Wantingalittlerest,andunderstandingeachotherasifbyanaturalinstinct,shesaidtome,"Myfriend,Ihaveanappetitewhichpromisestodohonourtothesupper;areyouabletokeepmegoodcompany?"
  "Yes,"Isaid,knowingwellwhatIcoulddointhatline,"yes,I
  can;andafterwardsyoushalljudgewhetherIamabletosacrificetoLoveaswellastoComus。"
  Sherangthebell,andawoman,middle—agedbutwell—dressedandrespectable—looking,laidoutatablefortwopersons;shethenplacedonanothertableclosebyallthatwasnecessarytoenableustodowithoutattendance,andshebrought,oneaftertheother,eightdifferentdishesinSevresporcelainplacedonsilverheaters。Itwasadelicateandplentifulsupper。
  WhenItastedthefirstdishIatoncerecognizedtheFrenchstyleofcooking,andshedidnotdenyit。WedranknothingbutBurgundyandChampagne。Shedressedthesaladcleverlyandquickly,andineverythingshedidIhadtoadmirethegracefuleaseofhermanners。
  Itwasevidentthatsheowedhereducationtoaloverwhowasafirst—rateconnoisseur。Iwascurioustoknowhim,andasweweredrinkingsomepunchItoldherthatifshewouldgratifymycuriosityinthatrespectIwasreadytotellhermyname。
  "Lettime,dearest,"sheanswered,"satisfyourmutualcuriosity。"
  M————M————had,amongstthecharmsandtrinketsfastenedtothechainofherwatch,asmallcrystalbottleexactlysimilartoonethatIworemyself。Icalledherattentiontothatfact,andasminewasfilledwithcottonsoakedinottoofrosesImadehersmellit。
  "Ihavethesame,"sheobserved。
  Andshemademeinhaleitsfragrance。
  "Itisaveryscarceperfume,"Isaid,"andveryexpensive。"
  "Yes;infactitcannotbebought。"
  "Verytrue;theinventorofthatessencewearsacrown;itistheKingofFrance;hismajestymadeapoundofit,whichcosthimthirtythousandcrowns。"
  "Minewasagiftpresentedtomylover,andhegaveittome:"
  "MadamedePompadoursentasmallphialofittoM。deMocenigo,theVenetianambassadorinParis,throughM。deB————,nowFrenchambassadorhere。"
  "Doyouknowhim?"
  "IhavehadthehonourtodinewithhimontheverydayhecametotakeleaveoftheambassadorbywhomIhadbeeninvited。M。deB————
  isamanwhomfortunehassmiledupon,buthehascaptivateditbyhismerit;heisnotlessdistinguishedbyhis’talentsthanbyhisbirth;heis,Ibelieve,CountdeLyon。Irecollectthathewasnicknamed’BelleBabet,’onaccountofhishandsomeface。Thereisasmallcollectionofpoetrywrittenbyhimwhichdoeshimgreathonour。"
  Itwasnearmidnight;wehadmadeanexcellentsupper,andwewerenearagoodfire。Besides,Iwasinlovewithabeautifulwoman,andthinkingthattimewasprecious——Ibecameverypressing;butsheresisted。
  "Crueldarling,haveyoupromisedmehappinessonlytomakemesufferthetorturesofTantalus?Ifyouwillnotgivewaytolove,atleastobeythelawsofnatureaftersuchadelicioussupper,gotobed。"
  "Areyousleepy?"
  "OfcourseIamnot;butitislateenoughtogotobed。Allowmetoundressyou;Iwillremainbyyourbedside,orevengoawayifyouwishit。"
  "Ifyouweretoleaveme,youwouldgrieveme。"
  "Mygriefwouldbeasgreatasyours,believeme,butifIremainwhatshallwedo?"
  "Wecanliedowninourclothesonthissofa。"
  "Withourclothes!Well,letitbeso;Iwillletyousleep,ifyouwishit;butyoumustforgivemeifIdonotsleepmyself;fortosleepnearyouandwithoutundressingwouldbeimpossible。"
  "Waitalittle。"
  Sherosefromherseat,turnedthesofacrosswise,openedit,tookoutpillows,sheets,blankets,andinoneminutewehadasplendidbed,wideandconvenient。Shetookalargehandkerchief,whichshewrappedroundmyhead,andshegavemeanother,askingmetorenderherthesameservice。Ibeganmytask,dissemblingmydisgustforthewig,butapreciousdiscoverycausedmethemostagreeablesurprise;for,insteadofthewig,my,handsfoundthemostmagnificenthairIhadeverseen。Iutteredascreamofdelightandadmiration。whichmadeherlaugh,andshetoldmethatanunwasundernootherobligationthantoconcealherhair,fromtheuninitiated。Thereuponshepushedmeadroitly,andmademefall’anthesofa。Igotupagain,and,havingthrownoffmyclothesasquickaslightningIthrewmyselfonherratherthannearher。Shewasverystrong;andfoldingmeinherarmsshethoughtthatIoughttoforgiveherforallthetortureshewascondemningmeto。Ihadnotobtainedanyessentialfavour;Iwasburning,butIwastryingtomastermyimpatience,forIdidnotthinkthatIhadyettherighttobeexacting。Icontrivedtoundofiveorsixbowsofribbons,andsatisfied,withhernotopposinganyresistanceinthatquartermyheart—throbbedwithpleasure,andIpossessedmyselfofthemostbeautifulbosom,whichIsmotheredundermykisses。Butherfavourswentnofurther;andmyexcitementincreasinginproportiontothenewperfectionsIdiscoveredinher,Idoubledmyefforts;allinvain。Atlast,compelledtogivewaytofatigue,Ifellasleepinherarms,holdinghertightly,againstme。Anoisychimeofbellswokeus。
  "Whatisthematter?"Iexclaimed。
  "Letusgetup,dearest;itistimeformetoreturntotheconvent。"
  "Dressyourself,andletmehavethepleasureofseeingyouinthegarbofasaint,sinceyouaregoingawayavirgin。"
  "Besatisfiedforthistime,dearest,andlearnfrommehowtopracticeabstinence;weshallbehappieranothertime。WhenIhavegone,ifyouhavenothingtohurryyou,youcanresthere。"
  Sherangthebell,andthesamewomanwhohadappearedintheevening,andwasmostlikelythesecretministerandtheconfidanteofheramorousmysteries,camein。Afterherhairhadbeendressed,shetookoffhergown,lockedupherjewelleryinherbureau,putonthestaysofanun,inwhichshehidthetwomagnificentglobeswhichhadbeenduringthatfatiguingnighttheprincipalagentsofmyhappiness,andassumedhermonasticrobes。Thewomanhavinggoneouttocallthegondoliers,M————M————kissedmewarmlyandtenderly,andsaidtome,"Iexpecttoseeyouthedayafterto—morrow,soastohearfromyouwhichnightIamtomeetyouinVenice;andthen,mybelovedlover,youshallbehappyandItoo。Farewell。"
  Pleasedwithoutbeingsatisfied,Iwenttobedandsleptsoundlyuntilnoon。
  Ileftthecasinowithoutseeinganyone,andbeingwellmaskedI
  repairedtothehouseofLaura,whogavemealetterfrommydearC————C————。Hereisacopyofit:
  "Iamgoingtogiveyou,mybestbeloved,aspecimenofmywayofthinking;andItrustthat,farfromloweringmeinyourestimation,youwilljudgeme,inspiteofmyyouth,capableofkeepingasecretandworthyofbeingyourwife。Certainthatyourheartismine,Idonotblameyouforhavingmadeamysteryofcertainthings,andnotbeingjealousofwhatcandivertyourmindandhelpyoutobearpatientlyourcruelseparation,Icanonlydelightinwhateverprocuresyousomepleasure。Listennow。Yesterday,asIwasgoingalongoneofthehalls,Idroppedatooth—pickwhichIheldinmyhand,andtogetitagain,Iwascompelledtodisplaceastoolwhichhappenedtobeinfrontofacrackinthepartition。Ihavealreadybecomeascuriousasanun——afaultverynaturaltoidlepeople——I
  placedmyeyeagainstthesmallopening,andwhomdidIsee?Youinperson,mydarling,conversinginthemostlivelymannerwithmycharmingfriend,SisterM————M————。Itwouldbedifficultforyoutoimaginemysurpriseandjoy。Butthosetwofeelingsgavewaysoontothefearofbeingseenandofexcitingthecuriosityofsomeinquisitivenun。Iquicklyreplacedthestool,andIwentaway。
  Tellmeall,dearestfriend,youwillmakemehappy。HowcouldI
  cherishyouwithallmysoul,andnotbeanxioustoknowthehistoryofyouradventure?Tellmeifsheknowsyou,andhowyouhavemadeheracquaintance。Sheismybestfriend,theoneofwhomIhavespokensooftentoyouinmyletters,withoutthinkingitnecessarytotellyouhername。SheisthefriendwhoteachesmeFrench,andhaslentmebookswhichgavemeagreatdealofinformationonamattergenerallylittleknowntowomen。Ifithadnotbeenforher,thecauseoftheaccidentwhichhasbeensonearcostingmemylife,wouldhavebeendiscovered。Shegavemesheetsandlinenimmediately;toherIowemyhonour;butshehasnecessarilylearnedinthatwaythatIhavealover,asIknowthatshehasone;butneitherofushasshewnanyanxietytoknowthesecretsoftheother。
  SisterM————M————isararewoman。Ifeelcertain,dearest,thatyouloveoneanother;itcannotbeotherwisesinceyouareacquainted;butasIamnotjealousofthataffection,Ideservethatyoushouldtellmeall。Ipityyouboth,however;forallyoumaydowill,Ifear,onlyirritateyourpassion。Everyoneintheconventthinksthatyouareill,andIamlongingtoseeyou。Come,atleast,once。Adieu!"
  TheletterofC————C————inspiredmewiththedeepestesteemforher,butitcausedmegreatanxiety,because,althoughIfelteveryconfidenceinmydearlittlewife,thesmallcrackinthewallmightexposeM————M————andmyselftotheinquisitivelooksofotherpersons。Besides,Ifoundmyselfcompelledtodeceivethatamiable,trustingfriend,andtotellafalsehood,fordelicacyandhonourforbademetotellherthetruth。IwrotetoherimmediatelythatherfriendshipforM————M————madeitherdutytowarnherfriendatoncethatshehadseenherintheparlourwithamaskedgentleman。
  Iaddedthat,havingheardagreatdealofM————M————’smerit,andwishingtomakeheracquaintance,Ihadcalledonherunderanassumedname;thatIentreatedhernottotellherfriendwhoIwas,butshemightsaythatshehadrecognizedinmethegentlemanwhoattendedtheirchurch。IassuredherwithbarefacedimpudencethattherewasnolovebetweenM————M————andme,butwithoutconcealingthatIthoughtherasuperiorwoman。
  OnSt。Catherine’sDay,thepatronessofmydearC————C————,I
  bethoughtmyselfofaffordingthatlovelyprisonerthepleasureofseeingme。AsIwasleavingthechurchaftermass,andjustasIwasgoingtotakeagondola,Iobservedthatamanwasfollowingme。Itlookedsuspicious,andIdeterminedtoascertainwhetherIwasright。
  Themantookagondolaandfollowedmine。Itmighthavebeenpurelyaccidental;but,keepingonmyguardforfearofsurprise,IalightedinVeniceattheMorosiniPalace;thefellowalightedatthesameplace;hisintentionswereevident。Ileftthepalace,andturningtowardstheFlandersGateIstoppedinanarrowstreet,tookmyknifeinmyhand,waitedforthespy,seizedhimbythecollar,andpushinghimagainstthewallwiththeknifeathisthroatIcommandedhimtotellmewhatbusinesshehadwithme。Tremblingalloverhewouldhaveconfessedeverything,butunluckilysomeoneenteredthestreet。
  ThespyescapedandIwasnowiser,butIhadnodoubtthatforthefuturethatfellowatleastwouldkeepatarespectfuldistance。Itshewedmehoweasyitwouldbeforanobstinatespytodiscovermyidentity,andImadeupmymindnevertogotoMuranbutwithamask,oratnight。
  ThenextdayIhadtoseemybeautifulnuninordertoascertainwhichdayshewouldsupwithmeinVenice,andIwentearlytotheconvent。Shedidnotkeepmewaiting,andherfacewasradiantwithjoy。Shecomplimentedmeuponmyhavingresumedmyattendanceattheirchurch;allthenunshadbeendelightedtoseemeagainafteranabsenceofthreeweeks。
  "Theabbess,"shesaid,"toldmehowgladshewastoseeyou,andthatshewascertaintofindoutwhoyouare。"
  Ithenrelatedtohertheadventureofthespy,andweboththoughtthatitwasmostlikelythemeanstakenbythesaintedwomantogratifyhercuriosityaboutme。
  "Ihaveresolvednottoattendyourchurchanymore。"
  "Thatwillbeagreatdeprivationtome,butinourcommoninterestI
  canbutapproveyourresolution。"
  Sherelatedtheaffairofthetreacherouscrackinthepartition,andadded,"Itisalreadyrepaired,andthereisnolongeranyfearinthatquarter。IheardofitfromayoungboarderwhomIlovedearly,andwhoismuchattachedtome。Iamnotcurioustoknowhername,andshehasnevermentionedittome。"
  "Now,darlingangel,tellmewhethermyhappinesswillbepostponed。"
  "Yes,butonlyfortwenty—fourhours;thenewprofessedsisterhasinvitedmetosupperinherroom,andyoumustunderstandIcannotinventanyplausibleexcuseforrefusingherinvitation。"
  "Youwouldnot,then,tellherinconfidencetheverylegitimateobstaclewhichmakesmewishthatthenewsistersnevertakesupper?"
  "Certainlynot:wenevertrustanyonesofarinaconvent。Besides,dearest,suchaninvitationcannotbedeclinedunlessIwishtogainamostbitterenemy。"
  "Couldyounotsaythatyouareill?"
  "Yes;butthenthevisits!"
  "Iunderstand;ifyoushouldrefuse,theescapemightbesuspected。"
  "Theescape!impossible;herenooneadmitsthepossibilityofbreakingoutoftheconvent。"
  "Thenyouaretheonlyoneabletoperformthatmiracle?"
  "Youmaybesureofthat;but,asisalwaysthecase,itisgoldwhichperformsthatmiracle。"
  "Andmanyothers,perhaps。"
  "Oh!thetimehasgonebyforthem!Buttellme,mylove,wherewillyouwaitformeto—morrow,twohoursafterthesettingofthesun?"
  "CouldInotwaitforyouatyourcasino?"
  "No,becausemyloverwilltakemehimselftoVenice。"
  "Yourlover?"
  "Yes,himself。"
  "Itisnotpossible。"
  "Yetitistrue。"
  "IcanwaitforyouinSt。JohnandSt。Paul’sSquarebehindthepedestalofthestatueofBartholomewofBergamo。"
  "Ihaveneverseeneitherthesquareorthestatueexceptinengravings;itisenough,however,andIwillnotfail。Nothingbutverystormyweathercouldpreventmefromcomingtoarendezvousforwhichmyheartispanting。"
  "Andiftheweatherwerebad?"
  "Then,dearest,therewouldbenothinglost;andyouwouldcomehereagaininordertoappointanotherday。"
  Ihadnotimetolose,forIhadnocasino。ItookasecondrowersoastoreachSt。Mark’sSquaremorerapidly,andIimmediatelysettoworklookingforwhatIwanted。WhenamortalissoluckyastobeinthegoodgracesofthegodPlutus,andisnotcrackbrained,heisprettysuretosucceedineverything:IhadnottosearchverylongbeforeIfoundacasinosuitingmypurposeexactly。ItwasthefinestintheneighbourhoodofVenice,but,asanaturalconsequence,itwaslikewisethemostexpensive。IthadbelongedtotheEnglishambassador,whohadsolditcheaptohiscookbeforeleavingVenice。
  TheownerletittomeuntilEasterforonehundredsequins,whichI
  paidinadvanceonconditionthathewouldhimselfcookthedinnersandthesuppersImightorder。
  Ihadfiveroomsfurnishedinthemostelegantstyle,andeverythingseemedtobecalculatedforlove,pleasure,andgoodcheer。Theserviceofthedining—roomwasmadethroughashamwindowinthewall,providedwithadumb—waiterrevolvinguponitself,andfittingthewindowsoexactlythatmasterandservantscouldnotseeeachother。Thedrawing—roomwasdecoratedwithmagnificentlooking—
  glasses,crystalchandeliers,girandolesingilt,bronze,andwithasplendidpier—glassplacedonachimneyofwhitemarble;thewallswerecoveredwithsmallsquaresofrealchina,representinglittleCupidsandnakedamorouscouplesinallsortsofpositions,wellcalculatedtoexcitetheimagination;elegantandverycomfortablesofaswereplacedoneveryside。Nexttoitwasanoctagonalroom,thewalls,theceiling,andthefloorofwhichwereentirelycoveredwithsplendidVenetianglass,arrangedinsuchamannerastoreflectonallsideseverypositionoftheamorouscoupleenjoyingthepleasuresoflove。Closebywasabeautifulalcovewithtwosecretoutlets;ontheright,anelegantdressing—room,ontheleft,aboudoirwhich,seemedtohavebeenarrangedbythemotherofLove,withabathinCarraramarble。Everywherethewainscotswereembossedinormoluorpaintedwithflowersandarabesques。
  AfterIhadgivenmyordersforallthechandelierstobefilledwithwaxcandles,andthefinestlinentobeprovidedwherevernecessary,Iorderedamostdelicateandsumptuoussupperfortwo,withoutregardtoexpense,andespeciallythemostexquisitewines。Ithentookpossessionofthekeyoftheprincipalentrance,andwarnedthemasterthatIdidnotwanttobeseenbyanyonewhenIcameinorwentout。
  Iobservedwithpleasurethattheclockinthealcovehadanalarum,forIwasbeginning,inspiteoflove,tobeeasilyinfluencedbythepowerofsleep。
  Everythingbeingarrangedaccordingtomywishes,Iwent,asacarefulanddelicatelover,topurchasethefinestslippersIcouldfind,andacapinAlenconpoint。
  Itrustmyreaderdoesnotthinkmetooparticular;lethimrecollectthatIwastoreceivethemostaccomplishedofthesultanasofthemasteroftheuniverse,andItoldthatfourthGracethatIhadacasino。WasItobeginbygivingherabadideaofmytruthfulness?
  Attheappointedtime,thatistwohoursaftersunset,Irepairedtomypalace;anditwouldbedifficulttoimaginethesurpriseofhishonourtheFrenchcook,whenhesawmearrivealone。Notfindingallthechandelierslighted—upasIhadordered,Iscoldedhimwell,givinghimnoticethatIdidnotliketorepeatanorder。
  "Ishallnotfail;sir,anothertime,toexecuteyourcommands。"
  "Letthesupperbeserved。"
  "Yourhonourordereditfortwo。"
  "Yes,fortwo;and,thistime,bepresentduringmysupper,sothatI
  cantellyouwhichdishesIfindgoodorbad。"
  Thesuppercamethroughtherevolving:dumb—waiterinverygoodorder,twodishesatatune。Ipassedsomeremarksuponeverything;
  but,totellthetruth,everythingwasexcellent:game,fish,oysters,truffles,wine,dessert,andthewholeservedinveryfineDresdenchinaandsilver—giltplate。
  Itoldhimthathehadforgottenhardeggs,anchovies,andpreparedvinegartodressasalad。Heliftedhiseyestowardsheaven,asiftopleadguilty,toaveryheinouscrime。
  Afterasupperwhichlastedtwohours,andduringwhichImustcertainlyhavewontheadmirationofmyhost,Iaskedhimtobringmethebill。Hepresentedittomeshortlyafterwards,andIfounditreasonable。Ithendismissedhim,andlaydowninthesplendidbedinthealcove;myexcellentsupperbroughtonverysoonthemostdelicioussleepwhich,withouttheBurgundyandtheChampagne,mightverylikelynothavevisitedme,ifIhadthoughtthatthefollowingnightwouldseemeinthesameplace,andinpossessionofalovelydivinity。Itwasbroadday—lightwhenIawoke,andafterorderingthefinestfruitandsomeicesfortheeveningIleftthecasino。Inordertoshortenadaywhichmyimpatientdesireswouldhavecausedmetofindverylong,Iwenttothefaro—table,andIsawwithpleasurethatIwasasgreatafavouritewithfortuneaswithlove。
  Everythingproceededaccordingtomywishes,andIdelightedinascribingmyhappysuccesstotheinfluenceofmynun。
  Iwasattheplaceofmeetingonehourbeforethetimeappointed,andalthoughthenightwascoldIdidnotfeelit。PreciselyasthehourstruckIsawatwo—oaredgondolareachtheshoreandamaskcomeoutofit,speakafewwordstothegondolier,andtakethedirectionofthestatue。Myheartwasbeatingquickly,butseeingthatitwasamanIavoidedhim,andregrettednothavingbroughtmypistols。Themask,however,turningroundthestatue,cameuptomewithoutstretchedhands;Ithenrecognizedmyangel,whowasamusedatmysurpriseandtookmyarm。WithoutspeakingwewenttowardsSt。
  Mark’sSquare,andreachedmycasino,whichwasonlyonehundredyardsfromtheSt。MosesTheatre。
  Ifoundeverythingingoodorder;wewentupstairsandIthrewoffmymaskandmydisguise;butM————M————tookdelightinwalkingabouttheroomsandinexaminingeverynookofthecharmingplaceinwhichshewasreceived。Highlygratifiedtoseemeadmirethegraceofherperson,shewantedmelikewisetoadmireinherattirethetasteandgenerosityofherlover。Shewassurprisedatthealmostmagicspellwhich,althoughsheremainedmotionless,shewedherlovelypersoninathousanddifferentmanners。Hermultipliedportraits,reproducedbythelooking—glasses,andthenumerouswaxcandlesdisposedtothateffect,offeredtohersightaspectacleentirelynewtoher,andfromwhichshecouldnotwithdrawhereyes。SittingdownonastoolIcontemplatedherelegantpersonwithrapture。Acoatofrosyvelvet,embroideredwithgoldspangles,avesttomatch,embroideredlikewiseintherichestfashion,breechesofblacksatin,diamondbuckles,asolitaireofgreatvalueonherlittlefinger,andontheotherhandaring:suchwashertoilet。Herblacklacemaskwasremarkableforitsfinenessandthebeautyofthedesign。Toenablemetoseeherbettershestoodbeforeme。Ilookedinherpockets,inwhichIfoundagoldsnuff—box,asweetmeat—boxadornedwithpearls,agoldcase,asplendidopera—glass,handkerchiefsofthefinestcambric,soakedratherthanperfumedwiththemostpreciousessences。Iexaminedattentivelytherichnessandtheworkmanshipofhertwowatches,ofherchains,ofhertrinkets,brilliantwithdiamonds。ThelastarticleIfoundwasapistol;itwasanEnglishweaponoffinesteel,andofthemostbeautifulfinish。
  "AllIsee,mydivineangel,isnotworthyofyou;yetIcannotrefrainfromexpressingmyadmirationforthewonderful,Imightalmostsayadorable,beingwhowantstoconvinceyouthatyouaretrulyhismistress。"
  "ThatiswhathesaidwhenIaskedhimtobringmetoVenice,andtoleaveme。’Amuseyourself,’hesaid,’andIhopethatthemanwhomyouaregoingtomakehappywillconvinceyouthatheisworthyofit。’"
  "Heisindeedanextraordinaryman,andIdonotthinkthereisanotherlikehim。Suchaloverisauniquebeing;andIfeelthatI
  couldnotbelikehim,asdeeplyasIfeartobeunworthyofahappinesswhichdazzlesme。"
  "Allowmetoleaveyou,andtotakeofftheseclothesalone。"
  "Doanythingyouplease。"
  Aquarterofanhourafterwardsmymistresscamebacktome。Herhairwasdressedlikeaman’s;thefrontlockscamedownhercheeks,andtheblackhair,fastenedwithaknotofblueribbon,reachedthebendofherlegs;herformwasthatofAntinous;herclothesalone,beingcutintheFrenchstyle,preventedtheillusionfrombeingcomplete。Iwasinastateofecstaticdelight,andIcouldnotrealizemyhappiness。
  "No,adorablewoman,"Iexclaimed,"youarenotmadeforamortal,andIdonotbelievethatyouwilleverbemine。Attheverymomentofpossessingyousomemiraclewillwrestyoufrommyarms。Yourdivinespouse,perhaps,jealousofasimplemortal,willannihilateallmyhope。ItispossiblethatinafewminutesIshallnolongerexist。"
  "Areyoumad,dearest?Iamyoursthisveryinstant,ifyouwishit。"
  "Ah!ifIwishit!Althoughfasting,come!Loveandhappinesswillbemyfood!"
  Shefeltcold,wesatnearthefire;andunabletomastermyimpatienceIunfastenedadiamondbroochwhichpinnedherruffle。
  Dearreader,therearesomesensationssopowerfulandsosweetthatyearscannotweakentheremembranceofthem。Mymouthhadalreadycoveredwithkissesthatravishingbosom;butthenthetroublesomecorsethadnotallowedmetoadmireallitsperfection。NowIfeltitfreefromallrestraintandfromallunnecessarysupport;Ihaveneverseen,nevertouched,anythingmorebeautiful,andthetwomagnificentglobesoftheVenusdeMedicis,eveniftheyhadbeenanimatedbythesparkoflifegivenbyPrometheus,wouldhaveyieldedthepalmtohoseofmydivinenun。
  Iwasburningwithardentdesires,andIwouldhavesatisfiedthemonthespot,ifmyadorablemistresshadnotcalmedmyimpatiencebythesesimplewords:
  "Waituntilaftersupper。"
  Irangthebell;sheshuddered。
  "Donotbeanxious,dearest。"
  AndIshewedherthesecretoftheshamwindow。
  "Youwillbeabletotellyourloverthatnoonesawyou。"
  "Hewillappreciateyourdelicateattention,andthatwillprovetohimthatyouarenotanoviceintheartoflove。ButitisevidentthatIamnottheonlyonewhoenjoyswithyouthedelightsofthischarmingresidence。"
  "Youarewrong,believeme:youarethefirstwomanIhaveseenhere。
  Youarenot,adorablecreature,myfirstlove,butyoushallbethelast。"
  "Ishallbehappyifyouarefaithful。Myloverisconstant,kind,gentleandamiable;yetmyhearthaseverbeenfancy—freewithhim。"
  "Thenhisownheartmustbethesame;forifhislovewasofthesamenatureasmineyouwouldneverhavemademehappy。"
  "HelovesmeasIloveyou;doyoubelieveinmyloveforyou?"
  "Yes,Iwanttobelieveinit;butyouwouldnotallowmeto……"
  "Donotsayanymore;forIfeelthatIcouldforgiveyouinanything,providedyoutoldmeall。ThejoyIexperienceatthismomentiscausedmorebythehopeIhaveofgratifyingyourdesiresthanbytheideathatIamgoingtopassadelightfulnightwithyou。
  Itwillbethefirstinmylife。"
  "What!Haveyouneverpassedsuchanightwithyourlover?"
  "Several;butfriendship,compliance,andgratitude,perhaps,werethentheonlycontributorstoourpleasures;themostessential——
  love——wasneverpresent。Inspiteofthat,myloverislikeyou;hiswitislively,verymuchthesameasyours,and,asfarashisfeaturesareconcerned,heisveryhandsome;yetitisnotyou。I
  believehimmorewealthythanyou,althoughthiscasinoalmostconvincesmethatIammistaken,butwhatdoeslovecareforriches?
  DonotimaginethatIconsideryouendowedwithlessmeritthanhe,becauseyouconfessyourselfincapableofhisheroisminallowingmetoenjoyanotherlove。Quitethecontrary;Iknowthatyouwouldnotlovemeasyoudo,ifyoutoldmethatyoucouldbeasindulgentasheisforoneofmycaprices。"
  "Willhebecurioustoheartheparticularsofthisnight?"
  "Mostlikelyhewillthinkthathewillpleasemebyaskingwhathastakenplace,andIwilltellhimeverything,exceptsuchparticularsasmighthumiliatehim。"
  Afterthesupper,whichshefoundexcellent,shemadesomepunch,andshewasaverygoodhandatit。ButIfeltmyimpatiencegrowingstrongereverymoment,andIsaid,"Recollectthatwehaveonlysevenhoursbeforeus,andthatweshouldbeveryfoolishtowastetheminthisroom。"
  "YoureasonbetterthanSocrates,"sheanswered,"andyoureloquencehasconvincedme。Come!"
  Sheledmetotheelegantdressing—room,andIofferedherthefinenight—capwhichIhadboughtforher,askingheratthesametimetodressherhairlikeawoman。Shetookitwithgreatpleasure,andbeggedmetogoandundressmyselfinthedrawing—room,promisingtocallmeassoonasshewasinbed。
  Ihadnotlongtowait:whenpleasureiswaitingforus,weallgoquicklytowork。Ifellintoherarms,intoxicatedwithloveandhappiness,andduringsevenhoursIgaveherthemostpositiveproofsofmyardourandofthefeelingsIentertainedforher。Itistruethatshetaughtmenothingnew,materiallyspeaking,butagreatdealinsighs,inecstasies,inenjoymentswhichcanhavetheirfulldevelopmentonlyinasensitivesoulinthesweetestofallmoments。
  Ivariedourpleasuresinathousanddifferentways,andIastonishedherbymakingherfeelthatshewassusceptibleofgreaterenjoymentthanshehadanyideaof。Atlastthefatalalarumwasheard:wehadtostopouramoroustransports;butbeforesheleftmyarmssheraisedhereyestowardsheavenasiftothankherDivineMasterforhavinggivenherthecouragetodeclareherpassiontome。
  Wedressedourselves,andobservingthatIputthelacenight—capinherpocketsheassuredmethatshewouldkeepitallherlifeasawitnessofthehappinesswhichoverwhelmedher。Afterdrinkingacupofcoffeewewentout,andIleftheratSt。JohnandSt。Paul’sSquare,promisingtocallonherthedayafterthemorrow;IwatchedheruntilIsawhersafeinhergondola,andIthenwenttobed。Tenhoursofprofoundsleeprestoredmetomyusualstateofvigour。
  CHAPTERXVIII
  VisittotheConventandConversationWithM。M。——ALetterfromHer,andMyAnswer——AnotherInterviewAttheCasinoofMuranInthePresenceofHerLoverAccordingtomypromise,IwenttoseeM————M————twodaysafterwards,butassoonasshecametotheparlourshetoldmethatherloverhadsaidhewascoming,andthatsheexpectedhimeveryminute,andthatshewouldbegladtoseemethenextday。Itookleaveofher,butnearthebridgeIsawaman,ratherbadlymasked,comingoutofagondola。Ilookedatthegondolier,andIrecognizedhimasbeingintheserviceoftheFrenchambassador。"Itishe,"
  Isaidtomyself,andwithoutappearingtoobservehimIwatchedhimentertheconvent。Ihadnolongeranydoubtastohisidentity,andIreturnedtoVenicedelightedathavingmadethediscovery,butI
  madeupmymindnottosayanythingtomymistress。
  Isawheronthefollowingday,andwe,hadalongconversationtogether,whichIamnowgoingtorelate。
  "Myfriend,"shesaidtome,"cameyesterdayinordertobidfarewelltomeuntiltheChristmasholidays。HeisgoingtoPadua,buteverythinghasbeenarrangedsothatwecansupathiscasinowheneverwewish。"
  "WhynotinVenice?"
  "Hehasbeggedmenottogothereduringhisabsence。Heiswiseandprudent;Icouldnotrefusehisrequest。"
  "Youarequiteright。Whenshallwesuptogether?"
  "NextSunday,ifyoulike。"
  "IfIlikeisnottherightexpression,forIalwayslike。OnSunday,then,Iwillgotothecasinotowardsnightfall,andwaitforyouwithabook。Haveyoutoldyourfriendthatyouwerenotveryuncomfortableinmysmallpalace?"
  "Heknowsallaboutit,but,dearest,heisafraidofonething——hefearsacertainfatalplumpness……"
  "Onmylife,Ineverthoughtofthat!But,mydarling,doyounotrunthesameriskwithhim?"
  "No,itisimpossible。"
  "Iunderstandyou。Thenwemustbeveryprudentforthefuture。I
  believethat,ninedaysbeforeChristmas,themaskisnolongerallowed,andthenIshallhavetogotoyourcasinobywater,otherwise,Imighteasilyberecognizedbythesamespywhohasalreadyfollowedmeonce。"
  "Yes,thatideaprovesyourprudence,andIcaneasily,shewyoutheplace。IhopeyouwillbeabletocomealsoduringLent,althoughwearetoldthatatthattimeGodwishesustomortifyoursenses。
  IsitnotstrangethatthereisatimeduringwhichGodwantsustoamuseourselvesalmosttofrenzy,andanotherduringwhich,inordertopleaseHim,wemustliveincompleteabstinence?WhatisthereincommonbetweenayearlyobservanceandtheDeity,andhowcantheactionofthecreaturehaveanyinfluenceovertheCreator,whommyreasoncannotconceiveotherwisethanindependent?ItseemstomethatifGodhadcreatedmanwiththepowerofoffendingHim,manwouldberightindoingeverythingthatisforbiddentohim,becausethedeficienciesofhisorganizationwouldbetheworkoftheCreatorHimself。HowcanweimagineGodgrievedduringLent?"
  "Mybelovedone,youreasonbeautifully,butwillyoutellmewhereyouhavemanaged,inaconvent,topasstheRubicon?"
  "Yes。MyfriendhasgivenmesomegoodbookswhichIhavereadwithdeepattention,andthelightoftruthhasdispelledthedarknesswhichblindedmyeyes。Icanassureyouthat,whenIlookinmyownheart,Ifindmyselfmorefortunateinhavingmetwithapersonwhohasbroughtlighttomymindthanmiserableathavingtakentheveil;
  forthegreatesthappinessmustcertainlyconsistinlivingandindyingpeacefully——ahappinesswhichcanhardlybeobtainedbylisteningtoalltheidletalkwithwhichthepriestspuzzleourbrains。"
  "Iamofyouropinion,butIadmireyou,foritoughttobetheworkofmorethanafewmonthstobringlighttoamindprejudicedasyourswas。"
  "ThereisnodoubtthatIshouldhaveseenlightmuchsoonerifIhadnotlabouredundersomanyprejudices。Therewasinmymindacurtaindividingtruthfromerror,andreasonalonecoulddrawitaside,butthatpoorreason——Ihadbeentaughttofearit,torepulseit,asifitsbrightflamewouldhavedevoured,insteadofenlighteningme。ThemomentitwasprovedtomethatareasonablebeingoughttobeguidedonlybyhisowninductionsIacknowledgedtheswayofreason,andthemistwhichhidtruthfrommewasdispelled。Theevidenceoftruthshonebeforemyeyes,nonsensicaltriflesdisappeared,andIhavenofearoftheirresumingtheirinfluenceovermymind,foreverydayitisgettingstronger;andI
  maysaythatIonlybegantoloveGodwhenmymindwasdisabusedofpriestlysuperstitionsconcerningHim。"
  "Icongratulateyou;youhavebeenmorefortunatethanI,foryouhavemademoreprogressinoneyearthanIhavemadeinten。"
  "ThenyoudidnotbeginbyreadingthewritingsofLordBolingbroke?
  Fiveorsixmonthsago,IwasreadingLaSagesse,byCharron,andsomehoworothermyconfessorheardofit;whenIwenttohimforconfession,hetookuponhimselftotellmetogiveupreadingthatbook。Iansweredthatmyconsciencedidnotreproachme,andthatI
  couldnotobeyhim。’Inthatcase,’repliedhe,’Iwillnotgiveyouabsolution。’’Thatwillnotpreventmefromtakingthecommunion,’I
  said。Thismadehimangry,and,inordertoknowwhatheoughttodo,heappliedtoBishopDiedo。Hiseminencecametoseeme,andtoldmethatIoughttobeguidedbymyconfessor。Iansweredthatwehadmutualdutiestoperform,andthatthemissionofapriestintheconfessionalwastolistentome,toimposeareasonablepenance,andtogivemeabsolution;thathehadnoteventherightofofferingmeanyadviceifIdidnotaskforit。Iaddedthattheconfessorbeingboundtoavoidscandal,ifhedaredtorefusemetheabsolution,which,ofcourse,hecoulddo,Iwouldallthesamegotothealtarwiththeothernuns。Thebishop,seeingthathewasathiswit’send,toldthepriesttoabandonmetomyconscience。Butthatwasnotsatisfactorytome,andmyloverobtainedabrieffromthePopeauthorizingmetogotoconfessiontoanypriestIlike。Allthesistersarejealousoftheprivilege,butIhaveavailedmyselfofitonlyonce,forthesakeofestablishingaprecedentandofstrengtheningtherightbythefact,foritisnotworththetrouble。
  Ialwaysconfesstothesamepriest,andhehasnodifficultyingivingmeabsolution,forIonlytellhimwhatIlike。"
  "Andfortherestyouabsolveyourself?"
  "IconfesstoGod,whoalonecanknowmythoughtsandjudgethedegreeofmeritorofdemerittobeattachedtomyactions。"
  OurconversationshewedmethatmylovelyfriendwaswhatiscalledaFree—thinker;butIwasnotastonishedatit,becauseshefeltagreaterneedofpeaceforherconsciencethanofgratificationforhersenses。
  OntheSunday,afterdinner,Itookatwo—oaredgondola,andwentroundtheislandofMurantoreconnoitretheshore,andtodiscoverthesmalldoorthroughwhichmymistressescapedfromtheconvent。
  Ilostmytroubleandmytime,forIdidnotbecomeacquaintedwiththeshoretilltheoctaveofChristmas,andwiththesmalldoorsixmonthsafterwards。Ishallmentionthecircumstanceinitsproperplace。
  Assoonasitwastime,Irepairedtothetemple,andwhileIwaswaitingfortheidolIamusedmyselfinexaminingthebooksofasmalllibraryintheboudoir。Theywerenotnumerous,buttheywerewellchosenandworthyoftheplace。Ifoundthereeverythingthathasbeenwrittenagainstreligion,andalltheworksofthemostvoluptuouswritersonpleasure;attractivebooks,theincendiarystyleofwhichcompelsthereadertoseektherealityoftheimagetheyrepresent。Severalfolios,richlybound,containednothingbuteroticengravings。Theirprincipalmeritconsistedmuchmoreinthebeautyofthedesigns,inthefinishofthework,thaninthelubricityofthepositions。IfoundamongstthemtheprintsofthePortierdesChartreux,publishedinEngland;theengravingsofMeursius,ofAloysiaSigeaToletana,andothers,allverybeautifullydone。Agreatmanysmallpicturescoveredthewallsoftheboudoir,andtheywereallmasterpiecesinthesamestyleastheengravings。
  Ihadspentanhourinexaminingalltheseworksofart,thesightofwhichhadexcitedmeinthemostirresistiblemanner,whenIsawmybeautifulmistressentertheroom,dressedasanun。Herappearancewasnotlikelytoactasasedative,andtherefore,withoutlosinganytimeincompliments,Isaidtoher,"Youarrivemostopportunely。Alltheseeroticpictureshavefiredmyimagination,anditisinyourgarbofasaintthatyoumustadministertheremedythatmyloverequires。"
  "Letmeputonanotherdress,darling,itwillnottakemorethanfiveminutes。"
  "Fiveminuteswillcompletemyhappiness,andthenyoucanattendtoyourmetamorphosis。"
  "Butletmetakeoffthesewoollenrobes,whichIdislike。"
  "No;Iwantyoutoreceivethehomageofmyloveinthesamedresswhichyouhadonwhenyougavebirthtoit。"
  Sheutteredinthehumblestmannera’fiatvoluntastua’,accompaniedbythemostvoluptuoussmile,andsankonthesofa。Foroneinstantweforgotalltheworldbesides。AfterthatdelightfulecstacyI
  assistedhertoundress,andasimplegownofIndianmuslinsoonmetamorphosedmylovelynunintoabeautifulnymph。
  Afteranexcellentsupper,weagreednottomeetagaintillthefirstdayoftheoctave。Shegavemethekeyofthegateontheshore,andtoldmethatablueribbonattachedtothewindowoverthedoorwouldpointitoutbyday,soastopreventmymakingamistakeatnight。
  ImadeherveryhappybytellingherthatIwouldcomeandresideinhercasinountilthereturnofherfriend。DuringthetendaysthatIremainedthere,Isawherfourtimes,andIconvincedherthatI
  livedonlyforher。
  DuringmystayinthecasinoIamusedmyselfinreading,inwritingtoC————C————,butmyloveforherhadbecomeacalmaffection。Thelineswhichinterestedmemostinherletterswerethoseinwhichshementionedherfriend。SheoftenblamedmefornothavingcultivatedtheacquaintanceofM————M————,andmyanswerwasthatIhadnotdonesoforfearofbeingknown。Ialwaysinsisteduponthenecessityofdiscretion。
  Idonotbelieveinthepossibilityofequallovebeingbestowedupontwopersonsatthesametime,nordoIbelieveitpossibletokeeplovetoahighdegreeofintensityifyougiveiteithertoomuchfoodornoneatall。ThatwhichmaintainedmypassionforM———M————
  inastateofgreatvigourwasthatIcouldneverpossessherwithoutrunningtheriskoflosingher。
  "Itisimpossible,"Isaidtoheronce,"thatsometimeorotheroneofthenunsshouldnotwanttospeaktoyouwhenyouareabsent?"
  "No,"sheanswered,"thatcannothappen,becausethereisnothingmorereligiouslyrespectedinaconventthantherightofanuntodenyherself,eventotheabbess。AfireistheonlycircumstanceI
  havetofear,becauseinthatcasetherewouldbegeneraluproarandconfusion,anditwouldnotappearnaturalthatanunshouldremainquietlylockedupinhercellinthemidstofsuchdanger;myescapewouldthenbediscovered。Ihavecontrivedtogainoverthelay—
  sisterandthegardener,aswellasanothernun,andthatmiraclewasperformedbymycunningassistedbymylover’sgold。
  Heanswersforthefidelityofthecookandhiswifewhotakecareofthecasino。Hehaslikewiseeveryconfidenceinthetwogondoliers,althoughoneofthemissuretobeaspyoftheStateInquisitors。"
  OnChristmasEvesheannouncedthereturnofherlover,andshetoldhimthatonSt。Stephen’sDayshewouldgowithhimtotheopera,andthattheywouldafterwardsspendthenighttogether。
  "Ishallexpectyou,mybelovedone,"sheadded,"onthelastdayoftheyear,andhereisaletterwhichIbegyounottoreadtillyougethome。"
  AsIhadtomoveinordertomakeroomforherlover,Ipackedmythingsearlyinthemorning,and,biddingfarewelltoaplaceinwhichduringtendaysIhadenjoyedsomanydelights,IreturnedtotheBragadinPalace,whereIreadthefollowingletter:
  "Youhavesomewhatoffendedme,myowndarling,bytellingme,respectingthemysterywhichIamboundtokeeponthesubjectofmylover,that,satisfiedtopossessmyheart,youleftmemistressofmymind。Thatdivisionoftheheartandofthemindappearstomeapuresophism,andifitdoesnotstrikeyouassuchyoumustadmitthatyoudonotlovemewholly,forIcannotexistwithoutmind,andyoucannotcherishmyheartifitdoesnotagreewithmymind。Ifyourlovecannotacceptadifferentstateofthingsitdoesnotexcelindelicacy。However,assomecircumstancemightoccurinwhichyoumightaccusemeofnothavingactedtowardsyouwithallthesinceritythattrueloveinspires,andthatithasarighttodemand,Ihavemadeupmymindtoconfidetoyouasecretwhichconcernsmyfriend,althoughIamawarethathereliesentirelyuponmydiscretion。Ishallcertainlybeguiltyofabreachofconfidence,butyouwillnotlovemelessforit,because,compelledtochoosebetweenyoutwo,andtodeceiveeitheroneortheother,lovehasconqueredfriendship;donotpunishmeforit,forithasnotbeendoneblindly,andyouwill,Itrust,considerthereasonswhichhavecausedthescaletoweighdowninyourfavour。
  "WhenIfoundmyselfincapableofresistingmywishtoknowyouandtobecomeintimatewithyou,Icouldnotgratifythatwishwithouttakingmyfriendintomyconfidence,andIhadnodoubtofhiscompliance。Heconceivedaveryfavourableopinionofyourcharacterfromyourfirstletter,notonlybecauseyouhadchosentheparlouroftheconventforourfirstinterview,butalsobecauseyouappointedhiscasinoatMuraninsteadofyourown。Buthelikewisebeggedofmetoallowhimtobepresentatourfirstmeeting—place,inasmallcloset——atruehiding—place,fromwhichonecanseeandheareverythingwithoutbeingsuspectedbythoseinthedrawing—room。
  Youhavenotyetseenthatmysteriouscloset,butIwillshewittoyouonthelastdayoftheyear。Tellme,dearest,whetherIcouldrefusethatsingularrequesttothemanwhowasshewingmesuchcompliantkindness?Iconsented,anditwasnaturalformenottoletyouknowit。Youarethereforeawarenowthatmyfriendwasawitnessofallwedidandsaidduringthefirstnightthatwespenttogether,butdonotletthatannoyyou,foryoupleasedhimineverything,inyourbehaviourtowardsmeaswellasinthewittysayingswhichyouutteredtomakemelaugh。Iwasingreatfear,whentheconversationturneduponhim,lestyouwouldsaysomethingwhichmighthurthisself—love,but,veryfortunately,heheardonlythemostflatteringcompliments。Suchis,dearestlove,thesincereconfessionofmytreason,butasawiseloveryouwillforgivemebecauseithasnotdoneyoutheslightestharm。Myfriendisextremelycurioustoascertainwhoyouare。Butlistentome,thatnightyouwerenaturalandthoroughlyamiable,wouldyouhavebeenthesame,ifyouhadknownthattherewasawitness?Itisnotlikely,andifIhadacquaintedyouwiththetruth,youmighthaverefusedyourconsent,andperhapsyouwouldhavebeenright。
  "Nowthatweknoweachother,andthatyouentertainnodoubt,I
  trust,ofmydevotedlove,Iwishtoeasemyconscienceandtoventureall。Learnthen,dearest,thatonthelastdayoftheyear,myfriendwillbeatthecasino,whichhewillleaveonlythenextmorning。Youwillnotseehim,buthewillseeus。Asyouaresupposednottoknowanythingaboutit,youmustfeelthatyouwillhavetobenaturalineverything,otherwise,hemightguessthatI
  havebetrayedthesecret。Itisespeciallyinyourconversationthatyoumustbecareful。Myfriendpossesseseveryvirtueexceptthetheologicalonecalledfaith,andonthatsubjectyoucansayanythingyoulike。Youwillbeatlibertytotalkliterature,travels,politics,anythingyouplease,andyouneednotrefrainfromanecdotes。Infactyouarecertainofhisapprobation。
  "Now,dearest,Ihaveonlythistosay。Doyoufeeldisposedtoallowyourselftobeseenbyanothermanwhileyouareabandoningyourselftothesweetvoluptuousnessofyoursenses?Thatdoubtcausesallmyanxiety,andIentreatfromyouananswer,yesorno。
  Doyouunderstandhowpainfulthedoubtisforme?Iexpectnottoclosemyeyesthroughoutthenight,andIshallnotrestuntilIhaveyourdecision。Incaseyoushouldobjecttoshewyourtendernessinthepresenceofathirdperson,Iwilltakewhateverdeterminationlovemaysuggesttome。ButIhopeyouwillconsent,andevenifyouwerenottoperformthecharacterofanardentloverinamasterlymanner,itwouldnotbeofanyconsequence。Iwillletmyfriendbelievethatyourlovehasnotreacheditsapogee"
  Thatlettercertainlytookmebysurprise,butallthingsconsidered,thinkingthatmypartwasbetterthantheoneacceptedbythelover,Ilaughedheartilyattheproposal。Iconfess,however,thatI
  shouldnothavelaughedifIhadnotknownthenatureoftheindividualwhowastobethewitnessofmyamorousexploits。
  Understandingalltheanxietyofmyfriend,andwishingtoallayit,Iimmediatelywrotetoherthefollowinglines:
  "Youwishme,heavenlycreature,toansweryouyesorno,andI,fullofloveforyou,wantmyanswertoreachyoubeforenoon,sothatyoumaydineinperfectpeace。
  "Iwillspendthelastnightoftheyearwithyou,andIcanassureyouthatthefriend,towhomwewillgiveaspectacleworthyofPaphosandAmathos,shallseeorhearnothinglikelytomakehimsupposethatIamacquaintedwithhissecret。YoumaybecertainthatIwillplaymypartnotasanovicebutasamaster。Ifitisman’sdutytobealwaystheslaveofhisreason;if,aslongashehascontroloverhimself,heoughtnottoactwithouttakingitforhisguide,Icannotunderstandwhyamanshouldbeashamedtoshewhimselftoafriendattheverymomentthatheismostfavouredbyloveandnature。
  "YetIconfessthatyouwouldhavebeenwrongifyouhadconfidedthesecrettomethefirsttime,andthatmostlikelyIshouldthenhaverefusedtograntyouthatmarkofmycompliance,notbecauseIlovedyoulessthenthanIdonow,buttherearesuchstrangetastesinnaturethatImighthaveimaginedthatyourlover’srulingtastewastoenjoythesightofanardentandfranticcoupleinthemidstofamorousconnection,andinthatcase,conceivinganunfavourableopinionofyou,vexationmighthavefrozentheloveyouhadjustsentthroughmybeing。Now,however,thecaseisverydifferent。IknowallIpossessinyou,and,fromallyouhavetoldmeofyourlover,Iamwelldisposedtowardshim,andIbelievehimtobemyfriend。
  Ifafeelingofmodestydoesnotdeteryoufromshewingyourselftender,loving,andfullofamorousardourwithmeinhispresence,howcouldIbeashamed,when,onthecontrary,Ioughttofeelproudofmyself?Ihavenoreasontoblushathavingmadeaconquestofyou,oratshewingmyselfinthosemomentsduringwhichIprovetheliberalitywithwhichnaturehasbestoweduponmetheshapeandthestrengthwhichassuresuchimmenseenjoymenttome,besidesthecertaintythatIcanmakethewomanIloveshareitwithme。Iamawarethat,owingtoafeelingwhichiscallednatural,butwhichisperhapsonlytheresultofcivilizationandtheeffectoftheprejudicesinherentinyouth,mostmenobjecttoanywitnessinthosemoments,butthosewhocannotgiveanygoodreasonsfortheirrepugnancemusthaveintheirnaturesomethingofthecat。Atthesametime,theymighthavesomeexcellentreasons,withouttheirthinkingthemselvesboundtogivethem,excepttothewoman,whoiseasilydeceived。Iexcusewithallmyheartthosewhoknowthattheywouldonlyexcitethepityofthewitnesses,butwebothhavenofearofthatsort。Allyouhavetoldmeofyourfriendprovesthathewillenjoyourpleasures。Butdoyouknowwhatwillbetheresultofit?Theintensityofourardourwillexcitehisown,andhewillthrowhimselfatmyfeet,beggingandentreatingmetogiveuptohimtheonlyobjectlikelytocalmhisamorousexcitement。WhatcouldI
  dointhatcase?Giveyouup?Icouldhardlyrefusetodosowithgoodgrace,butIwouldgoaway,forIcouldnotremainaquietspectator。
  "Farewell,mydarlinglove;allwillbewell,Ihavenodoubt。
  Prepareyourselffortheathleticcontest,andrelyuponthefortunatebeingwhoadoresyou。"
  Ispentthesixfollowingdayswithmythreeworthyfriends,andatthe’ridotto’,whichatthattimewasopenedonSt。Stephen’sDay。
  AsIcouldnotholdthecardsthere,thepatriciansalonehavingtheprivilegeofholdingthebank,Iplayedmorningandevening,andI
  constantlylost;forwhoeverpuntsmustlose。ButthelossofthefourorfivethousandsequinsIpossessed,farfromcoolingmylove,seemedonlytoincreaseitsardour。
  Attheendoftheyear1774theGreatCouncilpromulgatedalawforbiddingallgamesofchance,thefirsteffectofwhichwastoclosethe’ridotto’。Thislawwasarealphenomenon,andwhenthevotesweretakenoutoftheurnthesenatorslookedateachotherwithstupefaction。Theyhadmadethelawunwittingly,forthree—
  fourthsofthevotersobjectedtoit,andyetthree—fourthsofthevoteswereinfavourofit。PeoplesaidthatitwasamiracleofSt。
  Mark’s,whohadansweredtheprayersofMonsignorFlangini,thencensor—in—chief,nowcardinal,andoneofthethreeStateInquisitors。
  OnthedayappointedIwaspunctualattheplaceofrendezvous,andI
  hadnottowaitformymistress。Shewasinthedressing—room,whereshehadhadtimetoattendtohertoilet,andassoonassheheardmeshecametomedressedwiththegreatestelegance。
  "Myfriendisnotyetathispost,"shesaidtome,"butthemomentheisthereIwillgiveyouawink。"
  "Whereisthemysteriouscloset?"
  "Thereitis。Lookatthebackofthissofaagainstthewall。Allthoseflowersinreliefhaveaholeinthecentrewhichcommunicateswiththeclosetbehindthatwall。Thereisabed,atable,andeverythingnecessarytoapersonwhowantstospendthenightinamusinghimselfbylookingatwhatisgoingoninthisroom。Iwillskewittoyouwheneveryoulike。"
  "Wasitarrangedbyyourlover’sorders?"
  "No,forhecouldnotforeseethathewoulduseit。"
  "Iunderstandthathemayfindgreatpleasureinsuchasight,butbeingunabletopossessyouattheverymomentnaturewillmakeyoumostnecessarytohim,whatwillhedo?"
  "Thatishisbusiness。Besides,heisatlibertytogoawaywhenhehashadenoughofit,ortosleepifhehasamindto,butifyouplayyourpartnaturallyhewillnotfeelanyweariness。"
  "Iwillbemostnatural,butImustbemorepolite。"
  "No,nopoliteness,Ibeg,forifyouarepolite,goodbyetonature。
  Wherehaveyoueverseen,Ishouldliketoknow,twolovers,excitedbyallthefuryoflove,thinkofpoliteness?"
  "Youareright,darling,butImustbemoredelicate。"
  "Verywell,delicacycandonoharm,butnomorethanusual。Yourlettergreatlypleasedme,youhavetreatedthesubjectlikeamanofexperience。"
  Ihavealreadystatedthatmymistresswasdressedmostelegantly,butIoughttohaveaddedthatitwastheeleganceoftheGraces,andthatitdidnotinanywaypreventeaseandsimplicity。Ionlywonderedatherhavingusedsomepaintfortheface,butitratherpleasedmebecauseshehadapplieditaccordingtothefashionoftheladiesofVersailles。Thecharmofthatstyleconsistsinthenegligencewithwhichthepaintisapplied。Therougemustnotappearnatural;itisusedtopleasetheeyeswhichseeinitthemarksofanintoxicationheraldingthemostamorousfury。Shetoldmethatshehadputsomeonherfacetopleaseherinquisitivefriend,whowasveryfondofit。
  "Thattaste,"Isaid,"proveshimtobeaFrenchman。"
  AsIwasutteringthesewords,shemadeasigntome;thefriendwasathispost,andnowtheplaybegan。
  "ThemoreIlookatyou,belovedangel,themoreIthinkyouworthyofmyadoration。"
  "Butareyounotcertainthatyoudonotworshipacrueldivinity?"
  "Yes,andthereforeIdonotoffermysacrificestoappeaseyou,buttoexciteyou。Youshallfeelallthroughthenighttheardourofmydevotion。"
  "Youwillnotfindmeinsensibletoyourofferings。"
  "Iwouldbeginthematonce,butIthinkthat,inordertoinsuretheirefficiency,weoughttohavesupperfirst。Ihavetakennothingto—daybutacupofchocolateandasaladofwhitesofeggsdressedwithoilfromLuccaandMarseillesvinegar。"
  "But,dearest,itisfolly!youmustbeill?"
  "Yes,Iamjustnow,butIshallbeallrightwhenIhavedistilledthewhitesofeggs,onebyone,intoyouramoroussoul。"
  "Ididnotthinkyourequiredanysuchstimulants。"
  "Whocouldwantanywithyou?ButIhavearationalfear,forifI
  happenedtoprimewithoutbeingabletofire,Iwouldblowmybrainsout。"
  "Mydearbrowny,itwouldcertainlybeamisfortune,buttherewouldbenooccasiontobeindespaironthataccount。"
  "YouthinkthatIwouldonlyhavetoprimeagain。"
  "Ofcourse。"
  Whilewewerebanteringinthisedifyingfashion,thetablehadbeenlaid,andwesatdowntosupper。SheatefortwoandIforfour,ourexcellentappetitebeingexcitedbythedelicatecheer。Asumptuousdessertwasservedinsplendidsilver—giltplate,similartothetwocandlestickswhichheldfourwaxcandleseach。SeeingthatIadmiredthem,shesaid:
  "Theyareapresentfrommyfriend。"
  "Itisamagnificentpresent,hashegivenyouthesnufferslikewise?"
  "No"
  "Itisaproofthatyourfriendisagreatnobleman。"
  "Howso?"
  "Becausegreatlordshavenoideaofsnuffingthecandle。"
  "Ourcandleshavewickswhichneverrequirethatoperation。"
  "Good!TellmewhohastaughtyouFrench。"
  "OldLaForest。Ihavebeenhispupilforsixyears。Hehasalsotaughtmetowritepoetry,butyouknowagreatmanywordswhichI
  neverheardfromhim,suchas’agogo,frustratoire,rater,dorloter’。Whotaughtyouthesewords?"
  "ThegoodcompanyinParis,andwomenparticularly。"
  Wemadesomepunch,andamusedourselvesineatingoystersafterthevoluptuousfashionoflovers。Wesuckedthemin,onebyone,afterplacingthemontheother’stongue。Voluptuousreader,tryit,andtellmewhetheritisnotthenectarofthegods!
  Atlast,jokingwasover,andIremindedherthatwehadtothinkofmoresubstantialpleasures。"Waithere,"shesaid,"Iamgoingtochangemydress。Ishallbebackinoneminute。"Leftalone,andnotknowingwhattodo,Ilookedinthedrawersofherwriting—table。
  Ididnottouchtheletters,butfindingaboxfullofcertainpreservativesheathsagainstthefatalanddreadedplumpness,I
  emptiedit,andIplacedinitthefollowinglinesinsteadofthestolengoods:
  ’EnfantsdeL’Amitie,ministresdelaPeur,Jesuisl’Amour,tremblez,respectezlevoleur!
  Ettoi,femmedeDieu,necrainspasd’etremere;
  Carsitoledeviens,Dieusealseralepere。
  S’iLestditcependantquetuveuxlebarren,Parle;jesuistoutpret,jemeferaichatrer。’
  Mymistresssoonreturned,dressedlikeanymph。AgownofIndianmuslin,embroideredwithgoldlilies,spewedtoadmirationtheoutlineofhervoluptuousform,andherfinelace—capwasworthyofaqueen。Ithrewmyselfatherfeet,entreatinghernottodelaymyhappinessanylonger。
  "Controlyourardourafewmoments,"shesaid,"hereisthealtar,andinafewminutesthevictimwillbeinyourarms。"
  "Youwillsee,"sheadded,goingtoherwriting—table,"howfarthedelicacyandthekindattentionofmyfriendcanextend。"
  Shetooktheboxandopenedit,butinsteadoftheprettysheathsthatsheexpectedtosee,shefoundmypoetry。Afterreadingitaloud,shecalledmeathief,andsmotheringmewithkissessheentreatedmetogiveherbackwhatIhadstolen,butIpretendednottounderstand。Shethenreadthelinesagain,consideredforonemoment,andunderpretenceofgettingabetterpen,shelefttheroom,saying,"Iamgoingtopayyouinyourowncoin。"
  Shecamebackafterafewminutesandwrotethefollowingsixlines:
  ’Sansrienoterauplaisiramoureux,L’objetdetonlarcinsertacombiernosvoeux。
  Al’abridudanger,monamesatisfaiteSavoureensureteparfaite;
  Etsituveuxjaueravecsecurite,Rends—moimondouxami,cesdonsdel’amitie。
  AfterthisIcouldnotresistanylonger,andIgaveherbackthoseobjectssoprecioustoanunwhowantstosacrificeonthealtarofVenus。
  Theclockstrikingtwelve,Ishewedhertheprincipalactorwhowaslongingtoperform,andshearrangedthesofa,sayingthatthealcovebeingtoocoldwehadbettersleeponit。Butthetruereasonwasthat,tosatisfythecuriouslover,itwasnecessaryforustobeseen。
  Dearreader,apicturemusthaveshades,andthereisnothing,nomatterhowbeautifulinonepointofview,thatdoesnotrequiretobesometimesveiledifyoulookatitfromadifferentone。Inordertopaintthediversifiedscenewhichtookplacebetweenmeandmylovelymistressuntilthedawnofday,IshouldhavetouseallthecoloursofAretino’spalette。Iwasardentandfullofvigour,butI
  hadtodealwithastrongpartner,andinthemorning,afterthelastexploit,wewerepositivelywornout;somuchsothatmycharmingnunfeltsomeanxietyonmyaccount。Itistruethatshehadseenmybloodspurtoutandcoverherbosomduringmylastoffering;andasshedidnotsuspectthetruecauseofthatphenomenon,sheturnedpalewithfright。Iallayedheranxietybyathousandfollieswhichmadeherlaughheartily。Iwashedhersplendidbosomwithrosewater,soastopurifyitfromthebloodbywhichithadbeendyedforthefirsttime。Sheexpressedafearthatshehadswallowedafewdrops,butItoldherthatitwasofnoconsequence,evenifwerethecase。
  Sheresumedthecostumeofanun,andentreatingmetoliedownandtowritetoherbeforereturningtoVenice,soastoletherknowhowIwas,sheleftthecasino。
  Ihadnodifficultyinobeyingher,forIwastrulyingreatneedofrest。Isleptuntilevening。AssoonasIawoke,Iwrotetoherthatmyhealthwasexcellent,andthatIfeltquiteinclinedtobeginourdelightfulcontestalloveragain。Iaskedhertoletmeknowhowshewasherself,andafterIhaddispatchedmyletterIreturnedtoVenice。