InthelowerbunklayLouis,grosslyfatandwarmandsweaty,asleepunfeignedlyandsleepinglaboriously。WhileWolfLarsenheldhiswristhestirreduneasily,bowinghisbodysothatforamomentitrestedonshouldersandheels。Hislipsmoved,andhegavevoicetothisenigmaticutterance:
"Ashilling’sworthaquarter;butkeepyourlampsoutforthruppennybits,orthepublicans’llshove’emonyouforsixpence。"
Thenherolledoveronhissidewithaheavy,sobbingsigh,saying:
"Asixpenceisatanner,andashillingabob;butwhataponyisI
don’tknow。"
SatisfiedwiththehonestyofhisandtheKanaka’ssleep,WolfLarsenpassedontothenexttwobunksonthestarboardside,occupiedtopandbottom,aswesawinthelightofthesea—lamp,byLeachandJohnson。
AsWolfLarsenbentdowntothelowerbunktotakeJohnson’spulse,I,standingerectandholdingthelamp,sawLeach’sheadraisestealthilyashepeeredoverthesideofhisbunktoseewhatwasgoingon。HemusthavedivinedWolfLarsen’strickandthesurenessofdetection,forthelightwasatoncedashedfrommyhandandtheforecastleleftindarkness。
Hemusthaveleaped,also,atthesameinstant,straightdownonWolfLarsen。
Thefirstsoundswerethoseofaconflictbetweenabullandawolf。
IheardagreatinfuriatedbellowgoupfromWolfLarsen,andfromLeachasnarlingthatwasdesperateandblood—curdling。Johnsonmusthavejoinedhimimmediately,sothathisabjectandgrovellingconductondeckforthepastfewdayshadbeennomorethanplanneddeception。
Iwassoterror—strickenbythisfightinthedarkthatleanedagainsttheladder,tremblingandunabletoascend。Anduponmewasthatoldsicknessatthepitofthestomach,causedalwaysbythespectacleofphysicalviolence。
InthisinstanceIcouldnotsee,butcouldheartheimpactoftheblows——thesoftcrushingsoundmadebyfleshstrikingforciblyagainstflesh。
Thentherewasthecrashingaboutoftheentwinedbodies,thelaboredbreathing,theshort,quickgaspsofsuddenpain。
Theremusthavebeenmoremenintheconspiracytomurderthecaptainandmate,forbythesoundsIknewthatLeachandJohnsonhadbeenquicklyreinforcedbysomeoftheirmates。
"Getaknife,somebody!"Leachwasshouting。
"Poundhimonthehead!Mashhisbrainsout!"wasJohnson’scry。
Butafterhisfirstbellow,WolfLarsenmadenonoise。Hewasfightinggrimlyandsilentlyforlife。Hewassorebeset。Downattheveryfirst,hehadbeenunabletogainhisfeet,andforallofhistremendousstrengthIfeltthattherewasnohopeforhim。
Theforcewithwhichtheystruggledwasvividlyimpressedonme;forIwasknockeddownbytheirsurgingbodiesandbadlybruised。ButintheconfusionImanagedtocrawlintoanemptylowerbunkoutoftheway。
"Allhands!We’vegothim!We’vegothim!"IcouldhearLeachcrying。
"Who?"demandedthosewhohadbeenreallyasleep,andwhohadwakenedtotheyknewnotwhat。
"It’sthebloodymate!"wasLeach’scraftyanswer,strainedfromhiminasmotheredsortofway。
Thiswasgreetedwithwhoopsofjoy,andfromthenonWolfLarsenhadsevenstrongmenontopofhim,Louis,Ibelieve,takingnopartinit。
Theforecastlewaslikeanangryhiveofbeesarousedbysomemarauder。
"Whatho!belowthere!"IheardLatimershoutdownthescuttle,toocautioustodescendintotheinfernoofpassionhecouldhearragingbeneathhiminthedarkness。
"Won’tsomebodygetaknife?Oh,won’tsomebodygetaknife?"Leachpleadedinthefirstintervalofcomparativesilence。
Thenumberoftheassailantswasacauseofconfusion。Theyblockedtheirownefforts,whileWolfLarsen,withbutasinglepurpose,achievedhis。Thiswastofighthiswayacrossthefloortotheladder。Thoughintotaldarkness,Ifollowedhisprogressbyitssound。Nomanlessthanagiantcouldhavedonewhathedid,oncehehadgainedthefootoftheladder。Stepbystep,bythemightofhisarms,thewholepackofmenstrivingtodraghimbackanddown,hedrewhisbodyupfromthefloortillhestooderect。Andthen,stepbystep,handandfoot,heslowlystruggleduptheladder。
Theverylastofall,Isaw。ForLatimer,havingfinallygoneforalantern,helditsothatitslightshonedownthescuttle。WolfLarsenwasnearlytothetop,thoughIcouldnotseehim。Allthatwasvisiblewasthemassofmenfasteneduponhim。Itsquirmedabout,likesomehugemany—leggedspider,andswayedbackandforthtotheregularrollofthevessel。Andstill,stepbystep,withlongintervalsbetween,themassascended。Onceittottered,abouttofallback,butthebrokenholdwasregainedanditstillwentup。
"Whoisit?"Latimercried。
IntheraysofthelanternIcouldseehisperplexedfacepeeringdown。
"Larsen,"Iheardamuffledvoicefromwithinthemass。
Latimerreacheddownwithhisfreehand。Isawahandshootuptoclasphis。Latimerpulled,andthenextcoupleofstepsweremadewitharush。
ThenWolfLarsen’sotherhandreachedupandclutchedtheedgeofthescuttle。
Themassswungclearoftheladder,themenstillclingingtotheirescapingfoe。Theybegantodropoff,tobebrushedoffagainstthesharpedgeofthescuttle,tobeknockedoffbythelegswhichwerenowkickingpowerfully。
Leachwasthelasttogo,fallingsheerbackfromthetopofthescuttleandstrikingonheadandshouldersuponhissprawlingmatesbeneath。WolfLarsenandthelanterndisappeared,andwewereleftindarkness。TheSeaWolf:Chapter15CHAPTER15
Therewasadealofcursingandgroaningasthemenatthebottomoftheladdercrawledtotheirfeet。
"Somebodystrikealight,mythumb’soutofjoint,"saidoneofthemen,Parsons,aswarthy,saturnineman,boat—steererinStandish’sboat,inwhichHarrisonwaspuller。
"You’llfinditknockin’aboutbythebitts,"Leachsaid,sittingdownontheedgeofthebunkinwhichIwasconcealed。
Therewasafumblingandascratchingofmatches,andthesea—lampflaredup,dimandsmoky,andinitsweirdlightbare—leggedmenmovedabout,nursingtheirbruisesandcaringfortheirhurts。Oofty—OoftylaidholdofParsons’sthumb,pullingitoutstoutlyandsnappingitbackintoplace。InoticedatthesametimethattheKanaka’sknuckleswerelaidopenclearacrossandtothebone。Heexhibitedthem,exposingbeautifulwhiteteethinagrinashedidsoandexplainingthatthewoundshadcomefromstrikingWolfLarseninthemouth。
"Soitwasyou,wasit,youblackbeggar?"belligerentlydemandedone,Kelly,anIrish—Americanandalongshoreman,makinghisfirsttriptosea,andboat—pullerforKerfoot。
AshemadethedemandhespatoutamouthfulofbloodandteethandshovedhispugnaciousfaceclosetoOofty—Oofty。TheKanakaleapedbackwardtohisbunk,toreturnwithasecondleap,flourishingalongknife。
"Aw,golaydown,youmakemetired,"Leachinterfered。Hewasevidently,forallofhisyouthandinexperience,cockoftheforecastle。"G’wan,youKelly。YouleaveOoftyalone。Howinhelldidheknowitwasyouinthedark?"
Kellysubsidedwithsomemuttering,andtheKanakaflashedhiswhiteteethinagratefulsmile。Hewasabeautifulcreature,almostfeminineinthepleasinglinesofhisfigure,andtherewasasoftnessanddreaminessinhislargeeyeswhichseemedtocontradicthiswell—earnedreputationforstrifeandaction。
"Howdidhegetaway?"Johnsonasked。
Hewassittingonthesideofhisbunk,thewholeposeofhisfigureindicatingutterdejectionandhopelessness。Hewasstillbreathingheavilyfromtheexertionhehadmade。Hisshirthadbeenrippedentirelyfromhiminthestruggle,andbloodfromagashinthecheekwasflowingdownhisnakedchest,markingaredpathacrosshiswhitethighanddrippingtothefloor。
"Becauseheisthedevil,asItoldyoubefore,"wasLeach’sanswer;
andthereathewasonhisfeetandraginghisdisappointmentwithtearsinhiseyes。
"Andnotoneofyoutogetaknife!"washisunceasinglament。
Buttherestofthehandshadalivelyfearofconsequencestocomeandgavenoheedtohim。
"How’llheknowwhichwaswhich?"Kellyasked,andashewentonhelookedmurderouslyabouthim——"unlessoneofuspeaches。"
"He’llknowassoonaseverheclapseyesonus,"Parsonsreplied。"Onelookatyou’dbeenough。"
"Tellhimthedeckfloppedupandgougedyerteethoutivyerjaw,"
Louisgrinned。Hewastheonlymanwhowasnotoutofhisbunk,andhewasjubilantinthathepossessednobruisestoadvertisethathehadhadahandinthenight’swork。"Justwaittillhegetsaglimpseivyermugsto—morrow,thegangivye,"hechuckled。
"We’llsaywethoughtitwasthemate,"saidone。Andanother,"IknowwhatI’llsay——thatIheeredarow,jumpedoutofmybunk,gotajollygoodcrackonthejawformypainsandsailedinmyself。Couldn’ttellwhoorwhatitwasinthedarkandjusthitout。"
"An’’twasmeyouhit,ofcourse,"Kellyseconded,hisfacebrighteningforthemoment。
LeachandJohnsontooknopartinthediscussion,anditwasplaintoseethattheirmateslookeduponthemasmenforwhomtheworstwasinevitable,whowerebeyondhopeandalreadydead。Leachstoodtheirfearsandreproachesforsometime。Thenhebrokeout:
"Youmakemetired!Anicelotofgazabasyouare!Ifyoutalkedlesswithyermouthanddidsomethingwithyerhands,he’da—bendonewithbynow。Whycouldn’toneofyou,justoneofyou,getmeaknifewhenIsungout?Youmakemesick!A—beefin’andbellerin’’round,asthoughhe’dkillyouwhenhegetsyou!Youknowdamnwellhewon’t。Can’taffordto。Noshippingmastersorbeachcombersoverhere,andhewantsyerinhisbusiness,andhewantsyerbad。Who’stopullorsteerorsailshipifhelosesyer?
It’smeandJohnsonhavetofacethemusic。Getintoyerbunks,now,andshutyerfaces;Iwanttogetsomesleep。"
"That’sallrightallright,"Parsonsspokeup。"Mebbehewon’tdoforus,butmarkmywords,hell’llbeaniceboxtothisshipfromnowon。"
AllthewhileIhadbeenapprehensiveconcerningmyownpredicament。
Whatwouldhappentomewhenthesemendiscoveredmypresence?IcouldneverfightmywayoutasWolfLarsenhaddone。AndatthismomentLatimercalleddownthescuttles:
"Hump!Theoldmanwantsyou!"
"Heain’tdownhere!"Parsonscalledback。
"Yesheis,"Isaid,slidingoutofthebunkandstrivingmyhardesttokeepmyvoicesteadyandbold。
Thesailorslookedatmeinconsternation。Fearwasstrongintheirfaces,andthedevilishnesswhichcomesoffear。
"I’mcoming!"IshouteduptoLatimer。
"Noyoudon’t!"Kellycried,steppingbetweenmeandtheladder,hisrighthandshapedintoaveritablestrangler’sclutch。"Youdamnlittlesneak!I’llshutyermouth!"
"Lethimgo,"Leachcommanded。
"Notonyerlife,"wastheangryretort。
Leachneverchangedhispositionontheedgeofthebunk。"Lethimgo,Isay,"herepeated;butthistimehisvoicewasgrittyandmetallic。
TheIrishmanwavered。Imadetostepbyhim,andhestoodaside。WhenIhadgainedtheladder,Iturnedtothecircleofbrutalandmalignantfacespeeringatmethroughthesemi—darkness。Asuddenanddeepsympathywelledupinme。IrememberedtheCockney’swayofputtingit。HowGodmusthavehatedthemthattheyshouldbetorturedso!
"Ihaveseenandheardnothing,believeme,"Isaidquietly。
"Itellyer,he’sallright,"IcouldhearLeachsayingaswentuptheladder。"Hedon’tliketheoldmannomorenoryouorme。"
IfoundWolfLarseninthecabin,strippedandbloody,waitingforme。
Hegreetedmewithoneofhiswhimsicalsmiles。
"Come,gettowork,Doctor。Thesignsarefavorableforanextensivepracticethisvoyage。Idon’tknowwhattheGhostwouldhavebeenwithoutyou,andifIcouldonlycherishsuchnoblesentimentsIwouldtellyouhermasterisdeeplygrateful。"
Iknewtherunofthesimplemedicine—chesttheGhostcarried,andwhileIwasheatingwateronthecabinstoveandgettingthethingsreadyfordressinghiswounds,hemovedabout,laughingandchatting,andexamininghishurtswithacalculatingeye。Ihadneverbeforeseenhimstripped,andthesightofhisbodyquitetookmybreathaway。Ithasneverbeenmyweaknesstoexalttheflesh——farfromit;butthereisenoughoftheartistinmetoappreciateitswonder。
ImustsaythatIwasfascinatedbytheperfectlinesofWolfLarsen’sfigure,andbywhatImaytermtheterriblebeautyofit。hadnotedthemenintheforecastle。Powerfullymuscledthoughsomeofthemwere,therehadbeensomethingwrongwithallofthem,aninsufficientdevelopmenthere,anunduedevelopmentthere,atwistoracrookthatdestroyedsymmetry,legstooshortortoolong,ortoomuchsineworboneexposed,ortoolittle。
Oofty—Ooftyhadbeentheonlyonewhoselineswereatallpleasing,while,insofarastheypleased,thatfarhadtheybeenwhatIshouldcallfeminine。
ButWolfLarsenwastheman—type,themasculine,andalmostagodinhisperfectness。Ashemovedaboutorraisedhisarmsthegreatmusclesleaptandmovedunderthesatinyskin。Ihaveforgottentosaythatthebronzeendedwithhisface。Hisbody,thankstohisScandinavianstock,wasfairasthefairestwoman’s。Irememberhisputtinghishanduptofeelofthewoundonhishead,andmywatchingthebicepsmovelikealivingthingunderitswhitesheath。Itwasthebicepsthathadnearlycrushedoutmylifeonce,thatIhadseenstrikesomanykillingblows。Icouldnottakemyeyesfromhim。stoodmotionless,arollofantisepticcottoninmyhandunwindingandspillingitselfdowntothefloor。
Henoticedme,andIbecameconsciousthatIwasstaringathim。
"Godmadeyouwell,"Isaid。
"Didhe?"heanswered。"Ihaveoftenthoughtsomyself,andwonderedwhy。"
"Purpose——"Ibegan。
"Utility,"heinterrupted。"Thisbodywasmadeforuse。Thesemusclesweremadetogrip,andtear,anddestroylivingthingsthatgetbetweenmeandlife。Buthaveyouthoughtoftheotherlivingthings?They,too,havemuscles,ofonekindandanother,madetogrip,andtear,anddestroy;
andwhentheycomebetweenmeandlife,Ioutgripthem,outtearthem,outdestroythem。Purposedoesnotexplainthat。Utilitydoes。"
"Itisnotbeautiful,"Iprotested。
"Lifeisn’t,youmean,"hesmiled。"YetyousayIwasmadewell。Doyouseethis?"
Hebracedhislegsandfeet,pressingthecabinfloorwithhistoesinaclutchingsortofway。Knotsandridgesandmoundsofmuscleswrithedandbunchedundertheskin。
"Feelthem,"hecommanded。
Theywerehardasiron。AndIobserved,also,thathiswholebodyhadunconsciouslydrawnitselftogether,tenseandalert;thatmusclesweresoftlycrawlingandshapingaboutthehips,alongtheback,andacrosstheshoulders;thatthearmswereslightlylifted,theirmusclescontracting,thefingerscrookingtillthehandswereliketalons;andthateventheeyeshadchangedexpressionandintothemwerecomingwatchfulnessandmeasurementandalightnoneotherthanofbattle。
"Stability,equilibrium,"hesaid,relaxingontheinstantandsinkinghisbodybackintorepose。"Feetwithwhichtoclutchtheground,legstostandonandtohelpwithstand,whilewitharmsandhands,teethandnails,Istruggletokillandtobenotkilled。Purpose?Utilityisthebetterword。"
Ididnotargue。Ihadseenthemechanismoftheprimitivefightingbeast,andIwasasstronglyimpressedasifIhadseentheenginesofagreatbattleshiporAtlanticliner。
Iwassurprised,consideringthefiercestruggleintheforecastle,atthesuperficialityofhishurts,andIpridemyselfthatIdressedthemdexterously。Withtheexceptionofseveralbadwounds,therestweremerelyseverebruisesandlacerations。Theblowwhichhehadreceivedbeforegoingoverboardhadlaidhisscalpopenseveralinches。This,underhisdirection,Icleansedandsewedtogether,havingfirstshavedtheedgesofthewound。
Thenthecalfofhislegwasbadlylaceratedandlookedasthoughithadbeenmangledbyabulldog。Somesailor,hetoldme,hadlaidholdofitbyhisteeth,atthebeginningofthefight,andhungonandbeendraggedtothetopoftheforecastleladder,whenhewaskickedloose。
"Bytheway,Hump,asIhaveremarked,youareahandyman,"WolfLarsenbegan,whenmyworkwasdone。"Asyouknow,we’reshortamate。Hereafteryoushallstandwatches,receiveseventy—fivedollarspermonth,andbeaddressedforeandaftasMr。VanWeyden。"
"I——Idon’tunderstandnavigation,youknow,"Igasped。
"Notnecessaryatall。"
"Ireallydonotcaretositinthehighplaces,"Iobjected。"Ifindlifeprecariousenoughinmypresenthumblesituation。Ihavenoexperience。
Mediocrity,yousee,hasitscompensations。"
Hesmiledasthoughitwereallsettled。
"Iwon’tbemateonthishell—ship!"Icrieddefiantly。
Isawhisfacegrowhardandthemercilessglittercomeintohiseyes。
Hewalkedtothedoorofhisroom,saying:
"Andnow,Mr。VanWeyden,goodnight。"
"Goodnight,Mr。Larsen,"Iansweredweakly。TheSeaWolf:Chapter16CHAPTER16
Icannotsaythatthepositionofmatecarriedwithitanythingmorejoyfulthanthattherewerenomoredishestowash。Iwasignorantofthesimplestdutiesofmate,andwouldhavefaredbadlyindeedhadthesailorsnotsympathizedwithme。Iknewnothingoftheminutiaeofropesandrigging,ofthetrimmingandsettingofsails;butthesailorstookpainstoputmetorights,——Louisprovinganespeciallygoodteacher,——andIhadlittletroublewiththoseunderme。
Withthehuntersitwasotherwise。Familiarinvaryingdegreewiththesea,theytookmeasasortofjoke。Intruth,itwasajoketome,thatI,theveriestlandsman,shouldbefillingtheofficeofmate;buttobetakenasajokebyotherswasadifferentmatter。madenocomplaint,butWolfLarsendemandedthemostpunctiliousseaetiquetteinmycase,——
farmorethanpoorJohansenhadeverreceived;andattheexpenseofseveralrows,threats,andmuchgrumbling,hebroughtthehunterstotime。Iwas"Mr。VanWeyden"foreandaft,anditwasonlyunofficiallythatWolfLarsenhimselfeveraddressedmeas"Hump。"
Itwasamusing。Perhapsthewindwouldhaulafewpointswhilewewereatdinner,andasIleftthetablehewouldsay,"Mr。VanWeyden,willyoukindlyputaboutontheporttack。"AndIwouldgoondeck,beckonLouistome,andlearnfromhimwhatwastobedone。Then,afewminuteslater,havingdigestedhisinstructionsandthoroughlymasteredtheman渦vre,Iwouldproceedtoissuemyorders。Irememberanearlyinstanceofthiskind,whenWolfLarsenappearedonthescenejustasIhadbeguntogiveorders。Hesmokedhiscigarandlookedonquietlytillthethingwasaccomplished,andthenpacedaftbymysidealongtheweatherpoop。
"Hump,"hesaid,"Ibegpardon,Mr。VanWeyden,Icongratulateyou。
Ithinkyoucannowfireyourfather’slegsbackintothegravetohim。
You’vediscoveredyourownandlearnedtostandonthem。Alittlerope—work,sail—making,andexperiencewithstormsandsuchthings,andbytheendofthevoyageyoucouldshiponanycoastingschooner。"
Itwasduringthisperiod,betweenthedeathofJohansenandthearrivalonthesealinggrounds,thatIpassedmypleasantesthoursontheGhost。
WolfLarsenwasquiteconsiderate,thesailorshelpedme,andIwasnolongerinirritatingcontactwithThomasMugridge。AndImadefreetosay,asthedayswentby,thatIfoundIwastakingacertainsecretprideinmyself。Fantasticasthesituationwas,——alandlubbersecondincommand,——Iwas,nevertheless,carryingitoffwell;andduringthatbrieftimeIwasproudofmyself,andIgrewtolovetheheaveandrolloftheGhostundermyfeetasshewallowednorthandwestthroughthetropicseatotheisletwherewefilledourwater—casks。
Butmyhappinesswasnotunalloyed。Itwascomparative,aperiodoflessmiseryslippedinbetweenapastofgreatmiseriesandafutureofgreatmiseries。FortheGhost,sofarastheseamenwereconcerned,wasahell—shipoftheworsedescription。Theyneverhadamoment’srestorpeace。WolfLarsentreasuredagainstthemtheattemptonhislifeandthedrubbinghehadreceivedintheforecastle;andmorning,noon,andnight,andallnightaswell,hedevotedhimselftomakinglifeunlivableforthem。
Heknewwellthepsychologyofthelittlething,anditwasthelittlethingsbywhichhekeptthecrewworkeduptothevergeofmadness。IhaveseenHarrisoncalledfromhisbunktoputproperlyawayamisplacedpaint—brush,andthetwowatchesbelowhaledfromtheirtiredsleeptoaccompanyhimandseehimdoit。Alittlething,truly,butwhenmultipliedbythethousandingeniousdevicesofsuchamind,thementalstateofthemenintheforecastlemaybeslightlycomprehended。
Ofcoursemuchgrumblingwenton,andlittleoutburstswerecontinuallyoccurring。Blowswerestruck,andtherewerealwaystwoorthreemennursinginjuriesatthehandsofthehumanbeastwhowastheirmaster。Concertedactionwasimpossibleinfaceoftheheavyarsenalofweaponscarriedinthesteerageandcabin。LeachandJohnsonwerethetwoparticularvictimsofWolfLarsen’sdiabolictemper,andthelookofprofoundmelancholywhichhadsettledonJohnson’sfaceandinhiseyesmademyheartbleed。
WithLeachitwasdifferent。Therewastoomuchofthefightingbeastinhim。Heseemedpossessedbyaninsatiablefurywhichgavenotimeforgrief。Hislipshadbecomedistortedintoapermanentsnarl,which,atmeresightofWolfLarsen,brokeoutinsound,horribleandmenacing,and,Idobelieve,unconsciously。IhaveseenhimfollowWolfLarsenaboutwithhiseyes,likeananimalitskeeper,thewhiletheanimal—likesnarlsoundeddeepinhisthroatandvibratedforthbetweenhisteeth。
Irememberonce,ondeck,inbrightday,touchinghimontheshoulderaspreliminarytogivinganorder。Hisbackwastowardme,andatthefirstfeelofmyhandheleapeduprightintheairandawayfromme,snarlingandturninghisheadasheleaped。Hehadforthemomentmistakenmeforthemanhehated。
BothheandJohnsonwouldhavekilledWolfLarsenattheslightestopportunity,buttheopportunitynevercame。WolfLarsenwastoowiseforthat,and,besides,theyhadnoadequateweapons。Withtheirfistsalonetheyhadnochancewhatever。TimeandagainhefoughtitoutwithLeach,whofoughtback,always,likeawildcat,toothandnailandfist,untilstretched,exhaustedorunconscious,onthedeck。Andhewasneveraversetoanotherencounter。AllthedevilthatwasinhimchallengedthedevilinWolfLarsen。
Theyhadbuttoappearondeckatthesametime,whentheywouldbeatit,cursing,snarling,striking;andIhaveseenLeachflinghimselfuponWolfLarsenwithoutwarningorprovocation。Oncehethrewhisheavysheath—knife,missingWolfLarsen’sthroatbyaninch。Anothertimehedroppedasteelmarlinspikefromthemizzencrosstree。Itwasadifficultcasttomakeonarollingship,butthesharppointofthespike,whistlingseventy—fivefeetthroughtheair,barelymissedWolfLarsen’sheadasheemergedfromthecabincompanionwayanddroveitslengthtwoinchesandoverintothesoliddeck—planking。Stillanothertime,hestoleintothesteerage,possessedhimselfofaloadedshot—gun,andwasmakingarushforthedeckwithitwhencaughtbyKerfootanddisarmed。
IoftenwonderedwhyWolfLarsendidnotkillhimandmakeanendofit。Butheonlylaughedandseemedtoenjoyit。Thereseemedacertainspiceaboutit,suchasmenmustfeelwhotakedelightinmakingpetsofferociousanimals。
"Itgivesathrilltolife,"heexplainedtome,"whenlifeiscarriedinone’shand。Manisanaturalgambler,andlifeisthebiggeststakehecanlay。Thegreatertheodds,thegreaterthethrill。WhyshouldI
denymyselfthejoyofexcitingLeach’ssoultofever—pitch?Forthatmatter,Idohimakindness。Thegreatnessofsensationismutual。Heislivingmoreroyallythananymanfor’ard,thoughhedoesnotknowit。Forhehaswhattheyhavenot——purpose,somethingtodoandbedone,anall—absorbingendtostrivetoattain,thedesiretokillme,thehopethathemaykillme。Really,Hump,heislivingdeepandhigh。Idoubtthathehaseverlivedsoswiftlyandkeenlybefore,andIhonestlyenvyhim,sometimes,whenIseehimragingatthesummitofpassionandsensibility。"
"Ah,butitiscowardly,cowardly!"Icried。"Youhavealltheadvantage。"
"Ofthetwoofus,youandI,whoisthegreatercoward?"heaskedseriously。
"Ifthesituationisunpleasing,youcompromisewithyourconsciencewhenyoumakeyourselfapartytoit。Ifyouwerereallygreat,reallytruetoyourself,youwouldjoinforceswithLeachandJohnson。Butyouareafraid,youareafraid。Youwanttolive。Thelifethatisinyoucriesoutthatitmustlive,nomatterwhatthecost;soyouliveignominiously,untruetothebestyoudreamof,sinningagainstyourwholepitifullittlecode,and,iftherewereahell,headingyoursoulstraightforit。Bah!
Iplaythebraverpart。Idonosin,forIamtruetothepromptingsofthelifethatisinme。Iamsincerewithmysoulatleast,andthatiswhatyouarenot。"