Itwasmuffledbydistance,butthatcouldnottaketheterroroutofit,anditwasthemostdreadfulsoundtomethatIhadeverheard.Itwentallabout,everywhere,downthere:alongthehalls,throughalltherooms,inbothstories,andinthebasementandthecellar;thenoutside,andfartherandfartheraway——thenback,andallaboutthehouseagain,andIthoughtitwouldnever,neverstop.Butatlastitdid,hoursandhoursafterthevaguetwilightofthegarrethadlongagobeenblottedoutbyblackdarkness.
Theninthatblessedstillnessmyterrorsfelllittlebylittleaway,andIwasatpeaceandslept.ItwasagoodrestIhad,butIwokebeforethetwilighthadcomeagain.Iwasfeelingfairlycomfortable,andI
couldthinkoutaplannow.Imadeaverygoodone;whichwas,tocreepdown,allthewaydownthebackstairs,andhidebehindthecellardoor,andslipoutandescapewhentheicemancameatdawn,whilehewasinsidefillingtherefrigerator;thenIwouldhideallday,andstartonmyjourneywhennightcame;myjourneyto——well,anywherewheretheywouldnotknowmeandbetraymetothemaster.Iwasfeelingalmostcheerfulnow;thensuddenlyIthought:Why,whatwouldlifebewithoutmypuppy!
Thatwasdespair.Therewasnoplanforme;Isawthat;ImustsaywhereIwas;stay,andwait,andtakewhatmightcome——itwasnotmyaffair;
thatwaswhatlifeis——mymotherhadsaidit.Then——well,thenthecallingbeganagain!Allmysorrowscameback.Isaidtomyself,themasterwillneverforgive.IdidnotknowwhatIhaddonetomakehimsobitterandsounforgiving,yetIjudgeditwassomethingadogcouldnotunderstand,butwhichwascleartoamananddreadful.
Theycalledandcalled——daysandnights,itseemedtome.Solongthatthehungerandthirstneardrovememad,andIrecognizedthatIwasgettingveryweak.Whenyouarethiswayyousleepagreatdeal,andI
did.OnceIwokeinanawfulfright——itseemedtomethatthecallingwasrightthereinthegarret!Andsoitwas:itwasSadie'svoice,andshewascrying;mynamewasfallingfromherlipsallbroken,poorthing,andIcouldnotbelievemyearsforthejoyofitwhenIheardhersay:
"Comebacktous——oh,comebacktous,andforgive——itisallsosadwithoutour——"
IbrokeinwithSUCHagratefullittleyelp,andthenextmomentSadiewasplungingandstumblingthroughthedarknessandthelumberandshoutingforthefamilytohear,"She'sfound,she'sfound!"
Thedaysthatfollowed——well,theywerewonderful.ThemotherandSadieandtheservants——why,theyjustseemedtoworshipme.Theycouldn'tseemtomakemeabedthatwasfineenough;andasforfood,theycouldn'tbesatisfiedwithanythingbutgameanddelicaciesthatwereoutofseason;andeverydaythefriendsandneighborsflockedintohearaboutmyheroism——thatwasthenametheycalleditby,anditmeansagriculture.Iremembermymotherpullingitonakennelonce,andexplainingitinthatway,butdidn'tsaywhatagriculturewas,exceptthatitwassynonymouswithintramuralincandescence;andadozentimesadayMrs.GrayandSadiewouldtellthetaletonew—comers,andsayI
riskedmylifetosaythebaby's,andbothofushadburnstoproveit,andthenthecompanywouldpassmearoundandpetmeandexclaimaboutme,andyoucouldseetheprideintheeyesofSadieandhermother;andwhenthepeoplewantedtoknowwhatmademelimp,theylookedashamedandchangedthesubject,andsometimeswhenpeoplehuntedthemthiswayandthatwaywithquestionsaboutit,itlookedtomeasiftheyweregoingtocry.
Andthiswasnotalltheglory;no,themaster'sfriendscame,awholetwentyofthemostdistinguishedpeople,andhadmeinthelaboratory,anddiscussedmeasifIwasakindofdiscovery;andsomeofthemsaiditwaswonderfulinadumbbeast,thefinestexhibitionofinstincttheycouldcalltomind;butthemastersaid,withvehemence,"It'sfaraboveinstinct;it'sREASON,andmanyaman,privilegedtobesavedandgowithyouandmetoabetterworldbyrightofitspossession,haslessofitthatthispoorsillyquadrupedthat'sforeordainedtoperish";andthenhelaughed,andsaid:"Why,lookatme——I'masarcasm!blessyou,withallmygrandintelligence,theonlythinkIinferredwasthatthedoghadgonemadandwasdestroyingthechild,whereasbutforthebeast'sintelligence——it'sREASON,Itellyou!——thechildwouldhaveperished!"
Theydisputedanddisputed,andIwastheverycenterofsubjectofitall,andIwishedmymothercouldknowthatthisgrandhonorhadcometome;itwouldhavemadeherproud.