Themajortooktheletterfromhisbreastpocket,andputitinhishand。Barryhelditamoment,thencarriedittohislips。
"Now——that’s——all——major,"hewhispered。"Tell——her——I——thank——
God——for——her——and——for——the——other。Major——tell——theboys——that——
God——isgood——。Never——tobe——afraid——butto——carryon——"
Itwashislastword,andtherecouldbenobetter。"Godisgood。
Neverbeafraidbutcarryon。"
CHAPTERXX
"CARRYON"
ThenextdaybutonetheycarriedthePilottohisgraveinthelittleplotoutsidethewalledcemeteryontheoutskirtsofthecityofAlbert。Ithadbeenarrangedthatonlyasmallguardshouldfollowtothegrave。Butthisplanwaschanged。SergeantMackay,whowastheonlysergeantleftafterconsulting"theboys,"
cametoMajorBayne。
"Theboysfeelbad,sir,"hesaid,"thattheycan’tgowiththePilot,excuseme,sir,thechaplain。"
"Dothey?"saidthemajor。"Wewanttoavoidcongestioninthestreets,andbesideswedon’twanttoexposethemen。Theyarestillshellingthecity,youknow。"
"Iknow,sir,"repliedthesergeant。"Theboyshaveheardtheshellsbefore,sir。Andthere’snotsomanyofthemthattheywillcrowdthestreetsmuch。"
"Letthemgo,sergeant,"saidthemajor,andSergeantMackaywentbackwiththewordtothemen。"AndIwantyoutolooklikesoldiers,"saidthesergeant,"forrememberwearefollowingasoldiertohisgrave。"
Andlooklikesoldierstheydidwitheverybuttonandbayonetshining,astheyhadnevershoneforbattalioninspection。
Theyhadpassedthroughanexperiencewhichhadleftthemdazed;
theyhadmarcheddeliberatelyintothemouthofhellandhadcomebackstunnedbywhattheyhadseenandheard,incapableofemotion。
Sotheythought,tilltheylearnedthatthePilothadbeenkilled。
Thentheyknewthatgriefwasstillpossibletothem。Withtheirgriefmingledakindofinexplicablewrathatthemannerofhisdeath。
"IfithadbeentheO。C。now,oranyoneelsebutFattyMatthews,"
saidSergeantMackayindisgust,expressingthegeneralopinion。
"Itisanawfulwaste。"
UnderthefigureoftheVirginandChild,leaningoutinpityandappealovertheshatteredcity,throughmarchingbattalions"goingin"and"comingout,"thelittlepitifulremnantmadeitsway,thebandleading,theBrigadeandDivisionalHeadquartersStaffsbringingupintherear。Theservicewasbriefandsimple,abrotherchaplainreadingatthemajor’ssuggestionthePsalmwhichBarryhadreadathislastParadeServicewiththebattalion。
Attheconclusionoftheservice,thedivisionalcommandersteppedforwardandsaid,"MayIoffertheofficersandmenofthisbattalionmyrespectfulsympathywiththeminthelossoftheirchaplain?Duringtheselastweeks,Ihadcometoknowhimwell。CaptainDunbarwasachaplaininhisbrigade。Hewasmore。Hewasagallantofficer,abravesoldier,aloyal—heartedCanadian。Themoraleofthisdivisionishigherto—daybecausehehasbeenwithus。Hedidhisdutytohiscountry,tohiscomrades,tohisGod。Whatmorecanweaskthanthis,forourselvesandforourcomrades?"
ThentherewasalittlepauseandMajorBaynebegantospeak。Atfirsthisvoicewashuskyandtremulous,butashewenton,itgatheredstrengthandclearness。Heremindedthemhow,whenthechaplaincametothemfirst,theydidnotunderstandhim,nortreathimquitefairly,buthowintheselastmonths,hehadcarriedtheconfidence,andthelove,ofeveryofficerandmaninthebattalion。
"WeretheCommandingOfficerhereto—day,hewouldtell,asIhaveoftenheardhimtell,howgreatlythechaplainhadcontributedtothedisciplineandtothemoraleofthisbattalion。Hehelpedusalltobebettersoldiersandbettermen。Henevershrankfromdanger。Heneverfalteredinduty。Helivedtohelphiscomradesandtosaveacomradehegavehislifeatlast。"
Themajorpaused,lookedrounduponthegallantremnantofaoncesplendidbattalion,hislipsquivering,hiseyesrunningoverwithtears。Buthepulledhimselftogether,andcontinuedwithsteadyvoicetotheend。
"ButnottosaythesethingsamIspeakingtoyoutoday。IwishonlytogiveyouthislastmessagefromourSkyPilot。ThisisthePilot’slastmessage:’TelltheboysthatGodisgood,andwhentheyareafraid,totrustHim,and"carryon。"’Andformyself,men,IwanttosaythathewastheonlymanthatshowedmewhatGodislike。"
Inthatcompanyofmenwhohadlookedsteadfastlyintothefaceofdeath,therewerenoeyeswithouttears,manyofthemwereopenlyweeping。
Whenthemajorhadfinished,theofficerspresent,beginningwiththedivisionalcommander,cameandstoodattheheadoftheopengraveforasinglemoment,thensilentlysalutedandturnedaway。
ItwasthedutyofBuglerPatMcCanntosound"TheLastPost,"butpoorPatwastooovercomewithhissobbingatoncetoperformthislastduty。WhereupontherunnerPickles,standingwithrigid,stonyfacebesidehischum,tookthebuglefromhishandsandtheresoundedforththatmostbeautifulandmostpoignantofallmusicalsoundsknowntoBritishsoldierstheworldover,"TheLastPost,"
endingwiththatlast,high,long—drawn,heart—piercingnoteoffarewell。
Then,becausethewarwasyettobewon,they"carriedon,"thebattalionmarchingawaytoamerrytune。
BesideBarry’sgravetherestilllingeredthreemen,thedivisionalcommander,MajorBayne,andCaptainNeil。
"IamthinkingofthatlittlegirlinLondon,"saidthedivisionalcommander,andforthefirsttimehisvoicebroke。Theotherswaited,lookingathim。"Wewillholdbackthisnewsforacoupleofdays,andIthink,major,yououghttogoand——"
"No,general!——MyGod,no!Don’taskme!"Themajorwasprofoundlyagitated。"SendNeil,here。Heknowsherwell,andhiswifeishergreatfriend。"
"Verywell,major,Ithinkthatwillbebetter,"saidthegeneralinhiscourteous,gentlevoice。"Youknowher,CaptainFraser,andyoucanbebetterspared。"
Andsoitwasarranged。CaptainNeiltelegraphedPaulatomeethimatBoulogne,andtogethertheymadethejourneytoLondon,carryingwiththemsadandfearfulhearts。
TheyfoundPhyllisinalittleflatwhichhermotherhadtaken。
Whenshesawthemherfacewentwhite,andherhandsflewtoherbosom。Speechless,andwithagreatfearinherwide—openbrowneyes,shestoodlookingfromonetotheother,waitingfortheirmessage。Paulawenttoherandwithoutawordputherarmsroundher,andheldherclose。
"Iknow,Paula,"shesaid,puttinghergentlyawayfromher。"I
knowwhatyouhavetotellme。Barryisdead。Mydearloveisdead!"Hervoicewastender,softandlow。"Don’tfeartotellme,Neil,"shesaid。"See,Iamquitesteady。"Sheputoutherhandthathemightseethattherewasnotremourinit。
"Sitdown,darling,"besoughtPaula,againwindingherarmsabouther。
"No,no,letmestand,Pauladear。See,Iamquitestrong。Nowtellmeaboutit,Neil——allaboutit。Youwerehisdearfriend,youknow。"
Hervoice,sosweet,sosoft,soperfectlycontrolled,helpedCaptainNeilwithhistask。Itseemedanoffencethatheshouldintrudeanyexhibitionofgrieforemotionupontheserenecalmofthisyounggirl,standingsostraight,soproud,andregardinghimwithsuchbraveeyes。
ThenCaptainNeiltoldhistale。HebeganwiththelastserviceupontheParadeGroundbeforethebattalionmovedintoaction。HetoldofBarry’sbitterdisappointment,andoftheirreliefthathewasnotallowedtoaccompanythemtothefrontline。HetoldofBarry’slongdayatthecasualtyclearingstation,andofhisservicetothewounded,andofhowgoodthedivisionalcommanderhadbeentohimthatnight。
"Itwastherehegotyourletter,Phyllis。"
"Oh,hegotmyletter。I’msoglad,"whisperedthegirl,withaquickbreathandasuddenflushingofherpalecheeks。"Heknew!
Heknew!"
"Ihavehisletterinreplyhere,"saidCaptainNeil,handingittoher。
Shetookitinbothherhands,kissedittenderly,asifcaressingachild,andputitinherbosom。
"Pleasegoon,"shesaid,andCaptainNeiltookuphistaleagain。
Hetoldhowthemajortriedtopersuadehimnottogooutafterthewoundedthatnight。
"But,ofcourse,hewouldgo,"thegirlsaidwithaproudlittlesmile,atwhichCaptainNeil’sself—controlquitegaveway,andhecouldonlylookatherpiteouslythroughhistears。
"Oh,I’msosorry,"shesaidgently。"Can’tyougoon?Iwanttohearsomucheverybit,butifyoucan’t——"
Atwhich,CaptainNeilgrippedhimselfhardandwenton,"andsohewentout,andtheysearchedthetrenchfromendtoend。Theyfoundonepoorchap,whoselegwasbadlysmashed——"
"Oh,I’msogladtheyfoundhim,"whisperedPhyllis。
"ThenSergeantMatthewsgothiswound,andtheshellsbegantofall。Theytookrefugeinashellhole,andthere,whilecoveringFattyMatthewsfromthebreakingshrapnel,Barrygothiswound。"
CaptainNeilwasforcedtopauseagainintherecitalofhisstory。
Afterafewminutes,hetoldofhowtheycarriedhimtohisgrave,andlaidhiminthecemeteryoutsidethecityofAlbert。
"Theboyswereallthere。Therewerenotmanyofthemleft,"hesaid。
"Howmany?"sheasked。
"Seventyonly,outoffivehundredandfourwhowentovertheparapettwonightsbefore。"
"Ah,poor,gallantboys!Ilovethem,Ilovethemall!"saidthegirl,claspingherhandstogether。
"Theywereallterriblybrokenupastheystoodaboutthegrave,andnowonder!Nowonder!Thenthedivisionalcommandermadealittlespeech,andthenourownmajorgavethemBarry’slastmessage。"
"Tellme,"saidthegirlgently,asCaptainNeilpaused。
"Itwasthis,"saidCaptainNeil。"’TelltheboysthatGodisgood,andwhentheyareafraid,totrustHim,and"carryon。"’"
"Thatwaslikehim,"shesaid。"ThatwaslikeBarry!Oh,Paula,"
shecried,turningtoherfriend。"I’msohappy!Itwasabeautifulclosingtoabeautifullife。Hewasabeautifulboy,Paula,wasn’the?Hisbodywasbeautiful,hissoulwasbeautiful,hislifewasbeautiful,andtheending,oh,wasbeautiful。Oh,Paula,Godisgood。IamsogladhegaveBarrytome,andgavemetohim。Oh,I’mso——happy——so——happy。"Hervoicesankintoawhisper。Thenafterafewmomentsofsilence,withalittlepiteouscry,shesuddenlybrokeforth,"ButPaula!Paula!heisgone。Ishallneverseehimagain。"
Paulaheldherarmstightlyabouther,sobbingasifherownheartwerebroken,butPhyllisrecoveredherselfquickly。
"No,no,"shesaidsoftly,asifcounsellingherownheart。"I
mustremember。’Godisgood,’hesaid,andso,Paula,Imustnotbeafraid。Godwasgoodtohim。Hewillbegoodtome。Hewillbegoodtohischild。"Hervoicesankagainintoawhisper。Shestoodsilentwitheyeslookingintothefardistance。Then,inaclear,firmvoice,shesaid,"Iwillnotbeafraid!Godisgood!
Iwill’carryon。’"
End