquitepleasedwithherthankingme。
  "Youmighthelpme,"shesmiled。
  "Toacknowledgeyourobligationsbeforeyoudie?Notatall。Wearenotgoingtodie。Weshalllandonthatisland,andweshallbesnugandshelteredbeforethedayisdone。"
  Ispokestoutly,butIdidnotbelieveaword。Norwaspromptedtoliethroughfear。Ifeltnofear,thoughIwassureofdeathinthatboilingsurgeamongsttherockswhichwasrapidlygrowingnearer。Itwasimpossibletohoistsailandclawoffthatshore。Thewindwouldinstantlycapsizetheboat;theseaswouldswampitthemomentitfellintothetrough;and,besides,thesail,lashedtothespareoars,draggedintheseaaheadofus。
  AsIsay,Iwasnotafraidtomeetmyowndeath,there,afewhundredyardstoleeward;butIwasappalledatthethoughtthatMaudmustdie。
  Mycursedimaginationsawherbeatenandmangledagainsttherocks,anditwastooterrible。Istrovetocompelmyselftothinkwewouldmakethelandingsafely,andsoIspoke,notwhatIbelieved,butwhatIpreferredtobelieve。
  Irecoiledbeforecontemplationofthatfrightfuldeath,andforamomentIentertainedthewildideaofseizingMaudinmyarmsandleapingoverboard。
  ThenIresolvedtowait,andatthelastmoment,whenweenteredonthefinalstretch,totakeherinmyarmsandproclaimmylove,and,withherinmyembrace,tomakethedesperatestruggleanddie。
  Instinctivelywedrewclosertogetherinthebottomoftheboat。Ifelthermittenedhandcomeouttomine。Andthus,withoutspeech,wewaitedtheend。Wewerenotfaroffthelinethewindmadewiththewesternedgeofthepromontory,andIwatchedinthehopethatsomesetofthecurrentorsendoftheseawoulddriftuspastbeforewereachedthesurf。
  "Weshallgoclear,"Isaid,withaconfidencewhichIknewdeceivedneitherofus。
  "ByGod,wewillgoclear!"Icried,fiveminuteslater。
  Theoathleftmylipsinmyexcitement——thefirst,Idobelieve,inmylife,unless"troubleit,"anexpletiveofmyyouth,beaccountedanoath。
  "Ibegyourpardon,"Isaid。
  "Youhaveconvincedmeofyoursincerity,"shesaid,withafaintsmile。
  "Idoknow,now,thatweshallgoclear。"
  Ihadseenadistantheadlandpasttheextremeedgeofthepromontory,andaswelookedwecouldseegrowtheinterveningcoast—lineofwhatwasevidentlyadeepcove。Atthesametimetherebrokeuponourearsacontinuousandmightybellowing。Itpartookofthemagnitudeandvolumeofdistantthunder,anditcametousdirectlyfromleeward,risingabovethecrashofthesurfandtravellingdirectlyintheteethofthestorm。
  Aswepassedthepointthewholecoveburstuponourview,ahalf—moonofwhitesandybeachuponwhichbrokeahugesurf,andwhichwascoveredwithmyriadsofseals。Itwasfromthemthatthegreatbellowingwentup。
  "Arookery!"Icried。"Nowareweindeedsaved。Theremustbemenandcruiserstoprotectthemfromtheseal—hunters。Possiblythereisastationashore。"
  ButasIstudiedthesurfwhichbeatuponthebeach,Isaid,"Stillbad,butnotsobad。Andnow,ifthegodsbetrulykind,weshalldriftbythatnextheadlandandcomeuponaperfectlyshelteredbeach,wherewemaylandwithoutwettingourfeet。"
  Andthegodswerekind。Thefirstandsecondheadlandsweredirectlyinlinewiththesouthwestwind;butoncearoundthesecond,——andwewentperilouslynear,——wepickedupthethirdheadland,stillinlinewiththewindandwiththeothertwo。Butthecovethatintervened!Itpenetrateddeepintotheland,andthetide,settingin,driftedusundertheshelterofthepoint。Heretheseawascalm,saveforaheavybutsmoothground—swell,andItookinthesea—anchorandbegantorow。Fromthepointtheshorecurvedaway,moreandmoretothesouthandwest,until,atlast,itdisclosedacovewithinthecove,alittleland—lockedharbor,thewaterlevelasapond,brokenonlybytinyrippleswherevagrantbreathsandwispsofthestormhurtleddownfromoverthefrowningwallofrockthatbackedthebeachahundredfeetinshore。
  Herewerenosealswhatever。Theboat’sstemtouchedthehardshingle。
  Isprangout,extendingmyhandtoMaud。Thenextmomentshewasbesideme。Asmyfingersreleasedhers,sheclutchedformyarmhastily。AtthesamemomentIswayed,asabouttofalltothesand。Thiswasthestartlingeffectofthecessationofmotion。Wehadbeensolonguponthemoving,rockingseathatthestablelandwasashocktous。Weexpectedthebeachtoliftupthiswayandthat,andtherockywallstoswingbackandforthlikethesidesofaship;andwhenwebracedourselves,automatically,forthesevariousexpectedmovements,theirnon—occurrencequiteovercameourequilibrium。
  "Ireallymustsitdown,"Maudsaid,withanervouslaughandadizzygesture,andforthwithshesatdownonthesand。
  Iattendedtomakingtheboatsecureandjoinedher。ThuswelandedonEndeavorIsland,aswecametoit,land—sickfromlongcustomofthesea。TheSeaWolf:Chapter29CHAPTER29
  "Fool!"Icriedaloudinmyvexation。
  Ihadunloadedtheboatandcarrieditscontentshighuponthebeach,whereIhadsetaboutmakingacamp。Therewasdriftwood,thoughnotmuch,onthebeach,andthesightofacoffeetinIhadtakenfromtheGhost’slarderhadgivenmetheideaofafire。
  "Blitheringidiot!"Iwascontinuing。
  ButMaudsaid,"Tut,tut,"ingentlereproval,andthenaskedwhyI
  wasablitheringidiot。
  "Nomatches,"Igroaned。"NotamatchdidIbring。Andnowweshallhavenohotcoffee,soup,tea,oranything!"
  "Wasn’tit——er——Crusoewhorubbedstickstogether?"shedrawled。
  "ButIhavereadthepersonalnarrativesofascoreofshipwreckedmenwhotried,andtriedinvain,"Ianswered。"IrememberWinters,anewspaperfellowwithanAlaskanandSiberianreputation。MethimattheBibelotonce,andhewastellingushowheattemptedtomakeafirewithacoupleofsticks。Itwasmostamusing。Hetolditinimitably,butitwasthestoryofafailure。Irememberhisconclusion,hisblackeyesflashingashesaid,`Gentlemen,theSouthSeaIslandermaydoit,theMalaymaydoit,buttakemywordit’sbeyondthewhiteman。’"
  "Oh,well,we’vemanagedsofarwithoutit,"shesaidcheerfully。"Andthere’snoreasonwhywecannotstillmanagewithoutit。"
  "Butthinkofthecoffee!"Icried。"It’sgoodcoffee,too。know。I
  tookitfromLarsen’sprivatestores。Andlookatthatgoodwood。"
  Iconfess,Iwantedthecoffeebadly;andIlearned,notlongafterward,thattheberrywaslikewisealittleweaknessofMaud’s。Besides,wehadbeensolongonacolddietthatwewerenumbinsideaswellasout。Anythingwarmwouldhavebeenmostgratifying。Butcomplainednomore,andsetaboutmakingatentofthesailforMaud。
  Ihadlookeduponitasasimpletask,whatoftheoars,mast,boom,andsprit,tosaynothingofplentyoflines。ButasIwaswithoutexperience,andaseverydetailwasanexperimentandeverysuccessfuldetailaninvention,thedaywaswellgonebeforehershelterwasanaccomplishedfact。Andthen,thatnight,itrained,andshewasfloodedoutanddrivenbackintotheboat。
  ThenextmorningIdugashallowditcharoundthetent,and,anhourlater,asuddengustofwind,whippingovertherockywallbehindus,pickedupthetentandsmasheditdownonthesandthirtyyardsaway。
  Maudlaughedatmycrestfallenexpression,andIsaid,"AssoonasthewindabatesIintendgoingintheboattoexploretheisland。Theremustbeastationsomewhere,andmen。Andshipsmustvisitthestation。Somegovernmentmustprotectalltheseseals。ButIwishtohaveyoucomfortablebeforeIstart。"
  "Ishouldliketogowithyou,"wasallshesaid。
  "Itwouldbebetterifyouremained。Youhavehadenoughofhardship。
  Itisamiraclethatyouhavesurvived。Anditwon’tbecomfortableintheboat,rowingandsailinginthisrainyweather。Whatyouneedisrest,andIshouldlikeyoutoremainandgetit。"
  Somethingsuspiciouslyakintomoistnessdimmedherbeautifuleyesbeforeshedroppedthemandpartlyturnedawayherhead。
  "Ishouldprefergoingwithyou,"shesaidinalowvoice,inwhichtherewasjustahintofappeal。
  "Imightbeabletohelpyoua——"hervoicebroke,——"alittle。Andifanythingshouldhappentoyou,thinkofmeleftherealone。"
  "Oh,Iintendbeingverycareful,"Ianswered。"AndIshallnotgosofarbutwhatIcangetbackbeforenight。Yes,allsaidanddone,Ithinkitvastlybetterforyoutoremain,andsleep,andrest,anddonothing。"
  Sheturnedandlookedmeintheeyes。Hergazewasunfaltering,butsoft。
  "Please,please,"shesaid,oh,sosoftly。
  Istiffenedmyselftorefuse,andshookmyhead。Stillshewaitedandlookedatme。Itriedtowordmyrefusal,butwavered。IsawthegladlightspringintohereyesandknewthatIhadlost。Itwasimpossibletosaynoafterthat。
  Thewinddieddownintheafternoon,andwewerepreparedtostartthefollowingmorning。Therewasnowayofpenetratingtheislandfromourcove,forthewallsroseperpendicularlyfromthebeach,and,oneithersideofthecove,rosefromthedeepwater。
  Morningbrokedullandgray,butcalm,andIwasawakeearlyandhadtheboatinreadiness。
  "Fool!Imbecile!Yahoo!"Ishouted,whenIthoughtitwasmeettoarouseMaud;butthistimeIshoutedinmerrimentasIdancedaboutthebeach,bareheaded,inmockdespair。
  Herheadappearedundertheflapofthesail。
  "Whatnow?"sheaskedsleepily,and,withal,curiously。
  "Coffee!"Icried。"Whatdoyousaytoacupofcoffee?hotcoffee?
  pipinghot?"
  "My!"shemurmured,"youstartledme,andyouarecruel。HereIhavebeencomposingmysoultodowithoutit,andhereyouarevexingmewithyourvainsuggestions。"
  "Watchme,"Isaid。
  FromundercleftsamongtherocksIgatheredafewdrysticksandchips。
  TheseIwhittledintoshavingsorsplitintokindling。Frommynote—bookItoreoutapage,andfromtheammunitionboxtookashotgunshell。Removingthewadsfromthelatterwithmyknife,emptiedthepowderonaflatrock。
  NextIpriedtheprimer,orcap,fromtheshell,andlaiditontherockinthemidstofthescatteredpowder。Allwasready。Maudstillwatchedfromthetent。Holdingthepaperinmylefthand,Ismasheddownuponthecapwitharockheldinmyright。Therewasapuffofwhitesmoke,aburstofflame,andtheroughedgeofthepaperwasalight。
  Maudclappedherhandsgleefully。"Prometheus!"shecried。
  ButIwastoooccupiedtoacknowledgeherdelight。Thefeebleflamemustbecherishedtenderlyifitweretogatherstrengthandlive。Ifedit,shavingbyshaving,andsliverbysliver,tillatlastitwassnappingandcracklingasitlaidholdofthesmallerchipsandsticks。Tobecastawayonanislandhadnotenteredintomycalculations,sowewerewithoutakettleorcookingutensilsofanysort;butImadeshiftwiththetinusedforbailingtheboat,andlater,asweconsumedoursupplyofcannedgoods,weaccumulatedquiteanimposingarrayofcookingvessels。
  Iboiledthewater,butitwasMaudwhomadethecoffee。Andhowgooditwas!Mycontributionwascannedbeeffriedwithcrumbledsea—biscuitandwater。Thebreakfastwasasuccess,andwesataboutthefiremuchlongerthanenterprisingexplorersshouldhavedone,sippingthehotblackcoffeeandtalkingoveroursituation。
  Iwasconfidentthatweshouldfindastationinsomeoneofthecoves,forIknewthattherookeriesofBeringSeawerethusguarded;butMaudadvancedthetheory,——topreparemefordisappointment,Idobelieve,ifdisappointmentweretocome,——thatwehaddiscoveredanunknownrookery。
  Shewasinverygoodspirits,however,andmadequitemerryinacceptingourplightasagraveone。
  "Ifyouareright,"Isaid,"thenwemustpreparetowinterhere。Ourfoodwillnotlast,buttherearetheseals。Theygoawayinthefall,soImustsoonbegintolayinasupplyofmeat。Thentherewillbehutstobuildanddriftwoodtogather。Also,weshalltryoutsealfatforlightingpurposes。Altogether,we’llhaveourhandsfullifwefindtheislanduninhabited。
  Whichweshallnot,Iknow。"
  Butshewasright。Wesailedwithabeamwindalongtheshore,searchingthecoveswithourglassesandlandingoccasionally,withoutfindingasignofhumanlife。YetwelearnedthatwewerenotthefirstwhohadlandedonEndeavorIsland。Highuponthebeachofthesecondcovefromours,wediscoveredthesplinteredwreckofaboat——asealer’sboat,fortherowlockswereboundinsennit,agun—rackwasonthestarboardsideofthebow,andinwhiteletterswasfaintlyvisibleGazelleNo。2。Theboathadlainthereforalongtime,foritwashalffilledwithsand,andthesplinteredwoodhadthatweather—wornappearanceduetolongexposuretotheelements。Inthesternsheetsfoundarustyten—gaugeshotgunandasailor’ssheath—knifebrokenshortacrossandsorustedastobealmostunrecognizable。
  "Theygotaway,"Isaidcheerfully;butIfeltasinkingattheheartandseemedtodivinethepresenceofbleachedbonessomewhereonthatbeach。
  IdidnotwishMaud’sspiritstobedampenedbysuchafind,soIturnedseawardagainwithourboatandskirtedthenortheasternpointoftheisland。
  Therewerenobeachesonthesouthernshore,andbyearlyafternoonweroundedtheblackpromontoryandcompletedthecircumnavigationoftheisland。Iestimateditscircumferenceattwenty—fivemiles,itswidthasvaryingfromtwotofivemiles;whilemymostconservativecalculationplacedonitsbeachestwohundredthousandseals。Theislandwashighestatitsextremesouthwesternpoint,theheadlandsandbackbonediminishingregularlyuntilthenortheasternportionwasonlyafewfeetabovethesea。Withtheexceptionofourlittlecove,theotherbeachesslopedgentlybackforadistanceofhalfamileorso,intowhatImightcallrockymeadows,withhereandtherepatchesofmossandtundragrass。Herethesealshauledout,andtheoldbullsguardedtheirharems,whiletheyoungbullshauledoutbythemselves。
  ThisbriefdescriptionisallthatEndeavorIslandmerits。Dampandsoggywhereitwasnotsharpandrocky,buffetedbystormwindsandlashedbythesea,withtheaircontinuallya—tremblewiththebellowingoftwohundredthousandamphibians,itwasamelancholyandmiserablesojourningplace。Maud,whohadpreparedmefordisappointment,andwhohadbeensprightlyandvivaciousallday,brokedownaswelandedinourownlittlecove。
  Shestrovebravelytohideitfromme,butwhileIwaskindlinganotherfireIknewshewasstiflinghersobsintheblanketsunderthesail—tent。
  Itwasmyturntobecheerful,andIplayedtheparttothebestofmyability,andwithsuchsuccessthatIbroughtthelaughterbackintoherdeareyesandsongonherlips;forshesangtomebeforeshewenttoanearlybed。ItwasthefirsttimeIhadheardhersing,andIlaybythefire,listeningandtransported,forshewasnothingifnotanartistineverythingshedid,andhervoice,thoughnotstrong,waswonderfullysweetandexpressive。
  Istillsleptintheboat,andIlayawakelongthatnight,gazingupatthefirststarsIhadseeninmanynightsandponderingthesituation。
  Responsibilityofthissortwasanewthingtome。WolfLarsenhadbeenquiteright。Ihadstoodonmyfather’slegs。Mylawyersandagentshadtakencareofmymoneyforme。Ihadhadnoresponsibilitiesatall。Then,ontheGhostIhadlearnedtoberesponsibleformyself。Andnow,forthefirsttimeinmylife,foundmyselfresponsibleforsomeoneelse。