HerformallittlewayofsayinghisnamewaslikeAnn”s。
“DoI?I”mtickledtodeath。MymotherdiedwhenIwasten,andI”veneverhadanywomenkin-folks。”
“Poorbo”Shehadnearlysaid“Poorboy!“andonlycheckedthefamiliarityjustintime”PoorMr。TempleBarholm!“
“Say,whatarewetwotoeachother,anyhow?“Heputittoherwithgreatinterest。
“Itisaverydistantrelationship,ifitisoneatall,“sheanswered。“Yousee,IwasonlyasecondcousintothelateMr。TempleBarholm,andIhadnotreallytheSLIGHTESTclaimuponhim。”Sheplacedpatheticemphasisonthefact。“Itwasmostgenerousofhimtobesokindtome。WhenmypoorfatherdiedandIwasleftquitepenniless,hegavemea——asortofhomehere。”
“Asortofhome?“Tembaromrepeated。
“MyfatherwasaclergymaninVERYstraitenedcircumstances。Wehadbarelyenoughtoliveupon——barely。Hecouldleavemenothing。ItactuallyseemedasifIshouldhavetostarve——itdid,indeed。”Therewasadelicatequiverinhervoice。“AndthoughthelateMr。TempleBarholmhadagreatantipathytoladies,hewasso——sonobleastosendwordtomethattherewereahundredandfiftyroomsinhishouse,andthatifIwouldkeepoutofhiswayImightliveinoneofthem。”
“Thatwasnoble,“commentedherdistantrelative。
“Oh,yes,indeed,especiallywhenoneconsidershowhedislikedtheoppositesexandwhatareclusehewas。Hecouldnotendureladies。I
scarcelyeversawhim。Myroomwasinquitearemotewingofthehouse,andIneverwentoutifIknewhewasinthepark。Iwasmostcareful。AndwhenhediedofcourseIknewImustgoaway。”
Tembaromwaswatchingheralmosttenderly。
“Wheredidyougo?“
“ToakindclergymaninShropshirewhothoughthemighthelpme。”
“Howwashegoingtodoit?“
Sheansweredwithanefforttosteadyasomewhatloweredandhesitatingvoice。
“Therewasnearhisparishaverynice——charity,“——herbreathcaughtitselfpathetically”somemostcomfortablealmshousesfordecayedgentlewomen。Hethoughthemightbeabletousehisinfluencetogetmeintoone。”Shepausedandsmiled,buthersmall,wrinkledhandsheldeachotherclosely。
Tembaromlookedaway。Hespokeasthoughtohimself,andwithoutknowingthathewasthinkingaloud。
“Almshouses!“hesaid。“Wouldn”tthatjoltyou!“Heturnedonheragainwithachangetocheerfulconcern。“Say,thatcushionofyoursain”tcomfortable。I”mgoingtogetyouanotherone。”Hejumpedupand,takingonefromasofa,begantoarrangeitbehindherdexterously。
“ButImustn”ttroubleyouanylonger。Imustgo,really,“shesaid,halfrisingnervously。Heputahandonhershoulderandmadehersitagain。
“Gowhere?“hesaid。“Justleanbackonthatcushion,MissAlicia。ForthenextfewminutesthisisgoingtobeMYfuneral。”
Shewasatoncestartledanduncomprehending。Whatanextraordinaryexpression!WhatCOULDitmean?
“F——funeral?“shestammered。
Suddenlyheseemedsomehowtohavechanged。Helookedasseriousasthoughhewasbeginningtothinkoutsomethingallatonce。Whatwashegoingtosay?
“That”sNewYorkslang,“heanswered。“ItmeansthatIwanttoexplainmyselftoyouandaskafewquestions。”
“Certainly,certainly,Mr。TempleBarholm。”
Heleanedhisbackagainstthemantel,andwentintothematterpractically。
“Firstoff,haven”tyouANYfolks?“Then,answeringherpuzzledlook,added,“Imeanrelations。”
MissAliciagentlyshookherhead。
“Nosistersorbrothersorunclesorauntsorcousins?“
Sheshookherheadagain。
Hehesitatedamoment,puttinghishandsinhispocketsandtakingthemoutagainawkwardlyashelookeddownather。
“Nowhere”swhereI”mupagainstit,“hewenton。“Idon”twanttobetoofreshortobuttin,but——didn”toldTempleBarholmleaveyouANY
money?“
“Oh,no!“sheexclaimed。“Dearme!no!Icouldn”tpossiblyEXPECTsuchathing。”
Hegazedatherasthoughconsideringthesituation。“Couldn”tyou?“
hesaid。
Therewasanoddreflectioninhiseyes,andheseemedtoconsiderherandthesituationagain。
“Well,“hebeganafterhispause,“whatIwanttoknowiswhatyouexpectMEtodo。”
Therewasnounkindnessinhismanner,infact,quitethecontrary,evenwhenheutteredwhatseemedtoMissAliciatheseawful,unwarrantedwords。Asthoughshehadforcedherselfintohispresencetomakedemandsuponhischarity!Theymadehertrembleandturnpaleasshegotupquickly,shockedandalarmed。
“Oh,nothing!nothing!nothingWHATEVER,Mr。TempleBarholm!“sheexclaimed,heragitationdoingitsbesttohideitselfbehindafinelittledignity。Hesawinaninstantthathisstyleofputtingithadbeen“”wayoff,“thathisignorancehadbetrayedhim,thatshehadmisunderstoodhimaltogether。Healmostjumpedather。
“Oh,say,Ididn”tmeanTHAT!“hecriedout。“FortheLord”ssake!
don”tthinkI”msuchaTenderlointoughastomakeabreaklikethat!
Notonyourlife!“
NeversinceherbirthhadamalecreaturelookedatMissAliciawiththeappealwhichshoweditselfinhiseyesasheactuallyputhisarmhalfaroundhershoulders,likeaboybeggingafavorfromhismotherorhisaunt。
“WhatImeantwas”Hebrokeoffandbeganagainquiteanxiously,“say,justasafavor,willyousitdownagainandletmetellyouwhatIdidmean?“
Itwasthatnatural,warm,boyishwaywhichovercameherutterly。Itremindedheroftheonlyboyshehadeverreallyknown,theonemalecreaturewhohadallowedhertobefondofhim。Therewasmoistureinhereyesasshelethimputherbackintoherchair。Whenhehaddoneit,hesatdownontheottomanagainandpouredhimselfforth。
“YouknowwhatkindofachapIam。No,youdon”t,either。Youmayn”tknowathingaboutme;andIwanttotellyou。I”msodifferentfromeverythingyou”veeverknownthatIscareyou。Andnowonder。It”sthewayI”velived。Ifyouknew,you”dunderstandwhatIwasthinkingofwhenIspokejustnow。I”vebeencold,I”vebeenhungry,I”vewalkedthewetstreetsonmyuppers。IknowallaboutGOINGWITHOUT。AnddoyouexpectthatIamgoingtoleta——alittlethinglikeyou——goawayfromherewithoutfriendsandwithoutmoneyonthechanceofgettingintoanalmshousethatisn”tvacant?Doyouexpectthatofme?Notonyourlife!ThatwaswhatImeant。”
MissAliciaquivered;thepale-purpleribbonsonherlittlelacecapquivered。
“Ihaven”t,“shesaid,andthefinelittledignitywaspiteous,“aSHADOWofaclaimuponyou。”Itwasnecessaryforhertoproduceapocket-handkerchief。Hetookitfromher,andtouchedhereyesassoftlyasthoughshewereababy。
“Claimnothing!“hesaid。“I”vegotaclaimonYOU。I”mgoingtostakeoneoutrightnow。”Hegotupandgesticulated,takinginthebigroomanditsbigfurniture。“Lookatallthis!Itfellonmelikeathunderbolt。It”snearlyknockedthelifeoutofme。I”mlikealostcatonBroadway。Youcan”tgoawayandleaveme,MissAlicia;it”syourdutytostay。You”vejustGOTtostaytotakecareofme。”Hecameovertoherwithawheedlingsmile。“Ineverwastakencareofinmylife。JustbeasnobletomeasoldTempleBarholmwastoyou:givemeasortofhome。”
Ifalittlegentlewomancouldstare,itmightbesaidthatMissAliciastaredathim。Shetrembledwithamazedemotion。
“Doyoumean”Despiteallhehadsaid,shescarcelydaredtoutterthewordslest,afterall,shemightbetakingforgrantedmorethanitwascrediblecouldbetrue。“CanyoumeanthatifIstayedherewithyouitwouldmakeTempleBarholmseemmorelikeHOME?Isitpossibleyou——youmeanTHAT?“
“Imeanjustthatverything。”
Itwastoomuchforher。Finelyrestrainedlittleelderlygentlewomanasshewas,sheopenlybrokedownunderit。
“Itcan”tbetrue!“sheejaculatedshakily。“Itisn”tpossible。Itistoo——toobeautifulandkind。Doforgiveme!Ic-a-n”thelpit。”Sheburstintotears。
Sheknewitwasmoststupidlywrong。Sheknewgentlemendidnotliketears。Herfatherhadtoldherthatmenneverreallyforgavewomenwhocriedatthem。Andhere,whenherfatehunginthebalance,shewasnotabletobehaveherselfwithfemininedecorum。
YetthenewMr。TempleBarholmtookitinasmatter-of-factamannerasheseemedtotakeeverything。HestoodbyherchairandsoothedherinhisdearNewYorkvoice。
“That”sallright,MissAlicia,“hecommented。“Youcryasmuchasyouwantto,justsothatyoudon”tsayno。You”vebeenworriedandyou”retired。I”lltellyouthere”sbeentwoorthreetimeslatelywhenI
shouldliketohavecriedmyselfifI”dknownhow。Say,“headdedwithasuddenoutburstofimagination,“Ibetanythingit”sabouttimeyouhadtea。”
Thesuggestionwassoentirelywithinthenormalorderofthingsthatitmadeherfeelsteadier,andshewasabletoglanceattheclock。
“Acupofteawouldberefreshing,“shesaid。“Theywillbringitinverysoon,butbeforetheservantscomeImusttrytoexpress”
Butbeforeshecouldexpressanythingfurthertheteaappeared。
Burrillandafootmanbroughtitonsplendidsalvers,inmassiveurnandtea-pot,withchaste,sacrificialflameflickering,andwonderful,hotbutteredandtoastedthingsandwafersofbreadandbutterattendant。Astheycrossedthethreshold,thesightofMissAlicia”ssmallformenthronedintheiremployer”schairwasonesoobviouslyunanticipatedthatBurrillmadeastepbackwardandthefootmanalmostlostthefirmnessofhisholdonthesmallertray。Eachrecoveredhimselfintime,however,andnotuntiltheteawasarrangeduponthetablenearthefirewasanyoutwardrecognitionofMissAlicia”spresencemade。ThenBurrill,pausing,madeanannouncemententirelywithoutprejudice:
“Ibegpardon,sir,butHiggins”scarthascomeforMissTempleBarholm”sbox;heisaskingwhenshewantsthetrap。”
“Shedoesn”twantitatall,“answeredTembarom。“Carryhertrunkup-
stairsagain。She”snotgoingaway。”
ThelackofproperknowledgecontainedinthesuggestionthatBurrillshouldcarrytrunksupstairscausedMissAliciatoquailinsecret,butshespokewithoutwardcalm。
“No,Burrill,“shesaid。“Iamnotgoingaway。”
“Verygood,Miss,“Burrillreplied,andwithimpressivecivilityhepreparedtoleavetheroom。Tembaromglancedatthetea-things。
“There”sonlyonecuphere,“hesaid。“Bringoneforme。”
Burrill”sexpressionmightperhapshavebeensaidtostartslightly。
“Verygood,sir,“hesaid,andmadehisexit。MissAliciawasflutteringagain。
“Thatcupwasreallyforyou,Mr。TempleBarholm,“sheventured。
“Well,nowit”sforyou,andI”velethimknowit,“repliedTembarom。
“Oh,PLEASE,“shesaidinanoutburstoffeeling”PLEASEletmetellyouhowGRATEFUL——howgratefulIam!“
Buthewouldnotlether。
“Ifyoudo,“hesaid,“I”lltellyouhowgrateful_I_am,andthat”llbeworse。No,that”sallfixedupbetweenus。Itgoes。Wewon”tsayanymoreaboutit。”
Hetookthewholesituationinthatway,asthoughhewasassumingnoresponsibilitywhichwasnotthesimple,inevitableresultoftheirdriftingacrosseachother——asthoughitwasonlywhatanymanwouldhavedone,evenasthoughshewasasortofdelightful,unexpectedhappening。Heturnedtothetray。
“Say,thatlooksallright,doesn”tit?“hesaid。“Nowyouarehere,I
likethewayitlooks。Ididn”tyesterday。”
Burrillhimselfbroughttheextracupandsaucerandplate。Hewishedtomakesurethathissenseshadnotdeceivedhim。Butthereshesatwhothroughyearshadexisteddiscreetlyinthemostunconsideredroomsinanuninhabitedwing,knowingbetterthantopresumeuponherprivileges——thereshesatwithanawedandraptfacegazingupatthisnewoutbreakintoTempleBarholm”sand“himjokingandgrinningasthoughhewasaspleasedasPunch。”
CHAPTERXV
ToemploythefigureofBurrill,Tembaromwasindeed“aspleasedasPunch。”Hewasoneofthelargenumberofmenwho,apartfromallsentimentalrelations,aremadeparticularlyhappybythekindlysocietyofwomen;whoexpandwithquiteunconsciousrejoicingwhenawomanbeginstotakecareoftheminonewayoranother。Theunconsciousnessisatouchingpartofthecondition。Thefemininenearnesssuppliesaprimevalhumanneed。Themostcompleteofmen,aswellastheweaklings,feelit。Itisasurvivalofdayswhenwarmarmsheldandprotected,warmhandsserved,andaffectionatevoicessoothed。Anaccomplishedmaleservantmayperformeverydomesticserviceperfectly,butthefactthathecannotbeawomanleavesasenseoflack。Anaccustomedfemininewarmthinthesurroundingdailyatmospherehascausedmanyamantomarryhishousekeeperorevenhiscook,ascircumstancesprompted。
TembaromhadknownnowomanwelluntilhehadmetLittleAnn。HisfeelingforMrs。Bowseherselfhadvergedonaffection,becausehewouldhavebeenfondofanywomanofdecenttemperandkindliness,especiallyifshegavehimopportunitiestodofriendlyservice。
LittleAnnhadseemedtheapotheosisofthefeminine,thewarmlyhelpful,thesubtlysupporting,thekind。Shehadbeentohimanamazementandarevelation。Shehadcontinuallysurprisedhimbyrevealingnewcharacteristicswhichseemedtohimnicerthingsthanhehadeverknownbefore,butwhich,ifhehadbeenawareofit,werenotreallysurprisingatall。Theywereonlythecharacteristicsofaveryniceyoungfemininecreature。
ThepresenceofMissAlicia,withthelong-belatedfashionofherringletsandherlittlecap,wasdelightfultohim。Hefeltasthoughhewouldliketotakeherinhisarmsandhugher。HethoughtperhapsitwaspartlybecauseshewasalittlelikeAnn,andkeptrepeatinghisnameinAnn”sformallittleway。Herdelicateterrorofpresumingorintrudinghefeltinitseveryshade。Mentallyshetouchedhimenormously。Hewantedtomakeherfeelthatsheneednotbeafraidofhimintheleast,thathelikedher,thatinhisopinionshehadmorerightinthehousethanhehad。Hewasalittlefrightenedlestthroughignoranceheshouldsaythingsthewrongway,ashehadsaidthatthingaboutwantingtoknowwhatsheexpectedhimtodo。Whatheoughttohavesaidwas,“You”renotexpectingmetoletthatsortofthinggoon。”Ithadmadehimsickwhenhesawwhatabreakhe”dmadeandthatshethoughthewassortofinsultingher。Theroomseemedallrightnowthatshewasinit。Smallandunassumingasshewas,sheseemedtomakeitlessover-sized。Hedidn”tsomuchmindtheloftinessoftheceiling,thedepthandsizeofthewindows,andthewallscoveredwiththousandsofbooksheknewnothingwhateverabout。
Theinnumerablebookshadbeenanoppressingfeature。Ifhehadbeenoneofthose“collegeguys“whonevercouldgetenoughofbooks,whata“cinch“theplacewouldhavebeenforhim——goodastheAstorLibrary!Hehadn”tawordtosayagainstbooks,——goodLord!no;——butevenifhe”dhadtheeducationandthetimetoread,hedidn”tbelievehewasnaturallythatkind,anyhow。Youhadtobe“thatkind“toknowaboutbooks。Hedidn”tsupposeshe——meaningMissAlicia——waslearnedenoughtomakeyouthrowafit。Shedidn”tlookthatway,andhewasmightygladofit,becauseperhapsshewouldn”tlikehimmuchifshewas。Itwouldworryherwhenshetriedtotalktohimandfoundouthedidn”tknowadarnedthingheoughtto。
They”dgetontogethereasieriftheycouldjustchinaboutcommonsortofevery-daythings。Butthoughshedidn”tlookliketheVassarsort,heguessedthatshewasnotlikehimself:shehadlivedinlibrariesbefore,andbooksdidn”tfrightenher。She”dbeenbornamongpeoplewhoreadlotsofthemandmaybecouldtalkaboutthem。Thatwaswhyshesomehowseemedtofitintotheroom。Hewasawarethat,timidasshewasandshabbyasherneatdresslooked,shefittedintothewholeplace,ashedidnot。She”dbeenapoorrelativeandhadbeenafraidtodeathofoldTempleBarholm,butshe”dnotbeenafraidofhimbecauseshewasn”thissort。Shewasalady;thatwaswhatwasthematterwithher。Itwaswhatmadethingsharderforher,too。Itwaswhatmadehervoicetremblewhenshe”dtriedtoseemsocontentedandpolitewhenshe”dtalkedaboutgoingintooneofthose“decayedalms-
houses。”Asiftheoldladieswerevegetablesthathadgonewrong,bygee!hethought。
Helikedherlittle,modest,delicateoldfaceandhercurlsandherlittlecapwiththeribbonssomuchthathesmiledwithatwinklingeyeeverytimehelookedather。Hewantedtosuggestsomethinghethoughtwouldbemightycomfortable,buthewashalfafraidhemightbeaskinghertodosomethingwhichwasn”t“herjob,“anditmighthurtherfeelings。Butheventuredtohintatit。
“HasBurrillgottocomebackandpourthatout?“heasked,withanawkwardgesturetowardthetea-tray。“HashejustGOTto?“
“Oh,no,unlessyouwishit,“sheanswered。“Shall——mayIgiveittoyou?“
“Willyou?“heexclaimeddelightedly。“Thatwouldbefine。IshallfeellikearegularClarence。”
Shewasgoingtositatthetableinastraight-backedchair,buthesprangather。
“Thisbigoneismorecomfortable,“hesaid,andhedraggeditforwardandmadehersitinit。“Yououghttohaveafootstool,“headded,andhegotoneandputitunderherfeet。“There,that”sallright。”
Afootstool,asthoughshewerearoyalpersonageandhewereagentlemaninwaiting,onlyprobablygentlemeninwaitingdidnotjumpaboutandlooksopleased。Thecheerfulcontentofhisboyishfacewhenhehimselfsatdownnearthetablewasdelightful。
“Now,“hesaid,“wecanringupforthefirstact。”
Shefilledthetea-potandhelditforamoment,andthensetitdownasthoughherfeelingsweretoomuchforher。
“IfeelasifIwereinadream,“shequaveredhappily。“Idoindeed。”
“Butit”saniceone,ain”tit?“heanswered。“IfeelasifIwasintwo。Sittinghereinthisbigroomwithallthesefinethingsaboutme,andhavingafternoonteawitharelation!Itjustaboutsuitsme。
Itdidn”tfeellikethisyesterday,youbetyourlife!“
“Doesitseem——nicerthanyesterday?“sheventured。“Really,Mr。
TempleBarholm?“
“Nicer!“heejaculated。“It”sgotyesterdaybeatentoafrazzle。”
Itwasbeyondallbelief。Hewasspeakingasthoughtheadvantage,therelief,thehappiness,wereallonhisside。Shelongedtoenlightenhim。
“Butyoucan”trealizewhatitistome,“shesaidgratefully,“tosithere,notterrifiedandhomelessand——abeggaranymore,withyourkindfacebeforeme。Doforgivemeforsayingit。Youhavesuchakindyoungface,Mr。TempleBarholm。Andtohaveaneasy-chairandcushions,andactuallyabuffetbroughtformyfeet!“Shesuddenlyrecollectedherself。“Oh,Imustn”tletyourteagetcold,“sheadded,takingupthetea-potapologetically。“Doyoutakecreamandsugar,andisittobeonelumportwo?“
“Itakeeverythinginsight,“herepliedjoyously,“andtwolumps,please。”
Shepreparedthecupofteawithasdelicateacareasthoughithadbeenasacramentalchalice,andwhenshehandedittohimshesmiledwistfully。
“Noonebutyoueverthoughtofsuchathingasbringingabuffetformyfeet——nooneexceptpoorlittleJem,“shesaid,andhervoicewaswistfulaswellashersmile。
Shewasobviouslyunawarethatshewasintroducinganentirelynewacquaintancetohim。PoorlittleJemwassupposedtobesomeonewhosewholehistoryheknew。
“Jem?“herepeated,carefullytransferringapieceofhotbutteredcrumpettohisplate。
“JemTempleBarholm,“sheanswered。“IsaylittleJembecauseI
rememberhimonlyasachild。Ineversawhimafterhewaselevenyearsold。”
“Whowashe?“heasked。Thetoneofhervoice,andhermannerofspeakingmadehimfeelthathewantedtohearsomethingmore。
Shelookedratherstartledbyhisignorance。“Haveyou——haveyouneverheardofhim?“sheinquired。
“No。Isheanotherdistantrelation?“
Herhesitationcausedhimtoneglecthiscrumpet,tolookupather。
Hesawatoncethatsheworetheairofasensitiveandbeautifullymanneredelderlyladywhowasafraidshehadmadeamistakeandsaidsomethingawkward。
“Iamsosorry,“sheapologized。“PerhapsIoughtnottohavementionedhim。”
“Whyshouldn”thebementioned?“
Shewasembarrassed。Sheevidentlywishedshehadnotspoken,butbreedingdemandedthatsheshouldignoretheawkwardnessofthesituation,ifawkwardnessexisted。
“Ofcourse——Ihopeyourteaisquiteasyoulikeit——ofcoursethereisnorealreason。But——shallIgiveyousomemorecream?No?Yousee,ifhehadn”tdied,he——hewouldhaveinheritedTempleBarholm。”
Nowhewasinterested。Thiswastheotherchap。
“Insteadofme?“heasked,tomakesure。Sheendeavorednottoshowembarrassmentandtoldherselfitdidn”treallymatter——toathoroughlyniceperson。But——
“Hewasthenextofkin——beforeyou。I”msosorryIdidn”tknowyouhadn”theardofhim。ItseemednaturalthatMr。Palfordshouldhavementionedhim。”
“Hedidsaythattherewasayoungfellowwhohaddied,buthedidn”ttellmeabouthim。IguessIdidn”task。Thereweresuchalotofotherthings。I”dliketohearabouthim。Yousayyouknewhim?“
“Onlywhenhewasalittlefellow。Neverafterhegrewup。Somethinghappenedwhichdispleasedmyfather。I”mafraidpapawasveryeasilydispleased。Mr。TempleBarholmdislikedhim,too。HewouldnothavehimatTempleBarholm。”
“Hehadn”tmuchluckwithhisfolks,hadhe?“remarkedTembarom。
“Hehadnoluckwithanyone。Iseemedtobetheonlypersonwhowasfondofhim,andofcourseIdidn”tcount。”
“Ibetyoucountedwithhim,“saidTembarom。
“IdothinkIdid。Bothhisparentsdiedquitesoonafterhewasborn,andpeoplewhooughttohavecaredforhimwereratherjealousbecausehestoodsoneartoTempleBarholm。IfMr。TempleBarholmhadnotbeensoeccentricandbitter,everythingwouldhavebeendoneforhim;butasitwas,heseemedtobelongtonoone。Whenhecametothevicarageitusedtomakemesohappy。HeusedtocallmeAuntAlicia,andhehadsuchprettyways。”Shehesitatedandlookedquitetenderlyatthetea-pot,asortofshynessinherface。“Iamsure,“sheburstforth,“Ifeelquitesurethatyouwillunderstandandwon”tthinkitindelicate;butIhadthoughtsooftenthatIshouldliketohavealittleboy——ifIhadmarried,“sheaddedinhastytributetopropriety。
Tembarom”seyesrestedonherinathoughtfulnessopenlytouchedwithaffection。Heputouthishandandpattedherstwoorthreetimesinencouragingsympathy。
“Say,“hesaidfrankly,“Ijustbelieveeverywomanthat”stherealthing”dliketohavealittleboy——oralittlegirl——oralittlesomethingorother。That”swhypetcatsanddogshavesuchacinchofit。Andthere”smenthat”sthesameway。It”ssortofnature。”
“Hehadsuchahighspiritandsuchprettyways,“shesaidagain。“Oneofhisprettywayswasrememberingtodolittlethingstomakeonecomfortable,likethinkingofgivingoneacushionorabuffetforone”sfeet。InoticeditsomuchbecauseIhadneverseenboysormenwaituponwomen。Myowndearpapawasusedtohavingwomenwaituponhim——bringhisslippers,youknow,andgivehimthebestchair。Hedidn”tlikeJem”sways。Hesaidhelikedaboywhowasaboyandnotanaffectednincompoop。Hewasn”treallyquitejust。”Shepausedregretfullyandsighedasshelookedbackintoapastdoubtlesslyenrichedwithmanysimilarmemoriesof“dearpapa。”“PoorJem!PoorJem!“shebreathedsoftly。
Tembaromthoughtthatshemusthavefelttheboy”slossverymuch,almostasmuchasthoughshehadreallybeenhismother;perhapsmorepatheticallybecauseshehadnotbeenhismotheroranybody”smother。
Hecouldseewhatagoodlittlemothershewouldhavemade,lookingafterherchildrenanddoingeverythingonearthtomakethemhappyandcomfortable,justthekindofmotherAnnwouldmake,thoughshehadnotAnn”ssteadywonderofalittleheadorhershrewdfarsightedness。Jemwouldhavebeeninluckifhehadbeenherson。Itwasadarnedpityhehadn”tbeen。Ifhehad,perhapshewouldnothavediedyoung。
“Yes,“heansweredsympathetically,“it”shardforayoungfellowtodie。Howoldwashe,anyhow?Idon”tknow。”
“Notmucholderthanyouarenow。Itwassevenyearsago。Andifhehadonlydied,poordear!Therearethingssomuchworsethandeath。”
“Worse!“
“Awfuldisgraceisworse,“shefaltered。Shewasplainlytryingtokeepmoistureoutofhereyes。
“Didhegetintosomebadmix-up,poorfellow?“Iftherehadbeenanythinglikethat,nowonderitbrokeheruptothinkofhim。
Itsurelydidbreakherup。Sheflushedemotionally。
“Thecruelthingwasthathedidn”treallydowhathewasaccusedof,“
shesaid。
“Hedidn”t?“
“No;buthewasaruinedman,andhewentawaytotheKlondikebecausehecouldnotstayinEngland。Andhewaskilled——killed,poorboy!Andafterwarditwasfoundoutthathewasinnocent——toolate。”
“Gee!“Tembaromgasped,feelinghotandcold。“Couldyoubeatthatforrottenluck!Whatwasheaccusedof?“
MissAlicialeanedforwardandspokeinawhisper。Itwastoodreadfultospeakofaloud。
“Cheatingatcards——agentlemanplayingwithgentlemen。Youknowwhatthatmeans。”
Tembaromgrewhotterandcolder。Nowondershelookedthatway,poorlittlething!
“But,“——hehesitatedbeforehespoke”buthewasn”tthatkind,washe?Ofcoursehewasn”t。”
“No,no。But,yousee,“——shehesitatedherselfhere”everythinglookedsomuchagainsthim。Hehadbeenratherwild。”Shedroppedhervoiceevenlowerinmakingtheadmission。
Tembaromwonderedhowmuchshemeantbythat。
“Hewassomuchindebt。Heknewhewastoberichinthefuture,andhewaspoorjustinthoserecklessyoungdayswhenitseemedunfair。
Andhehadplayedagreatdealandhadbeenverylucky。Hewassoluckythatsometimeshisluckseemeduncanny。Menwhohadplayedwithhimwerehorribleaboutitafterward。”
“Theywouldbe,“putinTembarom。“They”dbesoreaboutit,andbringitup。”
Theybothforgottheirtea。MissAliciaforgoteverythingasshepouredforthherstoryinthemannerofawomanwhohadbeenforcedtokeepsilentandwasgladtoputhercaseintowords。Itwashercase。
TotellthetruthofthisforgottenwrongwasagaintoofferjustificationofpoorhandsomeJemwhomeverybodyseemedtohavedroppedtalkof,andevenpreferrednottohearmentioned。
“Thereweresuchpiteouslycruelthingsaboutit,“shewenton。“Hehadfallenverymuchinlove,andhemeanttomarryandsettledown。
Thoughwehadnotseeneachotherforyears,heactuallywrotetomeandtoldmeaboutit。Hislettermademecry。HesaidIwouldunderstandandcareaboutthethingwhichseemedtohavechangedeverythingandmadehimanewman。Hewassosorrythathehadnotbeenbetterandmorecareful。Hewasgoingtotryalloveragain。Hewasnotgoingtoplayatallafterthisoneeveningwhenhewasobligedtokeepanengagementhehadmademonthsbeforetogivehisrevengetoamanhehadwonagreatdealofmoneyfrom。TheverynighttheawfulthinghappenedhehadtoldLadyJoan,beforehewentintothecard-room,thatthiswastobehislastgame。”
Tembaromhadlookeddeeplyinterestedfromthefirst,butatherlastwordsanewalertnessaddeditself。
“DidyousayLadyJoan?“heasked。“WhowasLadyJoan?“
“Shewasthegirlhewassomuchinlovewith。HernamewasLadyJoanFayre。”
“WasshethedaughteroftheCountessofMallowe?“
“Yes。Haveyouheardofher?“
HerecalledAnn”sreflectiveconsiderationofhimbeforeshehadsaid,“She”llcomeafteryou。”Herepliednow:“Someonespokeofhertomethismorning。Theysayshe”sabeautyandasproudasLucifer。”
“Shewas,andsheisyet,Ibelieve。PoorLadyJoan——aswellaspoorJem!“
“Shedidn”tbelieveit,didshe?“heputinhastily。“Shedidn”tthrowhimdown?“
“Nooneknewwhathappenedbetweenthemafterward。Shewasinthecard-room,lookingon,whentheawfulthingtookplace。”
Shestopped,asthoughtogoonwasalmostunbearable。Shehadbeensooverwhelmedbythepastshameofitthatevenafterthepassingofyearstheanguishwasalivingthing。Hersmallhandsclunghardtogetherastheyrestedontheedgeofthetable。Tembaromwaitedinthrilledsuspense。Shespokeinawhisperagain:
“Hewonagreatdealofmoney——agreatdeal。Hehadthatuncannyluckagain,andofcoursepeopleintheotherroomsheardwhatwasgoingon,andanumberdriftedintolookon。Themanhehadpromisedtogivehisrevengetoalmostshowedsignsofhavingtomakeanefforttoconcealhisirritationanddisappointment。Ofcourse,ashewasagentleman,hewasascoolaspossible;butjustatthemostexcitingmoment,theheightofthegame,Jemmadeaquickmovement,and——andsomethingfelloutofhissleeve。”
“Something,“gaspedTembarom,“felloutofhissleeve!“
MissAlicia”seyesoverflowedasshenoddedherberibbonedlittlecap。
“It“——hervoicewasasobofwoe”itwasamarkedcard。Themanhewasplayingagainstsnatcheditandhelditup。Andhelaughedoutloud。”
“Holycats!“burstfromTembarom;buttheremarkableexclamationwasoneofgenuinehorror,andheturnedpale,gotupfromhisseat,andtooktwoorthreestridesacrosstheroom,asthoughhecouldnotsitstill。
“Yes,helaughed——quiteloudly,“repeatedMissAlicia,“asifhehadguesseditallthetime。Papaheardthewholestoryfromsomeonewhowaspresent。”
Tembaromcamebacktoherratherbreathless。
“Whatinthunderdidhedo——Jem?“heasked。
Sheactuallywrungherpoorlittlehands。
“Whatcouldhedo?Therewasadeadsilence。Peoplemovedjustalittlenearertothetableandstoodandstared,merelywaiting。Theysayitwasawfultoseehisface——awful。Hesprangupandstoodstill,andslowlybecameaswhiteasifheweredyingbeforetheireyes。SomeonethoughtLadyJoanFayretookasteptowardhim,butnoonewasquitesure。Heneverutteredoneword,butwalkedoutoftheroomanddownthestairsandoutofthehouse。”
“Butdidn”thespeaktothegirl?“
“Hedidn”tevenlookather。Hepassedherbyasifshewerestone。”
“Whathappenednext?“
“Hedisappeared。Nooneknewwhereatfirst,andthentherewasarumorthathehadgonetotheKlondikeandhadbeenkilledthere。Andayearlater——onlyayear!Oh,ifhehadonlywaitedinEngland!——aworthlessvillainofavalethehaddischargedforstealingmetwithanaccident,andbecausehethoughthewasgoingtodie,gothorriblyfrightened,andconfessedtotheclergymanthathehadtuckedthecardinpoorJem”ssleevehimselfjusttopayhimoff。Hesaidhediditonthechancethatitwoulddropoutwheresomeonewouldseeit,andamarkedcarddroppingoutofaman”ssleeveanywherewouldlookblackenough,whetherhewasplayingornot。ButpoorJemwasinhisgrave,andnooneseemedtocare,thougheveryonehadbeeninterestedenoughinthescandal。Peopletalkedaboutthatforweeks。”
Tembarompulledathiscollarexcitedly。
“Itmakesmesortofstrangle,“hesaid。“You”vegottostandyourownbadluck,buttohearofachapthat”shadtoliedownandtaketheworstthatcouldcometohimandknowitwasn”this——justKNOWit!Anddiebeforehe”scleared!Thatknocksmeout。”
AlmosteverysentenceheutteredhadamysticalsoundtoMissAlicia,butsheknewhowhewastakingit,withwhathot,younghumansympathyandindignation。Shelovedthewayhetookit,andshelovedthefeelinginhisnextwords“Andthegirl——goodLord!——thegirl?“
“Inevermether,andIknowverylittleofher;butshehasnevermarried。”
“I”mgladofthat,“hesaid。“I”mdarnedgladofit。Howcouldshe?“
Annwouldn”t,heknew。Annwouldhavegonetohergraveunmarried。Butshewouldhavedonethingsfirsttoclearherman”sname。Somehowshewouldhaveclearedhim,ifshe”dhadtofighttoothandnailtillshewaseighty。
“Theysayshehasgrownverybitterandhaughtyinhermanner。I”mafraidLadyMalloweisaveryworldlywoman。Onehearstheydon”tgetontogether,andthatsheisbitterlydisappointedbecauseherdaughterhasnotmadeagoodmatch。Itappearsthatshemighthavemadeseveral,butsheissohardandcynicalthatmenareafraidofher。IwishIhadknownheralittle——ifshereallylovedJem。”
Tembaromhadthrusthishandsintohispockets,andwasstandingdeepinthought,lookingatthehugebankofredcoalsinthefire-grate。
MissAliciahastilywipedhereyes。
“Doexcuseme,“shesaid。
“I”llexcuseyouallright,“hereplied,stilllookingintothecoals。
“IguessIshouldn”texcuseyouasmuchifyoudidn”t“Helethercryinhergentlewaywhilehestared,lostinreflection。
“Andifhehadn”tfiredthatvaletchap,hewouldbeherewithyounow——insteadofme。Insteadofme,“herepeated。
AndMissAliciadidnotknowwhattosayinreply。Thereseemedtobenothingwhich,withproprietyandnaturalfeeling,onecouldsay。
“ItmakesmefeeljustfinetoknowI”mnotgoingtohavemydinnerallbymyself,“hesaidtoherbeforesheleftthelibrary。
Shehadawayofblushingaboutthingshenoticed,whenshewasshyormovedordidn”tknowexactlywhattosay。Thoughshemusthavebeensixty,shediditasthoughsheweresixteen。Andshediditwhenhesaidthis,andlookedasthoughsuddenlyshewasinsomesortoftrouble。
“Youaregoingtohavedinnerwithme,“hesaid,seeingthatshehesitated”dinnerandbreakfastandlunchandteaandsupperandeveryoldthingthatgoes。Youcan”tturnmedownaftermestakingoutthatclaim。”
“I”mafraid”shesaid。“Yousee,Ihavelivedsuchasecludedlife。
Iscarcelyeverleftmyroomsexcepttotakeawalk。I”msureyouunderstand。ItwouldnothavebeennecessaryevenifIcouldhaveaffordedit,whichIreallycouldn”t——I”mafraidIhavenothing——
quitesuitable——foreveningwear。”
“Youhaven”t!“heexclaimedgleefully。“Idon”tknowwhatissuitableforeveningwear,butIhaven”tgotiteither。Pearsontoldmesowithtearsinhiseyes。Itneverwasnecessaryformeeither。I”vegottogetsomethingstoquietPearsondown,butuntilIdoI”vegottoeatmydinnerinatweedcutaway;andwhatI”vecaughtontoisthatit”sunsuitableenoughtothrowamanintojail。Thatlittleblackdressyou”vegotonandthatlittlecaparejust”wayoutofsight,they”resobecoming。Comedownjustlikeyouare。”
ShefeltalittleasPearsonhadfeltwhenconfrontinghisnewemployer”sentirecheerfulnessinfaceofasituationasexoticallyhopelessasthetweedcutaway,andnothingelsebywayofresource。
Buttherewassomethingsoniceabouthim,somethingwhichwasalmostasthoughhewasactuallyagentleman,somethingwhichabsolutely,ifonecouldgosofar,stoodintheplaceofhisbeingagentleman。Itwasimpossibletohelplikinghimmoreandmoreateveryqueerspeechhemade。Still,therewereofcoursethingshedidnotrealize,andperhapsoneoughtinkindnesstogivehimadelicatehint。
“I”mafraid,“shebeganquiteapologetically。“I”mafraidthattheservants,Burrillandthefootmen,youknow,willbe——willthink”
“Say,“hetookherup,“let”sgiveBurrillandthefootmentheWilliesoutandout。Iftheycan”tstandit,theycanwritehometotheirmothersandtell”emthey”vegottotake”emaway。Burrillandthefootmenneedn”tworry。They”resuitableenough,andit”snoneoftheirfuneral,anyhow。”
Hewasn”tupsetintheleast。MissAlicia,who,asatimiddependenteitherupon“poordearpapa“orMr。TempleBarholm,hadbeensecretly,inhersensitive,ladylikelittleway,afraidofsuperiorservantsallherlife,knowingthattheyrealizedherutterlyinsignificanthelplessness,andresentedgivingherattentionbecauseshewasnotabletoshowherappreciationoftheirservicesinthepropermanner——
MissAliciasawthatithadnotoccurredtohimtoendeavortopropitiatethemintheleast,becausesomehowitallseemedajoketohim,andhedidn”tcare。Afterthefirstmomentofbeingstartled,sheregardedhimwithanovelfeeling,almostakindofadmiration。
Tentativelyshedaredtowonderiftherewasnotsomethingevenrather——ratherARISTOCRATICinhisutterindifference。
Ifbehadbeenaduke,hewouldnothaveregardedtheservants”pointofview;itwouldn”thavematteredwhattheythought。Perhaps,shehastilydecided,hewaslikethisbecause,thoughhewasnotaduke,boot-blackinginNewYorknotwithstandinghewasaTempleBarholm。
TherewerefewdukesasoldofbloodasaTempleBarholm。Thatmustbeit。Shewasrelieved。
Whatsoeverlayattherootofhisbeingwhathewasandashewas,hesomehowchangedtheaspectofthingsforher,andwithoutdoinganythingbutbehimself,clearedtheatmosphereofherdreadofthesurpriseandmentalreservationsofthefootmenandBurrillwhenshecamedowntodinnerinherhigh-necked,much-cleaned,andmuch-
repairedblacksilk,andwithnomoredistinguishingchangeinhertoiletthanawhitelacecapinsteadofablackone,andwith“poordearmamma”s“hairbraceletwiththegoldclasponherwrist,andaweeping-willowmadeof“poordearpapa”s“hairinabroochathercollar。
Itwassocurious,thoughstill“nice,“buthedidnotofferherhisarmwhentheyweregoingintothedining-room,andhetookholdofherswithhishandandaffectionatelyhalfled,halfpushed,heralongwithhimastheywent。Andhehimselfdrewbackherchairforherattheendofthetableoppositehisown。Hedidnotletafootmandoit,andhestoodbehindit,talkinginhischeerfulwayallthetime,andhemovedittoexactlytherightplace,andthenactuallybentdownandlookedunderthetable。
“Here,“hesaidtothenearestman-servant,“where”sthereafootstool?Getone,please,“inthatodd,simple,almostaristocraticway。Itwasnotarudedictatorialway,butacasualway,asthoughheknewthemanwastheretodothings,andhedidn”texpectanytimetobewasted。
Anditwashehimselfwhoarrangedthefootstool,makingitcomfortableforher,andthenhewenttohisownchairattheheadofthetableandsatdown,smilingatherjoyfullyacrosstheglassandsilverandflowers。
“Pushthatthinginthemiddleononeside,Burrill,“hesaid。“It”stoohigh。Ican”tseeMissAlicia。”
Burrillfounditdifficulttobelievetheevidenceofhishearing。
“Theepergne,sir?“heinquired。
“Isthatwhatit”scalled,anapern?That”sanewoneonme。Yes,that”swhatImean。Pushtheapernover。”
“ShallIremoveitfromthetable,sir?“Burrillsteeledhimselftoexactcivility。Ofwhatusetobehaveotherwise?Therealwaysremainedthelibertytogivenoticeiftheworstcametotheworst,thoughwhattheworstmighteventuallyprovetobeitrequiredaluridimaginationtodepict。Theepergnewasabeautifulthingofcrystalandgold,acelebratedworkofart,regardedasanexquisitepossession。ItwasalmostremarkablethatMr。TempleBarholmhadnotsaid,“Shoveitononeside,“butBurrillhadbeensparedthepoignantindignityofbeingrequiredto“shove。”
“Yes,supposeyoudo。It”safineenoughthingwhenitisn”tintheway,butI”vegottoseeyouwhileItalk,MissAlicia,“saidMr。
TempleBarholm。Theepisodeoftheepergne——Burrill”sexpression,andtherigidlyrestrainedmouthsofHenryandJamesasthedecorationwasremoved,leavingapainfullyblankspaceoftable-clothuntilBurrillsilentlyfilleditwithflowersinalowbowl——thesethingstemporarilyflurriedMissAliciasomewhat,butthepleasedsmileattheheadofthetablecalmedeventhattryingmoment。
Thenwhatadelightfulmealitwas,tobesure!Howentertainingandcheerfulandfullofinterestingconversation!MissAliciahadalwaysadmiredwhatshereverentlytermed“conversation。”Shehadreadofthehousesofbrilliantpeoplewheretheyhaditattable,atdinnerandsupperparties,andindrawing-rooms。TheFrench,especiallytheFrenchladies,werebrilliantconversationalists。Theyheld“salons“
inwhichtheconversationwaswonderful——Mme。deStaelandMme。
Roland,forinstance;andinEngland,LadyMaryWortleyMontague,SydneySmith,andHoraceWalpole,andsurelyMissFannyBurney,andnodoubtL。E。L。,whoserealnamewasMissLetitiaElizabethLandon——
whatconversationtheymusthavedelightedtheirfriendswithandhowinstructiveitmusthavebeeneventositinthemostobscurecornerandlisten!
SuchgiftedpersonsseemedtohavebeenchosenbyProvidencetodelightandinspireeveryoneprivilegedtohearthem。SuchprivilegeshadbeenomittedfromtheschemeofMissAlicia”sexistence。Shedidnotknow,shewouldhavefeltitsacrilegioustoadmititevenifthefacthaddawneduponher,that“dearpapa“hadbeenaheartlesslyarrogant,utterlyselfish,andtyrannicaloldblackguardofthemostpronouncedtype。Hehadbeenofanabsolutemoralityasfarassociallawswereconcerned。Hehadwrittenanddeliveredadenunciatorysermonaweek,andhadmadeunbearablebyhisministrationsthesufferinghoursandthelastmomentsofhisparishionersduringthelongyearsofhispastorate。WhenMissAlicia,inreadingrecordsofthehelpfulrelationshipofthemaleprogenitorsoftheBrontes,JaneAusten,FannyBurney,andMrs。Browning,wasfrequentlyremindedofhim,sherevealedaperceptionofwhichshewasnotaware。Hehadcombinedthevirilequalitiesofallofthem。Consequently,brilliancyofconversationattablehadnotbeentheattractivehabitofthehousehold;“poordearpapa“hadconfinedhimselftoscathingcriticismoftheincompetenceoffemaleswhocouldnotteachtheirmenialsto“cookadinnerwhichwasnotadisgracetoanydecenthousehold。”Whennotvirulentlyaspersingthemutton,hewasexpressinghisopinionofmuddle-headedweaknesswhichwouldpermithouseholdbillstomountinamannerwhichcouldonlybringruinanddisasteruponaministerofthegospelwhothroughoutaprotractedcareerofusefulnesshadsappedhisintellectualmanhoodintheuselessefforttosupportinsillyidlenessafamilyofbrainlessandmaddeningfools。MissAliciahadheardhercharacter,herunsuccessfulphysicalappearance,hermind,andherpitifuleffortsattable-talk,describedindetailwithachoiceofadjectiveandadverbwhichhadbrokenintoterrifiedfragmentseveryatomofcourageandwillwithwhichshehadbeensparselydowered。
So,nothavingherselfbeengiftedwithconversationalpowerstobeginwith,andneverhavingenjoyedtheexhibitionofsuchpowersinothers,heridealshadbeenhigh。ShewasnotsurethatMr。TempleBarholm”sfluentandcheerfultalkcouldbewithexactnesstermed“conversation。”Itwasperhapsnotsufficientlyloftyandintellectual,anddidnotconfineitselfrigorouslytooneexaltedsubject。Buthowitdidraiseone”sspiritsandopenupcuriousvistas!Andhowgoodtemperedandhumorousitwas,eventhoughsometimesthehumorwasalittlebewildering!Duringthewholedinnerthereneveroccurredevenoneofthosedreadfulpausesinwhichdeadsilencefell,andonetried,likeafrightenedhenflyingfromsidetosideofacoop,tothinkofsomethingtosaywhichwouldnotsoundsilly,butperhapsmightdivertattentionfromdangeroustopics。ShehadoftenthoughtitwouldbesointerestingtohearaSpaniardoranativeHindutalkabouthimselfandhisowncountryinEnglish。
TembaromtalkedaboutNewYorkanditspeopleandatmosphere,andhedidnotknowhowforeignitallwas。Hedescribedthestreets——FifthAvenueandBroadwayandSixthAvenue——andthestreet-carsandtheelevatedrailroad,andtheway“fellows“hadto“hustle““toputitover。”Hespokeofaboarding-housekeptbyacertainMrs。Bowse,andapresidentialcampaign,andtheelectionofamayor,andaquick-
lunchcounter,andwhenPresidentGarfieldhadbeenassassinated,andadepartmentstore;andtheelectriclights,andthewayhehadofmakingasortofpictureofeverythingwasreallyinstructiveand,well,fascinating。Shefeltasthoughshehadbeentakenaboutthecityinoneofthevehiclestheconductorofwhichdescribedthingsthroughamegaphone。
NotthatMr。TempleBarholmsuggestedamegaphone,whatsoeverthatmightbe,buthemerelymadeyoufeelasifyouhadseenthings。Neverhadshebeensoentertainedandenlightened。Ifshehadbeenabeautifulgirl,hecouldnothaveseemedmoreasthoughinamusingherhewasalsoreallypleasinghimself。Hewassoveryfunnysometimesthatshecouldnothelplaughinginawaywhichwasalmostunladylike,becauseshecouldnotstop,andwasobligedtoputherhandkerchiefuptoherfaceandwipeawayactualtearsofmirth。
Fancylaughinguntilyoucried,andtheservantslookingon!
OnceBurrillhimselfwasobligedtoturnhastilyaway,andtwicesheheardhimseverelyreproveanoverpoweredyoungfootmaninarapidundertone。
TembaromatleastfeltthattheunliftingheavinessofatmospherewhichhadsurroundedhimwhileenjoyingthecompanionshipofMr。
Palfordwasathingofthepast。
Thethrilledinterest,thesurpriseanddelightofMissAliciawouldhavestimulatedamaninacomatosecondition,itseemedtohim。Thelittlethingjustlovedeverybitofit——shejust“eatitup。”Sheaskedquestionafterquestion,sometimesquestionswhichwouldhavemadehimshoutwithlaughterifhehadnotbeenafraidofhurtingherfeelings。SheknewaslittleofNewYorkasheknewofTempleBarholm,andwas,itmadehimgrintosee,alluredbyitasbysomeillicitfascination。Shedidnotknowwhattomakeofit,andsometimesshewasobligedhastilytoconcealafearthatitwasasortofSodomandGomorrah;butshewantedtohearmoreaboutit,andstillmore。
Andshebrightenedupuntilsheactuallydidnotlookfrightened,andateherdinnerwithanexcellentappetite。
“Ireallyneverenjoyedadinnersomuchinmylife,“shesaidwhentheywentintothedrawing-roomtohavetheircoffee。“Itwastheconversationwhichmadeitsodelightful。Conversationissuchastimulatingthing!“
Shehadalmostdecidedthatitwas“conversation,“oratleastawonderfulsubstitute。
Whenshesaidgoodnighttohimandwentbeamingtobed,lookingforwardimmenselytobreakfastnextmorning,hewatchedhergoupthestaircase,feelingwonderfullynormalandhappy。
“Someofthesenights,whenshe”susedtome,“hesaidashestuffedtobaccointohislastpipeinthelibrary”someofthesenightsI”mdarnedifIsha”n”tcatchholdofthesweet,littleoldthingandhugherinspiteofmyself。Isha”n”tbeabletohelpit。”Helithispipe,andpuffeditevenexcitedly。“Lord!“hesaid,“there”ssomeblame”foolgoingabouttheworldrightnowthatmighthavemarriedher。Andhe”llneverknowwhatabreakhemadewhenhedidn”t。”
CHAPTERXVI
Afugitivefinedaywhichhadstrayedintothemonthfromtheapproachingspringappearedthenextmorning,andMissAliciawasupliftedbytheenrapturingsuggestionthatsheshouldjoinhernewrelativeintakingawalk,infactthatitshouldbeshewhotookhimtowalkandshowedhimsomeofhispossessions。This,ithadrevealeditselftohim,shecoulddoinaspecialwayofherown,becauseduringherlifeatTempleBarholmshehadfeltitherdutyto“trytodoalittlegood“amongthevillagers。Sheandherlong-deadmotherandsisterhadofcoursebeenworkingadjunctsofthevicarage,andhadnumeroussomewhattryingtaskstoperforminthewayofimprovingupon“dearpapa”s“harryingthemintoattendingchurch,chivyingthemothersintosendingtheirchildrentoSunday-school,andbeingunsparinginseverityofanyconductwhichmightbeconstruedintoimplyinglackofappreciationofthevicarorrespectforhiseloquence。
Ithadbeennecessaryforthemasmembersofthevicar”sfamily——
always,ofcourse,withoutaddingasixpencetothehouseholdbills——
tosupplybowlsofnourishingbrothandarrowroottoinvalidsandtobestowtheaidandencouragementwhichresultinamanofGod”sbeingregardedwithaffectionandgratitudebyhisparishioners。Manyaman”scareerinthechurch,“dearpapa“hadfrequentlyobserved,hadbeenruinedbylackofintelligenceandeffortonthepartofthefemalemembersofhisfamily。
“Nomancouldachieveproperresults,“hehadsaid,“ifhewashamperedbytheselfishinfluenceandfoolishnessofhiswomenkind。
Successinthechurchdependsinonesenseverymuchupontheconductofaman”sfemalerelatives。”
Afterthedeathsofhermotherandsister,MissAliciahadtoiledonpatiently,fadingdaybydayfromaslim,plain,sweet-facedgirltoaslim,evenplainerandsweeter-facedmiddle-agedandatlastelderlywoman。ShehadbythattimereadaloudbybedsidesagreatmanychaptersintheBible,hadgivenagoodmanytracts,andbestowedasmucharrowroot,barley-water,andbeef-teaasshecouldpossiblyencompasswithoutdomesticdisaster。Shehadgivenalargeamountofconscientious,ifnottoointelligent,advice,andhadneverfailedtopresideoverherSunday-schoolclassoratmothers”meetings。Buthertimidunimpressivenesshadnotarousedenthusiasmorawakenedcomprehension。“MissAlicia,“thecottagewomensaid,“she”swellmeanin”,butshe”snotonewithahead。”“Sheremindsme,“oneofthemhadsummedherup,“ofahenthatlaysa”eggeveryday,butit”stoosmallforameal,and”u”dneverhatchintoanythin”。”
DuringherstayatTempleBarholmshehadtentativelytriedtodoalittle“parishwork,“butshehadhadnothingtogive,andshewasalwaysafraidthatifMr。TempleBarholmfoundherout,hewouldbeangry,becausehewouldthinkshewaspresuming。Shewasawarethatthevillagersknewthatshewasanobjectofcharityherself,andapersonwhowas“alady“andyetanobjectofcharitywas,sotospeak,poachingupontheirownlegitimatepreserves。Therectorandhiswifewererathergrandpeople,andcondescendedtohergreatlyonthefewoccasionsoftheiraccidentalmeetings。Shewasneithersmartnorinfluentialenoughtobeconsideredasanasset。
Itwasshewho“conversed“duringtheirwalk,andwhileshetrottedbyTembarom”ssidelookingmoreearly-Victorianthaneverinaneat,fringedmantleandasmallblackbonnetofafashionlongdecentlyinterredbyachangingworld,TembaromhadneverseenanythingresemblingitinNewYork;buthelikeditandherincreasinglyateverymoment。
Itwashewhomadeherconverse。Heledheronbyaskingherquestionsandbeinggreatlyinterestedineveryresponseshemade。Infact,thoughhewasquiteunawareofthesituation,shewascreatingforhimsuchanatmosphereashemighthavefoundinabook,ifhehadhadthehabitofbooks。Everythingshetoldhimwasnewandquaintandveryoftenrathertouching。Sherelatedanecdotesaboutherselfandherpoorlittlepastwithoutknowingshewasdoingit。Beforetheyhadtalkedanhourhehadanastonishingclearideaof“poordearpapa“
and“dearestEmily“and“poordarlingmama“andexistenceatRowcroftVicarage。He“caughtonto“thefactthatthoughshewasverymuchgiventotheword“dear,“——peoplewere“dear,“andsowerethingsandplaces,——sheneverevenbychanceslippedintosaying“dearRowcroft,“
whichshewouldcertainlyhavedoneifshehadeverspentahappymomentinit。
AsshetalkedtohimherealizedthathersimpleaccustomednesstoEnglishvillagelifeandallitsaccompanimentsofcountysurroundingswouldteachhimanythingandeverythinghemightwanttoknow。Herobscurityhadbeensurroundedbystatelymagnificence,withwhichshehadbecomefamiliarwithouttouchingthemerestoutskirtsofitsprivileges。Sheknewnamesandcustomsandfamiliesandthingstobecultivatedoravoided,andthoughshewouldbealittlestartledandmuchmystifiedbyhistotalignoranceofallshehadbreathedinsinceherbirth,hefeltsurethatshewouldnotregardhimeitherwithprivatecontemptorwithalessenedlikingbecausehewasavandalpureandsimple。
Andshehadsuchanice,little,oldpolitewayofsayingthings。
When,inpassingagroupofchildren,hefailedtounderstandthattheirhastybobbingupanddownmeantthattheyweredoingobeisancetohimaslordofthemanor,shespokewiththeprettiestapologeticcourtesy。
“I”msureyouwon”tmindtouchingyourhatwhentheymaketheirlittlecurtsies,orwhenavillagertoucheshisforehead,“shesaid。
“GoodLord!no,“hesaid,starting。“OughtI?Ididn”tknowtheyweredoingitatme。”Andheturnedroundandmadeahandsomebowandgrinnedalmostaffectionatelyatthesmall,amazedparty,firstpuzzling,andthendelighting,them,becausehelookedsoextraordinarilyfriendly。Agentlemanwholaughedatyoulikethatoughttobeequaltoamiscellaneousdistributionofpenniesinthefuture,ifnotonthespot。Theythemselvesgrinnedandchuckledandnudgedoneanother,withstaresandgiggles。
“Iamsorrytosaythatinagreatmanyplacesthevillagersarenotnearlysorespectfulastheyusedtobe,“MissAliciaexplained。“InRowcroftthechildrenwereveryremissaboutcurtseying。It”squitesad。ButMr。TempleBarholmwasverystrictindeedinthematterofdemandingproperrespectfulness。Hehasturnedmenofftheirfarmsforincivility。ThevillagersofTempleBarholmhavemuchbettermannersthansomeevenafewmilesaway。”
“MustItipmyhattoallofthem?“heasked。
“Ifyouplease。Itreallyseemskinder。You——youneedn”tquiteliftit,asyoudidtothechildrenjustnow。Ifyoujusttouchthebrimlightlywithyourhandinasortofmilitarysalute——thatiswhattheyareaccustomedto。”
Aftertheyhadpassedthroughthevillagestreetshepausedattheendofashortlaneandlookedupathimdoubtfully。
“Wouldyou——Iwonderifyouwouldliketogointoacottage,“shesaid。
“Gointoacottage?“heasked。“Whatcottage?Whatfor?“
Hehadnottheremotestideaofanyreasonwhyheshouldgointoacottageinhabitedbypeoplewhowereentirestrangerstohim,andMissAliciafeltatrifleawkwardathavingtoexplainanythingsowhollynatural。
“Yousee,theyareyourcottages,andthepeopleareyourtenants,and”
“Butperhapstheymightn”tlikeit。Itmightmake”emmad,“heargued。
“Iftheirwater-pipeshadbusted,andthey”daskedmetocomeandlookatthemoranything;buttheydon”tknowmeyet。TheymightthinkI
wasMr。Buttinski。”
“Idon”tquite”shebegan。“Buttinskiisaforeignname;itsoundsRussianorPolish。I”mafraidIdon”tquiteunderstandwhytheyshouldmistakeyouforhim。”
Thenhelaughed——aboyishshoutoflaughterwhichbroughtacottagertothenearestwindowtopeepoverthepotsoffuchsiasandgeraniumsbloomingprofuselyagainstthediamondpanes。
“Say,“heapologized,“don”tbemadbecauseIlaughed。I”mlaughingatmyselfasmuchasatanything。It”sawayofsayingthattheymightthinkIwas”buttingin”toomuch——pushinginwhereIwasn”tasked。
See?IsaidtheymightthinkIwasMr。Butt-in-ski!It”sjustabitoffoolslang。You”renotmad,areyou?“
“Oh,no!“shesaid。“Dearme!no。Itisveryfunny,ofcourse。I”mafraidI”mextremelyignorantabout——aboutforeignhumor“Itseemedmoredelicatetosay“foreign“thanmerely“American。”Buthergentlelittlecountenanceforafewsecondsworeabaffledexpression,andshesaidsoftlytoherself,“Mr。Buttinski,Butt-in——tointrude。ItsoundsquitePolish;IthinkevenmorePolishthanRussian。”
Hewasafraidhewouldyellwithglee,buthedidnot。Herculeaneffortenabledhimtorestrainhisfeelings,andpresenttoheronlyanordinary-sizedsmile。
“Ishouldn”tknowonefromtheother,“hesaid;“butifyousayitsoundsmorePolish,Ibetitdoes。”
“Wouldyouliketogointoacottage?“sheinquired。“Ithinkitmightbeaswell。Theywillliketheattention。”
“Willthey?OfcourseI”llgoifyouthinkthat。WhatshallIsay?“heaskedsomewhatanxiously。
“Ifyouthinkthecottagelooksclean,youmighttellthemso,andaskafewquestionsaboutthings。AndyoumustbesuretoinquireaboutSusanHibblethwaite”slegs。”
“What?“ejaculatedTembarom。
“SusanHibblethwaite”slegs,“sherepliedinmildexplanation。“SusanisMr。Hibblethwaite”sunmarriedsister,andshehasverybadlegs。Itisathingonenoticescontinuallyamongvillagepeople,moreespeciallythewomen,thattheycomplainofwhattheycall`badlegs。”
Ineverquiteknowwhattheymean,whetheritisrheumatismorsomethingdifferent,butthetroubleisalwaysspokenofas`badlegs”
Andtheylikeyoutoinquireaboutthem,sothattheycantellyoutheirsymptoms。”
“Whydon”ttheygetthemcured?“
“Idon”tknow,I”msure。Theytakeagooddealofmedicinewhentheycanaffordit。Ithinktheyliketotakeit。They”reverypleasedwhenthedoctorgivesthem`abottleo”summat”astheycallit。Oh,I
mustn”tforgettotellyouthatmostofthemspeakratherbroadLancashire。”
“ShallIunderstandthem?“Tembaromasked,anxiousagain。“IsitasortofDagotalk?“
“ItistheEnglishtheworking-classesspeakinLancashire。”Summat”
means”something。””Whoam”means”home。”ButIshouldthinkyouwouldbeverycleveratunderstandingthings。”
“I”mscaredstiff,“saidTembarom,notintheleastuncourageously;
“butIwanttogointoacottageandhearsomeofit。Whichoneshallwegointo?“
Therewereseveralwhitewashedcottagesinthelane,eachinitsownbitofgardenandbehinditsownhawthornhedge,nowbareandwhollyunsuggestiveofwhiteblossomsandalmondscenttotheuninitiated。
MissAliciahesitatedamoment。
“Wewillgointothisone,wheretheHibblethwaiteslive,“shedecided。“Theyarequiteclean,civilpeople。Theyhaveanaughty,queer,littlecrippledboy,butIsupposetheycan”tkeephiminorderbecauseheisaninvalid。He”sratherrude,I”msorrytosay,buthe”srathersharpandclever,too。Heseemstolieonhissofaandcollectallthegossipofthevillage。”
Theywenttogetherupthebrickedpath,andMissAliciaknockedatthelowdoorwithherknuckles。Astout,apple-facedwomanopenedit,lookingashadenervous。
“Goodmorning,Mrs。Hibblethwaite,“saidMissAliciainakindbutremotemanner。“ThenewMr。TempleBarholmhasbeenkindenoughtocometoseeyou。It”sverygoodofhimtocomesosoon,isn”tit?“
“Itisthat,“Mrs。Hibblethwaiteansweredrespectfully,lookinghimover。“Wiltthacoomin,sir?“
Tembaromacceptedtheinvitation,feelingextremelyawkwardbecauseMissAlicia”sinitiatorycommentuponhisgoodnessinshowinghimselfhad“rattled“him。Ithadmadehimfeelthathemustappearcondescending,andhehadnevercondescendedtoanyoneinthewholecourseofhisexistence。Hehad,indeed,notevenbeencondescendedto。Hehadmetwithslangingandbullying,indifferenceandbrutalityofmanner,buthehadnotmetwithcondescension。
“Ihopeyou”rewell,Mrs。Hibblethwaite,“heanswered。“Youlookit。”
“Ideceivemalooksagoodbit,sir,“sheanswered。“MonyadaymalegsisnighasbadasSusan”s。”
“Tha”rtjealouso”Susan”slegs,“barkedoutasharpvoicefromacornerbythefire。
Theroomhadaflaggedfloor,cleanwithrecentscrubbingwithsandstone;thewhitewashedwallsweredecoratedwithpicturescutfromillustratedpapers;therewasabigfireplace,andbyitwasahard-
lookingsofacoveredwithblue-and-whitecheckedcottonstuff。Aboyofabouttenwaslyingonit,proppedupwithapillow。Hehadabigheadandakeen,ferret-eyedface,andjustnowwaslookingroundtheendofhissofaatthevisitors。“Howdthatongue,Tummas!“saidhismother。“Iwunnothowdit,“Tummasanswered。“Matongue”sth”on”ythingaboutmeasworksright,an”I”mnoangoin”tostopit。”
“He”sayoungnowt,“hismotherexplained;“but,he”sacripple,an”
weconnadoowtwi”him。”
“Donotberude,Thomas,“saidMissAlicia,withdignity。
“Dunnotberudethysen,“repliedTummas。“I”mnoano”thylad。”
Tembaromwalkedovertothesofa。
“Say,“hebeganwithjocularintent,“you”vegotagrouchon,ain”tyou?“
Tummasturnedonhimeyeswhichbored。Ananalyticalobserverorapaintermighthaveseenthathehadaburningcuriousnessoflook,asortofinvestigatoryfeverofexpression。
“Idunnotknowwhatthameans,“hesaid。“Happentha”rttalkin””Merican?“
“That”sjustwhatitis,“admittedTembarom。“Whatareyoutalking?“
“Lancashire,“saidTummas。“Theer”ssomesensei”that。”
Tembaromsatdownnearhim。Theboyturnedoveragainsthispillowandputhischininthehollowofhispalmandstared。
“I”vewantedtoseethee,“heremarked。“I”vemademotheran”AuntSusanan”feythertellmeeverybitthey”vehearedabouttheeinthevillage。Theerwasalotofit。Thacoomfro””Meriker?“
“Yes。”Tembarombeganvaguelytofeelthedemandintheburningcuriosity。
“Gi”methattheerbook,“theboysaid,pointingtoasmalltableheapedwithamiscellaneousjumbleofthingsandstandingnotfarfromhim。“It”sa”atlas,“headdedasTembaromgaveittohim。“Yo”confindplacesinit。”Heturnedtheleavesuntilhefoundamapoftheworld。“Theer”s”Meriker,“hesaid,pointingtotheUnitedStates。
“Thattheer”snorthandthattheer”ssouth。Allth”real”MerikenscomesfromtheNorth,wheerNewYorkis。”
“IcomefromNewYork,“saidTembarom。
“Thawertborni”th”workhouse,tharunaboutth”streetsi”rags,thaprettynighclemmedtodeath,thablackedboots,thasoldnewspapers,thafeytherwasacommonworkin”-mon——andnowtha”scoomintoTempleBarholman”sixtythousandayear。”
“Thelastpart”strueallright,“Tembaromowned,“butthere”ssomemistakesinthefirstpart。Iwasn”tbornintheworkhouse,andthoughI”vebeenhungryenough,Ineverstarvedtodeath——ifthat”swhat`clemmed”means。”
Tummaslookedatoncedisappointedandsomewhatincredulous。
“That”sth”roadtheytelliti”th”village,“heargued。
“Well,letthemtellitthatwayiftheylikeitbest。That”snotgoingtoworryme,“Tembaromreplieduncombatively。
Tummas”seyesboreddeeperintohim。
“Doesnathacare?“hedemanded。
“WhatshouldIcarefor?Leteveryfellowenjoyhimselfhisownway。”
“Tha”rtnotabitlikeoneo”th”gentry,“saidTummas。“Tha”rtquiteacommonchap。Tha”rtascommonasme,forawthafoineclothes。”
“Peoplearecommonenough,anyhow,“saidTembarom。“There”snothingmuchcommoner,isthere?There”smillionsof”emeverywhere——
billionsof”em。Noneofusneedputonairs。”
“Tha”rtascommonasme,“saidTummas,reflectively。“An”yetthaownsTempleBarholman”awthatbrass。Iconnamak”outhowth”loikehappens。”
“NeithercanI;butitdoesallsamee。”
“Itdoesnahappeni””Meriker,“exultedTummas。“Everybody”sequaltheer。”
“Rats!“ejaculatedTembarom。“Whataboutmultimillionaires?“
HeforgotthattheageofTummaswasten。Itwasimpossiblenottoforgetit。Hewas,infact,tenhundred,ifthoseofhisgenerationhadbeenawareofthetruth。Buttherehesat,havingspentonlyadecadeofhismostrecentincarnationinawhitewashedcottage,deprivedoftheuseofhislegs。
MissAlicia,seeingthatTembaromwasinterestedintheboy,enteredintodomesticconversationwithMrs。Hibblethwaiteattheothersideoftheroom。Mrs。HibblethwaitewassoonexplainingtheuncertaintyofSusan”stemperonwash-days,whenitwasnecessarytodependonherlegs。
“Can”tyouwalkatall?“Tembaromasked。Tummasshookhishead。“Howlonghaveyoubeenlame?“
“EversinceIwurborn。It”ssummatlikerickets。I”vebeenlyin”hereawmydays。Ilookonatfoakan”think”emover。I”vegottodosummat。That”swhyIloiketh”atlas。LittleAnnHutchinsongaveittomeonctwhenshecometoseehergrandmother。”
Tembaromsatupright。
“Doyouknowher?“heexclaimed。
“Iknowherbesto”onybodyinth”world。An”Iloikeherbest。”
“SodoI,“rashlyadmittedTembarom。
“Thadoes?“Tummasaskedsuspiciously。“Doessheloikethee?“
“Shesaysshedoes。”Hetriedtosayitwithpropermodesty。
“Well,ifshesaysshedoes,shedoes。An”ifshedoes,thenyoan”
me”llbefriends。”Hestoppedamoment,andseemedtobetakingTembarominwiththoroughness。“Icouldgetalotouto”thee,“hesaidaftertheinspection。
“Alotofwhat?“Tembaromfeltasthoughhewouldreallyliketohear。
“Aloto”thingsIwanttoknowabout。IwishI”dlivedth”lifetha”slived,clemmin”ornoclemmin”。Tha”sseenthingsgoin”oneverydayo”thyloife。”
“Well,yes,there”sbeenplentygoingon,plenty,“Tembaromadmitted。
“I”vebeenlyingherefortenyear”,“saidTummas,savagely。“An”I”vehadnowti”th”worldtodoan”nowttothinkonbutwhatIcouldmak”
foaktellmeaboutth”village。Butnowthappensbutthischapgettin”
drunkan”thatchapdeein”orlosin”hisplace,orwenchesgettin”
marriedorhavin”childer。Iknoweverythingthathappens,butit”snowtbutaloto”womenclackin”。IfI”dnotbeenacripple,I”dha”
beenatworkformonyayearbynow,”arnin”moneytosavebyan”goto”Meriker。”
“YouseemtobesortofstuckonAmerica。How”sthat?“
“Whatdostmean?“
“Imeanyouseemtolikeit。”
“Idunnotloikeitnoryetnotloikeit,butI”veheardabitmoreaboutitthanIhaveaboutth”otherplacesonth”map。Foakgoestheretoseektheirfortune,an”itseemsloikethere”sagoodbitdoin”。”
“Doyouliketoreadnewspapers?“saidTembarom,inspiredtohisquerybyarecollectionofthevisionofthings“doin”“intheSundayEarth。
“Wheer”dIgetpapersfrom?“theboyaskedtestily。“Foaklikeushasn”tgotth”brassfor”em。”
“I”llbringyousomeNewYorkpapers,“promisedTembarom,grinningalittleinanticipation。“Andwe”lltalkaboutthenewsthat”sinthem。
TheSundayEarthisfullofpictures。Iusedtoworkonthatpapermyself。”
“Thadid?“Tummascriedexcitedly。“Didthahelptoprintit,orwasitth”onethasoldi”th”streets?“
“Iwrotesomeofthestuffinit。”
“Wrotesomeofth”stuffinit?Wroteitthaself?Howcouldtha,acommonchaplikethee?“heasked,moreexcitedstill,hisferreteyessnapping。
“Idon”tknowhowIdidit,“Tembaromanswered,withincreasedcheerandinterestinthesituation。“Itwasn”thigh-browsortofwork。”
Tummasleanedforwardinhisincredulouseagerness。
“Doesthameanthattheypaidtheeforwritin”it——paidthee?“
“Iguesstheywouldn”thavedoneitifthey”dbeenLancashire,“Tembaromanswered。”Buttheyhadn”tmuchmoresensethanIhad。Theypaidmetwenty-fivedollarsaweek——that”sfivepounds。”
“Idunnotbelievethee,“saidTummas,andleanedbackonhispillowshortofbreath。
“Ididn”tbelieveitmyselftillI”dpaidmyboardtwoweeksandboughtasuitofclotheswithit,“wasTembarom”sanswer,andhechuckledashemadeit。
ButTummasdidbelieveit。This,afterhehadrecoveredfromtheshock,becameevident。Thecuriosityinhisfaceintensifieditself;
hiseagernesswasevenvaguelytingedwithsomethingremotelyresemblingrespect。Itwasnot,however,respectforthemoneywhichhadbeenearned,butforthestoreofthings“doin”“whichmusthavebeenrequired。Itwasimpossiblethatthischapknewthingsundreamedof。
“Hasthaeverbeentoth”Klondike?“heaskedafteralongpause。
“No。I”veneverbeenoutofNewYork。”
Tummasseemedfrettedanddepressed。
“Eh,I”msorryforthat。Iwishedtha”dbeentoth”Klondike。Iwanttobetowdaboutit,“hesighed。Hepulledtheatlastowardhimandfoundaplaceinit。
“Thattheer”sDawson,“heannounced。TembaromsawthattheregionoftheKlondikehadbeenmuchstudied。Itwasevenratherfadedwiththefrequentpassageofsearchingfingers,asthoughithadbeenporedoverwithspecialcuriosity。
“There”sgowd-moinestheer,“revealedTummas。“An”theer”swellynewtelsebutsnowan”ice。Ayoungchapassetoutfro”heretogettheerfrozetodeathonth”way。”
“Howdidyougettohearaboutit?“
“Annshebrowtmeapaperonet。”Hedugunderhispillow,andbroughtoutapieceofnewspaper,wornandfrayedandcutwithageandusage。
“Thisheer”swhat”sleftofit。”TembaromsawthatitwasafragmentfromanoldAmericansheetandthatacolumnwasheaded“TheRushfortheKlondike。”
“Whydidnathagotheer?“demandedTummas。Helookedupfromhisfragmentandaskedhisquestionwithasuddenreflectiveness,asthoughanewandinterestingaspectofthingshadpresenteditselftohim。