GladandPollyoccupiedthemselveswiththeirownfood。
AntonyDartgazedatthefire。
Herehesatwarminghimselfinaloftwithabeggar,athief,andahelplessthingofthestreet。Hehadcomeouttobuyapistol——itsweightstillhunginhisovercoatpocket——
andhehadreachedthisplaceofwhoseexistencehehadanhouragonotdreamed。Eachstepwhichhadledhimhadseemedasimple,inevitablething,forwhichhehadapparentlybeenresponsible,butwhichheknew——yes,somehowheKNEW——hehadofhisownvolitionneitherplannednormeant。Yetherehesat——apartofthelivesofthebeggar,thethief,andthepoorthingofthestreet。Whatdiditmean?
"Tellme,"hesaidtothethief,"howyoucamehere。"
Bythistimetheyoungfellowhadfedhimselfandlookedlesslikeawolf。Itwastobeseennowthathehadblue—grayeyeswhichweredreamyandyoung。
"Ihavealwaysbeeninventingthings,"hesaidalittlehuskily。"I
diditwhenIwasachild。Ialwaysseemedtoseetheremightbeawayofdoingathingbetter——gettingmorepower。WhenotherboyswereplayinggamesIwassittingincornerstryingtobuildmodelsoutofwireandstring,andoldboxesandtincans。IoftenthoughtIsawthewaytothings,butIwasalwaystoopoortogetwhatwasneededtoworkthemout。TwiceIheardofmenmakinggreatnamesandfortunesbecausetheyhadbeenabletofinishwhatIcouldhavefinishedifI
hadhadafewpounds。Itusedtodrivememadandbreakmyheart。"
Hishandsclenchedthemselvesandhishuskinessgrewthicker。"Therewasaman,"catchinghisbreath,"wholeapedtothetopoftheladderandsetthewholeworldtalkingandwriting——andIhaddonethethingFIRST——IswearIhad!Itwasallclearinmybrain,andIwashalfmadwithjoyoverit,butIcouldnotaffordtoworkitout。Hecould,sototheendoftimeitwillbeHIS。"Hestruckhisfistuponhisknee。
"Aw!"ThedeeplittledrawlwasagroanfromGlad。
"Igotaplaceinanofficeatlast。
Iworkedhard,andtheybegantotrustme。I——hadanewidea。Itwasabigone。Ineededmoneytoworkitout。I——Irememberedwhathadhappenedbefore。Ifeltlikeapoorfellowrunningaraceforhislife。IKNEWIcouldpaybacktentimes——ahundredtimes——whatItook。"
"Youtookmoney?"saidDart。
Thethief’sheaddropped。
"No。IwascaughtwhenIwastakingit。Iwasn’tsharpenough。
Someonecameinandsawme,andtherewasacrazyrow。Iwassenttoprison。Therewasnomoretryingafterthat。It’snearlytwoyearssince,andI’vebeenhangingaboutthestreetsandfallinglowerandlower。I’verunmilespantingaftercabswithluggageinthemandnothadstrengthtocarryintheboxeswhentheystopped。I’vestarvedandsleptoutofdoors。ButthethingIwantedtoworkoutisinmymindallthetime——likesomemachinetearinground。Itwantstobefinished。Itneverwillbe。
That’sall。"
Gladwasleaningforwardstaringathim,herroughenedhandswiththesmearedcracksonthemclaspedroundherknees。
"Things’AStobefinished,"shesaid。"Theyfinishtheirselves。"
"Howdoyouknow?"Dartturnedonher。
"Dunno’OWIknow——butIdo。
Whenthingsbegintheyfinish。It’slikeawheelrollin’downan’ill。"
HersharpeyesfixedthemselvesonDart’s。"Allofus’llfinishsomethin’——
’coswe’vebegun。Youwill——Pollywill——’ewill——Iwill。"
Shestoppedwithasuddensheepishchuckleanddroppedherforeheadonherknees,giggling。"DunnowotI’mtalkingabout,"shesaid,"butit’strue。"
Dartbegantounderstandthatitwas。Andhealsosawthatthisraggedthingwhoknewnothingwhatever,lookedoutontheworldwiththeeyesofaseer,thoughshewasignorantofthemeaningofherownknowledge。Itwasaweirdthing。HeturnedtothegirlPolly。
"Tellmehowyoucamehere,"
hesaid。
Hespokeinalowvoiceandgently。Hedidnotwanttofrightenher,buthewantedtoknowhowSHE
hadbegun。Whensheliftedherchildisheyestohis,herchinbegantoshake。Forsomereasonshedidnotquestionhisrighttoaskwhathewould。Sheansweredhimmeekly,asherfingersfumbledwiththestuffofherdress。
"Ilivedinthecountrywithmymother,"shesaid。"Wewasveryhappytogether。Inthespringtherewasprimrosesand——andlambs。I
——can’tabidetolookatthesheepintheparkthesedays。Theyremindmeso。Therewasagirlinthevillagegotaplaceintownandcamebackandtoldusallaboutit。
Itmademesilly。Iwantedtocomehere,too。I——Icame——"
Sheputherarmoverherfaceandbegantosob。
"Shecan’ttellyou,"saidGlad。
"Therewasaswellinthe’ousemadelovetoher。Sheusedtocarryupcoalsto’isparloran’’etalkedto’er。’E’adawyewith’im——"
Pollybrokeintoasmotheredwail。
"Oh,Ididlovehimso——Idid!"
shecried。"I’dhavelethimwalkoverme。I’dhavelethimkillme。"
"’Enearlydidit,"saidGlad。
"’Ewentawaysuddenan’she’snever’eardwordof’imsince。"
FromunderPolly’sface—hidingarmcamebrokenwords。
"Icouldn’ttellmymother。I
didnotknowhow。Iwastoofrightenedandashamed。Nowit’stoolate。Ishallneverseemymotheragain,anditseemsasifallthelambsandprimrosesintheworldwasdead。
Oh,they’redead——they’redead——
andIwishIwas,too!"
Glad’seyeswinkedrapidlyandshegaveahoarselittlecoughtoclearherthroat。Herarmsstillclaspingherknees,shehitchedherselfclosertothegirlandgaveheranudgewithherelbow。
"Buckup,Polly,"shesaid,"weain’tnoneofusfinishedyet。Lookatusnow——sittin’byourownfirewithbreadandpuddin’insideus——
an’thinkwotwewasthismornin’。
Whoknowswotwe’ll’avethistimeto—morrer。"
ThenshestoppedandlookedwithawidegrinatAntonyDart。
"OwdidIcome’ere?"shesaid。
"Yes,"heanswered,"howdidyoucomehere?"
"Idunno,"shesaid;"Iwas’erefirstthingIremember。Ilivedwithaoldwomaninanother’ouseinthecourt。Onemornin’whenIwokeupshewasdead。SometimesI’vebeggedan’soldmatches。SometimesI’vetookcareofwomen’schildrenor’elped’emwhenthey’adtolieup。
I’veseenalot——butIliketoseealot。’OpeI’llseealotmoreaforeI’mdone。I’musedtobein’’ungryan’cold,an’allthat,but——butI
allersliketoseewhat’scomin’to—
morrer。There’sallerssomethin’
elseto—morrer。That’sallaboutME,"andshechuckledagain。
Dartpickedupsomefreshsticksandthrewthemonthefire。Therewassomefinecracklingandanewflameleapedup。
"Ifyoucoulddowhatyouliked,"
hesaid,"whatwouldyouliketodo?"
Herchucklebecameanoutrightlaugh。
"IfI’adtenpounds?"sheasked,evidentlypreparedtoadjustherselfinimaginationtoanyformofun—
looked—forgoodluck。
"Ifyouhadmore?"
Histonemadethethieflifthisheadtolookathim。
"IfI’adawandliketheoneJemtoldmewasinthepantermine?"
"Yes,"heanswered。
Shesatandstaredatthefireafewmoments,andthenbegantospeakinalowluxuriatingvoice。
"I’dgetabetterroom,"shesaid,revelling。"There’soneinthenext’ouse。I’d’aveafewstickso’
furnisherinit——abedan’achairortwo。I’dgetsomewarmpetticutsan’ashawlan’a’at——withaostrichfeatherinit。Pollyan’
me’dlivetogether。We’d’avefirean’grubeveryday。I’dgetdrunkenBet’sbibyputinan’ome。
I’d’elpthewomenwhenthey’adtolieup。I’d——I’d’elp’IMabit,"
withajerkofherelbowtowardthethief。"If’ewaskeptfedp’r’aps’ecouldworkoutthatthingin’is’ead。
I’dgoroundthecourtan’’elpthemwith’usbandsthatknocks’emabout。
I’d——I’dputastoptotheknockin’
about,"aqueerfixedlookshowingitselfinhereyes。"IfI’admoneyIcoulddoit。’Owmuch,"withsuddenprudence,"couldabody’ave——withoneo’themwands?"
"Morethanenoughtodoallyouhavespokenof,"answeredDart。
"It’sashimeabodycouldn’t’aveit。AppleBlossomCourt’dbeadifferentthing。It’dbethesimeasMissMontaubynsaysit’sgoin’tobe。"Shelaughedagain,thistimeasifrememberingsomethingfantastic,butnotdespicable。
"WhoisMissMontaubyn?"
"She’sa’oldwomanaslivesnextfloorbelow。Whenshewasyoungshewasprettyan’usedtodanceinthe’alls。DrunkenBetsaysshewasoneo’thewust。Whenshegotolditmade’ermadan’shegotwusser。
Shewasreadytoteargalseyesout,an’whenshe’dgettookformakin’
arowshe’dfightlikeatigercat。
Aboutayearagoshetumbleddownstairswhenshe’d’adtoomuchan’
shebrokeboth’erlegs。Youremember,Polly?"
Pollyhidherfaceinherhands。
"Oh,whentheytookherawaytothehospital!"sheshuddered。"Oh,whentheyliftedheruptocarryher!"
"IthoughtPolly’d’aveafitwhenshe’eard’erscreamin’an’swearin’。
My!itwaslangwich!Butitwasthe’orspitledidit。"
"Didwhat?"
"Dunno,"withanuncertain,evenslightlyawedlaugh。"Dunnowotitdid——neitherdoesnobodyelse,butsomethin’’appened。Itwasalongofalidyascomeinonedayan’talkedto’erwhenshewaslyin’
there。Myeye,"chuckling,"itwasqueertalk!ButIlikedit。P’rapsitwaslies,butitwascheerfleliesthat’elpsyer。WhatIsesis——ifTHINGSain’tcheerfle,PEOPLE’Sgottobe——tofightitout。Thewomeninthe’ouselarftfittokilltheirselveswhenshefustcome’omelimpin’an’
talkedto’emaboutwhatthelidytold’er。Butarterabittheylikedto’ear’er——justalongo’thecheerfleness。Saiditwaslikeapantermine。DrunkenBetsaysifshecouldget’old’fitan’believeitsimeasJinnyMontaubyndoesit’dbeascheerin’asdrinkan’lastlonger。"
"Isitakindofreligion?"Dartasked,havingavaguememoryofrumorsoffantasticnewtheoriesandhalf—bornbeliefswhichhadseemedtohimweirdvisionsfloatingthroughfaggedbrainsweariedbyolddoubtsandargumentsandfailures。Theworldwastired——thewholeearthwassad——centurieshadwroughtonlytotheendofthistwentiethcentury’sdespair。Wasthestrugglewakingevenhere——inthisbackwaterofthehugecity’shumantide?
hewonderedwithdullinterest。
"Isitakindofreligion?"hesaid。
"It’scheerfler。"Gladthrustouthersharpchinuncertainlyagain。
"There’sno’ellfireinit。An’
thereain’tnoblimelaidonGodamighty。"(ThewordassheuttereditseemedtohavenoconnectionwhateverwithherusualcolloquialinvocationoftheDeity。)"WhenadrayrunoverlittleBillyan’crushed’iminterarag,an’’ismotherwasscreamin’an’draggin’’er’airdown,thecurick’eses,`It’sGawd’swill,’
’eses——an’’eain’tnobadsortneither,an’’isficewaswhitean’wetwithsweat——`Gawddoneit,’’eses。
An’me,I’dnussedthechildan’I
clawedme’airsimeasifIwas’ismotheran’Iscreamedout,`Thendamn’im!’An’thecurick’edroppedsittin’downonthecurb—
stonean’’id’isficein’is’ands。"
Darthidhisownfaceafterthemannerofthewretchedcurate。
"Nowonder,"hegroaned。Hisbloodturnedcold。
"But,"saidGlad,"MissMontaubyn’slidyshesaysGodamightyneverdoneitnorneverintendedit,an’ifwekep’sayin’an’believin’’e’sclosetousan’notmillyunso’milesaway,we’dbetookcareofwhilstwewasalivean’not’avetowaittillwewasdead。"
Shegotuponherfeetandthrewupherarmswithasuddenjerkandinvoluntarygesture。
"I’malive!I’malive!"shecriedout,"I’vegotterbetookcareofNOW!That’swhyIlikewotshetellsaboutit。Sodoesthewomen。
Weain’tnomorereasonterbesureofwotthecuricksaysthanterbesureo’this。DunnoasI’vegotterchooseeitherway,butifI’ad,I’dchoosethecheerflest。"
Darthadsatstaringather——sohadPolly——sohadthethief。Dartrubbedhisforehead。
"Idonotunderstand,"hesaid。
"’Tain’tunderstanding!It’sbelievin’。Blessyer,SHEdoesn’tunderstand。Isay,let’sgoan’talkto’erabit。Shedon’tmindnothin’,an’
she’llletusin。WecanleavePollyan’’im’ere。Theycanmakesomemoreteaan’drinkit。"
Itendedintheirgoingoutoftheroomtogetheragainandstumblingoncemoredownthestairway’scrookedness。AtthebottomofthefirstshortflighttheystoppedinthedarknessandGladknockedatadoorwithasummonsmanifestlyexpectantofcheerfulwelcome。Sheusedtheformulashehadusedbefore。
"’Son’yme,MissMontaubyn,"
shecriedout。"’Son’yGlad。"
Thedooropenedinwidewelcome,andconfrontingthemasshehelditshandlestoodasmalloldwomanwithanastonishingface。Itwasastonishingbecausewhileitwaswitheredandwrinkledwithmarksofpastyearswhichhadoncestampedtheirrecklessunsavorinessuponitseveryline,somestrangeredeemingthinghadhappenedtoitanditsexpressionwasthatofacreaturetowhomtheopeningofadoorcouldonlymeantheentrance——thetumblinginasitwere——ofhopesrealized。
Itssurfacewassweptcleanofeventhevaguestanticipationofanythingnottobedesired。Smilingasitdidthroughtheblackdoorwayintotheunrelievedshadowofthepassage,itstruckAntonyDartatoncethatitactuallyimpliedthis——
andthatinthisplace——andindeedinanyplace——nothingcouldhavebeenmoreastonishing。Whatcould,indeed?
"Well,well,"shesaid,"comein,Glad,blessyer。"
"I’vebroughtagentto’earyertalkabit,"Gladexplainedinformally。
Thesmalloldwomanraisedhertwinklingoldfacetolookathim。
"Ah!"shesaid,asifsummingupwhatwasbeforeher。"’Ethinksit’sworsethanitis,doesn’t’e,now?
Comein,sir,do。"
ThistimeitstruckDartthatherlookseemedactuallytoanticipatetheevolvingofsomewonderfulanddesirablethingfromhimself。Asifevenhisgloomcarriedwithittreasureasyetundisplayed。Assheknewnothingofthetensovereigns,hewonderedwhat,inGod’sname,shesaw。
Thepovertyofthelittlesquareroomhadanoddcheerinit。MuchscrubbinghadremovedfromittheobjectionsmanifestinGlad’sroomabove。Therewasasmallredfireinthegrate,astripofold,butgaycarpetbeforeit,twochairsandatablewerecoveredwithaharlequinpatchworkmadeofbrightoddsandendsofallsizesandshapes。Thefoginallitsmurkyvolumecouldnotquiteobscurethebrightnessoftheoftenrubbedwindowanditsharlequincurtaindrawnacrossuponastring。
"Blessyer,"saidMissMontaubyn,"sitdown。"
Dartsatandthankedher。GladdroppeduponthefloorandgirdledherkneescomfortablywhileMissMontaubyntookthesecondchair,whichwasclosetothetable,andsnuffedthecandlewhichstoodnearabasketofcoloredscrapssuchas,withoutdoubt,hadmadetheharlequincurtain。
"Yerwon’tmindmegoin’onwithmebito’work?"shechirped。
"Tell’imwotitis,"Gladsuggested。
"Theycomefromadressmakerasisinasmallway,"designatingthescrapsbyagesture。"Icleanupfor’eran’
sheletsme’ave’em。Imake’emupintoanythinkIcan——pin—cushionsan’
bagsan’curtingsan’balls。Nobody’dthinkwottheyruntosometimes。
Nowan’thenIsellsomeof’em。
WotIcan’tsellIgiveaway。"
"DrunkenBet’sbibyplayswith’erballallday,"saidGlad。
"Ah!"saidMissMontaubyn,drawingoutalongneedlefulofthread,"Bet,SHEthinksitworsethanitis。"
"Coulditbeworse?"askedDart。
"Couldanythingbeworsethaneverythingis?"
"Lots,"suggestedGlad;"might’avebrokeyourback,might’aveafever,mightbeinjailforknifin’
someone。’Ewantsto’earyoutalk,MissMontaubyn;tell’imallaboutyerself。"
"Me!"herexpectanteyesonhim。
"’Ewouldn’twantto’earit。I
shouldn’twantto’earitmyself。
Bein’onthe’allswhenyeraprettygirlain’tan’elpfullife;an’bein’
tookupan’droppeddowntillyerdroppedinthegutteran’don’tknow’owtogetout——it’swotyermustn’tletyermindgobackto。"
"That’swotthelidysaid,"calledoutGlad。"Tell’imaboutthelidy。
Shedoesn’tevenknowwhoshewas。"
TheremarkwastossedtoDart。
"Nevereven’eard’ername,"withunabatedcheersaidMissMontaubyn。
"Shecomean’shewentan’metoolowtodoanythingbutliean’lookat’erandlisten。An’`Whichofustwoismad?’Isestomyself。ButI
laythinkin’andthinkin’——an’itwassocheerfleIcouldn’tgetitoutofme’ead——nornever’avesince。"
"Whatdidshesay?"
"Icouldn’trememberthewords——itwasthewaytheytookawaythingsabody’safraidof。Itwasaboutthingsnever’avin’reallybeenlikewotwethoughttheywas。
Godamightynow,thereain’tabitof’armin’im。"
"What?"hesaidwithastart。
"’Eneverdonetheaccidentsandthetrouble。Itwasusaswentoutofthelightintothedark。Ifwe’dkep’inthelightallthetime,an’
thoughtaboutit,an’talkedaboutit,we’dnever’adnothin’else。’Tain’tpunishmentneither。’Tain’tnothin’
butthedark——an’thedarkain’tnothin’butthelightbein’away。
`Keepinthelight,’sheses,`neverthinkofnothin’else,an’thenyou’llbeginan’seethings。Everybody’sbeenafraid。Thereain’tnoneed。
YoubelieveTHAT。’"
"Believe?"saidDartheavily。
Shenodded。
"`Yes,’sesIto’er,`that’swherethetroublecomesin——believin’。’
Andsheanswersascoolascouldbe:`Yes,itis,’sheses,`we’veallbeenthinkin’we’vebeenbelievin’,an’noneofus’as。Ifwe’adwhat’dtherebetobeafraidof?Ifwebelievedakingwasgivin’usourlivin’an’takin’careofuswho’dbeafraidofnot’avin’enoughtoeat?’"
"Who?"groanedDart。Hesathanginghisheadandstaringatthefloor。Thiswasanotherphaseofthedream。
"`Whereis’E?’Ises。`’Imasbreaksoldwomen’slegsan’crushesbabiesunderwheels——soasthey’llberesigned?’An’allofasuddenshecallsoutquiteloud:`Nowhere,’
sheses。`An’neverwas。But’Imasstretchedforththe’eavensan’laidthefoundationsoftheearth,’ImasistheLifean’Loveoftheworld,’E’s’ERE!Stretchoutyer’and,’sheses,’an’callout,"Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,"an’ye’ll’earan’SEE。
An’neveryoustopsayin’it——letyer’eartbeatitan’yerbreathbreatheit——an’yer’llfindyergoin’aboutlaughin’softtoyerselfan’lovin’
everythin’asifitwasyerownchildatbreast。An’no’armcancometoyer。Tryitwhenyergo’ome。’"
"Didyou?"askedDart。
Gladansweredforherwithatremulous——yesitwasaTREMULOUS——
giggle,aweirdlymovedlittlesound。
"Whenshewakesinthemornin’
shesesto’erself,`Goodthingsisgoin’tocometo—day——cheerflethings。’Whenthere’saknockatthedoorsheses,`Somethin’friendly’scomin’in。’An’whenDrunkenBet’smakin’arowan’ragin’an’tearin’
an’threatenin’to’ave’ereyesoutof’erfice,sheses,`Lor,Bet,yerdon’tmeanawordofit——yerafriendtoeverywomaninthe’ouse。’Whenshedon’tknowwhichwaytoturn,shestandsstillan’ses,`Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,’an’thenshedoeswotevernextcomesinto’ermind——
an’shesaysit’sallustherightanswer。