Why,Iamproudtorememberthathehasbeentomeasabrother,andI
lovehimasasister,andIloveyoudoublybecausehehashonouredyouwithhislove。’’Come,that’snotcomplimentary!’saidCynthia,laughing,butnotill—pleasedtohearherlover’spraises,andevenwillingtodepreciatehimalittleinordertohearmore。’He’swellenough,Idaresay,andagreatdealtoolearnedandcleverforastupidgirllikeme;butevenyoumustacknowledgeheisveryplainandawkward;andIlikeprettythingsandprettypeople。’’Cynthia,Iwon’ttalktoyouabouthim。Youknowyoudon’tmeanwhatyouaresaying,andyouonlysayitoutofcontradiction,becauseIpraisehim。Heshan’tberundownbyyou,eveninjoke。’’Well,then,wewon’ttalkofhimatall。Iwassosurprisedwhenhebegantospeak—so——’andCynthialookedverylovely,blushinganddimplingupassherememberedhiswordsandlooks。Suddenlysherecalledherselftothepresenttime,andhereyecaughtontheleaffullofblackberries—thebroadgreenleaf,sofreshandcrispwhenMollyhadgathereditanhourorsoago,butnowsoftandflabby,anddying。Mollysawit,too,andfeltastrangekindofsympatheticpityforthepoorinanimateleaf。’Oh!whatblackberries!you’vegatheredthemforme,Iknow!’saidCynthia,sittingdownandbeginningtofeedherselfdaintily,touchingthemlightlywiththeendsofhertaperfingers,anddroppingeachripeberryintoheropenmouth。Whenshehadeatenabouthalfshestoppedsuddenlyshort。’HowIshouldliketohavegoneasfarasPariswithhim,’sheexclaimed。
’Isupposeitwouldnothavebeenproper;buthowpleasantitwouldhavebeen。IrememberatBoulogne’(anotherblackberry)’howIusedtoenvytheEnglishwhoweregoingtoParis;itseemedtomethenasifnobodystoppedatBoulogne,butdull,stupidschool—girls。’’Whenwillhebethere?’askedMolly。’OnWednesday,hesaid。I’mtowritetohimthere;atanyrateheisgoingtowritetome。’Mollywentabouttheadjustmentofherdressinaquiet,business—likemanner,notspeakingmuch;Cynthia,althoughsittingstill,seemedveryrestless。Oh!howmuchMollywishedthatshewouldgo。’Perhaps,afterall,’saidCynthia,afterapauseofapparentmeditation,’weshallneverbemarried。’’Whydoyousaythat?’saidMolly,almostbitterly。’Youhavenothingtomakeyouthinkso。Iwonderhowyoucanbeartothinkyouwon’t,evenforamoment。’’Oh!’saidCynthia;’youmustnotgoandtakemeaugrandsé;rieux。
IdaresayIdon’tmeanwhatIsay,butyouseeeverythingseemsadreamatpresent。Still,Ithinkthechancesareequal—thechancesforandagainstourmarriage,Imean。Twoyears!it’salongtime;hemaychangehismind,orImay;orsomeoneelsemayturnup,andsayI’mengagedtohim:whatshouldyouthinkofthat,Molly?I’mputtingsuchagloomythingasdeathquiteononeside,yousee;yetintwoyearshowmuchmayhappen。’’Don’ttalkso,Cynthia,pleasedon’t,’saidMolly,piteously。’Onewouldthinkyoudidnotcareforhim,andhecaressomuchforyou!’’Why,didIsayIdidnotcareforhim!Iwasonlycalculatingchances。
IamsureIhopenothingwillhappentopreventthemarriage。Only,youknowitmay,andIthoughtIwastakingastepinwisdom,inlookingforwardtoalltheevilsthatmightbefall。IamsureallthewisepeopleIhaveeverknownthoughtitavirtuetohavegloomyprognosticsofthefuture。
Butyou’renotinamoodforwisdomorvirtue,Isee;soI’llgoandgetreadyfordinner,andleaveyoutoyourvanitiesofdress。’ShetookMolly’sfaceinbothherhands,beforeMollywasawareofherintention,andkisseditplayfully。ThensheleftMollytoherself。
chapter35CHAPTERXXXVTHEMOTHER’SMANOEUVREMrGibsonwasnotathomeatdinner—detainedbysomepatient,mostprobably。
Thiswasnotanunusualoccurrence;butitwasratheranunusualoccurrenceforMrsGibsontogodownintothedining—room,andsitwithhimasheatehisdeferredmealwhenhecameinanhourortwolater。Ingeneral,shepreferredhereasy—chair,orhercornerofthesofa,upstairsinthedrawing—room,thoughitwasveryrarelythatshewouldallowMollytoavailherselfofherstepmother’sneglectedprivilege。Mollywouldfainhavegonedownandkeptherfathercompanyeverynightthathehadthesesolitarymeals;butforpeaceandquietnessshegaveupherownwishesonthesubject。MrsGibsontookaseatbythefireinthedining—room,andpatientlywaitedfortheauspiciousmomentwhenMrGibson,havingsatisfiedhishealthyappetite,turnedfromthetable,andtookhisplacebyherside。Shegotup,andwithunaccustomedattentionshemovedthewineandglassessothathecouldhelphimselfwithoutmovingfromhischair。’There,now!areyoucomfortable?forIhaveagreatpieceofnewstotellyou!’saidshe,whenallwasarranged。’Ithoughttherewassomethingonhand,’saidhe,smiling。’Nowforit!’’RogerHamleyhasbeenherethisafternoontobidusgood—by。’’Good—by!Ishegone?Ididnotknowhewasgoingsosoon!’exclaimedMrGibson。’Yes:nevermind,that’snotit,’’Buttellme;hasheleftthisneighbourhood?Iwantedtohaveseenhim。’’Yes,yes。Heleftloveandregret,andallthatsortofthingforyou。
Nowletmegetonwithmystory:hefoundCynthiaalone,proposedtoher,andwasaccepted。’’Cynthia?Rogerproposedtoher,andsheacceptedhim?’repeatedMrGibson,slowly。’Yes,tobesure。Whynot?youspeakasifitwassomethingsoverysurprising。’’DidI?ButIamsurprised。Heisaveryfineyoungfellow,andIwishCynthiajoy;butdoyoulikeit?Itwillhavetobeaverylongengagement。’’Perhaps,’saidshe,inaknowingmanner。’Atanyratehewillbeawayfortwoyears,’saidMrGibson。’Agreatdealmayhappenintwoyears,’shereplied。’Yes!hewillhavetorunmanyrisks,andgointomanydangers,andwillcomebacknonearertothepowerofmaintainingawifethanwhenhewentout。’’Idon’tknowthat,’shereplied,stillinthearchmannerofonepossessingsuperiorknowledge。’AlittlebirddidtellmethatOsborne’slifeisnotsoverysecure;andthen—whatwillRogerbe?Heirtotheestate。’’WhotoldyouthataboutOsborne?’saidhe,facingrounduponher,andfrighteningherwithhissuddensternnessofvoiceandmanner。Itseemedasifabsolutefirecameoutofhislongdarksunkeneyes。’Whotoldyou,Isay?’Shemadeafaintrallybackintoherformerplayfulness。’Why?canyoudenyit?Isitnotthetruth?’’Iaskyouagain,Hyacinth,whotoldyouthatOsborneHamley’slifeisinmoredangerthanmine—oryours?’’Oh,don’tspeakinthatfrighteningway。Mylifeisnotindanger,I’msure;noryourseither,love,Ihope。’Hegaveanimpatientmovement,andthrewawine—glassoffthetable。Forthemomentshefeltgratefulforthediversion,andbusiedherselfinpickingupthefragments:’bitsofglassweresodangerous,’shesaid。Butshewasstartledbyavoiceofcommand,suchasshehadneveryetheardfromherhusband。’Nevermindtheglass。Iaskyouagain,Hyacinth,whotoldyouanythingaboutOsborneHamley’sstateofhealth?’’IamsureIwishnoharmtohim,andIdaresayheisinverygoodhealth,asyousay,’whisperedshe,atlast。’Whotold——?’beganheagain,sternerthanever。’Well,ifyouwillknow,andwillmakesuchafussaboutit,’saidshe,driventoextremity,’itwasyouyourself—youorDrNicholls,IamsureIforgetwhich。’’Ineverspoketoyouonthesubject,andIdon’tbelieveNichollsdid。
Youhadbettertellmeatoncewhatyouarealludingto,forI’mresolvedI’llhaveitoutbeforeweleavethisroom。’’IwishI’dnevermarriedagain,’shesaid,nowfairlycrying,andlookingroundtheroom,asifinvainsearchforamouse—holeinwhichtohideherself。Then,asifthesightofthedoorintothestore—roomgavehercourage,sheturnedandfacedhim。’Youshouldnottalkyourmedicalsecretssoloudthen,ifyoudon’twantpeopletohearthem。Ihadtogointothestore—roomthatdayDrNichollswashere;cookwantedajarofpreserve,andstoppedmejustasIwasgoingout—Iamsureitwasfornopleasureofmine,forIwassadlyafraidofstickyingmygloves—itwasallthatyoumighthaveacomfortabledinner。’Shelookedasifshewasgoingtocryagain,buthegravelymotionedhertogoon,merelysaying,—’Well!youoverheardourconversation,Isuppose?’’Notmuch,’sheanswered,eagerly,almostrelievedbybeingthishelpedoutinherforcedconfession。’Onlyasentenceortwo。’’Whatwerethey?’heasked。’Why,youhadjustbeensayingsomething,andDrNichollssaid:"Ifhehadgotaneurismoftheaortalhisdaysarenumbered。"’’Well。Anythingmore?’’Yes;yousaid,"IhopetoGodImaybemistaken;butthereisaprettyclearindicationofsymptoms,inmyopinion。"’’HowdoyouknowwewerespeakingofOsborneHamley?’heasked;perhapsinhopesofthrowingheroffthescent。Butassoonassheperceivedthathewasdescendingtoherlevelofsubterfuge,shetookcourage,andsaidinquiteadifferenttonetothecowedonewhichshehadbeenusing,—’Oh!Iknow。IheardhisnamementionedbyyoubothbeforeIbegantolisten。’’Thenyouownyoudidlisten?’’Yes,’saidshe,hesitatingalittlenow。’Andprayhowdoyoucometoremembersoexactlythenameofthediseasespokenof?’’BecauseIwent——nowdon’tbeangry,Ireallycan’tseeanyharminwhatIdid—’’Then,don’tdeprecateanger。Youwent——’’Intothesurgery,andlookeditout。WhymightnotI?’MrGibsondidnotanswer—didnotlookather。Hisfacewasverypale,andbothforeheadandlipswerecontracted。Atlengthherousedhimself,sighed,andsaid,—’Well!Isupposeasonebrewsonemustbake?’’Idon’tunderstandwhatyoumean,’poutedshe。’Perhapsnot,’hereplied。’IsupposethatitwaswhatyouheardonthatoccasionthatmadeyouchangeyourbehaviourtoRogerHamley?Ihavenoticedhowmuchmorecivilyouweretohimoflate。’’IfyoumeanthatIhaveevergottolikehimasmuchasOsborne,youareverymuchmistaken;no,noteventhoughhehasofferedtoCynthia,andistobemyson—in—law。’’Letmeknowthewholeaffair。Youoverheard,—IwillownthatitwasOsborneaboutwhomwewerespeaking,thoughIshallhavesomethingtosayaboutthatpresently—andthen,ifIunderstandyourightly,youchangedyourbehaviourtoRoger,andmadehimmorewelcometothishousethanyouhadeverdonebefore,regardinghimasproximateheirtotheHamleyestates?’’Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanby"proximate。"’’Gointothesurgery,andlookintothedictionarythen,’saidhe,losinghistemperforthefirsttimeduringtheconversation。’Iknew,’saidshethroughsobsandtears,’thatRogerhadtakenafancytoCynthia;anyonemightseethat;andaslongasRogerwasonlyayoungerson,withnoprofession,andnothingbuthisFellowship,Ithoughtitrighttodiscouragehim,asanyonewouldwhohadagrainofcommonsenseinthem;foraclumsier,morecommon,awkward,stupidfellowIneversaw—
tobecalledcounty,Imean。’’Takecare;you’llhavetocatyourwordspresentlywhenyoucometofancyhe’llhaveHamleysomeday。’’No,Ishan’t,’saidshe,notperceivinghisexactdrift。’YouarevexednowbecauseitisnotMollyhe’sinlovewith;andIcallitveryunjustandunfairtomypoorfatherlessgirl。IamsureIhavealwaystriedtofurtherMolly’sinterestsasifshewasmyowndaughter。’MrGibsonwastooindifferenttothisaccusationtotakeanynoticeofit。Hereturnedtowhatwasoffarmoreimportancetohim。’ThepointIwanttobeclearaboutisthis。DidyouordidyounotalteryourbehaviourtoRogerinconsequenceofwhatyouoverheardofmyprofessionalconversationwithDrNicholls?HaveyounotfavouredhissuittoCynthiasincethen,ontheunderstandinggatheredfromthatconversationthathestoodagoodchanceofinheritingHamley?’’IsupposeIdid,’saidshe,sulkily。’AndifIdid,Ican’tseeanyharminit,thatIshouldbequestionedasifIwereinawitness—box。HewasinlovewithCynthialongbeforethatconversation,andshelikedhimsomuch。Itwasnotformetocrossthepathoftruelove。Idon’tseehowyouwouldhaveamotherloveherchildifshemaynotturnaccidentalcircumstancestoheradvantage。PerhapsCynthiamighthavediedifshehadbeencrossedinlove;herpoorfatherwasconsumptive。’’Don’tyouknowthatallprofessionalconversationsareconfidential?ThatitwouldbethemostdishonourablethingpossibleformetobetraysecretswhichIlearnintheexerciseofmyprofession?’’Yes,ofcourse,you。’’Well!andarenotyouandIoneinalltheserespects?Youcannotdoadishonourableactwithoutmybeinginculpatedinthedisgrace。Ifitwouldbeadeepdisgraceformetobetrayaprofessionalsecret,whatwoulditbeformetotradeonthatknowledge?’Hewastryinghardtobepatient;buttheoffencewasofthatclasswhichgalledhiminsupportably。’Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanbytrading。Tradinginadaughter’saffectionsisthelastthingIshoulddo;andIshouldhavethoughtyouwouldberathergladthanotherwisetogetCynthiawellmarried,andoffyourhands。’MrGibsongotup,andwalkedabouttheroom,hishandsinhispockets。
Onceortwicehebegantospeak,buthestoppedimpatientlyshortwithoutgoingon。’Idon’tknowwhattosaytoyou,’hesaidatlength。’Youeithercan’torwon’tseewhatImean。IamgladenoughtohaveCynthiahere。Ihavegivenheratruewelcome,andIsincerelyhopeshewillfindthishouseasmuchahomeasmyowndaughterdoes。ButforthefutureImustlookoutofmydoors,anddouble—locktheapproachesifIamsofoolishasto——However,that’spastandgone;anditremainswithmetopreventitsrecurrenceasfarasIcanforthefuture。Nowletushearthepresentstateofaffairs。’’Idon’tthinkIoughttotellyouanythingaboutit。Itisasecret,justasmuchasyourmysteriesare。’’Verywell;youhavetoldmeenoughformetoactupon,whichImostcertainlyshalldo。ItwasonlytheotherdayIpromisedthesquiretolethimknowifIsuspectedanything—anyloveaffair,orentanglement,muchlessanengagement,betweeneitherofhissonsandourgirls。’’Butthisisnotanengagement;hewouldnotletitbeso;ifyouwouldonlylistentome,Icouldtellyouall。OnlyIdohopeyouwon’tgoandtellthesquireandeverybody。Cynthiadidsobegthatitmightnotbeknown。Itisonlymyunfortunatefranknesshasledmeintothisscrape。
InevercouldkeepasecretfromthosewhomIlove。’’Imusttellthesquire。Ishallnotmentionittoanyoneelse。Anddoyouquitethinkitwasconsistentwithyourgeneralfranknesstohaveoverheardwhatyoudid,andnevertohavementionedittome?IcouldhavetoldyouthenthatDrNicholls’opinionwasdecidedlyopposedtomine,andthathebelievedandbelievesthatthedisturbanceaboutwhichIconsultedhimonOsborne’sbehalfwasmerelytemporary。DrNichollswouldtellyouthatOsborneisaslikelyasanymantoliveandmarryandbegetchildren。’IftherewasanyskillusedbyMrGibsonsotowordthisspeechastoconcealhisownopinion,MrsGibsonwasnotsharpenoughtofinditout。Shewasdismayed,andMrGibsonenjoyedherdismay;itrestoredhimtosomethinglikehisusualframeofmind。’Letusreviewthismisfortune,forIseeyouconsideritassuch,’saidhe。’No,notquiteamisfortune,’saidshe。’ButcertainlyifIhadknownDrNicholls’opinion——’shehesitated。’Youseetheadvantageofalwaysconsultingme,’hecontinuedgravely。
’HereisCynthiaengaged——’’Notengaged,Itoldyoubefore。Hewouldnotallowittobeconsideredanengagementonherpart。’’Well,entangledinaloveaffairwithaladofthree—and—twenty,withnothingbeyondhisfellowshipandachanceofinheritinganencumberedestate;noprofessioneven,abroadfortwoyears,andImustgoandtellhisfatherallaboutitto—morrow。’’Ohdear!Praysaythat,ifhedislikesit,hehasonlytoexpresshisopinion。’’Idon’tthinkyoucanactwithoutCynthiaintheaffair。AndifIamnotmistaken,Cynthiawillhaveaprettystoutwillofherownonthesubject。’’Oh,Idon’tthinkshecaresforhimverymuch;sheisnotonetobealwaysfallinginlove,andshedoesnottakethingsverydeeplytoheart。Butofcourseonewouldnotdoanythingabruptly;twoyears’absencegivesoneplentyoftimetoturnoneselfin。’’ButalittlewhileagowewerethreatenedwithconsumptionandanearlydeathifCynthia’saffectionswerethwarted。’’Oh,youdearcreature,howyourememberallmysillywords!Itmightbe,youknow。PoordearMrKirkpatrickwasconsumptive,andCynthiamayhaveinheritedit,andagreatsorrowmightbringoutthelatentseeds。AttimesIamsofearful。ButIdaresayitisnotprobable,forIdon’tthinkshetakesthingsverydeeplytoheart。’’ThenIamquiteatlibertytogiveuptheaffair,actingasCynthia’sproxy,ifthesquiredisapprovesofit?’PoorMrsGibsonwasinastraitatthisquestion。’No!’shesaidatlast。’Wecannotgiveitup。IamsureCynthiawouldnot;especiallyifshethoughtotherswereactingforher。Andhereallyisverymuchinlove。IwishhewereinOsborne’splace。’’ShallItellyouwhatIshoulddo?’saidMrGibson,inrealearnest。’Howeveritmayhavebeenbroughtabout,herearetwoyoungpeopleinlovewitheachother。Oneisasfineayoungfellowaseverbreathed;theotheraverypretty,lively,agreeablegirl。Thefatheroftheyoungmanmustbetold,anditismostlikelyhewillblusterandoppose;forthereisnodoubtitisanimprudentaffairasfarasmoneygoes。Butletthembesteadyandpatient,andabetterlotneedawaitnoyoungwoman。IonlywishitwereMolly’sgoodfortunetomeetwithsuchanother。’’Iwilltryforher;Iwillindeed,’saidMrsGibson,relievedbyhischangeoftone。’No,don’t。That’sonethingIforbid。I’llhaveno"trying"forMolly。’’Well,don’tbeangry,dear!DoyouknowIwasquiteafraidyouweregoingtoloseyourtemperatonetime!’’Itwouldhavebeenofnouse!’saidhe,gloomily,gettingupasiftoclosethesitting。Hiswifewasonlytoogladtomakeherescape。Theconjugalinterviewhadnotbeensatisfactorytoeither。MrGibsonhadbeencompelledtofaceandacknowledgethefactthatthewifehehadchosenhadaverydifferentstandardofconducttothatwhichhehadupheldallhislife,andhadhopedtohaveseeninculcatedinhisdaughter。Hewasmoreirritatedthanhechosetoshow;fortherewassomuchofself—reproachinhisirritationthathekeptthefeelingtohimself,broodedoverit,andallowedafeelingofsuspiciousdissatisfactionwithhiswifetogrowupinhismind,whichextendeditselfby—and—bytotheinnocentCynthia,andcausedhismannertobothmotheranddaughtertoassumeacertaincurtseverity,whichtookthelatteratanyratewithextremesurprise。Butonthepresentoccasionhefollowedhiswifeuptothedrawing—room,andgravelycongratulatedtheastonishedCynthia。’Hasmammatoldyou?’saidshe,shootinganindignantglanceathermother。
’Itishardlyanengagement;andweallpledgedourselvestokeepitasecret,mammaamongtherest!’’But,mydearestCynthia,youcouldnotexpect—youcouldnothavewishedmetokeepasecretfrommyhusband?’pleadedMrsGibson。’No,perhapsnot。Atanyrate,sir,’saidCynthia,turningtowardshimwithgracefulfrankness,’Iamgladyoushouldknowit。Youhavealwaysbeenamostkindfriendtome,andIdaresayIshouldhavetoldyoumyself,butIdidnotwantitnamed;ifyouplease,itmuststillbeasecret。
Infact,itishardlyanengagement—he’(sheblushedandsparkledalittleattheeuphuism,whichimpliedthattherewasbutone’he’presentinherthoughtsatthemoment)’wouldnotallowmetobindmyselfbyanypromiseuntilhisreturn!’MrGibsonlookedgravelyather,irresponsivetoherwinninglooks,whichatthemomentremindedhimtooforciblyofhermother’sways。Thenhetookherhand,andsaid,seriouslyenough,—’Ihopeyouareworthyofhim,Cynthia,foryouhaveindeeddrawnaprize。
IhaveneverknownatruerorwarmerheartthanRoger’s;andIhaveknownhimboyandman。’Mollyfeltasifshecouldhavethankedherfatheraloudforthistestimonytothevalueofhimwhowasgoneaway。ButCynthiapoutedalittlebeforeshesmiledupinhisface。’Youarenotcomplimentary,areyou,MrGibson?’saidshe。’Hethinksmeworthy,Isuppose;andifyouhavesohighanopinionofhim,yououghttorespecthisjudgmentofme。’Ifshehopedtoprovokeacompliment,shewasdisappointed,forMrGibsonletgoofherhandinanabsentmanner,andsatedowninaneasychairbythefire,gazingatthewoodembersasifhopingtoreadthefutureinthem。MollysawCynthia’seyesfillwithtears,andfollowedhertotheotherendoftheroom,whereshehadgonetoseeksomeworkingmaterials。’DearCynthia,’wasallshesaid;butshepressedherhandwhiletryingtoassistinthesearch。’Oh,Molly,Iamsofondofyourfather;whatmakeshimspeaksotometo—night?’’Idon’tknow,’saidMolly;’perhapshe’stired。’TheywererecalledfromfurtherconversationbyMrGibson。Hehadrousedhimselffromhisreverie,andwasnowaddressingCynthia。’Ihopeyouwillnotconsideritabreachofconfidence,Cynthia,butI
musttellthesquireof—ofwhathastakenplaceto—daybetweenyouandhisson。Ihaveboundmyselfbyapromisetohim。Hewasafraid—it’saswelltotellyouthetruth—hewasafraid’(anemphasisonthislastword)’ofsomethingofthiskindbetweenhissonsandoneofyoutwogirls。
ItwasonlytheotherdayIassuredhimtherewasnothingofthekindonfoot;andItoldhimthenIwouldinformhimatonceifIsawanysymptoms。’Cynthialookedextremelyannoyed。’ItwastheonethingIstipulatedfor—secrecy。’’Butwhy?’saidMrGibson。’Icanunderstandyournotwishingtohaveitmadepublicunderthepresentcircumstances。Butthenearestfriendsonbothsides!Surelyyoucanhavenoobjectiontothat?’’Yes,Ihave,’saidCynthia;’IwouldnothavehadanyoneknowifIcouldhavehelpedit。’’IamalmostcertainRogerwilltellhisfather。’’No,hewon’t,’saidCynthia;’Imadehimpromise,andIthinkheisonetorespectapromise’—withaglanceathermother,who,feelingherselfindisgracewithbothhusbandandchild,waskeepingajudicioussilence。’Well,atanyrate,thestorywouldcomewithsomuchbetteragracefromhimthatIshallgivehimthechance;Iwon’tgoovertotheHalltilltheendoftheweek;hemayhavewrittenandtoldhisfatherbeforethen。’Cynthiaheldhertongueforalittlewhile。Thenshesaid,withtearfulpettishness,—’Aman’spromiseistooverrideawoman’swishthen,isit?’’Idon’tseeanyreasonwhyitshouldnot。’’WillyoutrustinmyreasonswhenItellyouitwillcausemeagreatdealofdistressifitgetsknown?’Shesaidthisinsopleadingavoice,thatifMrGibsonhadnotbeenthoroughlydispleasedandannoyedbyhispreviousconversationwithhermother,hemusthaveyieldedtoher。Asitwas,hesaidcoldly,—’TellingRoger’sfatherisnotmakingitpublic。
Idon’tlikethisexaggerateddesireforsuchsecrecy,Cynthia。Itseemstomeasifsomethingmorethanwasapparentwasconcealedbehindit。’’Come,Molly,’saidCynthia,suddenly;’letussingthatduetI’vebeenteachingyou;it’sbetterthantalkingaswearedoing。’ItwasalittlelivelyFrenchduet。Mollysangitcarelessly,withheavinessatherheart;butCynthiasangitwithspiritandapparentmerriment;onlyshebrokedowninhystericsatlast,andflewupstairstoherownroom。
Molly,heedingnothingelse—neitherherfathernorMrsGibson’swords—followedher,andfoundthedoorofherbedroomlocked,andforallreplytoherentreatiestobeallowedtocomein,sheheardCynthiasobbingandcrying。ItwasmorethanaweekaftertheincidentslastrecordedbeforeMrGibsonfoundhimselfatlibertytocallonthesquire;andheheartilyhopedthatlongbeforethen,Roger’slettermighthavearrivedfromParis,tellinghisfatherthewholestory。Buthesawatthefirstglancethatthesquirehadheardnothingunusualtodisturbhisequanimity。Hewaslookingbetterthanhehaddoneformonthspast;thelightofhopewasinhiseyes,hisfaceseemedofahealthyruddycolour,gainedpartlybyhisresumptionofout—of—dooremploymentinthesuperintendenceoftheworks,andpartlybecausethehappinesshehadlatelyhadthroughRoger’smeans,causedhisbloodtoflowwithregularvigour。HehadfeltRoger’sgoingaway,itistrue;butwheneverthesorrowofpartingwithhimpressedtooheavilyuponhim,hefilledhispipe,andsmokeditoutoveralong,slow,deliberatereperusalofLordHollingford’sletter,everywordofwhichheknewbyheart;butexpressionsinwhichhemadeapretencetohimselfofdoubting,thathemighthaveanexcuseforlookingathisson’spraisesonceagain。
Thefirstgreetingsover,MrGibsonplungedintohissubject。’AnynewsfromRogeryet?’’Oh,yes;here’shisletter,’saidthesquire,producingletsblackleathercase,inwhichRoger’smissivehadbeenplacedalongwiththeotherveryheterogeneouscontents。MrGibsonreadit,hardlyseeingthewordsafterhehadbyonerapidglanceassuredhimselfthattherewasnomentionofCynthiainit。’Hum!Iseehedoesnotnameoneveryimportanteventthathasbefallenhimsinceheleftyou,’saidMrGibson,seizingonthefirstwordsthatcame。’IbelieveI’mcommittingabreachofconfidenceononeside。butI’mgoingtokeepthepromiseImadethelasttimeIwashere。Ifindthereissomething—somethingofthekindyouapprehended—youunderstand—
betweenhimandmystep—daughter,CynthiaKirkpatrick。Hecalledatourhousetowishusgood—by,whilewaitingfortheLondoncoach,foundheralone,andspoketoher。Theydon’tcallitanengagement,butofcourseitisone。’’Givemebacktheletter,’saidthesquire,inaconstrainedkindofvoice。
Thenhereaditagain,asifhehadnotpreviouslymastereditscontents,andasiftheremightbesomesentenceorsentenceshehadoverlooked。’No!’hesaidatlast,withasigh。’Hetellsmenothingaboutit。Ladsmayplayatconfidenceswiththeirfathers,buttheykeepadealback。’
ThesquireappearedmoredisappointedatnothavingheardofthisstraightfromRogerthandispleasedatthefactitself,MrGibsonthought。Buthelethimtakehistime。’He’snottheeldestson,’continuedthesquire,talkingasitweretohimself。’Butit’snotthematchIshouldhaveplannedforhim。Howcameyou,sir,’saidhe,firingroundonMrGibson,suddenly—’tosaywhenyouwerelasthere,thattherewasnothingbetweenmysonsandeitherofyourgirls?Why,thismusthavebeengoingonallthetime!’’Iamafraiditwas。ButIwasasignorantaboutitasthebabeunborn。
IonlyheardofitontheeveningofthedayofRoger’sdeparture。’’Andthat’saweekago,sir。What’skeptyouquieteversince?’’IthoughtthatRogerwouldtellyouhimself。’’Thatshowsyou’venosons。Morethanhalftheirlifeisunknowntotheirfathers。Why,Osbornethere,welivetogether—that’stosay,wehaveourmealstogether,andwesleepunderthesameroof—andyet—Well!
well!lifeisasGodhasmadeit。Yousayit’snotanengagementyet?ButIwonderwhatI’mdoing?Hopingformylad’sdisappointmentinthefollyhe’ssethishearton—andjustwhenhe’sbeenhelpingme。Isitafolly,orisitnot?Iaskyou,Gibson,foryoumustknowthisgirl。Shehasnotmuchmoney,Isuppose?’’Aboutthirtypoundsayear,atmypleasureduringhermother’slife。’’Whew!It’swellhe’snotOsborne。They’llhavetowait。Whatfamilyissheof?Noneof’emintrade,Ireckon,fromherbeingsopoor?’’IbelieveherfatherwasgrandsonofacertainSirGeraldKirkpatrick。
Hermothertellsmeitisanoldbaronetcy。Iknownothingofsuchthings。’’That’ssomething。Idoknowsomethingofsuchthings,asyouarepleasedtocallthem。Ilikehonourableblood。’MrGibsoncouldnothelpsaying,’ButI’mafraidthatonlyone—eighthofCynthia’sbloodishonourable;Iknownothingfurtherofherrelationsexceptingthefactthatherfatherwasacurate。’’Professional,That’sastepabovetradeatanyrate。Howoldisshe?’’Eighteenornineteen。’’Pretty?’’Yes,Ithinkso;mostpeopledo;butitisallamatteroftaste。Come,squire,judgeforyourself。Rideoverandtakelunchwithusanydayyoulike。Imaynotbein;buthermotherwillbethere,andyoucanmakeacquaintancewithyourson’sfuturewife。’Thiswasgoingtoofast,however;presumingtoomuchonthequietnesswithwhichthesquirehadbeenquestioninghim。MrHamleydrewbackwithinhisshell,andspokeinasurlymannerashereplied,—’Roger’s"futurewife!"—He’llbewiserbythetimehecomeshome。Twoyearsamongtheblackfolkwillhaveputmoresenseinhim。’’Possible,butnotprobable,Ishouldsay,’repliedMrGibson。’Blackfolkarenotremarkablefortheirpowersofreasoning,Ibelieve,sothattheyhavenotmuchchanceofalteringhisopinionbyargument,evenifthey