Idon’tcareaboutit—that’stosay,nottosignify。’’Whydidyoutakemeupsosharp,Roger?’saidhisfatherpettishly。’Youalltakemeupsohastilynow—a—days。Ithinkit’shardwhenamanmustn’tbeallowedabitofcrossnesswhenhe’stiredandheavyatheart—thatIdo。’’But,father,Ishouldneverliketogotoahousewheretheyhadslightedyou。’’Nay,nay,lad,’saidthesquire,brighteningupalittle;’IthinkIslightedthem。Theyaskedmetodinneraftermylordwasmadelieutenanttimeaftertime,butIneverwouldgonear’em。Icallthatmyslightingthem。’Andnomorewassaidatthetime;butthenextdaythesquireagainstoppedRoger。’I’vebeenmakingJemtryonhislivery—coatthathehasn’twornthisthreeorfouryears,—he’sgottoostoutforitnow。’’Well,heneedn’twearit,needhe?andMorgan’sladwillbegladenoughofit,—he’ssadlyinwantofclothes。’’Ay,ay;butwho’stogowithyouwhenyoucallattheTowers?It’sbutpolitetocallafterLordWhat’s—his—namehastakenthetroubletocomehere;andIshouldn’tlikeyoutogowithoutagroom。’’Mydearfather!Ishouldn’tknowwhattodowithamanridingatmyback。
Icanfindmywaytothestable—yardformyself,orthere’llbesomemanabouttotakemyhorse。Don’ttroubleyourselfaboutthat。’’Well,you’renotOsborne,tobesure。Perhapsitwon’tstrike’emasstrangeforyou。Butyoumustlookup,andholdyourown,andrememberyou’reoneoftheHamleys,who’vebeenonthesamelandforhundredsofyears,whilethey’rebuttrumperyWhigfolkwhoonlycameintothecountyinQueenAnne’stime。’
chapter28CHAPTERXXVIIIRIVALRYForsomedaysaftertheballCynthiaseemedlanguid,andwasverysilent。
Molly,whohadpromisedherselffullyasmuchenjoymentintalkingoverthepastgaietywithCynthiaasintheeveningitself,wasdisappointedwhenshefoundthatallconversationonthesubjectwasratherevadedthanencouraged。MrsGibson,itistrue,wasreadytogooverthegroundasmanytimesasanyoneliked;butherwordswerealwayslikeready—madeclothes,andneverfittedindividualthoughts。Anybodymighthaveusedthem,and,withachangeofpropernames,theymighthaveservedtodescribeanyball。Sherepeatedlyusedthesamelanguageinspeakingaboutit,tillMollyknewthesentencesandtheirsequenceeventoirritation。’Ah!MrOsborne,youshouldhavebeenthere!Isaidtomyselfmanyatimehowyoureallyshouldhavebeenthere—youand,yourbrotherofcourse。’’Ithoughtofyouveryoftenduringtheevening!’’Didyou?NowthatIcallverykindofyou。Cynthia,darling!DoyouhearwhatMrOsborneHamleywassaying?’asCynthiacameintotheroomjustthen。’Hethoughtofusallontheeveningoftheball。’’Hedidbetterthanmerelyrememberusthen,’saidCynthia,withhersoftslowsmile。’Weowehimthanksforthosebeautifulflowers,mamma。’’Oh!’saidOsborne,’youmustnotthankmeexclusively。Ibelieveitwasmythought,butRogertookallthetroubleofit。’’Iconsiderthethoughtaseverything,’saidMrsGibson。’Thoughtisspiritual,whileactionismerelymaterial。’Thisfinesentencetookthespeakerherselfbysurprise;andinsuchconversationaswasthengoingon,itisnotnecessarytoaccuratelydefinethemeaningofeverythingthatissaid。’I’mafraidtheflowersweretoolatetobeofmuchusethough,’continuedOsborne。’ImetPrestonthenextmorning,andofcoursewetalkedabouttheball。Iwassorrytofindhehadbeenbeforehandwithus,’’Heonlysentonenosegay,andthatwasforCynthia,’saidMolly,lookingupfromherwork。’AnditdidnotcometillafterwehadreceivedtheflowersfromHamley。’MollycaughtasightofCynthia’sfacebeforeshebentdownagaintohersewing。Itwasscarletincolour,andtherewasaflashofangerinhereyes。BothsheandhermotherhastenedtospeakassoonasMollyhadfinished,butCynthia’svoicewaschokedwithpassion,andMrsGibsonhadtheword。’MrPreston’sbouquetwasjustoneofthoseformalaffairsanyonecanbuyatanursery—garden,whichalwaysstrikemeashavingnosentimentinthem。IwouldfarratherhavetwoorthreeliliesofthevalleygatheredformebyapersonIlike,thanthemostexpensivebouquetthatcouldbebought!’’MrPrestonhadnobusinesstospeakasifhehadforestalledyou,’saidCynthia。’Itcamejustaswewerereadytogo,andIputitintothefiredirectly。’’Cynthia,mydearlove!’saidMrsGibson(whohadneverheardofthefateoftheflowersuntilnow),’whatanideaofyourselfyouwillgivetoMrOsborneHamley;buttobesure,Icanquiteunderstandit。Youinheritmyfeeling—myprejudice—sentimentalIgrant,againstboughtflowers。’Cynthiawassilentforamoment;thenshesaid,’Iusedsomeofyourflowers,MrHamley,todressMolly’shair。Itwasagreattemptation,forthecoloursoexactlymatchedhercoralornaments;butIbelieveshethoughtittreacheroustodisturbthearrangement,soIoughttotakealltheblameonmyself。’’Thearrangementwasmybrother’s,asItoldyou;butIamsurehewouldhavepreferredseeingtheminMissGibson’shairratherthanintheblazingfire。MrPrestoncomesfartheworstoff。’Osbornewasratheramusedatthewholeaffair,andwouldhavelikedtoprobeCynthia’smotivesalittlefarther。HedidnothearMollysayinginassoftavoiceasifsheweretalkingtoherself,’Iworeminejustastheyweresent,’forMrsGibsoncameinwithatotalchangeofsubject。’Speakingofliliesofthevalley,isittruethattheygrowwildinHurstWood?Itisnottheseasonforthemtobeinfloweryet;butwhenitis,Ithinkwemusttakeawalkthere—withourluncheoninabasket—alittlepicnicinfact。You’lljoinus,won’tyou?’turningtoOsborne。’Ithinkit’sacharmingplan!YoucouldridetoHollingfordandputupyourhorsehere,andwewouldhavealongdayinthewoodsandallcomehometodinner—dinnerwithabasketofliliesinthemiddleofthetable!’’Ishouldlikeitverymuch,’saidOsborne;’butImaynotbeathome。
Rogerismorelikelytobehere,Ibelieve,atthattime—amonthhence。’
HewasthinkingofthevisittoLondontosellhispoems,andtherundowntoWinchesterwhichheanticipatedafterwards—theendofMayhadbeentheperiodfixedforthispleasureforsometime,notmerelyinhisownmind,butinwritingtohiswife。’Oh,butyoumustbewithus!WemustwaitforMrOsborneHamley,mustnotwe,Cynthia?’’I’mafraidthelilieswon’twait,’repliedCynthia。’Well,then,wemustputitofftilldog—roseandhoneysuckletime。Youwillbeathomethen,won’tyou?ordoestheLondonseasonpresenttoomanyattractions?’’Idon’texactlyknowwhendog—rosesareinflower!’’Notknow,andyouapoet?Don’tyourememberthelines—Itwasthetimeofroses,Wepluckedthemaswepassed?"’Yes;butthatdoesn’tspecifythetimeofyearthatisthetimeofroses;
andIbelievemymovementsareguidedmorebythelunarcalendarthanthefloral。Youhadbettertakemybrotherforyourcompanion;heispracticalinhisloveofflowers,Iamonlytheoretical。’’Doesthatfineword"theoretical"implythatyouareignorant?’askedCynthia。’Ofcourseweshallbehappytoseeyourbrother;butwhycan’twehaveyoutoo?Iconfesstoalittletimidityinthepresenceofonesodeepandlearnedasyourbrotherisfromallaccounts。Givemealittlecharmingignorance,ifwemustcallitbythathardword。’Osbornebowed。Itwasverypleasanttohimtobepettedandflattered,eventhoughheknewallthetimethatitwasonlyflattery。Itwasanagreeablecontrasttothehomethatwassodismaltohim,tocometothishousewherethesocietyoftwoagreeablegirls,andthesoothingsyrupoftheirmother’sspeeches,awaitedhimwheneverhelikedtocome。Tosaynothingofthedifferencethatstruckuponhissenses,poeticalthoughhemightesteemhimself,ofasitting—roomfullofflowersandtokensofwomen’spresence,whereallthechairswereeasy,andallthetableswellcoveredwithprettythings,tothegreatdrawing—roomathome,wherethedraperieswerethreadbare,andtheseatsuncomfortable,andnosignoffemininepresenceevernowlentagracetothestiffarrangementofthefurniture。Thenthemeals,lightandwellcooked,suitedhistasteanddelicateappetitesomuchbetterthantherichandheavyviandspreparedbytheservantsattheHall。OsbornewasbecomingalittleafraidoffallingintothehabitofpayingtoofrequentvisitstotheGibsons(andthat,notbecausehefearedtheconsequencesofhisintercoursewiththetwoyoungladies;forheneverthoughtofthemexceptingasfriends;—thefactofhismarriagewasconstantlypresenttohismind,andAimé;etoosecurelyenthronedinhisheart,forhimtorememberthathemightbelookeduponbyothersinthelightofapossiblehusband);butthereflectionforceditselfuponhimoccasionally,whetherhewasnottrespassingtoooftenonhospitalitywhichhehadatpresentnomeansofreturning。ButMrsGibson,inherignoranceofthetruestateofaffairs,wassecretlyexultantintheattractionwhichmadehimcomesooftenandloungeawaythehoursintheirhouseandgarden。ShehadnodoubtthatitwasCynthiawhodrewhimtothehouse;andifthelatterhadbeenalittlemoreamenabletoreason,hermotherwouldhavemademorefrequentallusionsthanshedidtothecrisiswhichshethoughtwasapproaching。Butshewasrestrainedbytheintuitiveconvictionthatifherdaughterbecameconsciousofwhatwasimpending,andwasmadeawareofMrsGibson’scautiousandquieteffortstoforwardthecatastrophe,thewilfulgirlwouldopposeherselftoitwithallherskillandpower。Asitwas,MrsGibsontrustedthatCynthia’saffectionswouldbecomeengagedbeforesheknewwhereshewas,andthatinthatcaseshewouldnotattempttofrustratehermother’sdelicatescheming,eventhoughshedidperceiveit。ButCynthiahadcomeacrosstoomanyvarietiesofflirtation,admiration,andevenpassionatelove,tobeforamomentatfaultastothequietfriendlynatureofOsborne’sattentions。Shereceivedhimalwaysasasistermightabrother。ItwasdifferentwhenRogerreturnedfromhiselectionasFellowofTrinity。Thetremblingdiffidence,thehardlysuppressedardourofhismanner,madeCynthiaunderstandbeforelongwithwhatkindofloveshehadnowtodeal。Shedidnotputitintosomanywords—no,noteveninhersecretheart—butsherecognizedthedifferencebetweenRoger’srelationtoherandOsborne’s,longbeforeMrsGibsonfounditout。Mollywas,however,thefirsttodiscoverthenatureofRoger’sattraction。Thefirsttimetheysawhimaftertheball,itcameouttoherobservanteyes。Cynthiahadnotbeenlookingwellsincethatevening;
shewentslowlyaboutthehouse,paleandheavy—eyed;and,fondassheusuallywasofexerciseandthefreefreshair,therewashardlyanypersuadinghernowtogooutforawalk。Mollywatchedthisfadingwithtenderanxiety,buttoallherquestionsastowhethershehadfeltover—fatiguedwithherdancing,whetheranythinghadoccurredtoannoyher,andallsuchinquiries,sherepliedinlanguidnegatives。OnceMollytouchedonMrPreston’sname,andfoundthatthiswasasubjectonwhichCynthiawasraw;now,Cynthia’sfacelightedupwithspirit,andherwholebodyshowedherill—repressedagitation,butsheonlysaidafewsharpwords,expressiveofanythingbutkindlyfeelingtowardsthegentleman,andthenbadeMollynevernamehisnametoheragain。Still,thelattercouldnotimaginethathewasmorethanintenselydistastefultoherfriend,aswellastoherself,hecouldnotbethecauseofCynthia’spresentindisposition。Butthisindispositionlastedsomanydayswithoutchangeormodification,thatevenMrsGibsonnoticedit,andMollybecamepositivelyuneasy。MrsGibsonconsideredCynthia’squietnessandlanguorasthenaturalconsequenceof’dancingwitheverybodywhoaskedher’attheball。Partnerswhosenameswereinthe’RedBook’
wouldnothaveproducedhalftheamountoffatigue,accordingtoMrsGibson’sjudgmentapparently,andifCynthiahadbeenquitewell,veryprobablyshewouldhavehittheblotinhermother’sspeechwithoneofhertouchesofsarcasm。Then,again,whenCynthiadidnotrally,MrsGibsongrewimpatient,andaccusedherofbeingfancifulandlazy;atlength,andpartlyatMolly’sinstance,therecameanappealtoMrGibson,andaprofessionalexaminationofthesupposedinvalid,whichCynthiahatedmorethananything,especiallywhentheverdictwas,thattherewasnothingverymuchthematter,onlyagenerallownessoftone,anddepressionofhealthandspirits,whichwouldsoonberemediedbytonics,and,meanwhile,shewasnottobeurgedtoexertion。’IfthereisonethingIdislike,’saidCynthiatoMrGibson,afterhehadpronouncedtonicstobethecureforherpresentstate,’itisthewaydoctorshaveofgivingtablespoonfulsofnauseousmixturesasacertainremedyforsorrowsandcares。’Shelaughedupinhisfaceasshespoke;
shehadalwaysaprettywordandsmileforhim,eveninthemidstofherlossofspirits。’Come!youacknowledgeyouhave"sorrows"bythatspeech;we’llmakeabargain:ifyou’lltellmeyoursorrowsandcares,I’lltryandfindsomeotherremedyforthemthangivingyouwhatyouarepleasedtotermmynauseousmixtures。’’No,’saidCynthia,colouring;’IneversaidIhadsorrowsandcares;I
spokegenerally。WhatshouldIhaveasorrowabout—youandMollyareonlytookindtome,’hereyesfillingwithtears。’Well,well,we’llnottalkofsuchgloomythings,andyoushallhavesomesweetemulsiontodisguisethetasteofthebittersIshallbeobligedtofallbackupon。’’Please,don’t。IfyoubutknewhowIdislikeemulsionsanddisguises!
Idowantbitters—andifIsometimes—ifI’mobligedto—ifI’mnottruthfulmyself,Idoliketruthinothers—atleast,sometimes。’Sheendedhersentencewithanothersmile,busitwasratherfaintandwatery。NowthefirstpersonoutofthehousetonoticeCynthia’schangeoflookandmannerwasRogerHamley—andyethedidnotseeheruntil,undertheinfluenceofthenauseousmixture,shewasbeginningtorecover。Buthiseyeswerescarcelyoffherduringthefirstfiveminuteshewasintheroom。AllthetimehewastryingtotalktoMrsGibsoninreplytohercivilplatitudes,hewasstudyingCynthia;andatthefirstconvenientpausehecameandstoodbeforeMolly,soastointerposehispersonbetweenherandtherestoftheroom;forsomevisitorshadcomeinsubsequenttohisentrance。’Molly,howillyoursisterislooking!Whatisit?Hasshehadadvice?
Youmustforgiveme,butsooftenthosewholivetogetherinthesamehousedon’tobservethefirstapproachesofillness。’NowMolly’sloveforCynthiawasfastandunwavering,butifanythingtriedit,itwasthehabitRogerhadfallenintoofalwayscallingCynthiaMolly’ssisterinspeakingtothelatter。Fromanyoneelseitwouldhavebeenamatterofindifferencetoher,andhardlytobenoticed;itvexedbothearandheartwhenRogerusedtheexpression;andtherewasacurtnessofmanneraswellasofwordsinherreply。’Oh!shewasover—tiredbytheball。Papahasseenher,andsaysshewillbeallrightverysoon。’’Iwonderifshewantschangeofair?’saidRoger,meditatively。’Iwish—IdowishwecouldhaveherattheHall;youandyourmothertoo,ofcourse。ButIdon’tseehowitwouldbepossible—orelsehowcharmingitwouldbe!’MollyfeltasifavisittotheHallundersuchcircumstanceswouldbealtogethersodifferentanaffairtoallherformerones,thatshecouldhardlytellifsheshouldlikeitornot。Rogerwenton,—’Yougotourflowersintime,didyounot?Ah!youdon’tknowhowoftenIthoughtofyouthatevening!Andyouenjoyedittoo,didn’tyou?—youhadplentyofagreeablepartners,andallthatmakesafirstballdelightful?
Iheardthatyoursisterdancedeverydance。’’Itwasverypleasant,’saidMolly,quietly。’But,afterall,I’mnotsureifIwanttogotoanotherjustyet;thereseemstobesomuchtroubleconnectedwithaball。’’Ah!youarethinkingofyoursister,andhernotbeingwell?’’No,Iwasnot,’saidMolly,ratherbluntly。’Iwasthinkingofthedress,andthedressing,andthewearinessthenextday。’Hemightthinkherunfeelingifheliked;shefeltasifshehadonlytoomuchfeelingjustthen,foritwasbringingonherastrangecontractionofheart。Buthewastooinherentlygoodhimselftoputanyharshconstructiononherspeech。Justbeforehewentaway,whilehewasostensiblyholdingherhandandwishinghergood—by,hesaidtoherinavoicetoolowtobegenerallyheard,—’IsthereanythingIcoulddoforyoursister?Wehaveplentyofbooks,asyouknow,ifshecaresforreading。’Then,receivingnoaffirmativelookorwordfromMollyinreplytothissuggestion,hewenton,—’Orflowers?shelikesflowers。Oh!andourforcedstrawberriesarejustready—Iwillbringsomeoverto—morrow。’’Iamsureshewilllikethem,’saidMolly。Forsomereasonorother,unknowntotheGibsons,alongerintervalthanusualoccurredbetweenOsborne’svisits,whileRogercamealmosteveryday,alwayswithsomefreshofferingbywhichheopenlysoughttorelieveCynthia’sindispositionasfarasitlayinhispower。HermannertohimwassogentleandgraciousthatMrsGibsonbecamealarmed,lest,inspiteofhis’uncouthness’(asshewaspleasedtotermit),hemightcometobepreferredtoOsborne,whowassostrangelyneglectinghisowninterests,inMrsGibson’sopinion。Inherquietway,shecontrivedtopassmanyslightsuponRoger;butthedartsreboundedfromhisgenerousnaturethatcouldnothaveimaginedhermotives,andfastenedthemselvesonMolly。Shehadoftenbeencallednaughtyandpassionatewhenshewasachild;andshethoughtnowthatshebegantounderstandthatshereallyhadaviolenttemper。WhatseemedneithertohurtRogernorannoyCynthiamadeMolly’sbloodboil;andnowshehadoncediscoveredMrsGibson’swishtomakeRoger’svisitsshorterandlessfrequent,shewasalwaysonthewatchforindicationsofthisdesire。Shereadherstepmother’sheartwhenthelattermadeallusionstothesquire’sloneliness,nowthatOsbornewasabsentfromtheHall,andthatRogerwassooftenawayamongsthisfriendsduringtheday,—’MrGibsonandIshouldbesodelightedifyoucouldhavestoppedtodinner;
but,ofcourse,wecannotbesoselfishastoaskyoutostaywhenwerememberhowyourfatherwouldbeleftalone。Weweresayingyesterdaywewonderedhowheborehissolitude,pooroldgentleman!’Or,assoonasRogercamewithhisbunchofearlyroses,itwasdesirableforCynthiatogoandrestinherownroom,whileMollyhadtoaccompanyMrsGibsononsomeimprovisederrandorcall。StillRoger,whoseobjectwastogivepleasuretoCynthia,andwhohad,fromhisboyhood,beenalwayscertainofMrGibson’sfriendlyregard,wasslowtoperceivethathewasnotwanted。IfhedidnotseeCynthia,thatwashisloss;atanyrate,heheardhowshewas,andlefthersomelittlethingwhichhebelievedshewouldlike,andwaswillingtoriskthechanceofhisowngratificationbycallingfourorfivetimesinthehopeofseeingheronce。AtlasttherecameadaywhenMrsGibsonwentbeyondherusualnegativesnubbiness,andwhen,insomeunwontedfitofcrossness,forshewasaveryplacid—temperedpersoningeneral,shewasguiltyofpositiverudeness,Cynthiawasverymuchbetter。Tonicshadministeredtoaminddiseased,thoughshehatedtoacknowledgeit;herprettybloomandmuchofherlight—heartednesshadcomeback,andtherewasnocauseremainingforanxiety。MrsGibsonwassittingatherembroideryinthedrawing—room,andthetwogirlswereatthewindow,CynthialaughingatMolly’searnestendeavourstoimitatetheFrenchaccentinwhichtheformerhadbeenreadingapageofVoltaire。
Fortheduty,orthefarce,ofsettlingto’improvingreading’inthemorningswasstillkeptup,althoughLordHollingford,theunconscioussuggestoroftheidea,hadgonebacktotownwithoutmakinganyoftheeffortstoseeMollyagainthatMrsGibsonhadanticipatedonthenightoftheball。
ThatAlnascharvisionhadfallentotheground。Itwasasyetearlymorning;
adelicious,fresh,lovelyJuneday,theairredolentwiththescentsofflower—growthandbloom;andhalfthetimethegirlshadbeenostensiblyemployedintheFrenchreadingtheyhadbeenleaningoutoftheopenwindowtryingtoreachaclusterofclimbingroses。Theyhadsecuredthematlast,andthebunchlayonCynthia’slap,butmanyofthepetalshadfallenoff,so,thoughtheperfumelingeredaboutthewindow—seat,thefullbeautyoftheflowershadpassedaway。MrsGibsonhadonceortwicereprovedthemforthemerrynoisetheyhadbeenmaking,whichhinderedherinthebusinessofcountingthestitchesinherpattern;andshehadsetherselfacertainquantitytodothatmorningbeforegoingout,andwasofthatnaturewhichattachesinfiniteimportancetofulfillingsmallresolutions,madeaboutindifferenttrifleswithoutanyreasonwhatever。’MrRogerHamley,’wasannounced。’Sotiresome!’saidMrsGibson,almostinhishearing,asshepushedawayherembroideryframe。Sheputouthercold,motionlesshandtohim,withahalf—murmuredwordofwelcome,stilleyeingherlostembroidery。Hetooknoapparentnotice,andpassedontothewindow。’Howdelicious!’saidhe。’NoneedforanymoreHamleyrosesnowyoursareout,’’Iagreewithyou,’saidMrsGibson,replyingtohimbeforeeitherCynthiaorMollycouldspeak,thoughheaddressedhiswordstothem。’Youhavebeenverykindinbringingusflowerssolong;butnowourownareoutweneednottroubleyouanymore。’Helookedatherwithalittlesurprisecloudinghishonestface;itwasperhapsmoreatthetonethanthewords。MrsGibson,however,hadbeenboldenoughtostrikethefirstblow,andshedeterminedtogoonasopportunityoffered。MollywouldperhapshavebeenmorepainedifshehadnotseenCynthia’scolourrise。Shewaitedforhertospeak,ifneedwere;forsheknewthatRoger’sdefence,ifdefencewereneeded,mightbesafelyentrustedtoCynthia’sreadywit。HeputouthishandfortheshatteredclusterofrosesthatlayinCynthia’slap。’Atanyrate,’saidhe,’mytrouble—ifMrsGibsonconsidersithasbeenatroubletome—willbeover—paid,ifImayhavethis。’’Oldlampsfornew,’saidCynthia,smilingasshegaveittohim。’Iwishonecouldalwaysbuynosegayssuchasyouhavebroughtus,ascheaply。’’Youforgetthewasteoftimethat,Ithink,wemustreckonaspartofthepayment,’saidhermother。’Really,MrHamley,wemustlearntoshutourdoorsonyouifyoucomesooften,andatsuchearlyhours!Isettlemyselftomyownemploymentregularlyafterbreakfasttilllunch—time;
anditismywishtokeepCynthiaandMollytoacourseofimprovingreadingandstudy—sodesirableforyoungpeopleoftheirage,iftheyareevertobecomeintelligent,companionablewomen;butwithearlyvisitorsitisquiteimpossibletoobserveanyregularityofhabits。’Allthiswassaidinthatsweet,falsetonewhichoflatehadgonethroughMollylikethescrapingofaslate—pencilonaslate。Roger’sfacechanged。
Hisruddycolourgrewpalerforamoment,andhelookedgraveandnotpleased。
Inanothermomentthewontedfranknessofexpressionreturned。Whyshouldnothe,heaskedhimself,believeher?itwasearlytocall;itdidinterruptregularoccupation。Sohespoke,andsaid,—’IbelieveIhavebeenverythoughtless—I’llnotcomesoearlyagain;
butIhadsomeexcuseto—day:mybrothertoldmeyouhadmadeaplanforgoingtoseeHurstWoodwhentheroseswereout,andtheyareearlierthanusualthisyear—I’vebeenroundtosee。Hespokeofalongdaythere,goingbeforelunch——’’TheplanwasmadewithMrOsborneHamley。Icouldnotthinkofgoingwithouthim!’saidMrsGibson,coldly。’Ihadaletterfromhimthismorning,inwhichhenamedyourwish,andhesayshefearshecannotbeathometilltheyareoutofflower。Idaresaytheyarenotmuchtoseeinreality,butthedayissolovelyIthoughtthattheplanofgoingtoHurstWoodwouldbeacharmingexcuseforbeingoutofdoors。’’Thankyou。Howkindyouare!andsogood,too,insacrificingyournaturaldesiretobewithyourfatherasmuchaspossible。’’Iamgladtosaymyfatherissomuchbetterthanhewasinthewinterthathespendsmuchofhistimeoutofdoorsinhisfields。Hehasbeenaccustomedtogoaboutalone,andI—wethinkthatasgreatareturntohisformerhabitsashecanbeinducedtomake,isthebestforhim。’’AndwhendoyoureturntoCambridge?’TherewassomehesitationinRoger’smannerashereplied,—’Itisuncertain。YouprobablyknowthatIamaFellowofTrinitynow。
Ihardlyyetknowwhatmyfutureplansmaybe;IamthinkingofgoinguptoLondonsoon。’’Ah!Londonisthetrueplaceforayoungman,’saidMrsGibson,withdecision,asifshehadreflectedagooddealonthequestion。’Ifitwerenotthatwereallyaresobusythismorning,Ishouldhavebeentemptedtomakeanexceptiontoourgeneralrule;onemoreexception,foryourearlyvisitshavemadeusmaketoomanyalready。Perhaps,however,wemayseeyouagainbeforeyougo?’’CertainlyIshallcome,’repliedhe,risingtotakehisleave,andstillholdingthedemolishedrosesinhishand。Then,addressinghimselfmoreespeciallytoCynthia,headded,’MystayinLondonwillnotexceedafortnightorso—isthereanythingIcandoforyou—oryou?’turningalittletoMolly。’No,thankyouverymuch,’saidCynthia,verysweetly,andthen,actingonasuddenimpulse,sheleantoutofthewindow,andgatheredhimsomehalf—openedroses。’Youdeservethese;dothrowthatpoorshabbybunchaway。’Hiseyesbrightened,hischeeksglowed。Hetooktheofferedbuds,butdidnotthrowawaytheotherbunch。’Atanyrate,Imaycomeafterlunchisover,andtheafternoonsandtheeveningswillbethemostdelicioustimeofdayamonthhence。’HesaidthistobothMollyandCynthia,butinhisheartheaddressedittothelatter。MrsGibsonaffectednottohearwhathewassaying,butheldoutherlimphandoncemoretohim。’Isupposeweshallseeyouwhenyoureturn;andpraytellyourbrotherhowwearelongingtohaveavisitfromhimagain。’Whenhehadlefttheroom,Molly’sheartwasquitefull。Shehadwatchedhisface,andreadsomethingofhisfeelings:hisdisappointmentattheirnon—acquiescenceinhisplanofaday’spleasureinHurstWood,thedelayedconvictionthathispresencewasnotwelcometothewifeofhisoldfriend,whichhadcomesoslowlyuponhim—perhaps,afterall,thesethingstouchedMollymorekeenlythantheydidhim。HisbrightlookwhenCynthiagavehimtherosebudsindicatedagushofsuddendelightmorevividthanthepainhehadshownbyhispreviousincreaseofgravity。’Ican’tthinkwhyhewillcomeatsuchuntimelyhours,’saidMrsGibson,assoonassheheardhimfairlyoutofthehouse。’It’sdifferentfromOsborne;wearesomuchmoreintimatewithhim:hecameandmadefriendswithusallthetimethisstupidbrotherofhiswasmuddlinghisbrainswithmathematicsatCambridge。FellowofTrinity,indeed!Iwishhewouldlearntostaythere,andnotcomeintrudinghere,andassumingthatbecauseIaskedOsbornetojoininapicnicitwasallthesametomewhichbrothercame。’’Inshort,mamma,onemanmaystealahorse,butanothermustnotlookoverthehedge,’saidCynthia,poutingalittle。’Andthetwobrothershavealwaysbeentreatedsoexactlyalikebytheirfriends,andtherehasbeensuchastrongfriendshipbetweenthem,thatitisnowonderRogerthinkshemaybewelcomewhereOsborneisallowedtocomeatallhours,’continuedMolly,inhighdudgeon。