Geraldwincedinspirit,seeinghersobeautifulandunknown。Shewaswearingasoftbluedress,andherstockingswereofdarkred。
  Winifredadvancedwithodd,statelyformality。
  `Wearesogladyou'vecomeback,'shesaid。`Theseareyourflowers。'
  Shepresentedthebouquet。
  `Mine!'criedGudrun。Shewassuspendedforamoment,thenavividflushwentoverher,shewasasifblindedforamomentwithaflameofpleasure。
  Thenhereyes,strangeandflaming,liftedandlookedatthefather,andatGerald。AndagainGeraldshrankinspirit,asifitwouldbemorethanhecouldbear,asherhot,exposedeyesrestedonhim。Therewassomethingsorevealed,shewasrevealedbeyondbearing,tohiseyes。Heturnedhisfaceaside。Andhefelthewouldnotbeabletoaverther。Andhewrithedundertheimprisonment。
  Gudrunputherfaceintotheflowers。
  `Buthowbeautifultheyare!'shesaid,inamuffledvoice。Then,withastrange,suddenlyrevealedpassion,shestoopedandkissedWinifred。
  MrCrichwentforwardwithhishandheldouttoher。
  `Iwasafraidyouweregoingtorunawayfromus,'hesaid,playfully。
  Gudrunlookedupathimwithaluminous,roguish,unknownface。
  `Really!'shereplied。`No,Ididn'twanttostayinLondon。'HervoiceseemedtoimplythatshewasgladtogetbacktoShortlands,hertonewaswarmandsubtlycaressing。
  `Thatisagoodthing,'smiledthefather。`Youseeyouareverywelcomehereamongus。'
  Gudrunonlylookedintohisfacewithdark—blue,warm,shyeyes。Shewasunconsciouslycarriedawaybyherownpower。
  `Andyoulookasifyoucamehomeineverypossibletriumph,'MrCrichcontinued,holdingherhand。
  `No,'shesaid,glowingstrangely。`Ihaven'thadanytriumphtillI
  camehere。'
  `Ah,come,come!We'renotgoingtohearanyofthosetales。Haven'twereadnoticesinthenewspaper,Gerald?'
  `Youcameoffprettywell,'saidGeraldtoher,shakinghands。`Didyousellanything?'
  `No,'shesaid,`notmuch。'
  `Justaswell,'hesaid。
  Shewonderedwhathemeant。Butshewasallaglowwithherreception,carriedawaybythislittleflatteringceremonialonherbehalf。
  `Winifred,'saidthefather,`haveyouapairofshoesforMissBrangwen?
  Youhadbetterchangeatonce——'
  Gudrunwentoutwithherbouquetinherhand。
  `Quitearemarkableyoungwoman,'saidthefathertoGerald,whenshehadgone。
  `Yes,'repliedGeraldbriefly,asifhedidnotliketheobservation。
  MrCrichlikedGudruntositwithhimforhalfanhour。Usuallyhewasashyandwretched,withallthelifegnawedoutofhim。Butassoonasherallied,helikedtomakebelievethathewasjustasbefore,quitewellandinthemidstoflife——notoftheouterworld,butinthemidstofastrongessentiallife。Andtothisbelief,Gudruncontributedperfectly。
  Withher,hecouldgetbystimulationthoseprecioushalf—hoursofstrengthandexaltationandpurefreedom,whenheseemedtolivemorethanhehadeverlived。
  Shecametohimashelayproppedupinthelibrary。Hisfacewaslikeyellowwax,hiseyesdarkened,asitweresightless。Hisblackbeard,nowstreakedwithgrey,seemedtospringoutofthewaxyfleshofacorpse。
  Yettheatmosphereabouthimwasenergeticandplayful。Gudrunsubscribedtothis,perfectly。Toherfancy,hewasjustanordinaryman。Onlyhisratherterribleappearancewasphotographeduponhersoul,awaybeneathherconsciousness。Sheknewthat,inspiteofhisplayfulness,hiseyescouldnotchangefromtheirdarkenedvacancy,theyweretheeyesofamanwhoisdead。
  `Ah,thisisMissBrangwen,'hesaid,suddenlyrousingassheentered,announcedbytheman—servant。`Thomas,putMissBrangwenachairhere——
  that'sright。'Helookedathersoft,freshfacewithpleasure。Itgavehimtheillusionoflife。`Now,youwillhaveaglassofsherryandalittlepieceofcake。Thomas——'
  `Nothankyou,'saidGudrun。Andassoonasshehadsaidit,herheartsankhorribly。Thesickmanseemedtofallintoagapofdeath,athercontradiction。Sheoughttoplayuptohim,nottocontravenehim。Inaninstantshewassmilingherratherroguishsmile。
  `Idon'tlikesherryverymuch,'shesaid。`ButIlikealmostanythingelse。'
  Thesickmancaughtatthisstrawinstantly。
  `Notsherry!No!Somethingelse!Whatthen?Whatisthere,Thomas?'
  `Portwine——curacao——'
  `Iwouldlovesomecuracao——'saidGudrun,lookingatthesickmanconfidingly。
  `Youwould。WellthenThomas,curacao——andalittlecake,orabiscuit?'
  `Abiscuit,'saidGudrun。Shedidnotwantanything,butshewaswise。
  `Yes。'
  Hewaitedtillshewassettledwithherlittleglassandherbiscuit。
  Thenhewassatisfied。
  `Youhaveheardtheplan,'hesaidwithsomeexcitement,`forastudioforWinifred,overthestables?'
  `No!'exclaimedGudrun,inmockwonder。
  `Oh!——IthoughtWinniewroteittoyou,inherletter!'
  `Oh——yes——ofcourse。ButIthoughtperhapsitwasonlyherownlittleidea——'Gudrunsmiledsubtly,indulgently。Thesickmansmiledalso,elated。
  `Ohno。Itisarealproject。Thereisagoodroomundertheroofofthestables——withslopingrafters。Wehadthoughtofconvertingitintoastudio。'
  `Howverynicethatwouldbe!'criedGudrun,withexcitedwarmth。
  Thethoughtoftheraftersstirredher。
  `Youthinkitwould?Well,itcanbedone。'
  `ButhowperfectlysplendidforWinifred!Ofcourse,itisjustwhatisneeded,ifsheistoworkatallseriously。Onemusthaveone'sworkshop,otherwiseoneneverceasestobeanamateur。'
  `Isthatso?Yes。Ofcourse,IshouldlikeyoutoshareitwithWinifred。'
  `Thankyousomuch。'
  Gudrunknewallthesethingsalready,butshemustlookshyandverygrateful,asifovercome。
  `Ofcourse,whatIshouldlikebest,wouldbeifyoucouldgiveupyourworkattheGrammarSchool,andjustavailyourselfofthestudio,andworkthere——well,asmuchoraslittleasyouliked——'
  HelookedatGudrunwithdark,vacanteyes。Shelookedbackathimasiffullofgratitude。Thesephrasesofadyingmanweresocompleteandnatural,cominglikeechoesthroughhisdeadmouth。
  `Andastoyourearnings——youdon'tmindtakingfrommewhatyouhavetakenfromtheEducationCommittee,doyou?Idon'twantyoutobealoser。'
  `Oh,'saidGudrun,`ifIcanhavethestudioandworkthere,Icanearnmoneyenough,reallyIcan。'
  `Well,'hesaid,pleasedtobethebenefactor,`wecanseeaboutallthat。Youwouldn'tmindspendingyourdayshere?'
  `Iftherewereastudiotoworkin,'saidGudrun,`Icouldaskfornothingbetter。'
  `Isthatso?'
  Hewasreallyverypleased。Butalreadyhewasgettingtired。Shecouldseethegrey,awfulsemi—consciousnessofmerepainanddissolutioncomingoverhimagain,thetorturecomingintothevacancyofhisdarkenedeyes。
  Itwasnotoveryet,thisprocessofdeath。Sherosesoftlysaying:
  `Perhapsyouwillsleep。ImustlookforWinifred。'
  Shewentout,tellingthenursethatshehadlefthim。Daybydaythetissueofthesickmanwasfurtherandfurtherreduced,nearerandnearertheprocesscame,towardsthelastknotwhichheldthehumanbeinginitsunity。Butthisknotwashardandunrelaxed,thewillofthedyingmannevergaveway。Hemightbedeadinnine—tenths,yettheremainingtenthremainedunchanged,tillittoowastornapart。Withhiswillheheldtheunitofhimselffirm,butthecircleofhispowerwaseverandeverreduced,itwouldbereducedtoapointatlast,thensweptaway。
  Toadheretolife,hemustadheretohumanrelationships,andhecaughtateverystraw。Winifred,thebutler,thenurse,Gudrun,thesewerethepeoplewhomeantalltohim,intheselastresources。Gerald,inhisfather'spresence,stiffenedwithrepulsion。Itwasso,toalessdegree,withalltheotherchildrenexceptWinifred。Theycouldnotseeanythingbutthedeath,whentheylookedattheirfather。Itwasasifsomesubterraneandislikeovercamethem。Theycouldnotseethefamiliarface,hearthefamiliarvoice。Theywereoverwhelmedbytheantipathyofvisibleandaudibledeath。
  Geraldcouldnotbreatheinhisfather'spresence。Hemustgetoutatonce。
  Andso,inthesameway,thefathercouldnotbearthepresenceofhisson。Itsentafinalirritationthroughthesoulofthedyingman。
  Thestudiowasmadeready,GudrunandWinifredmovedin。Theyenjoyedsomuchtheorderingandtheappointingofit。Andnowtheyneedhardlybeinthehouseatall。Theyhadtheirmealsinthestudio,theylivedtheresafely。Forthehousewasbecomingdreadful。Thereweretwonursesinwhite,flittingsilentlyabout,likeheraldsofdeath。Thefatherwasconfinedtohisbed,therewasacomeandgoofsotto—vocesistersandbrothersandchildren。
  Winifredwasherfather'sconstantvisitor。Everymorning,afterbreakfast,shewentintohisroomwhenhewaswashedandproppedupinbed,tospendhalfanhourwithhim。
  `Areyoubetter,Daddie?'sheaskedhiminvariably。
  Andinvariablyheanswered:
  `Yes,IthinkI'malittlebetter,pet。'
  Sheheldhishandinbothherown,lovinglyandprotectively。Andthiswasverydeartohim。
  Sheraninagainasaruleatlunchtime,totellhimthecourseofevents,andeveryevening,whenthecurtainsweredrawn,andhisroomwascosy,shespentalongtimewithhim。Gudrunwasgonehome,Winifredwasaloneinthehouse:shelikedbesttobewithherfather。Theytalkedandprattledatrandom,healwaysasifhewerewell,justthesameaswhenhewasgoingabout。SothatWinifred,withachild'ssubtleinstinctforavoidingthepainfulthings,behavedasifnothingseriouswasthematter。
  Instinctively,shewithheldherattention,andwashappy。Yetinherremotersoul,sheknewaswellastheadultsknew:perhapsbetter。
  Herfatherwasquitewellinhismake—beliefwithher。Butwhenshewentaway,herelapsedunderthemiseryofhisdissolution。Butstilltherewerethesebrightmoments,thoughashisstrengthwaned,hisfacultyforattentiongrewweaker,andthenursehadtosendWinifredaway,tosavehimfromexhaustion。
  Heneveradmittedthathewasgoingtodie。Heknewitwasso,heknewitwastheend。Yeteventohimselfhedidnotadmitit。Hehatedthefact,mortally。Hiswillwasrigid。Hecouldnotbearbeingovercomebydeath。
  Forhim,therewasnodeath。Andyet,attimes,hefeltagreatneedtocryoutandtowailandcomplain。HewouldhavelikedtocryaloudtoGerald,sothathissonshouldbehorrifiedoutofhiscomposure。Geraldwasinstinctivelyawareofthis,andherecoiled,toavoidanysuchthing。Thisuncleannessofdeathrepelledhimtoomuch。Oneshoulddiequickly,liketheRomans,oneshouldbemasterofone'sfateindyingasinliving。Hewasconvulsedintheclaspofthisdeathofhisfather's,asinthecoilsofthegreatserpentofLaocoon。Thegreatserpenthadgotthefather,andthesonwasdraggedintotheembraceofhorrifyingdeathalongwithhim。Heresistedalways。Andinsomestrangeway,hewasatowerofstrengthtohisfather。
  ThelasttimethedyingmanaskedtoseeGudrunhewasgreywithneardeath。Yethemustseesomeone,hemust,intheintervalsofconsciousness,catchintoconnectionwiththelivingworld,lestheshouldhavetoaccepthisownsituation。Fortunatelyhewasmostofhistimedazedandhalfgone。
  Andhespentmanyhoursdimlythinkingofthepast,asitwere,dimlyre—livinghisoldexperiences。Butthereweretimeseventotheendwhenhewascapableofrealisingwhatwashappeningtohiminthepresent,thedeaththatwasonhim。Andthesewerethetimeswhenhecalledinoutsidehelp,nomatterwhose。Fortorealisethisdeaththathewasdyingwasadeathbeyonddeath,nevertobeborne。Itwasanadmissionnevertobemade。
  Gudrunwasshockedbyhisappearance,andbythedarkened,almostdisintegratedeyes,thatstillwereunconqueredandfirm。
  `Well,'hesaidinhisweakenedvoice,`andhowareyouandWinifredgettingon?'
  `Oh,verywellindeed,'repliedGudrun。
  Therewereslightdeadgapsintheconversation,asiftheideascalledupwereonlyelusivestrawsfloatingonthedarkchaosofthesickman'sdying。
  `Thestudioanswersallright?'hesaid。
  `Splendid。Itcouldn'tbemorebeautifulandperfect,'saidGudrun。
  Shewaitedforwhathewouldsaynext。
  `AndyouthinkWinifredhasthemakingsofasculptor?'
  Itwasstrangehowhollowthewordswere,meaningless。
  `I'msureshehas。Shewilldogoodthingsoneday。'
  `Ah!Thenherlifewon'tbealtogetherwasted,youthink?'
  Gudrunwasrathersurprised。
  `Sureitwon't!'sheexclaimedsoftly。
  `That'sright。'
  AgainGudrunwaitedforwhathewouldsay。
  `Youfindlifepleasant,itisgoodtolive,isn'tit?'heasked,withapitifulfaintsmilethatwasalmosttoomuchforGudrun。
  `Yes,'shesmiled——shewouldlieatrandom——`IgetaprettygoodtimeIbelieve。'
  `That'sright。Ahappynatureisagreatasset。'
  AgainGudrunsmiled,thoughhersoulwasdrywithrepulsion。Didonehavetodielikethis——havingthelifeextractedforciblyfromone,whilstonesmiledandmadeconversationtotheend?Wastherenootherway?Mustonegothroughallthehorrorofthisvictoryoverdeath,thetriumphoftheintegralwill,thatwouldnotbebrokentillitdisappearedutterly?
  Onemust,itwastheonlyway。Sheadmiredtheself—possessionandthecontrolofthedyingmanexceedingly。Butsheloathedthedeathitself。
  Shewasgladtheeverydayworldheldgood,andsheneednotrecogniseanythingbeyond。
  `Youarequiteallrighthere?——nothingwecandoforyou?——nothingyoufindwronginyourposition?'
  `Exceptthatyouaretoogoodtome,'saidGudrun。
  `Ah,well,thefaultofthatlieswithyourself,'hesaid,andhefeltalittleexultation,thathehadmadethisspeech。
  Hewasstillsostrongandliving!Butthenauseaofdeathbegantocreepbackonhim,inreaction。
  Gudrunwentaway,backtoWinifred。Mademoisellehadleft,GudrunstayedagooddealatShortlands,andatutorcameintocarryonWinifred'seducation。
  Buthedidnotliveinthehouse,hewasconnectedwiththeGrammarSchool。
  Oneday,GudrunwastodrivewithWinifredandGeraldandBirkintotown,inthecar。Itwasadark,showeryday。WinifredandGudrunwerereadyandwaitingatthedoor。Winifredwasveryquiet,butGudrunhadnotnoticed。Suddenlythechildasked,inavoiceofunconcern:
  `Doyouthinkmyfather'sgoingtodie,MissBrangwen?'
  Gudrunstarted。
  `Idon'tknow,'shereplied。
  `Don'tyoutruly?'
  `Nobodyknowsforcertain。Hemaydie,ofcourse。'
  Thechildponderedafewmoments,thensheasked:
  `Butdoyouthinkhewilldie?'
  Itwasputalmostlikeaquestioningeographyorscience,insistent,asifshewouldforceanadmissionfromtheadult。Thewatchful,slightlytriumphantchildwasalmostdiabolical。
  `DoIthinkhewilldie?'repeatedGudrun。`Yes,Ido。'
  ButWinifred'slargeeyeswerefixedonher,andthegirldidnotmove。
  `Heisveryill,'saidGudrun。
  AsmallsmilecameoverWinifred'sface,subtleandsceptical。
  `Idon'tbelievehewill,'thechildasserted,mockingly,andshemovedawayintothedrive。Gudrunwatchedtheisolatedfigure,andherheartstoodstill。Winifredwasplayingwithalittlerivuletofwater,absorbedlyasifnothinghadbeensaid。
  `I'vemadeaproperdam,'shesaid,outofthemoistdistance。
  Geraldcametothedoorfromoutofthehallbehind。
  `Itisjustaswellshedoesn'tchoosetobelieveit,'hesaid。
  Gudrunlookedathim。Theireyesmet;andtheyexchangedasardonicunderstanding。
  `Justaswell,'saidGudrun。
  Helookedatheragain,andafireflickeredupinhiseyes。
  `BesttodancewhileRomeburns,sinceitmustburn,don'tyouthink?'
  hesaid。
  Shewasrathertakenaback。But,gatheringherselftogether,shereplied:
  `Oh——betterdancethanwail,certainly。'
  `SoIthink。'
  Andtheybothfeltthesubterraneandesiretoletgo,toflingawayeverything,andlapseintoasheerunrestraint,brutalandlicentious。
  AstrangeblackpassionsurgeduppureinGudrun。Shefeltstrong。Shefeltherhandssostrong,asifshecouldteartheworldasunderwiththem。
  SherememberedtheabandonmentsofRomanlicence,andherheartgrewhot。
  Sheknewshewantedthisherselfalso——orsomething,somethingequivalent。
  Ah,ifthatwhichwasunknownandsuppressedinherwereonceletloose,whatanorgiasticandsatisfyingeventitwouldbe。Andshewantedit,shetrembledslightlyfromtheproximityoftheman,whostoodjustbehindher,suggestiveofthesameblacklicentiousnessthatroseinherself。
  Shewanteditwithhim,thisunacknowledgedfrenzy。Foramomenttheclearperceptionofthispreoccupiedher,distinctandperfectinitsfinalreality。
  Thensheshutitoffcompletely,saying:
  `WemightaswellgodowntothelodgeafterWinifred——wecangetinthecarethere。'
  `Sowecan,'heanswered,goingwithher。
  TheyfoundWinifredatthelodgeadmiringthelitterofpurebredwhitepuppies。Thegirllookedup,andtherewasaratherugly,unseeingcastinhereyesassheturnedtoGeraldandGudrun。Shedidnotwanttoseethem。
  `Look!'shecried。`Threenewpuppies!Marshallsaysthisoneseemsperfect。Isn'titasweetling?Butitisn'tsoniceasitsmother。'Sheturnedtocaressthefinewhitebull—terrierbitchthatstooduneasilynearher。
  `MydearestLadyCrich,'shesaid,`youarebeautifulasanangelonearth。Angel——angel——don'tyouthinkshe'sgoodenoughandbeautifulenoughtogotoheaven,Gudrun?Theywillbeinheaven,won'tthey——andespeciallymydarlingLadyCrich!MrsMarshall,Isay!'
  `Yes,MissWinifred?'saidthewoman,appearingatthedoor。
  `OhdocallthisoneLadyWinifred,ifsheturnsoutperfect,willyou?
  DotellMarshalltocallitLadyWinifred。'
  `I'lltellhim——butI'mafraidthat'sagentlemanpuppy,MissWinifred。'
  `Ohno!'Therewasthesoundofacar。`There'sRupert!'criedthechild,andsherantothegate。
  Birkin,drivinghiscar,pulledupoutsidethelodgegate。
  `We'reready!'criedWinifred。`Iwanttositinfrontwithyou,Rupert。
  MayI?'
  `I'mafraidyou'llfidgetaboutandfallout,'hesaid。
  `NoIwon't。Idowanttositinfrontnexttoyou。Itmakesmyfeetsolovelyandwarm,fromtheengines。'
  Birkinhelpedherup,amusedatsendingGeraldtositbyGudruninthebodyofthecar。
  `Haveyouanynews,Rupert?'Geraldcalled,astheyrushedalongthelanes。
  `News?'exclaimedBirkin。
  `Yes,'GeraldlookedatGudrun,whosatbyhisside,andhesaid,hiseyesnarrowlylaughing,`IwanttoknowwhetherIoughttocongratulatehim,butIcan'tgetanythingdefiniteoutofhim。'
  Gudrunflusheddeeply。
  `Congratulatehimonwhat?'sheasked。
  `Therewassomementionofanengagement——atleast,hesaidsomethingtomeaboutit。'
  Gudrunflusheddarkly。
  `YoumeanwithUrsula?'shesaid,inchallenge。
  `Yes。Thatisso,isn'tit?'
  `Idon'tthinkthere'sanyengagement,'saidGudrun,coldly。
  `Thatso?Stillnodevelopments,Rupert?'hecalled。
  `Where?Matrimonial?No。'
  `How'sthat?'calledGudrun。
  Birkinglancedquicklyround。Therewasirritationinhiseyesalso。
  `Why?'hereplied。`Whatdoyouthinkofit,Gudrun?'
  `Oh,'shecried,determinedtoflingherstonealsointothepool,sincetheyhadbegun,`Idon'tthinkshewantsanengagement。Naturally,she'sabirdthatprefersthebush。'Gudrun'svoicewasclearandgong—like。
  ItremindedRupertofherfather's,sostrongandvibrant。
  `AndI,'saidBirkin,hisfaceplayfulbutyetdetermined,`Iwantabindingcontract,andamnotkeenonlove,particularlyfreelove。'
  Theywerebothamused。Whythispublicavowal?Geraldseemedsuspendedamoment,inamusement。
  `Loveisn'tgoodenoughforyou?'hecalled。
  `No!'shoutedBirkin。
  `Ha,wellthat'sbeingover—refined,'saidGerald,andthecarranthroughthemud。
  `What'sthematter,really?'saidGerald,turningtoGudrun。
  ThiswasanassumptionofasortofintimacythatirritatedGudrunalmostlikeanaffront。ItseemedtoherthatGeraldwasdeliberatelyinsultingher,andinfringingonthedecentprivacyofthemall。
  `Whatisit?'shesaid,inherhigh,repellentvoice。`Don'taskme!
  ——Iknownothingaboutultimatemarriage,Iassureyou:orevenpenultimate。'
  `Onlytheordinaryunwarrantablebrand!'repliedGerald。`Justso——
  samehere。Iamnoexpertonmarriage,anddegreesofultimateness。ItseemstobeabeethatbuzzesloudlyinRupert'sbonnet。'
  `Exactly!Butthatishistrouble,exactly!Insteadofwantingawomanforherself,hewantshisideasfulfilled。Which,whenitcomestoactualpractice,isnotgoodenough。'
  `Ohno。Bestgoslapforwhat'swomanlyinwoman,likeabullatagate。'
  Thenheseemedtoglimmerinhimself。`Youthinkloveistheticket,doyou?'heasked。
  `Certainly,whileitlasts——youonlycan'tinsistonpermanency,'
  cameGudrun'svoice,stridentabovethenoise。
  `Marriageornomarriage,ultimateorpenultimateorjustso—so?——
  taketheloveasyoufindit。'
  `Asyouplease,orasyoudon'tplease,'sheechoed。`Marriageisasocialarrangement,Itakeit,andhasnothingtodowiththequestionoflove。'
  Hiseyeswereflickeringonherallthetime。Shefeltasishewerekissingherfreelyandmalevolently。Itmadethecolourburninhercheeks,butherheartwasquitefirmandunfailing。
  `YouthinkRupertisoffhisheadabit?'Geraldasked。
  Hereyesflashedwithacknowledgment。
  `Asregardsawoman,yes,'shesaid,`Ido。Thereissuchathingastwopeoplebeinginloveforthewholeoftheirlives——perhaps。Butmarriageisneitherherenorthere,eventhen。Iftheyareinlove,wellandgood。Ifnot——whybreakeggsaboutit!'
  `Yes,'saidGerald。`That'showitstrikesme。ButwhataboutRupert?'
  `Ican'tmakeout——neithercanhenoranybody。Heseemstothinkthatifyoumarryyoucangetthroughmarriageintoathirdheaven,orsomething——allveryvague。'
  `Very!Andwhowantsathirdheaven?Asamatteroffact,Ruperthasagreatyearningtobesafe——totiehimselftothemast。'
  `Yes。Itseemstomehe'smistakentheretoo,'saidGudrun。`I'msureamistressismorelikelytobefaithfulthanawife——justbecausesheisherownmistress。No——hesayshebelievesthatamanandwifecangofurtherthananyothertwobeings——butwhere,isnotexplained。
  Theycanknoweachother,heavenlyandhellish,butparticularlyhellish,soperfectlythattheygobeyondheavenandhell——into——thereitallbreaksdown——intonowhere。'
  `IntoParadise,hesays,'laughedGerald。
  Gudrunshruggedhershoulders。`Fem'enficheofyourParadise!'
  shesaid。
  `NotbeingaMohammedan,'saidGerald。Birkinsatmotionless,drivingthecar,quiteunconsciousofwhattheysaid。AndGudrun,sittingimmediatelybehindhim,feltasortofironicpleasureinthusexposinghim。
  `Hesays,'sheadded,withagrimaceofirony,`thatyoucanfindaneternalequilibriuminmarriage,ifyouaccepttheunison,andstillleaveyourselfseparate,don'ttrytofuse。'
  `Doesn'tinspireme,'saidGerald。
  `That'sjustit,'saidGudrun。
  `Ibelieveinlove,inarealabandon,ifyou'recapableofit,'
  saidGerald。
  `SodoI,'saidshe。
  `AndsodoesRupert,too——thoughheisalwaysshouting。'
  `No,'saidGudrun。`Hewon'tabandonhimselftotheotherperson。Youcan'tbesureofhim。That'sthetroubleIthink。'
  `Yethewantsmarriage!Marriage——etpuis?'
  `Leparadis!'mockedGudrun。
  Birkin,ashedrove,feltacreepingofthespine,asifsomebodywasthreateninghisneck。Butheshruggedwithindifference。Itbegantorain。
  Herewasachange。Hestoppedthecarandgotdowntoputupthehood。
  WomenInLove:Chapter22CHAPTERXXIIWomantoWomanTHEYCAMEtothetown,andleftGeraldattherailwaystation。GudrunandWinifredweretocometoteawithBirkin,whoexpectedUrsulaalso。Intheafternoon,however,thefirstpersontoturnupwasHermione。Birkinwasout,soshewentinthedrawing—room,lookingathisbooksandpapers,andplayingonthepiano。ThenUrsulaarrived。Shewassurprised,unpleasantlyso,toseeHermione,ofwhomshehadheardnothingforsometime。
  `Itisasurprisetoseeyou,'shesaid。
  `Yes,'saidHermione——`I'vebeenawayatAix——'
  `Oh,foryourhealth?'
  `Yes。'