"Well,Ihopethey’llneverhearanythingworse,"repliedherfather,flingingabucketofwateroverthelastofthewagonwheels。
"THEYCOULDN’T!"Thesewordswereneverspokenaloud,butoh!howPattylongedtoshoutthemwithaclarionvoiceasshewalkedawayinperfectsilence,hermajesticgaitshowing,shehoped,howsheresentedtheoutcomeoftheinterview。
I’vestooduptofather!"sheexclaimedtriumphantlyassheenteredthekitchenandsetdownheryellowbowlofeggsonthetable。"Istooduptohim,andansweredhimbackthreetimes!"
WaitstillwasbusywithherSaturdaymorningcooking,butsheturnedinalarm。
"Patty,whathaveyousaidanddone?Tellmequickly!"
"I’argyfied,’butitdidn’tdoanygood;hewon’tletmegotoEllen’sparty。"
Waitstillwipedherflouryhandsandputthemonhersister’sshoulders。
"HearwhatIsay,Patty:youmustnotarguewithfather,whateverhesays。Wedon’tlovehimandsothereisn’ttherightrespectinourhearts,butatleasttherecanberespectinourmanners。"
"Idon’tbelieveIcangoonforyears,holdingin,Waitstill!"
Pattywhimpered。
"Yes,youcan。Ihave!"
"You’redifferent,Waitstill。"
"Iwasn’tsodifferentatsixteen,butthat’sfiveyearsago,andI’vegotcontrolofmytongueandmytempersincethen。Sometime,perhaps,whenIhaveagrievancetoogreattoberightlyborne,sometimewhenyouareawayfromhereinahomeofyourown,I
shallspeakouttofather;justemptymyheartofallthedisappointmentandbitternessandrebellion。Somebodyoughttotellhimthetruth,andperhapsitwillbeme!"
"Iwishitcouldbeme,"exclaimedPattyvindictively,andwithanequaldisregardofgrammar。
"Youwouldspeakintemper,I’mafraid,Patty,andthatwouldspoilall。I’msorryyoucan’tgouptoEllen’s,"shesighed,turningbacktoherwork;"youdon’thavepleasureenoughforoneofyourage;still,don’tfret;somethingmayhappentochangethings,andanyhowtheweatherisgrowingwarmer,andyouandI
havesomanymoreoutingsinsummer—time。Smoothdownyourhair,child;therearestrawsinit,andit’sallroughwiththewind。
Idon’tlikeflyinghairaboutakitchen。"
"Iwishmyhairwasflyingsomewhereathousandmilesfromhere;
oratleastIshouldwishitifitdidnotmeanleavingyou;foroh。I’msomiserableanddisappointedandunhappy!"
Waitstillbentoverthegirlassheflungherselfdownbesidethetableandsmoothedhershouldergently。
"There,there,dear;itisn’tlikemygaylittlesistertocry。
Whatisthematterwithyouto—day,Patty?"
"Isupposeit’sthespring,"shesaid,wipinghereyeswithherapronandsmilingthroughhertears。"PerhapsIneedadoseofsulphurandmolasses。"
"Don’tyoufeelwellascommon?"
"Well?Ifeeltoowell!IfeelasifIwasayoungcoltshutupinanattic。Iwanttokickupmyheels,batterthedoordown,andgetoutintothepasture。It’snousetalking,Waity;——I
can’tgoonlivingwithoutabitofpleasureandIcan’tgoonbeingpatientevenforyoursake。Ifitweren’tforyou,I’drunawayasJobdid;andIneverbelievedMosesslippedonthelogs;
I’msurehethrewhimselfintotheriver,andsoshouldIifI
hadthecourage!"
"Stop,Patty,stop,dear!Youshallhaveyourbitofpasture,atleast。I’lldosomeofyourindoortasksforyou,andyoushallputonyoursunbonnetandgooutanddigthedandeliongreensfordinner。Takethebrokenknifeandamilkpananddon’tbringinsomuchearthwiththemasyoudidlasttime。Dryyoureyesandlookatthegreenthingsgrowing。Rememberhowyoungyouareandhowmanyyearsareaheadofyou!Goalong,dear!"
Waitstillwentaboutherworkwithratheraheavyheart。Waslifegoingtobemoreratherthanlessdifficult,nowthatPattywasgrowingup?Wouldsheheabletodoherdutybothbyfatherandsisterandkeeppeaceinthehousehold,asshehadvowed,inhersecretheart,alwaystodo?ShepausedeverynowandthentolookoutofthewindowandwaveanencouraginghandtoPatty。Thegirl’sbonnetwasoff,andheruncoveredheadblazedlikeredgoldinthesunlight。Theshortyounggrasswasdottedwithdandelionblooms,someofthemalreadygrowntohugedisksofyellow,andPattymovedhitherandthither,selectingtheyoungerweeds,deftlyputtingthebrokenknifeundertheirrootsandpoppingthemintothetinpan。Presently,forDeaconBaxterhadfinishedthewagonandgonedownthehilltorelieveCephasColeatthecounter,Patty’sshrillyoungwhistlefloatedintothekitchen,butwithamischievousglanceattheopenwindowshebrokeoffsuddenlyandbegantosingthewordsofthehymnwithrathermoreemphasisandgustothanstrictpietywarranted。
"There’llbeSOMEthinginheav—enforchil—drentodo,Noneareidleinthatbless—edland:
There’llbeWORKfortheheart。There’llbeWORKforthemind,AndemPLOYmentforEACHlittlehand。
"There’llbeSOME—thingtodo,There’llbeSOME—thingtodo,There’llbeSOME—thingforCHIL—drentodo!
Onthatbrightblessedshorewherethere’sjoyevermore,There’llbeSOME—thingforCHIL—DRENtodo。"
Patty’syoungexistencebeingfulltothebrimoflabor,thisviewofheavenneverintheleastappealedtoherandsherenderedthehymnwithlittlesympathy。Themainpartoftheversewasstronglyaccentedbyjabsattheunoffendingdandelionroots,butwhenthechoruscameshebroughtouttheemphaticsyllablesbyabeatofthebrokenknifeonthemilkpan。
ThisrenditionofaSabbath—SchoolclassicdidnotmeetWaitstill’sideasofperfectpropriety,butshesmiledandletitpass,planningsomesortofrecreationforastolenhalf—houroftheafternoon。Itwouldhavetobeawalkthroughthepastureintothewoodstoseewhathadgrownsincetheywentthereafortnightago。PattylovedpeoplebetterthanNature,butfailingtheoneshecouldputupwiththeother,forshehadasenseofbeautyandapaganloveofcolor。Therewouldbepale—huedinnocenceandblueandwhitevioletsinthemoistplaces,thoughtWaitstill,andtheywouldhavetheminachinacuponthesupper—table。No,thatwouldneverdo,forlasttimefatherhadknockedthemoverwhenhewasreachingforthebread,andinasilentprotestagainstsuchfoolishnessgotupfromthetableandemptiedtheirsintothekitchensink。
"There’saplaceforeverything,"hesaidwhenhecameback,"andtheplaceforflowersisoutdoors。"
Theninthepinewoodstherewouldbe,shewassure,StarofBethlehem,Solomon’sSeal,thewhitesprayofgroundnutsandbunchberries。PerhapstheycouldmakeabouquetandPattywouldtakeitacrossthefieldstoMrs。Boynton’sdoor。Sheneednotgoin,andthustheywouldnotbedisobeyingtheirfather’scommandnottovisitthat"crazyBoyntonwoman。"
HerePattycameinwithapanfullofgreensandthesisterssatdowninthesunnywindowtogetthemreadyforthepot。
"I’mcalmer,"thelittlerebelallowed。"That’sgenerallythewayitturnsoutwithme。Igetintoarage,butIcangenerallysingitoff!"
"Youcertainlymusthavegotridofagooddealoftemperthismorning,bythewayyourvoicesounded。"
"Nobodycanhearusinthisout—of—the—wayplace。It’seasyenoughtoseethatthewomenweren’taskedtosayanythingwhenthemensettledwherethehousesshouldbebuilt!Themenweren’tcontenttostickthemonthetopofahighhill,orhalfamilefromthestores,butputthembacktothemainroad,takingduecaretocutthesink—windowwheretheirwivescouldn’tseeanythingevenwhentheywerewashingdishes。"
"Idon’tknowthatIeverthoughtaboutitinthatway";andWaitstilllookedoutofthewindowinabrownstudywhileherhandsworkedwiththedandeliongreens。"I’venoticedit,butI
neversupposedthemendiditintentionally。"
"No,youwouldn’t,"saidPattywiththepessimismofawomanofninety,asshestoleanadmiringglanceathersister。Patty’sownface,irregular,piquant,tantalizing,haditspeculiarcharm,andherbrilliantskinandhairsodazzledthemasculinebeholderthathetooknoteofnosmalldefects;butWaitstillwasbeautiful;beautifuleveninherworkingdressofpurplecalico。
Hersinglebraidofhair,theFoxwellhair,thatinherwasbronzeandinPattypaleauburn,waswoundoncearoundherfineheadandmadetostandalittleasitwentacrossthefront。Itwasasimple,easy,unconsciousfashionofherown,quitedifferentfromanythingdonebyotherwomeninhertimeandplace,anditjustsuitedherdignityandserenity。Itlookedlikeacoronet,butitwasthewayshecarriedherheadthatgaveyouthefancy,therewassuchspiritandprideinthepoiseofitonthelonggracefulneck。Hereyeswereasclearasmountainpoolsshadedbyrushes,andthestrengthofthefacewassoftenedbythesweetnessofthemouth。
Pattyneverlettheconversationdieoutformanysecondsatatimeandnowshebeganagain。"Mysuddenragesdon’tmatchmynameverywell,but,ofcourse,motherdidn’tknowhowIwasgoingtoturnoutwhenshecalledmePatience,forIwasnothingbutasquirminglittlebald,redbaby;butmynamereallyistooridiculouswhenyouthinkaboutit。"
Waitstilllaughedasshesaid:"Itdidn’ttakeyoulongtochangeit!PerhapsPatiencewasahardwordforababytosay,butthemomentyoucouldtalkyousaid,’Pattywantsthis’and’Pattywantsthat。"’
"DidPattyevergetit?Sheneverhassince,that’scertain!Andlookatyourname:it’s’Waitstill,’yetyouneverstopamoment。
Whenyou’renotintheshedorbarn,orchicken—house,orkitchenorattic,orgarden—patch,youareworkingintheSundaySchoolorthechoir。"
ItseemedasifWaitstilldidnotintendtoanswerthisarraignmentofheractivities。Sheroseandcrossedtheroomtoputthepanofgreensinthesink,preparingtowashthem。
Takingthelong—handleddipperfromthenail,shepausedamomentbeforeplungingitintothewaterpail;paused,andleaningherelbowonacorneroftheshelfoverthesink,lookedsteadfastlyoutintotheorchard。
PattywatchedhercuriouslyandwasjustgoingtoofferapennyforherthoughtswhenWaitstillsuddenlybrokethebriefsilencebysaying:"Yes,Iamalwaysbusy;it’sbetterso,butallthesame,Patty,I’mwaiting,——inside!Idon’tknowforwhat,butI
alwaysfeelthatIamwaiting!"
VI
AKISS
"SHALLwehaveourwalkinthewoodsontheEdgewoodsideoftheriver,justforachange,Patty?"suggestedhersister。"Thewaterissohighthisyearthattheriverwillbesplendid。Wecangatherourflowersinthehillpastureandthenyou’llbequitenearMrs。Boynton’sandcancarrythenosegaytherewhileI
comehomeaheadofyouandgetsupper。I’lltaketo—day’seggstofather’sstoreonthewayandaskhimifhemindsourhavingalittlewalk。I’veanerrandatAuntAbby’sthatwouldtakemedowntothebridgeanyway。"
"Verywell,"saidPatty,somewhatapathetically。"Ialwayslikeawalkwithyou,butIdon’tcarewhatbecomesofmethisafternoonifIcan’tgotoEllen’sparty。"
TheexcursiontookplaceaccordingtoWaitstill’splan,andatfouro’clockshespedbacktohernightworkandpreparationsforsupper,leavingPattywithagreatbunchofearlywildflowersforIvory’smother。PattyhadleftthemattheBoyntons’doorwithRodman,whowaspickingupchipsandvolunteeredtotakethenosegayintothehouseatonce。
"Won’tyoustepinside?"theboyaskedshyly,wishingtobepolite,butconsciousthatvisitors,fromthevillageveryseldomcrossedthethreshold。
"I’dliketo,butIcan’tthisafternoon,thankyou。Imustrunallthewaydownthehillnow,orIshan’tbeintimetosupper。"
"Doyoueatmealstogetherovertoyourhouse?"askedtheboy。
"We’reallthreeatthetableifthatmeanstogether。"
"Weneverare。Ivorygoesoffearlyandtakeslunchinapail。SodoIwhenIgotoschool。AuntBoyntonneversitsdowntoeat;
shejuststandsatthewindowandtakesabiteofsomethingnow’andthen。Youhaven’tgotanymother,haveyou?"
"No,Rodman。"
"NeitherhaveI,noranyfather,noranyrelationsbutAuntBoyntonandIvory。Ivoryisverygoodtome,andwhenhe’sathomeI’mneverlonesome。"
"Iwishyoucouldcomeoverandeatwithsisterandme,"saidPattygently。"Perhapssometime,whenmyfatherisawaybuyinggoodsandweareleftalone,youcouldjoinusinthewoods,andwewouldhaveapicnic?Wewouldbringenoughforyou;allsortsofgoodthings;hard—boiledeggs,doughnuts,apple—turnovers,andbreadspreadwithjelly。"
"I’dlikeitfine!"exclaimedRodman,hisbigdarkeyessparklingwithanticipation。"Idon’thavemanyboystoplaywith,andI
neverwenttoapicnicAuntBoyntonwatchesforuncle’mostallthetime;shedoesn’tknowhehasbeenawayforyearsandyears。
Whenshedoesn’twatch,sheprays。Sometimesshewantsmetopraywithher,butprayingdon’tcomeeasytome。"
"Neitherdoesittome,"saidPatty。
"I’mgoodatmarblesandcheckersandback—gammonandjack—straws,though。"
"SoamI,"saidPatty,laughing,"soweshouldbegoodfriends。
I’lltrytogetachancetoseeyousoonagain,butperhapsI
can’t;I’magooddealtiedathome。"
"Yourfatherdoesn’tlikeyoutogoany—wheres,Iguess,"
interposedRodman。"I’veheardIvorytellAuntBoyntonthings,butIwouldn’trepeatthem。Ivory’strainedmeyearsandyearsnottotellanything,soIdon’t。"
"That’sagoodboy!"approvedPatty。Thenassheregardedhimmoreclosely,shecontinued,"I’msorryyou’relonesome,Rodman,I’dliketoseeyoulookbrighter。"
"YouthinkI’vebeencrying,"theboysaidshrewdly。"SoIhave,butnotbecauseI’vebeenpunished。ThereasonmyeyesaresoswollenupisbecauseIkilledouroldtoadbymistakethismorning。IwastryingtoseeifIcouldswingthescytheso’stohelpIvoryinhaying—time。I’veonly’rakedafter’andIwanttobeginonmowingsoon’sIcan。Thensomehoworothertheoldtoadcameoutfromunderthesteps;Ididn’tseehim,andthescythehithimsquare。Icriedforanhour,that’swhatIdid,andI
don’tcarewhoknowsitexceptIwouldn’tliketheboysatschooltohectorme。I’veburiedthetoadoutbehindthebarn,andI
hopeIvory’llletmekeepthenewsfromAuntBoynton。Shecriesenoughnowwithoutmytellingherthere’sbeenadeathinthefamily。Shesetgreatstorebytheoldtoad,andsodidallofus。"
"It’stoobad;I’msorry,butafterallyoucouldn’thelpit。"
"No,butweshouldalwayslookroundevery—whereswhenwe’recutting;that’swhatIvorysays。Hesaysfolksshouldn’tuseedgedtoolstillthey’reoldenoughnottofoolwith’em。"
AndRodmanlookedsowiseandold—fashionedforhisyearsthatPattydidnotknowwhethertokisshimorcryoverhim,asshesaid:"Ivory’salwaysright,andnowgood—bye;Imustgothisveryminute。Don’tforgetthepicnic。"
"Iwon’t!"criedtheboy,gazingafterher,whollyentrancedwithherbrightbeautyandherkindness。"Say,I’llbringsomething,too,——white—oakacorns,ifyoulike’em;I’vegotabigbagfulupattic!"
Pattyspeddownthelonglane,creptunderthebars,andflewlikealapwingoverthehigh—road。
"Iffatherwasonlylikeanyoneelse,thingsmightbesodifferent!"shesighed,herthoughtsrunningalongwithherfeet。
"NobodytomakeahomeforthatpoorlonesomelittleboyandthatpoorlonesomebigIvory……IamsurethatheisinlovewithWaitstill。Hedoesn’tknowit;shedoesn’tknowit;nobodydoesbutme,butI’mcleveratguessing。IwastheonlyonethatsurmisedJedMorrillwasgoingtomarryagain……IshouldalmostlikeIvoryformyself,heissotallandhandsome,butofcoursehecannevermarryanybody;heistoopoorandhashismothertolookafter。Iwouldn’twanttotakehimfromWaity,though,andthenperhapsIcouldn’tgethim,anyway……IfI
couldn’t,he’dbetheonlyone!I’venevertriedyet,butIfeelinmybones,somehow,thatIcouldhaveanyboyinEdgewoodorRiverboro,byjustcrookingmyforefingerandbeckoningtohim……Iwish——Iwish——theyweredifferent!Theydon’tmakemewanttobeckontothem!Myforefingerjuststaysstraightanddoesn’tfeellikecrooking!……There’sCephasCole,buthe’sasstupidasanowl。Idon’twantahusbandthatkeepshismouthwideopenwheneverI’mtalking,nomatterwhetherit’ssenseornonsense。
There’sPhilPerry,buthelikesEllen,andbesideshe’stooseriousforme;andthere’sMarkWilson;he’sthebestdressed,andtheonlyonethat’sbeentocollege。Helooksatmeallthetimeinmeeting,andaskedmeifIwouldn’ttakeawalksomeSundayafternoon。IknowheplannedEllen’spartyhopingI’dbethere!——Goodnessgracious,Idobelievethatishishorsecomingbehindme!There’snootherinthevillagethatgoesatsuchagait!"
Itwas,indeed,MarkWilson,whoalwaysdrove,accordingtoAuntAbbyCole,"asifhewasgoin’foradoctor。"HecaughtupwithPattyalmostinthetwinklingofaneye,butshewasreadyforhim。Shehadtakenoffhersunbonnetjusttotwirlitbythestring,shewassowarmwithwalking,andinajiffyshehadliftedtheclusteringcurlsfromherears,tuckedthembackwithasingleexpertmovement,anddisclosedtwocoralpendantsjustthecolorofherear—tipsandherglowingcheeks。
"Hello,Patty!"theyoungmancalled,inbrusquecountryfashion,ashereinedupbesideher。"Whatareyoudoingoverhere?Whyaren’tyouonyourwaytotheparty?I’vebeenovertoLimingtonandambreakingmynecktogethomeintimemyself。"
"Iamnotgoing;therearenopartiesforme!"saidPattyplaintively。
"Notgoing!Oh!Isay,what’sthematter?Itwon’tbeabitoffunwithoutyou!EllenandImadeitupexpresslyforyou,thinkingyourfathercouldn’tobjecttoacandy—pull!"
"Ican’thelpit;IdidthebestIcould。Wait—stillalwaysasksfatherforme,butIwouldn’ttakeanychancesto—day,andI
spoketohimmyself;indeedIalmostcoaxedhim!"
"He’saregularoldskinflint!"criedMark,gettingoutofthewagonandwalkingbesideher。
"Youmustn’tcallhimnames,"Pattyinterposedwithsomedignity。
"Icallhimagoodmanymyself,butI’mhisdaughter。"
"Youdon’tlookit,"saidMarkadmiringly。"Comeandhavealittleride,Won’tyou?"
"Oh,Icouldn’tpossibly,thankyou。Someonewouldbesuretoseeus,andfather’ssostrict。"
"Thereisn’tabuildingforhalfamile!Justjumpinandhaveaspintillwecometothefirsthouse;thenI’llletyououtandyoucanwalktherestofthewayhome。Come,do,andmakeuptomealittleformydisappointment。I’llskipthecandy—pullifyousaytheword。"
Itwasanincrediblybriefdrive,atMark’srateofspeed;andasexcitingandblissfulasitwasbriefanddangerous,Pattythought。Didsheimagineit,ordidMarkhelpherintothewagondifferentlyfrom——oldDr。Perry,forinstance?
Thefreshbreezeliftedthegoldthreadofhercurlsandgavehercheeksabrightercolor,whileherbreathcamefastthroughherpartedlipsandhereyessparkledattheunexpected,unaccustomedpleasure。Shefeltsogrownup,soconsciousofanewpowerasshesatenthronedonthelittlewagonseat(MarkWilsonalwayslikedhisbuggies"courtin’size"sotheneighborssaid),thatshewasalmostcourageousenoughtoagreetomakearoyalprogressthroughthevillage;almost,butnotquite。
"Comeon,let’sshaketheoldtabbiesupandstart’emtalking,shallwe?"Marksuggested。"I’llgiveyouthereinsandletNerohaveaflickofthewhip。"
"No,I’drathernotdrive,"shesaid。"I’dbeafraidofthishorse,and,anyway,Imustgetoutthisveryminute;yes,I
reallymust。IfyouholdNeroIcanjustslipdownbetweenthewheels;youneedn’thelpme。"
Markalightednotwithstandingherobjections,sayinggallantly,"Idon’tmissthispleasure,notbyajugful!Comealong!Jump!"
Pattystretchedoutherhandstobehelped,butMarkforestalledherbyputtinghisarmsaroundherandliftingherdown。Asecondoftimeonlywasinvolved,butinthatsecondheheld;hercloseandkissedherwarmcheek,hercheekthathadneverfeltthetouchofanylipsbutthoseofWaitstill。Shepulledhersunbonnetoverherflamingface,whileMark,withagaysmileoffarewell,sprangintothewagonandgavehishorseafreerein。
Pattyneverlookedupfromtheroad,butwalkedfasterandfaster,herheartbeatingatbreakneckspeed。Itwasachangedworldthatspunpasther;fright,triumph,shame,delight,agratifiedvanityswamoverherinturn。
Afewminuteslatersheheardoncemoretherumbleofwheelsontheroad。ItwasCephasColedrivingtowardsheroverthebrowofSacoHill。"He’llhaveseenMark,"shethought,"buthecan’tknowI’vetalkedanddrivenwithhim。Ugh!howstupidandcommonhelooks!"
"Iheardyourfatherblowin’thesupper—hornjestasIcomeoverthebridge,"remarkedCephas,drawingupintheroad。"Hestoodinthedoor—yardblowin’likeBedlam。Iguessyou’relatetosupper。"
"I’llbehomeinafewminutes,"saidPatty,"Igotdelayedandamalittlebehindhand。"
"I’11turnrightroundifyou’11gitinandlemmetakeyouback—alongapiece;it’llsaveyouagoodfiveminutes,"beggedCephas,abjectly。
"Allright;muchobliged;butit’sagainsttherulesandyoumustdropmeatthefootofourhillandletmewalkup。"
"Certain;IknowtheDeacon’n’Iain’thuntin’fortroubleanymore’nyoube;thoughI’dtakeitquickenoughifyoujestgivemeleave!Iain’tnocowardan’IcouldtackletheDeaconto—morrowifsobeIhadanythingtoaskhim。"
ThisseemedtoPattyalineofconversationdistinctlytobediscouragedunderallthecircumstances,andshetriedtokeepCephasonthesubjectofhisdailytasksandhismother’srheumatismuntilshecouldescapefromhisover—appreciativesociety。
"Howdoyoulikemylastjob?"heinquiredastheypassedhisfather’shouse。"SomethinkI’vegottheellalittleditetooyaller。Folksthatain’tneverhandledabrushallersthinktheycanmixpaintbetter’nthemthatknowstheirtrade。"
"Ifyourobjectwastohaveeverybodyseetheellamileaway,you’vesucceeded,"saidPattycruelly。Sheneverflungthepoorboyacivilwordforfearofgettingsomethingwarmerthancivilityinreturn。
"It’lltonedown,"Cephasresponded,rathercrestfallen。"I
wantedagoodbrightlastin’shade。’Twon’tlooksoyallerwhenfatherletsmepaintthehousetomatch,butthatwon’tbetillnextyear。Hemakesfunoftheyallercolorsameasyou;saysahome’ssomethingyouwanttoforgetwhenyou’reawayfromit。
Mothersaysthetworoomsoftheellarebigenoughforsomebodytosetuphousekeepin’in。Whatdoyouthink?"
"Ineverthink,"returnedPattywithatantalizinglaugh。
"Good—night,Cephas;thankyouforgivingmealift!"
VII
"WHATDREAMSMAYCOME
SUPPERwasoverandtheworkdoneatlast;thedisheswashed,thebeansputinsoak,thehensshutupforthenight,themilkstrainedandcarrieddowncellar。PattywentuptoherlittleroomwiththeonewindowandtheslantingwallsandWaitstillfollowedandsaidgood—night。Herfatherputoutthelights,lockedthedoors,andcameupthecreakingstairs。Therewasneveranytalkbetweenthesistersbeforegoingtobed,saveonnightswhentheirfatherwaslateatthestore,usuallyonSaturdaysonly,forthegoodtalkersofthevillage,aswellasthegossipsandloafers,preferredanyotherplacetoswapstoriesthanthebleakatmosphereprovidedbyoldFoxyathisplaceofbusiness。
Pattycouldthinkinthedark;herhealthyyoungbodylyingnotuncomfortablyonthebedofcornhusks,andthepatchworkcomforterdrawnupunderherchin。Shecouldthink,butforthefirsttimeshecouldnottellherthoughtstoWaitstill。Shehadasecret;adazzlingsecret,justlikeEllenWilsonandsomeoftheothergirlswhowereseveralyearsolder。Herafternoon’sexperienceloomedaslargeinherinnocentmindasifithadbeenanelopement。
"IhopeI’mnotengagedtobemarriedtohim,EVENIFHEDID——"
Thesentencewastootremendoustobefinished,eveninthought。
"Idon’tthinkIcanbe;menmustsurelysaysomething,andnottakeitforgrantedyouareinlovewiththemandwanttomarrythem。ItiswhattheysaywhentheyaskthatIshouldlikemuchbetterthanbeingmarried,whenI’monlyjustpastseventeen。I