Hermockeryquiveredthroughhismuscleswithcuriousre—echoes。Whenhesleptheseemedtocrouchdowninthebed,lappedupinhisownstrength,thatyetwashollow。
  AndGudrunsleptstrongly,avictorioussleep。Suddenly,shewasalmostfiercelyawake。Thesmalltimberroomglowedwiththedawn,thatcameupwardsfromthelowwindow。Shecouldseedownthevalleywhensheliftedherhead:thesnowwithapinkish,half—revealedmagic,thefringeofpine—treesatthebottomoftheslope。Andonetinyfiguremovedoverthevaguely—illuminatedspace。
  Sheglancedathiswatch;itwasseveno'clock。Hewasstillcompletelyasleep。Andshewassohardawake,itwasalmostfrightening——ahard,metallicwakefulness。Shelaylookingathim。
  Hesleptinthesubjectionofhisownhealthanddefeat。Shewasovercomebyasincereregardforhim。Tillnow,shewasafraidbeforehim。Shelayandthoughtabouthim,whathewas,whatherepresentedintheworld。A
  fine,independentwill,hehad。Shethoughtoftherevolutionhehadworkedinthemines,insoshortatime。Sheknewthat,ifhewereconfrontedwithanyproblem,anyhardactualdifficulty,hewouldovercomeit。Ifhelaidholdofanyidea,hewouldcarryitthrough。Hehadthefacultyofmakingorderoutofconfusion。Onlylethimgripholdofasituation,andhewouldbringtopassaninevitableconclusion。
  Forafewmomentsshewasborneawayonthewildwingsofambition。
  Gerald,withhisforceofwillandhispowerforcomprehendingtheactualworld,shouldbesettosolvetheproblemsoftheday,theproblemofindustrialisminthemodernworld。Sheknewhewould,inthecourseoftime,effectthechangeshedesired,hecouldre—organisetheindustrialsystem。Sheknewhecoulddoit。Asaninstrument,inthesethings,hewasmarvellous,shehadneverseenanymanwithhispotentiality。Hewasunawareofit,butsheknew。
  Heonlyneededtobehitchedon,heneededthathishandshouldbesettothetask,becausehewassounconscious。Andthisshecoulddo。Shewouldmarryhim,hewouldgointoParliamentintheConservativeinterest,hewouldclearupthegreatmuddleoflabourandindustry。Hewassosuperblyfearless,masterful,heknewthateveryproblemcouldbeworkedout,inlifeasingeometry。Andhewouldcareneitherabouthimselfnoraboutanythingbutthepureworkingoutoftheproblem。Hewasverypure,really。
  Herheartbeatfast,sheflewawayonwingsofelation,imaginingafuture。HewouldbeaNapoleonofpeace,oraBismarck——andshethewomanbehindhim。ShehadreadBismarck'sletters,andhadbeendeeplymovedbythem。AndGeraldwouldbefreer,moredauntlessthanBismarck。
  Butevenasshelayinfictitioustransport,bathedinthestrange,falsesunshineofhopeinlife,somethingseemedtosnapinher,andaterriblecynicismbegantogainuponher,blowinginlikeawind。Everythingturnedtoironywithher:thelastflavourofeverythingwasironical。
  Whenshefeltherpangofundeniablereality,thiswaswhensheknewthehardironyofhopesandideas。
  Shelayandlookedathim,asheslept。Hewassheerlybeautiful,hewasaperfectinstrument。Tohermind,hewasapure,inhuman,almostsuperhumaninstrument。Hisinstrumentalityappealedsostronglytoher,shewishedshewereGod,tousehimasatool。
  Andatthesameinstant,cametheironicalquestion:`Whatfor?'Shethoughtofthecolliers'wives,withtheirlinoleumandtheirlacecurtainsandtheirlittlegirlsinhigh—lacedboots。Shethoughtofthewivesanddaughtersofthepit—managers,theirtennis—parties,andtheirterriblestrugglestobesuperioreachtotheother,inthesocialscale。TherewasShortlandswithitsmeaninglessdistinction,themeaninglesscrowdoftheCriches。TherewasLondon,theHouseofCommons,theextantsocialworld。MyGod!
  Youngasshewas,GudrunhadtouchedthewholepulseofsocialEngland。
  Shehadnoideasofrisingintheworld。Sheknew,withtheperfectcynicismofcruelyouth,thattoriseintheworldmeanttohaveoneoutsideshowinsteadofanother,theadvancewaslikehavingaspurioushalf—crowninsteadofaspuriouspenny。Thewholecoinageofvaluationwasspurious。Yetofcourse,hercynicismknewwellenoughthat,inaworldwherespuriouscoinwascurrent,abadsovereignwasbetterthanabadfarthing。Butrichandpoor,shedespisedbothalike。
  Alreadyshemockedatherselfforherdreams。Theycouldbefulfilledeasilyenough。Butsherecognisedtoowell,inherspirit,themockeryofherownimpulses。Whatdidshecare,thatGeraldhadcreatedarichly—payingindustryoutofanoldworn—outconcern?Whatdidshecare?Theworn—outconcernandtherapid,splendidlyorganisedindustry,theywerebadmoney。
  Yetofcourse,shecaredagreatdeal,outwardly——andoutwardlywasallthatmattered,forinwardlywasabadjoke。
  Everythingwasintrinsicallyapieceofironytoher。SheleanedoverGeraldandsaidinherheart,withcompassion:
  `Oh,mydear,mydear,thegameisn'tworthevenyou。Youareafinethingreally——whyshouldyoubeusedonsuchapoorshow!'
  Herheartwasbreakingwithpityandgriefforhim。Andatthesamemoment,agrimacecameoverhermouth,ofmockingironyatherownunspokentirade。Ah,whatafarceitwas!ShethoughtofParnellandKatherineO'Shea。
  Parnell!Afterall,whocantakethenationalisationofIrelandseriously?
  WhocantakepoliticalIrelandreallyseriously,whateveritdoes?AndwhocantakepoliticalEnglandseriously?Whocan?Whocancareastraw,really,howtheoldpatched—upConstitutionistinkeredatanymore?Whocaresabuttonforournationalideas,anymorethanforournationalbowlerhat?Aha,itisalloldhat,itisalloldbowlerhat!
  That'sallitis,Gerald,myyounghero。Atanyratewe'llspareourselvesthenauseaofstirringtheoldbrothanymore。Youbebeautiful,myGerald,andreckless。Thereareperfectmoments。Wakeup,Gerald,wakeup,convincemeoftheperfectmoments。Oh,convinceme,Ineedit。
  Heopenedhiseyes,andlookedather。Shegreetedhimwithamocking,enigmaticsmileinwhichwasapoignantgaiety。Overhisfacewentthereflectionofthesmile,hesmiled,too,purelyunconsciously。
  Thatfilledherwithextraordinarydelight,toseethesmilecrosshisface,reflectedfromherface。Sherememberedthatwashowababysmiled。
  Itfilledherwithextraordinaryradiantdelight。
  `You'vedoneit,'shesaid。
  `What?'heasked,dazed。
  `Convincedme。'
  Andshebentdown,kissinghimpassionately,passionately,sothathewasbewildered。Hedidnotaskherofwhathehadconvincedher,thoughhemeantto。Hewasgladshewaskissinghim。Sheseemedtobefeelingforhisveryhearttotouchthequickofhim。Andhewantedhertotouchthequickofhisbeing,hewantedthatmostofall。
  Outside,somebodywassinging,inamanly,recklesshandsomevoice:`Machmirauf,machmirauf,duStolze,MachmireinFeuervonHolze。VomRegenbinichnassVomRegenbinichnass——'
  Gudrunknewthatthatsongwouldsoundthroughhereternity,sunginamanly,reckless,mockingvoice。Itmarkedoneofhersuprememoments,thesupremepangsofhernervousgratification。Thereitwas,fixedineternityforher。
  Thedaycamefineandbluish。Therewasalightwindblowingamongthemountaintops,keenasarapierwhereittouched,carryingwithitafinedustofsnow—powder。Geraldwentoutwiththefine,blindfaceofamanwhoisinhisstateoffulfilment。Gudrunandhewereinperfectstaticunitythismorning,butunseeingandunwitting。Theywentoutwithatoboggan,leavingUrsulaandBirkintofollow。
  Gudrunwasallscarletandroyalblue——ascarletjerseyandcap,andaroyalblueskirtandstockings。Shewentgailyoverthewhitesnow,withGeraldbesideher,inwhiteandgrey,pullingthelittletoboggan。Theygrewsmallinthedistanceofsnow,climbingthesteepslope。
  ForGudrunherself,sheseemedtopassaltogetherintothewhitenessofthesnow,shebecameapure,thoughtlesscrystal。Whenshereachedthetopoftheslope,inthewind,shelookedround,andsawpeakbeyondpeakofrockandsnow,bluish,transcendentinheaven。Anditseemedtoherlikeagarden,withthepeaksforpureflowers,andherheartgatheringthem。ShehadnoseparateconsciousnessforGerald。
  Sheheldontohimastheywentsheeringdownoverthekeenslope。Shefeltasifhersenseswerebeingwhettedonsomefinegrindstone,thatwaskeenasflame。Thesnowsprintedoneitherside,likesparksfromabladethatisbeingsharpened,thewhitenessroundaboutranswifter,swifter,inpureflamethewhiteslopeflewagainsther,andshefusedlikeonemolten,dancingglobule,rushedthroughawhiteintensity。Thentherewasagreatswerveatthebottom,whentheyswungasitwereinafalltoearth,inthediminishingmotion。
  Theycametorest。Butwhensherosetoherfeet,shecouldnotstand。
  Shegaveastrangecry,turnedandclungtohim,sinkingherfaceonhisbreast,faintinginhim。Utteroblivioncameoverher,asshelayforafewmomentsabandonedagainsthim。
  `Whatisit?'hewassaying。`Wasittoomuchforyou?'
  Butsheheardnothing。
  Whenshecameto,shestoodupandlookedround,astonished。Herfacewaswhite,hereyesbrilliantandlarge。
  `Whatisit?'herepeated。`Diditupsetyou?'
  Shelookedathimwithherbrillianteyesthatseemedtohaveundergonesometransfiguration,andshelaughed,withaterriblemerriment。
  `No,'shecried,withtriumphantjoy。`Itwasthecompletemomentofmylife。'
  Andshelookedathimwithherdazzling,overweeninglaughter,likeonepossessed。Afinebladeseemedtoenterhisheart,buthedidnotcare,ortakeanynotice。
  Buttheyclimbeduptheslopeagain,andtheyflewdownthroughthewhiteflameagain,splendidly,splendidly。Gudrunwaslaughingandflashing,powderedwithsnow—crystals,Geraldworkedperfectly。Hefelthecouldguidethetoboggantoahair—breadth,almosthecouldmakeitpierceintotheairandrightintotheveryheartofthesky。Itseemedtohimtheflyingsledgewasbuthisstrengthspreadout,hehadbuttomovehisarms,themotionwashisown。Theyexploredthegreatslopes,tofindanotherslide。Hefelttheremustbesomethingbetterthantheyhadknown。Andhefoundwhathedesired,aperfectlong,fiercesweep,sheeringpastthefootofarockandintothetreesatthebase。Itwasdangerous,heknew。
  Butthenheknewalsohewoulddirectthesledgebetweenhisfingers。
  Thefirstdayspassedinanecstasyofphysicalmotion,sleighing,skiing,skating,movinginanintensityofspeedandwhitelightthatsurpassedlifeitself,andcarriedthesoulsofthehumanbeingsbeyondintoaninhumanabstractionofvelocityandweightandeternal,frozensnow。
  Gerald'seyesbecamehardandstrange,andashewentbyonhisskishewasmorelikesomepowerful,fatefulsighthanaman,hismuscleselasticinaperfect,soaringtrajectory,hisbodyprojectedinpureflight,mindless,soulless,whirlingalongoneperfectlineofforce。
  Luckilytherecameadayofsnow,whentheymustallstayindoors:otherwiseBirkinsaid,theywouldalllosetheirfaculties,andbegintoutterthemselvesincriesandshrieks,likesomestrange,unknownspeciesofsnow—creatures。
  IthappenedintheafternoonthatUrsulasatintheReunionsaaltalkingtoLoerke。Thelatterhadseemedunhappylately。Hewaslivelyandfullofmischievoushumour,asusual。
  ButUrsulahadthoughthewassulkyaboutsomething。Hispartner,too,thebig,fair,good—lookingyouth,wasillatease,goingaboutasifhebelongedtonowhere,andwaskeptinsomesortofsubjection,againstwhichhewasrebelling。
  LoerkehadhardlytalkedtoGudrun。Hisassociate,ontheotherhand,hadpaidherconstantlyasoft,over—deferentialattention。GudrunwantedtotalktoLoerke。Hewasasculptor,andshewantedtohearhisviewofhisart。Andhisfigureattractedher。Therewasthelookofalittlewastrelabouthim,thatintriguedher,andanoldman'slook,thatinterestedher,andthen,besidethis,anuncannysingleness,aqualityofbeingbyhimself,notincontactwithanybodyelse,thatmarkedoutanartisttoher。Hewasachatterer,amagpie,amakerofmischievousword—jokes,thatweresometimesveryclever,butwhichoftenwerenot。Andshecouldseeinhisbrown,gnome'seyes,theblacklookofinorganicmisery,whichlaybehindallhissmallbuffoonery。
  Hisfigureinterestedher——thefigureofaboy,almostastreetarab。
  Hemadenoattempttoconcealit。Healwaysworeasimplelodensuit,withkneebreeches。Hislegswerethin,andhemadenoattempttodisguisethefact:whichwasofitselfremarkable,inaGerman。Andheneveringratiatedhimselfanywhere,notintheslightest,butkepttohimself,forallhisapparentplayfulness。
  Leitner,hiscompanion,wasagreatsportsman,veryhandsomewithhisbiglimbsandhisblueeyes。Loerkewouldgotoboganningorskating,inlittlesnatches,buthewasindifferent。Andhisfine,thinnostrils,thenostrilsofapure—bredstreetarab,wouldquiverwithcontemptatLeitner'ssplotheringgymnasticdisplays。Itwasevidentthatthetwomenwhohadtravelledandlivedtogether,sharingthesamebedroom,hadnowreachedthestageofloathing。LeitnerhatedLoerkewithaninjured,writhing,impotenthatred,andLoerketreatedLeitnerwithafine—quiveringcontemptandsarcasm。Soonthetwowouldhavetogoapart。
  Alreadytheywererarelytogether。Leitnerranattachinghimselftosomebodyorother,alwaysdeferring,Loerkewasagooddealalone。OutofdoorsheworeaWestphaliancap,aclosebrown—velvetheadwithbigbrownvelvetflapsdownoverhisears,sothathelookedlikealop—earedrabbit,oratroll。Hisfacewasbrown—red,withadry,brightskin,thatseemedtocrinklewithhismobileexpressions。Hiseyeswerearresting——brown,full,likearabbit's,orlikeatroll's,orliketheeyesofalostbeing,havingastrange,dumb,depravedlookofknowledge,andaquicksparkofuncannyfire。WheneverGudrunhadtriedtotalktohimhehadshiedawayunresponsive,lookingatherwithhiswatchfuldarkeyes,butenteringintonorelationwithher。HehadmadeherfeelthatherslowFrenchandherslowerGerman,werehatefultohim。AsforhisowninadequateEnglish,hewasmuchtooawkwardtotryitatall。Butheunderstoodagooddealofwhatwassaid,nevertheless。AndGudrun,piqued,lefthimalone。
  Thisafternoon,however,shecameintotheloungeashewastalkingtoUrsula。Hisfine,blackhairsomehowremindedherofabat,thinasitwasonhisfull,sensitive—lookinghead,andwornawayatthetemples。
  Hesathunchedup,asifhisspiritwerebat—like。AndGudruncouldseehewasmakingsomeslowconfidencetoUrsula,unwilling,aslow,grudging,scantyself—revelation。Shewentandsatbyhersister。
  Helookedather,thenlookedawayagain,asifhetooknonoticeofher。Butasamatteroffact,sheinterestedhimdeeply。
  `Isn'titinteresting,Prune,'saidUrsula,turningtohersister,`HerrLoerkeisdoingagreatfriezeforafactoryinCologne,fortheoutside,thestreet。'
  Shelookedathim,athisthin,brown,nervoushands,thatwereprehensile,andsomehowliketalons,like`griffes,'inhuman。
  `Whatin?'sheasked。
  `Auswas?'repeatedUrsula。
  `Granit,'hereplied。
  Ithadbecomeimmediatelyalaconicseriesofquestionandanswerbetweenfellowcraftsmen。
  `Whatistherelief?'askedGudrun。
  `Altorelievo。'
  `Andatwhatheight?'
  ItwasveryinterestingtoGudruntothinkofhismakingthegreatgranitefriezeforagreatgranitefactoryinCologne。Shegotfromhimsomenotionofthedesign。Itwasarepresentationofafair,withpeasantsandartisansinanorgyofenjoyment,drunkandabsurdintheirmoderndress,whirlingridiculouslyinroundabouts,gapingatshows,kissingandstaggeringandrollinginknots,swinginginswing—boats,andfiringdownshootinggalleries,afrenzyofchaoticmotion。
  Therewasaswiftdiscussionoftechnicalities。Gudrunwasverymuchimpressed。
  `Buthowwonderful,tohavesuchafactory!'criedUrsula。`Isthewholebuildingfine?'
  `Ohyes,'hereplied。`Thefriezeispartofthewholearchitecture。
  Yes,itisacolossalthing。'
  Thenheseemedtostiffen,shruggedhisshoulders,andwenton:
  `Sculptureandarchitecturemustgotogether。Thedayforirrelevantstatues,asforwallpictures,isover。Asamatteroffactsculptureisalwayspartofanarchitecturalconception。Andsincechurchesareallmuseumstuff,sinceindustryisourbusiness,now,thenletusmakeourplacesofindustryourart——ourfactory—areaourParthenon,ecco!'
  Ursulapondered。
  `Isuppose,'shesaid,`thereisnoneedforourgreatworkstobesohideous。'
  Instantlyhebrokeintomotion。
  `Thereyouare!'hecried,`thereyouare!Thereisnotonlynoneedforourplacesofworktobeugly,buttheiruglinessruinsthework,intheend。Menwillnotgoonsubmittingtosuchintolerableugliness。Intheenditwillhurttoomuch,andtheywillwitherbecauseofit。Andthiswillwithertheworkaswell。Theywillthinktheworkitselfisugly:themachines,theveryactoflabour。Whereasthemachineryandtheactsoflabourareextremely,maddeninglybeautiful。Butthiswillbetheendofourcivilisation,whenpeoplewillnotworkbecauseworkhasbecomesointolerabletotheirsenses,itnauseatesthemtoomuch,theywouldratherstarve。Thenweshallseethehammerusedonlyforsmashing,thenweshallseeit。Yethereweare——wehavetheopportunitytomakebeautifulfactories,beautifulmachine—houses——wehavetheopportunity——'
  Gudruncouldonlypartlyunderstand。Shecouldhavecriedwithvexation。
  `Whatdoeshesay?'sheaskedUrsula。AndUrsulatranslated,stammeringandbrief。LoerkewatchedGudrun'sface,toseeherjudgment。
  `Anddoyouthinkthen,'saidGudrun,`thatartshouldserveindustry?'
  `Artshouldinterpretindustry,asartonceinterpretedreligion,'
  hesaid。
  `Butdoesyourfairinterpretindustry?'sheaskedhim。
  `Certainly。Whatismandoing,whenheisatafairlikethis?Heisfulfillingthecounterpartoflabour——themachineworkshim,insteadofhethemachine。Heenjoysthemechanicalmotion,inhisownbody。'
  `Butistherenothingbutwork——mechanicalwork?'saidGudrun。
  `Nothingbutwork!'herepeated,leaningforward,hiseyestwodarknesses,withneedle—pointsoflight。`No,itisnothingbutthis,servingamachine,orenjoyingthemotionofamachine——motion,thatisall。Youhaveneverworkedforhunger,oryouwouldknowwhatgodgovernsus。'
  Gudrunquiveredandflushed。Forsomereasonshewasalmostintears。
  `No,Ihavenotworkedforhunger,'shereplied,`butIhaveworked!'
  `Travaille——lavorato?'heasked。`Echelavoro——chelavoro?Queltravailest—cequevousavezfait?'
  HebrokeintoamixtureofItalianandFrench,instinctivelyusingaforeignlanguagewhenhespoketoher。
  `Youhaveneverworkedastheworldworks,'hesaidtoher,withsarcasm。
  `Yes,'shesaid。`Ihave。AndIdo——Iworknowformydailybread。'
  Hepaused,lookedathersteadily,thendroppedthesubjectentirely。
  Sheseemedtohimtobetrifling。
  `Buthaveyoueverworkedastheworldworks?'Ursulaaskedhim。
  Helookedatheruntrustful。
  `Yes,'hereplied,withasurlybark。`Ihaveknownwhatitwastolieinbedforthreedays,becauseIhadnothingtoeat。'
  Gudrunwaslookingathimwithlarge,graveeyes,thatseemedtodrawtheconfessionfromhimasthemarrowfromhisbones。Allhisnatureheldhimbackfromconfessing。Andyetherlarge,graveeyesuponhimseemedtoopensomevalveinhisveins,andinvoluntarilyhewastelling。
  `Myfatherwasamanwhodidnotlikework,andwehadnomother。WelivedinAustria,PolishAustria。Howdidwelive?Ha!——somehow!Mostlyinaroomwiththreeotherfamilies——onesetineachcorner——andtheW。C。inthemiddleoftheroom——apanwithaplankonit——ha!Ihadtwobrothersandasister——andtheremightbeawomanwithmyfather。
  Hewasafreebeing,inhisway——wouldfightwithanymaninthetown——agarrisontown——andwasalittlemantoo。Buthewouldn'tworkforanybody——sethisheartagainstit,andwouldn't。'
  `Andhowdidyoulivethen?'askedUrsula。
  Helookedather——then,suddenly,atGudrun。
  `Doyouunderstand?'heasked。
  `Enough,'shereplied。
  Theireyesmetforamoment。Thenhelookedaway。Hewouldsaynomore。
  `Andhowdidyoubecomeasculptor?'askedUrsula。
  `HowdidIbecomeasculptor——'hepaused。`Dunque——'heresumed,inachangedmanner,andbeginningtospeakFrench——`Ibecameoldenough——Iusedtostealfromthemarket—place。LaterIwenttowork——imprintedthestamponclaybottles,beforetheywerebaked。Itwasanearthenware—bottlefactory。ThereIbeganmakingmodels。Oneday,Ihadhadenough。Ilayinthesunanddidnotgotowork。ThenIwalkedtoMunich——thenIwalkedtoItaly——begging,beggingeverything。'
  `TheItalianswereverygoodtome——theyweregoodandhonourabletome。FromBozentoRome,almosteverynightIhadamealandabed,perhapsofstraw,withsomepeasant。IlovetheItalianpeople,withallmyheart。
  `Dunque,adesso——maintenant——Iearnathousandpoundsinayear,orIearntwothousand——'
  Helookeddownattheground,hisvoicetailingoffintosilence。
  Gudrunlookedathisfine,thin,shinyskin,reddish—brownfromthesun,drawntightoverhisfulltemples;andathisthinhair——andatthethick,coarse,brush—likemoustache,cutshortabouthismobile,rathershapelessmouth。
  `Howoldareyou?'sheasked。
  Helookedupatherwithhisfull,elfineyesstartled。
  `Wiealt?'herepeated。Andhehesitated。Itwasevidentlyoneofhisreticencies。
  `Howoldareyou?'hereplied,withoutanswering。
  `Iamtwenty—six,'sheanswered。
  `Twenty—six,'herepeated,lookingintohereyes。Hepaused。Thenhesaid:
  `UndIhrHerrGemahl,wiealtiser?'
  `Who?'askedGudrun。
  `Yourhusband,'saidUrsula,withacertainirony。
  `Ihaven'tgotahusband,'saidGudruninEnglish。InGermansheanswered,`Heisthirty—one。'
  ButLoerkewaswatchingclosely,withhisuncanny,full,suspiciouseyes。SomethinginGudrunseemedtoaccordwithhim。Hewasreallylikeoneofthe`littlepeople'whohavenosoul,whohasfoundhismateinahumanbeing。Buthesufferedinhisdiscovery。Shetoowasfascinatedbyhim,fascinated,asifsomestrangecreature,arabbitorabat,orabrownseal,hadbeguntotalktoher。Butalso,sheknewwhathewasunconsciousof,histremendouspowerofunderstanding,ofapprehendingherlivingmotion。Hedidnotknowhisownpower。Hedidnotknowhow,withhisfull,submerged,watchfuleyes,hecouldlookintoherandseeher,whatshewas,seehersecrets。Hewouldonlywanthertobeherself——heknewherverily,withasubconscious,sinisterknowledge,devoidofillusionsandhopes。
  ToGudrun,therewasinLoerketherock—bottomofalllife。Everybodyelsehadtheirillusion,musthavetheirillusion,theirbeforeandafter。
  Buthe,withaperfectstoicism,didwithoutanybeforeandafter,dispensedwithallillusion。Hedidnotdeceivehimselfinthelastissue。Inthelastissuehecaredaboutnothing,hewastroubledaboutnothing,hemadenottheslightestattempttobeatonewithanything。Heexistedapure,unconnectedwill,stoicalandmomentaneous。Therewasonlyhiswork。
  Itwascurioustoo,howhispoverty,thedegradationofhisearlierlife,attractedher。Therewassomethinginsipidandtastelesstoher,intheideaofagentleman,amanwhohadgonetheusualcoursethroughschoolanduniversity。Acertainviolentsympathy,however,cameupinherforthismud—child。Heseemedtobetheverystuffoftheunderworldoflife。Therewasnogoingbeyondhim。
  UrsulatoowasattractedbyLoerke。Inbothsistershecommandedacertainhomage。ButthereweremomentswhentoUrsulaheseemedindescribablyinferior,false,avulgarism。
  BothBirkinandGeralddislikedhim,Geraldignoringhimwithsomecontempt,Birkinexasperated。
  `Whatdothewomenfindsoimpressiveinthatlittlebrat?'Geraldasked。
  `Godaloneknows,'repliedBirkin,`unlessit'ssomesortofappealhemakestothem,whichflattersthemandhassuchapoweroverthem。'
  Geraldlookedupinsurprise。
  `Doeshemakeanappealtothem?'heasked。
  `Ohyes,'repliedBirkin。`Heistheperfectlysubjectedbeing,existingalmostlikeacriminal。Andthewomenrushtowardsthat,likeacurrentofairtowardsavacuum。'
  `Funnytheyshouldrushtothat,'saidGerald。
  `Makesonemad,too,'saidBirkin。`Buthehasthefascinationofpityandrepulsionforthem,alittleobscenemonsterofthedarknessthatheis。'
  Geraldstoodstill,suspendedinthought。
  `Whatdowomenwant,atthebottom?'heasked。
  Birkinshruggedhisshoulders。
  `Godknows,'hesaid。`Somesatisfactioninbasicrepulsion,itseemstome。Theyseemtocreepdownsomeghastlytunnelofdarkness,andwillneverbesatisfiedtillthey'vecometotheend。'
  Geraldlookedoutintothemistoffinesnowthatwasblowingby。Everywherewasblindtoday,horriblyblind。
  `Andwhatistheend?'heasked。
  Birkinshookhishead。
  `I'venotgotthereyet,soIdon'tknow。AskLoerke,he'sprettynear。
  HeisagoodmanystagesfurtherthaneitheryouorIcango。'
  `Yes,butstagesfurtherinwhat?'criedGerald,irritated。
  Birkinsighed,andgatheredhisbrowsintoaknotofanger。
  `Stagesfurtherinsocialhatred,'hesaid。`Heliveslikearat,intheriverofcorruption,justwhereitfallsoverintothebottomlesspit。
  He'sfurtheronthanweare。Hehatestheidealmoreacutely。Hehatestheidealutterly,yetitstilldominateshim。IexpectheisaJew——
  orpartJewish。'
  `Probably,'saidGerald。
  `Heisagnawinglittlenegation,gnawingattherootsoflife。'
  `Butwhydoesanybodycareabouthim?'criedGerald。
  `Becausetheyhatetheidealalso,intheirsouls。Theywanttoexplorethesewers,andhe'sthewizardratthatswimsahead。'
  StillGeraldstoodandstaredattheblindhazeofsnowoutside。
  `Idon'tunderstandyourterms,really,'hesaid,inaflat,doomedvoice。`Butitsoundsarumsortofdesire。'
  `Isupposewewantthesame,'saidBirkin。`Onlywewanttotakeaquickjumpdownwards,inasortofecstasy——andheebbswiththestream,thesewerstream。'
  MeanwhileGudrunandUrsulawaitedforthenextopportunitytotalktoLoerke。Itwasnousebeginningwhenthemenwerethere。Thentheycouldgetintonotouchwiththeisolatedlittlesculptor。Hehadtobealonewiththem。AndhepreferredUrsulatobethere,asasortoftransmittertoGudrun。
  `Doyoudonothingbutarchitecturalsculpture?'Gudrunaskedhimoneevening。