Shelookedathim,ashestoodneartheothersideofthebed。Hiscapwaspulledlowoverhisbrow,hisblackovercoatwasbuttonedcloseuptohischin。Hisfacewasstrangeandluminous。Hewasinevitableasasupernaturalbeing。Whenshehadseenhim,sheknew。Sheknewtherewassomethingfatalinthesituation,andshemustacceptit。Yetshemustchallengehim。
  `Howdidyoucomeup?'sheasked。
  `Iwalkedupthestairs——thedoorwasopen。'
  Shelookedathim。
  `Ihaven'tclosedthisdoor,either,'hesaid。Shewalkedswiftlyacrosstheroom,andclosedherdoor,softly,andlockedit。Thenshecameback。
  Shewaswonderful,withstartledeyesandflushedcheeks,andherplaitofhairrathershortandthickdownherback,andherlong,finewhitenight—dressfallingtoherfeet。
  Shesawthathisbootswereallclayey,evenhistrouserswereplasteredwithclay。Andshewonderedifhehadmadefootprintsallthewayup。Hewasaverystrangefigure,standinginherbedroom,nearthetossedbed。
  `Whyhaveyoucome?'sheasked,almostquerulous。
  `Iwantedto,'hereplied。
  Andthisshecouldseefromhisface。Itwasfate。
  `Youaresomuddy,'shesaid,indistaste,butgently。
  Helookeddownathisfeet。
  `Iwaswalkinginthedark,'hereplied。Buthefeltvividlyelated。
  Therewasapause。Hestoodononesideofthetumbledbed,sheontheother。Hedidnoteventakehiscapfromhisbrows。
  `Andwhatdoyouwantofme,'shechallenged。
  Helookedaside,anddidnotanswer。Savefortheextremebeautyandmysticattractivenessofthisdistinct,strangeface,shewouldhavesenthimaway。Buthisfacewastoowonderfulandundiscoveredtoher。Itfascinatedherwiththefascinationofpurebeauty,castaspellonher,likenostalgia,anache。
  `Whatdoyouwantofme?'sherepeatedinanestrangedvoice。
  Hepulledoffhiscap,inamovementofdream—liberation,andwentacrosstoher。Buthecouldnottouchher,becauseshestoodbarefootinhernight—dress,andhewasmuddyanddamp。Hereyes,wideandlargeandwondering,watchedhim,andaskedhimtheultimatequestion。
  `Icame——becauseImust,'hesaid。`Whydoyouask?'
  Shelookedathimindoubtandwonder。
  `Imustask,'shesaid。
  Heshookhisheadslightly。
  `Thereisnoanswer,'hereplied,withstrangevacancy。
  Therewasabouthimacurious,andalmostgodlikeairofsimplicityandnativedirectness。Heremindedherofanapparition,theyoungHermes。
  `Butwhydidyoucometome?'shepersisted。
  `Because——ithastobeso。Ifthereweren'tyouintheworld,thenIshouldn'tbeintheworld,either。'
  Shestoodlookingathim,withlarge,wide,wondering,strickeneyes。
  Hiseyeswerelookingsteadilyintohersallthetime,andheseemedfixedinanoddsupernaturalsteadfastness。Shesighed。Shewaslostnow。Shehadnochoice。
  `Won'tyoutakeoffyourboots,'shesaid。`Theymustbewet。'
  Hedroppedhiscaponachair,unbuttonedhisovercoat,liftinguphischintounfastenthethroatbuttons。Hisshort,keenhairwasruffled。
  Hewassobeautifullyblond,likewheat。Hepulledoffhisovercoat。
  Quicklyhepulledoffhisjacket,pulledloosehisblacktie,andwasunfasteninghisstuds,whichwereheadedeachwithapearl。Shelistened,watching,hopingnoonewouldhearthestarchedlinencrackle。Itseemedtosnaplikepistolshots。
  Hehadcomeforvindication。Shelethimholdherinhisarms,clasphercloseagainsthim。Hefoundinheraninfiniterelief。Intoherhepouredallhispent—updarknessandcorrosivedeath,andhewaswholeagain。
  Itwaswonderful,marvellous,itwasamiracle。Thiswastheeverrecurrentmiracleofhislife,attheknowledgeofwhichhewaslostinanecstasyofreliefandwonder。Andshe,subject,receivedhimasavesselfilledwithhisbitterpotionofdeath。Shehadnopoweratthiscrisistoresist。
  Theterriblefrictionalviolenceofdeathfilledher,andshereceiveditinanecstasyofsubjection,inthroesofacute,violentsensation。
  Ashedrewnearertoher,heplungeddeeperintoherenvelopingsoftwarmth,awonderfulcreativeheatthatpenetratedhisveinsandgavehimlifeagain。Hefelthimselfdissolvingandsinkingtorestinthebathofherlivingstrength。Itseemedasifherheartinherbreastwereasecondunconquerablesun,intotheglowandcreativestrengthofwhichheplungedfurtherandfurther。Allhisveins,thatweremurderedandlacerated,healedsoftlyaslifecamepulsingin,stealinginvisiblyintohimasifitweretheall—powerfuleffluenceofthesun。Hisblood,whichseemedtohavebeendrawnbackintodeath,cameebbingonthereturn,surely,beautifully,powerfully。
  Hefelthislimbsgrowingfullerandflexiblewithlife,hisbodygainedanunknownstrength。Hewasamanagain,strongandrounded。Andhewasachild,sosoothedandrestoredandfullofgratitude。
  Andshe,shewasthegreatbathoflife,heworshippedher。Motherandsubstanceofalllifeshewas。Andhe,childandman,receivedofherandwasmadewhole。Hispurebodywasalmostkilled。Butthemiraculous,softeffluenceofherbreastsuffusedoverhim,overhisseared,damagedbrain,likeahealinglymph,likeasoft,soothingflowoflifeitself,perfectasifhewerebathedinthewombagain。
  Hisbrainwashurt,seared,thetissuewasasifdestroyed。Hehadnotknownhowhurthewas,howhistissue,theverytissueofhisbrainwasdamagedbythecorrosivefloodofdeath。Now,asthehealinglymphofhereffluenceflowedthroughhim,heknewhowdestroyedhewas,likeaplantwhosetissueisburstfrominwardsbyafrost。
  Heburiedhissmall,hardheadbetweenherbreasts,andpressedherbreastsagainsthimwithhishands。Andshewithquiveringhandspressedhisheadagainsther,ashelaysuffusedout,andshelayfullyconscious。
  Thelovelycreativewarmthfloodedthroughhimlikeasleepoffecunditywithinthewomb。Ah,ifonlyshewouldgranthimtheflowofthislivingeffluence,hewouldberestored,hewouldbecompleteagain。Hewasafraidshewoulddenyhimbeforeitwasfinished。Likeachildatthebreast,hecleavedintenselytoher,andshecouldnotputhimaway。Andhisseared,ruinedmembranerelaxed,softened,thatwhichwassearedandstiffandblastedyieldedagain,becamesoftandflexible,palpitatingwithnewlife。
  Hewasinfinitelygrateful,astoGod,orasaninfantisatitsmother'sbreast。Hewasgladandgratefullikeadelirium,ashefelthisownwholenesscomeoverhimagain,ashefeltthefull,unutterablesleepcomingoverhim,thesleepofcompleteexhaustionandrestoration。
  ButGudrunlaywideawake,destroyedintoperfectconsciousness。Shelaymotionless,withwideeyesstaringmotionlessintothedarkness,whilsthewassunkawayinsleep,hisarmsroundher。
  Sheseemedtobehearingwavesbreakonahiddenshore,long,slow,gloomywaves,breakingwiththerhythmoffate,somonotonouslythatitseemedeternal。Thisendlessbreakingofslow,sullenwavesoffateheldherlifeapossession,whilstshelaywithdark,wideeyeslookingintothedarkness。Shecouldseesofar,asfaraseternity——yetshesawnothing。
  Shewassuspendedinperfectconsciousness——andofwhatwassheconscious?
  Thismoodofextremity,whenshelaystaringintoeternity,utterlysuspended,andconsciousofeverything,tothelastlimits,passedandleftheruneasy。Shehadlainsolongmotionless。Shemoved,shebecameself—conscious。Shewantedtolookathim,toseehim。
  Butshedarednotmakealight,becausesheknewhewouldwake,andshedidnotwanttobreakhisperfectsleep,thatsheknewhehadgotofher。
  Shedisengagedherself,softly,androseupalittletolookathim。
  Therewasafaintlight,itseemedtoher,intheroom。Shecouldjustdistinguishhisfeatures,asheslepttheperfectsleep。Inthisdarkness,sheseemedtoseehimsodistinctly。Buthewasfaroff,inanotherworld。
  Ah,shecouldshriekwithtorment,hewassofaroff,andperfected,inanotherworld。Sheseemedtolookathimasatapebblefarawayundercleardarkwater。Andherewasshe,leftwithalltheanguishofconsciousness,whilsthewassunkdeepintotheotherelementofmindless,remote,livingshadow—gleam。Hewasbeautiful,far—off,andperfected。Theywouldneverbetogether。Ah,thisawful,inhumandistancewhichwouldalwaysbeinterposedbetweenherandtheotherbeing!
  Therewasnothingtodobuttoliestillandendure。Shefeltanoverwhelmingtendernessforhim,andadark,under—stirringofjealoushatred,thatheshouldliesoperfectandimmune,inanother—world,whilstshewastormentedwithviolentwakefulness,castoutintheouterdarkness。
  Shelayinintenseandvividconsciousness,anexhaustingsuperconsciousness。
  Thechurchclockstruckthehours,itseemedtoher,inquicksuccession。
  Sheheardthemdistinctlyinthetensionofhervividconsciousness。Andhesleptasiftimewereonemoment,unchangingandunmoving。
  Shewasexhausted,wearied。Yetshemustcontinueinthisstateofviolentactivesuperconsciousness。Shewasconsciousofeverything——herchildhood,hergirlhood,alltheforgottenincidents,alltheunrealisedinfluencesandallthehappeningsshehadnotunderstood,pertainingtoherself,toherfamily,toherfriends,herlovers,heracquaintances,everybody。Itwasasifshedrewaglitteringropeofknowledgeoutoftheseaofdarkness,drewanddrewanddrewitoutofthefathomlessdepthsofthepast,andstillitdidnotcometoanend,therewasnoendtoit,shemusthaulandhaulattheropeofglitteringconsciousness,pullitoutphosphorescentfromtheendlessdepthsoftheunconsciousness,tillshewasweary,aching,exhausted,andfittobreak,andyetshehadnotdone。
  Ah,ifonlyshemightwakehim!Sheturneduneasily。Whencouldsherousehimandsendhimaway?Whencouldshedisturbhim?Andsherelapsedintoheractivityofautomaticconsciousness,thatwouldneverend。
  Butthetimewasdrawingnearwhenshecouldwakehim。Itwaslikearelease。Theclockhadstruckfour,outsideinthenight。ThankGodthenighthadpassedalmostaway。Atfivehemustgo,andshewouldbereleased。
  Thenshecouldrelaxandfillherownplace。Nowshewasdrivenupagainsthisperfectsleepingmotionlikeaknifewhite—hotonagrindstone。Therewassomethingmonstrousabouthim,abouthisjuxtapositionagainsther。
  Thelasthourwasthelongest。Andyet,atlastitpassed。Herheartleaptwithrelief——yes,therewastheslow,strongstrokeofthechurchclock——atlast,afterthisnightofeternity。Shewaitedtocatcheachslow,fatalreverberation。`Three——four——five!'There,itwasfinished。
  Aweightrolledoffher。
  Sheraisedherself,leanedoverhimtenderly,andkissedhim。Shewassadtowakehim。Afterafewmoments,shekissedhimagain。Buthedidnotstir。Thedarling,hewassodeepinsleep!Whatashametotakehimoutofit。Shelethimliealittlelonger。Buthemustgo——hemustreallygo。
  Withfullover—tendernessshetookhisfacebetweenherhands,andkissedhiseyes。Theeyesopened,heremainedmotionless,lookingather。Herheartstoodstill。Tohideherfacefromhisdreadfulopenedeyes,inthedarkness,shebentdownandkissedhim,whispering:
  `Youmustgo,mylove。'
  Butshewassickwithterror,sick。
  Heputhisarmsroundher。Herheartsank。
  `Butyoumustgo,mylove。It'slate。'
  `Whattimeisit?'hesaid。
  Strange,hisman'svoice。Shequivered。Itwasanintolerableoppressiontoher。
  `Pastfiveo'clock,'shesaid。
  Butheonlyclosedhisarmsroundheragain。Herheartcriedwithinherintorture。Shedisengagedherselffirmly。
  `Youreallymustgo,'shesaid。
  `Notforaminute,'hesaid。
  Shelaystill,nestlingagainsthim,butunyielding。
  `Notforaminute,'herepeated,claspinghercloser。
  `Yes,'shesaid,unyielding,`I'mafraidifyoustayanylonger。'
  Therewasacertaincoldnessinhervoicethatmadehimreleaseher,andshebrokeaway,roseandlitthecandle。Thatthenwastheend。
  Hegotup。Hewaswarmandfulloflifeanddesire。Yethefeltalittlebitashamed,humiliated,puttingonhisclothesbeforeher,inthecandle—light。
  Forhefeltrevealed,exposedtoher,atatimewhenshewasinsomewayagainsthim。Itwasallverydifficulttounderstand。Hedressedhimselfquickly,withoutcollarortie。Stillhefeltfullandcomplete,perfected。
  Shethoughtithumiliatingtoseeamandressing:theridiculousshirt,theridiculoustrousersandbraces。Butagainanideasavedher。
  `Itislikeaworkmangettinguptogotowork,'thoughtGudrun。`AndIamlikeaworkman'swife。'Butanachelikenauseawasuponher:anauseaofhim。
  Hepushedhiscollarandtieintohisovercoatpocket。Thenhesatdownandpulledonhisboots。Theyweresodden,aswerehissocksandtrouser—bottoms。
  Buthehimselfwasquickandwarm。
  `Perhapsyououghttohaveputyourbootsondownstairs,'shesaid。
  Atonce,withoutanswering,hepulledthemoffagain,andstoodholdingtheminhishand。Shehadthrustherfeetintoslippers,andflungalooseroberoundher。Shewasready。Shelookedathimashestoodwaiting,hisblackcoatbuttonedtothechin,hiscappulleddown,hisbootsinhishand。Andthepassionatealmosthatefulfascinationrevivedinherforamoment。Itwasnotexhausted。Hisfacewassowarm—looking,wide—eyedandfullofnewness,soperfect。Shefeltold,old。Shewenttohimheavily,tobekissed。Hekissedherquickly。Shewishedhiswarm,expressionlessbeautydidnotsofatallyputaspellonher,compelherandsubjugateher。Itwasaburdenuponher,thatsheresented,butcouldnotescape。
  Yetwhenshelookedathisstraightman'sbrows,andathisrathersmall,well—shapednose,andathisblue,indifferenteyes,sheknewherpassionforhimwasnotyetsatisfied,perhapsnevercouldbesatisfied。Onlynowshewasweary,withanachelikenausea。Shewantedhimgone。
  Theywentdownstairsquickly。Itseemedtheymadeaprodigiousnoise。
  Hefollowedheras,wrappedinhervividgreenwrap,sheprecededhimwiththelight。Shesufferedbadlywithfear,lestherpeopleshouldberoused。
  Hehardlycared。Hedidnotcarenowwhoknew。Andshehatedthisinhim。
  Onemustbecautious。Onemustpreserveoneself。
  Sheledthewaytothekitchen。Itwasneatandtidy,asthewomanhadleftit。Helookedupattheclock——twentyminutespastfiveThenhesatdownonachairtoputonhisboots。Shewaited,watchinghiseverymovement。Shewantedittobeover,itwasagreatnervousstrainonher。
  Hestoodup——sheunboltedthebackdoor,andlookedout。Acold,rawnight,notyetdawn,withapieceofamooninthevaguesky。Shewasgladsheneednotgoout。
  `Good—byethen,'hemurmured。
  `I'llcometothegate,'shesaid。
  Andagainshehurriedoninfront,towarnhimofthesteps。Andatthegate,oncemoreshestoodonthestepwhilsthestoodbelowher。
  `Good—bye,'shewhispered。
  Hekissedherdutifully,andturnedaway。
  Shesufferedtormentshearinghisfirmtreadgoingsodistinctlydowntheroad。Ah,theinsensitivenessofthatfirmtread!
  Sheclosedthegate,andcreptquicklyandnoiselesslybacktobed。
  Whenshewasinherroom,andthedoorclosed,andallsafe,shebreathedfreely,andagreatweightfelloffher。Shenestleddowninbed,inthegroovehisbodyhadmade,inthewarmthhehadleft。Andexcited,worn—out,yetstillsatisfied,shefellsoonintoadeep,heavysleep。
  Geraldwalkedquicklythroughtherawdarknessofthecomingdawn。Hemetnobody。Hismindwasbeautifullystillandthoughtless,likeastillpool,andhisbodyfullandwarmandrich。HewentquicklyalongtowardsShortlands,inagratefulself—sufficiency。
  WomenInLove:Chapter25CHAPTERXXVMarriageorNotTHEBRANGWENfamilywasgoingtomovefromBeldover。Itwasnecessarynowforthefathertobeintown。
  Birkinhadtakenoutamarriagelicence,yetUrsuladeferredfromdaytoday。Shewouldnotfixanydefinitetime——shestillwavered。Hermonth'snoticetoleavetheGrammarSchoolwasinitsthirdweek。Christmaswasnotfaroff。
  GeraldwaitedfortheUrsula—Birkinmarriage。Itwassomethingcrucialtohim。
  `Shallwemakeitadouble—barrelledaffair?'hesaidtoBirkinoneday。
  `Whoforthesecondshot?'askedBirkin。
  `Gudrunandme,'saidGerald,theventuresometwinkleinhiseyes。
  Birkinlookedathimsteadily,asifsomewhattakenaback。
  `Serious——orjoking?'heasked。
  `Oh,serious。ShallI?ShallGudrunandIrushinalongwithyou?'
  `Dobyallmeans,'saidBirkin。`Ididn'tknowyou'dgotthatlength。'
  `Whatlength?'saidGerald,lookingattheotherman,andlaughing。
  `Ohyes,we'vegoneallthelengths。'
  `Thereremainstoputitonabroadsocialbasis,andtoachieveahighmoralpurpose,'saidBirkin。
  `Somethinglikethat:thelengthandbreadthandheightofit,'repliedGerald,smiling。
  `Ohwell,'saidBirkin,'it'saveryadmirablesteptotake,Ishouldsay。'
  Geraldlookedathimclosely。
  `Whyaren'tyouenthusiastic?'heasked。`Ithoughtyouweresuchdeadnutsonmarriage。'
  Birkinliftedhisshoulders。
  `Onemightaswellbedeadnutsonnoses。Thereareallsortsofnoses,snubandotherwise——'
  Geraldlaughed。
  `Andallsortsofmarriage,alsosnubandotherwise?'hesaid。
  `That'sit。'
  `AndyouthinkifImarry,itwillbesnub?'askedGeraldquizzically,hisheadalittleononeside。
  Birkinlaughedquickly。
  `HowdoIknowwhatitwillbe!'hesaid。`Don'tlambastemewithmyownparallels——'
  Geraldponderedawhile。
  `ButIshouldliketoknowyouropinion,exactly,'hesaid。
  `Onyourmarriage?——ormarrying?Whyshouldyouwantmyopinion?I'vegotnoopinions。I'mnotinterestedinlegalmarriage,onewayoranother。
  It'samerequestionofconvenience。'
  StillGeraldwatchedhimclosely。
  `Morethanthat,Ithink,'hesaidseriously。`Howeveryoumaybeboredbytheethicsofmarriage,yetreallytomarry,inone'sownpersonalcase,issomethingcritical,final——'
  `Youmeanthereissomethingfinalingoingtotheregistrarwithawoman?'
  `Ifyou'recomingbackwithher,Ido,'saidGerald。`Itisinsomewayirrevocable。'
  `Yes,Iagree,'saidBirkin。
  `Nomatterhowoneregardslegalmarriage,yettoenterintothemarriedstate,inone'sownpersonalinstance,isfinal——'
  `Ibelieveitis,'saidBirkin,`somewhere。'
  `Thequestionremainsthen,shouldonedoit,'saidGerald。
  Birkinwatchedhimnarrowly,withamusedeyes。
  `YouarelikeLordBacon,Gerald,'hesaid。`Youargueitlikealawyer——orlikeHamlet'sto—be—or—not—to—be。IfIwereyouIwouldnotmarry:butaskGudrun,notme。You'renotmarryingme,areyou?'
  Geralddidnotheedthelatterpartofthisspeech。
  `Yes,'hesaid,`onemustconsideritcoldly。Itissomethingcritical。
  Onecomestothepointwhereonemusttakeastepinonedirectionoranother。
  Andmarriageisonedirection——'
  `Andwhatistheother?'askedBirkinquickly。
  Geraldlookedupathimwithhot,strangely—consciouseyes,thattheothermancouldnotunderstand。
  `Ican'tsay,'hereplied。`IfIknewthat——'Hemoveduneasilyonhisfeet,anddidnotfinish。
  `Youmeanifyouknewthealternative?'askedBirkin。`Andsinceyoudon'tknowit,marriageisapisaller。'
  GeraldlookedupatBirkinwiththesamehot,constrainedeyes。
  `Onedoeshavethefeelingthatmarriageisapisaller,'headmitted。
  `Thendon'tdoit,'saidBirkin。`Itellyou,'hewenton,`thesameasI'vesaidbefore,marriageintheoldsenseseemstomerepulsive。Egoismeadeuxisnothingtoit。It'sasortoftacithuntingincouples:theworldallincouples,eachcoupleinitsownlittlehouse,watchingitsownlittleinterests,andstewinginitsownlittleprivacy——it'sthemostrepulsivethingonearth。'
  `Iquiteagree,'saidGerald。`There'ssomethinginferioraboutit。
  ButasIsay,what'sthealternative。'
  `Oneshouldavoidthishomeinstinct。It'snotaninstinct,it'sahabitofcowardliness。Oneshouldneverhaveahome。'
  `Iagreereally,'saidGerald。`Butthere'snoalternative。'
  `We'vegottofindone。Idobelieveinapermanentunionbetweenamanandawoman。Choppingaboutismerelyanexhaustiveprocess。Butapermanentrelationbetweenamanandawomanisn'tthelastword——itcertainlyisn't。'
  `Quite,'saidGerald。
  `Infact,'saidBirkin,`becausetherelationbetweenmanandwomanismadethesupremeandexclusiverelationship,that'swhereallthetightnessandmeannessandinsufficiencycomesin。'
  `Yes,Ibelieveyou,'saidGerald。
  `You'vegottotakedownthelove—and—marriageidealfromitspedestal。
  Wewantsomethingbroader。Ibelieveintheadditionalperfectrelationshipbetweenmanandman——additionaltomarriage。'
  `Icanneverseehowtheycanbethesame,'saidGerald。
  `Notthesame——butequallyimportant,equallycreative,equallysacred,ifyoulike。'
  `Iknow,'saidGerald,`youbelievesomethinglikethat。OnlyIcan'tfeelit,yousee。'HeputhishandonBirkin'sarm,withasortofdeprecatingaffection。Andhesmiledasiftriumphantly。
  Hewasreadytobedoomed。Marriagewaslikeadoomtohim。Hewaswillingtocondemnhimselfinmarriage,tobecomelikeaconvictcondemnedtotheminesoftheunderworld,livingnolifeinthesun,buthavingadreadfulsubterraneanactivity。Hewaswillingtoacceptthis。Andmarriagewasthesealofhiscondemnation。Hewaswillingtobesealedthusintheunderworld,likeasouldamnedbutlivingforeverindamnation。Buthewouldnotmakeanypurerelationshipwithanyothersoul。Hecouldnot。MarriagewasnotthecommittingofhimselfintoarelationshipwithGudrun。Itwasacommittingofhimselfinacceptanceoftheestablishedworld,hewouldaccepttheestablishedorder,inwhichhedidnotlivinglybelieve,andthenhewouldretreattotheunderworldforhislife。Thishewoulddo。
  TheotherwaywastoacceptRupert'sofferofalliance,toenterintothebondofpuretrustandlovewiththeotherman,andthensubsequentlywiththewoman。Ifhepledgedhimselfwiththemanhewouldlaterbeabletopledgehimselfwiththewoman:notmerelyinlegalmarriage,butinabsolute,mysticmarriage。
  Yethecouldnotaccepttheoffer。Therewasanumbnessuponhim,anumbnesseitherofunborn,absentvolition,orofatrophy。Perhapsitwastheabsenceofvolition。ForhewasstrangelyelatedatRupert'soffer。
  Yethewasstillmoregladtorejectit,nottobecommitted。
  WomenInLove:Chapter26CHAPTERXXVIAChairTHEREWASajumblemarketeveryMondayafternoonintheoldmarket—placeintown。UrsulaandBirkinstrayeddownthereoneafternoon。Theyhadbeentalkingoffurniture,andtheywantedtoseeiftherewasanyfragmenttheywouldliketobuy,amidtheheapsofrubbishcollectedonthecobble—stones。
  Theoldmarket—squarewasnotverylarge,amerebarepatchofgranitesetts,usuallywithafewfruit—stallsunderawall。Itwasinapoorquarterofthetown。Meagrehousesstooddownoneside,therewasahosieryfactory,agreatblankwithmyriadoblongwindows,attheend,astreetoflittleshopswithflagstonepavementdowntheotherside,and,foracrowningmonument,thepublicbaths,ofnewredbrick,withaclock—tower。Thepeoplewhomovedaboutseemedstumpyandsordid,theairseemedtosmellratherdirty,therewasasenseofmanymeanstreetsramifyingoffintowarrensofmeanness。Nowandagainagreatchocolate—and—yellowtramcargroundroundadifficultbendunderthehosieryfactory。
  Ursulawassuperficiallythrilledwhenshefoundherselfoutamongthecommonpeople,inthejumbledplacepiledwitholdbedding,heapsofoldiron,shabbycrockeryinpalelots,muffledlotsofunthinkableclothing。
  SheandBirkinwentunwillinglydownthenarrowaislebetweentherustywares。Hewaslookingatthegoods,sheatthepeople。
  Sheexcitedlywatchedayoungwoman,whowasgoingtohaveababy,andwhowasturningoveramattressandmakingayoungman,down—at—heelanddejected,feelitalso。Sosecretiveandactiveandanxioustheyoungwomanseemed,soreluctant,slinking,theyoungman。Hewasgoingtomarryherbecauseshewashavingachild。
  Whentheyhadfeltthemattress,theyoungwomanaskedtheoldmanseatedonastoolamonghiswares,howmuchitwas。Hetoldher,andsheturnedtotheyoungman。Thelatterwasashamed,andselfconscious。Heturnedhisfaceaway,thoughhelefthisbodystandingthere,andmutteredaside。
  Andagainthewomananxiouslyandactivelyfingeredthemattressandaddedupinhermindandbargainedwiththeold,uncleanman。Allthewhile,theyoungmanstoodby,shamefacedanddown—at—heel,submitting。
  `Look,'saidBirkin,`thereisaprettychair。'
  `Charming!'criedUrsula。`Oh,charming。'
  Itwasanarm—chairofsimplewood,probablybirch,butofsuchfinedelicacyofgrace,standingthereonthesordidstones,italmostbroughttearstotheeyes。Itwassquareinshape,ofthepurest,slenderlines,andfourshortlinesofwoodintheback,thatremindedUrsulaofharpstrings。
  `Itwasonce,'saidBirkin,`gilded——andithadacaneseat。Somebodyhasnailedthiswoodenseatin。Look,hereisatrifleoftheredthatunderlaythegilt。Therestisallblack,exceptwherethewoodiswornpureandglossy。Itisthefineunityofthelinesthatissoattractive。
  Look,howtheyrunandmeetandcounteract。Butofcoursethewoodenseatiswrong——itdestroystheperfectlightnessandunityintensionthecanegave。Ilikeitthough——'
  `Ahyes,'saidUrsula,`sodoI。'
  `Howmuchisit?'Birkinaskedtheman。
  `Tenshillings。'
  `Andyouwillsendit——?'
  Itwasbought。
  `Sobeautiful,sopure!'Birkinsaid。`Italmostbreaksmyheart。'Theywalkedalongbetweentheheapsofrubbish。`Mybelovedcountry——ithadsomethingtoexpressevenwhenitmadethatchair。'