Sometimes,"sheepishly,"I’vetrieditmyself——p’rapsit’strue。Ididitthismornin’whenIsatdownan’
pulledmesackoverme’eadonthebridge。Polly’dbeencryin’soloudallnightI’dgotabitlowinmestummickan’——"ShestoppedsuddenlyandturnedonDartasiflighthadflashedacrosshermind。"Dunnonothin’aboutit,"shestammered,"butISAIDit——justlikeshedoes。
an’YOUcome!"
Plainlyshehadutteredwhateverwordsshehadusedintheformofasortofincantation,andherewastheresultinthelivingbodyofthismansittingbeforeher。Shestaredhardathim,repeatingherwords:"YOU
come。Yes,youdid。"
"Itwastheanswer,"saidMissMontaubyn,withentiresimplicityasshebitoffherthread,"that’swotitwas。"
AntonyDartliftedhisheavyhead。
"Youbelieveit,"hesaid。
"I’mlivin’onbelievin’it,"shesaidconfidingly。"Iain’tgotnothin’else。An’answerskeepscomin’andcomin’。"
"Whatanswers?"
"Bitso’work——an’thingsas’elps。Gladthere,she’sone。"
"Aw,"saidGlad,"Iain’tnothin’。
Ilikesto’earyertellaboutit。Sheses,"toDartagain,alittleslowly,asshewatchedhisfacewithcuriouslyquestioningeyes——"sheses’E’Sintheroom——sameas’E’severywhere——inthis’ereroom。Sometimesshetalksoutloudto’Im。"
"What!"criedDart,startledagain。
ThestrangeMajesticAwfulIdea——theDeityoftheAges——tobespokenofasamereunfearedReality!
Andevenasthevaguelyformedthoughtspranginhisbrainhestartedoncemore,suddenlyconfrontedbythemeaninghissenseofshockimplied。WhathadallthesermonsofallthecenturiesbeenpreachingbutthatitwasReality?WhathadalltheinfidelsofeveryagecontendedbutthatitwasUnreal,andthefollyofadream?Hehadneverthoughtofhimselfasaninfidel;perhapsitwouldhaveshockedhimtobecalledone,thoughhewasnotquitesure。
Butthatalittlesuperannuateddanceratmusic—halls,batteredandwornbyanunlawfullife,shouldsitandsmileinabsolutefaithatsucha——asuperstitionasthis,stirredsomethinglikeaweinhim。
Forshewassmilinginentireacquiescence。
"It’swhatthecurickses,"sheenlargedradiantly。"Though’edontbelieveit,poreyoungman;’eon’ythinks’edoes。`It’sfor’ighan’
low,’’eses,`foryouan’measwellasforthemasisroyalfambleys。
TheAlmighty’E’sEVERYWHERE!’
`Yes,’sesI,`I’vefelt’Im’ere——asnearasy’areyerself,sir,I’ave——an’
I’vespoketo’Im。"’
"Whatdidthecuratesay?"Dartasked,amazed。
"Seemedlikeitfrightened’imabit。`Wemustn’tbetoobold,MissMontaubyn,mydear,’’eses,for’e’sakindyoungmanaseverlived,an’
oftenses`mydear’tothem’e’scomfortin’。Butyerseethelidy’adgavemeaBibleo’meownan’I’dset’erean’readit,an’readitan’learnedversestosaytomeselfwhenIwasinbed——an’I’dgotterfeellikeitwassomeonetalkin’tomean’makin’meunderstand。SoIses,`’Tain’tboldnesswe’rewarnedagainst;it’snotlovin’an’trustin’enough,an’notaskin’an’believin’TRUE。Don’tyerrememberwotitses:"I,evenI,am’ethatcomfortethyer。Whoartthouthatthouartafraidofmanthatshalldiean’thesonofmanthatshallbemadeasgrass,an’forgettethJehovahthyCreator,thatstretchedforththe’eavensan’laidthefoundationsoftheearth?"an’"I’vecoveredtheewiththeshadderofme’and,"itses;an’"Iwillgobeforetheean’maketheroughplacessmooth;"an’"’Ithertoye’aveaskednothin’inmyname;askthereforethatyemayreceive,an’yerjoymaybemadefull。"’An’’elookeddownonthefloorasif’ewasdoin’some’ardthinkin’,poreyoungman,an’’eses,quitesuddenan’shaky,`Lord,I
believe,’elpthoumyunbelief,’an’’esesitasif’ewasintroublean’didn’tknow’e’dspokeoutloud。"
"Where——howdidyoucomeuponyourverses?"saidDart。"Howdidyoufindthem?"
"Ah,"triumphantly,"theywasallanswers——theywasthefirstanswersIever’ad。WhenIfirstcome’omean’itseemedasifIwasgoin’
tobeswep’awayinthedirto’thestreet——onedaywhenIwasneardrovewildwithcoldan’’unger,I
setdownontheflooran’IdraggedtheBibletomean’Ises:`Thereain’tnothin’onearthorin’ellas’ll’elpme。I’mgoin’todowotthelidysaid——madornot。’An’I’eldthebook——an’I’eldmybreath,too,’cositwaslikewaitin’fortheendo’
theworld——an’afterabitI’earsmyselfcalloutina’ollerwhisper,`Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth。
Showmea’ope。’An’Iwastremblin’
alloverwhenIopenedthebook。An’thereitwas!`Iwillgobeforetheean’maketheroughplacessmooth,Iwillbreakinpiecesthedoorsofbrassandwillcutinsunderthebarsofiron。’An’I
knoweditwasaanswer。"
"You——knew——it——wasananswer?"
"Wotelsewasit?"withashiningface。"I’darstforit,an’thereitwas。An’inaboutahourGladcomerunnin’up’ere,an’she’d’adabito’luck——"
"’Twasn’tnothin’much,"Gladbrokeindeprecatingly,"on’yI’dgotsomethin’toeatan’abito’fire。"
"An’shemademegoan’’avea’eartymeal,an’setan’warmmeself。
An’shewasthatcheerflean’fullo’
pluck,she’elpedmetoforgetaboutthethingsthatwasmakin’meintoamadwoman。SHEwastheanswer——
sameasthebook’adpromised。Theycomesindifferentwyestheanswersdoes。Blessyer,theydon’tcomeinclapsofthunderan’streakso’lightenin’——
theyjustcomeseasyan’natural——
so’ssometimesyerdon’tthinkforaminitortwothatthey’reanswersatall。Butitcomestoyerinabitan’yer’eartstandsstillforjoy。
An’eversincethenIjustgotomebookan’arst。P’raps,"hersmileanilluminatingthing,"mebein’thelowan’poreinspiritatthebeginnin’,an’settin’’ereallalonebyme—
selfdayinan’dayout,justthinkin’
itallover——an’arstin’——an’waitin’
——p’rapslightwasgaveme’cosI
wasinsuchalittleplacean’inthedark。ButIain’tporeinspiritnow。
Lor’,no,yercan’tbewhenyer’veon’ygottobelieve。`An’’ithertoye’avearstnothin’inmyname;
arstthereforethatyemayreceivean’yerjoybemadefull。’"
"AmIsittingherelisteningtoanoldfemalereprobate’sdisquisitiononreligion?"passedthroughAntonyDart’smind。"WhyamIlistening?
IamdoingitbecausehereisacreaturewhoBELIEVES——knowingnodoctrine,knowingnochurch。
SheBELIEVES——shethinkssheKNOWS
herDeityisbyherside。Sheisnotafraid。TohersimplenesstheawfulUnknownistheKnown——andWITH
her。"
"Supposeitweretrue,"heutteredaloud,inresponsetoasenseofinwardtremor,"suppose——it——were——TRUE?"Andhewasnotspeakingeithertothewomanorthegirl,andhisforeheadwasdamp。
"Gawd!"saidGlad,herchinalmostonherknees,hereyesstaringfearsomely。"S’poseitwas——an’ussittin’’erean’notknowin’it——an’
nooneknowin’it——norgettin’thegoodofit。Simeasif——"ponderinghardinsearchofsimile,"simeasifnoone’adneverknowedabout’lectricity,an’therewasn’tno’lectriclightsnorno’lectricnothin’。Onctnobodyknowed,an’allthesimeitwasthere——jestwaitin’。"
Herfantasticlaughendedforherwithalittlechoking,vaguelyhystericsound。
"Blimme,"shesaid。"Ain’titqueer,usnotknowin’——IFIT’STRUE。"
AntonyDartbentforwardinhischair。Helookedfarintotheeyesoftheex—dancerasifsomeunseenthingwithinthemmightanswerhim。MissMontaubynherselfforthemomenthedidnotsee。
"What,"hestammeredhoarsely,hisvoicebrokenwithawe,"whatofthehideouswrongs——thewoesandhorrors——andhideouswrongs?"
"Therewouldn’tbenoneifWE
wasright——ifweneverthoughtnothin’
but`Good’scomin’——good’s’ere。’Ifweeveryoneofusthoughtit——everyminitofeveryday。"
Shedidnotknowshewasspeakingofamillennium——theendoftheworld。Shesatbyheronecandle,threadingherneedleandbelievingshewasspeakingofTo—day。
Helaughedahollowlaugh。
"Ifwewereright!"hesaid。"Itwouldtakelong——long——long——tomakeusallso。"
"Itwouldbeslowp’raps。Well,soitwould——butgoodcomesquickforthemasbeginscallin’it。It’sbeenquickforME,"drawingherthreadthroughtheneedle’seyetriumphantly。"Lor’,yes,melegsisbetter——meluck’sbetter——people’sbetter。Blessyer,yes!"
"It’strue,"saidGlad;"shegetsonsomehow。Thingscomes。Sheneverwantsnodrink。Menow,"
sheappliedtoMissMontaubyn,"ifItookitupsameasyou——wot’dcometoagallikeme?"
"Wotudyerwanttercome?"
Dartsawthatinhermindwasanabsolutelackofanypremonitionofobstacle。"Wot’dyerarstferinyerownmind?"
Gladreflectedprofoundly。
"Polly,"shesaid,"shewantstogo’ometo’ermotheran’tothecountry。
Iain’tgotnomotheran’wotI
’earofthecountryseemslikeI’dgettiredofit。Nothin’butquietan’
lambsan’birdsan’thingsgrowin。’
Me,Ilikesthingsgoin’on。Ilikespeoplean’’andorgansan’’buses。I’dstay’ere——sameasItoldYOU,"withajerkofherhandtowardDart。
"An’dothingsinthecourt——ifI’adabito’money。Idon’twanttolivenogaylifewhenI’mawoman。
It’stoo’ard。Usporeunsendstoobad。WishtIknowedIcouldgetonsome’ow。"
"Good’llcome,"saidMissMontaubyn。"Justyousaythesameasmeeverymornin’——`Good’sfillin’
theworld,an’someofit’scomin’tome。It’sbein’sent——an’I’mgoin’
tomeetit。It’scomin’——it’scomin’。’"Shebentforwardandtouchedthegirl’sshoulderwithherastonishingeyesalight。"Blessyer,wot’sinmyroom’sinyours;Lor’,yes。"
Glad’seyesstaredintohers,theybecamemysteriously,almostawesomely,astonishingalso。
"Isit?"shebreathedinahushedvoice。
"Yes,Lor’,yes!Whenyergetupinthemornin’youjuststandstillan’ARSTit。`Speak,Lord,’sesyou;
`speak,Lord——’"
"Thyservant’eareth,"endedGlad’shushedspeech。"Blimme,butI’mgoin’totryit!"
Perhapsthebrainofhersawitstillasanincantation,perhapsthesoulofher,calledupstrangelyoutofthedarkandstillnew—bornandblindandvague,sawitvaguelyandhalfblindlyassomethingelse。
Dartwaswonderingwhichofthesethingsweretrue。
"We’veneverbeenexpectin’
nothin’that’sgood,"saidMissMontaubyn。"We’reallusexpectin’
theother。Whoisn’t?Iwasallusexpectin’rheumatizan’’ungeran’
coldan’starvin’oldage。Wotwasyoulookin’for?"toDart。
Helookeddownonthefloorandansweredheavily。
"Failingbrain——failinglife——
despair——death!"
"Noneof’em’scomin’——ifyerdon’tcall’em。Standstillan’listenfortheother。It’stheotherthat’sTRUE。"
Shewaswithoutdoubtamazing。
Shechirpedlikeabirdsingingonabough,rejoicingintokenoftheshiningofthesun。
"It’swotyercanworkon——
this,"saidGlad。"Thecurick——
’e’sagoodsortan’no’’armin’im——but’eses:`Troublean’’ungeristerteachyertersubmit。Accidentsan’coughsastearsyerlungsissentyoutoprepareyerfor’eaven。Ifyerloves’Imassends’em,yer’llgothere。’`’Aveyereverbin?’sesI。
`’Aveyereversawanyonethat’sbin?’Aveyereversawanyonethat’ssawanyonethat’sbin?’
`No,’’eses。`Don’t,megirl,don’t!’
`Garn,’Ises;`tellmesomethin’
as’lldomesomegoodaforeI’mdead!’Eaven’stoofaroff。’"
"Thekingdomof’eavenisat’and,"saidMissMontaubyn。"Blessyer,yes,just’ere。"
AntonyDartglancedroundtheroom。Itwasastrangeplace。ButsomethingWAShere。Magic,wasit?Frenzy——dreams——what?
Heheardfrombelowasuddenmurmurandcryingoutinthestreet。MissMontaubynhearditandstoppedinhersewing,holdingherneedleandthreadextended。
Gladhearditandsprangtoherfeet。
"Somethin’s’appened,"shecriedout。"Someone’s’urt。"
Shewasoutoftheroominabreath’sspace。Shestoodoutsidelisteningafewsecondsanddartedbacktotheopendoor,speakingthroughit。Theycouldhearbelowcommotion,exclamations,thewailofachild。
"Somethin’s’appenedtoBet!"
shecriedoutagain。"Ican’earthechild。"
Shewasgoneandflyingdownthestaircase;AntonyDartandMissMontaubynrosetogether。Thetumultwasincreasing;peoplewererunningaboutinthecourt,anditwasplainacrowdwasformingbythemagicwhichcallsupcrowdsasfromnowhereaboutthedoor。Thechild’sscreamsroseshrillabovethenoise。Itwasnosmallthingwhichhadoccurred。
"Imustgo,"saidMissMontaubyn,limpingawayfromhertable。"P’rapsIcan’elp。P’rapsyoucan’elp,too,"ashefollowedher。
TheyweremetbyGladatthethreshold。Shehadshotbacktothem,panting。
"Shewasblinddrunk,"shesaid,"an’shewentouttogetmore。Shetriedtocrossthestreetan’fellunderacar。She’llbedeadinfiveminits。
I’mgoin’forthebiby。"
DartsawMissMontaubynstepbackintoherroom。Heturnedinvoluntarilytolookather。
Shestoodstillasecond——sostillthatitseemedasifshewasnotdrawingmortalbreath。Herastonishing,expectanteyesclosedthemselves,andyetinclosingspokeexpectancystill。
"Speak,Lord,"shesaidsoftly,butasifshespoketoSomethingwhosenearnesstoherwassuchthatherhandmighthavetouchedit。"Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth。"
AntonyDartalmostfelthishairrise。Hequakedasshecamenear,herpoorclothesbrushingagainsthim。Hedrewbacktoletherpassfirst,andfollowedherleading。
Thecourtwasfilledwithmen,women,andchildren,whosurgedaboutthedoorway,talking,crying,andprotestingagainsteachother’scrowding。Dartcaughtaglimpseofapolicemanfightinghiswaythroughwithadoctor。Adishevelledwomanwithachildatherdirty,barebreasthadgotinandwastalkingloudly。
"Justoutsidethecourtitwas,"
sheproclaimed,"an’Isawit。Ifshe’dbin’erselfitcouldn’t’ave’appened。`Notimefor’osspitles,’
sesI。She’snottwentybreathstodror;let’erdiein’erownbed,porething!"Andbothsheandherbabybreakingintowailsatoneandthesametime,otherwomen,somehysteric,somemaudlinwithgin,joinedtheminaterrifiedoutburst。
"Getout,youwomen,"commandedthedoctor,whohadforcedhiswayacrossthethreshold。"Sendthemaway,officer,"tothepoliceman。
Therewereotherstoturnoutoftheroomitself,whichwascrowdedwithmorbidorterrifiedcreatures,allmakingforconfusion。Gladhadseizedthechildandwasforcingherwayoutintosuchairastherewasoutside。
Thebed——astrangeandloathlything——stoodbytheempty,rustyfireplace。DrunkenBetlayonit,abundleofclothingoverwhichthedoctorbentforbutafewminutesbeforeheturnedaway。
AntonyDart,standingnearthedoor,heardMissMontaubynspeaktohiminawhisper。
"MayIgoto’er?"andthedoctornodded。
Shelimpedlightlyforwardandhersmallfacewaswhite,butexpectantstill。Whatcouldsheexpectnow——OLord,what?
Anextraordinarythinghappened。
Anabnormalsilencefell。Theownersofsuchfacesasonstretchedneckscaughtsightofherseemedinaflashtocommunicatewithothersinthecrowd。
"JinnyMontaubyn!"someonewhispered。And"JinnyMontaubyn"
waspassedalong,leavinganawedstirringinitswake。Thosewhomthepressureoutsidehadcrushedagainstthewallnearthewindowinapassionatehurry,breathedonandrubbedthepanesthattheymightlaytheirfacestothem。Onetoreouttheragsstuffedinabrokenplaceandlistenedbreathlessly。
JinnyMontaubynwaskneelingdownandlayinghersmalloldhandonthemuddiedforehead。ShehelditthereasecondorsoandspokeinavoicewhoselowclearnessbroughtbackatoncetoDartthevoiceinwhichshehadspokentotheSomethingupstairs。
"Bet,"shesaid,"Bet。"Andthenmoresoftstillandyetmoreclear,"Bet,mydear。"
Itseemedincredible,butitwasafact。Slowlythelidsofthewoman’seyesliftedandthepupilsfixedthemselvesonJinnyMontaubyn,wholeanedstillcloserandspokeagain。
"’Tain’ttrue,"shesaid。"Notthis。’Tain’tTRUE。ThereISNO
DEATH,"slowandsoft,butpassionatelydistinct。"THERE——IS——NO——DEATH。"
Themusclesofthewoman’sfacetwisteditintoaruefulsmile。ThethreewordsshedraggedoutweresofaintthatperhapsnonebutDart’sstrainedearsheardthem。
"Wot——price——ME?"
Thesoulofherwaslooseningfastandstrainingaway,butJinnyMontaubynfollowedit。
"THERE——IS——NO——DEATH,"andherlowvoicehadthetoneofaslendersilvertrumpet。"Inaminityer’llknow——inaminit。Lord,"liftingherexpectantface,"showherthewye。"
Mysteriouslythecloudswereclearingfromthesoddenface——mysteri—
ously。MissMontaubynwatchedthemastheyweresweptaway!A
minute——twominutes——andtheyweregone。Thensherosenoiselesslyandstoodlookingdown,speakingquitesimplyasiftoherself。
"Ah,"shebreathed,"sheDOES
knownow——fersurean’certain。"
ThenAntonyDart,turningslightly,realizedthatamanwhohadenteredthehouseandbeenstandingnearhim,breathingwithlightquickness,sincethemomentMissMontaubynhadknelt,wasplainlythepersonGladhadcalledthe"curick,"andthathehadbowedhisheadandcoveredhiseyeswithahandwhichtrembled。
IV
Hewasayoungmanwithaneagersoul,andhisworkinAppleBlossomCourtandplaceslikeithadtornhimmanyways。Religiousconventionsestablishedthroughcenturiesofcustomhadnotpreparedhimforlifeamongthesubmerged。
Hehadstruggledandbeenappalled,hehadwrestledinprayerandfelthimselfunanswered,andinrepentanceofthefeelinghadscourgedhimselfwiththorns。MissMontaubyn,returningfromthehospital,hadfilledhimatfirstwithhorrorandprotest。
"Butwhoknows——whoknows?"
hesaidtoDart,astheystoodandtalkedtogetherafterward,"Faithasalittlechild。Thatisliterallyhers。
AndIwasshockedbyit——andtriedtodestroyit,untilIsuddenlysawwhatIwasdoing。Iwas——inmycloddishegotism——tryingtoshowherthatshewasirreverentBECAUSE
shecouldbelievewhatinmysoulI
donot,thoughIdarenotadmitsomucheventomyself。Shetookfromsomestrangepassingvisitortohertorturedbedsidewhatwastoherarevelation。Shehearditfirstasachildhearsastoryofmagic。Whenshecameoutofthehospital,shetolditasifitwasone。I——I——"hebithislipsandmoistenedthem,"arguedwithherandreproachedher。ChristtheMerciful,forgiveme!Shesatinhersqualidlittleroomwithhermagic——sometimesinthedark——sometimeswithoutfire,andsheclungtoit,andloveditandaskedittohelpher,asachildasksitsfatherforbread。Whenshewasanswered——andGodforgivemeagainfordoubtingthatthesimplegoodthatcametoherWASananswer——whenanysmallhelpcametoher,shewasaradiantthing,andwithoutashadowofdoubtinhereyestoldmeofitasproof——proofthatshehadbeenheard。Whenthingswentwrongforadayandthefirewasoutagainandtheroomdark,shesaid,`I
’aven’tkeptnearenough——I’aven’ttrustedTRUE。Itwillbegavemesoon,’andwhenonceatsuchatimeIsaidtoher,`Wemustlearntosay,Thywillbedone,’shesmiledupatmelikeahappybabyandanswered:
`ThywillbedoneonearthASITISIN
’EAVEN。Lor’,there’snocoldthere,norno’ungernornocryin’norpain。