"Youwon’twantyourhorseto—night,becauseyoucan’tusehim,"hesaid。"IshallputMissVanderpoel’ssaddleuponhimandridewithherbacktoStornham。Youthinkyouarecuttopieces,butyouarenot,andyou’llgetoverit。I’llaskyoutomark,however,thatifyouopenyourfoulmouthtoinsinuateliesconcerningeitherLadyAnstruthersorhersisterIwilldothisthingagaininpublicsomeday——onthestepsofyourclub——anddoitmorethoroughly。"
Hewalkedintothecottagesoonafterwardslooking,toBettyVanderpoel’seyes,paleandexceptionallybig,andalsomoreamanthanitisoftengiveneventothemostvirilemalecreaturetolook——andhewalkedtothesideofherrestingplaceandstoodtherelookingdown。
"IthoughtIheardadoghowl,"shesaid。
"Youdidhearadoghowl,"heanswered。Hesaidnootherword,andsheaskednofurtherquestion。Sheknewwhathehaddone,andhewaswellawarethatsheknewit。
Therewasalong,strangelytensesilence。Thelightofthemoonwasgrowing。Shemadeatfirstnoefforttorise,butlaystillandlookedupathimfromundersplendidliftedlashes,whilehisowngazefellintothedepthofherslikeaplummetintoadeeppool。Thiscontinuedforalmostafullminute,whenheturnedquicklyawayandwalkedtothehearth,indrawingaheavybreath。
Hecouldnotendurethatwhichbesethim;itwasunbearable,becausehereyeshadmaddeninglyseemedtoaskhimsomewistfulquestion。Whydidsheletherlovelinesssocalltohim。Shewasnotatriflerwhocouldplaywithmeanings。
Perhapsshedidnotknowwhatherpowerwas。Sometimeshecouldbelievethatbeautifulwomendidnot。
Inafewmoments,almostbeforehecouldreachher,shewasrising,andwhenshegotupshesupportedherselfagainsttheopendoor,standinginthemoonlight。Ifhewaspale,shewaspalealso,andherlargeeyeswouldnotmovefromhisface,sodrawinghimthathecouldnotkeepawayfromher。
"Listen,"hebrokeoutsuddenly。"Penzancetoldme——
warnedme——thatsometimeamomentwouldcomewhichwouldbestrongerthanallelseinaman——thanallelseintheworld。Ithascomenow。Letmetakeyouhome。"
"Thanwhatelse?"shesaidslowly,andbecameevenpalerthanbefore。
Hestrovetoreleasehimselffromthepossessionofthemoment,andinhisstruggleansweredwithasortofsavagery。
"Thanscruple——thanpower——eventhanaman’sdeterminationanddecentpride。"
"Areyouproud?"shehalfwhisperedquitebrokenly。"I
amnot——sinceIwaitedfortheringingofthechurchbell——
sinceIheardittoll。Afterthattheworldwasempty——anditwasasemptyofdecentprideasofeverythingelse。Therewasnothingleft。Iwasthehumblestbrokenthingonearth。"
"You!"hegasped。"DoyouknowIthinkIshallgomaddirectlyperhapsitishappeningnow。YOUwerehumbleandbroken——yourworldwasempty!Because————?"
"Lookatme,LordMountDunstan,"andthesweetestvoiceintheworldwasatender,wildlittlecrytohim。"OhLOOKatme!"
Hecaughtherout—thrownhandsandlookeddownintothebeautifulpassionatesoulofher。Themomenthadcome,andthetidalwaverisingtoitsheightsweptallthecommonearthawaywhen,withasavagesob,hecaughtandheldhercloseandhardagainstthatwhichthuddedracinginhisbreast。
Andtheystoodandswayedtogether,foldedineachother’sarms,whilethewindfromthemarsheslifteditsvoicelikeanexultinghumanthingasitsweptaboutthem。
CHAPTERXLIX
ATSTORNHAMANDATBROADMORLANDS
Theexultingwindhadsweptthecloudsaway,andthemoonrodeinadarkblueseaofsky,makingthenightlightpurelyclear,whentheydrewalittleapart,thattheymightbetterseethewonderfulnessineachother’sfaces。Itwassomysteriouslygreatathingthattheyfeltneartoawe。
"Ifoughttoolong。Iworeoutmybody’sendurance,andnowIamquakinglikeaboy。RedGodwyndidnotbeginhiswooinglikethis。Forgiveme,"MountDunstansaidatlast。
"Doyouknow,"withlovelytremblinglipsandvoice,"thatforlong——long——youhavebeenunkindtome?"
Itwasmerelyhumanthatheshouldswiftlyenfoldheragain,andanswerwithhislipsagainsthercheek。
"Unkind!Unkind!Oh,theheavenlywoman’ssweetnessofyourtellingmeso——theheavenlysweetnessofit!"heexclaimedpassionatelyandlow。"AndIwasoneofthosewhoare`bytheroadsideeverywhere,’anunkempt,ragingbeggar,whomightnotdecentlyaskyouforacrust。"
"Itwasallwrong——wrong!"shewhisperedbacktohim,andhepouredforththetenderest,fiercewordsofconfessionandprayer,andshelistened,drinkingthemin,withnowandthenasoftsobpressedagainsttheroughnessoftheenrapturingtweed。Foraspacetheyhadbothforgottenherhurt,becausethereareotherthingsthanterrorwhichhypnotisepain。MountDunstanwastobepraisedforrememberingitfirst。HemusttakeherbacktoStornhamandhersisterwithoutfurtherdelay。
"IwillputyoursaddleonAnstruthers’horse,ormine,andliftyoutoyourseat。Thereisafarmhouseabouttwomilesaway,whereIwilltakeyoufirstforfoodandwarmth。Perhapsitwouldbewellforyoutostaytheretorestforanhourorso,andIwillsendamessagetoLadyAnstruthers。"
"Iwillgototheplace,andeatanddrinkwhatyouadvise,"sheanswered。"ButIbegyoutotakemebacktoRosaliewithoutdelay。IfeelthatImustseeher。"
"IfeelthatImustseeher,too,"hesaid。"Butforher——Godblessher!"headded,afterhissuddenpause。
Bettyknewthattheexclamationmeantstrongfeeling,andthatsomehowinthepasthoursRosaliehadawakenedit。Butitwasonlywhen,aftertheirrefreshmentatthefarm,theyhadtakenhorseagainandwereridinghomewardtogether,thatsheheardfromhimwhathadpassedbetweenthem。
"Allthathasledtothismayseemthemerestchance,"
hesaid。"Butsurelyastrangethinghascomeabout。I
knowthatwithoutunderstandingit。"Heleanedoverandtouchedherhand。"You,whoareLife——withoutunderstandingIrideherebesideyou,believingthatyoubroughtmeback。"
"Itried——Itried!Withallmystrength,Itried。"
"AfterIhadseenyoursisterto—day,Iguessed——Iknew。
Butnotatfirst。Iwasnotillofthefever,asexcitedrumourhadit;butIwasill,andthedoctorsandthevicarwerealarmed。Ihadfoughttoolong,andIwasgivingup,asI
haveseenthepoorfellowsintheballroomgiveup。Iftheywerenotdraggedbacktheyslippedoutofone’shands。Ifthefeverhaddeveloped,allwouldhavebeenoverquickly。
Iknewthedoctorsfearedthat,andIamashamedtosayI
wasgladofit。But,yesterday,inthemorning,whenIwaslettingmyselfgowithamorbidpleasureintheluxuriousreliefofit——somethingreachedme——someslowrisingcalltoeffortandlife。"
Sheturnedtowardshiminhersaddle,listening,herlipsparted。
"Ididnotevenaskmyselfwhatwashappening,butI
begantobeconsciousofbeingdrawnback,andtolongintenselytoseeyouagain。Iwasgraduallyfilledwitharestlessfeelingthatyouwerenearme,andthat,thoughIcouldnotphysicallyhearyourvoice,youweresurelyCALLINGtome。Itwasthethingwhichcouldnotbe——butitwas——andbecauseofitIcouldnotletmyselfdrift。"
"Ididcallyou!IwasonmykneesinthechurchaskingtobeforgivenifIprayedmadprayers——butprayingthesamethingoverandover。Thevillagerswerekneelingthere,too。
Theycrowdedin,leavingeverythingelse。Youaretheirhero,andtheywereindeepearnest。"
Hislookwasgravelypondering。Hislifehadnotmadeamysticofhim——itwasPenzancewhowasthemystic——buthefelthimselfperplexedbymysteriouslysuggestivethought。
"Iwasbroughtback——Iwasbroughtback,"hesaid。"IntheafternoonIfellasleepandsleptprofoundlyuntilthemorning。WhenIawoke,IrealisedthatIwasaremademan。
ThedoctorswerealmostawedwhenIfirstspoketothem。
OldDr。Fenwickdiedlater,and,afterIhadheardaboutit,thechurchbellwastolled。ItwasheardatWeaver’sfarm—
house,and,aseverybodyhadbeenexcitedlywaitingforthesound,itconveyedbutoneideatothem——andtheboywassentracingacrossthefieldstoStornhamvillage。Dearest!
Dearest!"heexclaimed。
Shehadbowedherheadandburstintopassionatesobbing。
Becauseshewasnotofthewomenwhowept,hermoment’spassionwasstrongandbitter。
"Itneednothavebeen!"sheshuddered。"Onecannotbearit——becauseitneednothavebeen!"
"Stopyourhorseamoment,"hesaid,reininginhisown,while,withburningeyesandswellingthroat,heheldandsteadiedher。Buthedidnotknowthatneitherhersisternorherfatherhadeverseenherinsuchmood,andthatshehadneversoseenherself。
"Youshallnotrememberit,"hesaidtoher。
"Iwillnot,"sheanswered,recoveringherself。"Butforonemomentalltheawfulhoursrushedback。Tellmetherest。"
"WedidnotknowthattheblunderhadbeenmadeuntilamessengerfromDolerodeovertoinquireandbringmessagesofcondolence。ThenweunderstoodwhathadoccurredandIownasortoffrenzyseizedme。IknewImustseeyou,and,thoughthedoctorswerehorriblynervous,theydarenotholdmeback。ThedaybeforeitwouldnothavebeenbelievedthatIcouldleavemyroom。Youwerecryingouttome,andthoughIdidnotknow,Iwasanswering,bodyandsoul。PenzanceknewImusthavemywaywhenIspoketohim——madasitseemed。WhenIrodethroughStornhamvillage,morethanonewomanscreamedatsightofme。Ishallnotbeabletoblotoutofmymindyoursister’sface。Shewilltellyouwhatwesaidtoeachother。IrodeawayfromtheCourtquitehalfmad————"hisvoicebecameverygentle,"becauseofsomethingshehadtoldmeinthefirstwildmoments。"
LadyAnstruthershadspentthenightmovingrestlesslyfromoneroomtoanother,andhadnotbeentobedwhentheyrodesidebysideuptheavenueintheearlymorningsunlight。Anunderkeeper,crossingtheparkafewhundredyardsabovethem,afteroneglance,dashedacrosstheswardtothecourtyardandtheservants’hall。Thenewsflashedelectricallythroughthehouse,andRosalie,likeasmallghost,cameoutuponthestepsastheyreinedin。Thoughherlipsmoved,shecouldnotspeakaloud,asshewatchedMountDunstanlifthersisterfromherhorse。
"ChildeHaroldstumbledandIhurtmyfoot,"saidBetty,tryingtobecalm。
"Iknewhewouldfindyou!"Rosalieansweredquitefaintly。"Iknewyouwould!"turningtoMountDunstan,adoringhimwithallthemeaningofhersmallpaledface。
Shewouldhavebeenafraidofhermemoryofwhatshehadsaidinthestrangescenewhichhadtakenplacebeforethemafewhoursago,butalmostbeforeeitherofthetwospokesheknewthatagreatgulfhadbeencrossedinsomeoneinevitable,thoughunforeseen,leap。Howithadbeentaken,whenorwhere,didnotintheleastmatter,whensheclungtoBettyandBettyclungtoher。
Afterafewmomentsofmovedandreverentwaiting,theadmirableJenningssteppedforwardandaddressedherinloweredvoice。
"There’sbeenlittlesleepinthevillagethisnight,mylady,"
hemurmuredearnestly。"Ipromisedtheyshouldhaveasign,withyourpermission。Iftheflagwasrunup——they’realllookingout,andthey’dknow。"
"Runitup,Jennings,"LadyAnstruthersanswered,"atonce。"
Whenitranupthestaffonthetowerandflutteredoutingayansweringtothemorningbreeze,childreninthevillagebegantorunaboutshouting,menandwomenappearedatcottagedoors,andmorethanonecapwasthrownupintheair。ButoldDobyandMrs。Welden,whohadbeenwaitingforhours,standingbyMrs。Welden’sgate,caughteachother’sdry,tremblingoldhandsandbegantocry。
TheBroadmorlandsdivorcescandal,havingmadeconversationduringaseasonquitefortyyearsbeforeMissVanderpoelappearedatStornhamCourt,hadbeenlaiduponalowershelfandburiedbeneathotherstorieslongenoughtobeforgotten。Onlyoneindividualhadnotforgottenit,andhewastheDukeofBroadmorlandshimself,inwhoseminditremainedhideouslyclear。Hehadbeenayoungman,honestlyandmuchinlovewhenitfirstrevealeditselftohim,andforafewmonthshehadeventhoughtitmightendbybeinghisdeath,notwithstandingthathewasstrongandinfirst—ratephysicalcondition。Hehadbeenafine,heartyyoungmanofcleanandratherdignifiedlife,thoughhewasnotunderstoodtobebrilliantofmind。Privatelyhehadidealsconnectedwithhisrankandnamewhichhewasnotfluentenoughclearlytoexpress。Afterhehadrealisedthatheshouldnotdieofthepublichumiliationanddisgrace,whichseemedtopointhimoutashavingbeenthekindofgulliblefoolitisscarcelypossibletoavoidlaughingat——or,soitseemedtohiminhisheart—searedfrenzy——hethoughtitnotimprobablethatheshouldgomad。HewasharriedsobymemoriesoflovelylittlesoftwaysofEdith’s(hiswife’snamewasEdith),oftheprettysoundofherlaugh,andofherinnocent,girlishhabitofkneelingdownbyherbedsideeverynightandmorningtosayherprayers。Thishadsotouchedhimthathehadsometimeskneltdowntosayhis,too,sayingtoher,withslightawkwardboyishness,thatafellowwhohadasortofangelforhiswifeoughttodohisbesttobelieveinthethingsshebelievedin。
"Andallthetime————!"adevilwholaughedusedtosniggerinhisearoverandoveragain,untilitwasalmostlikethetickingofaclockduringtheworstmonths,whenitdidnotseemprobablethatamancouldfeelhisbrainwhirlinglikeaCatherinewheelnightandday,andstillmanagetoholdonandnotreachthepointofhowlingandshriekinganddashinghisskullagainstwailsandfurniture。
Butthatpassedintime,andhetoldhimselfthathepassedwithit。SincethenhehadlivedchieflyatBroadmorlandsCastle,andwasspokenofasamanwhohadbecomereligious,whichwasnottrue,but,havingreachedthedecisionthatreligionwasgoodformostpeople,hepaidagooddealofattentiontohischurchandschools,andwasrigorousinthematterofcurates。
Hehadpassedseventynow,andwassomewhatdespoticandhaughty,becauseamanwhoisaDukeanddoesnotgooutintotheworldtorubagainstmenofhisownclassandothers,butlivesaltogetheronagreatandsplendidestate,salutedbyeverycreaturehemeets,anduniversallyobeyedandcountedbeforeallelse,isnotunlikelytoforgetthatheisaquiteordinaryhumanbeing,andnotasortofmonarch。
HehaddonehisbesttoforgetEdith,whohadsoondiedofbeingashadycurate’swifeinAustralia,buthehadnotbeenabletoencompassit。Heused,occasionally,todreamshewaskneelingbythebedinherchildishnightgownsayingherprayersaloud,andwouldwakencrying——ashehadcriedinthoseawfulyoungdays。Againstsocialimmoralityorvillagelight—mindednesshewasrelentlesslysavage。Heallowedfornopalliatingorexoneratingfacts。Hebegantoseeredwhenheheardoforsawlightnessinamarriedwoman,andtheoutsideworldfrequentlysaidthatthischaracteristicborderedonmonomania。
NigelAnstruthers,havingmethimonceortwice,hadatfirstbeenmuchamusedbyhim,andhadeven,bygivinghimanadroitlycarefullead,managedtoguidehimintoanexpressionofopinion。TheDuke,whohadheardmenofhisclassdiscussed,didnotintheleastlikehim,notwithstandinghissympatheticsuavityofmannerandhisairofbeingintelligentlyimpressedbywhatheheard。Notlongafterwards,however,ittranspiredthattheagedrectorofBroadmorlandshavingdied,thelivinghadbeengiventoFfolliott,and,hearingit,SirNigelwasnotslowtoconjecturethatquitedecentlyutilisabletoolswouldliereadytohishandifcircumstancespressed;thispointofview,itwillbeseen,beingnotillogical。Amanwhohadnotbeenasortofhermitwouldhaveheardenoughofhimtobeputonhisguard,andonewhowasamanoftheworld,lookingnormallyonexistence,wouldhavereasonedcoolly,anddeclinedtoconcernhimselfaboutwhatwasnothisaffair。ButaparallelmightbedrawnbetweenBroadmorlandsandsomeoldlionwoundedsorelyinhisyouthandlefttodraghisunhealedtormentthroughtheyearsofage。Ononesubjecthehadnopointofviewbuthisown,andcouldberousedtofuryalmostsenselessbywhollyinadequatelysupportedfacts。Hepresentedexactlythematerialrequired——andthatinmass。
AboutthetimetheflagwasrunuponthetoweratStornhamCourtacarter,drivingwhistlingontheroadnearthedesertedcottage,washailedbyamanwhowaswalkingslowlyafewyardsaheadofhim。Thecarterthoughtthathewasatramp,ashisclotheswereplainlyinbadcase,whichseeing,hisanswerwasanunceremoniousgrunt,anditcertainlydidnotoccurtohimtotouchhisforehead。Aminutelater,however,he"gotastart,"asherelatedafterwards。Thetrampwasagentlemanwhoseridingcostumewastornandmuddied,andwholooked"gashly,"thoughhespokewiththemannerandauthoritywhichBinns,thecarter,recognisedasthatofoneofthe"gentry"addressingaday—labourer。
"HowfarisitfromheretoMedham?"heinquired。
"Medhambeaboutfourmile,sir,"wastheanswer。"I
becarryin’these’taterstheretomarket。"
"Iwanttogetthere。Ihavemetwithanaccident。Myhorsetookfrightatapheasantstartinguprockettingunderhisnose。Hethrewmeintoahedgeandbolted。I’mbadlyenoughbruisedtowanttoreachatownandseeadoctor。Canyougivemealift?"
"ThatIwill,sir,readyenough,"makingroomontheseatbesidehim。"Youbebruisedbad,sir,"hesaidsympathetically,ashispassengerclimbedtohisplace,withatwistedfaceandutteringblasphemiesunderhisbreath。
"Damnedbadly,"heanswered。"Nobonesbroken,however。"
"Thatcutonyourcheekandneck’llneedplasterin’,sir。"
"That’sascratch。Thornbush,"curtly。
Sympathywasplainlynotwelcome。InfactBinnswassoonoftheopinionthatherewasanuglycustomer,gentlemanornogentleman。Ajoltingcartwas,however,notthebestplaceforamanwhoseemedsorefromheadtofoot,anddoneforoutandout。Hesatandgroundhisteeth,asheclungtotheroughseatintheattempttosteadyhimself。Hebecamemoreandmore"gashly,"andacertainawfullightinhiseyesalarmedthecarterbyleapingupateveryjolt。BinnswasgladwhenhelefthimatMedhamArms,andfelthehadearnedthehalf—sovereignhandedtohim。
FourdaysAnstrutherslayinbedinaroomattheInn。Noonesawhimbutthemanwhobroughthimfood。Hedidnotsendforadoctor,becausehedidnotwishtoseeone。Hesentforsuchremediesaswereneededbyamanwhohadbeenbruisedbyafallfromhishorse。Hemadenoremarkwhichcouldbeconsideredexplanatory,afterhehadsaidirritablythatamanwasafooltogoloiteringalongonanervousbrutewhoneededwatching。Whatsoeverhappenedwashisowndamnedfault。
Throughhoursofdayandnighthelaystaringatthewhite—
washedbeamsorthebluerosesonthewallpaper。Theywerelonghours,andfilledwiththingsnotpleasantenoughtodwellonindetail。Physicalmiserywhichmadeamanwritheattimeswasnottheworstpartofthem。Therewereathousandthingslessendurable。Morethanoncehefoamedatthemouth,andrecognisedthathegibberedlikeamadman。
Therewasbutonememorywhichsavedhimfromfeelingthatthiswastheveryendofthings。ThatwasthememoryofBroadmorlands。Whileamanhadaweaponleft,eventhoughitcouldnotsavehim,hemightpayupwithit——getalmosteven。ThewholeVanderpoellotcouldbeplungedneckdeepinamorasswhichwouldleavemudenoughstickingtothem,eveniftheirmoneyhelpedthemtopreventitsentirelyclosingovertheirheads。Hecouldattendtothat,and,afterhehadsetitwellgoing,hecouldgetout。TherewereIndia,SouthAfrica,Australia——adozenplacesthatwoulddo。AndthenhewouldrememberBettyVanderpoel,andcursehorriblyunderthebedclothes。ItwasthememoryofBettywhichoutdidallothersinitspowertotorment。
OnthemorningofthefifthdaytheDukeofBroadmorlandsreceivedanote,whichhereadwithsomewhatannoyedcuriosity。AcertainSirNigelAnstruthers,whomitappearedheoughttobeabletorecall,wasintheneighbourhood,andwishedtoseehimonaparochialmatterofinterest。"Parochialmatter"wasvague,andsowastheDuke’srecollectionofthemanwhoaddressedhim。Ifhismemoryservedhimrightly,hehadmethiminacountryhouseinSomersetshire,andhadheardthathewastheacquaintanceofthedisreputableeldestson。Whatcouldapersonofthatsorthavetosayofparochialmatters?TheDukeconsidered,andthen,inobediencetoarigorousconscience,decidedthatoneought,perhaps,togivehimhalfanhour。
Therewasthatintheintruder’saspect,whenhearrivedintheafternoon,whichproducedsomewhattheeffectofshock。Inthefirstplace,amaninhisunconcealablephysicalconditionhadnorighttobeoutofhisbed。Thoughheplainlyrefusedtoadmitthefact,hismannerofbearinghimselferect,andevenwithacertaintouchofcoolswagger,was,itwasevident,achievedonlybydeterminedeffort。Helookedlikeamanwhohadnotyetrecoveredfromsomeevilfever。SincethemeetinginSomersetshirehehadagedmorethantheyearwarranted。Despitehisobstinatefightwithhimselfitwasobviousthathewashorriblyshaky。Adisagreeablescratchorcut,runningfromcheektoneck,didnotimprovehispersonalappearance。
Hepleasedhishostnomorethanhehadpleasedhimattheirfirstencounter;he,infact,repelledhimstrongly,bysuggestingadegreeofabnormalityofmoodwhichwassmoothedoverbyanattemptatentirenormalityofmanner。
TheDukedidnotpresentanapproachablefrontas,afterAnstruthershadtakenachair,hesatandexaminedhimwithbrightblueoldeyessetdeeponeithersideofadominantnoseandframedoverbywhiteeyebrows。No,NigelAnstrutherssummedhimup,itwouldnotbeeasytoopenthematterwiththeoldfool。Heheldhimselfmagnificentlyaloof,withthatlackofmodernityinhissenseofplacewhich,evenatthislateday,sometimesexpresseditselfhereandthereinthemannerofthefeudalsurvival。
"Iamafraidyouhavebeenill,"withrigidcivility。
"Amanfeelsratheranoutsiderinconfessinghehaslethishorsethrowhimintoahedge。Itwasmyownfaultentirely。IallowedmyselftoforgetthatIwasridingadangerouslynervousbrute。Iwasthinkingofapainfulandabsorbingsubject。Iwasbadlybruisedandscratched,butthatwasall。"
"Whatdidyourdoctorsay?"