"AllsummerlongIhavebeentryingtoremembersomething;
somethinguntruethatyouhavebeenbelieving,somefalsehoodforwhichIwasresponsible。Ihavepursuedandpursuedit,butithasalwaysescapedme。Onceitwasclearasdaylight,forRodmanreadmefromtheBibleaplainanswertoallthequestionsthattorturedme。"
"Thatmusthavebeenthenightthatshefainted,"thoughtIvory。
"WhenIawokenextmorningfrommylongsleep,theoldpuzzlehadcomeback,athousandtimesworsethanbefore,forthenIknewthatIhadheldtheclueinmyownhandandhadlostit。Now,praiseGod!Iknowthetruth,andyou,theonlyonetowhomIcantellit,arecloseathand。"
Ivorylookedathismotherandsawthattheveilthathadseparatedthemmentallyseemedtofivevanishedinthenightthathadpassed。Oftenandoftenithadblownaway,asitwere,forthefractionofamomentandthenblownbackagain。Nowhereyesmethiswithanaltogethernewclearnessthatstartledhim,whileherhealthcamewitheaseandsheseemedstrongerthanformanydays。
"YourememberthewinterIwashereatthefarmalone,whenyouwereattheAcademy?"
"Yes;itwasthenthatIcamehomeandfoundyousoterriblyill。
Doyouthinkweneedgobacktothatoldtimenow,motherdear?"
"Yes,Imust,Imust!OnemorningIreceivedastrangeletter,bearingnosignature,inwhichthewritersaidthatifIwishedtoseemyhusbandIhadonlytogotoacertainaddressinBrentville,NewHampshire。TheletterwentontosaythatMr。
AaronBoyntonwasillandlongedfornothingsomuchastospeakwithme;buttherewerereasonswhyhedidnotwishtoreturntoEdgewood,——wouldIcometohimwithoutdelay。"
Ivorynowsatstraightinhischairandlistenedkeenly,feelingthatthiswastobenovague,uncertain,andmisleadingmemory,butsomethingtrueandtangible。
"Theletterexcitedmegreatlyafteryourfather’slongabsenceandsilence。Iknewitcouldmeannothingbutsorrow,butalthoughIwashalfillatthetime,myplaindutywastogo,soIthought,andgowithoutmakinganyexplanationinthevillage。"
AllthiswasnewtoIvoryandhehunguponhismother’swords,dreadingyethopingforthelightthattheymightsheduponthepast。
"IarrivedatBrentvillequiteexhaustedwiththejourneyandweigheddownbyanxietyanddread。Ifoundthehousementionedintheletteratseveno’clockintheevening,andknockedatthedoor。Acommon,hard—featuredwomanansweredtheknockand,seemingtoexpectme,usheredmein。Idonotremembertheroom;
Irememberonlyachildleaningpatientlyagainstthewindow—silllookingoutintothedark,andthattheplacewasbareandcheerless。
"IcametocalluponMr。AaronBoynton,’Isaid,withmyheartsinkinglowerandlowerasIspoke。ThewomanopenedadoorintothenextroomandwhenIwalkedin,insteadofseeingyourfather,I
confrontedahaggard,death—strickenyoungwomansittingupinbed,hergreateyesbrightwithpain,herlipsaswhiteasherhollowcheeks,andherlong,blackhairstreamingoverthepillow。TheverysightofherstruckaknelltothelittlehopeI
hadofsoothingyourfather’ssickbedandforgivinghimifhehaddonemeanywrong。
"’Well,youcame,asIthoughtyouwould,’saidthegirl,lookingmeoverfromheadtofootinawaythatsomehowmademeburnwithshame。’NowsitdowninthatchairandhearwhatI’vegottosaywhileI’vegotthestrengthtosayit。Ihaven’tthetimenorthedesiretoputaglossonit。AaronBoyntonisn’there,asyouplainlysee,butthat’snotmyfault,forhebelongshereasmuchasanywhere,thoughhewouldn’thavemuchinterestinadyingwoman。Ifyouhavesufferedonaccountofhim,sohaveIandyouhaven’thadthispainboringintoyouandeatingyourlifeawayformonths,asIhave。’
"Ipitiedher,sheseemedsodistraught,butIwasinterrorofherallthesame,andurgedhertotellherstorycalmlyandI
woulddomybesttohearitinthesameway。
"’Calm,’sheexclaimed,’withthisagonytearingmetopieces!
Well,tomakebeginningandendinone,AaronBoyntonwasmyhusbandforthreeyears。’
"Icaughtholdofthechairtokeepmyselffromfallingandcried:’Idonotbelieveit!’’Believeitornot,sheansweredscornfully,’itmakesnodifferencetome,butIcangiveyoutwentyproofsinasmanyseconds。WemetataCochranemeetingandhechosemefromalltheothersashistruewife。Fortwoyearswetravelledtogether,butlongbeforetheycametoanendtherewasnohappinessforeitherofus。Hehadaconscience——notmuchofaone,butjustenoughtokeephimmiserable。AtlastI
felthewasnotbelievingthedoctrineshepreachedandIcaughthimtryingtogetnewsofyouandyourboy,justbecauseyouwereoutofreach,andneglectingmyboyandme,whohadgivenupeverythingtowanderwithhimandliveonwhateverthebrethrenandsisterschosetogiveus。’
"’Sotherewasachild,aboy,’Igasped。’Did——didhelive?’
’He’sinthenextroom,’sheanswered,’andit’shimIbroughtyouherefor。AaronBoyntonhasservedusboththesame。HeleftyouformeandmeforHeavenknowswho。IfIcouldliveI
wouldn’taskanyfavors,ofyouleastofall,butIhaven’tapennyintheworld,thoughIshan’tneedoneverylong。Myfriendthat’snursingmehasn’tarooftoherheadandshewouldn’tshareitwiththeboyifshehad——she’sabigotedOrthodox。’
"’Butwhatdoyouexpectmetodo?’Iaskedangrily,forshewasstabbingmewitheveryword。
"’Theboyisyourhusband’schildandhealwaysrepresentedyouasasaintuponearth。Iexpectyoutotakehimhomeandprovideforhim。Hedoesn’tmeanverymuchtome——justenoughsothatI
don’trelishhisgoingtothepoorhouse,that’sall。’
"’He’llgotosomethingverylikethatifhecomestomine,’I
said。
"’Don’tworrymewithtalk,forIcan’tstandit,’shewailed,clutchingathernightgownandflingingbackherhair。’EitheryoutakethechildorIsendsomebodytoEdgewoodwithhim,somebodytotellthewholestory。SomeoftheCochranitescansupporthimifyouwon’t;or,attheworst,AaronBoynton’stowncantakecareofhisson。Thedoctorhasgivenmetwodaystolive。Ifit’saminutelongerI’vewarnedhimandIwarnyou,thatI’llenditmyself;andifyoudon’ttaketheboyI’lldothesameforhim。He’sagoodsightbetteroffdeadthanknockingabouttheworldalone;he’sinnocentandthere’snosenseinhisbeingpunishedforthesinsofotherfolks。’"
"Iseeitall!WhydidIneverthinkofitbefore;mypoor,poorRod!"saidIvory,clenchinghishandsandburyinghisheadinthem。
"Don’tgrieve,Ivory;ithasallturnedoutsomuchbetterthanwecouldhavehoped;justlistentotheend。Shewasfrightfultohearandtolookat,thegirlwas,thoughallthetimeIcouldfeelthatshemusthavehadagipsybeautyandvigorthatansweredtosomethinginyourfather。
"’Goalongoutnow,’shecriedsuddenly。’Ican’tstandanybodynear。ThedoctornevergivesmehalfenoughmedicineandforthehourbeforehecomesIfairlydieforlackofit——thoughlittlehecares!Goupstairsandhaveyoursleepandto—morrowyoucanmakeupyourmind。’
"’Youdon’tleavememuchfreedomtodothat,’Itriedtoanswer;
butsheinterruptedme,rockingherbodytoandfro。’Neitherofuswi11everseeAaronBoyntonagain;younomorethanI。He’sintheWest,andamanwithtwofamiliesandnomeansofprovidingforthemdoesn’tcomebackwherehe’sknown。——Comeandtakeheraway,Eliza!Takeheraway,quick!’shecalled。
"Istumbledoutoftheroomandthewomanwavedmeupstairs。’Youmustn’tmindHetty,’sheapologized;’sheneverhadagooddispositionatthebest,butshe’sfranticwiththepainnow,andgoodreason,too。It’saboutoverandI’11bethankfulwhenitis。You’dbetterswallowtheshameandtakethechild;Ican’tandwon’thavehimandit’11beeasyenoughforyoutosayhebelongstosomeofyourownfolks。’
"BythistimeIwasmentallybewildered。Whentheironfirstenteredmysoul,whenIfirstheardthetruthaboutyourfather,atthatmomentmymindgaveway——Iknowitnow。"
"Poor,poormother!Mypoor,gentlelittlemother!"murmuredIvorybrokenly,asheaskedherhand。
"Don’tcry,myson;itisallpast;thesorrowandthebitternessandthestruggle。Iwilljustfinishthestoryandthenwe’11
closethebookforever。Thewomangavemesomebreadandtea,andIflungmyselfonthebedwithoutundressing。Idon’tknowhowlongafterwarditwas,butthedooropenedandalittleboystolein;asad,strange,dark—eyedlittleboywhosaid:’CanIsleepuphere?Mother’sscreamingandI’mafraid。’Heclimbedtothecouch。Icoveredhimwithablanket,andIsoonheardhisdeepbreathing。Butlaterinthenight,whenImusthavefallenasleepmyself,Isuddenlyawokeandfelthimlyingbesideme。HehaddraggedtheblanketalongandcreptuponthebedtogetclosetomysideforthewarmthIcouldgive,orthecomfortofmynearness。Thetouchofhimalmostbrokemyheart;Icouldnotpushthelittlecreatureawaywhenhewaslyingtheresonearandwarmandconfiding——he,allunconsciousoftheagonyhismereexistencewastome。ImusthavesleptagainandwhenthedaybrokeIwasalone。IthoughtthepresenceofthechildinthenightwasadreamandIcouldnotrememberwhereIwas,norwhyI
wasthere。"
"Mother,dearmother,don’ttellmeanymoreto—night。Ifearforyourstrength,"urgedIvory,hiseyesfulloftearsattheremembranceofhersufferings。
"Thereisonlyalittlemoreandtheweightwillbeoffmyheartandonyours,mypoorson。WouldthatIneednottellyou!ThehousewasstillandIthoughtatfirstthatnoonewasawake,butwhenIopenedthesitting—roomdoorthechildrantowardsmeandtookmyhandasthewomancameinfromthesick—room。’Gointothekitchen,Rodman,’shesaid,’andlaceupyourboots;you’regoingrightoutwiththislady。Hettydiedinthenight,’shecontinuedimpassively。’Thedoctorwashereaboutteno’clockandI’veneverseenhersobad。Hegaveherabigdoseofsleepingpowderandputanotherinthetabledrawerformetomixforhertowardsmorning。Shewashelplesstomove,wethought,butallthesameshemusthavegotoutofbedwhenmybackwasturnedandtakenthepowderdryonhertongue,foritwasgonewhenIlookedforit。Itdidn’thastenthingsmuchandIdon’tblameher。Ifevertherewasawild,recklesscreatureitwasHettyRodman,butI,whoamjusttheopposite,wouldhavedonethesameifI’dbeenher。’
"Shehurriedlygavemeacupofcoffee,and,puttingacoatandacapontheboy,literallypushedmeoutofthehouse。’I’vegottoreportthingstothedoctor,’shesaid,’andyou’rebetteroutoftheway。Godownthatsidestreettothestationandmindyousaytheboybelongedtoyoursisterwhodiedandlefthimtoyou。
You’reaCochranite,ain’tyou?SowasHetty,andthey’reallsisters,soyou’llbetellingnolies。Good—bye,Rodman,beagoodboyanddon’tbeanytroubletothelady。’
"HowIfoundthestationIdonotknow,norhowImadethejourney,norwhereItookthestage—coach。Thesnowbegantofallandbynoontherewasadriftingstorm。IcouldnotrememberwhereIwasgoing,norwhotheboywas,forjustasthesnowwaswhirlingoutside,soitwaswhirlinginmybrain。"
"Mother,Icanhardlybeartohearanymore;itistooterrible!"
criedIvory,risingfromhischairandpacingthefloor。
"IcanrecallnothingofanyaccounttillIawokeinmyownbedweeksafterwards。Thestrangelittleboywasthere,butMrs。DayandDr。PerrytoldmewhatImusthavetoldthem——thathewasthechildofmydeadsister。ThosewerethelastwordsutteredbythewomaninBrentville;Icarriedthemstraightthroughmyillnessandbroughtthemoutontheothersidemorefirmlyintrenchedthanever。"
"Ifonlythetruthhadcomebacktoyousooner!"sighedIvory,comingbacktoherbedside。"Icouldhavehelpedyoutobearitalltheseyears。Sorrowissomuchlighterwhenyoucanshareitwithsomeoneelse。AndthegirlwhodiedwascalledHettyRodman,then,andshesimplygavethechildherlastname?"
"Yes,poorsufferingcreature。Ifeelnoangeragainsthernow;
ithasburneditselfallaway。NordoIfeelanybitternessagainstyourfather。Iforgotallthismiserablestoryforsolong,lovingandwatchingforhimallthetime,thatitisasifitdidnotbelongtomyownlife,buthadtodowithsomeunhappystranger。Canyouforgive,too,Ivory?"
"Icantry,"heanswered。"GodknowsIoughttobeabletoifyoucan!"
"AndwillitturnyouawayfromRod?"
"No,itdrawsmenearertohimthanever。Heshallneverknowthetruth——whyshouldhe?Justashecreptclosetoyouthatnight,allunconsciousofthereasonyouhadforshrinkingfromhim,sohehascreptclosetomeintheseyearsoftrial,whenyourmindhasbeenwandering。"
"Lifeissostrange。Tothinkthatthischild,ofallothers,shouldhavebeenacomforttoyou。TheLord’shandisinit!"
whisperedMrs。Boyntonfeebly。
"Hisboyishbeliefinme,hiscompanionship,havekeptthebreathofhopealiveinme——that’sallIcansay。"
"TheBiblestoryishappeningoveragaininourlives,then。
Don’tyourememberthatAaron’srodbuddedandblossomedandborefruit,andthatthemiraclekepttherebelsfrommurmuring?"
"Thisrebelneverwillmurmuragain,mother,andIvoryrosetoleavetheroom。"Nowthatyouhaveshedyourburdenyouwillgrowstrongerandlifewillbealljoy,forWaitstillwillcometoussoonandwecanshakeoffthesemiseriesandbeahappyfamilyoncemore。"
"Itisshewhohashelpedmemosttofindthethread;pouringsympathyandstrengthintome,nursingme,lovingme,becauseshelovedmywonderfulson。Oh!howblestamongwomenIamtohavelivedlongenoughtoseeyouhappy!"
AndasIvorykissedhismotherandblewoutthecandle,shewhisperedtoherself:"Evenso,LordJesus,comequickly!"
XXXIV
THEDEACON’SWATERLOO
MRS。MASON’SwelcometoWaitstillwasunexpectedlyhearty——muchheartierthanitwouldhavebeenSixmonthsbefore,whensheregardedMrs。Boyntonaslittlelessthanaharmlesslunatic,ofnouseasaneighbor;andwhensheknewnothingmoreofIvorythanshecouldgatherbyhisoccasionaldriveorwalkpastherdoorwithacivilgreeting。Rodmanhadbeenuntillatelytheonlymemberofthefamilyforwhomshehadafriendlyfeeling;butallthathadchangedinthelastfewweeks,whenshehadbeenallowedtotakeahandintheBoyntons’affairs。Astothisnewestdevelopmentinthelifeoftheirhousehold,shehadoncebeenyoungherself,andtheveriestblockofstonewouldhavebecomehumanwhenthetwoloversdroveuptothedoorandtoldtheirexcitingstory。
Ivorymadehimselfquicklyathome,andhelpedtheoldladytogetaroomreadyforWaitstillbeforehedrovebackforalookathismotherandthenontocarryouthisimpetuousandromanticschemeofroutingoutthetownclerkandannouncinghisintendedmarriage。
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Waitstillsleptliketheshepherdboyin"ThePilgrim’sProgress,"withthe"herbcalledHeart’sEase"inherbosom。SheopenedhereyesnextmorningfromthedepthsofMrs。Mason’sbestfeatherbed,andlookedwonderinglyabouttheroom,withallitsunaccustomedsurroundings。Sheheardtherattleoffire—ironsandtheflatterofdishesbelow;thefirsttimeinallherwoman’slifethatpreparationsforbreakfasthadevergreetedherearswhenshehadnotbeenanactiveparticipatorinthem。
Shelayquitestillforaquarterofanhour,tiredinbodyandmind,butincrediblyhappyinspirit,marvellingatthechangeswroughtinherduringthedaypreceding,themosteventfuloneinherhistory。Onlyyesterdayherlovehadbeenabud,socloselyfoldedthatshescarcelyrecognizeditsbeautyorcolororfragrance;onlyyesterday,andnowsheheldinherhandaperfectflower。Whenandhowhaditgrown,andbywhatmagicprocess?
TheimageofIvoryhadbeenallthroughthenightintheforegroundofherdreamsandinhermomentsofwakefulness,bothmadeblissfulbytheheavenofanticipationthatdawneduponher。
Wasevermansowise,sotenderandgentle,sostrong,socomprehending?Whatmatteredtheabsenceofworldlygoods,thepresenceofcareandanxiety,whennwomanhadasteadyhandtohold,asteadfasthearttotrust,amanwhowouldloveherandstandbyher,whate’erbefell?
ThenthefaceofIvory’smotherwouldswimintothementalpicture;thepaleface,aswhiteasthepillowitlayupon;thefacewithitsaureoleofashenhair,andthewistfulblueeyesthatbeggedofGodandherchildrensomepeacebeforetheyclosedonlife。
Thevisionofhersisterwasajoyfulone,andherheartwasatpeaceabouther,thepluckylittleprincesswhohadblazedthewayoutoftheogre’scastle。
ShesawPattyclearlyasafuturefinelady,invelvetsandsatinsandfurs,bewitchingevery—bodybyhergayspirits,herpiquantvivacity,andthelovingheartthatlayunderneathallthenonsenseandgaveitwarmthandcolor。
TheremembranceofherfatheraloneonthehilltopdidindeedtroubleWaitstill。Self—reproach,inthetruesenseoftheword,shedidnot,couldnot,feel。Neversincethedayshewasbornhadshebeenfathered,anddaughterlylovewasabsent;butshesufferedwhenshethoughtofthefierce,self—willedoldman,cuttinghimselfofffromallpossiblefriendships,whilehisvigorwasbeingsappeddailyandhourlybyhisterriblegreedofmoney。
TruehousewifethatWaitstillwas,hermindrevertedtoeveryseparatecrockandcanisterinhercupboards,everyarticleofherbakingorcookingthatreposedontheswing—shehinthecellar,thinkinghowlongherfathercouldbecomfortablewithoutherministrations,andso,howlonghewoulddelaybeforeengagingtheuinevitablehousekeeper。Sherevolvedthenumberofpossiblepersonstowhomthepositionwouldbeoffered,andwishedthatMrs。Mason,whosoneededhelp,mightbethechosenone:butthefactofherhavingbeenfriendlytotheBoyntonswouldstrikeheratoncefromthelist。
WhenshewasthankfullyeatingherbreakfastwithMrs。Masonalittlelater,andwaitingforIvorytocallforthembothandtakethemtotheBoyntonfarm,shelittleknewwhatwasgoingonatheroldhomeintheseveryhours,whentotellthetruthshewouldhavelikedtoslipin,haditbeenpossible,washthemorningdishes,skimthecream,dotheweek’schurning,makeherfather’sbed,andslipoutagainintothedearshelteroflovethatawaitedher。
TheDeaconhadpassedagoodpartofthenightinschemingandcontriving,andwhenhedrankhisself—madecupofmuddycoffeeatseveno’clocknextmorninghehadformedseveralplansthatweretobeimmediatelyfrustrated,hadheknownit,bytheexasperatingandsuspiciousnatureoftheladiesinvolvedinthem。
Ateighthehadleftthehouse,startedBillMorrillatthestore,andwasontheroadinsearchofvengeanceandahousekeeper。OldMrs。AtkinsofDeerwandersniffedatthewagesoffered。MissPeters,ofUnionFalls,anagedspinsterwithweaklungs,hadtheimpertinencetotellhimthatshefearedshecouldn’tstandthecoldinhishouse;shehadheardhewasveryparticularabouttheamountofwoodthatwasburned。Afour—miledrivebroughthimtothevillagepoeticallynamedtheBrickKiln,whereheofferedtoMrs。PeterUphamanadvanceoftwenty—fivecentsaweekoverandabovethesalarywithwhichhehadsoughttotemptMrs。Atkins。Farfrombeingimpressed,Mrs。Uphill,beingofahightemperandcandidturnofmind,toldhimshe’dprefertostarveathome。Therewasnotanotherfreewomanwithineightmiles,andtheDeaconwaschafingundertemortificationofbeingcontinuallyobligedtostatethereasonforhisneedingahousekeeper。Theonlyhope,itseemed,layingoingtoSacoandhiringastranger,aplannotatalltohisliking,asitwassuretoinvolvehiminextraexpense。
Mutteringthreatsagainsttheuniverseingeneral,hedrovehomebywayofMilliken’sMills,thinkingoftheunfedhens,theunmilkedcow,theunwasheddishes,theunchurnedcreamandaboveallofhisunchasteneddaughters;hisrageincreasingwitheverystepuntilitwasnearlyatthewhiteheatofthenightbefore。
Alongstretchofhillbroughtthetiredoldmaretoaslowwalk,andenabledtheDeacontoseetheWidowTillmanclippingthegeraniumsthatstoodintincansontheshelfofherkitchenwindow。
Now,FoxwellBaxterhadneverbeenavillageLotharioatanyage,norfrequentedthesocietyofsuch。Oflateyears,indeed,hehadfrequentednosocietyofanykind,sothathehadmissed,forinstance,AbelDay’sdescriptionoftheWidowTillmanasa"reg’larsyreen,"thoughhevaguelyrememberedthatsomeoftheBaptistsistershadquestionedtheauthenticityofherconversionbytheiryoungandattractiveminister。Shemadeapleasantpictureatthewindow;shewasafreewoman(alittletoofree,theneighborswouldhavesaid;buttheDeacondidn’tknowthat);
shewasacomparativenewcomertothevillage,andhermindhadnotbeenpoisonedwithfemininegossip——inaword,shewasadistinctlyhopefulsubject,and,actingonablindandsuddenimpulse,heturnedintotheyard,’dungthereinsoverthemare’sneck,andknockedatthebackdoor。
"Hercharacter’snoworsethanminebynowifAuntAbbyCole’sontheroad,"hethoughtgrimly,"an’iftheWilsonsseemysleighinsideofwidder’sfence,somuchthebetter;it’llgive’emajog。——GoodmorningMis’Tillman,"hesaidtothesmilinglady。"I’llcometothep’intatonce。MyyoungestdaughterhasmarriedMarkWilsonagainstmywill,an’goneawayfromtown,an’
theolderone’schosenahusbandstilllesstomylikin’。Doyouwanttocomeandhousekeepforme?"
"Isurmisedsomethingwasgoingon,"re—turnedMrs。Tillman。"I
sawPattyandMarkdriveawayearlythismorning,withMr。andMrs。Wilsonwrappingthegirlupandputtingahotsoapstoneinthesleigh,andconsid’ablekissingandhuggingthrownin。"
ThisknowledgeaddedfueltotheflamethatwasburningfiercelyintheDeacon’sbreast。
"Well,howaboutthehousekeepingheasked,tryingnottoshowhiseagerness,andnotrecognizinghimselfatallintheenterpriseinwhichhefoundhimselfindulging。
"I’mverycomfortablehere,"theladyrespondedartfully,"andI
don’tknow’sIcaretomakeanychange,thankyou。Ididn’tlikethevillagemuchatfirst,afterlivinginlargerplaces,butnowI’macquainted,itkindofgainsonme。
Herreplywascarefullyframed,forhermindworkedwithgreatrapidity,andshewasmistressofthesituationalmostassoonasshesawtheDeaconalightingfromhissleigh。Hewasnotthesortofmantobeacasualcaller,andhismannerbespokeanurgenterrand。Shehadapensionofsixdollarsamonth,butoverandabovethatsumherlivingwasprecarious。Shemadecoats,andshehadneverknownwant,forshewasamasterhandatdealingwiththeoppositesex。DeaconBaxter,accordingtocommonreport,hadtenorfifteenthousanddollarsstowedawayinthebanks,sothesituationwouldbeassimpleaspossibleunderordinarycircumstances;itwasaseasytoturnoutoneman’spocketsasall—other’swhenhewasanormalhumanbeing;butDeaconBaxterwasadifferentproposition。
"Iwonderhowlonghe’slikelytolive,"shethought,glancingathimcovertly,outofthetailofhereye。"Hiseviltempermusthavedrivenmorethanonenailinhiscoffin。Iwonder,iflrefusetohousekeep,whetherI’11get——abetteroffer。IwonderifIcouldmanagehimifIgothim!I’dratherliketositintheBaxterpewattheOrthodoxmeeting—houseafterthewaysomeoftheBaptistsistershavesnubbedmesinceIcomehere。"
Notavestigeoftheseincendiarythoughtsshowedinhercomelycountenance,andhersoulmighthavebeenaswhiteasthehigh—bibbedapronthatcoveredit,tojudgebyhergenialsmile。
"I’dmakethewagesfair,"urgedtheDeacon,lookingroundthecleankitchen,withthebreak—fast—tablesittingnearthesunnywindowandtheodorofcornedbeefandcabbageissuingtemptinglyfromaboilingpotonthefire。"Ihopesheain’tagreatmeat—eater,"hethought,"butit’stoosoontocrossthatbridgeyetawhile。"
"I’venodoubtofit,"saidthewidow,wonderingifhervoicerangtrue;"butI’vegotapension,andwhyshouldIleavethiscosylittlehome?WouldIbettermyselfany,that’sthequestion?
I’mkindoflonesomehere,that’stheonlyreasonI’dconsideramove。"
"Noneedo’bein’lonesomedowntotheFalls,"saidtheDeacon。
"AndI’minan’outallday,betweenthebarnan’thestore。"
This,indeed,wasnotapleasantprospect,butJaneTillmanhadfacedworseonesinhertime。