`Yousee,Idon'tknow,Idon'tunderstand!'
  `Howmuch!'Hisvoicerangwithapainfulelation。`Idon'tknoweither——buteverything。'Hewasstartledbyhisowndeclaration。Itwastrue。
  Sohestrippedhimselfofeverysafeguard,inmakingthisadmissiontoher。Hecaredeverythingforher——shewaseverything。
  `ButIcan'tbelieveit,'saidherlowvoice,amazed,trembling。Shewastremblingwithdoubtandexultance。Thiswasthethingshewantedtohear,onlythis。Yetnowsheheardit,heardthestrangeclappingvibrationoftruthinhisvoiceashesaidit,shecouldnotbelieve。Shecouldnotbelieve——shedidnotbelieve。Yetshebelieved,triumphantly,withfatalexultance。
  `Whynot?'hesaid。`Whydon'tyoubelieveit?It'strue。Itistrue,aswestandatthismoment——'hestoodstillwithherinthewind;`I
  carefornothingonearth,orinheaven,outsidethisspotwhereweare。
  Anditisn'tmyownpresenceIcareabout,itisallyours。I'dsellmysoulahundredtimes——butIcouldn'tbearnottohaveyouhere。Icouldn'tbeartobealone。Mybrainwouldburst。Itistrue。'Hedrewherclosertohim,withdefinitemovement。
  `No,'shemurmured,afraid。Yetthiswaswhatshewanted。Whydidshesolosecourage?
  Theyresumedtheirstrangewalk。Theyweresuchstrangers——andyettheyweresofrightfully,unthinkablynear。Itwaslikeamadness。Yetitwaswhatshewanted,itwaswhatshewanted。Theyhaddescendedthehill,andnowtheywerecomingtothesquarearchwheretheroadpassedunderthecollieryrailway。Thearch,Gudrunknew,hadwallsofsquaredstone,mossyononesidewithwaterthattrickleddown,dryontheotherside。Shehadstoodunderittohearthetrainrumblethunderingoverthelogsoverhead。Andsheknewthatunderthisdarkandlonelybridgetheyoungcolliersstoodinthedarknesswiththeirsweethearts,inrainyweather。
  Andsoshewantedtostandunderthebridgewithhersweetheart,andbekissedunderthebridgeintheinvisibledarkness。Herstepsdraggedasshedrewnear。
  So,underthebridge,theycametoastandstill,andheliftedheruponhisbreast。Hisbodyvibratedtautandpowerfulashecloseduponherandcrushedher,breathlessanddazedanddestroyed,crushedheruponhisbreast。
  Ah,itwasterrible,andperfect。Underthisbridge,thecollierspressedtheirloverstotheirbreast。Andnow,underthebridge,themasterofthemallpressedhertohimself?Andhowmuchmorepowerfulandterriblewashisembracethantheirs,howmuchmoreconcentratedandsupremehislovewas,thantheirsinthesamesort!Shefeltshewouldswoon,die,underthevibrating,inhumantensionofhisarmsandhisbody——shewouldpassaway。Thentheunthinkablehighvibrationslackenedandbecamemoreundulating。Heslackenedanddrewherwithhimtostandwithhisbacktothewall。
  Shewasalmostunconscious。Sothecolliers'loverswouldstandwiththeirbackstothewalls,holdingtheirsweetheartsandkissingthemasshewasbeingkissed。Ah,butwouldtheirkissesbefineandpowerfulasthekissesofthefirm—mouthedmaster?Eventhekeen,short—cutmoustache——thecollierswouldnothavethat。
  Andthecolliers'sweetheartswould,likeherself,hangtheirheadsbacklimpovertheirshoulder,andlookoutfromthedarkarchway,attheclosepatchofyellowlightsontheunseenhillinthedistance,oratthevagueformoftrees,andatthebuildingsofthecollierywood—yard,intheotherdirection。
  Hisarmswerefastaroundher,heseemedtobegatheringherintohimself,herwarmth,hersoftness,heradorableweight,drinkinginthesuffusionofherphysicalbeing,avidly。Heliftedher,andseemedtopourherintohimself,likewineintoacup。
  `Thisiswortheverything,'hesaid,inastrange,penetratingvoice。
  Sosherelaxed,andseemedtomelt,toflowintohim,asifsheweresomeinfinitelywarmandprecioussuffusionfillingintohisveins,likeanintoxicant。Herarmswereroundhisneck,hekissedherandheldherperfectlysuspended,shewasallslackandflowingintohim,andhewasthefirm,strongcupthatreceivesthewineofherlife。Soshelaycastuponhim,stranded,liftedupagainsthim,meltingandmeltingunderhiskisses,meltingintohislimbsandbones,asifheweresoftironbecomingsurchargedwithherelectriclife。
  Tillsheseemedtoswoon,graduallyhermindwent,andshepassedaway,everythinginherwasmelteddownandfluid,andshelaystill,becomecontainedbyhim,sleepinginhimaslightningsleepsinapure,softstone。
  Soshewaspassedawayandgoneinhim,andhewasperfected。
  Whensheopenedhereyesagain,andsawthepatchoflightsinthedistance,itseemedtoherstrangethattheworldstillexisted,thatshewasstandingunderthebridgerestingherheadonGerald'sbreast。Gerald——whowashe?Hewastheexquisiteadventure,thedesirableunknowntoher。
  Shelookedup,andinthedarknesssawhisfaceaboveher,hisshapely,maleface。Thereseemedafaint,whitelightemittedfromhim,awhiteaura,asifhewerevisitorfromtheunseen。Shereachedup,likeEvereachingtotheapplesonthetreeofknowledge,andshekissedhim,thoughherpassionwasatranscendentfearofthethinghewas,touchinghisfacewithherinfinitelydelicate,encroachingwonderingfingers。Herfingerswentoverthemouldofhisface,overhisfeatures。Howperfectandforeignhewas——ahhowdangerous!Hersoulthrilledwithcompleteknowledge。
  Thiswastheglistening,forbiddenapple,thisfaceofaman。Shekissedhim,puttingherfingersoverhisface,hiseyes,hisnostrils,overhisbrowsandhisears,tohisneck,toknowhim,togatherhiminbytouch。
  Hewassofirm,andshapely,withsuchsatisfying,inconceivableshapeliness,strange,yetunutterablyclear。Hewassuchanunutterableenemy,yetglisteningwithuncannywhitefire。Shewantedtotouchhimandtouchhimandtouchhim,tillshehadhimallinherhands,tillshehadstrainedhimintoherknowledge。Ah,ifshecouldhavethepreciousknowledgeofhim,shewouldbefilled,andnothingcoulddepriveherofthis。Forhewassounsure,soriskyinthecommonworldofday。
  `Youaresobeautiful,'shemurmuredinherthroat。
  Hewondered,andwassuspended。Butshefelthimquiver,andshecamedowninvoluntarilyneareruponhim。Hecouldnothelphimself。Herfingershadhimundertheirpower。Thefathomless,fathomlessdesiretheycouldevokeinhimwasdeeperthandeath,wherehehadnochoice。
  Butsheknewnow,anditwasenough。Forthetime,hersoulwasdestroyedwiththeexquisiteshockofhisinvisiblefluidlightning。Sheknew。Andthisknowledgewasadeathfromwhichshemustrecover。Howmuchmoreofhimwastheretoknow?Ahmuch,much,manydaysharvestingforherlarge,yetperfectlysubtleandintelligenthandsuponthefieldofhisliving,radio—activebody。Ah,herhandswereeager,greedyforknowledge。Butforthepresentitwasenough,enough,asmuchashersoulcouldbear。
  Toomuch,andshewouldshatterherself,shewouldfillthefinevialofhersoultooquickly,anditwouldbreak。Enoughnow——enoughforthetimebeing。Therewerealltheafterdayswhenherhands,likebirds,couldfeeduponthefieldsofhimmysticalplasticform——tillthenenough。
  Andevenhewasgladtobechecked,rebuked,heldback。Fortodesireisbetterthantopossess,thefinalityoftheendwasdreadedasdeeplyasitwasdesired。
  Theywalkedontowardsthetown,towardswherethelampsthreadedsingly,atlongintervalsdownthedarkhigh—roadofthevalley。Theycameatlengthtothegateofthedrive。
  `Don'tcomeanyfurther,'shesaid。
  `You'dratherIdidn't?'heasked,relieved。Hedidnotwanttogoupthepublicstreetswithher,hissoulallnakedandalightasitwas。
  `Muchrather——good—night。'Sheheldoutherhand。Hegraspedit,thentouchedtheperilous,potentfingerswithhislips。
  `Good—night,'hesaid。`Tomorrow。'
  Andtheyparted。Hewenthomefullofthestrengthandthepoweroflivingdesire。
  Butthenextday,shedidnotcome,shesentanotethatshewaskeptindoorsbyacold。Herewasatorment!Buthepossessedhissoulinsomesortofpatience,writingabriefanswer,tellingherhowsorryhewasnottoseeher。
  Thedayafterthis,hestayedathome——itseemedsofutiletogodowntotheoffice。Hisfathercouldnotlivetheweekout。Andhewantedtobeathome,suspended。
  Geraldsatonachairbythewindowinhisfather'sroom。Thelandscapeoutsidewasblackandwinter—sodden。Hisfatherlaygreyandashenonthebed,anursemovedsilentlyinherwhitedress,neatandelegant,evenbeautiful。Therewasascentofeau—de—cologneintheroom。Thenursewentoutoftheroom,Geraldwasalonewithdeath,facingthewinter—blacklandscape。
  `IstheremuchmorewaterinDenley?'camethefaintvoice,determinedandquerulous,fromthebed。ThedyingmanwasaskingaboutaleakagefromWilleyWaterintooneofthepits。
  `Somemore——weshallhavetorunoffthelake,'saidGerald。
  `Willyou?'Thefaintvoicefilteredtoextinction。Therewasdeadstillness。
  Thegrey—faced,sickmanlaywitheyesclosed,moredeadthandeath。Geraldlookedaway。Hefelthisheartwasseared,itwouldperishifthiswentonmuchlonger。
  Suddenlyheheardastrangenoise。Turninground,hesawhisfather'seyeswideopen,strainedandrollinginafrenzyofinhumanstruggling。
  Geraldstartedtohisfeet,andstoodtransfixedinhorror。
  `Wha—a—ah—h—h—'cameahorriblechokingrattlefromhisfather'sthroat,thefearful,frenziedeye,rollingawfullyinitswildfruitlesssearchforhelp,passedblindlyoverGerald,thenupcamethedarkbloodandmesspumpingoverthefaceoftheagonisedbeing。Thetensebodyrelaxed,theheadfellaside,downthepillow。
  Geraldstoodtransfixed,hissoulechoinginhorror。Hewouldmove,buthecouldnot。Hecouldnotmovehislimbs。Hisbrainseemedtore—echo,likeapulse。
  Thenurseinwhitesoftlyentered。SheglancedatGerald,thenatthebed。
  `Ah!'camehersoftwhimperingcry,andshehurriedforwardtothedeadman。`Ah—h!'cametheslightsoundofheragitateddistress,asshestoodbendingoverthebedside。Thensherecovered,turned,andcamefortowelandsponge。Shewaswipingthedeadfacecarefully,andmurmuring,almostwhimpering,verysoftly:`PoorMrCrich!——PoorMrCrich!PoorMrCrich!'
  `Ishedead?'clangedGerald'ssharpvoice。
  `Ohyes,he'sgone,'repliedthesoft,moaningvoiceofthenurse,asshelookedupatGerald'sface。Shewasyoungandbeautifulandquivering。
  AstrangesortofgrinwentoverGerald'sface,overthehorror。Andhewalkedoutoftheroom。
  Hewasgoingtotellhismother。OnthelandinghemethisbrotherBasil。
  `He'sgone,Basil,'hesaid,scarcelyabletosubduehisvoice,nottoletanunconscious,frighteningexultationsoundthrough。
  `What?'criedBasil,goingpale。
  Geraldnodded。Thenhewentontohismother'sroom。
  Shewassittinginherpurplegown,sewing,veryslowlysewing,puttinginastitchthenanotherstitch。ShelookedupatGeraldwithherblueundauntedeyes。
  `Father'sgone,'hesaid。
  `He'sdead?Whosaysso?'
  `Oh,youknow,mother,ifyouseehim。'
  Sheputhersewingdown,andslowlyrose。
  `Areyougoingtoseehim?'heasked。
  `Yes,'shesaidBythebedsidethechildrenalreadystoodinaweepinggroup。
  `Oh,mother!'criedthedaughters,almostinhysterics,weepingloudly。
  Butthemotherwentforward。Thedeadmanlayinrepose,asifgentlyasleep,sogently,sopeacefully,likeayoungmansleepinginpurity。
  Hewasstillwarm。Shestoodlookingathimingloomy,heavysilence,forsometime。
  `Ay,'shesaidbitterly,atlength,speakingasiftotheunseenwitnessesoftheair。`You'redead。'Shestoodforsomeminutesinsilence,lookingdown。`Beautiful,'sheasserted,`beautifulasiflifehadnevertouchedyou——nevertouchedyou。GodsendIlookdifferent。IhopeIshalllookmyyears,whenIamdead。Beautiful,beautiful,'shecroonedoverhim。
  `Youcanseehiminhisteens,withhisfirstbeardonhisface。Abeautifulsoul,beautiful——'Thentherewasatearinginhervoiceasshecried:
  `Noneofyoulooklikethis,whenyouaredead!Don'tletithappenagain。'
  Itwasastrange,wildcommandfromoutoftheunknown。Herchildrenmovedunconsciouslytogether,inanearergroup,atthedreadfulcommandinhervoice。Thecolourwasflushedbrightinhercheek,shelookedawfulandwonderful。`Blameme,blamemeifyoulike,thatheliestherelikealadinhisteens,withhisfirstbeardonhisface。Blamemeifyoulike。Butyounoneofyouknow。'Shewassilentinintensesilence。
  Thentherecame,inalow,tensevoice:`IfIthoughtthatthechildrenIborewouldlielookinglikethatindeath,I'dstranglethemwhentheywereinfants,yes——'
  `No,mother,'camethestrange,clarionvoiceofGeraldfromthebackground,`wearedifferent,wedon'tblameyou。'
  Sheturnedandlookedfullinhiseyes。Thensheliftedherhandsinastrangehalf—gestureofmaddespair。
  `Pray!'shesaidstrongly。`PrayforyourselvestoGod,forthere'snohelpforyoufromyourparents。'
  `Ohmother!'criedherdaughterswildly。
  Butshehadturnedandgone,andtheyallwentquicklyawayfromeachother。
  WhenGudrunheardthatMrCrichwasdead,shefeltrebuked。ShehadstayedawaylestGeraldshouldthinkhertooeasyofwinning。Andnow,hewasinthemidstoftrouble,whilstshewascold。
  ThefollowingdayshewentupasusualtoWinifred,whowasgladtoseeher,gladtogetawayintothestudio。Thegirlhadwept,andthen,toofrightened,hadturnedasidetoavoidanymoretragiceventuality。
  SheandGudrunresumedworkasusual,intheisolationofthestudio,andthisseemedanimmeasurablehappiness,apureworldoffreedom,aftertheaimlessnessandmiseryofthehouse。Gudrunstayedontillevening。SheandWinifredhaddinnerbroughtuptothestudio,wheretheyateinfreedom,awayfromallthepeopleinthehouse。
  AfterdinnerGeraldcameup。Thegreathighstudiowasfullofshadowandafragranceofcoffee。GudrunandWinifredhadalittletablenearthefireatthefarend,withawhitelampwhoselightdidnottravelfar。
  Theywereatinyworldtothemselves,thetwogirlssurroundedbylovelyshadows,thebeamsandraftersshadowyover—head,thebenchesandimplementsshadowydownthestudio。
  `Youarecosyenoughhere,'saidGerald,goinguptothem。
  Therewasalowbrickfireplace,fulloffire,anoldblueTurkishrug,thelittleoaktablewiththelampandthewhite—and—blueclothandthedessert,andGudrunmakingcoffeeinanoddbrasscoffee—maker,andWinifredscaldingalittlemilkinatinysaucepan。
  `Haveyouhadcoffee?'saidGudrun。
  `Ihave,butI'llhavesomemorewithyou,'hereplied。
  `Thenyoumusthaveitinaglass——thereareonlytwocups,'saidWinifred。
  `Itisthesametome,'hesaid,takingachairandcomingintothecharmedcircleofthegirls。Howhappytheywere,howcosyandglamorousitwaswiththem,inaworldofloftyshadows!Theoutsideworld,inwhichhehadbeentransactingfuneralbusinessallthedaywascompletelywipedout。Inaninstanthesnuffedglamourandmagic。
  Theyhadalltheirthingsverydainty,twooddandlovelylittlecups,scarletandsolidgilt,andalittleblackjugwithscarletdiscs,andthecuriouscoffee—machine,whosespirit—flameflowedsteadily,almostinvisibly。Therewastheeffectofrathersinisterrichness,inwhichGeraldatonceescapedhimself。
  Theyallsatdown,andGudruncarefullypouredoutthecoffee。
  `Willyouhavemilk?'sheaskedcalmly,yetnervouslypoisingthelittleblackjugwithitsbigreddots。Shewasalwayssocompletelycontrolled,yetsobitterlynervous。
  `No,Iwon't,'hereplied。
  So,withacurioushumility,sheplacedhimthelittlecupofcoffee,andherselftooktheawkwardtumbler。Sheseemedtowanttoservehim。
  `Whydon'tyougivemetheglass——itissoclumsyforyou,'hesaid。
  Hewouldmuchratherhavehadit,andseenherdaintilyserved。Butshewassilent,pleasedwiththedisparity,withherself—abasement。
  `Youarequiteenmenage,'hesaid。
  `Yes。Wearen'treallyathometovisitors,'saidWinifred。
  `You'renot?ThenI'manintruder?'
  Foroncehefelthisconventionaldresswasoutofplace,hewasanoutsider。
  Gudrunwasveryquiet。Shedidnotfeeldrawntotalktohim。Atthisstage,silencewasbest——ormerelightwords。Itwasbesttoleaveseriousthingsaside。Sotheytalkedgailyandlightly,tilltheyheardthemanbelowleadoutthehorse,andcallitto`back—back!'intothedog—cartthatwastotakeGudrunhome。Sosheputonherthings,andshookhandswithGerald,withoutoncemeetinghiseyes。Andshewasgone。
  Thefuneralwasdetestable。Afterwards,atthetea—table,thedaughterskeptsaying——`Hewasagoodfathertous——thebestfatherintheworld'
  ——orelse——`Weshan'teasilyfindanothermanasgoodasfatherwas。'
  Geraldacquiescedinallthis。Itwastherightconventionalattitude,and,asfarastheworldwent,hebelievedintheconventions。Hetookitasamatterofcourse。ButWinifredhatedeverything,andhidinthestudio,andcriedherheartout,andwishedGudrunwouldcome。
  Luckilyeverybodywasgoingaway。TheCrichesneverstayedlongathome。
  Bydinner—time,Geraldwasleftquitealone。EvenWinifredwascarriedofftoLondon,forafewdayswithhersisterLaura。
  ButwhenGeraldwasreallyleftalone,hecouldnotbearit。Onedaypassedby,andanother。Andallthetimehewaslikeamanhunginchainsovertheedgeofanabyss。Struggleashemight,hecouldnotturnhimselftothesolidearth,hecouldnotgetfooting。Hewassuspendedontheedgeofavoid,writhing。Whateverhethoughtof,wastheabyss——whetheritwerefriendsorstrangers,orworkorplay,itallshowedhimonlythesamebottomlessvoid,inwhichhisheartswungperishing。Therewasnoescape,therewasnothingtograspholdof。Hemustwritheontheedgeofthechasm,suspendedinchainsofinvisiblephysicallife。
  Atfirsthewasquiet,hekeptstill,expectingtheextremitytopassaway,expectingtofindhimselfreleasedintotheworldoftheliving,afterthisextremityofpenance。Butitdidnotpass,andacrisisgaineduponhim。
  Astheeveningofthethirddaycameon,hisheartrangwithfear。Hecouldnotbearanothernight。Anothernightwascomingon,foranothernighthewastobesuspendedinchainofphysicallife,overthebottomlesspitofnothingness。Andhecouldnotbearit。Hecouldnotbearit。Hewasfrighteneddeeply,andcoldly,frightenedinhissoul。Hedidnotbelieveinhisownstrengthanymore。Hecouldnotfallintothisinfinitevoid,andriseagain。Ifhefell,hewouldbegoneforever。Hemustwithdraw,hemustseekreinforcements。Hedidnotbelieveinhisownsingleself,anyfurtherthanthis。
  Afterdinner,facedwiththeultimateexperienceofhisownnothingness,heturnedaside。Hepulledonhisboots,putonhiscoat,andsetouttowalkinthenight。
  Itwasdarkandmisty。Hewentthroughthewood,stumblingandfeelinghiswaytotheMill。Birkinwasaway。Good——hewashalfglad。Heturnedupthehill,andstumbledblindlyoverthewildslopes,havinglostthepathinthecompletedarkness。Itwasboring。Wherewashegoing?Nomatter。
  Hestumbledontillhecametoapathagain。Thenhewentonthroughanotherwood。Hismindbecamedark,hewentonautomatically。Withoutthoughtorsensation,hestumbledunevenlyon,outintotheopenagain,fumblingforstiles,losingthepath,andgoingalongthehedgesofthefieldstillhecametotheoutlet。
  Andatlasthecametothehighroad。Ithaddistractedhimtostruggleblindlythroughthemazeofdarkness。Butnow,hemusttakeadirection。
  Andhedidnotevenknowwherehewas。Buthemusttakeadirectionnow。
  Nothingwouldberesolvedbymerelywalking,walkingaway。Hehadtotakeadirection。
  Hestoodstillontheroad,thatwashighintheutterlydarknight,andhedidnotknowwherehewas。Itwasastrangesensation,hisheartbeating,andringedroundwiththeutterlyunknowndarkness。Sohestoodforsometime。
  Thenheheardfootsteps,andsawasmall,swinginglight。Heimmediatelywenttowardsthis。Itwasaminer。
  `Canyoutellme,'hesaid,`wherethisroadgoes?'
  `Road?Ay,itgoesterWhatmore。'
  `Whatmore!Ohthankyou,that'sright。IthoughtIwaswrong。Good—night。'
  `Good—night,'repliedthebroadvoiceoftheminer。
  Geraldguessedwherehewas。Atleast,whenhecametoWhatmore,hewouldknow。Hewasgladtobeonahighroad。Hewalkedforwardasinasleepofdecision。
  ThatwasWhatmoreVillage——?Yes,theKing'sHead——andtherethehallgates。Hedescendedthesteephillalmostrunning。Windingthroughthehollow,hepassedtheGrammarSchool,andcametoWilleyGreenChurch。
  Thechurchyard!Hehalted。
  Theninanothermomenthehadclamberedupthewallandwasgoingamongthegraves。Eveninthisdarknesshecouldseetheheapedpallorofoldwhiteflowersathisfeet。Thisthenwasthegrave。Hestoopeddown。Theflowerswerecoldandclammy。Therewasarawscentofchrysanthemumsandtube—roses,deadened。Hefelttheclaybeneath,andshrank,itwassohorriblycoldandsticky。Hestoodawayinrevulsion。
  Herewasonecentrethen,hereinthecompletedarknessbesidetheunseen,rawgrave。Buttherewasnothingforhimhere。No,hehadnothingtostayherefor。Hefeltasifsomeoftheclaywerestickingcoldandunclean,onhisheart。No,enoughofthis。
  Wherethen?——home?Never!Itwasnousegoingthere。Thatwaslessthannouse。Itcouldnotbedone。Therewassomewhereelsetogo。Where?
  Adangerousresolveformedinhisheart,likeafixedidea。TherewasGudrun——shewouldbesafeinherhome。Buthecouldgetather——hewouldgetather。Hewouldnotgobacktonighttillhehadcometoher,ifitcosthimhislife。Hestakedhisallonthisthrow。
  HesetoffwalkingstraightacrossthefieldstowardsBeldover。Itwassodark,nobodycouldeverseehim。Hisfeetwerewetandcold,heavywithclay。Buthewentonpersistently,likeawind,straightforward,asiftohisfate。Thereweregreatgapsinhisconsciousness。HewasconsciousthathewasatWinthorpehamlet,butquiteunconscioushowhehadgotthere。
  Andthen,asinadream,hewasinthelongstreetofBeldover,withitsstreet—lamps。
  Therewasanoiseofvoices,andofadoorshuttingloudly,andbeingbarred,andofmentalkinginthenight。The`LordNelson'hadjustclosed,andthedrinkersweregoinghome。Hehadbetteraskoneofthesewhereshelived——forhedidnotknowthesidestreetsatall。
  `CanyoutellmewhereSomersetDriveis?'heaskedofoneoftheunevenmen。
  `Wherewhat?'repliedthetipsyminer'svoice。
  `SomersetDrive。'
  `SomersetDrive!——I'veheardo'suchaplace,butIcouldn'tformylifesaywhereitis。Whomightyoubewanting?'
  `MrBrangwen——WilliamBrangwen。'
  `WilliamBrangwen——?——?'
  `WhoteachesattheGrammarSchool,atWilleyGreen——hisdaughterteachestheretoo。'
  `O—o—o—oh,Brangwen!NowI'vegotyou。Ofcourse,WilliamBrangwen!Yes,yes,he'sgottwolassesasteachers,asidehisself。Ay,that'shim——that'shim!WhycertainlyIknowwherehelives,backyourlifeIdo!Yi——whatplacedotheyca'it?'
  `SomersetDrive,'repeatedGeraldpatiently。Heknewhisowncolliersfairlywell。
  `SomersetDrive,forcertain!'saidthecollier,swinginghisarmasifcatchingsomethingup。`SomersetDrive——yi!Icouldn'tformylifelayholdo'thelercalityo'theplace。Yis,Iknowtheplace,tobesureIdo——'
  Heturnedunsteadilyonhisfeet,andpointedupthedark,nighdesertedroad。
  `Yougouptheer——an'youta'eth'first——yi,th'firstturnin'
  onyourleft——o'thatside——pastWithamsestuffyshop——'
  `Iknow,'saidGerald。
  `Ay!Yougodownabit,pastwheerth'water—manlives——andthenSomersetDrive,astheyca'it,branchesoffon'trighthandside——an'there'snowtbutthreehousesinit,nomorethanthree,Ibelieve,——an'I'ma'mostcertainastheirsisth'last——th'lasto'th'three——yousee——'
  `Thankyouverymuch,'saidGerald。`Good—night。'
  Andhestartedoff,leavingthetipsymantherestandingrooted。
  Geraldwentpastthedarkshopsandhouses,mostofthemsleepingnow,andtwistedroundtothelittleblindroadthatendedonafieldofdarkness。
  Hesloweddown,ashenearedhisgoal,notknowinghowheshouldproceed。
  Whatifthehousewereclosedindarkness?
  Butitwasnot。Hesawabiglightedwindow,andheardvoices,thenagatebanged。HisquickearscaughtthesoundofBirkin'svoice,hiskeeneyesmadeoutBirkin,withUrsulastandinginapaledressonthestepofthegardenpath。ThenUrsulasteppeddown,andcamealongtheroad,holdingBirkin'sarm。
  Geraldwentacrossintothedarknessandtheydawdledpasthim,talkinghappily,Birkin'svoicelow,Ursula'shighanddistinct。Geraldwentquicklytothehouse。
  Theblindsweredrawnbeforethebig,lightedwindowofthediningroom。
  Lookingupthepathatthesidehecouldseethedoorleftopen,sheddingasoft,colouredlightfromthehalllamp。Hewentquicklyandsilentlyupthepath,andlookedupintothehall。Therewerepicturesonthewalls,andtheantlersofastag——andthestairsgoingupononeside——andjustnearthefootofthestairsthehalfopeneddoorofthedining—room。
  Withheartdrawnfine,Geraldsteppedintothehall,whosefloorwasofcolouredtiles,wentquicklyandlookedintothelarge,pleasantroom。
  Inachairbythefire,thefathersatasleep,hisheadtiltedbackagainstthesideofthebigoakchimneypiece,hisruddyfaceseenforeshortened,thenostrilsopen,themouthfallenalittle。Itwouldtakethemerestsoundtowakehim。
  Geraldstoodasecondsuspended。Heglanceddownthepassagebehindhim。Itwasalldark。Againhewassuspended。Thenhewentswiftlyupstairs。
  Hissensesweresofinely,almostsupernaturallykeen,thatheseemedtocasthisownwilloverthehalf—unconscioushouse。
  Hecametothefirstlanding。Therehestood,scarcelybreathing。Again,correspondingtothedoorbelow,therewasadooragain。Thatwouldbethemother'sroom。Hecouldhearhermovingaboutinthecandlelight。Shewouldbeexpectingherhusbandtocomeup。Helookedalongthedarklanding。
  Then,silently,oninfinitelycarefulfeet,hewentalongthepassage,feelingthewallwiththeextremetipsofhisfingers。Therewasadoor。
  Hestoodandlistened。Hecouldheartwopeople'sbreathing。Itwasnotthat。Hewentstealthilyforward。Therewasanotherdoor,slightlyopen。
  Theroomwasindarkness。Empty。Thentherewasthebathroom,hecouldsmellthesoapandtheheat。Thenattheendanotherbedroom——onesoftbreathing。Thiswasshe。
  Withanalmostoccultcarefulnessheturnedthedoorhandle,andopenedthedooraninch。Itcreakedslightly。Thenheopeneditanotherinch——
  thenanother。Hisheartdidnotbeat,heseemedtocreateasilenceabouthimself,anobliviousness。
  Hewasintheroom。Stillthesleeperbreathedsoftly。Itwasverydark。
  Hefelthiswayforwardinchbyinch,withhisfeetandhands。Hetouchedthebed,hecouldhearthesleeper。Hedrewnearer,bendingcloseasifhiseyeswoulddisclosewhatevertherewas。Andthen,veryneartohisface,tohisfear,hesawtheround,darkheadofaboy。
  Herecovered,turnedround,sawthedoorajar,afaintlightrevealed。
  Andheretreatedswiftly,drewthedoortowithoutfasteningit,andpassedrapidlydownthepassage。Attheheadofthestairshehesitated。Therewasstilltimetoflee。
  Butitwasunthinkable。Hewouldmaintainhiswill。Heturnedpastthedooroftheparentalbedroomlikeashadow,andwasclimbingthesecondflightofstairs。Theycreakedunderhisweight——itwasexasperating。
  Ahwhatdisaster,ifthemother'sdooropenedjustbeneathhim,andshesawhim!Itwouldhavetobe,ifitwereso。Heheldthecontrolstill。
  Hewasnotquiteupthesestairswhenheheardaquickrunningoffeetbelow,theouterdoorwasclosedandlocked,heheardUrsula'svoice,thenthefather'ssleepyexclamation。Hepressedonswiftlytotheupperlanding。
  Againadoorwasajar,aroomwasempty。Feelinghiswayforward,withthetipsofhisfingers,travellingrapidly,likeablindman,anxiouslestUrsulashouldcomeupstairs,hefoundanotherdoor。There,withhispreternaturallyfinesensealert,helistened。Heheardsomeonemovinginbed。Thiswouldbeshe。
  Softlynow,likeonewhohasonlyonesense,thetactilesense,heturnedthelatch。Itclicked。Heheldstill。Thebed—clothesrustled。Hisheartdidnotbeat。Thenagainhedrewthelatchback,andverygentlypushedthedoor。Itmadeastickingnoiseasitgave。
  `Ursula?'saidGudrun'svoice,frightened。Hequicklyopenedthedoorandpusheditbehindhim。
  `Isityou,Ursula?'cameGudrun'sfrightenedvoice。Heheardhersittingupinbed。Inanothermomentshewouldscream。
  `No,it'sme,'hesaid,feelinghiswaytowardsher。`ItisI,Gerald。'
  Shesatmotionlessinherbedinsheerastonishment。Shewastooastonished,toomuchtakenbysurprise,eventobeafraid。
  `Gerald!'sheechoed,inblankamazement。Hehadfoundhiswaytothebed,andhisoutstretchedhandtouchedherwarmbreastblindly。Sheshrankaway。
  `Letmemakealight,'shesaid,springingout。
  Hestoodperfectlymotionless。Heheardhertouchthematch—box,heheardherfingersintheirmovement。Thenhesawherinthelightofamatch,whichsheheldtothecandle。Thelightroseintheroom,thensanktoasmalldimness,astheflamesankdownonthecandle,beforeitmountedagain。