"Youhavebeenlosing,then?"
"Yes,butmybrotherhaswonsomething,"saidtheamiableQ————。
"Ihopeluckwilldeclareitselfonyoursidealso。"
"No,wearenotlucky。"
Whentheirauntlefttheroom,theyaskedmeifthelieutenanthadtoldmethataladyfriendoftheirswascomingtotheballwiththem。
"Iknowall,"Ianswered,"andIhopeyouwillenjoyyourselves,butyouwillnotdosomorethanI。Iwanttospeaktothegallantlieutenantto—morrowmorning。"
"Tellusaboutourdisguises。"
"Youwillbedisguisedinsuchamannerthatnobodywillrecognizeyou。"
"Buthowshallwebedressed?"
"Veryhandsomely。"
"Butwhatcostumehaveyougivenus?"
"Thatismysecret,ladies。HowevermuchIshouldliketopleaseyou,Ishallsaynothingtillthetimeforyoutodresscomesround。Don’taskmeanythingmore,asIhavepromisedmyselftheenjoymentofyoursurprise。Iamveryfondofdramaticsituations。Youshallknowallaftersupper。"
"Arewetohavesupper,then?"
"Certainly,ifyouwouldlikeit。IamagreateatermyselfandI
hopeyouwillnotletmeeatalone。"
"Thenwewillhavesomesuppertopleaseyou。Wewilltakecarenottoeatmuchdinner,soastobeabletoviewithyouintheevening。TheonlythingIamsorryabout,"addedMdlle。Q————,"isthatyoushouldbeputtosuchexpense。"
"Itisapleasure;andwhenIleaveMilanIshallconsolemyselfwiththethoughtthatIhavesuppedwiththetwohandsomestladiesinthetown。"
"Howisfortunetreatingyou?"
"Cananowinstwohundredsequinsfrommeeveryday。"
"Butyouwontwothousandfromhiminonenight。"
"YouwillbreakhisbankonSunday。Wewillbringyouluck。"
"Wouldyouliketolookon?"
"Weshouldbedelighted,butmybrothersaysyoudon’twanttogowithus。"
"Quiteso,thereasonisthatIshouldberecognized。ButI
believethegentlemanwhowillaccompanyyouisofthesamefigureasmyself。"
"Exactlythesame,"saidthecousin;"exceptthatheisfair。"
"Allthebetter,"saidI,"thefairalwaysconquerthedarkwithease。"
"Notalways,"saidtheother。"Buttellus,atanyrate,whetherwearetowearmen’sdresses。"
"Fie!fie!IshouldbeangrywithmyselfifIhadentertainedsuchathought。"
"That’scurious;whyso?"
"I’lltellyou。IfthedisguiseiscompleteIamdisgusted,fortheshapeofawomanismuchmoremarkedthanthatofaman,andconsequentlyawomaninman’sdress,wholookslikeaman,cannothaveagoodfigure。"
"Butwhenawomanskewshershapewell?"
"ThenIamangrywithherforskewingtoomuch,forIliketoseethefaceandthegeneraloutlinesoftheformandtoguesstherest。"
"Buttheimaginationisoftendeceptive!"
"Yes,butitiswiththefacethatIalwaysfallinlove,andthatneverdeceivesmeasfarasitisconcerned。ThenifIhavethegoodfortunetoseeanythingmoreIamalwaysinalenientmoodanddisposedtopassoversmallfaults。Youarelaughing?"
"Iamsmilingatyourimpassionedarguments。"
"Wouldyouliketobedressedlikeaman?"
"Iwasexpectingsomethingofthekind,butafteryouhavesaidwecanmakenomoreobjections。"
"Icanimaginewhatyouwouldsay;Ishouldcertainlynottakeyouformen,butIwillsaynomore。"
Theylookedateachother,andblushedandsmiledastheysawmygazefixedontwopre—eminenceswhichonewouldneverexpecttoseeinanyman。Webegantotalkofotherthings,andfortwohoursIenjoyedtheirlivelyandculturedconversation。
WhenIleftthemIwentofftomyapartments,thentotheopera,whereIlosttwohundredsequins,andfinallysuppedwiththecountess,whohadbecomequiteamiable。However,shesoonfellbackintoheroldwayswhenshefoundthatmypolitenesswasmerelyexternal,andthatIhadnointentionswhateveroftroublingherinherbedroomagain。
OntheSaturdaymorningtheyoungofficercametoseeme,andI
toldhimthattherewasonlyonethingthatIwantedhimtodo,butthatitmustbedoneexactlyaccordingtomyinstructions。Hepromisedtofollowthemtotheletter,andIproceeded,——
"Youmustgetacarriageandfour,andassoonasthefiveofyouareinittellthecoachmantodriveasfastashishorsescangallopoutofMilan,andtobringyoubackagainbyanotherroadtothehouse。Thereyoumustgetdown,sendthecarriageaway,afterenjoiningsilenceonthecoachman,andcomein。Aftertheballyouwillundressinthesamehouse,andthengohomeinsedan—chairs。Thusweshallbeabletobaffletheinquisitive,whowillbeprettynumerous,Iwarnyou。"
"Myfriendthemarquiswillseetoallthat,"saidhe,"andI
promiseyouhewilldoitwell,forheislongingtomakeyouracquaintance。"
"Ishallexpectyou,then,atseveno’clockto—morrow。
Warnyourfriendthatitisimportantthecoachmanshouldnotbeknown,anddonotletanybodybringaservant。"
Allthesearrangementsbeingmade,IdeterminedtodisguisemyselfasPierrot。There’snodisguisemoreperfect;for,besidesconcealingthefeaturesandtheshapeofthebody,itdoesnotevenletthecolouroftheskinremainrecognizable。Myreadersmayrememberwhathappenedtomeinthisdisguisetenyearsbefore。ImadethetailorgetmeanewPierrotcostume,whichI
placedwiththeothers,andwithtwonewpurses,ineachofwhichIplacedfivehundredsequins,Irepairedtothepastrycook’sbeforeseveno’clock。Ifoundthetablespread,andthesupperready。IshutupZenobiaintheroomwheretheladiesweretomaketheirtoilette,andatfiveminutespastseventhejoyouscompanyarrived。
Themarquiswasdelightedtomakemyacquaintance,andIwelcomedhimashedeserved。Hewasaperfectgentlemanineveryrespect,handsome,rich,andyoung,verymuchinlovewiththeprettycousinwhomhetreatedwithgreatrespect。Thelieutenant’smistresswasadelightfullittleladyandmadlyfondofherlover。
AstheywereallawarethatIdidnotwantthemtoknowtheircostumestillaftersupper,nothingwassaidaboutit,andwesatdowntotable。Thesupperwasexcellent;Ihadordereditinaccordancewithmyowntastes;thatistosay,everythingwasofthebest,andtherewasplentyofeverything。Whenwehadeatenanddrunkwell,Isaid,——
"AsIamnotgoingtoappearwithyou,Imayaswelltellyouthepartsyouaretoplay。Youaretobefivebeggars,twomenandthreewomen,allragsandtatters。"
Thelongfacestheypulledatthisannouncementwereapleasantsighttosee。
"Youwilleachcarryaplateinyourhandstosolicitalms,andyoumustwalktogetherabouttheball—roomasabandofmendicants。Butnowfollowmeandtakepossessionofyourraggedrobes。"
AlthoughIhadmuchadotorefrainfromlaughingatthevexationanddisappointmentwhichappearedonalltheirfaces,Isucceededinpreservingmyseriousair。Theydidnotseeminanykindofhurrytogettheirclothes,andIwasobligedtotellthemthattheywerekeepingmewaiting。TheyrosefromthetableandI
threwthedooropen,andallwerestruckwithZenobia’sbeautyasshestoodupbythetableonwhichtherichthoughtatteredrobesweredisplayed,bowingtothecompanywithmuchgrace。
"Here,ladies,"saidItothecousins,"areyourdresses,andhereisyours,mademoiselle——alittlesmaller。Hereareyourshifts,yourhandkerchiefsandyourstockings,andIthinkyouwillfindeverythingyourequireonthistable。Herearemasks,thefacesofwhichshewsopoorlybesideyourown,andherearethreeplatestocravealms。Ifanybodylooksashighasyourgarters,theywillseehowwretchedyouare,andtheholesinthestockingswillletpeopleknowthatyouhavenotthewherewithaltobuysilktomendthem。Thispackthreadmustserveyouforbuckles,andwemusttakecarethatthereareholesinyourshoesandalsoinyourgloves,andaseverythingmustmatch,assoonasyouhaveputonyourchemisesyoumusttearthelaceroundtheneck。"
WhileIwasgoingthroughthisexplanationIsawsurpriseanddelighteffacethedisappointmentandvexationwhichhadbeenthereamomentbefore。TheysawwhatarichdisguiseIhadprovidedforthem,andtheycouldnotfinditintheirheartstosay,"Whatapity!"
"Here,gentlemen,areyourbeggar—clothes。Iforgottolacerateyourbeaverhats,butthatissoondone。Well,whatdoyouthinkofthecostume?"
"Now,ladies,wemustleaveyou;shutthedoorfast,foritisacaseofchangingyourshifts。Now,gentlemen,leavetheroom。"
Themarquiswasenthusiastic。
"Whatasensationweshallcreate!"saidhe,"nothingcouldbebetter。"
Inhalfanhourwewereready。Thestockingsinholes,theworn—
outshoes,thelaceinrags,thestragglinghair,thesadmasks,thenotchedplates——allmadeapictureofsumptuousmiseryhardtobedescribed。
Theladiestookmoretimeonaccountoftheirhair,whichfloatedontheirshouldersinfinedisorder。Mdlle。Q————’shairwasespeciallyfine,itextendedalmosttoherknees。
Whentheywerereadythedoorwasopened,andwesaweverythingwhichcouldexcitedesirewithoutwoundingdecency。IadmiredZenobia’sadroitness。Therentsindressesandchemisesdisclosedpartsoftheirshoulders,theirbreasts,andtheirarms,andtheirwhitelegsshonethroughtheholesinthestockings。
Ishewedthemhowtowalk,andtoswaytheirheadstoandfro,toexcitecompassion,andyetbegraceful,andhowtousetheirhandkerchiefstoshewpeoplethetearsinthemandthefinenessofthelace。Theyweredelighted,andlongedtobeattheball,butIwantedtobetherefirsttohavethepleasureofseeingthemcomein。Iputonmymask,toldZenobiatogotobed,aswewouldnotbebacktilldaybreak,andsetoutonmyway。
Ienteredtheball—room,andastherewereascoreofPierrotsnobodynoticedme。Fiveminutesaftertherewasarushtoseesomemaskerswhowerecomingin,andIstoodsoastohaveagoodview。Themarquiscameinfirstbetweenthetwocousins。Theirslow,pitifulstepmatchedthepartwonderfully。Mdlle。Q————
withherflame—coloureddress,hersplendidhair,andherfineshape,drewalleyestowardsher。Theastonishedandinquisitivecrowdkeptsilenceforaquarterofanhouraftertheyhadcomein,andthenIheardoneveryside,"Whatadisguise!""It’swonderful!""Whoarethey?""Whocantheybe?""Idon’tknow。"
"I’llfindout。"
Ienjoyedtheresultsofmyinventiveness。
Themusicstruckup,andthreefinedominoswentuptothethreebeggar—girlstoaskthemtodanceaminuet,buttheyexcusedthemselvesbypointingtotheirdilapidatedshoes。Iwasdelighted;itshewedthattheyhadenteredintothespiritofthepart。
Ifollowedthemaboutforaquarterofanhour,andthecuriosityaboutthemonlyincreased,andthenIpaidavisittoCanano’stable,whereplaywasrunninghigh。AmasquerdressedintheVenetianstylewaspuntingonasinglecard,goingfiftysequinsparoliandpaixdeparoli,inmyfashion。Helostthreehundredsequins,andashewasamanofaboutthesamesizeasmyselfpeoplesaiditwasCasanova,butCananowouldnotagree。InorderthatImightbeabletostayatthetable,Itookupthecardsandpuntedthreeorfourducatslikeabeginner。ThenextdealtheVenetianmasquerhadarunofluck,andgoingparoli,paixdeparoliandtheva,wonbackallthemoneyhehadlost。
Thenextdealwasalsoinhisfavour,andhecollectedhiswinningsandleftthetable。
Isatdowninthechairhehadoccupied,andaladysaid,——
"That’stheChevalierdeSeingalt。"
"No,"saidanother。"Isawhimalittlewhileagointheball—
roomdisguisedasabeggar,withfourothermasquerswhomnobodyknows。"
"Howdoyoumean,dressedasabeggar?"saidCanano。
"Why,inrags,andthefourothers,too;butinspiteofthatthedressesaresplendidandtheeffectisverygood。Theyareaskingforalms。"
"Theyoughttobeturnedout,"saidanother。
Iwasdelightedtohaveattainedmyobject,fortherecognitionofmewasamereguess。Ibeganputtingsequinsononecard,andI
lostfiveorsixtimesrunning。Cananostudiedme,butIsawhecouldnotmakemeout。Iheardwhispersrunningroundthetable。
"Itisn’tSeingalt;hedoesn’tplaylikethat;besides,heisattheball。"
Theluckturned;threedealswereinmyfavour,andbroughtmebackmorethanIhadlost。Icontinuedplayingwithaheapofgoldbeforeme,andonmyputtingafistfullofsequinsonacarditcameout,andIwentparoliandpairdeparoli。Iwonagain,andseeingthatthebankwasatalowebbIstoppedplaying。
Cananopaidme,andtoldhiscashiertogetathousandsequins,andashewasshufflingthecardsIheardacryof,"Herecomethebeggars。"
Thebeggarscameinandstoodbythetable,andCanano,catchingthemarquis’seye,askedhimforapinchofsnuff。MydelightmaybeimaginedwhenIsawhimmodestlypresentingacommonhornsnuffboxtothebanker。Ihadnotthoughtofthisdetail,whichmadeeverybodylaughimmensely。Mdlle。Q————stretchedoutherplatetoaskanalmsofCanano,whosaid,——
"Idon’tpityyouwiththatfinehairofyours,andifyouliketoputitonacardIwillallowyouathousandsequinsforit。"
Shegavenoanswertothispolitespeech,andheldoutherplatetome,andIputahandfulofsequinsonit,treatingtheotherbeggarsinthesameway。
"Pierrotseemstolikebeggars,"saidCanano,withasmile。
Thethreemendicantsbowedgratefullytomeandlefttheroom。
TheMarquisTriulziwhosatnearCanano,said,——
"Thebeggarinthestraw—coloureddressiscertainlyCasanova。"
"Irecognizedhimdirectly,"repliedthebanker,"butwhoaretheothers?"
"Weshallfindoutinduetime。"
"Adearercostumecouldnotbeimagined;allthedressesarequitenew。"
Thethousandsequinscamein,andIcarriedthemalloffintwodeals。
"Wouldyouliketogoonplaying?"saidCanano。
Ishookmyhead,andindicatingwithasignofmyhandthatI
wouldtakeacheque,heweighedmywinningsandgavemeachequefortwenty—ninepoundsofgold,amountingtotwothousand,fivehundredsequins。Iputawaythecheque,andaftershakinghimbythehand,IgotupandrolledawayintruePierrotfashion,andaftermakingthetouroftheball—roomIwenttoaboxonthethirdtierofwhichIhadgiventhekeytotheyoungofficer,andthereIfoundmybeggars。
Wetookoffourmasksandcongratulatedeachotheronoursuccess,andtoldouradventures。Wehadnothingtofearfrominquisitiveeyes,fortheboxesoneachsideofuswereempty。Ihadtakenthemmyself,andthekeyswereinmypocket。
ThefairbeggarstalkedofreturningmethealmsIhadgiventhem,butIrepliedinsuchawaythattheysaidnomoreaboutit。
"Iamtakenforyou,sir,"saidthemarquis,"anditmaycausesomeannoyancetoourfairfriendshere。"
"Ihaveforeseenthat,"Ireplied,"andIshallunmaskbeforetheendoftheball。Thiswillfalsifyallsuppositions,andnobodywillsucceedinidentifyingyou。"
"Ourpocketsarefullofsweetmeats,"saidMdlle。Q————。
"Everybodywantedtofillourplates。"
"Yes,"saidthecousin,"everybodyadmiredus;theladiescamedownfromtheirboxestohaveacloserviewofus,andeveryonesaidthatnoricherdisguisecouldbeimagined。"
"Youhaveenjoyedyourselves,then?"
"Yes,indeed。"
"AndItoo。Ifeelquiteboastfulathavinginventedacostumewhichhasdrawnalleyesuponyou,andyethasconcealedyouridentity。"
"Youhavemadeusallhappy,"saidthelieutenant’slittlemistress。"IneverthoughtIshouldhavesuchapleasantevening。"
"Finiscoronatopus,"Ireplied,"andIhopetheendwillbeevenbetterthanthebeginning。"
SosayingIgavemysweetheart’shandagentlepressure,andwhethersheunderstoodmeornotIfeltherhandtrembleinmine。
"Wewillgodownnow,"saidshe。
"SowillI,forIwanttodance,andIamsureIshallmakeyoulaughasPierrot。"
"Doyouknowhowmuchmoneyyougaveeachofus?"
"Icannotsayprecisely,butIbelieveIgaveeachanequalshare。"
"Thatisso。Ithinkitiswonderfulhowyoucoulddoit。"
"Ihavedoneitathousandtimes。WhenIloseaparolioftensequinsIputthreefingersintomypurse,andamcertaintobringupthirtysequins。IwouldbetIgaveyoueachfromthirty—eighttofortysequins。"
"Fortyexactly。It’swonderful。Weshallrememberthismasquedball。"
"Idon’tthinkanybodywillimitateus,"saidthemarquis。
"No,"saidthecousin,"andwewouldnotdaretowearthesamedressesagain。"
Weputonourmasks,andIwasthefirsttogoout。Afternumerouslittlejocularitieswiththeharlequins,especiallythefemaleones,IrecognizedThereseinadomino,andwalkinguptoherasawkwardlyasIcouldIaskedhertodancewithme。
"YouarethePierrotwhobrokethebank?"shesaid。
Iansweredthequestionintheaffirmativebyanod。
Idancedlikeamadman,alwaysonthepointoffallingtothegroundandneveractuallydoingso。
Whenthedancewasover,Iofferedhermyarmandtookherbacktoherbox,whereGreppiwassittingbyhimself。Sheletmecomein,andtheirsurprisewasgreatwhenItookoffmymask。TheyhadthoughtIwasoneofthebeggars。IgaveM。GreppiCanano’scheque,andassoonashehadhandedmeanacknowledgmentIwentdowntotheball—roomagainwithmymaskoff,muchtotheastonishmentoftheinquisitive,whohadmadesurethatthemarquiswasI。
TowardstheendoftheballIwentawayinasedan—chair,whichI
stoppednearthedoorofanhotel,andalittlefurtheronItookanotherwhichbroughtmetothedoorofthepastry—cook’s。I
foundZenobiainbed。ShesaidshewassureIwouldcomebackbymyself。IundressedasquicklyasIcould,andgotintobedwiththisVenusofawoman。Shewasabsoluteperfection。IamsurethatifPraxiteleshadhadherforamodel,hewouldnothaverequiredseveralGreekbeautiesfromwhichtocomposehisVenus。
Whatapitythatsuchanexquisitefigureshouldbethepropertyofasorrytailor。
Istrippedhernaked,andafterduecontemplationImadeherfeelhowmuchIlovedher。Shewaspleasedwithmyadmiration,andgavemebackasmuchasshegot。Ihadherentirelytomyselfforthefirsttime。Whenweheardthetrotoffourhorsesweroseandputonourclothesinatwinkling。
Whenthecharmingbeggarscamein,ItoldthemthatIshouldbeabletohelpintheirtoiletteastheyhadnottochangetheirchemises,andtheydidnotmakemanyobjections。
MygazewasfixedallthewhileonMdlle。Q————。Iadmiredhercharms,andIwasdelightedtoseethatshewasnotmiserlyintheirdisplay。AfterZenobiahaddoneherhairshelefthertome,andwenttoattendontheothers。Sheallowedmetoputonherdress,anddidnotforbidmyeyeswanderingtowardsalargerentinherchemise,whichletmeseealmostthewholeofoneofherbeautifulbreasts。
"Whatareyougoingtodowiththischemise?"
"Youwilllaughatoursilliness。Wehavedeterminedtokeepeverythingasamemorialofthesplendideveningwehavehad。Mybrotherwillbringitalltothehouse。Areyoucomingtoseeusthisevening?"
"IfIwerewiseIshouldavoidyou。"
"AndifIwerewiseIshouldn’taskyoutocome。"
"Thatisfairlyanswered!OfcourseIwillcome;butbeforewepartmayIaskonekiss?"
"Saytwo。"
Herbrotherandthemarquislefttheroom,andtwosedan—chairsI
hadsummonedtookoffthecousins。
Assoonasthemarquiswasalonewithmeheaskedmeverypolitelytolethimshareintheexpenses。
"Iguessedyouweregoingtohumiliateme。"
"Suchwasnotmyintention,andIdonotinsist;butthenyouknowIshallbehumiliated。"
"Notatall;Ireckononyourgoodsense。Itreallycostsmenothing。Besides,Igiveyoumywordtoletyoupayforallthepartiesofpleasureweenjoytogetherduringthecarnival。Wewillsupherewhenyoulike;youshallinvitethecompany,andI
willleaveyoutopaythebill。"
"Thatarrangementwillsuitmeadmirably。Wemustbefriends。I
leaveyouwiththischarmingattendant。IdidnotthinkthatsuchabeautycouldexistinMilanunknowntoallbutyou。"
"Sheisatownswoman,whoknowshowtokeepasecret。Doyounot?"
"IwouldratherdiethantellanyonethatthisgentlemanistheMarquisofF————。"
"That’sright;alwayskeepyourword,andtakethistrifleasasouvenirofme。"
Itwasaprettyring,whichZenobiareceivedwithmuchgrace;itmightbeworthaboutfiftysequins。
Whenthemarquiswasgone,Zenobiaundressedmeanddidmyhairforthenight,andasIgotintobedIgavehertwenty—foursequins,andtoldhershemightgoandcomfortherhusband。
"Hewon’tbeuneasy,"saidshe,"heisaphilosopher。"
"Heneedbewithsuchaprettywife。Kissmeagain,Zenobia,andthenwemustpart。"
Shethrewherselfuponme,coveringmewithkisses,andcallingmeherhappinessandherprovidence。Herfierykissesproducedtheirnaturaleffect,andafterIhadgivenherafreshproofofthepowerofhercharms,sheleftmeandIwenttosleep。
Itwastwoo’clockwhenIawokeravenouslyhungry。Ihadanexcellentdinner,andthenIdressedtocallonthecharmingMdlle。Q————,whomIdidnotexpecttofindtoohardonme,afterwhatshehadsaid。Everybodywasplayingcardswiththeexceptionofherself。Shewasstandingbyawindowreadingsoattentivelythatshedidnothearmecomeintotheroom,butwhenshesawmenearher,sheblushed,shutupthebook,andputitinherpocket。
"Iwillnotbetrayyou,"saidI,"ortellanyonethatIsurprisedyoureadingaprayer—book。"
"No,don’t;formyreputationwouldbegoneifIwerethoughttobeadevotee。"
"Hastherebeenanytalkofthemasquedballorofthemysteriousmasquers?"
"Peopletalkofnothingelse,andcondolewithusfornothavingbeentotheball,butnoonecanguesswhothebeggarswere。Itseemsthatanunknowncarriageandfourthatspedlikethewindtookthemasfarasthefirststage,andwheretheywentnextGodaloneknows!Itissaidthatmyhairwasfalse,andIhavelongedtoletitdownandthusgivethemthelie。Itisalsosaidthatyoumustknowwhothebeggarswere,asyouloadedthemwithducats。"
"Onemustletpeoplesayandbelievewhattheylikeandnotbetrayourselves。"
"Youareright;andafterallwehadadelightfulevening。Ifyouacquityourselfofallcommissionsinthesameway,youmustbeawonderfulman。"
"Butitisonlyyouwhocouldgivemesuchacommission。"
"Ito—day,andanotherto—morrow。"
"IseeyouthinkIaminconstant,butbelievemeifIfindfavourinyoureyesyourfacewilleverdwellinmymemory。"
"Iamcertainyouhavetoldathousandgirlsthesamestory,andaftertheyhaveadmittedyoutotheirfavouryouhavedespisedthem。"
"Praydonotusetheword’despise,’orIshallsupposeyouthinkmeamonster。Beautyseducesme。Iaspiretoitspossession,anditisonlywhenitisgivenmefromothermotivesthanlovethatI
despiseit。HowshouldIdespiseonewholovedme?Ishouldfirstbecompelledtodespisemyself。YouarebeautifulandI
worshipyou,butyouaremistakenifyouthinkthatIshouldbecontentforyoutosurrenderyourselftomeoutofmerekindness。"
"Ah!Iseeitismyheartyouwant。"
"Exactly。"
"Tomakemewretchedattheendofafortnight。"
"Toloveyoutilldeath,andtoobeyyourslightestwishes。"
"Myslightestwishes?"
"Yes,fortometheywouldbeinviolablelaws。"
"WouldyousettleinMilan?"
"Certainly,ifyoumadethataconditionofmyhappiness。"
"Whatamusesmeinallthisisthatyouaredeceivingmewithoutknowingit,ifindeedyoureallyloveme。"
"Deceivingyouwithoutknowingit!Thatissomethingnew。IfI
amnotawareofit,Iaminnocentofdeceit。"
"Iamwillingtoadmityourinnocency,butyouaredeceivingmenonetheless,forafteryouhadceasedtolovemenopowerofyourscouldbringlovebackagain。"
"That,ofcourse,mighthappen,butIdon’tchoosetoentertainsuchunpleasantthoughts;Iprefertothinkofmyselfaslovingyoutoalleternity。ItiscertainatalleventsthatnootherwomaninMilanhasattractedme。"
"Nottheprettygirlwhowaitedonus,andwhosearmsyouhavepossiblyleftanhouror,twoago?"
"Whatareyousaying?Sheisthewifeofthetailorwhomadeyourclothes。Sheleftdirectlyafteryou,andherhusbandwouldnothaveallowedhertocomeatallifhewasnotawarethatshewouldbewantedtowaitontheladieswhosedresseshehadmade。"
"Sheiswonderfullypretty。Isitpossiblethatyouarenotinlovewithher?"
"Howcouldoneloveawomanwhoisatthedisposalofalow,uglyfellow?Theonlypleasureshegavemewasbytalkingofyouthismorning。"
"Ofme?"
"Yes。YouwillexcusemeifIconfesstohavingaskedherwhichoftheladiesshewaitedonlookedhandsomestwithoutherchemise。"
"Thatwasalibertine’squestion。Well,whatdidshesay?"
"Thattheladywiththebeautifulhairwasperfectineveryrespect。"
"Idon’tbelieveawordofit。Ihavelearnthowtochangemychemisewithdecency,andsoasnottoshewanythingImightnotshewaman。Sheonlywishedtoflatteryourimpertinentcuriosity。IfIhadamaidlikethat,sheshouldsoongoaboutherbusiness。"
"Youareangrywithme。"
"No。"
"It’snogoodsayingno,yoursoulflashedforthinyourdenunciation。Iamsorrytohavespoken。"
"Oh!it’sofnoconsequence。Iknowmenaskchambermaidsquestionsofthatkind,andtheyallgiveanswerslikeyoursweetheart,whoperhapswantedtomakeyoucuriousaboutherself。"
"Buthowcouldshehopetodothatbyextollingyourcharmsabovethoseoftheotherladies?And,howcouldsheknowthatI
preferredyou?"
"Ifshedidnotknowit,Ihavemadeamistake;butforallthat,sheliedtoyou。"
"Shemayhaveinventedthetale,butIdonotthinkshelied。Youaresmilingagain!Iamdelighted。"
"Iliketoletyoubelievewhatpleasesyou。"
"Thenyouwillallowmetobelievethatyoudonothateme。"
"Hateyou?Whatanuglyword!IfIhatedyou,shouldIseeyouatall?Butlet’stalkofsomethingelse。Iwantyoutodomeafavour。Herearetwosequins;Iwantyoutoputthemonan’ambe’
inthelottery。Youcanbringmetheticketwhenyoucallagain,orstillbetter,youcansenditme,butdon’ttellanybody。"
"Youshallhavetheticketwithoutfail,butwhyshouldInotbringit?"
"Because,perhaps,youaretiredofcomingtoseeme。"
"DoIlooklikethat?IfsoIamveryunfortunate。Butwhatnumberswillyouhave?"
"Threeandforty;yougavethemmeyourself。"
"HowdidIgivethemyou?"
"Youputyourhandthreetimesontheboard,andtookupfortysequinseachtime。Iamsuperstitious,andyouwilllaughatme,Idaresay,butitseemstomethatyoumusthavecometoMilantomakemehappy。"
"Nowyoumakemehappyindeed。Yousayyouaresuperstitious,butifthesenumbersdon’twinyoumustn’tdrawtheconclusionthatI
don’tloveyou;thatwouldbeadreadfulfallacy。"
"Iamnotsuperstitiousasallthat,norsovilealogician。"
"DoyoubelieveIloveyou?"
"Yes。"
"MayItellyousoahundredtimes?"
"Yes。"
"Andproveitineveryway?"
"ImustenquireintoyourmethodsbeforeIconsenttothat,foritispossiblethatwhatyouwouldcallaveryefficaciousmethodmightstrikemeasquiteuseless。"
"Iseeyouaregoingtomakemesighafteryouforalongtime。"
"AslongasIcan。"
"Andwhenyouhavenostrengthleft?"
"Iwillsurrender。Doesthatsatisfyyou?"
"Certainly,butIshallexertallmystrengthtoabateyours。"
"Doso;Ishalllikeit。"
"Andwillyouhelpmetosucceed?"
"Perhaps。"
"Ah,dearmarchioness;youneedonlyspeaktomakeamanhappy。
Youhavemademereallyso,andIamleavingyoufullofardour。"
OnleavingthischarmingconversationalistIwenttothetheatreandthentothefaro—table,whereIsawthemasquerwhohadwonthreehundredsequinstheeveningbefore。Thisnighthewasveryunlucky。Hehadlosttwothousandsequins,andinthecourseofthenexthourhislosseshaddoubled。Cananothrewdownhiscardsandrose,saying,"Thatwilldo。"Themasquerleftthetable。HewasaGenoesenamedSpinola。
"Thebankisprosperous,"IremarkedtoCanano。
"Yes,"hereplied,"butitisnotalwaysso。Pierrotwasveryluckytheothernight。"
"Youdidnotrecognizemeintheleast?"
"No,Iwassofirmlypersuadedthatthebeggarwasyou。Youknowwhoheis?"
"Ihaven’tanidea。Ineversawhimbeforethatday。"InthislastparticularIdidnotlie。
"ItissaidthattheyareVenetians,andthattheywenttoBergamo。"
"Itmaybeso,butIknownothingaboutthem。Ilefttheballbeforetheydid。"
IntheeveningIsuppedwiththecountess,herhusband,andTriulzi。TheywereofthesameopinionasCanano。TriulzisaidthatIhadletthecatoutofthebagbygivingthebeggarshandfulsofsequins。
"Thatisamistake,"Ianswered。"WhentheluckisinmyfavourI
neverrefuseanyonewhoasksmeformoney,forIhaveasuperstitionthatIshouldloseifIdid。Ihadwonthirtypoundsweightofgold,andIcouldaffordtoletfoolstalk。"
ThenextdayIgotthelotteryticketandtookittothemarchioness。IfeltmadlyinlovewithherbecauseIknewshewasinlovewithme。Neitherofthemwereplaying,andIspenttwohoursintheircompany,talkingofloveallthewhileandenjoyingtheirconversationimmensely,fortheywereexceedinglyintelligent。Ileftthemwiththeconvictionthatifthecousin,andnotMdlle。Q————,hadbeenthrowninmyway,Ishouldhavefalleninlovewithherinjustthesamemanner。
AlthoughthecarnivalisfourdayslongeratMilanthanatanyothertown,itwasnowdrawingtoaclose。Therewerethreemoreballs。Iplayedeveryday,andeverydayIlosttwoorthreehundredsequins。Myprudencecausedevenmoresurprisethanmybadfortune。Iwenteverydaytothefaircousinsandmadelove,butIwasstillatthesamepoint;Ihoped,butcouldgetnothingtangible。Thefairmarchionesssometimesgavemeakiss,butthiswasnotenoughforme。ItistruethatsofarIhadnotdaredtoaskhertomeetmealone。AsitwasIfeltmylovemightdieforwantoffood,andthreedaysbeforetheballIaskedherifshe,hertwofriends,themarquis,andthelieutenant,wouldcomeandsupwithme。
"Mybrother,"shesaid,"willcallonyouto—morrowtoseewhatcanbearranged。"
Thiswasagoodomen。Thenextdaythelieutenantcame。Ihadjustreceivedthedrawingsatthelottery,andwhatwasmysurpriseanddelighttoseethetwonumbersthreeandforty。I
saidnothingtotheyoungmarquis,ashissisterhadforbiddenme,butIforesawthatthiseventwouldbefavourabletomysuit。
"TheMarquisofF————,"saidtheworthyambassador,"asksyoutosupperinyourownroomswithallthebandofbeggars。Hewishestogiveusasurprise,andwouldbeobligedifyouwouldlendhimtheroomtohaveasetofdisguisesmade,andtoensuresecrecyhewantsyoutolethavethesamewaiting—maid。"
"Withpleasure;tellthemarquisthatallshallbeaccordingtohispleasure。"
"Getthegirltocomethereatthreeo’clockto—day,andletthepastry—cookknowthatthemarquishasfullpowerstodowhathelikesintheplace。"
"Everythingshallbedoneasyousuggest。"
IguessedatoncethatthemarquiswantedtohaveatasteofZenobia;butthisseemedtomesonaturalthat,farfrombeingangry,Ifeltdisposedtodoallinmypowertofavourhisplans。
Liveandletlivehasalwaysbeenmymaxim,anditwillbesotomydyingday,thoughnowIdobutlivealifeofmemories。
AssoonasIwasdressedIwentout,andhavingtoldthepastrycooktoconsiderthegentlemanwhowascomingasmyself,I
calledonthetailor,whowasdelightedatmygettinghiswifework。Heknewbyexperiencethatshewasnonetheworsefortheselittleabsences。
"Idon’twantyou,"saidItothetailor,"asitisonlywomen’sdressesthathavetobedone。Mygoodgossipherewillbesufficient。"
"Atthreeo’clockshemaygo,andIshallnotexpecttoseeheragainforthreedays。"
AfterIhaddinedIcalledasusualonthefairmarchioness,andfoundherinatransportofdelight。Herlotterytickethadgotherfivehundredsequins。
"Andthatmakesyouhappy,doesit?"saidI。
"Itdoes,notbecauseofthegaininmoney,thoughIambynomeansrich,butforthebeautyoftheideaandforthethoughtthatIoweitalltoyou。Thesetwothingsspeakvolumesinyourfavour。"
"Whatdotheysay?"
"Thatyoudeservetobeloved。"
"Andalsothatyouloveme?"
"No,butmyhearttellsmeasmuch。"
"Youmakemehappy,butdoesnotyourheartalsotellyouthatyoushouldproveyourlove?"
"Dearest,canyoudoubtit?"
Withthesewordsshegavemeherhandtokissforthefirsttime。
"Myfirstidea,"sheadded,"wastoputthewholefortysequinsonthe’ambe’。"
"Youhadn’tsufficientcourage?"
"Itwasn’tthat,Ifeltashamedtodoit。Iwasafraidthatyoumighthaveathoughtyouwouldnottellmeof——namely,thatifI
gaveyouthefortysequinstoriskonthelottery,youwouldthinkIdespisedyourpresent。Thiswouldhavebeenwrong,andifyouhadencouragedmeIshouldhaveriskedallthemoney。"
"Iamsosorrynottohavethoughtofit。Youwouldhavehadtenthousandsequins,andIshouldbeahappyman。"
"Wewillsaynomoreaboutit。"
"Yourbrothertellsmethatwearegoingtothemasquedballunderthedirectionofthemarquis,andIleaveyoutoimaginehowgladIfeelatthethoughtofspendingawholenightwithyou。Butonethoughttroublesme。"
"Whatisthat?"
"Iamafraiditwillnotgooffsowellasbefore。"
"Don’tbeafraid,themarquisisamanofmuchingenuity,andlovesmycousin’shonourasherself。Heissuretogetusdisguisesinwhichweshallnotberecognized。"
"Ihopeso。Hewantstopayforeverything,includingthesupper。"
"Hecannotdobetterthanimitateyourexampleinthatrespect。"
OntheeveningoftheballIwentatanearlyhourtothepastry—
cook’s,whereIfoundthemarquiswellpleasedwiththeprogressthathadbeenmade。Thedressingroomwasshut。IaskedhiminasuggestivemannerifhewassatisfiedwithZenobia。
"Yes,withherwork,"heanswered;"Ididnotaskhertodoanythingelseforme。"
"Oh!ofcourseIbelieveit,butIamafraidyoursweetheartwillberathersceptical。"
"SheknowsthatIcannotloveanyonebesidesherself。"
"Well,well,wewillsaynomoreaboutit。"
Whentheguestscamethemarquissaidthatasthecostumeswouldamuseuswehadbetterputthemonbeforesupper。
Wefollowedhimintothenextroom,andhepointedouttwothickbundles。
"Here,ladies,areyourdisguises,"saidhe;"andhereisyourmaidwhowillhelpyouwhilewedressinanotherroom。"
Hetookthelargerofthetwobundles,andwhenwewereshutupinourroomheundidthestring,andgaveusourdresses,saying,——
"Letusbeasquickaswecan。"
Weburstoutlaughingtoseeasetofwomen’sclothes。Nothingwaswanting,chemises,embroideredshoeswithhighheels,superbgarters,and,torelieveusofthetroubleofhavingourhairdone,exquisitecapswithrichlacecomingovertheforehead。I
wassurprisedtofindthatmyshoesfittedmeperfectly,butI
heardafterwardsthatheemployedthesamebootmakerasIdid。
Corsets,petticoats,gowns,kerchief,fans,work—bags,rouge—
boxes,masks,gloves—allwerethere。Weonlyhelpedeachotherwithourhair,butwhenitwasdonewelookedintenselystupid,withtheexceptionoftheyoungofficer,whoreallymighthavebeentakenforaprettywoman;hehadconcealedhisdeficiencyinfemininecharacteristicsbyfalsebreastsandabustleWetookoffourbreechesoneaftertheother。
"Yourfinegarters,"saidI,tothemarquis,"makemewanttowearsometoo。"
"Exactly,"saidthemarquis;"buttheworstofitisnobodywilltakethetroubletofindoutwhetherwehavegartersornot,fortwoyoungladiesfivefeetteninheightwillnotinspireveryardentdesires。"
Ihadguessedthatthegirlswouldbedressedlikemen,andIwasnotmistaken。Theywerereadybeforeus,andwhenweopenedthedoorwesawthemstandingwiththeirbackstothefireplace。
Theylookedthreeyoungpagesminustheirimpudence,forthoughtheyendeavouredtoseemquiteattheireasetheywereratherconfused。
Weadvancedwiththemodestyofthefairsex,andimitatingtheairofshyreservewhichthepartdemanded。Thegirlsofcoursethoughtthemselvesobligedtomimictheairsofmen,andtheydidnotaccostuslikeyoungmenaccustomedtobehaverespectfullytoladies。Theyweredressedasrunningfootmen,withtightbreeches,well—fittingwaistcoats,openthroats,garterswithasilverfringe,lacedwaistbands,andprettycapstrimmedwithsilverlace,andacoatofarmsemblazonedingold。TheirlaceshirtswereornamentedwithanimmensefrillofAlenconpoint。Inthisdress,whichdisplayedtheirbeautifulshapesunderaveilwhichwasalmosttransparent,theywouldhavestirredthesenseofaparalytic,andwehadnosymptomsofthatdisease。However,welovedthemtoowelltofrightenthem。
Afterthesillyremarksusualonsuchoccasionshadbeenpassed,webegantotalknaturallywhilewewerewaitingforsupper。Theladiessaidthatasthiswasthefirsttimetheyhaddressedasmentheywereafraidofbeingrecognized。
"Supposingsomebodyknewus,"criedthecousin,"weshouldbeundone!"
Theywereright;butourpartwastoreassurethem,thoughIatanyratewouldhavepreferredtostaywherewewere。
Wesatdowntosupper,eachnexttohissweetheart,andtomysurprisethelieutenant’smistresswasthefirsttobeginthefun。
Thinkingthatshecouldnotpretendtobeamanwithoutbeingimpudent,shebegantotoywiththelady—lieutenant,whodefendedhimselflikeaprudishmiss。Thetwocousins,nottobeoutdone,begantocaressusinamannerthatwasratherfree。Zenobia,whowaswaitingonusattablecouldnothelplaughingwhenMdlle。Q——
——reproachedherforhavingmademydresstootightintheneck。
Shestretchedoutherhandasiftotoywithme,whereuponIgaveheraslightboxontheear,andimitatingthemannerofarepentantcavaliershekissedmyhandandbeggedmypardon。
Themarquissaidhefeltcold,andhismistressaskedhimifhehadhisbreecheson,andputherhandunderhisdresstosee,butshespeedilydrewitbackwithablush。Weallburstoutlaughing,andshejoinedin,andproceededwithherpartofhardylover。
Thesupperwasadmirable;everythingwaschoiceandabundant。
Warmwithloveandwine,werosefromthetableatwhichwehadbeenfortwohours,butaswegotupsadnessdisfiguredthefacesofthetwoprettycousins。Theydidnotdaretogototheballinacostumethatwouldputthematthemercyofallthelibertinesthere。ThemarquisandIfeltthattheywereright。
"Wemustmakeupourminds,"saidthelieutenant,"shallwegototheballorgohome?"
"Neither,"saidthemarquis,"wewilldancehere。"
"Wherearetheviolins"askedhismistress,"youcouldnotgetthemto—nightfortheirweightingold。"
"Well,"saidI,"wewilldowithoutthem。Wewillhavesomepunch,laugh,andbemerry,andweshallenjoyourselvesbetterthanattheball,andwhenwearetiredwecangotosleep。Wehavethreebedshere。"
"Twowouldbeenough,"saidthecousin。
"True,butwecan’thavetoomuchofagoodthing。"
Zenobiahadgonetosupwiththepastrycook’swife,butshewasreadytocomeupagainwhensheshouldbesummoned。
Aftertwohoursspentinamoroustrifling,thelieutenant’smistress,feelingalittledizzy,wentintoanadjoiningroomandlaydownonthebed。Herloverwassoonbesideher。
Mdlle。Q————,whowasinthesamecase,toldmethatshewouldliketorest,soItookherintoaroomwhereshecouldsleepthenight,andadvisedhertodoso。
"Idon’tthinkIneedfearitsgoinganyfarther,"Isaid,"wewillleavethemarquiswithyourcousinthen,andIwillwatchoveryouwhileyousleep。"
"No,no,youshallsleeptoo。"Sosaying,shewentintothedressing—room,andaskedmetogethercloak。Ibroughtittoher,andwhenshecameinshesaid,——
"Ibreatheagain。Thosedreadfultrousersweretootight;theyhurtme。"Shethrewherselfonthebed,withnothingonbesideshercloak。
"Wheredidthebreecheshurtyou?"saidI。
"Ican’ttellyou,butIshouldthinkyoumustfindthemdreadfullyuncomfortable。"
"But,dearest,ouranatomyisdifferent,andbreechesdonottroubleusatallwheretheyhurtyou。"
AsIspokeIheldhertomybreastandletmyselffallgentlybesideheronthebed。Weremainedthusaquarterofanhourwithoutspeaking,ourlipsgluedtogetherinonelongkiss。I
leftheramomentbyherself,andwhenIreturnedshewasbetweenthesheets。Shesaidshehadundressedtobeabletosleepbetter,and,shuttinghereyes,turnedaway。Iknewthatthehappyhourhadcome,andtakingoffmywoman’sclothesinatwinkling,Igentlyglidedintothebedbesideher,forthelaststrugglesofmodestymustbetenderlyrespected。Iclaspedherinmyarmsandagentlepressuresoonarousedherpassions,andturningtowardsmeshesurrenderedtomeallhercharms。
AfterthefirstsacrificeIproposedawash,forthoughIcouldnotexactlyflattermyselfthatIhadbeenthefirsttobreakopenthelock,thevictimhadleftsometracesonthebed,whichlookedasifitwereso。Theofferwasreceivedwithdelight,andwhentheoperationwasoversheallowedmetogazeonallhercharms,whichIcoveredwithkisses。Growingbolder,shemademegrantherthesameprivilege。
"Whatadifferencethereis,"saidshe,"betweennatureandart!"
"Butofcourseyouthinkthatartisthebetter?"
"No,certainlynot。"
"Buttheremaybeimperfectionsinnature,whereasartisperfect。"
"IdonotknowwhethertherebeanyimperfectioninwhatIbehold,butIdoknowthatIhaveneverseenanythingsobeautiful。"
Infactshehadtheinstrumentoflovebeforehereyesinallitsmajesty,andIsoonmadeherfeelitspower。Shedidnotremainstillamoment,andIhaveknownfewwomensoardentandflexibleintheirmovements。
"Ifwewerewise,"saidshe,"insteadofgoingtotheballagainwewouldcomehereandenjoyourselves。"
IkissedthemouthwhichtoldmesoplainlythatIwastobehappy,andIconvincedherbymytransportsthatnomancouldloveherasardentlyasIdid。Ihadnoneedtokeepherawake,sheshewednoinclinationforsleep。Wewereeitherinactionorcontemplation,orengagedinamorousdiscourse,thewholetime。I
cheatedhernowandthen,buttoherownadvantage,forayoungwomanisalwaysmorevigorousthanaman,andwedidnotstoptillthedaybegantobreak。Therewasnoneedforconcealment,foreachhadenjoyedhissweetheartinpeaceandhappiness,anditwasonlymodestywhichsilencedourcongratulations。Bythissilencewedidnotproclaimourhappiness,butneitherdidwedenyit。
WhenwewerereadyIthankedthemarquis,andaskedhimtosupperforthenextballnightwithoutanypretenceofourgoingtothemasquerade,iftheladieshadnoobjection。Thelieutenantansweredforthemintheaffirmative,andhismistressthrewherarmsroundhisneck,reproachinghimforhavingsleptallnight。
Themarquisconfessedtothesamefault,andIrepeatedthewordslikeanarticleoffaith,whiletheladieskissedus,andthankedusforourkindnesstothem。Wepartedinthesamewayasbefore,exceptthatthistimethemarquisremainedwithZenobia。
IwenttobedassoonasIgothome,andslepttillthreeo’clock。
WhenIgotupIfoundthehousewasempty,soIwenttodineatthepastry—cook’s,whereIfoundZenobiaandherhusband,whohadcometoenjoytheleavingsofoursupper。HetoldmethatIhadmadehisfortune,asthemarquishadgivenhiswifetwenty—foursequinsandthewoman’sdresshehadworn。Igavehermineaswell。ItoldmygossipthatIshouldlikesomedinner,andthetailorwentawayinagratefulmood。
AssoonasIwasalonewithZenobiaIaskedherifsheweresatisfiedwiththemarquis。
"Hepaidmewell,"sheanswered,aslightblushmountingonhercheeks。
"Thatisenough,"saidI,"noonecanseeyouwithoutlovingyou,orloveyouwithoutdesiringtopossessyourcharms。"
"Themarquisdidnotgosofarasthat。"
"Itmaybeso,butIamsurprisedtohearit。"
WhenIhaddined,Ihastenedtocallonthefairmarchioness,whomIlovedmorethaneverafterthedeliciousnightshehadgivenme。
Iwantedtoseewhateffectshewouldhaveonme,aftermakingmesohappy。Shelookedprettierthanever。Shereceivedmeinawaybecominginamistresswhoisgladtohaveacquiredsomerightsoverherlover。
"Iwassure,"saidshe,"thatyouwouldcomeandseeme;"andthoughhercousinwasthereshekissedmesooftenandsoardentlythattherewasnoroomfordoubtastothemannerinwhichwehadspentournighttogether。Ipassedfivehourswithher,whichwentbyalltooquickly,forwetalkedoflove,andloveisaninexhaustiblesubject。Thisfivehours’visitonthedayafterourbridalshewedmethatIwasmadlyinlovewithmynewconquest,whileitmusthaveconvincedherthatIwasworthyofheraffection。
CountessA————B————hadsentmeanoteaskingmetosupwithher,herhusband,andtheMarquisTriulzi,andotherfriends。ThisengagementpreventedmypayingavisittoCanano,whohadwonathousandsequinsofmesincemygreatvictoryasPierrot。Iknewthatheboastedthathewassureofme,butinmyownmindIhaddeterminedtogainthemastery。Atsupperthecountesswagedwaronme。Isleptoutatnight。Iwasrarelyvisible。Shetriedhardtostealmysecretfromme,andtogetsomeinformationastomyamorousadventures。ItwasknownthatIsometimessuppedatTherese’swithGreppi,whowaslaughedatbecausehehadbeensillyenoughtosaythathehadnothingtodreadfrommypower。
Thebettertoconcealmygame,Isaidhewasquiteright。
ThenextdayBarbaro,whowasashonestasmostprofessionalsharpersare,broughtmethetwohundredsequinsIhadlenthim,withaprofitoftwohundredmore。Hetoldmethathehadhadaslightdifferencewiththelieutenant,andwasnotgoingtoplayanymore。Ithankedhimforhavingpresentedmetothefairmarchioness,tellinghimthatIwasquiteinlovewithherandinhopesofovercomingherscruples。Hesmiled,andpraisedmydiscretion,lettingmeunderstandthatIdidnottakehimin;butitwasenoughformenottoconfesstoanything。
Aboutthreeo’clockIcalledonmysweetheart,andspentfivehourswithherasbefore。AsBarbarowasnotplaying,theservantshadbeenorderedtosaythatnoonewasathome。AsI
wasthedeclaredloverofthemarchioness,hercousintreatedmeasanintimatefriend。ShebeggedmetostayatMilanaslongaspossible,notonlytomakehercousinhappy,butforhersakeaswell,sincewithoutmeshecouldnotenjoythemarquis’ssocietyinprivate,andwhileherfatherwasalivehewouldneverdaretocomeopenlytothehouse。Shethoughtshewouldcertainlybecomehiswifeassoonasheroldfatherwasdead,butshehopedvainly,forsoonafterthemarquisfellintoevilwaysandwasruined。
Nexteveningweallassembledatsupper,andinsteadofgoingtotheballgaveourselvesuptopleasure。Wespentadeliciousnight,butitwassaddenedbythereflectionthatthecarnivalwasdrawingtoaclose,andwithitourmutualpleasureswouldbeover。
OntheeveofShroveTuesdayastherewasnoballIsatdowntoplay,andnotbeingableoncetohitonthreewinningcards,I
lostallthegoldIhadaboutme。Ishouldhaveleftthetableasusualifawomandisguisedasamanhadnotgivenmeacard,andurgedmebysignstoplayit。Iriskedahundredsequinsonit,givingmywordforthepayment。Ilost,andinmyendeavourstogetbackmymoneyIlostathousandsequins,whichIpaidthenextday。
Iwasjustgoingouttoconsolemyselfwiththecompanyofmydearmarchioness,whenIsawtheevil—omenedmasquerapproaching,accompaniedbyaman,alsoindisguise,whoshookmebythehandandbeggedmetocomeatteno’clocktothe"ThreeKings"atsuchanumber,ifthehonourofanoldfriendwasdeartome。
"Whatfriendisthat?"
"Myself。"
"Whatisyourname?"
"Icannottellyou。"
"Thenyouneednottellmetocome,forifyouwereatruefriendofmineyouwouldtellmeyourname。"
Iwentoutandhefollowedme,beggingmetocomewithhimtotheendofthearcades。Whenwegottherehetookoffhismask,andI
recognizedCroce,whommyreadersmayremember。
IknewhewasbanishedfromMilan,andunderstoodwhyhedidnotcaretogivehisnameinpublic,butIwasexceedinglygladIhadrefusedtogotohisinn。
"Iamsurprisedtoseeyouhere,"saidI。
"Idaresayyourare。Ihavecomehereinthiscarnivalseason,whenonecanwearamask,tocompelmyrelationstogivemewhattheyoweme;buttheyputmeofffromonedaytoanother,astheyaresureIshallbeobligedtogowhenLentbegins。"
"Andwillyoudoso?"
"Ishallbeobligedto,butasyouwillnotcomeandseeme,givemetwentysequins,whichwillenablemetoleaveMilan。Mycousinowesmetenthousandlivres,andwillnotpaymeatentheven。I
willkillhimbeforeIgo。"
"Ihaven’tafarthing,andthatmaskofyourshasmademeloseathousandsequins,whichIdonotknowhowtopay。
"Iknow。Iamanunluckyman,andbringbadlucktoallmyfriends。ItwasIwhotoldhertogiveyouacard,inthehopethatitwouldchangetherunagainstyou。"
"IssheaMilanesegirl?"
"No,shecomesfromMarseilles,andisthedaughterofarichagent。Ifellinlovewithher,seducedher,andcarriedherofftoherunhappiness。Ihadplentyofmoneythen,but,wretchthatIam,IlostitallatGenoa,whereIhadtosellallmypossessionstoenablemetocomehere。IhavebeenaweekinMilan。Praygivemethewherewithaltoescape。"
Iwastouchedwithcompassion,andIborrowedtwentysequinsfromCanano,andgavethemtothepoorwretch,tellinghimtowritetome。
Thisalms—givingdidmegood;itmademeforgetmylosses,andI
spentadelightfuleveningwiththemarchioness。
Thenextdaywesuppedtogetheratmyrooms,andspenttherestofthenightinamorouspleasures。ItwastheSaturday,thelastdayofthecarnivalatMilan,andIspentthewholeoftheSundayinbed,forthemarchionesshadexhaustedme,andIknewthatalongsleepwouldrestoremystrength。
EarlyonMondaymorningClairmontbroughtmealetterwhichhadbeenleftbyaservant。Ithadnosignature,andranasfollows:
"Havecompassion,sir,onthemostwretchedcreaturebreathing。
M。delaCroixhasgoneawayindespair。Hehasleftmehereintheinn,wherehehaspaidfornothing。GoodGod!whatwillbecomeofme?Iconjureyoutocomeandseeme,beitonlytogivemeyouradvice。"
Ididnothesitateforamoment,anditwasnotfromanyimpulsesofloveorprofligacythatIwent,butfrompurecompassion。I
putonmygreatcoat,andinthesameroominwhichIhadseenIreneIsawayoungandprettygirl,aboutwhosefacetherewassomethingpeculiarlynobleandattractive。Isawinherinnocenceandmodestyoppressedandpersecuted。AssoonasIcameinshehumblyapologizedforhavingdaredtotroubleme,andsheaskedmetotellawomanwhowasintheroomtoleaveit,asshedidnotspeakItalian。
"Shehasbeentiringmeformorethananhour。Icannotunderstandwhatshesays,butIcanmakeoutthatshewantstodomeaservice。However,Idonotfeelinclinedtoacceptherassistance。"
"Whotoldyoutocomeandseethisyounglady?"saidI,tothewoman。
"Oneoftheservantsoftheinntoldmethatayoungladyfromforeignpartshadbeenleftalonehere,andthatshewasmuchtobepitied。MyfeelingsofhumanitymademecomeandseeifI
couldbeusefultoher;butIseesheisingoodhands,andIamverygladofitforhersake,poordear!"
Isawthatthewomanwasaprocuress,andIonlyrepliedwithasmileofcontempt。
ThepoorgirlthentoldmebrieflywhatIhadalreadyheard,andaddedthatCroce,whocalledhimselfDeSt。Croix,hadgonetothegaming—tableassoonashehadgotmytwentysequins,andthathehadthentakenherbacktotheinn,wherehehadspentthenextdayinastateofdespair,ashedidnotdaretoshewhimselfabroadinthedaytime。Intheeveningheputonhismaskandwentout,notreturningtillthenextmorning。
"Soonafterheputonhisgreatcoatandgotreadytogoout,tellingmethatifhedidnotreturnhewouldcommunicatewithmebyyou,atthesametimegivingmeyouraddress,ofwhichIhavemadeuseasyouknow。Hehasnotcomeback,andifyouhavenotseenhimIamsurehehasgoneoffonfootwithoutapennyinhispocket。Thelandlordwantstobepaid,andbysellingallIhaveIcouldsatisfyhisclaims;but,goodGod!whatistobecomeofme,then?"
"Dareyoureturntoyourfather?"
"Yes,sir,Idarereturntohim。HewillforgivemewhenonmykneesandwithtearsinmyeyesItellhimthatIamreadytoburymyselfinanunnery。"
"Verygood!thenIwilltakeyoutoMarseillesmyself,andinthemeanwhileIwillfindyoualodgingwithsomehonestpeople。Tillthen,shutyourselfupinyourroom,donotadmitanyonetoseeyou,andbesureIwillhaveacareforyou。"
Isummonedthelandlordandpaidthebill,whichwasaverysmallone,andItoldhimtotakecareoftheladytillmyreturn。Thepoorgirlwasdumbwithsurpriseandgratitude。Isaidgood—byekindlyandleftherwithouteventakingherhand。Itwasnotaltogetheracaseofthedevilturningmonk;Ialwayshadarespectfordistress。
IhadalreadythoughtofZenobiainconnectionwiththepoorgirl’slodging,andIwenttoseeheronthespot。Inherhusband’spresenceItoldherwhatIwanted,andaskedifshecouldfindacornerformynewfriend。
"Sheshallhavemyplace,"criedtheworthytailor,"ifshewon’tmindsleepingwithmywife。Iwillhireasmallroomhardbye,andwillsleepthereaslongastheyoungladystays。"
"That’sagoodidea,gossip,butyourwifewilllosebytheexchange。"
"Notmuch,"saidZenobia;andthetailorburstoutlaughing。
"Asforhermeals,"headded,"shemustarrangethatherself。"
"That’saverysimplematter,"saidI,"ZenobiawillgetthemandIwillpayforthem。"
Iwrotethegirlashortnote,tellingherofthearrangementsI
hadmade,andchargedZenobiatotakehertheletter。ThenextdayIfoundherinthepoorlodgingwiththeseworthyfolks,lookingpleasedandravishinglypretty。IfeltthatIcouldbehavewellforthepresent,butIsighedatthethoughtofthejourney。Ishouldhavetoputastrongrestraintonmyself。
IhadnothingmoretodoatMilan,butthecounthadmademepromisetospendafortnightatSt。Angelo。Thiswasanestatebelongingtohim,fifteenmilesfromMilan,andthecountspokemostenthusiasticallyofit。IfIhadgoneawaywithoutseeingSt。Angelo,hewouldhavebeenexceedinglymortified。Amarriedbrotherofhislivedthere,andthecountoftensaidthathisbrotherwaslongingtoknowme。Whenwereturnedhewouldnodoubtletmedepartinpeace。
Ihadmadeupmymindtoshewmygratitudetotheworthymanforhishospitality,soonthefourthdayofLentItookleaveofTherese,Greppi,andtheaffectionatemarchioness,fortwoweeks,andwesetoutonourway。
Tomygreatdelightthecountessdidnotcaretocome。ShemuchpreferredstayinginMilanwithTriulzi,whodidnotletherlackforanything。
WegottoSt。Angeloatthreeo’clock,andfoundthatwewereexpectedtodinner。