`What'sthematter?'hesaidagain,whenshewasquieter。Butsheonlypressedherfacefurtherintohisshoulder,inpain,likeachildthatcannottell。
`Whatisit,then?'heasked。Suddenlyshebrokeaway,wipedhereyes,regainedhercomposure,andwentandsatinachair。
`Fatherhitme,'sheannounced,sittingbunchedup,ratherlikearuffledbird,hereyesverybright。
`Whatfor?'hesaid。
Shelookedaway,andwouldnotanswer。Therewasapitifulrednessabouthersensitivenostrils,andherquiveringlips。
`Why?'herepeated,inhisstrange,soft,penetratingvoice。
Shelookedroundathim,ratherdefiantly。
`BecauseIsaidIwasgoingtobemarriedtomorrow,andhebulliedme。'
`Whydidhebullyyou?'
Hermouthdroppedagain,sherememberedthesceneoncemore,thetearscameup。
`BecauseIsaidhedidn'tcare——andhedoesn't,it'sonlyhisdomineeringnessthat'shurt——'shesaid,hermouthpulledawrybyherweeping,allthetimeshespoke,sothathealmostsmiled,itseemedsochildish。Yetitwasnotchildish,itwasamortalconflict,adeepwound。
`Itisn'tquitetrue,'hesaid。`Andevenso,youshouldn'tsayit。'
`Itistrue——itistrue,'shewept,`andIwon'tbebulliedbyhispretendingit'slove——whenitisn't——hedoesn'tcare,howcanhe——no,hecan't——'
Hesatinsilence。Shemovedhimbeyondhimself。
`Thenyoushouldn'trousehim,ifhecan't,'repliedBirkinquietly。
`AndIhavelovedhim,Ihave,'shewept。`I'velovedhimalways,andhe'salwaysdonethistome,hehas——'
`It'sbeenaloveofopposition,then,'hesaid。`Nevermind——itwillbeallright。It'snothingdesperate。'
`Yes,'shewept,`itis,itis。'
`Why?'
`Ishallneverseehimagain——'
`Notimmediately。Don'tcry,youhadtobreakwithhim,ithadtobe——don'tcry。'
Hewentovertoherandkissedherfine,fragilehair,touchingherwetcheeksgently。
`Don'tcry,'herepeated,`don'tcryanymore。'
Heheldherheadcloseagainsthim,verycloseandquiet。
Atlastshewasstill。Thenshelookedup,hereyeswideandfrightened。
`don'tyouwantme?'sheasked。
`Wantyou?'Hisdarkened,steadyeyespuzzledheranddidnotgiveherplay。
`DoyouwishIhadn'tcome?'sheasked,anxiousnowagainforfearshemightbeoutofplace。
`No,'hesaid。`Iwishtherehadn'tbeentheviolence——somuchugliness——butperhapsitwasinevitable。'
Shewatchedhiminsilence。Heseemeddeadened。
`ButwhereshallIstay?'sheasked,feelinghumiliated。
Hethoughtforamoment。
`Here,withme,'hesaid。`We'remarriedasmuchtodayasweshallbetomorrow。'
`But——'
`I'lltellMrsVarley,'hesaid。`Nevermindnow。'
Hesatlookingather。Shecouldfeelhisdarkenedsteadyeyeslookingatherallthetime。Itmadeheralittlebitfrightened。Shepushedherhairoffherforeheadnervously。
`DoIlookugly?'shesaid。
Andsheblewhernoseagain。
Asmallsmilecameroundhiseyes。
`No,'hesaid,`fortunately。'
Andhewentacrosstoher,andgatheredherlikeabelonginginhisarms。Shewassotenderlybeautiful,hecouldnotbeartoseeher,hecouldonlybeartohideheragainsthimself。Now;washedallcleanbyhertears,shewasnewandfraillikeaflowerjustunfolded,aflowersonew,sotender,somadeperfectbyinnerlight,thathecouldnotbeartolookather,hemusthideheragainsthimself,coverhiseyesagainsther。Shehadtheperfectcandourofcreation,somethingtranslucentandsimple,likearadiant,shiningflowerthatmomentunfoldedinprimalblessedness。
Shewassonew,sowonder—clear,soundimmed。Andhewassoold,sosteepedinheavymemories。Hersoulwasnew,undefinedandglimmeringwiththeunseen。Andhissoulwasdarkandgloomy,ithadonlyonegrainoflivinghope,likeagrainofmustardseed。Butthisonelivinggraininhimmatchedtheperfectyouthinher。
`Iloveyou,'hewhisperedashekissedher,andtrembledwithpurehope,likeamanwhoisbornagaintoawonderful,livelyhopefarexceedingtheboundsofdeath。
Shecouldnotknowhowmuchitmeanttohim,howmuchhemeantbythefewwords。Almostchildish,shewantedproof,andstatement,evenover—statement,foreverythingseemedstilluncertain,unfixedtoher。
Butthepassionofgratitudewithwhichhereceivedherintohissoul,theextreme,unthinkablegladnessofknowinghimselflivingandfittounitewithher,he,whowassonearlydead,whowassoneartobeinggonewiththerestofhisracedowntheslopeofmechanicaldeath,couldneverbeunderstoodbyher。Heworshippedherasageworshipsyouth,hegloriedinher,because,inhisonegrainoffaith,hewasyoungasshe,hewasherpropermate。Thismarriagewithherwashisresurrectionandhislife。
Allthisshecouldnotknow。Shewantedtobemademuchof,tobeadored。
Therewereinfinitedistancesofsilencebetweenthem。Howcouldhetellheroftheimmanenceofherbeauty,thatwasnotform,orweight,orcolour,butsomethinglikeastrange,goldenlight!Howcouldheknowhimselfwhatherbeautylayin,forhim。Hesaid`Yournoseisbeautiful,yourchinisadorable。'Butitsoundedlikelies,andshewasdisappointed,hurt。
Evenwhenhesaid,whisperingwithtruth,`Iloveyou,Iloveyou,'itwasnottherealtruth。Itwassomethingbeyondlove,suchagladnessofhavingsurpassedoneself,ofhavingtranscendedtheoldexistence。Howcouldhesay"I"whenhewassomethingnewandunknown,nothimselfatall?ThisI,thisoldformulaoftheage,wasadeadletter。
Inthenew,superfinebliss,apeacesupersedingknowledge,therewasnoIandyou,therewasonlythethird,unrealisedwonder,thewonderofexistingnotasoneself,butinaconsummationofmybeingandofherbeinginanewone,anew,paradisalunitregainedfromtheduality。NorcanIsay`Iloveyou,'whenIhaveceasedtobe,andyouhaveceasedtobe:
wearebothcaughtupandtranscendedintoanewonenesswhereeverythingissilent,becausethereisnothingtoanswer,allisperfectandatone。
Speechtravelsbetweentheseparateparts。ButintheperfectOnethereisperfectsilenceofbliss。
Theyweremarriedbylawonthenextday,andshedidashebadeher,shewrotetoherfatherandmother。Hermotherreplied,notherfather。
Shedidnotgobacktoschool。ShestayedwithBirkininhisrooms,orattheMill,movingwithhimashemoved。Butshedidnotseeanybody,saveGudrunandGerald。Shewasallstrangeandwonderingasyet,butrelievedasbydawn。
GeraldsattalkingtoheroneafternooninthewarmstudydownattheMill。Ruperthadnotyetcomehome。
`Youarehappy?'Geraldaskedher,withasmile。
`Veryhappy!'shecried,shrinkingalittleinherbrightness。
`Yes,onecanseeit。'
`Canone?'criedUrsulainsurprise。
Helookedupatherwithacommunicativesmile。
`Ohyes,plainly。'
Shewaspleased。Shemeditatedamoment。
`AndcanyouseethatRupertishappyaswell?'
Heloweredhiseyelids,andlookedaside。
`Ohyes,'hesaid。
`Really!'
`Ohyes。'
Hewasveryquiet,asifitweresomethingnottobetalkedaboutbyhim。Heseemedsad。
Shewasverysensitivetosuggestion。Sheaskedthequestionhewantedhertoask。
`Whydon'tyoubehappyaswell?'shesaid。`Youcouldbejustthesame。'
Hepausedamoment。
`WithGudrun?'heasked。
`Yes!'shecried,hereyesglowing。Buttherewasastrangetension,anemphasis,asiftheywereassertingtheirwishes,againstthetruth。
`YouthinkGudrunwouldhaveme,andweshouldbehappy?'hesaid。
`Yes,I'msure!'shecried。
Hereyeswereroundwithdelight。Yetunderneathshewasconstrained,sheknewherowninsistence。
`Oh,I'msoglad,'sheadded。
Hesmiled。
`Whatmakesyouglad?'hesaid。
`Forhersake,'shereplied。`I'msureyou'd——you'retherightmanforher。'
`Youare?'hesaid。`Anddoyouthinkshewouldagreewithyou?'
`Ohyes!'sheexclaimedhastily。Then,uponreconsideration,veryuneasy:
`ThoughGudrunisn'tsoverysimple,isshe?Onedoesn'tknowherinfiveminutes,doesone?She'snotlikemeinthat。'Shelaughedathimwithherstrange,open,dazzledface。
`Youthinkshe'snotmuchlikeyou?'Geraldasked。
Sheknittedherbrows。
`Oh,inmanywayssheis。ButIneverknowwhatshewilldowhenanythingnewcomes。'
`Youdon't?'saidGerald。Hewassilentforsomemoments。Thenhemovedtentatively。`Iwasgoingtoaskher,inanycase,togoawaywithmeatChristmas,'hesaid,inaverysmall,cautiousvoice。
`Goawaywithyou?Foratime,youmean?'
`Aslongasshelikes,'hesaid,withadeprecatingmovement。
Theywerebothsilentforsomeminutes。
`Ofcourse,'saidUrsulaatlast,`shemightjustbewillingtorushintomarriage。Youcansee。'
`Yes,'smiledGerald。`Icansee。Butincaseshewon't——doyouthinkshewouldgoabroadwithmeforafewdays——orforafortnight?'
`Ohyes,'saidUrsula。`I'daskher。'
`Doyouthinkwemightallgotogether?'
`Allofus?'AgainUrsula'sfacelightedup。`Itwouldberatherfun,don'tyouthink?'
`Greatfun,'hesaid。
`Andthenyoucouldsee,'saidUrsula。
`What?'
`Howthingswent。Ithinkitisbesttotakethehoneymoonbeforethewedding——don'tyou?'
Shewaspleasedwiththismot。Helaughed。
`Incertaincases,'hesaid。`I'dratheritweresoinmyowncase。'
`Wouldyou!'exclaimedUrsula。Thendoubtingly,`Yes,perhapsyou'reright。Oneshouldpleaseoneself。'
Birkincameinalittlelater,andUrsulatoldhimwhathadbeensaid。
`Gudrun!'exclaimedBirkin。`She'sabornmistress,justasGeraldisabornlover——amantentitre。Ifassomebodysaysallwomenareeitherwivesormistresses,thenGudrunisamistress。'
`Andallmeneitherloversorhusbands,'criedUrsula。`Butwhynotboth?'
`Theoneexcludestheother,'helaughed。
`ThenIwantalover,'criedUrsula。
`Noyoudon't,'hesaid。
`ButIdo,'shewailed。
Hekissedher,andlaughed。
ItwastwodaysafterthisthatUrsulawastogotofetchherthingsfromthehouseinBeldover。Theremovalhadtakenplace,thefamilyhadgone。GudrunhadroomsinWilleyGreen。
Ursulahadnotseenherparentssincehermarriage。Sheweptovertherupture,yetwhatwasthegoodofmakingitup!Goodornotgood,shecouldnotgotothem。SoherthingshadbeenleftbehindandsheandGudrunweretowalkoverforthem,intheafternoon。
Itwasawintryafternoon,withredinthesky,whentheyarrivedatthehouse。Thewindowsweredarkandblank,alreadytheplacewasfrightening。
Astark,voidentrance—hallstruckachilltotheheartsofthegirls。
`Idon'tbelieveIdarehavecomeinalone,'saidUrsula。`Itfrightensme。'
`Ursula!'criedGudrun。`Isn'titamazing!Canyoubelieveyoulivedinthisplaceandneverfeltit?HowIlivedhereadaywithoutdyingofterror,Icannotconceive!'
Theylookedinthebigdining—room。Itwasagood—sizedroom,butnowacellwouldhavebeenlovelier。Thelargebaywindowswerenaked,thefloorwasstripped,andaborderofdarkpolishwentroundthetractofpaleboarding。
Inthefadedwallpaperweredarkpatcheswherefurniturehadstood,wherepictureshadhung。Thesenseofwalls,dry,thin,flimsy—seemingwalls,andaflimsyflooring,palewithitsartificialblackedges,wasneutralisingtothemind。Everythingwasnulltothesenses,therewasenclosurewithoutsubstance,forthewallsweredryandpapery。Whereweretheystanding,onearth,orsuspendedinsomecardboardbox?Inthehearthwasburntpaper,andscrapsofhalf—burntpaper。
`Imaginethatwepassedourdayshere!'saidUrsula。
`Iknow,'criedGudrun。`Itistooappalling。Whatmustwebelike,ifwearethecontentsofthis!'
`Vile!'saidUrsula。`Itreallyis。'
Andsherecognisedhalf—burntcoversof`Vogue'——half—burntrepresentationsofwomeningowns——lyingunderthegrate。
Theywenttothedrawing—room。Anotherpieceofshut—inair;withoutweightorsubstance,onlyasenseofintolerablepaperyimprisonmentinnothingness。Thekitchendidlookmoresubstantial,becauseofthered—tiledfloorandthestove,butitwascoldandhorrid。
Thetwogirlstrampedhollowlyupthebarestairs。Everysoundreechoedundertheirhearts。Theytrampeddownthebarecorridor。AgainstthewallofUrsula'sbedroomwereherthings——atrunk,awork—basket,somebooks,loosecoats,ahat—box,standingdesolateintheuniversalemptinessofthedusk。
`Acheerfulsight,aren'tthey?'saidUrsula,lookingdownatherforsakenpossessions。
`Verycheerful,'saidGudrun。
Thetwogirlssetto,carryingeverythingdowntothefrontdoor。Againandagaintheymadethehollow,re—echoingtransit。Thewholeplaceseemedtoresoundaboutthemwithanoiseofhollow,emptyfutility。Inthedistancetheempty,invisibleroomssentforthavibrationalmostofobscenity。
Theyalmostfledwiththelastarticles,intotheout—of—door。
Butitwascold。TheywerewaitingforBirkin,whowascomingwiththecar。Theywentindoorsagain,andupstairstotheirparents'frontbedroom,whosewindowslookeddownontheroad,andacrossthecountryattheblack—barredsunset,blackandredbarred,withoutlight。
Theysatdowninthewindow—seat,towait。Bothgirlswerelookingovertheroom。Itwasvoid,withameaninglessnessthatwasalmostdreadful。
`Really,'saidUrsula,`thisroomcouldn'tbesacred,couldit?'
Gudrunlookedoveritwithsloweyes。
`Impossible,'shereplied。
`WhenIthinkoftheirlives——father'sandmother's,theirlove,andtheirmarriage,andallofuschildren,andourbringing—up——wouldyouhavesuchalife,Prune?'
`Iwouldn't,Ursula。'
`Itallseemssonothing——theirtwolives——there'snomeaninginit。Really,iftheyhadnotmet,andnotmarried,andnotlivedtogether——itwouldn'thavemattered,wouldit?'
`Ofcourse——youcan'ttell,'saidGudrun。
`No。ButifIthoughtmylifewasgoingtobelikeit——Prune,'shecaughtGudrun'sarm,`Ishouldrun。'
Gudrunwassilentforafewmoments。
`Asamatteroffact,onecannotcontemplatetheordinarylife——onecannotcontemplateit,'repliedGudrun。`Withyou,Ursula,itisquitedifferent。Youwillbeoutofitall,withBirkin。He'saspecialcase。
Butwiththeordinaryman,whohashislifefixedinoneplace,marriageisjustimpossible。Theremaybe,andthereare,thousandsofwomenwhowantit,andcouldconceiveofnothingelse。Buttheverythoughtofitsendsmemad。Onemustbefree,aboveall,onemustbefree。
Onemayforfeiteverythingelse,butonemustbefree——onemustnotbecome7,PinchbeckStreet——orSomersetDrive——orShortlands。Nomanwillbesufficienttomakethatgood——noman!Tomarry,onemusthaveafreelance,ornothing,acomrade—in—arms,aGlckstritter。Amanwithapositioninthesocialworld——well,itisjustimpossible,impossible!'
`Whatalovelyword——aGlckstritter!'saidUrsula。`Somuchnicerthanasoldieroffortune。'
`Yes,isn'tit?'saidGudrun。`I'dtilttheworldwithaGlcksritter。
Butahome,anestablishment!Ursula,whatwoulditmean?——think!'
`Iknow,'saidUrsula。`We'vehadonehome——that'senoughforme。'
`Quiteenough,'saidGudrun。
`Thelittlegreyhomeinthewest,'quotedUrsulaironically。
`Doesn'titsoundgrey,too,'saidGudrungrimly。
Theywereinterruptedbythesoundofthecar。TherewasBirkin。Ursulawassurprisedthatshefeltsolitup,thatshebecamesuddenlysofreefromtheproblemsofgreyhomesinthewest。
Theyheardhisheelsclickonthehallpavementbelow。
`Hello!'hecalled,hisvoiceechoingalivethroughthehouse。Ursulasmiledtoherself。Hewasfrightenedoftheplacetoo。
`Hello!Hereweare,'shecalleddownstairs。Andtheyheardhimquicklyrunningup。
`Thisisaghostlysituation,'hesaid。
`Thesehousesdon'thaveghosts——they'veneverhadanypersonality,andonlyaplacewithpersonalitycanhaveaghost,'saidGudrun。
`Isupposeso。Areyoubothweepingoverthepast?'
`Weare,'saidGudrun,grimly。
Ursulalaughed。
`Notweepingthatit'sgone,butweepingthatiteverwas,'shesaid。
`Oh,'hereplied,relieved。
Hesatdownforamoment。Therewassomethinginhispresence,Ursulathought,lambentandalive。Itmadeeventheimpertinentstructureofthisnullhousedisappear。
`Gudrunsaysshecouldnotbeartobemarriedandputintoahouse,'
saidUrsulameaningful——theyknewthisreferredtoGerald。
Hewassilentforsomemoments。
`Well,'hesaid,`ifyouknowbeforehandyoucouldn'tstandit,you'resafe。'
`Quite!'saidGudrun。
`Whydoeseverywomanthinkheraiminlifeistohaveahubbyandalittlegreyhomeinthewest?Whyisthisthegoaloflife?Whyshoulditbe?'saidUrsula。
`Ilfautavoirlerespectdesesbtises,'saidBirkin。
`Butyouneedn'thavetherespectforthebetisebeforeyou'vecommittedit,'laughedUrsula。
`Ahthen,desbetisesdupapa?'
`Etdelamaman,'addedGudrunsatirically。
`Etdesvoisins,'saidUrsula。
Theyalllaughed,androse。Itwasgettingdark。Theycarriedthethingstothecar。Gudrunlockedthedooroftheemptyhouse。Birkinhadlightedthelampsoftheautomobile。Itallseemedveryhappy,asiftheyweresettingout。
`DoyoumindstoppingatCoulsons。Ihavetoleavethekeythere,'saidGudrun。
`Right,'saidBirkin,andtheymovedoff。
Theystoppedinthemainstreet。Theshopswerejustlighted,thelastminerswerepassinghomealongthecauseways,half—visibleshadowsintheirgreypit—dirt,movingthroughtheblueair。Buttheirfeetrangharshlyinmanifoldsound,alongthepavement。
HowpleasedGudrunwastocomeoutoftheshop,andenterthecar,andbeborneswiftlyawayintothedownhillofpalpabledusk,withUrsulaandBirkin!Whatanadventurelifeseemedatthismoment!Howdeeply,howsuddenlysheenviedUrsula!Lifeforherwassoquick,andanopendoor——sorecklessasifnotonlythisworld,buttheworldthatwasgoneandtheworldtocomewerenothingtoher。Ah,ifshecouldbejustlikethat,itwouldbeperfect。
Foralways,exceptinhermomentsofexcitement,shefeltawantwithinherself。Shewasunsure。Shehadfeltthatnow,atlast,inGerald'sstrongandviolentlove,shewaslivingfullyandfinally。ButwhenshecomparedherselfwithUrsula,alreadyhersoulwasjealous,unsatisfied。Shewasnotsatisfied——shewasnevertobesatisfied。
Whatwassheshortofnow?Itwasmarriage——itwasthewonderfulstabilityofmarriage。Shedidwantit,lethersaywhatshemight。Shehadbeenlying。Theoldideaofmarriagewasrightevennow——marriageandthehome。Yethermouthgavealittlegrimaceatthewords。ShethoughtofGeraldandShortlands——marriageandthehome!Ahwell,letitrest!Hemeantagreatdealtoher——but——!Perhapsitwasnotinhertomarry。
Shewasoneoflife'soutcasts,oneofthedriftinglivesthathavenoroot。No,noitcouldnotbeso。Shesuddenlyconjureduparosyroom,withherselfinabeautifulgown,andahandsomemanineveningdresswhoheldherinhisarmsinthefirelight,andkissedher。Thispicturesheentitled`Home。'ItwouldhavedonefortheRoyalAcademy。
`Comewithustotea——do,'saidUrsula,astheyrannearertothecottageofWilleyGreen。
`Thanksawfully——butImustgoin——'saidGudrun。ShewantedverymuchtogoonwithUrsulaandBirkin。
Thatseemedlikelifeindeedtoher。Yetacertainperversitywouldnotlether。
`Docome——yes,itwouldbesonice,'pleadedUrsula。
`I'mawfullysorry——Ishouldloveto——butIcan't——really——'
Shedescendedfromthecarintremblinghaste。
`Can'tyoureally!'cameUrsula'sregretfulvoice。
`No,reallyIcan't,'respondedGudrun'spathetic,chagrinedwordsoutofthedusk。
`Allright,areyou?'calledBirkin。
`Quite!'saidGudrun。`Good—night!'
`Good—night,'theycalled。
`Comewheneveryoulike,weshallbeglad,'calledBirkin。
`Thankyouverymuch,'calledGudrun,inthestrange,twangingvoiceoflonelychagrinthatwasverypuzzlingtohim。Sheturnedawaytohercottagegate,andtheydroveon。Butimmediatelyshestoodtowatchthem,asthecarranvagueintothedistance。Andasshewentupthepathtoherstrangehouse,herheartwasfullofincomprehensiblebitterness。
Inherparlourwasalong—caseclock,andinsertedintoitsdialwasaruddy,round,slant—eyed,joyous—paintedface,thatwaggedoverwiththemostridiculousoglewhentheclockticked,andbackagainwiththesameabsurdglad—eyeatthenexttick。Allthetimetheabsurdsmooth,brown—ruddyfacegaveheranobtrusive`glad—eye。'Shestoodforminutes,watchingit,tillasortofmaddeneddisgustovercameher,andshelaughedatherselfhollowly。Andstillitrocked,andgavehertheglad—eyefromoneside,thenfromtheother,fromoneside,thenfromtheother。Ah,howunhappyshewas!Inthemidstofhermostactivehappiness,ah,howunhappyshewas!Sheglancedatthetable。Gooseberryjam,andthesamehome—madecakewithtoomuchsodainit!Still,gooseberryjamwasgood,andonesorarelygotit。
AlltheeveningshewantedtogototheMill。Butshecoldlyrefusedtoallowherself。Shewentthenextafternooninstead。ShewashappytofindUrsulaalone。Itwasalovely,intimatesecludedatmosphere。Theytalkedendlesslyanddelightedly。`Aren'tyoufearfullyhappyhere?'
saidGudruntohersisterglancingatherownbrighteyesinthemirror。
Shealwaysenvied,almostwithresentment,thestrangepositivefullnessthatsubsistedintheatmospherearoundUrsulaandBirkin。
Howreallybeautifullythisroomisdone,'shesaidaloud。`Thishardplaitedmatting——whatalovelycolouritis,thecolourofcoollight!'
Anditseemedtoherperfect。
`Ursula,'shesaidatlength,inavoiceofquestionanddetachment,`didyouknowthatGeraldCrichhadsuggestedourgoingawayalltogetheratChristmas?'
`Yes,he'sspokentoRupert。'
AdeepflushdyedGudrun'scheek。Shewassilentamoment,asiftakenaback,andnotknowingwhattosay。
`Butdon'tyouthing,'shesaidatlast,`itisamazinglycool!'
Ursulalaughed。
`Ilikehimforit,'shesaid。
Gudrunwassilent。Itwasevidentthat,whilstshewasalmostmortifiedbyGerald'stakingthelibertyofmakingsuchasuggestiontoBirkin,yettheideaitselfattractedherstrongly。
`There'sratherlovelysimplicityaboutGerald,Ithink,'saidUrsula,`sodefiant,somehow!Oh,Ithinkhe'sverylovable。'
Gudrundidnotreplyforsomemoments。Shehadstilltogetoverthefeelingofinsultatthelibertytakenwithherfreedom。
`WhatdidRupertsay——doyouknow?'sheasked。