Thesyndichadtoldmethatthethreeyoungladiesbelongedtorespectablefamilies,butwerenotrich。IpuzzledmyheadtothinkofsomeusefulpresentImightmakethemwithoutoffendingthem,andatlastIhitonaplanofthemostridiculousnature,asthereaderwillsee。Iwenttoajewellerandtoldhimtomakemethreegoldenballs,eachoftwoouncesinweight。
AtnoonIwenttoM。deVoltaire’s。Hewasnottobeseen,butMadameDenisconsoledmeforhisabsence。Shehadwit,learningwithoutpretension,taste,andagreathatredfortheKingofPrussia,whomshecalledavillain。Sheaskedaboutmybeautifulhousekeeper,andcongratulatedmeonhavingmarriedhertoarespectableman。AlthoughIfeelnowthatshewasquiteright,Iwasfarfromthinkingsothen;theimpressionwastoofreshonmymind。
MadameDenisbeggedmetotellherhowIhadescapedfromTheLeads,butasthestorywasratheralongoneIpromisedtosatisfyheranothertime。
M。deVoltairedidnotdinewithus;heappeared,however,atfiveo’clock,holdingaletterinhishand。
"Doyouknow,"saidhe,"theMarquisAlbergatiCapacelli,senatorofBologna,andCountParadisi?"
"IdonotknowParadisi,butIknowAlbergatibysightandbyreputation;heisnotasenator,butoneoftheForty,whoatBolognaareFifty。"
"Dearme!Thatseemsratherariddle!"
"Doyouknowhim?"
"No,buthehassentmeGoldoni’s’Theatre,’thetranslationofmyTancred,andsomeBolognasausages,andhesayshewillcomeandseeme。"
"Hewillnotcome;heisnotsuchafool。"
"Howafool?Wouldtherebeanythingfoolishincomingtoseeme?"
"Certainlynot,asfarasyouareconcerned;butverymuchsofarhisownsake。"
"Wouldyoumindtellingmewhy?"
"Heknowswhathewouldlose;forheenjoystheideayouseemtohaveofhim,andifhecameyouwouldseehisnothingness,andgood—byetotheillusion。Heisaworthymanwithsixthousandsequinsayear,andacrazeforthetheatre。Heisagoodactorenough,andhaswrittenseveralcomediesinprose,buttheyarefitneitherforthestudynorthestage。"
"Youcertainlygivehimacoatwhichdoesnotmakehimlookanybigger。"
"Iassureyouitisnotquitesmallenough。"
"ButtellmehowhecanbelongtotheFortyandtheFifty?"
"JustasatBalenoonisateleven。"
"Iunderstand;justasyourCouncilofTeniscomposedofseventeenmembers。"
"Exactly;butthecursedFortyofBolognaaremenofanotherkind。"
"Whycursed?"
"Becausetheyarenotsubjecttothefisc,andarethusenabledtocommitwhatevercrimestheylikewithperfectimpunity;alltheyhavegottodoistoliveoutsidethestatebordersontheirrevenues。"
"Thatisablessing,andnotacurse;butletmereturntooursubject。IsupposetheMarquisAlbergatiisamanofletters?"
"Hewriteswellenough,butheisfondofthesoundofhisownvoice,hisstyleisprolix,andIdon’tthinkhehasmuchbrains。"
"Heisanactor,Ithinkyousaid?"
"Yes,andaverygoodone,aboveall,whenheplaysthelover’spartinoneofhisownplays。"
"Isheahandsomeman?"
"Yes,onthestage,butnotelsewhere;hisfacelacksexpression。"
"Buthisplaysgivesatisfaction?"
"Nottopersonswhounderstandplaywriting;theywouldbehissediftheywereintelligible。"
"AndwhatdoyouthinkofGoldoni?"
"Ihavethehighestopinionofhim。GoldoniistheItalianMoliere。"
"WhydoeshecallhimselfpoettotheDukeofParma?"
"Nodoubttoprovethatawitaswellasafoolhashisweakpoints;
inallprobabilitythedukeknowsnothingaboutit。Healsocallshimselfabarrister,thoughheissuchonlyinhisownimagination。
Goldoniisagoodplaywriter,andnothingmore。EverybodyinVeniceknowsmeforhisfriend,andIcanthereforespeakofhimwithauthority。Hedoesnotshineinsociety,andinspiteofthefinesatireofhisworksheisamanofanextremelygentledisposition。"
"SoIhavebeentold。Heispoor,andwantstoleaveVenice。Themanagersofthetheatreswheretheyplayhispieceswillnotlikethat。"
"Peopletalkedaboutgettinghimapension,buttheprojecthasbeenrelegatedtotheGreekKalends,astheysaidthatifhehadapensionhewouldwritenomore。"
"CumaerefusedtogiveapensiontoHomer,forfearthatalltheblindmenwouldaskforapension。"
Wespentapleasantday,andhethankedmeheartilyforthecopyoftheMacaronicon,whichhepromisedtoread。HeintroducedmetoaJesuithehadinhishousehold,whowascalledAdam,andheadded,aftertellingmehisname,"notthefirstAdam。"IwastoldafterwardsthatVoltaireusedtoplaybackgammonwithhim,andwhenhelosthewouldthrowthediceandtheboxathishead。IfJesuitsweretreatedlikethatalltheworldover,perhapsweshouldhavenonebutinoffensiveJesuitsatlast,butthathappytimeisstillfaroff。
IhadscarcelygottomyinnintheeveningwhenIreceivedmythreegoldenballs,andassoonasthesyndiccamewesetofftorenewourvoluptuousorgy。Onthewayhetalkedaboutmodesty,andsaid,——
"Thatfeelingwhichpreventsourshewingthosepartswhichwehavebeentaughttocoverfromourchildhood,mayoftenproceedfromvirtue,butisweakerthantheforceofeducation,asitcannotresistanattackwhentheattackingpartyknowswhatheisabout。
Ithinktheeasiestwaytovanquishmodestyistoignoreitspresence,toturnitintoridicule,tocarryitbystorm。Victoryiscertain。Thehardihoodoftheassailersubduestheassailed,whousuallyonlywishestobeconquered,andnearlyalwaysthanksyouforyourvictory。
"ClementofAlexandria,alearnedmanandaphilosopher,hasremarkedthatthemodestywhichappearssodeeplyrootedinwomen’sheartsreallygoesnofartherthantheclothestheywear,andthatwhenthesearepluckedoffnotraceofitremains。"
Wefoundthethreegirlslightlycladandsittingonalargesopha,andwesatdownoppositetothem。Pleasanttalkandathousandamorouskissesoccupiedthehalfhourjustbeforesupper,andourcombatdidnotbegintillwehadeatenadeliciousrepast,washeddownwithplentyofchampagne。
Weweresureofnotbeinginterruptedbythemaidandweputourselvesatourease,whilstourcaressesbecamemorelivelyandardent。Thesyndic,likeacarefulman,drewapacketoffineFrenchlettersfromhispocket,anddeliveredalongeulogiumonthisadmirablepreservativefromanaccidentwhichmightgiverisetoaterribleandfruitlessrepentance。Theladiesknewthem,andseemedtohavenoobjectiontotheprecaution;theylaughedheartilytoseetheshapethesearticlestookwhentheywereblownout。Butaftertheyhadamusedthemselvesthusforsometime,Isaid,"Mydeargirls,Icaremoreforyourhonourthanyourbeauty;butdonotthinkIamgoingtoshutmyselfinapieceofdeadskintoprovethatIamalive。Here,"Iadded,drawingoutthethreegoldenballs,"isasurerandlessdisagreeablewayofsecuringyoufromanyunpleasantconsequences。Afterfifteenyears’experienceIcanassureyouthatwiththesegoldenballsyoucangiveandtakewithoutrunningtheleastrisk。Forthefutureyouwillhavenoneedofthosehumiliatingsheaths。TrustinmeandacceptthislittlepresentfromaVenetianwhoadoresyou。"
"Weareverygrateful,"saidtheelderofthetwosisters,"buthowaretheseprettyballsused?"
"Theballhastobeattherearofthetempleoflove,whilsttheamorouscoupleareperformingthesacrifice。Theantipathycommunicatedtothemetalbyitsbeingsoakedforacertaintimeinanalkalinesolutionpreventsimpregnation。"
"But,"saidthecousin,"onemusttakegreatcarethattheballisnotshakenoutbythemotionbeforetheendofthesacrifice。"
"Youneedn’tbeafraidofthatifyouplaceyourselfinaproperposition。"
"Letusseehowit’sdone,"saidthesyndic,holdingacandleformetoputtheballinplace。
Thecharmingcousinhadgonetoofartoturnback;shehadtosubmittotheoperation。IplacedtheballinsuchapositionthatitcouldnotfalloutbeforeIwasin;however,itfellouttowardstheend,justaswewereseparating。ThevictimperceivedthatIhadtakenherin。However,shesaidnothing,pickeduptheball,andchallengedthetwosisterstosubmittothepleasantexperiment,towhichtheylentthemselveswiththegreatestinterest;whilethesyndic,whohadnofaithinthevirtuesofthemetal,contentedhimselfwithlookingon。Afterhalfanhour’srestIbeganagain,withoutballs,assuringthemthatIwouldbecareful,andIkeptmyword,withoutdeprivingthemofthepleasureintheslightestdegree。
Whenitwastimetopart,thesegirls,whohadformerlybeenscantilyprovidedfor,threwtheirarmsroundmyneck,overwhelmedmewithcaresses,anddeclaredhowmuchtheyowedme。ThesyndictoldthemthatIwasgoingintwodays,andsuggestedthattheyshouldmakemestayadaylongerinGeneva,andImadethissacrificejoyfully。Theworthysyndichadanengagementonthefollowingday,andIsorelyneededaholidaymyself。Hetookmebacktomyinn,thankingmealmostasheartilyashischarmingnymphs。
Afterhavingenjoyedacalmandrefreshingsleeptenhours,IfeltmyselfabletoenjoythedelightfulsocietyofM。deVoltaire。I
wenttohishouse,butIwasdisappointedinmyhopes,asitpleasedthegreatmantobeinafault—findingandsarcasticmoodthewholeday。HeknewIhadtoleaveonthemorrow。
HebeganbythankingmeattableformypresentofMerlinCoccaeus。
"Youcertainlygaveitmewithgoodintentions,"saidhe,"butIoweyounothanksforpraisingitsohighly,asyoumademelosefourhoursinreadingnonsense。"
Ifeltmyhairstandonend,butImasteredmyemotions,andtoldhimquietlyenoughthatoneday,perhaps,hewouldfindhimselfobligedtopraisethepoemmorehighlythanIhaddone。Iquotedseveralinstancesoftheinsufficiencyofafirstperusal。
"That’strue,"saidhe;"butasforyourMerlin,Iwillreadhimnomore。IhaveputhimbesideChapelain’s’Pucelle’。"
"Whichpleasesallthecritics,inspiteofitsbadversification,foritisagoodpoem,andChapelainwasarealpoetthoughhewrotebadverses。Icannotoverlookhisgenius。"
Myfreedommusthaveshockedhim,andImighthaveguesseditwhenhetoldmehehadputthe’Macaronicon’besidethe’Pucelle’。Iknewthattherewasapoemofthesametitleincirculation,whichpassedforVoltaire’s;butIalsoknewthathedisavowedit,andIthoughtthatwouldmakehimconcealthevexationmyexplanationmusthavecausedhim。Itwasnotso,however;hecontradictedmesharply,andIclosedwithhim。
"Chapelain,"saidI,"hasthemeritofhavingrenderedhissubject—matterpleasant,withoutpanderingtothetastesofhisreadersbysayingthingsshockingtomodestyandpiety。SothinksmymasterCrebillon:"
"Crebillon!Youciteaweightyauthority。ButhowismyfriendCrebillonyourmaster,mayIask?"
"HetaughtmetospeakFrenchinlessthantwoyears,andasamarkofmygratitudeItranslatedhisRadamisteintoItalianAlexandrines。
IamthefirstItalianwhohasdaredtousethismetreinourlanguage。"
"Thefirst?Ibegyourpardon,asthathonourbelongstomyfriendPierreJacquesMartelli。"
"Iamsorrytobeobligedtotellyouthatyouaremakingamistake。"
"Why,Ihavehisworks,printedatBologna,inmyroom!"
"Idon’tdenythat,IamonlytalkingaboutthemetreusedbyMartelli。Whatyouarethinkingofmustbeversesoffourteensyllables;withoutalternativemasculineandfemininerhymes。
However,IconfessthathethinkshehasimitatedtheFrenchAlexandrines,andhisprefacemademeexplodewithlaughter。Didyoureadit?"
"Readit?Ialwaysreadprefaces,andMartelliprovestherethathisverseshavethesameeffectinItalianasourAlexandrineverseshaveinFrench。"
"Exactly,that’swhat’ssoamusing。Theworthymanisquitemistaken,andIonlyaskyoutolistentowhatIhavetosayonthesubject。Yourmasculineversehasonlytwelvepoeticsyllables,andthefemininethirteen。AllMartelli’slineshavefourteensyllables,exceptthosethatfinishwithalongvowel,whichattheendofalinealwayscountsastwosyllables。YouwillobservethatthefirsthemistitchinMartellialwaysconsistsofsevensyllables,whileinFrenchitonlyhassix。YourfriendPierreJacqueswaseitherstonedeaforveryhardofhearing。"
"Thenyouhavefollowedourtheoryofversificationrigorously。"
"Justso,inspiteofthedifficulty,asnearlyallourwordsendwithashortsyllable。"
"Whatreceptionhasbeenaccordedtoyourinnovation?"
"Ithasnotbeenfoundpleasing,becausenobodyknowshowtorecitemyverses;butIhopetotriumphwhenIdeliverthemmyselfbeforeourliteraryclubs。"
"DoyourememberanyofyourversionoftheRadamiste?"
"Irememberitall。"
"Youhaveawonderfulmemory;Ishouldbegladtohearit。"
IbegantorecitethesamescenethatIhadrecitedtoCrebillontenyearsbefore,andIthoughtM。deVoltairelistenedwithpleasure。
"Itdoesn’tstrikeoneasatallharsh,"saidhe。
Thiswasthehighestpraisehewouldgiveme。InhisturnthegreatmanrecitedapassagefromTancredwhichhadnotasyetbeenpublished,andwhichwasafterwardsconsidered,andrightly,asamasterpiece。
Weshouldhavegotonverywellifwehadkepttothat,butonmyquotingalineofHoracetopraiseoneofhispieces,hesaidthatHoracewasagreatmasterwhohadgivenpreceptswhichwouldneverbeoutofdate。ThereuponIansweredthathehimselfhadviolatedoneofthem,butthathehadviolateditgrandly。
"Whichisthat?"
"Youdonotwrite,’Contentuspaucislectoribus’。"
"IfHoracehadhadtocombatthehydra—headedmonsterofsuperstition,hewouldhavewrittenasIhavewritten——foralltheworld。"
"Itseemstomethatyoumightspareyourselfthetroubleofcombatingwhatyouwillneverdestroy。"
"ThatwhichIcannotfinishotherswill,andIshallalwayshavethegloryofbeingthefirstinthefield。"
"Verygood;butsupposingyousucceedindestroyingsuperstition,whatareyougoingtoputinitsplace?"
"Ilikethat。IfIdelivertheraceofmanfromawildbeastwhichisdevouringit,amItobeaskedwhatIintendtoputinitsplace?"
"Itdoesnotdevourit;onthecontrary,itisnecessarytoitsexistence。"
"Necessarytoitsexistence!Thatisahorribleblasphemy,thefalsityofwhichwillbeseeninthefuture。Ilovethehumanrace;
Iwouldfainseemenlikemyself,freeandhappy,andsuperstitionandfreedomcannotgotogether。Wheredoyoufindanenslavedandyetahappypeople?"
"Youwish,then,toseethepeoplesovereign?"
"Godforbid!Theremustbeasovereigntogovernthemasses。"
"Inthatcaseyoumusthavesuperstition,forwithoutitthemasseswillneverobeyameremandeckedwiththenameofmonarch。"
"Iwillhavenomonarch;thewordexpressesdespotism,whichIhateasIdoslavery。"
"Whatdoyoumean,then?Ifyouwishtoputthegovernmentinthehandsofoneman,suchaman,Imaintain,willbeamonarch。"
"Iwouldhaveasovereignrulerofafreepeople,ofwhichheisthechiefbyanagreementwhichbindsthemboth,whichwouldpreventhimfrombecomingatyrant。"
"Addisonwilltellyouthatsuchasovereignisasheerimpossibility。IagreewithHobbes,oftwoevilschoosetheleast。
Anationwithoutsuperstitionwouldbeanationofphilosophers,andphilosopherswouldneverobey。Thepeoplewillonlybehappywhentheyarecrushedanddown—trodden,andboundinchains。"
"Thisishorrible;andyouareofthepeopleyourself。IfyouhavereadmyworksyoumusthaveseenhowIshewthatsuperstitionistheenemyofkings。"
"Readyourworks?Ihavereadandre—readthem,especiallyinplaceswhereIhavedifferedfromyou。Yourrulingpassionistheloveofhumanity。’Estubipeccas’。Thisblindsyou。Lovehumanity,butloveitasitis。Itisnotfittoreceivetheblessingsyouwouldlavishonit,andwhichwouldonlymakeitmorewretchedandperverse。Leavementheirdevouringmonster,itisdeartothem。
IhaveneverlaughedsoheartilyasatDonQuixoteassailedbythegalley—slaveswhomhisgenerosityhadsetfree。"
"Iamsorrythatyouhavesuchabadopinionofyourfellow—
creatures。Andbytheway,tellmewhetherthereisfreedominVenice。"
"Asmuchascanbeexpectedunderanaristocracy。OurlibertyisnotsogreatasthatwhichtheEnglishenjoy,butwearecontent。"
"EvenunderTheLeads?"
"Myimprisonmentwascertainlydespotic;butasIhadknowinglyabusedmylibertyIamsatisfiedthattheGovernmentwaswithinitsrightsinshuttingmeupwithouttheusualformalities。"
"Allthesame,youmadeyourescape。"
"Iusedmyrightsastheyhadusedtheirs。"
"Verygood!ButasfarasIcansee,nooneinVeniceisreallyfree。"
"Thatmaybe;butyoumustagreethattheessenceoffreedomconsistsinthinkingyouhaveit。"
"Ishallnotagreetothatsoeasily。YouandIseelibertyfromverydifferentpointsofview。Thearistocrats,themembersoftheGovernmenteven,arenotfreeatVenice;forexample,theycannottravelwithoutpermission。"
"True,butthatisarestrictionoftheirownmakingtopreservetheirpower。WouldyousaythataBerneseisnotfree,becauseheissubjecttothesumptuarylaws,whichhehimselfhadmade。"
"Well,well,Iwishthepeoplemadethelawseverywhere。"
Afterthislivelyanswer,heabruptlyaskedmewhatpartIcamefrom。
"FromRoche,"saidI。"IshouldhavebeenverysorrytoleaveSwitzerlandwithoutseeingthefamousHaller。InmytravelsIrenderhomagetomylearnedcontemporaries,andyoucomethelastandbest。"
"YoumusthavelikedHaller。"
"Ispentthreeofthehappiestdaysofmylifewithhim。"
"Icongratulateyou。Heisagreatmanandworthyofallhonour。"
"Ithinkasyoudo,andIamgladtohearyoudoinghimjustice;Iamsorryhewasnotsojusttowardsyou。"
"Well,youseewemaybebothofusmistaken。"
Atthisreply,thequicknessofwhichconstituteditschiefmerit,everybodypresentbegantolaughandapplaud。
Nomorewassaidofliterature,andIbecameasilentactortillM。deVoltaireretired,whenIapproachedMadameDenis,andaskedherifshehadanycommandsformeatRome。Iwenthomewellpleasedathavingcompelledthegiantofintellecttolistentoreason,asI
thenthoughtfoolishlyenough;buttherewasaranklingfeelingleftinmyheartagainsthimwhichmademe,tenyearslater,criticiseallhehadwritten。
Iamsorrynowforhavingdoneso,thoughonreadingmycensuresoveragainIfindthatinmanyplacesIwasright。Ishouldhavedonebetter,however,tohavekeptsilence,tohaverespectedhisgenius,andtohavesuspectedmyownopinions。Ishouldhaveconsideredthatifithadnotbeenforthosequipsandcrankswhichmademehatehimonthethirdday,Ishouldhavethoughthimwhollysublime。Thisthoughtaloneshouldhavesilencedme,butanangrymanalwaysthinkshimselfright。PosterityonreadingmyattackwillrankmeamongtheZoyluses,andthehumbleapologyInowmaketothegreatman’sshadesmaynotberead。
IfwemeetinthehallsofPluto,themorepeccantpartsofourmortalnaturepurgedaway,allwillbemadeup;hewillreceivemyheartfeltapologies,andhewillbemyfriend,Ihissincereadmirer。
IspentpartofthenightandthewholeofthefollowingdayinwritingdownmyconversationswithVoltaire,andtheyamountednearlytoavolume,ofwhichIhaveonlygivenamereabridgment。TowardstheeveningmyEpicureansyndiccalledonme,andwewenttosupwiththethreenymphs,andforfivehoursweindulgedineveryspeciesofwantonness,inwhichIhadasomewhatfertileimagination。OnleavingIpromisedtocallonthemagainonmyreturnfromRome,andIkeptmyword。Isetoutthenextday,afterdiningwiththesyndic,whoaccompaniedmeasfarasAnneci,whereIspentthenight。
NextdayIdinedatAix,withtheintentionoflyingatChamberi,butmydestinyorderedotherwise。
Aixisavillainousholewherethemineralwatersattractpeopleoffashiontowardstheendofthesummer——acircumstanceofwhichIwasthenignorant。Idinedhastily,wishingtosetoutimmediatelyforChamberi,wheninthemiddleofmyrepastacrowdoffashionablepeopleburstintotheroom。Ilookedatthemwithoutstirring,replyingwithaninclinationoftheheadtothebowswhichsomeofthemmademe。Isoondiscoveredfromtheirconversationthattheyhadallcometotakethewaters。AgentlemanofafinepresencecameuptomeandaskedifIweregoingtoTurin;IansweredthatmywaywastoMarseilles。
Theirdinnerwasserved,andeverybodysatdown。AmongthemI
noticedseveralpleasant—lookingladies,withgentlemenwhowereeithertheirhusbandsortheirlovers。IconcludedthatImightfindsomeamusementwiththem,astheyallspokeFrenchwiththateasytoneofgoodsocietywhichissoattractive,andIfeltthatIshouldbeinclinedtostaywithoutmuchpressing,forthatdayatallevents。
Ifinishedmydinnerbeforethecompanyhadcometotheendoftheirfirstcourse,andasmycoachcouldnotgoforanotherhourIwentuptoaprettywoman,andcomplimentedheronthegoodthewatersofAixseemedtohavedoneher,forherappetitemadeallwholookedatherfeelhungry。
"Ichallengeyoutoprovethatyouarespeakingthetruth,"saidshe,withasmile。Isatdownnexttoher,andshegavemeanicepieceoftheroastwhichIateasifIhadbeenfasting。
WhileIwastalkingwiththelady,andeatingthemorselsshegaveme,IheardavoicesayingthatIwasintheabbe’splace,andanothervoicereplyingthattheabbehadbeengoneforhalfanhour。
"Whyhashegone?"askedathird,"hesaidhewasgoingtostayhereforanotherweek。"Atthistherewassomewhispering,butthedepartureofanabbehadnothinginterestinginitforme,andI
continuedeatingandtalking。ItoldLeDuc,whowasstandingbehindmychair,togetmesomechampagne。Iofferedtheladysome,sheaccepted,andeveryonebegantocallforchampagne。Seeingmyneighbour’sspiritsrising,Iproceededtomakelovetoher,andaskedherifshewerealwaysasreadytodefythosewhopaidtheircourttoher。
"Somanyofthem,"sheanswered,"arenotworthythetrouble。"
Shewasprettyandquick—witted,andItookafancytoher,andwishedforsomepretextonwhichIcouldputoffmydeparture,andchancecametomyaid。
"Theplacenexttoyouwasconvenientlyempty,"saidaladytomyneighbourwhowasdrinkingwithme。
"Veryconveniently,formyneighbourweariedme。"
"Hadhenoappetite?"saidI。
"Gamestersonlyhaveanappetiteformoney。"
"Usually,butyourpowerisextraordinary;forIhavenevermadetwodinnersononedaybeforenow。"
"Onlyoutofpride;asIamsureyouwilleatnosupper。"
"Letusmakeabetonit。"
"Wewill;wewillbetthesupper。"
"Allright。"
Alltheguestsbegantoclap,andmyfairneighbourblushedwithpleasure。IorderedLeDuctotellmycoachmanthatIshouldnotbegoingtillthenextday。
"Itismybusiness,"saidthelady,"toorderthesupper。"
"Yes,youareright;forhewhopays,orders。Mypartwillbetoopposeyoutotheknife,andifIeatasmuchasyouIshallbethewinner。"
"Verygood。"
Attheendofdinner,theindividualwhohadaddressedmebeforecalledforcards,andmadeasmallbankoffaro。Heputdowntwenty—
fivePiedmontesepistoles,andsomesilvermoneytoamusetheladies——altogetheritamountednearlytofortylouis。Iremainedaspectatorduringthefirstdeal,andconvincedmyselfthatthebankerplayedverywell。
Whilsthewasgettingreadyfortheseconddeal,theladyaskedmewhyIdidnotplay。Iwhisperedtoherthatshehadmademelosemyappetiteformoney。Sherepaidthiscomplimentwithacharmingsmile。
Afterthisdeclaration,feelingmyselfentitledtoplay,Iputdownfortylouis,andlostthemintwodeals。Igotup,andonthebankersayingverypolitelythathewassorryformyloss,Irepliedthatitwasamerenothing,butthatIalwaysmadeitarulenevertoriskasumofmoneylargerthanthebank。SomebodythenaskedmeifIknewacertainAbbeGilbert。
"Iknewamanofthatname,"saidI,"atParis;hecamefromLyons,andowesmeapairofears,whichImeantocutoffhisheadwhenI
meethim。"
Myquestionermadenoreplytothis,andeverybodyremainedsilent,asifnothinghadbeensaid。FromthisIconcludedthattheabbeaforesaidmustbethesamewhoseplaceIhadoccupiedatdinner。Hehaddoubtlessseenmeonmyarrivalandhadtakenhimselfoff。ThisabbewasarascalwhohadvisitedmeatLittlePoland,towhomIhadentrustedaringwhichhadcostmefivethousandflorinsinHolland;
nextdaythescoundrelhaddisappeared。
Wheneverybodyhadleftthetable,IaskedLeDucifIwerewelllodged。
"No,"saidhe;"wouldyouliketoseeyourroom?"
Hetookmetoalargeroom,ahundredpacesfromtheinn,whosesolefurnitureconsistedofitsfourwalls,alltheotherroomsbeingoccupied。Icomplainedvainlytotheinn—keeper,whosaid,"It’sallIcanofferyou,butIwillhaveagoodbed,atable,andchairstakenthere。"
Ihadtocontentmyselfwithit,astherewasnochoice。
"Youwillsleepinmyroom,"saidItoLeDuc,"takecaretoprovideyourselfwithabed,andbringmybaggagein。"
"WhatdoyouthinkofGilbert,sir?"saidmySpaniard;"Ionlyrecognizedhimjustashewasgoing,andIhadalivelydesiretotakehimbythebackofhisneck。"
"Youwouldhavedonewelltohavesatisfiedthatdesire。"
"Iwill,whenIseehimagain。"
AsIwasleavingmybigroom,Iwasaccostedpolitelybyamanwhosaidhewasgladtobemyneighbour,andofferedtotakemetothefountainifIweregoingthere。Iacceptedhisoffer。Hewasatallfairman,aboutfiftyyearsold;hemustoncehavebeenhandsome,buthisexcessivepolitenessshouldhavemademesuspecthim;however,I
wantedsomebodytotalkto,andtogivemethevariouspiecesofinformationIrequired。OnthewayheinformedmeoftheconditionofthepeopleIhadseen,andIlearntthatnoneofthemhadcometoAixforthesakeofthewaters。
"Iamtheonlyone,"saidhe,"whotakesthemoutofnecessity。Iamconsumptive;Igetthinnereveryday,andifthewatersdon’tdomeanygoodIshallnotlastmuchlonger。"
Soalltheothershaveonlycomehereforamusement’ssake?"
"Andtogame,sir,fortheyareallprofessionalgamesters。"
"AretheyFrench?"
"TheyareallfromPiedmontorSavoy;IamtheonlyFrenchmanhere。"
"WhatpartofFrancedoyoucomefrom?"
"FromLorraine;myfather,whoiseightyyearsold,istheMarquisDesarmoises。Heonlykeepsonlivingtospiteme,forasImarriedagainsthiswisheshehasdisinheritedme。However,asIamhisonlyson,Ishallinherithispropertyafterhisdeath,inspiteofhim。
MyhouseisatLyons,butInevergothere,asIhavethemisfortunetobeinlovewithmyeldestdaughter,andmywifewatchesussocloselyastomakemycourtshiphopeless。"
"Thatisveryfine;otherwise,Isuppose,yourdaughterwouldtakepityonheramorouspapa?"
"Idaresay,forsheisveryfondofme,andhasanexcellentheart。"
CHAPTERXX
MyAdventuresatAix——MySecondM。M。——MadameZeroliThisman,who,thoughhedidnotknowme,puttheutmostconfidenceinme,sofarfromthinkinghewashorrifyingmebytheconfessionofsuchwickedness,probablyconsideredhewasdoingmeagreathonour。
WhileIlistenedtohimIreflectedthatthoughdepravedhemighthavehisgoodpoints,andthathisweaknessmighthaveapitiableifnotapardonableside。However,wishingtoknowmoreofhim,I
said,——
"Inspiteofyourfather’ssternness,youliveverywell。"
"Onthecontrary,Iliveveryill。IenjoyapensionfromtheGovernment,whichIsurrendertomywife,andasformeImakealivelihoodonmytravels。Iplayblackgammonandmostothergamesperfectly。IwinmoreoftenthanIlose,andIliveonmywinnings。"
"Butiswhatyouhavetoldmeaboutyourdaughterknowntothevisitorshere?"
"Everybodyknowsit;whyshouldIhideit?Iamamanofhonourandinjurenoone;and,besides,myswordissharp。"
"Quiteso;butwouldyoutellmewhetheryouallowyourdaughtertohavealover?"
"Ishouldhavenoobjection,butmywifeisreligious。"
"Isyourdaughterpretty?"
"Very;ifyouaregoingtoLyons,youcangoandseeher;Iwillgiveyoualetterofintroductionforher。""Thankyou,butIamgoingtoItaly。Canyoutellmethenameofthegentlemanwhokeptthebank?"
"ThatisthefamousParcalier,MarquisdePriesincethedeathofhisfather,whomyoumayhaveknownasambassadoratVenice。ThegentlemanwhoaskedyouifyouknewtheAbbeGilbertistheChevalierZeroli,husbandoftheladyyouaretosupwith。Therestarecounts,marquises,andbaronsoftheusualkind,somefromPiedmontandsomefromSavoy。Twoorthreearemerchants’sons,andtheladiesarealltheirfriendsorrelations。Theyareallprofessionalgamblersandsharp—witted。Whenastrangercomesheretheyknowhowtogetoverhim,andifheplaysitisallupwithhim,fortheygotogetherlikepickpocketsatafair。Theythinktheyhavegotyou,sotakecareofyourself。"
Intheeveningwereturnedtotheinn,andfoundallthecompanyplaying,andmycompanionproceededtoplaywithaCountdeScarnafisch。
TheChevalierZeroliofferedtoplayfarowithmeforfortysequins,andIhadjustlostthatsumwhensupperwasserved。Mylosshadnotaffectedmyspirits,andtheladyfindingmeatoncehungryandgaypaidthebetwithagoodgrace。AtsupperIsurprisedherincertainside—glances,whichwarnedmethatshewasgoingtotrytodupeme;I
feltmyselfsafeasfaraslovewasconcerned,butIhadreasontodreadfortune,alwaysthefriendofthosewhokeepabankatfaro,especiallyasIhadalreadylost。Ishouldhavedonewelltogo,butIhadnotthestrength;allIcoulddowastopromisemyselfthatI
wouldbeextremelyprudent。Havinglargesumsinpapermoneyandplentyofgold,itwasnotdifficultformetobecareful。
JustaftersuppertheMarquisdePriemadeabankofaboutthreehundredsequins。HisstakingthispaltrysumshewedmethatIhadmuchtoloseandlittletowin,asitwasevidentthathewouldhavemadeabankofathousandsequinsifhehadhadthem。IputdownfiftyPortuguesecrowns,andsaidthatassoonasIhadlostthemI
shouldgotobed。InthemiddleofthethirddealIbrokethebank。
"Iamgoodforanothertwohundredlouis,"saidthemarquis。
"Ishouldbegladtocontinueplaying,"Ireplied,"ifIhadnottogoatday—break";andIthereuponlefttheroom。
JustasIwasgoingtobed,Desarmoisescameandaskedmetolendhimtwelvelouis。Ihadexpectedsomesuchrequest,andIcountedthemouttohim。Heembracedmegratefully,andtoldmethatMadameZerolihadsworntomakemestayonatleastforanotherday。I
smiledandcalledLeDuc,andaskedhimifmycoachmanknewthatI
wasstartingearly;herepliedthathewouldbeatthedoorbyfiveo’clock。
"Verygood,"saidDesarmoises,"butIwillwagerthatyouwillnotgoforallthat。"
HewentoutandIwenttobed,laughingathisprophecy。
Atfiveo’clocknextmorningthecoachmancametotellmethatoneofthehorseswasillandcouldnottravel。IsawthatDesarmoiseshadhadaninklingofsomeplot,butIonlylaughed。Isentthemanroughlyabouthisbusiness,andtoldLeDuctogetmepost—horsesattheinn。Theinn—keepercameandtoldmethattherewerenohorses,andthatitwouldtakeallthemorningtofindsome,astheMarquisdePrie,whowasleavingatoneo’clockinthemorning,hademptiedhisstables。IansweredthatinthatcaseIwoulddineatAix,butthatIcountedonhisgettingmehorsesbytwoo’clockintheafternoon。
Ilefttheroomandwenttothestable,whereIfoundthecoachmanweepingoveroneofhishorsesstretchedoutonthestraw。Ithoughtitwasreallyanaccident,andconsoledthepoordevil,payinghimasifhehaddonehiswork,andtellinghimIshouldnotwanthimanymore。Ithenwenttowardsthefountain,butthereaderwillbeastonishedbyameetingofthemostromanticcharacter,butwhichisyetthestricttruth。
AtafewpacesfromthefountainIsawtwonunscomingfromit。Theywereveiled,butIconcludedfromtheirappearancethatonewasyoungandtheotherold。Therewasnothingastonishinginsuchasight,buttheirhabitattractedmyattention,foritwasthesameasthatwornbymydearM————M————,whomIhadseenforthelasttimeonJuly24th,1755,fiveyearsbefore。Thelookofthemwasenough,nottomakemebelievethattheyoungnunwasM————M————,buttoexcitemycuriosity。Theywerewalkingtowardsthecountry,soIturnedtocutthemoffthatImightseethemfacetofaceandbeseenofthem。
WhatwasmyemotionwhenIsawtheyoungnun,who,walkinginfront,andliftingherveil,disclosedtheveritablefaceofM————M————。
Icouldnotdoubtthatitwasshe,andIbegantowalkbesideher;
butsheloweredherveil,andturnedtoavoidme。
Thereasonsshemighthaveforsuchacoursepassedinamomentthroughmymind,andIfollowedheratadistance,andwhenshehadgoneaboutfivehundredpacesIsawherenteralonelyhouseofpoorappearancethatwasenoughforme。IreturnedtothefountaintoseewhatIcouldlearnaboutthenun。
OnmywaythereIlostmyselfinamazeofconjectures。
"ThetoocharmingandhaplessM————M————,"saidItomyself,"musthaveleftherconvent,desperate——nay,mad;forwhydoesshestillwearthehabitofherorder?Perhaps,though,shehasgotadispensationtocomehereforthewaters;thatmustbethereasonwhyshehasanunwithher,andwhyshehasnotleftoffherhabit。Atalleventsthejourneymusthavebeenundertakenunderfalsepretences。Hassheabandonedherselftosomefatalpassion,ofwhichtheresulthasbeenpregnancy?Sheisdoubtlessperplexed,andmusthavebeenpleasedtoseeme。Iwillnotdeceiveherexpectations;I
willdoallinmypowertoconvinceherthatIamworthyofher。"
LostinthoughtIdidnotnoticeIhadarrivedatthefountain,roundwhichstoodthewholehostofgamesters。Theyallcrowdedroundme,andsaidhowcharmedtheyweretoseemestillthere。IaskedtheChevalierZeroliafterhiswife,andhetoldmeshewasstillabed,andthatitwouldbeagoodthingifIwouldgoandmakehergetup。
Iwasjustgoingwhenthedoctoroftheplaceaccostedme,saying,thatthewatersoftheAixwouldincreasemygoodhealth。Fulloftheoneidea,IaskedhimdirectlyifhewerethedoctorinattendanceonaprettynunIhadseen。
"Shetakesthewaters,"hereplied,"butshedoesnotspeaktoanyone。"
"Wheredoesshecomefrom?"
"Nobodyknows;shelivesinapeasant’shouse。"
Ileftthedoctor,andinsteadofgoingtowardstheinn,wherethehussyZeroliwasdoubtlesswaitingforme,Imademywaytowardsthepeasant’shouse,whichalreadyseemedtomethetempleofthemostblissfuldeities,determinedtoobtaintheinformationIrequiredasprudentlyasmightbe。Butasiflovehadfavouredmyvows,whenI
waswithinahundredpacesofthecottageIsawthepeasantwomancomingouttomeetme。
"Sir,"saidshe,accostingme,"theyoungnunbegsyoutoreturnthiseveningatnineo’clock;thelay—sisterwillbeasleepthen,andshewillbeabletospeakfreelytoyou。"
Therecouldbenomoredoubt。Myheartleaptwithjoy。Igavethecountry—womanalouis,andpromisedtobeatthehouseatnineexactly。
WiththecertaintyofseeingmydearM————M————againIreturnedtotheinn,andonascertainingwhichwasMadameZeroli’sroomIenteredwithoutceremony,andtoldherthatherhusbandhadsentmetomakehergetup。
"Ithoughtyouweregone?"
"Iamgoingattwo。"
Ifoundherstillmoreenticinginbedthanattable。Ihelpedhertoputonherstays,andthesightofhercharmsinflamedmyardour,butIexperiencedmoreresistancethanIhadanticipated。Isatdownatthefootofthebed,andtoldherhowferventlyIlovedher,andhowunhappyIwasatnotbeingabletogivehermarksofmylovebeforeIleft。
"But,"saidshe,laughing,"youhaveonlygottostay。"
"Givemesomehope,andIwillstaytillto—morrow。"
"Youareintoomuchofahurry,takethingsmorequietly。"
Icontentedmyselfwiththefewfavoursshegrantedme,pretendingasusualonlytoyieldtoviolence,whenIwasobligedtorestrainmyselfontheappearanceofherhusband,whotooktheprecautionofmakinganoisebeforehecarnein。Assoonasshesawhim,shesaid,withouttheslightestperturbation,"Ihavepersuadedthegentlemantostaytellthedayafterto—morrow。"
"Iamallthemorepleasedtohearit,mydear,"saidthechevalier,"asIowehimhisrevenge。"
Withthesewordshetookupapackofcards,whichcameasreadilytohishandsasiftheyhadbeenplacedthereonpurpose,andseatinghimselfbesidehiswife,whomhemadeintothetable,hebegantodeal。
Icouldnotdrawback,andasmythoughtsweredistractedIkeptonlosingtilltheycametotellmedinnerwasready。
"Ihavenotimetodress,"saidthelady,"soIwillhavemydinnerinbed,ifyougentlemenwillkeepmecompany。"
HowcouldIrefuse?Thehusbandwentouttoorderthedinner,andfeelingmyselfauthorizedbythelossoftwentyLouis,ItoldthehussythatifshewouldnotgivemeaplainpromisetomakemehappythatafternoonIshouldgoawaywhenIhadhadmydinner。
"Breakfastwithmeto—morrowmorning。Weshallbealone。"
Afterreceivingfromhercertainearnestsofherpromise,Ipromisedtostayon。
Wedinedbyherbedside,andItoldLeDucthatIshouldnotbegoingtilltheafternoonofthenextday,whichmadethehusbandandwiferadiant。Whenwehaddone,theladysaidshewouldliketogetup;
andIwentout,promisingtoreturnandplaypiquetwithher。I
proceededtorelinemypurse,andImetDesarmoises,whosaid,"Ihavefoundoutthesecret;theygavehercoachmantwoLouistosubstituteasickhorseforhisown。"
"It’samatterofgiveandtake,"saidI;"Iaminlovewiththechevalier’swife,andIamputtingoffmydeparturetillIhavegotallIwantoutofher。"
"Iamafraidyouwillhavetopayprettydearlyforyourpleasure。
However,IwilldowhatIcanforyourinterests。"
Ithankedhimsmilingly,andreturnedtothelady,whomIleftateighto’clockunderpretextofaviolentheadache,afterhavinglosttenlouistoher。Iremindedherofherpromisefornextmorningatnineo’clock,andIleftherinthemidstofthecompany。
ItwasafinemoonlightnightasIwalkedtowardsthepeasant’shouse,whereIwastoseemydearM————M————oncemore。Iwasimpatienttoseewhatthevisit,onwhichtherestofmylifemightdepend,wouldbringforth。
Ihadtakentheprecautiontoprovidemyselfwithapairofpistols,andmyswordhungatmyside,forIwasnotwhollydevoidofsuspicioninthisplace,wherethereweresomanyadventurers;butattwentypacesfromthecottageIsawthewomancomingtowardsme。Shetoldmethatthenuncouldnotcomedown,soImustbecontenttoenterthroughthewindow,bymeansofaladderwhichshehadplacedthereforthepurpose。Idrewnear,andnotseeinganylightI
shouldnothaveeasilydecidedongoingup,ifIhadnotheardthevoiceIthoughtIknewsowell,saying,"Fearnothing;come。"
Besides,thewindowwasnotveryhighup,andtherecouldnotbemuchdangerofatrap。Iascended,andthoughtforcertainthatIheldmydearM————M————inmyarms,asIcoveredherfacewithmyardentkisses。
"Why,"saidI,inVenetian,"haveyounotalight?Ihopeyouaregoingtoinformmeofaneventwhichseemswonderfultome;quick,dearest,satisfymyimpatience。"
ThereaderwillguessmysurprisewhenhelearnsthatonhearinghervoiceclosetomeIfoundthatshewasnotM————M————。ShetoldmethatshedidnotunderstandVenetian,andthatIdidnotrequirealighttotellherwhatM。deCouderthaddecidedondoingtosaveherfromherperil。
"Yousurpriseme;IdonotknowM。deCoudert。What!AreyounotaVenetian?AreyounotthenunIsawthismorning?"
"Haplessone!Ihavemadeamistake。Iamthenunyousawthismorning,butIamFrench。InthenameofGodkeepmycounselandbegone,forIhavenothingtosaytoyou!Whisper,forifthelay—
sisterwokeupIshouldbeundone。"
"Donotbeafraidofmydiscretion。Whatdeceivedmewasyourexactlikenesstoanunofyourorderwhowillbealwaysdeartome:andifyouhadnotallowedmetoseeyourfeaturesIshouldnothavefollowedyou。ForgivethetendernessIshewedtowardsyou,thoughyoumustthinkmeveryaudacious。"
"Youastonishedmeverymuch,butyoudidnotoffendme。IwishI
werethenuninwhomyouareinterested。Iamonthebrinkofafearfulprecipice。"
"Iftenlouisareanygoodtoyou,itwillbeanhonourformetogiveyouthem。"
"Thankyou,Ihavenoneedofmoney。Allowmetogiveyoubackthelouisyousentmethismorning。"
"Thelouiswasforthecountry—woman。Youincreasemysurprise;praytellmewhatisthemisfortuneunderwhichyoulabour,forwhichmoneycandonothing。"
"PerhapsGodhassentyoutomyaid。Maybeyouwillgivemegoodadvice。ListentowhatIamabouttotellyou。"
"Iamatyourservice,andIwilllistenwiththegreatestattention。
Letussitdown。"
"Iamafraidthereisneitherseatnorbed。"
"Sayon,then;wewillremainstanding。"
"IcomefromGrenoble。IwasmadetotaketheveilatChamberi。Twoyearsaftermyprofession,M。deCoudertfoundmeanstoseeme。I
receivedhimintheconventgarden,thewallsofwhichhescaled,andatlastIwassounfortunateastobecomepregnant。Theideaofgivingbirthtoachildattheconventwastoodreadful——IshouldhavelanguishedtillIdiedinaterribledungeon——andM。deCoudertthoughtofaplanfortakingmeoutoftheconvent。AdoctorwhomhegainedoverwithalargesumofmoneydeclaredthatIshoulddieunlessIcameheretotakethewaters,whichhedeclaredweretheonlycureformyillness。AprincesswhomM。deCoudertknewwaspartlyadmittedtothesecret,andsheobtainedtheleaveofabsenceforthreemonthsfromtheBishopofChamberi,andtheabbessconsentedtomygoing。
"Ithushopedtobedeliveredbeforetheexpirationofthethreemonths;butIhaveassuredlymadeamistake,forthetimedrawstoanendandIfeelnosignsofaspeedydelivery。Iamobligedtoreturntotheconvent,andyetIcannotdoso。Thelay—sisterwhoiswithmeisaperfectshrew。Shehasordersnottoletmespeaktoanybody,andnevertoletmyfacebeseen。Sheitwaswhomademeturnwhenshesawyoufollowingus。IliftedmyveilforyoutoseethatIwassheofwhomIthoughtyouwereinsearch,andhappilythelay—sisterdidnotnoticeme。Shewantsmetoreturnwithhertotheconventinthreedays,asshethinksIhaveanincurabledropsy。Shedoesnotallowmetospeaktothedoctor,whomImight,perhaps,havegainedoverbytellinghimthetruth。Iamonlytwenty—one,andyetIlongfordeath。"
"Donotweepso,dearsister,andtellmehowyouexpecttobedeliveredherewithoutthelay—sisterbeingawareofit?"
"TheworthywomanwithwhomIamstayingisanangelofgoodness。I
haveconfidedinher,andshepromisedmethatwhenIfeltthepangscomingonshewouldgivethatmaliciouswomanasporific,andthusweshouldbefreedfromallfearsofher。Byvirtueofthedrugshenowsleepssoundlyintheroomunderthisgarret。"
"WhywasInotletinbythedoor?"
"Topreventthewoman’sbrotherseeingyou;heisarudeboor。"
"WhatmadeyouthinkthatIhadanythingtodowithM。deCoudert?"
"Tenortwelvedaysago,Iwrotetohimandtoldhimofmydreadfulposition。IpaintedmysituationwithsuchlivelycoloursthatI
thoughthemustdoallinhispowertohelpme。Asthewretchedclingtoeverystraw,Ithought,whenIsawyoufollowingme,thatyouwerethedelivererhehadsent。"
"Areyousurehegotyourletter?"
"ThewomanposteditatAnneci。"
"Youshouldwritetotheprincess。"
"Idarenot。"
"Iwillseehermyself,andIwillseeM。deCoudert。Infine,I
willmoveheavenandearth,Iwillevengotothebishop,toobtainanextensionofyourleave;foritisoutofthequestionforyoutoreturntotheconventinyourpresentsituation。Youmustdecide,forIcandonothingwithoutyourconsent。Willyoutrustinme?
Ifso,Iwillbringyouaman’sclothesto—morrowandtakeyoutoItalywithme,andwhileIliveIswearIwillcareforyou。"
Forreply,Ionlyheardlong—drawnsobs,whichdistressedmebeyondwords,forIfeltacutelythesituationofthispoorcreaturewhomHeavenhadmadetobeamother,andwhomthecrueltyofherparentshadcondemnedtobeauselessnun。
Notknowingwhatelsetosay,Itookherhandandpromisedtoreturnthenextdayandhearherdecision,foritwasabsolutelynecessarythatsheshoulddecideonsomeplan。Iwentawaybytheladder,andgaveasecondlouistotheworthywoman,tellingherthatIshouldbewithheronthemorrowatthesamehour,butthatIshouldliketobeabletoenterbythedoor。Ibeggedhertogivethelay—sisterastrongerdoseofopium,sothatthereshouldbenofearofherawakingwhileItalkedwiththeyoungnun。
IwenttobedgladatheartthatIhadbeenwronginthinkingthatthenunwasM————M————。Neverthelessthegreatlikenessbetweenthemmademewishtoseehernearerathand,andIwassurethatshewouldnotrefusemetheprivilegeoflookingatherthenextday。I
smiledatthethoughtoftheardentkissesIhadgivenher,butI
feltthatIcouldnotleavehertoherfate。IwasgladtofindthatIdidnotneedanysensualmotivetourgemetoagooddeed,forassoonasIfoundthatitwasnotM————M————whohadreceivedthosetenderkissesIfeltashamedofhavinggiventhem。IhadnotevengivenherafriendlykisswhenIlefther。
InthemorningDesarmoisescameandtoldmethatallthecompany,notseeingmeatsupper,hadbeenpuzzlingitselftofindoutwhathadbecomeofme。MadameZerolihadspokenenthusiasticallyaboutme,andhadtakenthejestsofthetwootherladiesingoodpart,boastingthatshecouldkeepmeatAixaslongassheremainedthereherself。ThefactwasthatIwasnotamorousbutcuriouswhereshewasconcerned,andIshouldhavebeensorrytohavelefttheplacewithoutobtainingcompletepossessionofher,foronceatallevents。
Ikeptmyappointment,andenteredherroomatnineo’clockexactly。
Ifoundherdressed,andonmyreproachinghershesaidthatitshouldbeofnoconsequencetomewhethersheweredressedorundressed。Iwasangry,andItookmychocolatewithoutsomuchasspeakingtoher。WhenIhadfinishedsheofferedmemyrevengeatpiquet,butIthankedherandbeggedtobeexcused,tellingherthatinthehumourinwhichshehadputmeIshouldprovethebetterplayer,andthatIdidnotcaretowinladies’money。SosayingI
rosetoleavetheroom。
"Atleastbekindenoughtotakemetothefountain。"
"Ithinknot。Ifyoutakemeforafreshman,youmakeamistake,andIdon’tcaretogivetheimpressionthatIampleasedwhenIamdispleased。Youcangetwhomsoeveryoupleasetotakeyoutothefountain,butasformeImustbegtobeexcused。Farewell,madam。"
WiththesewordsIwentout,payingnoattentiontohereffortstorecallme。
Ifoundtheinn—keeper,andtoldhimthatImustleaveatthreeo’clockwithoutafail。Thelady,whowasatherwindow,couldhearme。Iwentstraighttothefountainwherethechevalieraskedmewhathadbecomeofhiswife,andIansweredthatIhadleftherinherroominperfecthealth。Inhalfanhourwesawhercomingwithastranger,whowaswelcomedbyacertainM。deSt。Maurice。MadameZerolilefthim,andtackedherselfontome,asiftherehadbeennothingthematter。Icouldnotrepulseherwithoutthemosttroublesomeconsequences,butIwasverycold。Aftercomplainingofmyconductshesaidthatshehadonlybeentryingme,thatifI
reallylovedherIshouldputoffmydeparture,andthatIshouldbreakfastwithherateighto’clockthenextday。IansweredcoollythatIwouldthinkitover。Iwasseriousalldinner—time,andsaidonceortwicethatImustgoatthreeo’clock,butasIwantedtofindsomepretextforstayingonaccountofthenun,Iletmyselfbepersuadedintomakingabankatfaro。
IstakedallthegoldIhad,andIsaweveryfacelightupasIputdownaboutfourhundredlouisingold,andaboutsixhundredfrancsinsilver。"Gentlemen,"saidI,"Ishallriseateighto’clockprecisely。"Thestrangersaid,withasmile,thatpossiblythebankmightnotlivesolong,butIpretendednottounderstandhim。Itwasjustthreeo’clock。IbeggedDesarmoisestobemycroupier,andIbegantodealwithduedeliberationtoeighteenortwentypunters,allprofessionalgamblers。Itookanewpackateverydeal。
Byfiveo’clockIhadlostmoney。Weheardcarriagewheels,andtheysaiditwasthreeEnglishmenfromGeneva,whowerechanginghorsestogoontoChamberi。Amomentaftertheycamein,andIbowed。ItwasMr。Foxandhistwofriends,whohadplayedquinzewithme。Mycroupiergavethemcards,whichtheyreceivedgladly,andwenttenlouis,playingontwoandthreecards,goingparoli,sevenandthe’va’,aswellasthe’quinze’,sothatmybankwasindangerofbreaking。However,Ikeptupmyface,andevenencouragedthemtoplay,for,Godbeingneutral,thechanceswereinmyfavour。Soithappened,andatthethirddealIhadclearedtheEnglishmenout,andtheircarriagewasready。
WhileIwasshufflingafreshpackofcards,theyoungestofthemdrewoutofhispocket—bookapaperwhichhespewedtohistwocompanions。Itwasabillofexchange。"Willyoustakethevalueofthisbillonacard,withoutknowingitsvalue?"saidhe。
"Yes,"Ireplied,"ifyouwilltellmeuponwhomitisdrawn,andprovidedthatitdoesnotexceedthevalueofthebank。"
Afterarapidglanceatthepileofgoldbeforeme,hesaid,"Thebillisnotforsolargeasumasyourbank,anditispayableatsightbyZappata,ofTurin。"
Iagreed,hecut,andputhismoneyonanace,thetwofriendsgoinghalfshares。Idrewanddrewanddrew,butnoaceappeared。Ihadonlyadozencardsleft。
"Sir,"saidI,calmlytothepunter,"youcandrawbackifyoulike。"
"No,goon。"
Fourcardsmore,andstillnoace;Ihadonlyeightcardsleft。
"Mylord,"saidI,"it’stwotoonethatIdonotholdtheace,I
repeatyoucandrawback。"
"No,no,youaretoogenerous,goon。"
Icontinueddealing,andwon;Iputthebillofexchangeinmypocketwithoutlookingatit。TheEnglishmenshookmebythehandandwentofflaughing。Iwasenjoyingtheeffectthisboldstrokehadmadeonthecompany,whenyoungFoxcameinandwitharoaroflaughterbeggedmetolendhimfiftyLouis。Icountedthemoutwiththegreatestpleasure,andhepaidmethembackinLondonthreeyearslater。
Everyonewascurioustoknowthevalueofthebillofexchange,butI
wasnotpoliteenoughtosatisfytheircuriosity。ItwasforeightthousandPiedmontesefrancs,asIsawassoonasIwasalone。
TheEnglishmenhadbroughtmegoodluck,forwhentheyhadgonefortunedeclaredforthebank。Iroseateighto’clock,someladieshavingwonafewlouis,alltheothersweredriedup。Ihadwonmorethanathousandlouis,andIgavetwenty—fivetoDesarmoises,whojumpedforjoy。Ilockedupmymoney,putmypistolsinmypocket,andsetouttowardsthemeeting—place。
Theworthypeasantwomanbroughtmeinbythedoor,tellingmethateverybodywasasleep,andthatshehadnotfounditnecessarytorenewthelay—sister’sdose,asshewasstillasleep。
Iwasterrified。Iwentupstairs,andbythelightofasinglecandleIsawthewretched,veiledfigureofthenun,extendeduponasackwhichthepeasantwomanhadplacedalongthewallinsteadofasofa。Thecandlewhichlightedthisdrearyplacewasfixedinabottle。
"Whathaveyoudecidedondoing?"saidI。
"Ihavedecidedonnothing,foranunforeseenincidenthasconfoundedus。Thelay—sisterhasbeenasleepforeighteenhours。"
"Shewilldieofconvulsionsorofanapoplecticfitto—nightifyoudonotcalladoctor,whomaypossiblyrestorehertolifewithadoseofcastoroil。"
"Wehavethoughtofthat,butwedidnotdaretotakethatstepforfearofconsequences;forwhetherherestoresherornot,hewillsaythatwehavepoisonedher。"
"Ipityyou,uponmysoul!Indeed,Ibelievethatitistoolate,andthatadoctorcoulddonothing。Onemustobeythelawsofprudenceandletherdie。Themischiefisdone,andIseenoremedy。"
"Atanyrate,weoughttothinkofhersoulandsendforapriest。"
"Apriestwoulddohernogood,assheisinaperfectlethargy;hersoulissafeenough。Besides,anignorantpriestwouldfindouttoomuch,andwouldtellthewholestoryeitherthroughmaliceorstupidity。Itwillbetimetocallapriestwhenshehasceasedtobreathe。Youmusttellhimthatshediedverysuddenly;youmustweepagreatdeal,andgivehimafee,andhewillthinkonlyofcalmingyourgrief,andnothingaboutthesuddendeath。"
"Thenwemustletherdie?"
"Wemustleavehertonature。"
"IfshediesIwillsendamessengertotheabbess,whowilldispatchanotherlay—sister。"
"Yes,andthatwillgiveyouanothertendays。Duringthattimeyoumaybedelivered,andyouwillconfessthateverycloudhasasilverlining。Donotgrieveso,butletusendeavourtosubmittothewillofGod。Sendforthecountry—woman,forImustgivehersomehintsastoherconductinthisdelicatematter,onwhichthehonourandlifeofallthreemaydepend。Forinstance,ifitwerediscoveredthatIhadcomehere,Imightbetakenforthepoisoner。"
Thewomancame,andIshewedherhownecessaryitwasforhertobeprudentanddiscreet。Sheunderstoodmeperfectly,perceivedherowndangerousposition,andpromisedthatshewouldnotsendforthepriesttillshewascertainofthesister’sdeath。Ithenmadeheraccepttenlouisincaseofneed。
Seeingherselfmaderichbymyliberality,shekissedmyhands,kneltdown,andburstingintotearspromisedtofollowmyadvicecarefully。
Whenshehadleftus,thenunbegantoweepbitterly,accusingherselfofthemurderofthelay—sister,andthinkingthatshesawhellopeningbeneathherfeet。Isoughtinvaintocalmher;hergriefincreased,andatlastshefellinadeadfaintonthesack。I
wasextremelydistressed,andnotknowingwhattodoIcalledtothewomantobringsomevinegar,asIhadnoessencesaboutme。AllatonceIrememberedthefamoushellebore,whichhadservedmesowellwithMadameand,takingthelittlebox,Iheldittohernostrils。
Ittookeffectjustasthewomanbroughtthevinegar。"Rubhertemples,"saidI。Shetookoffhercap,andtheblacknessofherhairwastheonlythingthatconvincedmeitwasnotmyfairVenetian。Thehelleborehavingbroughthertohersenses,sheopenedherlargeblackeyes,andfromthatmomentIfellmadlyinlovewithher。Thepeasantwoman,seeingthatshewasherselfagainandoutofdanger,wentaway,andtakingherbetweenmyarmsIcoveredherwithfierykisses,inspiteofhercontinuoussneezes。