“But,mygoodfellow,“protestedtheduke,despitefeelingatouchofthethrillagain,“unfortunately,shewouldnotsuspectyouoflookingatherbecauseyouwererecallingTorfredaandHerewardtheWake。Menstareatherforanotherreason。”
“That”swhatIknowabouthalfaswellagainasIknowanythingelse,“
answeredTembarom。Headded,withadeliberationholdingitsownmeaning,“That”swhatI”mcomingto。”
Thedukewaited。Whatwasithewascomingto?
“Readingthatnovelputmewisetothingsinanewway。She”sbeenwipingherfeetonmehardforagoodwhile,andIsortofmadeupmymindI”dgottoletheruntilIwassurewhereIwas。Iwon”tsayI
didn”tmindit,butIcouldstandit。Butthatnightshecaughtmelookingather,thewayshelookedbackatmemademeseeallofasuddenthatitwouldbeeasierforherifItoldherstraightthatshewasmistaken。”
“Thatsheismistakeninthinking——?“
“Whatshedoesthink。Shewouldn”thavethoughtitiftheoldladyhadn”tbeendrivinghermadbyhammeringitin。She”dhavehatedmeallright,andIdon”tblameherwhenIthinkofhowpoorJemwastreated;butshewouldn”thavethoughtthateverytimeItriedtobedecentandfriendlytoherIwasbuttinginandmakingasickfoolofmyself。She”sgottostaywherehermotherkeepsher,andshe”sgottolistentoher。Oh,hell!She”sgottobetold!“
Thedukesetthetipsofhisfingerstogether。
“Howwouldyoudoit?“heinquired。
“Juststraight,“repliedT。Tembarom。“There”snootherway。”
Fromtheoldworldlingbrokeforthaninvoluntarylowlaugh,whichwasasortofcackle。Sothiswaswhathewascomingto。
“Icannotthinkofanydeviousmethod,“hesaid,“whichwouldmakeitlessthanadelicatethingtodo。Abeautifulyoungwoman,whosehostyouare,hasfloutedyoufuriouslyforweeks,undertheimpressionthatyouareoffensivelyinlovewithher。Youproposetotellherthatherjudgmenthasbetrayedher,andthat,asyousay,`There”snothingdoing。”“
“Notadarnedthing,andneverhasbeen,“saidT。Tembarom。Helookedquitegraveandnotatallembarrassed。Heplainlydidnotseeitasasituationtoberegardedwithhumor。
“Ifshewilllisten”thedukebegan。
“Oh,she”lllisten,“putinTembarom。“I”llmakeher。”
Hiswasaself-contradictingcountenance,thedukereflected,ashetookhiminwithasomewhatlonglook。Onedidnotusuallyseeafacebuiltupofboyishnessandmaturity,simplenesswhichwasbaffling,andagoodnaturewhichcouldbehard。Atthemoment,itwasbothoftheselastatoneandthesametime。
“IknowsomethingofLadyJoanandIknowsomethingofyou,“hesaid,“butIdon”texactlyforeseewhatwillhappen。IwillnotsaythatI
shouldnotliketobepresent。”
“There”llbenobodypresentbutjustmeandher,“Tembaromanswered。
CHAPTERXXX
ThevisitsofLadyMalloweandCaptainPalliserhadhadtheirfeatures。Neitherofthepairhadcometooneofthemostimposing“places“inLancashiretolivealifeofhermit-likeseclusionanddullness。Theyhadarrivedwiththeintentionofavailingthemselvesofallsuchopportunitiesforentertainmentascouldbeguidedintheirdirectionbythedeftnessofexperience。Asaresult,therehadbeenhospitalitiesatTempleBarholmsuchasithadnotbeheldduringthelastgenerationatleast。T。Tembaromhadlookedon,aninterestedspectator,asthesefestivitieshadbeenadroitlyarrangedandmanagedforhim。Hehadnot,however,intheleastresentedactingasasortoffigureheadinthepositionofsponsorandhost。
“TheythinkIdon”tknowI”mnotdoingitallmyself,“washiseasymentalsumming-up。“They”vegottheideathatI”mpleasedbecauseI
believeI”mIt。Butthat”salltothemerry。It”swhatI”vesetmymindonhavinggoingonhere,andIcouldn”thavestarteditaswellmyself。Ishouldn”thaveknownhow。They”reteachingme。AllIhopeisthatAnn”sgrandmotheriskeepingtab。”
“DoyouandRoseknowoldMrs。Hutchinson?“hehadinquiredofPearsonthenightbeforethetalkwiththeduke。
“Well,nottosayexactlyknowher,sir,buteverybodyknowsofher。
Sheisamostremarkableoldperson,sir。”Then,afterwatchinghisfaceforamomentorso,headdedtentatively,“Wouldyouperhapswishustomakeheracquaintancefor——foranyreason?“
Tembaromthoughtthematteroverspeculatively。HehadlearnedthathisfirstlikingforPearsonhadbeenfoundeduponarock。Hewasalwaystobetrustedtounderstand,andalsotoapplyaquiteunusualintelligencetosuchmattersashebecameawareofwithouthavingbeentoldaboutthem。
“WhatI”dlikewouldbeforhertohearthatthere”splentydoingatTempleBarholm;thatpeoplearecomingandgoingallthetime;andthatthere”sladiestoburn——andmostofthemlookers,atthat,“washisanswer。
HowPearsonhaddiscoveredtheexoticsubtletiesofhismaster”ssituationandmentalattitudetowardit,onlythoseofhisclassandgiftedwithhisoccultpowerscouldexplainindetail。ThefactexiststhatPearsondidknowanimmensenumberofthingshisemployerhadnotmentionedtohim,andheldthemlockedinhisbosominhonoredsecurity,likealittlegentleman。Hemadehisreplywithapoliteconvictionwhichcarriedweight。
“ItwouldnotbenecessaryforeitherRoseormetomakeoldMrs。
Hutchinson”sacquaintancewithaviewtoinformingherofanythingwhichoccursontheestateorinthevillage,sir,“heremarked。“Mrs。
Hutchinsonknowsmoreofthingsthananyoneevertellsher。Shesitsinhercottagethere,andshejustknowsthingsandseesthroughpeopleinawaythat”dbealmostunearthly,ifshewasn”tagoodoldperson,andsorespectablethatthere”sthosethattouchestheirhatstoherasifshebelongedtothegentry。She”sgotablueeye,sir”
“Hasshe?“exclaimedTembarom。
“Yes,sir。Asblueasababy”s,sir,andasclear,thoughshe”spasteighty。Andtheytellmethere”saquiet,steadylookinitthatill-
doersdownrightquailbefore。It”sasifshewasakindofjudgethatsentencedthemwithoutspeaking。Theycan”tstandit。Oh,sir!youcandependuponoldMrs。Hutchinsonastowho”sbeenhere,andevenwhatthey”vethoughtaboutit。Thevillagejustflockstohertotellherthenewsandgetadviceaboutthings。She”dknow。”
ItwasasaresultofthisthatonhisreturnfromStoneHoverhedismissedthecarriageatthegatesandwalkedthroughthemtomakeavisitinthevillage。OldMrs。Hutchinson,sittingknittinginherchairbehindtheabnormallyflourishingfuchsias,geraniums,andcampanulacarpaticasinhercottage-window,lookedbetweenthebanked-
upflower-potstoseethatMr。TempleBarholmhadopenedherwicket-
gateandwaswalkingupthecleanbrickedpathtoherfrontdoor。WhenheknockedshecalledoutinthebroadLancashireshehadalwaysspoken,“Coomin!“Whenheenteredhetookoffhishatandlookedather,friendlybuthesitant,andwiththeexpressionofayoungmanwhohasnotquitemadeuphismindastowhatheisabouttoencounter。
“I”mTempleTempleBarholm,Mrs。Hutchinson,“heannounced。
“Iknowthat,“sheanswered。“Notthatthalooksloiketh”TempleBarholms,butI”vebeenwatchin”theewalkan”drivepasthereeversincethacoomtoth”place。”
Shewatchedhimsteadilywithanastonishinglylimpidpairofoldeyes。Theywereoldandyoungatthesametime;oldbecausetheyhelddeepsofwisdom,youngbecausetheyweresoaliveandfullofquestion。
“Idon”tknowwhetherIoughttohavecometoseeyouornot,“hesaid。
“Well,tha”stcoom,“shereplied,goingonwithherknitting。“Sittheedounandhaveabitofachat。”
“Say!“hebrokeout。“Ain”tyougoingtoshakehandswithme?“Heheldhishandoutimpetuously。Heknewhewasallrightifshe”dshakehands。
“Theer”snowtagenthatsurely,“sheanswered,withashrewdbitofasmile。Shegavehimherhand。“IfIwasnastiffinmylegs,it”smyplacetogetupan”mak”theeacurtsey,butth”rheumaticshasnorespectevenforth”lordo”th”manor。”
“Ifyougotupandmademeacurtsey,“Tembaromsaid,“Ishouldthrowafit。Say,Mrs。Hutchinson,IbetyouknowthataswellasIdo。”
Theshrewdbitofasmilelightedhereyesaswellastwinkledabouthermouth。
“Sittheedoun,“shesaidagain。
Sohesatdownandlookedatherasstraightasshelookedathim。
“Tha”dgiveagoodbit,“shesaidpresently,overherflashingneedles,“toknowhowmuchLittleAnn”stow”dmeaboutthee。”
“I”dgivealottoknowhowmuchit”dbesquaretoaskyoutotellmeabouther,“hegavebacktoher,hesitatingyeteager。
“Whatdoesthameanbysquare?“shedemanded。
“Imean`fair。”CanItalktoyouaboutheratall?IpromisedI”dstickitouthereanddoasshesaid。Shetoldmeshewasn”tgoingtowritetomeorletherfatherwrite。I”vepromised,andI”mnotgoingtofalldownwhenI”vesaidathing。”
“Sothacoomtoseehergrandmother?“
Hereddened,butheldhisheadup。
“I”mnotgoingtoaskhergrandmotherathingshedoesn”twantmetobetold。ButI”vebeenupagainstitprettyhardlately。IreadsomethingsintheNewYorkpapersaboutherfatherandhisinvention,andabouthertravelingroundwithhimandhelpinghimwithhisbusiness。”
“InGermanytheywur,“sheputin,forgettingherself。“They”rehavin”
bigdoin”soverth”invention。WhatJoe”u”ddowi”outth”lassI
cannatell。She”sdoin”everybito”th”managin”an”contrivin”wi”
themfurriners——buthe”llneverknowit。She”sgotachaptotravelwi”himascantalkawth”languagesunderth”sun。”
Herfaceflushedandshestoppedherselfsharply。
“I”mtalkin”abouthertothee!“shesaid。“Iwouldnaha”believedo”
mysen”。”
Hegotupfromhischair。
“IguessIoughtn”ttohavecome,“hesaid,restlessly。“Butyouhaven”ttoldmemorethanIgothereandthereinthepapers。Thatwaswhatstartedme。Itwaslikewatchingher。Icouldhearhertalkingandseethewayshewasdoingthingstillitdrovemehalfcrazy。Allofasudden,IjustgotwildandmadeupmymindI”dcomehere。I”vewantedtodoitmanyatime,butI”vekeptaway。”
“Thashowedsensei”doin”that,“remarkedMrs。Hutchinson。“She”dnotha”thowtwello”theeiftha”dcoomrunnin”tohergrandmothereverydayorso。Whatshelikesabouttheeisasshethinkstha”sgotastrongbackboneo”thyown。”
Shelookedupathimoverherknitting,lookedstraightintohiseyes,andtherewasthatinherownwhichmadehimreddenandfeelhispulsequicken。Itwasactuallysomethingwhichevenremotelysuggestedthatshewasnot——inthedeepsofherstrongoldmind——aswhollyunswervingasherwordsmightimply。Itwassomethingmoresubtlethanwords。Shewasnotkeepinghimwhollyinthedarkwhenshesaid“Whatshelikesaboutthee。”IfAnnsaidthingslikethattoher,hewasprettywelloff。
“Happenalookatalass”sgrandmother——whenthaconnagetatth”lasshersen——isabito”comfort,“sheadded。“Butdon”tthagowalkin”byheretolookinatth”windowtoooften。Shewouldnathinkwello”
thateither。”
“Say!There”sonethingI”mgoingtogetoffmychestbeforeIgo,“heannounced,“justonething。Shecangowhereshelikesanddowhatshelikes,butI”mgoingtomarryherwhenshe”sdoneit——unlesssomethingknocksmeontheheadandfinishesme。I”mgoingtomarryher。”
“Thaart,arttha?“laconically;buthereyeswerestillonhis,andthesomethingintheirdepthsbynomeansdiminished。
“I”mkeepingupmyendhere,andit”snoslouchofajob,butI”mnotforgettingwhatshepromisedforoneminute!AndI”mnotforgettingwhatherpromisemeans,“hesaidobstinately。
“Tha”dlikemetotellherthat?“shesaid。
“Ifshedoesn”tknowit,youtellingherwouldn”tcutanyice,“washisreply。“I”msayingitbecauseIwantyoutoknowit,andbecauseitdoesmegoodtosayitoutloud。I”mgoingtomarryher。”
“That”sforherandtheetosettle,“shecommented,impersonally。
“Itissettled,“heanswered。“There”snowayoutofit。WillyoushakehandswithmeagainbeforeIgo?“
“Aye,“sheconsented,“Iwill。”
Whenshetookhishandshehelditaminute。Herownwaswarm,andtherewasnolimpnessaboutit。Thesecretwhichhadseemedtoconcealitselfbehindhereyeshadsomedifficultyinkeepingitselfwhollyinthebackground。
“Sheknowsawtha”does,“shesaidcoolly,asifshewerenotsuddenlyrevealingimmensities。“Sheknowswhocoomsan”whogoes,an”whattheythinko”thee,an”howthagetsonwi””em。Nowgettheegone,lad,an”dunnotthacoombacktillherormesendsforthee。”
WithinanhourofthistimetheafternoonpostbroughttoLadyMallowealetterwhichshereadwithanexpressioninwhichherdaughterrecognizedrelief。Itwasinfactaletterforwhichshehadwaitedwithanxiety,andtheinvitationitcontainedwasatributetohersocialskillatitshighestwatermark。Inherlessheroicmoments,shehadfeltdoubtsofreceivingit,whichhadcausedshudderstoruntheentirelengthofherspine。
“I”mgoingtoBroomeHaughton,“sheannouncedtoJoan。
“When?“Joaninquired。
“Attheendoftheweek。Iaminvitedforafortnight。”
“AmIgoing?“Joanasked。
“No。YouwillgotoLondontomeetsomefriendswhoarecomingoverfromParis。”
Joanknewthatcommentwasunnecessary。BothsheandhermotherwereonintimatetermswiththesehypotheticalfriendswhosofrequentlyturnedupfromParisorelsewherewhenitwasnecessarythatsheshouldsuddenlygobacktoLondonandliveinsqualidseclusionintheunopenedhouse,withacharwomantoprovideherwithunderdoneorburntchops,andeggsateighteenashilling,whiletheshuttersofthefrontroomswereclosed,anddustydesolationreigned。Shekneweverydetailofthemelancholysqualorofit,thedragginghours,thenightsoflyingawakelisteningtotheoccasionalpassingofbelatedcabs,orthesqueaksandnibblingofmiceintheoldwalls。
“Ifyouhadconductedyourselfsensiblyyouneednothavegone,“
continuedhermother。“Icouldhavemadeanexcuseandleftyouhere。
Youwouldatleasthavebeensureofgoodfoodanddecentcomforts。”
“Afteryourvisit,arewetoreturnhere?“wasLadyJoan”ssolereply。
“Don”tlookatmelikethat,“saidLadyMallowe。“Ithoughtthecountrywouldfreshenyourcoloratleast;butyouaregoingoffmoreeveryday。YoulookliketheWitchofEndorsometimes。”
Joansmiledfaintly。Thiswasthebrandishingofanoldweapon,andsheunderstoodallitssignificance。Itmeantthatthetimeforopportunitieswasslippingpastherlikethewatersofarapidriver。
“IdonotknowwhatwillhappenwhenIleaveBroomeHaughton,“hermotheradded,anoteofraspeduncertaintyinhervoice。“Wemaybeobligedtocomehereforashorttime,orwemaygoabroad。”
“IfIrefusetocome,wouldyouletmestarvetodeathinPiersStreet?“Joaninquired。
LadyMallowelookedherover,feelingasortoffrenzyatthesightofher。Intruth,thefuturewasahideousthingtocontemplateifnorescueatallwasinsight。ItwouldbeworseforherthanforJoan,becauseJoandidnotcarewhathappenedordidnothappen,andshecareddesperately。Shehadindeedarrivedatamaddeningmoment。
“Yes,“shesnapped,fiercely。
AndwhenJoanfaintlysmiledagainsheunderstoodwhywomenofthelowerordersbeatoneanotheruntilpolicemeninterfere。SheknewperfectlywellthatthegirlhadsomehowfoundoutthatSirMosesMonaldiniwastobeatBroomeHaughton,andthatwhenhelefttherehewasgoingabroad。Sheknewalsothatshehadnotbeenabletoconcealthathisindifferencehadoflategivenhersomeghastlyhours,andthatherplayforthislagginginvitationhadbeenafranticallyboldone。Thatthemostingeniouseffortsanddeviceshadendedinsuccessonlyaftersuchdelaymadeitallthemorenecessarythatnostrawmustremainunseizedon。
“Icanwearsomeofyourthings,withalittlealteration,“shesaid。
“Rosewilldoitforme。Hatsandglovesandornamentsdonotrequirealtering。IshallneedthingsyouwillnotneedinLondon。Whereareyourkeys?“
LadyJoanroseandgotthemforher。Sheevenflushedslightly。Theywereoftenobligedtoborroweachother”spossessions,butforamomentshefeltherselfmovedbyasortofhardpity。
“Wearelikeratsinatrap,“sheremarked。“Ihopeyouwillgetout。”
“IfIdo,youwillbeleftinside。Getoutyourself!Getoutyourself!“saidLadyMalloweinafiercewhisper。
HerregretsatthenecessityoftheirleavingTempleBarholmwereexpressedwithfluenttouchingnessatthedinner-table。Thevisithadbeensodelightful。Mr。TempleBarholmandMissAliciahadbeensokind。Thelovelinessofthewholedearplacehadsoembracedthemthattheyfeltasiftheywereleavingahomeinsteadofendingadelightfulvisit。Itwasextraordinarywhataneffectthehousehadonone。Itwasasifonehadlivedinitalways——andalwayswould。Sofewplacesgaveonethesamefeeling。Theyshouldbothlookforward——
greedyasitseemed——tobeingallowedsometimetocomeagain。ShehaddecidedfromthefirstthatitwasnotnecessarytogotoanyextremeofcautionorsubtletywithherhostandMissAlicia。Hermethodofpavingthewayforfuturevisitswasperhapsmorethanashadetooelaborate。Shefelt,however,thatitsufficed。Forthemostpart,LadyJoansatwithlidsdroppedoverherburningeyes。Shetriedtoforceherselfnottolisten。Thiswasthekindofthingwhichmadehersickwithhumiliation。Howsoeverrudimentarythesepeoplewere,theycouldnotfailtocomprehendthatafootholdinthehousewasbeingbidfor。Theyshouldatleastseethatshedidnotjoininthebidding。Herownvisithadbeenfilledwithfeelingsatwarwithoneanother。Therehadbeenhourstoomanyinwhichshewouldhavebeenglad——evenwiththedingyhorrorsoftheclosedtownhousebeforeher——
tohaveflownfromthehundredthingswhichcalledouttoheroneveryside。Inthelong-pastthreemonthsofhappiness,Jemhaddescribedthemalltoher——therooms,gardens,pleachedwalks,pictures,theveryfurnitureitself。Shecouldenternoroom,walkinnospotshedidnotseemtoknow,andpassionatelyloveinspiteofherself。Shelovedthemsomuchthatthereweretimeswhensheyearnedtostayintheplaceatanycost,andotherswhenshecouldnotendurethemiseryitwokeinher——thepuremisery。Nowitwasoverforthetimebeing,andshewasfacingsomethingnew。Therewereendlessvarietiesofwretchedness。Shehadbeenwatchinghermotherforsomemonths,andhadunderstoodhervaryingmoodsoftemporaryelationorprolongedanxiety。EachonehadmeantsomephaseoftheepisodeofSirMosesMonaldini。ThepeoplewholivedatBroomeHaughtonwereenormouslyrichHebrews,whowererelatedtohim。Theyhadtakenthebeautifuloldcountry-seatandwerefillingitwithhugepartiesoftheirfriends。ThepartywhichLadyMallowewastojoinwouldnodoubtofferopportunitiesofthemostdesirablekind。Amongthisspecialclassofpeopleshewasagreatsuccess。Heramazinglyachievedtoilettes,herripegoodlooks,herairofbelongingtothegreatworld,impressedthemselvesimmensely。
T。TembaromthoughtheneverhadseenLadyJoanlookashandsomeasshelookedto-night。Thecoloronhercheekburned,hereyeshadadrivenlonelinessinthem。Shehadawonderfullybeautifulmouth,anditscurvedroopedinanewway。HewishedAnncouldgetherinacornerandsitdownandtalksensetoher。Herememberedwhathehadsaidtotheduke。Perhapsthiswasthetime。Ifshewasgoingaway,andhermothermeanttodragherbackagainwhenshewasready,itwouldmakeiteasierforhertoleavetheplaceknowingsheneednothatetocomeback。Butthedukewasn”tmakinganymisshitwhenhesaiditwouldn”tbeeasy。ShewasnotlikeAnn,whowouldfeelsomepityforthebiggestfoolonearthifshehadtothrowhimdownhard。
LadyJoanwouldfeelneithercompunctionsnorrelentings。Heknewthewayshecouldlookatafellow。Ifhecouldn”tmakeherunderstandwhathewasaimingat,theywouldbothbeworseoffthantheywouldbeifheleftthingsastheywere。But——thehardlineshoweditselfabouthismouth——hewasn”tgoingtoleavethingsastheywere。
Astheypassedthroughthehallafterdinner,LadyMalloweglancedataside-tableonwhichlaysomelettersarrivedbythelatepost。Animposingenvelopewasonthetopoftherest。Joansawherfacelightasshetookitup。
“IthinkthisisfromBroomeHaughton,“shesaid。“Ifyouwillexcuseme,Iwillgointothelibraryandreadit。Itmayrequireansweringatonce。”
Sheturnedhotandcold,poorwoman,andwentaway,sothatshemightbefreefromthedisasterofanaudienceifanythinghadgonewrong。
Itwouldbebettertobealoneevenifthingshadgoneright。TheletterwasfromSirMosesMonaldini。Grotesqueandignobleasitnaturallystrikestheuninitiatedasseeming,thesituationhaditstouchofhideouspathos。Shehadfoughtforherownhandforyears;
shecouldnotdig,andtobegshewasnotashamed;butatimehadcomewheneventhemostadroitbeggingbegantoborepeople。Theysawthroughit,andthenthereresultedstrainedrelations,slightstiffnessofmanner,eveninthemostusefulandamiablepersons,lackofdesiretobehospitable,orevencondescendinglygenerous。Coldshoulderswereturned,therewereominousthreateningsoficybackspresentingthemselves。Theverytradesmenhadfoundthisout,andcouldnotbepersuadedthattheadvertisementfurnishedbythefactthattwobeautifulwomenoffashionate,drank,andworethearticleswhichformedtheitemsintheirunpaidbills,wassufficientreturnfortheoutlayofcapitalrequired。EvenMrs。Mellish,whengraciouslyapproachedbythe“relativeofMissTempleBarholm,whoseperfectwardrobeyousupplied,“hadlistenedtoallseductionswithacivileyefixedunmovedlyandhadreferredtothe“rulesoftheestablishment。”Nearerandnearertheedgeoftheabysstheyearshadpushedthem,andnowifsomethingdidnothappen——something——
something——eventheincreasinglyshabbysmallhouseintownwouldbecomeathingofthepast。Andwhatthen?CouldanyonewondershesaidtoherselfthatshecouldhavebeatenJoanfuriously。Itwouldnotmattertoanyoneelseiftheydroppedoutoftheworldintosqualidoblivion——oh,sheknewthat——sheknewthatwithbittercertainty!——butoh,howitwouldmattertothem!——atleasttoherself。
ItwasallverywellforMudie”stopourforthstreamsofsentimentalnovelspreachingthehorrorsofgirlsmarryingformoney,butwhatwereyoutodo——whatinheaven”snamewereyoutodo?So,feelingterrifiedenoughactuallytoofferupaprayer,shetooktheimposinglyaddressedletterintothelibrary。
Themenhadcomeintothedrawing-roomwhenshereturned。Assheentered,Joandidnotglanceupfromthebookshewasreading,butatthefirstsoundofhervoicesheknewwhathadoccurred。
“IwasobligedtodashoffanotetoBroomeHaughtonsothatitwouldbereadyfortheearlypost,“LadyMallowesaid。Shewasatherbest。
Pallisersawthatsomeyearshadslippedfromhershoulders。Themomentwhichrelievesorevenpromisestorelievefearsdoesastonishingthings。Tembaromwonderedwhethershehadhadgoodnews,andMissAliciathoughtthathereveningdresswasmorebecomingthananyshehadeverseenherwearbefore。Herbrilliantairofsocialeasereturnedtoher,andshebegantotalkfluentlyofwhatwasbeingdoneinLondon,andtotouchlightlyuponthepossibilityoftakingpartingreatfunctions。Forsometimeshehadratherevadedtalkofthefuture。Palliserhadknownthatthefuturehadseemedtobeclosinginuponher,andleavingherstaringatahighblankwall。
Personswhosefortunatenameshadceasedtofalleasilyfromherlipsappearedagainuponthehorizon。MissAliciawasimpressedanewwiththefeelingthatshehadknowneverybrilliantorimportantpersonageinthebigworldofsocialLondon;thatshehadtakenpartineverydazzlingevent。Tembaromsomehowrealizedthatshehadbeenafraidofsomethingorother,andwasforsomereasonnotafraidanymore。Suchachange,whatsoeverthereasonforit,oughttohavehadsomeeffectonherdaughter。Surelyshewouldshareherluck,ifluckhadcometoher。
ButLadyJoansatapartandkepthereyesuponherbook。Thiswasoneofthethingssheoftenchosetodo,inspiteofhermother”sindignantprotest。
“Icameherebecauseyoubroughtme,“shewouldanswer。“Ididnotcometobeentertainingorpolite。”
Shewasreadingthisevening。SheheardeverywordofLadyMallowe”sagreeableandslightlyexcitedconversation。Shedidnotknowexactlywhathadhappened;butsheknewthatitwassomethingwhichhadbuoyedherupwithahopefulnesswhichexhilaratedheralmosttoomuch——asanextraglassofwinemighthavedone。Onceortwicesheevenlostherheadalittleandwasatrifleswaggering。T。Tembaromwouldnotrecognizetheslip,butJoansawPalliser”sfaintsmilewithoutlookingupfromherbook。Heobservedshadesintasteandbearing。
BeforeherownfutureJoansawtheblankwallofstonebuildingitselfhigherandhigher。IfSirMoseshadcapitulated,shewouldbecountedout。Withwhatdegreeofboldnesscouldamothercastherpennilessdaughterontheworld?Whatunendurableprovisionmakeforher?DaretheyofferapoundaweekandsendhertoliveintheslumsuntilshechosetomarrysomeHebrewfriendofherstep-father”s?Thatsheknewwouldbethefinalalternative。Acruellittlesmiletouchedherlips,asshereviewedthenumberofthingsshecouldnotdotoearnherliving。Shecouldnottakeinsewingorwashing,andtherewasnothingshecouldteach。Starvationormarriage。Thewallbuiltitselfhigherandyethigher。Whatahideousthingitwasforapennilessgirltobebroughtupmerelytobeabeauty,andinconsequencesupposablyagreatlady。Andyetifshewasborntoacertainrankandhadheightandfigure,alovelymouth,adelicatenose,unusualeyesandlashes,totrainhertobeadressmakerorahousemaidwouldbeastupidinvestmentofcapital。Ifnothingtragicinterferedandtherightmanwantedsuchagirl,shehadbeentrainedtopleasehim。Buttragicthingshadhappened,andbeforehergrewthewallwhileshepretendedtoreadherbook。
T。Tembaromwascomingtowardher。ShehadheardPallisersuggestagameofbilliards。
“Willyoucomeandplaybilliardswithus?“Tembaromasked。“Pallisersaysyouplaysplendidly。”
“Sheplaysbrilliantly,“putinLadyMallowe。“Come,Joan。”
“No,thankyou,“sheanswered。“Letmestayhereandread。”
LadyMalloweprotested。Shetriedanairofplayfulmaternalreproachbecauseshewasingoodspirits。JoansawPallisersmilingquietly,andtherewasthatinhissmilewhichsuggestedtoherthathewasthinkingheranobstinatefool。
“YouhadbettershowTempleBarholmwhatyoucando,“heremarked。
“Thiswillbeyourlastchance,asyouleavesosoon。Yououghtneverletalastchanceslipby。Ineverdo。”
Tembaromstoodstillandlookeddownatherfromhisgoodheight。HedidnotknowwhatPalliser”sspeechmeant,butaninstinctmadehimfeelthatitsomehowheldanugly,quiettaunt。
“WhatIwouldliketodo,“wastheunspokencruditywhichpassedthroughhismind,“wouldbetoswathimonthemouth。He”sgettingatherjustwhensheoughttobeletalone。”
“Wouldyoulikeitbettertostayhereandread?“heinquired。
“Muchbetter,ifyouplease,“washerreply。
“Thenthatgoes,“heanswered,andlefther。
Heswepttheothersoutoftheroomwithagood-naturedpromptnesswhichputanendtoargument。Whenhesaidofanything“Thenthatgoes,“itusuallydidso。
CHAPTERXXXI
WhenshewasaloneJoansatandgazednotatherwallbutatthepicturesthatcamebacktoheroutofapartofherlifewhichseemedtohavebeenlivedcenturiesago。Theywerethepicturesthatcamebackcontinuallywithoutbeingcalled,theclearnessofwhichalwaysstartledherafresh。Sometimesshethoughttheyspranguptoaddtohertorment,butsometimesitseemedasiftheycametosaveherfromherself——hermad,wickedself。Afterall,thereweremomentswhentoknowthatshehadbeenthegirlwhoseeighteen-year-oldhearthadleapedsowhensheturnedandmetJem”seyes,ashestoodgazingatherunderthebeech-tree,wassomethingtoclingto。ShehadbeenthatgirlandJemhadbeen——Jem。Andshehadbeenthegirlwhohadjoinedhiminthatyoung,ardentvowthattheywouldsaythesameprayersatthesamehoureachnighttogether。Ah!howyoungithadbeen——howYOUNG!Herthroatstraineditselfbecausesobsroseinit,andhereyeswerehotwiththeswelloftears。
Shecouldhearvoicesandlaughterandtheclickofballsfromthebilliard-room。HermotherandPalliserlaughedthemost,butsheknewthesoundofhermother”svoicewouldceasesoon,becauseshewouldcomebacktoher。Sheknewshewouldnotleaveherlong,andsheknewthekindofscenetheywouldpassthroughtogetherwhenshereturned。
Theoldthingswouldbesaid,theoldargumentsused,butanewonewouldbeadded。Itwasapleasantthingtowaithere,knowingthatitwascoming,andthatforallherfierceprideandfiercespiritshehadnodefense。Itwasatoncehorribleandridiculousthatshemustsitandlisten——andstareatthegrowingwall。ItwasasshecaughtherbreathagainstthechokingswelloftearsthatsheheardLadyMallowereturning。Shecameinwithanactualsweepacrosstheroom。
Hersocietyairhadfled,andshewasunadornedlyfuriouswhenshestoppedbeforeJoan”schair。Forafewsecondssheactuallyglared;
thenshebrokeforthinasuppressedundertone:
“Comeintothebilliard-room。Icommandit!“
Joanliftedhereyesfromherbook。Hervoicewasaslowashermother”s,butsteadier。
“No,“sheanswered。
“Isthisconducttocontinue?Isit?“LadyMallowepanted。
“Yes,“saidJoan,andlaidherbookonthetablenearher。Therewasnothingelsetosay。Wordsmadethingsworse。
LadyMallowehadlostherhead,butshestillspokeinthesuppressedvoice。
“YouSHALLbehaveyourself!“shecried,underherbreath,andactuallymadeapassionatehalf-starttowardher。“Youviolent-naturedvirago!
Theverylookonyourfaceisenoughtodriveonemad!“
“IknowIamviolent-natured,“saidJoan。“Butdon”tyouthinkitwisetorememberthatyoucannotmakethekindofsceneherethatyoucaninyourownhouse?Weareabad-temperedpair,andwebehaveratherlikefishwiveswhenweareinarage。Butwhenweareguestsinotherpeople”shouses”
LadyMallowe”stemperwasaselementalasanyBillingsgatecouldprovide。
“Youthinkyoucantakeadvantageofthat!“shesaid。“Don”ttrustyourselftoofar。DoyouimaginethatjustwhenallmightgowellformeIwillallowyoutospoileverything?“
“HowcanIspoileverything?“
“Bybehavingasyouhavebeenbehavingsincewecamehere——refusingtomakeahomeforyourself;byhangingroundmynecksothatitwillappearthatanyonewhotakesmemusttakeyoualso。”
“Thereareservantsoutside,“Joanwarnedher。
“Youshallnotstopme!“criedLadyMallowe。
“Youcannotstopyourself,“saidJoan。“Thatistheworstofit。Itisbadenoughwhenwestandandhissateachotherinastagewhisper;
butwhenyoulosecontroloveryourselfandraiseyourvoice”
“Icameinheretotellyouthatthisisyourlastchance。Ishallnevergiveyouanother。Doyouknowhowoldyouare?“
“Ishallsoonbetwenty-seven,“Joananswered。“IwishIwereahundred。Thenitwouldallbeover。”
“Butitwillnotbeoverforyearsandyearsandyears,“hermotherflungbackather。“Haveyouforgottenthattheveryragsyouweararenotpaidfor?“
“No,Ihavenotforgotten。”Thescenewasworkingitselfupontheoldlines,asJoanhadknownitwould。Hermotherneverfailedtosaythesamethings,everytimesuchascenetookplace。
“Youwillgetnomoresuchrags——paidorunpaidfor。Whatdoyouexpecttodo?Youdon”tknowhowtowork,andifyoudidnodecentwomanwouldemployyou。Youaretoogood-lookingandtoobad-
tempered。”
Joanknewshewasperfectlyright。Knowingit,sheremainedsilent,andhersilenceaddedtohermother”shelplessrage。Shemovedastepnearertoherandflungthejavelinwhichshealwaysknewwouldstrikedeep。
“Youhavemadeyourselfalaughing-stockforallLondonforyears。Youaremadaboutamanwhodisgracedandruinedhimself。”
Shesawthejavelinquiverasitstruck;butJoan”svoiceasitansweredherhadaqualityoflowanddeadlysteadiness。
“Youhavesaidthatathousandtimes,andyouwillsayitanotherthousand——thoughyouknowthestorywasalieandwasprovedtobeone。”
LadyMalloweknewherwaythoroughly。
“Whoremembersthedenials?WhattheworldremembersisthatJemTempleBarholmwasstampedasacheatandatrickster。Noonehastimetoremembertheotherthing。Heisdead——dead!Whenaman”sdeadit”stoolate。”
Shewasdesperateenoughtodriveherjavelinhomedeeperthanshehadeverchancedtodriveitbefore。Thetruth——theawfultruthsheutteredshookJoanfromheadtofoot。Shesprangupandstoodbeforeherinheart-wrungfury。
“Oh!Youareahideouslycruelwoman!“shecried。“Theysayeventigerscarefortheiryoung!Butyou——youcansaythatto_me_。”Whenaman”sdead,it”stoolate。”“
“It_is_toolate——itIStoolate!“LadyMallowepersisted。Whyhadnotshestruckthisnotebefore?Itwasbreakingherwill:“Iwouldsayanythingtobringyoutoyoursenses。”
Joanbegantomoverestlesslytoandfro。
“Oh,whatafoolIam!“sheexclaimed。“Asifyoucouldunderstand——asifyoucouldcare!“
Struggleasshemighttobedefiant,shewasbreaking,LadyMallowerepeatedtoherself。Shefollowedherasahuntermighthavefollowedayoungleopardesswithawoundinitsflank。
“Icameherebecauseit_is_yourlastchance。Palliserknewwhathewassayingwhenhemadeajokeofitjustnow。Heknewitwasn”tajoke。YoumighthavebeentheDuchessofMerthshire;youmighthavebeenLadySt。Maur,withahusbandwithmillions。Andhereyouare。
Youknowwhat”sbeforeyou——whenIamoutofthetrap。”
Joanlaughed。Itwasawildlittlelaugh,andshefelttherewasnosenseinit。
“ImightapplyforaplaceinMissAlicia”sHomeforDecayedGentlewomen,“shesaid。
LadyMallowenoddedherheadfiercely。
“Apply,then。TherewillbenoplaceforyouinthehomeIamgoingtolivein,“sheretorted。
Joanceasedmovingabout。Shewasabouttoheartheoneargumentthatwasnew。
“Youmayaswelltellme,“shesaid,wearily。
“IhavehadaletterfromSirMosesMonaldini。HeistobeatBroomeHaughton。Heisgoingtherepurposelytomeetme。Whathewritescanmeanonlyonething。Hemeanstoaskmetomarryhim。I”myourmother,andI”mnearlytwentyyearsolderthanyou;butyouseethatI”moutofthetrapfirst。”
“Iknewyouwouldbe,“answeredJoan。
“Hedetestsyou,“LadyMallowewenton。“Hewillnothearofyourlivingwithus——orevennearus。Hesaysyouareoldenoughtotakecareofyourself。Takemyadvice。Iamdoingyouagoodturningivingit。ThisNewYorknewsboyismadoveryou。Ifhehadn”tbeenweshouldhavebeenbundledoutofthehousebeforethis。Heneverhasspokentoaladybeforeinhislife,andhefeelsasifyouwereagoddess。Gointothebilliard-roomthisinstant,anddoallawomancan。Go!“Andsheactuallystampedherfootonthecarpet。
Joan”sthunder-coloredeyesseemedtogrowlargerasshestaredather。Herbreastlifteditself,andherfaceslowlyturnedpale。
Perhaps——shethoughtitwildly——peoplesometimesdiddieoffeelingslikethis。
“Hewouldcrawlatyourfeet,“hermotherwenton,pursuingwhatshefeltsurewasheradvantage。Shewassosureofitthatsheaddedwordsonlyafoolorawomanhalfhystericwithragewouldhaveadded。
“YoumightliveintheveryhouseyouwouldhavelivedinwithJemTempleBarholm,ontheincomehecouldhavegivenyou。”
Shesawthecrassnessofherblunderthenextmoment。Ifshehadhadanadvantage,shehadlostit。Wickedly,withoutatouchofmirth,Joanlaughedinherface。
“Jem”shouseandJem”smoney——andtheNewYorknewsboyinhisshoes,“
sheflungather。“T。Tembaromtolivewithuntilonelaydownonone”sdeathbed。T。Tembarom!“
Suddenly,somethingwasgivingwayinher,LadyMallowethoughtagain。
Joanslippedintoachairanddroppedherheadandhiddenfaceonthetable。
“Oh!Mother!Mother!“sheended。“Oh!Jem!Jem!“
Wasshesobbingortryingtochokesobbingback?Therewasnotimetobelost。Hermotherhadneverknownascenetoendinthiswaybefore。
“Crying!“therewasabsolutespiteinhervoice。“Thatshowsyouknowwhatyouareinfor,atallevents。ButI”vesaidmylastword。Whatdoesitmattertome,afterall?You”reinthetrap。I”mnot。Getoutasbestyoucan。I”vedonewithyou。”
Sheturnedherbackandwentoutoftheroom——asshehadcomeintoit——
withasweepJoanwouldhavesmiledatasrathervulgarifshehadseenit。Asachildinthenursery,shehadoftenseenthatherladyshipwasvulgar。
Butshedidnotseethesweepbecauseherfacewashidden。Somethinginherhadbrokenthistime,ashermotherhadfelt。Thatbitter,sordidtruth,drivenhomeasithadbeen,haddoneit。Whohadtimetorememberdenials,orliesprovedtobelies?Nobodyintheworld。Whohadtimetogivetothedefenseofadeadman?Therewasnottimeenoughtogivetolivingones。Itwastrue——true!Whenamanisdead,itistoolate。Thewallhadbuiltitselfuntilitreachedhersky;
butitwasnotthewallshebentherheadandsobbedover。ItwasthatsuddenlyshehadseenagainJem”sfaceashehadstoodwithslow-
growingpallor,andlookedroundattheringofeyeswhichstaredathim;Jem”sfaceashestrodebyherwithoutaglanceandwentoutoftheroom。Sheforgoteverythingelseonearth。Sheforgotwhereshewas。Shewaseighteenagain,andshesobbedinherarmsaseighteensobswhenitsheartistornfromit。
“OhJem!Jem!“shecried。“Ifyouwereonlyinthesameworldwithme!
Ifyouwerejustinthesameworld!“
Shehadforgottenallelse,indeed。Sheforgottoolong。Shedidnotknowhowlong。Itseemedthatnomorethanafewminuteshadpassedbeforeshewaswithoutwarningstruckwiththeshockoffeelingthatsomeonewasintheroomwithher,standingnearher,lookingather。
Shehadbeenmadnottorememberthatexactlythisthingwouldbesuretohappen,bysomeabominablechance。Hermovementassherosewasalmostviolent,shecouldnotholdherselfstill,andherfacewashorriblywetwithshameless,unconcealabletears。Shamelessshefeltthem——indecent——asortofnudityofthesoul。Ifithadbeenaservantwhohadintruded,orifithadbeenPalliseritwouldhavebeenintolerableenough。ButitwasT。Tembaromwhoconfrontedherwithhiscommonface,movedmysteriouslybysomefeelingsheresentedevenmorethansheresentedhispresence。Hewastoogrosslyignoranttoknowthatamanofbreeding,havingenteredbychance,wouldhaveturnedandgoneaway,professingnottohaveseen。Heseemedtothink——thedolt!——thathemustmakesomeapology。
“Say!LadyJoan!“hebegan。“Ibegyourpardon。Ididn”twanttobuttin。”
“Thengoaway,“shecommanded。“Instantly——instantly!“
Sheknewhemustseethatshespokealmostthroughherteethinherefforttocontrolhersobbingbreath。Buthemadenomovetowardleavingher。Heevendrewnearer,lookingatherinasortofmeditative,obstinateway。
“N-no,“hereplied,deliberately。“Iguess——Iwon”t。”
“Youwon”t?“LadyJoanrepeatedafterhim。“ThenIwill。”
Hemadeastrideforwardandlaidhishandonherarm。
“No。Notonyourlife。Youwon”t,either——ifIcanhelpit。Andyou”regoingtoLETmehelpit。”
Almostanyonebutherself——anyone,atleast,whodidnotresenthisveryexistence——wouldhavefeltthedropinhisvoicewhichsuddenlystruckthenoteofboyish,friendlyappealinthelastsentence。
“You”regoingtoLETme,“herepeated。
Shestoodlookingdownatthedaring,unconscioushandonherarm。
“Isuppose,“shesaid,withcuttingslowness,“thatyoudonoteven_know_thatyouareinsolent。Takeyourhandaway,“inarrogantcommand。
Heremoveditwithanunabashedhalf-smile。
“Ibegyourpardon,“hesaid。“Ididn”tevenknowI”dputitthere。Itwasabreak——butIwantedtokeepyou。”
Thathenotonlywantedtokeepher,butintendedtodosowasapparent。Hisairwasneitherroughnorbrutal,buthehadingeniouslyplacedhimselfintheoutletbetweenthebigtableandthewaytothedoor。Heputhishandsinhispocketsinhisvulgar,unconsciousway,andwatchedher。
“Say,LadyJoan!“hebrokeforth,inthefrankoutburstofamanwhowantstogetsomethingover。“IshouldbeafoolifIdidn”tseethatyou”reupagainstit——hard!What”sthematter?“Hisvoicedroppedagain。
Therewassomethinginthedropthistimewhich——perhapsbecauseofherrecentemotion——soundedtoheralmostasifhewereaskingthequestionwiththeprotectingsympathyofthetoneonewoulduseinspeakingtoachild。Howdarehe!ButitcamehometoherthatJemhadoncesaid“What”sthematter?“toherinthesameway。
“DoyouthinkitlikelythatIshouldconfideinyou?“shesaid,andinwardlyquakedatthememoryasshesaidit。
“No,“heanswered,consideringthemattergravely。“It”snotlikely——
thewaythingslooktoyounow。Butifyouknewmebetterperhapsitwouldbelikely。”
“IonceexplainedtoyouthatIdonotintendtoknowyoubetter,“shegaveanswer。
Henoddedacquiescently。
“Yes。Igotontothat。Andit”sbecauseit”suptomethatIcameoutheretotellyousomethingIwantyoutoknowbeforeyougoaway。I”mgoingtoconfideinyou。”
“CannotevenyouseethatIamnotinthemoodtoacceptconfidences?“
sheexclaimed。
“Yes,Ican。Butyou”regoingtoacceptthisone,“steadily。“No,“asshemadeaswiftmovement,“I”mnotgoingtoclearthewaytillI”vedone。”
“Iinsist!“shecried。“Ifyouwere”
Heputouthishand,butnottotouchher。
“Iknowwhatyou”regoingtosay。IfIwereagentleman——Well,I”mnotlayingclaimtothat——butI”masortofaman,anyhow,thoughyoumayn”tthinkit。Andyou”regoingtolisten。”
Shebegantostareathim。Itwasnottheridiculousboyishdropinhisvoicewhicharrestedherattention。Itwasafantastic,incongruous,whollydifferentthing。Hehadsuddenlydroppedhisslouchandstoodupright。Didherealizethathehadslunghiswordsatherasiftheywereanordergivenwiththeringofauthority?
“I”venotbuckedagainstanythingyou”vesaidordonesinceyou”vebeenhere,“hewenton,speakingfastandgrimly。“Ididn”tmeanto。I
hadmyreasons。TherewerethingsthatI”dhavegivenagooddealtosaytoyouandaskyouabout,butyouwouldn”tletme。Youwouldn”tgivemeachancetosquarethingsforyou——iftheycouldbesquared。
YouthrewmedowneverytimeItried!“
Hewastoowildlyincomprehensiblewithhischangesfromhumannesstofolly。Rememberingwhathehadattemptedtosayonthedayhehadfollowedherintheavenue,shewasinflamedagain。
“WhatinthenameofNewYorkslangdoesthatmean?“shedemanded。
“NevermindNewYork,“heanswered,coolaswellasgrim。“Afellowthat”slearnedslanginthestreetshaslearnedsomethingelseaswell。He”slearnedtokeephiseyesopen。He”sontoawayofseeingthings。AndwhatI”veseenisthatyou”resodoggonemiserablethat——
thatyou”realmostdownandout。”
Thistimeshespoketohiminthevoicewiththequalityofdeadlinessinitwhichshehadusedtohermother。
“Doyouthinkthatbecauseyouareinyourownhouseyoucanbeasintrusivelyinsultingasyouchoose?“shesaid。
“No,Idon”t,“heanswered。“WhatIthinkisquitedifferent。Ithinkthatifamanhasahouseofhisown,andthere”sanyoneinbigtroubleundertheroofofit——awomanmostofall——he”sacheapskateifhedon”tgetbusyandtrytohelp——justplain,straighthelp。”
Hesawinhereyesallherconcentrateddisdainofhim,buthewenton,stillobstinateandcoolandgrim。
“Iguess”help”istoobigawordjustyet。Thatmaycomelater,anditmayn”t。WhatI”mgoingtotryatnowismakingiteasierforyou——
justeasier。”
Hercontemptuousgestureregisterednoimpressiononhimashepausedamomentandlookedfixedlyather。
“Youjusthateme,don”tyou?“Itwasamerestatementwhichcouldn”thavebeenmoreimpersonaltohimselfifhehadbeenmadeofwood。
“That”sallright。Iseemlikealow-downintrudertoyou。Well,that”sallright,too。Butwhatain”tallrightiswhatyourmotherhassetyouontothinkingaboutme。You”dneverhavethoughtityourself。You”dhaveknownbetter。”
“What,“fiercely,“isthat?“
“ThatI”mmuttenoughtohaveamashonyou。”
Thecommonslangycrassnessofitwasakindofshock。Shecaughtherbreathandmerelystaredathim。Buthewasnotstaringather;hewassimplylookingstraightintoherface,anditamazinglyflasheduponherthattheextraordinarywordsweresoentirelyunembarrassedanddirectthattheywereactuallynotoffensive。
Hewasmerelytellinghersomethinginhisownway,notcaringtheleastabouthisowneffect,butabsolutelydeterminedthatsheshouldhearandunderstandit。
Hercaughtbreathendedinsomethingwhichwaslikeahalf-laugh。Hisqueer,sharp,incomprehensibleface,hisqueer,unmovedvoiceweretooextraordinarilyunlikeanythingshehadeverseenorheardbefore。
“Idon”twanttobebrash——andwhatIwanttosaymayseemkindofthatwaytoyou。Butitain”t。Anyhow,Iguessit”llrelieveyourmind。LadyJoan,you”realooker——you”reabeautfromBeautville。IfI
wereyourkind,andthingsweredifferent,I”dbecrazyaboutyou——
crazy!ButI”mnotyourkind——andthingsaredifferent。”Hedrewastepnearerstilltoherinhisintentness。“They”rethisdifferent。
Why,LadyJoan!I”mdeadstuckonanothergirl!“
Shecaughtherbreathagain,leaningforward。
“Another——!“
“Shesaysshe”snotalady;shethrewmedownjustbecauseallthisdarnedmoneycametome,“hehastenedon,andsuddenlyhewasimperturbablenolonger,butflushedandboyish,andmoreofNewYorkthanever。“She”salittlebitofaquietthingandshedropsherh”s,butgee——!You”realooker——you”reaqueenandshe”snot。ButLittleAnnHutchinson——Why,LadyJoan,asfarasthisboy”sconcerned“——andheoddlytouchedhimselfonthebreast”shemakesyoulooklikethirtycents。”
Joanquicklysatdownonthechairshehadjustleft。Sherestedanelbowonthetableandshadedherfacewithherhand。Shewasnotlaughing;shescarcelyknewwhatshewasdoingorfeeling。
“YouareinlovewithAnnHutchinson,“shesaid,inalowvoice。
“AmI?“heansweredhotly。“Well,Ishouldsmile!“Hedisdainedtosaymore。
Thenshebegantoknowwhatshefelt。Therecamebacktoherinflashesscenesfromthepastweeksinwhichshehaddoneherworstbyhim;inwhichshehadswepthimaside,loathedhim,setherfeetonhim,usedthedevicesofaningeniousdemontodiscomfitandshowhimathispoorestandleastready。Andhehadnotbeengivingathoughttothethingforwhichshehadstriventopunishhim。Andheplainlydidnotevenhateher。Hismindwasclear,aswaterisclear。Hehadcomebacktoherthiseveningtodoheragoodturn——agoodturn。
Knowingwhatshewascapableofinthewayofarroganceandvillainoustemper,hehaddeterminedtodoher——inspiteofherself——agoodturn。
“Idon”tunderstandyou,“shefaltered。
“Iknowyoudon”t。Butit”sonlybecauseI”msodeadeasytounderstand。There”snothingtofindout。I”mjustfriendly——friendly——
that”sall。”
“Youwouldhavebeenfriendswithme!“sheexclaimed。“Youwouldhavetoldme,andIwouldn”tletyou!Oh!“withanimpulsiveflingingoutofherhandtohim,“yougood——goodfellow!“
“Goodbedarned!“heanswered,takingthehandatonce。
“Youaregoodtotellme!Ihavebehavedlikeadeviltoyou。Butoh!
ifyouonlyknew!“
Hisfacebecamematureagain;buthetookamostinformalseatontheedgeofthetablenearher。
“Idoknow——partofit。That”swhyI”vebeentryingtobefriendswithyouallthetime。”Hesaidhisnextwordsdeliberately。“IfIwasthewomanJemTempleBarholmhadlovedwouldn”tithavedrivenmemadtoseeanothermaninhisplace——andrememberwhatwasdonetohim。I
neverevensawhim,but,goodGod!“——shesawhishandclenchitself——
“whenIthinkofitIwanttokillsomebody!Iwanttokillhalfadozen。Whydidn”ttheyknowitcouldn”tbetrueofafellowlikethat!“
Shesatupstifflyandwatchedhim。
“Do——you——feellikethat——abouthim?“
“DoI!“red-hotly。“Therewerementherethatknewhim!Therewerewomentherethatknewhim!Whywasn”ttherejustonetostandbyhim?
Amanthat”sbeensquareallhislifedoesn”tturnintoacard-sharpinanight。Damnfools!Ibegyourpardon,“hastily。Andthen,ashastilyagain:“No,Imeanit。Damnfools!“
“Oh!“shegasped,justonce。
Herpassionateeyesweresuddenlyblindedwithtears。Shecaughtathisclenchedhandanddraggedittoher,lettingherfacedroponitandcryinglikeachild。
Thewayhetookherutterbreakingdownwasjustlikehimandlikenooneelse。HeputtheotherhandonhershoulderandspoketoherexactlyashehadspokentoMissAliciaonthatfirstafternoon。
“Don”tyoumindme,LadyJoan,“hesaid。“Don”tyoumindmeabit。
I”llturnmyback。I”llgointothebilliard-roomandkeepthemplayinguntilyougetawayup-stairs。Nowweunderstandeachother,it”llbebetterforbothofus。”
“No,don”tgo!Don”t!“shebegged。“Itissowonderfultofindsomeonewhoseesthecrueltyofit。”Shespokefastandpassionately。“Noonewouldlistentoanydefenseofhim。MymothersimplyravedwhenI
saidwhatyouaresaying。”
“Doyouwant“——heputittoherwithacuriouscomprehendingofheremotion”totalkabouthim?Woulditdoyougood?“
“Yes!Yes!Ihavenevertalkedtoanyone。Therehasbeennoonetolisten。”
“Talkallyouwant,“heanswered,withimmensegentleness。“I”mhere。”
“Ican”tunderstanditevennow,buthewouldnotseeme!“shebrokeout。“Iwashalfmad。Iwrote,andhewouldnotanswer。IwenttohischamberswhenIheardhewasgoingtoleaveEngland。Iwenttobeghimtotakemewithhim,marriedorunmarried。Iwouldhavegoneonmykneestohim。Hewasgone!Oh,why?Why?“
“Youdidn”tthinkhe”dgonebecausehedidn”tloveyou?“heputittoherquiteliterallyandunsentimentally。“Youknewbetterthanthat?“
“HowcouldIbesureofanything!Whenhelefttheroomthatawfulnighthewouldnotlookatme!Hewouldnotlookatme!“
“SinceI”vebeenhereI”vebeenreadingalotofnovels,andI”vefoundoutalotofthingsaboutfellowsthatarenotthecommon,practicalkind。Now,hewasn”t。He”dlivedprettymuchlikeafellowinanovel,Iguess。What”sstruckmeaboutthatsortisthattheythinktheyhavetomakenoblesacrifices,andthey”lljustwalkalloverawomanbecausetheywon”tdoanythingtohurther。There”snotabitofsenseinit,butthatwaswhathewasdoing。Hebelievedhewasdoingthesquarethingbyyou——andyoumaybetyourlifeithurthimlikehell。Ibegyourpardon——butthat”stheword——justplainhell。”
“Iwasonlyagirl。Hewaslikeiron。Hewentawayalone。Hewaskilled,andwhenhewasdeadthetruthwastold。”
“That”swhatI”veremembered“——quiteslowly”everytimeI”velookedatyou。Bygee!I”dhavestoodanythingfromawomanthathadsufferedasmuchasthat。”
Itmadehercry——hisgenuineness——andshedidnotcareintheleastthatthetearsstreameddownhercheeks。Howhehadstoodthings!Howhehadborne,inthatodd,unimpressiveway,insolenceandarroganceforwhichsheoughttohavebeenbeatenandblackballedbydecentsociety!Shecouldscarcelybearit。
“Oh!tothinkitshouldhavebeenyou,“shewept,“justyouwhounderstood!“
“Well,“heansweredspeculatively,“Imightn”thaveunderstoodaswellifithadn”tbeenforAnn。Byjings!Iusedtolieawakeatnightsometimesthinking`supposingitbadbeenAnnandme!”I”dsortofworkitoutasitmighthavehappenedinNewYork——attheofficeoftheSundayEarth。Supposingsomefellowthat”dhadagrouchagainstmehadmanageditsothatGaltonthoughtI”dbeengettingawaywithmoneythatdidn”tbelongtome——fixingupmyexpenseaccount,orworse。AndGaltonwouldn”tlistentowhatIsaid,andfiredme;andIcouldn”tgetajobanywhereelsebecauseIwasdownandoutforgood。Andnobodywouldlisten。AndIwaskilledwithoutclearingmyself。AndLittleAnnwaslefttostandit——LittleAnn!OldHutchinsonwouldn”tlisten,Iknowthat。Anditwouldbeallshutupburninginherbiglittleheart——burning。AndT。T。dead,andnotawordtosayforhimself。Jehoshaphat!“——takingouthishandkerchiefandtouchinghisforehead”itusedtomakethecoldsweatstartoutonme。It”sdoingitnow。AnnandmemighthavebeenJemandyou。That”swhyI
understood。”
Heputouthishandandcaughthersandfranklysqueezedit——squeezedithard;andtheunconventionalclutchwasawonderfulthingtoher。
“It”sallrightnow,ain”tit?“hesaid。“We”vegotitstraightenedout。You”llnotbeafraidtocomebackhereifyourmotherwantsyouto。”Hestoppedforamomentandthenwentonwithsomethingofhesitation:“Wedon”twanttotalkaboutyourmother。Wecan”t。ButI
understandher,too。Folksaredifferentfromeachotherintheirways。She”sdifferentfromyou。I”ll——I”llstraightenitoutwithherifyoulike。”
“NothingwillneedstraighteningoutafterItellherthatyouaregoingtomarryLittleAnnHutchinson,“saidJoan,withahalf-smile。
“Andthatyouwereengagedtoherbeforeyousawme。”
“Well,thatdoessortoffinishthingsup,doesn”tit?“saidT。
Tembarom。
Helookedathersospeculativelyforamomentafterthisthatshewonderedwhetherhehadsomethingmoretosay。Hehad。
“There”ssomethingIwanttoaskyou,“heventured。
“Askanything。”
“Doyouknowanyone——justanyone——whohasaphoto——justanyoldphoto——ofJemTempleBarholm?“
Shewasratherpuzzled。
“Yes。Iknowawomanwhohaswornonefornearlyeightyears。Doyouwanttoseeit?“
“I”dgiveagooddealto,“washisanswer。
Shetookaflatlocketfromherdressandhandedittohim。
“Womendon”twearlocketsinthesedays。”Hecouldbarelyhearhervoicebecauseitwassolow。“ButI”venevertakenitoff。Iwanthimnearmyheart。It”sJem!“
Hehelditonthepalmofhishandandstoodunderthelight,studyingitasifhewantedtobesurehewouldn”tforgetit。
“It”s——sorterlikethatpictureofMilesHugo,ain”tit?“hesuggested。
“Yes。Peoplealwayssaidso。Thatwaswhyyoufoundmeinthepicture-
gallerythefirsttimewemet。”
“Iknewthatwasthereason——andIknewI”dmadeabreakwhenIbuttedin,“heanswered。Then,stilllookingatthephotograph,“You”dknowthisfaceagainmostanywhereyousawit,Iguess。”
“Therearenofaceslikeitanywhere,“saidJoan。
“Iguessthat”sso,“hereplied。“Andit”sonethatwouldn”tchangemucheither。Thankyou,LadyJoan。”
Hehandedbackthepicture,andsheputoutherhandagain。
“IthinkI”llgotomyroomnow,“shesaid。“You”vedoneastrangethingtome。You”vetakennearlyallthehatredandbitternessoutofmyheart。Ishallwanttocomebackherewhethermymothercomesornot——Ishallwantto。”
“Thesoonerthequicker,“hesaid。“AndsolongasI”mhereI”llbereadyandwaiting。”
“Don”tgoaway,“shesaidsoftly。“Ishallneedyou。”
“Isn”tthatgreat?“hecried,flushingdelightedly。“Isn”titjustgreatthatwe”vegotthingsstraightenedsothatyoucansaythat。
Gee!Thisisaqueeroldworld!There”ssuchalottodoinit,andsofewhoursintheday。Seemslikethereain”ttimetostoplongenoughtohateanybodyandkeepagrouchon。Afellow”sgottokeephustlingnottomissthethingsworthwhile。”
Thelikinginhereyeswasactuallywistful。
“That”syourwayofthinking,isn”tit?“shesaid。“Teachittomeifyoucan。Iwishyoucould。Good-night。”Shehesitatedasecond。“Godblessyou!“sheadded,quitesuddenly——almostfantasticasthewordssoundedtoher。Thatshe,JoanFayre,shouldbecallingdowndevoutbenisonsontheheadofT。Tembarom——T。Tembarom!
Hermotherwasinherroomwhenshereachedit。Shehadcomeupearlytolookoverherpossessions——andJoan”s——beforeshebeganherpacking。Thebed,thechairs,andtableswerespreadwithevening,morning,andwalking-dresses,andthemillinerycollectedfromtheircombinedwardrobes。Shewasexamininganxiouslyalaceappliquedandembroideredwhitecoat,andturnedaslightlyflushedfacetowardtheopeningdoor。
“Iamgoingoveryourthingsaswellasmyown,“shesaid。“IshalltakewhatIcanuse。YouwillrequirenothinginLondon。Youwillrequirenothinganywhereinfuture。Whatisthematter?“shesaidsharply,asshesawherdaughter”sface。
Joancameforwardfeelingitastrangethingthatshewasnotinthemoodtofight——tolashoutandbegladtodoit。
“CaptainPallisertoldmeasIcameupthatMr。TempleBarholmhadbeentalkingtoyou,“hermotherwenton。“Heheardyouhavingsomesortofsceneashepassedthedoor。Asyouhavemadeyourdecision,ofcourseIknowIneedn”thopethatanythinghashappened。”
“Whathashappenedhasnothingtodowithmydecision。Hewasn”twaitingforthat,“Joanansweredher。“Wewerebothentirelymistaken,Mother。”
“Whatareyoutalkingabout?“criedLadyMallowe,butshetemporarilylaidthewhitecoatonachair。“Whatdoyoumeanbymistaken?“
“Hedoesn”twantme——heneverdid,“Joanansweredagain。Ashadowofasmilehoveredoverherface,andtherewasnoderisioninit,onlyawarmingrecollectionofhisearnestnesswhenhehadsaidthewordsshequoted:“HeiswhattheycallinNewYork`deadstuckonanothergirl。””
LadyMallowesatdownonthechairthatheldthewhitecoat,andshedidnotpushthecoataside。
“Hetoldyouthatinhisvulgarslang!“shegaspeditout。“You——yououghttohavestruckhimdeadwithyouranswer。”
“ExceptpoorJemTempleBarholm,“wastheamazingreplyshereceived,“heistheonlyfriendIeverhadinmylife。”
CHAPTERXXXII
ItwasbusinessofseriousimportancewhichwastobringCaptainPalliser”svisittoaclose。HeexplaineditperfectlytoMissAliciaadayorsoafterLadyMalloweandherdaughterleftthem。HehadlatelybeenmostamiableinhismannertowardMissAlicia,andhadgivenhermuchvaluableinformationaboutcompaniesandstocks。HeratherunexpectedlyfounditimperativethatheshouldgotoLondonandBerlinto“seepeople“——dealersingreatfinancialschemeswhoweredeeplyinterestedinsolidbusinessspeculations,suchashisown,whichwerefundamentallydifferentfromallothersintheimpeccablefirmnessoftheirfoundations。
“Isupposehewillbeveryrichsomeday,“MissAliciaremarkedthefirstmorningsheandT。Tembaromtooktheirbreakfastalonetogetherafterhisdeparture。“Itwouldfrightenmetothinkofhavingasmuchmoneyasheseemslikelytohavequitesoon。”
“Itwouldscaremetodeath,“saidTembarom。Sheknewhewasmakingasortofjoke,butshethoughtthepointofitwashertremoratthethoughtofgreatfortune。
“Heseemedtothinkthatitwouldbeanexcellentthingforyoutoinvestin——I”mnotsurewhetheritwastheIndiaRubberTreeCompany,orthemahoganyforestsorthecopperminesthathavesomuchgoldandsilvermixedinthemthatitwillpayfortheexpenseofthedigging——
“shewenton。
“Iguessitwasthewholelot,“putinTembarom。
“Perhapsitwas。Theyareallgoingtomakeeverybodysorichthatitisquitebewildering。Heisverycleverinbusinessmatters。Andsokind。HeevensaidthatifIreallywishedithemightbeabletoinvestmyincomeformeandactuallytrebleitinayear。ButofcourseItoldhimthatmyincomewasyourgenerousgifttome,andthatitwasfarmorethansufficientformyneeds。”
Tembaromputdownhiscoffee-cupsosuddenlytolookatherthatshewasfearfulthatshehadappearedtodoCaptainPallisersomevagueinjustice。
“Iamsurehemeanttobemostobliging,dear,“sheexplained。“Iwasreallyquitetouched。Hesaidmostsympatheticallyanddelicatelythatwhenwomenwereunmarried,andunaccustomedtoinvestment,sometimesabusinessmancouldbeofusetothem。Heforgot“——affectionately——
“thatIhadyou。”
Tembaromregardedherwithtendercuriosity。SheoftenopenedupvistasforhimashehimselfopenedthemfortheDukeofStone。
“Ifyouhadn”thadme,wouldyouhavelethimtrebleyourincomeinayear?“heasked。
Herexpressionwasthatofasoft,woodlandrabbitoratrustingspinsterdove。
“Well,ofcourse,ifonewerequitealoneintheworldandhadonlyasmallincome,itwouldbenicetohaveitwonderfullyaddedtoinsuchashorttime,“sheanswered。“Butitwashisfriendlysolicitudewhichtouchedme。Ihavenotbeenaccustomedtosuchinteresteddelicacyonthepartof——ofgentlemen。”Herhesitancebeforethelastwordbeingtheresultoftraining,whichhadmadeherfeelthatitwasalittleboldfor“ladies“toreferquiteopenlyto“gentlemen。”
“Yousometimesreadinthenewspapers,“saidTembarom,butteringhistoast,“aboutladieswhoareallaloneintheworldwithalittleincome,butthey”renotoftenleftalonewithitlong。It”slikeyousaid——you”vegotme;butifthetimeevercomeswhenyouhaven”tgotmejustyoumakeadead-surethingofitthatyoudon”tletanysolicitousbusinessgentlemantrebleyourincomeinayear。Ifit”sanincomethatcomestomorethanfivecents,don”tyouhanditovertobemadeintofifteen。Fivecentsisaheapbetter——justplainfive。”
“Temple!“gaspedMissAlicia。“You——yousurelycannotmeanthatyoudonotthinkCaptainPalliseris——sincere!“
Tembaromlaughedoutright,hismosthilariousandcomfortinglaugh。Hehadnointentionofenlighteningherinsuchamanneraswouldleadheratoncetobeholdpicturesofhimasthepossiblevictimofappallingcatastrophes。Helikedhertoowellasshewas。
“Sincere?“hesaid。“He”ssinceredowntotheground——inwhathe”sreachingafter。Buthe”snotgoingtotrebleyourincome,normine。Ifheevermakesthatofferagain,youjusttellhimI”minterested,andthatI”lltalkitoverwithhim。”
“IcouldnothelpsayingtohimthatIdidn”tthinkyoucouldwantanymoremoneywhenyouhadsomuch,“sheadded,“buthesaidoneneverknewwhatmighthappen。HewasgreatlyinterestedwhenItoldhimyouhadoncesaidtheverysamethingyourself。”
Theirbreakfastwasatanend,andhegotup,laughingagain,ashecametoherendofthetableandputhisarmaroundhershouldersintheunconventionalyoungcaresssheadoredhimfor。
“It”snicetobebyourselvesagainforawhile,“hesaid。“Letusgoforawalktogether。Putonthelittlebonnetanddressthatarethecolorofamouse。Thoselittledudsjustgetme。Youlooksoprettyinthem。”
Thesixteen-year-oldblushranuptotherootsofhergrayside-
ringlets。Justimaginehisrememberingthecolorofherdressandbonnet,andthinkingthatanythingcouldmakeherlookpretty!Shewasoverwhelmedwithinnocentandgratefulconfusion。Therereallywasnooneelseintheleastlikehim。
“Youdolookwell,ma”am,“Rosesaid,whenshehelpedhertodress。
“You”vegotsuchanicecolor,andthattinybitofoldroseMrs。
Mellishputinthebonnetdoesbringitout。”
“Iwonderifitiswrongofmetobesopleased,“MissAliciathought。
“Imustmakeitasubjectofprayer,andasktobeaidedtoconquerahaughtyandvain-gloriousspirit。”
Shewaspatheticallyserious,havingbeentrainedtoaviewoftheGreatFirstCauseasfigurativelyembodiedintheimageofagigantic,irascible,omnipotentoldgentleman,especiallywroughttofurybyfemininefolliesconnectedwithbecomingheadgear。
“IthassometimesevenseemedtomethatourHeavenlyFatherhasaspecialobjectiontoladies,“shehadoncetimorouslyconfessedtoTembarom。“Isupposeitisbecausewearesomuchweakerthanmen,andsomuchmoregiventovanityandpettyvices。”
Hehadcaughtherinhisarmsandactuallyhuggedherthattime。Theirintimacyhadreachedthepointwheretheaffectionateoutburstdidnotalarmher。
“Say!“hehadlaughed。“It”snotthemenwhoaregoingtohavethebiggestpullwiththeauthoritieswhenfolkstrytogetintotheplacewherethingsareevenedup。WhatI”mgoingtoworkmypassagewithisalistofthefew”ladies”I”veknown。YouandAnnwillbeattheheadofit。Ishalljustslideitinatthebox-officewindowandsay,”Justlookoverthis,willyou?Thesewerefriendsofmine,andtheyweremightygoodtome。Iguessiftheydidn”tturnmedown,youneedn”t。Iknowthey”reinhere。Reservedseats。I”mnotexpectingtobeputwiththembutifI”mallowedtohangaroundwheretheyarethat”llbeheavenenoughforme。”“
“Iknowyoudon”tmeantobeirreverent,dearTemple,“shegasped。“I
amquitesureyoudon”t!Itis——itisonlyyourAmericanwayofexpressingyourkindthoughts。Andofcourse“——quitehastily”theAlmightymustunderstandAmericans——ashemadesomany。”Andhalffrightenedthoughshewas,shepattedhisarmwiththewarmthofcomfortinhersoulandmoistureinhereyes。Somehoworother,hewasalwayssocomforting。
Heheldherarmastheytooktheirwalk。Shehadbecomeusedtothatalso,andnolongerthoughtitodd。Itwasonlyoneofthewayshehadofmakingherfeelthatshewasbeingtakencareof。Theyhadnotbeenabletohavemanywalkstogethersincethearrivalofthevisitors,andthisoccasionwasatonceacauseofreliefandinwardrejoicing。
Theentiretruthwasthatshehadnotbeenaltogetherhappyabouthimoflate。Sometimes,whenhewasnottalkingandsayingamusingNewYorkthingswhichmadepeoplelaugh,heseemedalmosttoforgetwherehewasandtobethinkingofsomethingwhichbaffledandtriedhim。
Thewayinwhichhepulledhimselftogetherwhenherealizedthatanyonewaslookingathimwas,tohermind,themostdisturbingfeatureofhisfitsofabstraction。Itsuggestedthatifhereallyhadatroubleitwasaprivateoneonwhichhewouldnotlikehertointrude。Naturally,heradoringeyeswatchedhimoftenerthanheknew,andshetriedtofindplausibleandnottoopainfulreasonsforhismood。Healwaysmadelightofhisunaccustomednesstohisnewlife;
butperhapsitmadehimfeelmoreunrestfulthanhewouldadmit。
Astheywalkedthroughtheparkandthevillage,herheartwasgreatlywarmedbythewayinwhicheachpersontheymetgreetedhim。Theygreetednooneelseinthesameway,andyetitwasdifficulttoexplainwhatthedifferencewas。Theylikedhim——reallylikedhim,thoughhowhehadovercometheirnaturaldistrustofhisnewsboyandbootblackrecordnoonebuthimselfknew。Infact,shehadreasontobelievethatevenhehimselfdidnotknow——hadindeedneveraskedhimself。Theyhadgraduallybeguntolikehim,thoughnoneofthemhadeveraccusedhimofbeingagentlemanaccordingtotheirownacceptanceoftheword。Everymantouchedhiscaporforeheadwithafriendlygrinwhichspreaditselftheinstanthecaughtsightofhim。
Grinandsaluteweresynchronous。Itwasasifthereweresomeextremelyhumanjokebetweenthem。MissAliciahaddelightedlyrememberedaremarktheDukeofStonehadmadetoheronhisreturnfromoneoftheirlongdrives。
“Heisthemostpopularmaninthecounty,“hehadchuckled。“Ifwarbrokeoutandhewereinthearmy,hecouldraisearegimentathisowngateswhichwouldfollowhimwheresoeverhechosetoleadit——ifitwereintohottestHades。”
Tembaromwasrathersilentduringthefirstpartoftheirwalk,andwhenhespokeitwasofCaptainPalliser。
“He”safellowthat”sgotlotsofcuriosity。Iguesshe”saskedyoumorequestionsthanhe”saskedme,“hebeganatlast,andhelookedatherinterestedly,thoughshewasnotawareofit。
“Ithought”shehesitatedslightlybecauseshedidnotwishtobecritical”Isometimesthoughtheaskedmetoomany。”
“Whatwashetryingtogetontomostly?“
“HeaskedsomanythingsaboutyouandyourlifeinNewYork——butmore,Ithink,aboutyouandMr。Strangeways。HewasreallyquitepersistentonceortwiceaboutpoorMr。Strangeways。”
“Whatdidheask?“
“HeaskedifIhadseenhim,andifyouhadpreferredthatIshouldnot。HecallshimyourMystery,andthinksyourkeepinghimhereissoextraordinary。”
“Iguessitis——thewayhe”dlookatit,“Tembaromdroppedin。