Geraldwasonthepointofknocking—inHalliday'sface;whenhewasfilledwithsuddendisgustandindifference,andhewentaway,leavingHallidayinafoolishstateofgloatingtriumph,thePussumhardandestablished,andMaximstandingclear。Birkinwasabsent,hehadgoneoutoftownagain。
GeraldwaspiquedbecausehehadleftwithoutgivingthePussummoney。
Itwastrue,shedidnotcarewhetherhegavehermoneyornot,andheknewit。Butshewouldhavebeengladoftenpounds,andhewouldhavebeenverygladtogivethemtoher。Nowhefeltinafalseposition。
Hewentawaychewinghislipstogetattheendsofhisshortclippedmoustache。
HeknewthePussumwasmerelygladtoberidofhim。ShehadgotherHallidaywhomshewanted。Shewantedhimcompletelyinherpower。Thenshewouldmarryhim。Shewantedtomarryhim。ShehadsetherwillonmarryingHalliday。
SheneverwantedtohearofGeraldagain;unless,perhaps,shewereindifficulty;becauseafterall,Geraldwaswhatshecalledaman,andtheseothers,Halliday,Libidnikov,Birkin,thewholeBohemianset,theywereonlyhalfmen。Butitwashalfmenshecoulddealwith。Shefeltsureofherselfwiththem。Therealmen,likeGerald,putherinherplacetoomuch。
Still,sherespectedGerald,shereallyrespectedhim。Shehadmanagedtogethisaddress,sothatshecouldappealtohimintimeofdistress。
Sheknewhewantedtogivehermoney。Shewouldperhapswritetohimonthatinevitablerainyday。
WomenInLove:Chapter8CHAPTERVIIIBreadalbyBREADALBYwasaGeorgianhousewithCorinthianpillars,standingamongthesofter,greenerhillsofDerbyshire,notfarfromCromford。Infront,itlookedoveralawn,overafewtrees,downtoastringoffish—pondsinthehollowofthesilentpark。Atthebackweretrees,amongwhichweretobefoundthestables,andthebigkitchengarden,behindwhichwasawood。
Itwasaveryquietplace,somemilesfromthehigh—road,backfromtheDerwentValley,outsidetheshowscenery。Silentandforsaken,thegoldenstuccoshowedbetweenthetrees,thehouse—frontlookeddownthepark,unchangedandunchanging。
Oflate,however,Hermionehadlivedagooddealatthehouse。ShehadturnedawayfromLondon,awayfromOxford,towardsthesilenceofthecountry。
Herfatherwasmostlyabsent,abroad,shewaseitheraloneinthehouse,withhervisitors,ofwhomtherewerealwaysseveral,orshehadwithherherbrother,abachelor,andaLiberalmemberofParliament。HealwayscamedownwhentheHousewasnotsitting,seemedalwaystobepresentinBreadalby,althoughhewasmostconscientiousinhisattendancetoduty。
ThesummerwasjustcominginwhenUrsulaandGudrunwenttostaythesecondtimewithHermione。Comingalonginthecar,aftertheyhadenteredthepark,theylookedacrossthedip,wherethefish—pondslayinsilence,atthepillaredfrontofthehouse,sunnyandsmalllikeanEnglishdrawingoftheoldschool,onthebrowofthegreenhill,againstthetrees。Thereweresmallfiguresonthegreenlawn,womeninlavenderandyellowmovingtotheshadeoftheenormous,beautifullybalancedcedartree。
`Isn'titcomplete!'saidGudrun。`Itisasfinalasanoldaquatint。'
Shespokewithsomeresentmentinhervoice,asifshewerecaptivatedunwillingly,asifshemustadmireagainstherwill。
`Doyouloveit?'askedUrsula。
`Idon'tloveit,butinitsway,Ithinkitisquitecomplete。'
Themotor—carrandownthehillandupagaininonebreath,andtheywerecurvingtothesidedoor。Aparlour—maidappeared,andthenHermione,comingforwardwithherpalefacelifted,andherhandsoutstretched,advancingstraighttothenew—comers,hervoicesinging:
`Hereyouare——I'msogladtoseeyou——'shekissedGudrun——`sogladtoseeyou——'shekissedUrsulaandremainedwithherarmroundher。
`Areyouverytired?'
`Notatalltired,'saidUrsula。
`Areyoutired,Gudrun?'
`Notatall,thanks,'saidGudrun。
`No——'drawledHermione。Andshestoodandlookedatthem。Thetwogirlswereembarrassedbecauseshewouldnotmoveintothehouse,butmusthaveherlittlesceneofwelcomethereonthepath。Theservantswaited。
`Comein,'saidHermioneatlast,havingfullytakeninthepairofthem。Gudrunwasthemorebeautifulandattractive,shehaddecidedagain,Ursulawasmorephysical,morewomanly。SheadmiredGudrun'sdressmore。
Itwasofgreenpoplin,withaloosecoataboveit,ofbroad,dark—greenanddark—brownstripes。Thehatwasofapale,greenishstraw,thecolourofnewhay,andithadaplaitedribbonofblackandorange,thestockingsweredarkgreen,theshoesblack。Itwasagoodget—up,atoncefashionableandindividual。Ursula,indarkblue,wasmoreordinary,thoughshealsolookedwell。
Hermioneherselfworeadressofprune—colouredsilk,withcoralbeadsandcoralcolouredstockings。Butherdresswasbothshabbyandsoiled,evenratherdirty。
`Youwouldliketoseeyourroomsnow,wouldn'tyou!Yes。Wewillgoupnow,shallwe?'
Ursulawasgladwhenshecouldbeleftaloneinherroom。Hermionelingeredsolong,madesuchastressonone。Shestoodsoneartoone,pressingherselfnearuponone,inawaythatwasmostembarrassingandoppressive。
Sheseemedtohinderone'sworkings。
Lunchwasservedonthelawn,underthegreattree,whosethick,blackishboughscamedownclosetothegrass。TherewerepresentayoungItalianwoman,slightandfashionable,ayoung,athletic—lookingMissBradley,alearned,dryBaronetoffifty,whowasalwaysmakingwitticismsandlaughingatthemheartilyinaharsh,horse—laugh,therewasRupertBirkin,andthenawomansecretary,aFrauleinMarz,youngandslimandpretty。
Thefoodwasverygood,thatwasonething。Gudrun,criticalofeverything,gaveitherfullapproval。Ursulalovedthesituation,thewhitetablebythecedartree,thescentofnewsunshine,thelittlevisionoftheleafypark,withfar—offdeerfeedingpeacefully。Thereseemedamagiccircledrawnabouttheplace,shuttingoutthepresent,enclosingthedelightful,preciouspast,treesanddeerandsilence,likeadream。
Butinspiritshewasunhappy。Thetalkwentonlikearattleofsmallartillery,alwaysslightlysententious,withasententiousnessthatwasonlyemphasisedbythecontinualcracklingofawitticism,thecontinualspatterofverbaljest,designedtogiveatoneofflippancytoastreamofconversationthatwasallcriticalandgeneral,acanalofconversationratherthanastream。
Theattitudewasmentalandverywearying。Onlytheelderlysociologist,whosementalfibrewassotoughastobeinsentient,seemedtobethoroughlyhappy。Birkinwasdowninthemouth。Hermioneappeared,withamazingpersistence,towishtoridiculehimandmakehimlookignominiousintheeyesofeverybody。
Anditwassurprisinghowsheseemedtosucceed,howhelplessheseemedagainsther。Helookedcompletelyinsignificant。UrsulaandGudrun,bothveryunused,weremostlysilent,listeningtotheslow,rhapsodicsing—songofHermione,ortheverbalsalliesofSirJoshua,ortheprattleofFraulein,ortheresponsesoftheothertwowomen。
Luncheonwasover,coffeewasbroughtoutonthegrass,thepartyleftthetableandsataboutinloungechairs,intheshadeorinthesunshineastheywished。Frauleindepartedintothehouse,Hermionetookupherembroidery,thelittleContessatookabook,MissBradleywasweavingabasketoutoffinegrass,andtheretheyallwereonthelawnintheearlysummerafternoon,workingleisurelyandspatteringwithhalf—intellectual,deliberatetalk。
Suddenlytherewasthesoundofthebrakesandtheshuttingoffofamotor—car。
`There'sSalsie!'sangHermione,inherslow,amusingsing—song。Andlayingdownherwork,sheroseslowly,andslowlypassedoverthelawn,roundthebushes,outofsight。
`Whoisit?'askedGudrun。
`MrRoddice——MissRoddice'sbrother——atleast,Isupposeit'she,'
saidSirJoshua。
`Salsie,yes,itisherbrother,'saidthelittleContessa,liftingherheadforamomentfromherbook,andspeakingasiftogiveinformation,inherslightlydeepened,gutturalEnglish。
Theyallwaited。AndthenroundthebushescamethetallformofAlexanderRoddice,stridingromanticallylikeaMeredithherowhoremembersDisraeli。
Hewascordialwitheverybody,hewasatonceahost,withaneasy,offhandhospitalitythathehadlearnedforHermione'sfriends。HehadjustcomedownfromLondon,fromtheHouse。AtoncetheatmosphereoftheHouseofCommonsmadeitselffeltoverthelawn:theHomeSecretaryhadsaidsuchandsuchathing,andhe,Roddice,ontheotherhand,thoughtsuchandsuchathing,andhadsaidso—and—sotothePM。
NowHermionecameroundthebusheswithGeraldCrich。HehadcomealongwithAlexander。Geraldwaspresentedtoeverybody,waskeptbyHermioneforafewmomentsinfullview,thenhewasledaway,stillbyHermione。
Hewasevidentlyherguestofthemoment。
TherehadbeenasplitintheCabinet;theministerforEducationhadresignedowingtoadversecriticism。Thisstartedaconversationoneducation。
`Ofcourse,'saidHermione,liftingherfacelikearhapsodist,`therecanbenoreason,noexcuseforeducation,exceptthejoyandbeautyofknowledgeinitself。'Sheseemedtorumbleandruminatewithsubterraneanthoughtsforaminute,thensheproceeded:`Vocationaleducationisn'teducation,itisthecloseofeducation。'
Gerald,onthebrinkofdiscussion,sniffedtheairwithdelightandpreparedforaction。
`Notnecessarily,'hesaid。`Butisn'teducationreallylikegymnastics,isn'ttheendofeducationtheproductionofawell—trained,vigorous,energeticmind?'
`Justasathleticsproduceahealthybody,readyforanything,'criedMissBradley,inheartyaccord。
Gudrunlookedatherinsilentloathing。
`Well——'rumbledHermione,`Idon'tknow。Tomethepleasureofknowingissogreat,sowonderful——nothinghasmeantsomuchtomeinalllife,ascertainknowledge——no,Iamsure——nothing。'
`Whatknowledge,forexample,Hermione?'askedAlexander。
Hermioneliftedherfaceandrumbled——
`M——m——m——Idon'tknow……Butonethingwasthestars,whenIreallyunderstoodsomethingaboutthestars。Onefeelssouplifted,sounbounded……'
Birkinlookedatherinawhitefury。
`Whatdoyouwanttofeelunboundedfor?'hesaidsarcastically。`Youdon'twanttobeunbounded。'
Hermionerecoiledinoffence。
`Yes,butonedoeshavethatlimitlessfeeling,'saidGerald。`It'slikegettingontopofthemountainandseeingthePacific。'
`SilentuponapeakinDariayn,'murmuredtheItalian,liftingherfaceforamomentfromherbook。
`NotnecessarilyinDariayn,'saidGerald,whileUrsulabegantolaugh。
Hermionewaitedforthedusttosettle,andthenshesaid,untouched:
`Yes,itisthegreatestthinginlife——toknow。Itisreallytobehappy,tobefree。'
`Knowledgeis,ofcourse,liberty,'saidMattheson。
`Incompressedtabloids,'saidBirkin,lookingatthedry,stifflittlebodyoftheBaronet。ImmediatelyGudrunsawthefamoussociologistasaflatbottle,containingtabloidsofcompressedliberty。Thatpleasedher。
SirJoshuawaslabelledandplacedforeverinhermind。
`Whatdoesthatmean,Rupert?'sangHermione,inacalmsnub。
`Youcanonlyhaveknowledge,strictly,'hereplied,`ofthingsconcluded,inthepast。It'slikebottlingthelibertyoflastsummerinthebottledgooseberries。'
`Canonehaveknowledgeonlyofthepast?'askedtheBaronet,pointedly。`Couldwecallourknowledgeofthelawsofgravitationforinstance,knowledgeofthepast?'
`Yes,'saidBirkin。
`Thereisamostbeautifulthinginmybook,'suddenlypipedthelittleItalianwoman。`Itsaysthemancametothedoorandthrewhiseyesdownthestreet。'
Therewasagenerallaughinthecompany。MissBradleywentandlookedovertheshoulderoftheContessa。
`See!'saidtheContessa。
`Bazarovcametothedoorandthrewhiseyeshurriedlydownthestreet,'
sheread。
Againtherewasaloudlaugh,themoststartlingofwhichwastheBaronet's,whichrattledoutlikeaclatteroffallingstones。
`Whatisthebook?'askedAlexander,promptly。
`FathersandSons,byTurgenev,'saidthelittleforeigner,pronouncingeverysyllabledistinctly。Shelookedatthecover,toverifyherself。
`AnoldAmericanedition,'saidBirkin。
`Ha!——ofcourse——translatedfromtheFrench,'saidAlexander,withafinedeclamatoryvoice。`Bazarovouvralaporteetjetalesyeuxdanslarue。'
Helookedbrightlyroundthecompany。
`Iwonderwhatthe"hurriedly"was,'saidUrsula。
Theyallbegantoguess。
Andthen,totheamazementofeverybody,themaidcamehurryingwithalargetea—tray。Theafternoonhadpassedsoswiftly。
Aftertea,theywereallgatheredforawalk。
`Wouldyouliketocomeforawalk?'saidHermionetoeachofthem,onebyone。Andtheyallsaidyes,feelingsomehowlikeprisonersmarshalledforexercise。Birkinonlyrefused。
`Willyoucomeforawalk,Rupert?'
`No,Hermione。'
`Butareyousure?'
`Quitesure。'Therewasasecond'shesitation。
`Andwhynot?'sangHermione'squestion。Itmadeherbloodrunsharp,tobethwartedinevensotriflingamatter。Sheintendedthemalltowalkwithherinthepark。
`BecauseIdon'tliketroopingoffinagang,'hesaid。
Hervoicerumbledinherthroatforamoment。Thenshesaid,withacuriousstraycalm:
`Thenwe'llleavealittleboybehind,ifhe'ssulky。'
Andshelookedreallygay,whilesheinsultedhim。Butitmerelymadehimstiff。
Shetrailedofftotherestofthecompany,onlyturningtowaveherhandkerchieftohim,andtochucklewithlaughter,singingout:
`Good—bye,good—bye,littleboy。'
`Good—bye,impudenthag,'hesaidtohimself。
Theyallwentthroughthepark。Hermionewantedtoshowthemthewilddaffodilsonalittleslope。`Thisway,thisway,'sangherleisurelyvoiceatintervals。Andtheyhadalltocomethisway。Thedaffodilswerepretty,butwhocouldseethem?Ursulawasstiffalloverwithresentmentbythistime,resentmentofthewholeatmosphere。Gudrun,mockingandobjective,watchedandregisteredeverything。
Theylookedattheshydeer,andHermionetalkedtothestag,asifhetoowereaboyshewantedtowheedleandfondle。Hewasmale,soshemustexertsomekindofpoweroverhim。Theytrailedhomebythefish—ponds,andHermionetoldthemaboutthequarreloftwomaleswans,whohadstrivenfortheloveoftheonelady。Shechuckledandlaughedasshetoldhowtheoustedloverhadsatwithhisheadburiedunderhiswing,onthegravel。
Whentheyarrivedbackatthehouse,Hermionestoodonthelawnandsangout,inastrange,small,highvoicethatcarriedveryfar:
`Rupert!Rupert!'Thefirstsyllablewashighandslow,theseconddroppeddown。`Roo—o—opert。'
Buttherewasnoanswer。Amaidappeared。
`WhereisMrBirkin,Alice?'askedthemildstrayingvoiceofHermione。
Butunderthestrayingvoice,whatapersistent,almostinsanewill!
`Ithinkhe'sinhisroom,madam。'
`Ishe?'
Hermionewentslowlyupthestairs,alongthecorridor,singingoutinherhigh,smallcall:
`Ru—oo—pert!Ru—oopert!'
Shecametohisdoor,andtapped,stillcrying:`Roo—pert。'
`Yes,'soundedhisvoiceatlast。
`Whatareyoudoing?'
Thequestionwasmildandcurious。
Therewasnoanswer。Thenheopenedthedoor。
`We'vecomeback,'saidHermione。`Thedaffodilsaresobeautiful。'
`Yes,'hesaid,`I'veseenthem。'
Shelookedathimwithherlong,slow,impassivelook,alonghercheeks。
`Haveyou?'sheechoed。Andsheremainedlookingathim。Shewasstimulatedaboveallthingsbythisconflictwithhim,whenhewaslikeasulkyboy,helpless,andshehadhimsafeatBreadalby。Butunderneathsheknewthesplitwascoming,andherhatredofhimwassubconsciousandintense。
`Whatwereyoudoing?'shereiterated,inhermild,indifferenttone。
Hedidnotanswer,andshemadeherway,almostunconsciouslyintohisroom。HehadtakenaChinesedrawingofgeesefromtheboudoir,andwascopyingit,withmuchskillandvividness。
`Youarecopyingthedrawing,'shesaid,standingnearthetable,andlookingdownathiswork。`Yes。Howbeautifullyyoudoit!Youlikeitverymuch,don'tyou?'
`It'samarvellousdrawing,'hesaid。
`Isit?I'msogladyoulikeit,becauseI'vealwaysbeenfondofit。
TheChineseAmbassadorgaveitme。'
`Iknow,'hesaid。
`Butwhydoyoucopyit?'sheasked,casualandsing—song。`Whynotdosomethingoriginal?'
`Iwanttoknowit,'hereplied。`OnegetsmoreofChina,copyingthispicture,thanreadingallthebooks。'
`Andwhatdoyouget?'
Shewasatonceroused,shelaidasitwereviolenthandsonhim,toextracthissecretsfromhim。Shemustknow。Itwasadreadfultyranny,anobsessioninher,toknowallheknew。Forsometimehewassilent,hatingtoanswerher。Then,compelled,hebegan:
`Iknowwhatcentrestheylivefrom——whattheyperceiveandfeel——
thehot,stingingcentralityofagooseinthefluxofcoldwaterandmud——thecuriousbitterstingingheatofagoose'sblood,enteringtheirownbloodlikeaninoculationofcorruptivefire——fireofthecold—burningmud——thelotusmystery。'
Hermionelookedathimalonghernarrow,pallidcheeks。Hereyeswerestrangeanddrugged,heavyundertheirheavy,droopinglids。Herthinbosomshruggedconvulsively。Hestaredbackather,devilishandunchanging。
Withanotherstrange,sickconvulsion,sheturnedaway,asifsheweresick,couldfeeldissolutionsetting—ininherbody。Forwithhermindshewasunabletoattendtohiswords,hecaughther,asitwere,beneathallherdefences,anddestroyedherwithsomeinsidiousoccultpotency。
`Yes,'shesaid,asifshedidnotknowwhatsheweresaying。`Yes,'
andsheswallowed,andtriedtoregainhermind。Butshecouldnot,shewaswitless,decentralised。Useallherwillasshemight,shecouldnotrecover。Shesufferedtheghastlinessofdissolution,brokenandgoneinahorriblecorruption。Andhestoodandlookedatherunmoved。Shestrayedout,pallidandpreyed—uponlikeaghost,likeoneattackedbythetomb—influenceswhichdogus。Andshewasgonelikeacorpse,thathasnopresence,noconnection。Heremainedhardandvindictive。
Hermionecamedowntodinnerstrangeandsepulchral,hereyesheavyandfullofsepulchraldarkness,strength。Shehadputonadressofstiffoldgreenishbrocade,thatfittedtightandmadeherlooktallandratherterrible,ghastly。Inthegaylightofthedrawing—roomshewasuncannyandoppressive。Butseatedinthehalf—lightofthediningroom,sittingstifflybeforetheshadedcandlesonthetable,sheseemedapower,apresence。
Shelistenedandattendedwithadruggedattention。
Thepartywasgayandextravagantinappearance,everybodyhadputoneveningdressexceptBirkinandJoshuaMattheson。ThelittleItalianContessaworeadressoftissue,oforangeandgoldandblackvelvetinsoftwidestripes,Gudrunwasemeraldgreenwithstrangenet—work,Ursulawasinyellowwithdullsilverveiling,MissBradleywasofgrey,crimsonandjet,FrauleinMarzworepaleblue。ItgaveHermioneasuddenconvulsivesensationofpleasure,toseetheserichcoloursunderthecandle—light。
Shewasawareofthetalkgoingon,ceaselessly,Joshua'svoicedominating;
oftheceaselesspitter—patterofwomen'slightlaughterandresponses;
ofthebrilliantcoloursandthewhitetableandtheshadowaboveandbelow;
andsheseemedinaswoonofgratification,convulsedwithpleasureandyetsick,likearevenant。Shetookverylittlepartintheconversation,yetshehearditall,itwasallhers。
Theyallwenttogetherintothedrawing—room,asiftheywereonefamily,easily,withoutanyattentiontoceremony。Frauleinhandedthecoffee,everybodysmokedcigarettes,orelselongwardenpipesofwhiteclay,ofwhichasheafwasprovided。
`Willyousmoke?——cigarettesorpipe?'askedFrauleinprettily。Therewasacircleofpeople,SirJoshuawithhiseighteenth—centuryappearance,Geraldtheamused,handsomeyoungEnglishman,Alexandertallandthehandsomepolitician,democraticandlucid,HermionestrangelikealongCassandra,andthewomenluridwithcolour,alldutifullysmokingtheirlongwhitepipes,andsittinginahalf—mooninthecomfortable,soft—lighteddrawing—room,roundthelogsthatflickeredonthemarblehearth。
Thetalkwasveryoftenpoliticalorsociological,andinteresting,curiouslyanarchistic。Therewasanaccumulationofpowerfulforceintheroom,powerfulanddestructive。Everythingseemedtobethrownintothemeltingpot,anditseemedtoUrsulatheywereallwitches,helpingthepottobubble。Therewasanelationandasatisfactioninitall,butitwascruellyexhaustingforthenew—comers,thisruthlessmentalpressure,thispowerful,consuming,destructivementalitythatemanatedfromJoshuaandHermioneandBirkinanddominatedtherest。
Butasickness,afearfulnauseagatheredpossessionofHermione。Therewasalullinthetalk,asitwasarrestedbyherunconsciousbutall—powerfulwill。
`Salsie,won'tyouplaysomething?'saidHermione,breakingoffcompletely。
`Won'tsomebodydance?Gudrun,youwilldance,won'tyou?Iwishyouwould。
Anchetu,Palestra,ballerai?——si,perpiacere。Youtoo,Ursula。'
Hermioneroseandslowlypulledthegold—embroideredbandthathungbythemantel,clingingtoitforamoment,thenreleasingitsuddenly。
Likeapriestessshelooked,unconscious,sunkinaheavyhalf—trance。
Aservantcame,andsoonreappearedwitharmfulsofsilkrobesandshawlsandscarves,mostlyoriental,thingsthatHermione,withherloveforbeautifulextravagantdress,hadcollectedgradually。
`Thethreewomenwilldancetogether,'shesaid。
`Whatshallitbe?'askedAlexander,risingbriskly。
`VerginiDelleRocchette,'saidtheContessaatonce。
`Theyaresolanguid,'saidUrsula。
`ThethreewitchesfromMacbeth,'suggestedFrauleinusefully。ItwasfinallydecidedtodoNaomiandRuthandOrpah。UrsulawasNaomi,GudrunwasRuth,theContessawasOrpah。Theideawastomakealittleballet,inthestyleoftheRussianBalletofPavlovaandNijinsky。
TheContessawasreadyfirst,Alexanderwenttothepiano,aspacewascleared。Orpah,inbeautifulorientalclothes,beganslowlytodancethedeathofherhusband。ThenRuthcame,andtheywepttogether,andlamented,thenNaomicametocomfortthem。Itwasalldoneindumbshow,thewomendancedtheiremotioningestureandmotion。Thelittledramawentonforaquarterofanhour。
UrsulawasbeautifulasNaomi。Allhermenweredead,itremainedtoheronlytostandaloneinindomitableassertion,demandingnothing。Ruth,woman—loving,lovedher。Orpah,avivid,sensational,subtlewidow,wouldgobacktotheformerlife,arepetition。Theinterplaybetweenthewomenwasrealandratherfrightening。ItwasstrangetoseehowGudrunclungwithheavy,desperatepassiontoUrsula,yetsmiledwithsubtlemalevolenceagainsther,howUrsulaacceptedsilently,unabletoprovideanymoreeitherforherselforfortheother,butdangerousandindomitable,refutinghergrief。
Hermionelovedtowatch。ShecouldseetheContessa'srapid,stoat—likesensationalism,Gudrun'sultimatebuttreacherouscleavingtothewomaninhersister,Ursula'sdangeroushelplessness,asifshewerehelplesslyweighted,andunreleased。
`Thatwasverybeautiful,'everybodycriedwithoneaccord。ButHermionewrithedinhersoul,knowingwhatshecouldnotknow。Shecriedoutformoredancing,anditwasherwillthatsettheContessaandBirkinmovingmockinglyinMalbrouk。
GeraldwasexcitedbythedesperatecleavingofGudruntoNaomi。Theessenceofthatfemale,subterraneanrecklessnessandmockerypenetratedhisblood。HecouldnotforgetGudrun'slifted,offered,cleaving,reckless,yetwithalmockingweight。AndBirkin,watchinglikeahermitcrabfromitshole,hadseenthebrilliantfrustrationandhelplessnessofUrsula。
Shewasrich,fullofdangerouspower。Shewaslikeastrangeunconsciousbudofpowerfulwomanhood。Hewasunconsciouslydrawntoher。Shewashisfuture。
AlexanderplayedsomeHungarianmusic,andtheyalldanced,seizedbythespirit。Geraldwasmarvellouslyexhilaratedatfindinghimselfinmotion,movingtowardsGudrun,dancingwithfeetthatcouldnotyetescapefromthewaltzandthetwo—step,butfeelinghisforcestiralonghislimbsandhisbody,outofcaptivity。Hedidnotknowyethowtodancetheirconvulsive,rag—timesortofdancing,butheknewhowtobegin。Birkin,whenhecouldgetfreefromtheweightofthepeoplepresent,whomhedisliked,dancedrapidlyandwitharealgaiety。AndhowHermionehatedhimforthisirresponsiblegaiety。
`NowIsee,'criedtheContessaexcitedly,watchinghispurelygaymotion,whichhehadalltohimself。`MrBirkin,heisachanger。'
Hermionelookedatherslowly,andshuddered,knowingthatonlyaforeignercouldhaveseenandhavesaidthis。
`Cosavuol'dire,Palestra?'sheasked,sing—song。
`Look,'saidtheContessa,inItalian。`Heisnotaman,heisachameleon,acreatureofchange。'
`Heisnotaman,heistreacherous,notoneofus,'saiditselfoverinHermione'sconsciousness。Andhersoulwrithedintheblacksubjugationtohim,becauseofhispowertoescape,toexist,otherthanshedid,becausehewasnotconsistent,notaman,lessthanaman。Shehatedhiminadespairthatshatteredherandbrokeherdown,sothatshesufferedsheerdissolutionlikeacorpse,andwasunconsciousofeverythingsavethehorriblesicknessofdissolutionthatwastakingplacewithinher,bodyandsoul。
Thehousebeingfull,Geraldwasgiventhesmallerroom,reallythedressing—room,communicatingwithBirkin'sbedroom。Whentheyalltooktheircandlesandmountedthestairs,wherethelampswereburningsubduedly,HermionecapturedUrsulaandbroughtherintoherownbedroom,totalktoher。AsortofconstraintcameoverUrsulainthebig,strangebedroom。