"Oncemoreletusbegyoutobecalm,mydearboy。We’lltalkofallthisanothertime——Ishalldosowiththegreatestpleasure,forone,"saidtheolddignitary,withasmile。
  IvanPetrovitchgruntedandtwistedroundinhischair。GeneralEpanchinmovednervously。Thelatter’schiefhadstartedaconversationwiththewifeofthedignitary,andtooknonoticewhateveroftheprince,buttheoldladyveryoftenglancedathim,andlistenedtowhathewassaying。
  "No,Ihadbetterspeak,"continuedtheprince,withanewoutburstoffeverishemotion,andturningtowardstheoldmanwithanairofconfidentialtrustfulness。"Yesterday,AglayaIvanovnaforbademetotalk,andevenspecifiedtheparticularsubjectsImustnottouchupon——sheknowswellenoughthatIamoddwhenIgetuponthesematters。Iamnearlytwenty-sevenyearsold,andyetIknowIamlittlebetterthanachild。Ihavenorighttoexpressmyideas,andsaidsolongago。OnlyinMoscow,withRogojin,didIeverspeakabsolutelyfreely!HeandIreadPushkintogether——allhisworks。RogojinknewnothingofPushkin,hadnotevenheardhisname。IamalwaysafraidofspoilingagreatThoughtorIdeabymyabsurdmanner。Ihavenoeloquence,Iknow。Ialwaysmakethewronggestures——
  inappropriategestures——andthereforeIdegradetheThought,andraisealaughinsteadofdoingmysubjectjustice。Ihavenosenseofproportioneither,andthatisthechiefthing。IknowitwouldbemuchbetterifIwerealwaystositstillandsaynothing。WhenIdoso,Iappeartobequiteasensiblesortofaperson,andwhat’smore,Ithinkaboutthings。ButnowImustspeak;itisbetterthatIshould。Ibegantospeakbecauseyoulookedsokindlyatme;youhavesuchabeautifulface。I
  promisedAglayaIvanovnayesterdaythatIwouldnotspeakalltheevening。"
  "Really?"saidtheoldman,smiling。
  "But,attimes,Ican’thelpthinkingthatIam。wronginfeelingsoaboutit,youknow。Sincerityismoreimportantthanelocution,isn’tit?"
  "Sometimes。"
  "Iwanttoexplainalltoyou——everything——everything!IknowyouthinkmeUtopian,don’tyou——anidealist?Oh,no!I’mnot,indeed——myideasareallsosimple。Youdon’tbelieveme?Youaresmiling。Doyouknow,Iamsometimesverywicked——forIlosemyfaith?ThiseveningasIcamehere,Ithoughttomyself,’WhatshallItalkabout?HowamItobegin,sothattheymaybeabletounderstandpartially,atallevents?’HowafraidIwas——
  dreadfullyafraid!Andyet,howCOULDIbeafraid——wasitnotshamefulofme?WasIafraidoffindingabottomlessabyssofemptyselfishness?Ah!that’swhyIamsohappyatthismoment,becauseIfindthereisnobottomlessabyssatall——butgood,healthymaterial,fulloflife。
  "Itisnotsuchaverydreadfulcircumstancethatweareoddpeople,isit?Forwereallyareodd,youknow——careless,reckless,easilyweariedofanything。Wedon’tlookthoroughlyintomatters——don’tcaretounderstandthings。Wearealllikethis——youandI,andallofthem!Why,hereareyou,now——youarenotabitangrywithmeforcallingyouodd,’areyou?And,ifso,surelythereisgoodmaterialinyou?Doyouknow,I
  sometimesthinkitisagoodthingtobeodd。Wecanforgiveoneanothermoreeasily,andbemorehumble。Noonecanbeginbybeingperfect——thereismuchonecannotunderstandinlifeatfirst。Inordertoattaintoperfection,onemustbeginbyfailingtounderstandmuch。Andifwetakeinknowledgetooquickly,weverylikelyarenottakingitinatall。Isayallthistoyou——youwhobythistimeunderstandsomuch——anddoubtlesshavefailedtounderstandsomuch,also。Iamnotafraidofyouanylonger。Youarenotangrythatamereboyshouldsaysuchwordstoyou,areyou?Ofcoursenot!Youknowhowtoforgetandtoforgive。Youarelaughing,IvanPetrovitch?
  YouthinkIamachampionofotherclassesofpeople——thatIamTHEIRadvocate,ademocrat,andanoratorofEquality?"Theprincelaughedhysterically;hehadseveraltimesburstintotheselittle,shortnervouslaughs。"Oh,no——itisforyou,formyself,andforallofustogether,thatIamalarmed。Iamaprinceofanoldfamilymyself,andIamsittingamongmypeers;
  andIamtalkinglikethisinthehopeofsavingusall;inthehopethatourclasswillnotdisappearaltogether——intothedarkness——unguessingitsdanger——blamingeverythingaroundit,andlosinggroundeveryday。Whyshouldwedisappearandgiveplacetoothers,whenwemaystill,ifwechoose,remaininthefrontrankandleadthebattle?Letusbeservants,thatwemaybecomelordsindueseason!"
  Hetriedtogetuponhisfeetagain,buttheoldmanstillrestrainedhim,gazingathimwithincreasingperturbationashewenton。
  "Listen——Iknowitisbestnottospeak!Itisbestsimplytogiveagoodexample——simplytobeginthework。Ihavedonethis——
  Ihavebegun,and——and——oh!CANanyonebeunhappy,really?Oh!
  whatdoesgriefmatter——whatdoesmisfortunematter,ifoneknowshowtobehappy?Doyouknow,Icannotunderstandhowanyonecanpassbyagreentree,andnotfeelhappyonlytolookatit!Howanyonecantalktoamanandnotfeelhappyinlovinghim!Oh,itismyownfaultthatIcannotexpressmyselfwellenough!ButtherearelovelythingsateverystepItake——thingswhicheventhemostmiserablemanmustrecognizeasbeautiful。Lookatalittlechild——lookatGod’sday-dawn——lookatthegrassgrowing——
  lookattheeyesthatloveyou,astheygazebackintoyoureyes!"
  Hehadrisen,andwasspeakingstandingup。Theoldgentlemanwaslookingathimnowinunconcealedalarm。LizabethaProkofievnawrungherhands。"Oh,myGod!"shecried。Shehadguessedthestateofthecasebeforeanyoneelse。
  Aglayarushedquicklyuptohim,andwasjustintimetoreceivehiminherarms,andtohearwithdreadandhorrorthatawful,wildcryashefellwrithingtotheground。
  Therehelayonthecarpet,andsomeonequicklyplacedacushionunderhishead。
  Noonehadexpectedthis。
  InaquarterofanhourorsoPrinceN。andEvgeniePavlovitchandtheolddignitarywerehardatworkendeavouringtorestoretheharmonyoftheevening,butitwasofnoavail,andverysoonaftertheguestsseparatedandwenttheirways。
  Agreatdealofsympathywasexpressed;aconsiderableamountofadvicewasvolunteered;IvanPetrovitchexpressedhisopinionthattheyoungmanwas"aSlavophile,orsomethingofthatsort";
  butthatitwasnotadangerousdevelopment。Theolddignitarysaidnothing。
  Trueenough,mostoftheguests,nextdayandthedayafter,werenotinverygoodhumour。IvanPetrovitchwasalittleoffended,butnotseriouslyso。GeneralEpanchin’schiefwasrathercooltowardshimforsomewhileaftertheoccurrence。Theolddignitary,aspatronofthefamily,tooktheopportunityofmurmuringsomekindofadmonitiontothegeneral,andadded,inflatteringterms,thathewasmostinterestedinAglaya’sfuture。
  Hewasamanwhoreallydidpossessakindheart,althoughhisinterestintheprince,intheearlierpartoftheevening,wasdue,amongotherreasons,tothelatter’sconnectionwithNastasiaPhilipovna,accordingtopopularreport。Hehadheardagooddealofthisstoryhereandthere,andwasgreatlyinterestedinit,somuchsothathelongedtoaskfurtherquestionsaboutit。
  PrincessBielokonski,asshedroveawayonthiseventfulevening,tookoccasiontosaytoLizabethaProkofievna:
  "Well——he’sagoodmatch——andabadone;andifyouwantmyopinion,morebadthangood。Youcanseeforyourselfthemanisaninvalid。"
  LizabethathereforedecidedthattheprincewasimpossibleasahusbandforAglaya;andduringtheensuingnightshemadeavowthatneverwhileshelivedshouldhemarryAglaya。Withthisresolvefirmlyimpresseduponhermind,sheawokenextday;butduringthemorning,afterherearlylunch,shefellintoaconditionofremarkableinconsistency。
  Inreplytoaveryguardedquestionofhersisters’,Aglayahadansweredcoldly,butexceedinglyhaughtily:
  "Ihavenevergivenhimmywordatall,norhaveIevercountedhimasmyfuturehusband——neverinmylife。Heisjustaslittletomeasalltherest。"
  LizabethaProkofievnasuddenlyflaredup。
  "Ididnotexpectthatofyou,Aglaya,"shesaid。"Heisanimpossiblehusbandforyou,——Iknowit;andthankGodthatweagreeuponthatpoint;butIdidnotexpecttohearsuchwordsfromyou。IthoughtIshouldhearaverydifferenttonefromyou。
  Iwouldhaveturnedouteveryonewhowasintheroomlastnightandkepthim,——that’sthesortofmanheis,inmyopinion!"
  Hereshesuddenlypaused,afraidofwhatshehadjustsaid。Butshelittleknewhowunfairshewastoherdaughteratthatmoment。ItwasallsettledinAglaya’smind。Shewasonlywaitingforthehourthatwouldbringthemattertoafinalclimax;andeveryhint,everycarelessprobingofherwound,didbutfurtherlacerateherheart。
  VIII。
  THISsamemorningdawnedfortheprincepregnantwithnolesspainfulpresentiments,——whichfacthisphysicalstatewas,ofcourse,quiteenoughtoaccountfor;buthewassoindefinablymelancholy,——hissadnesscouldnotattachitselftoanythinginparticular,andthistormentedhimmorethananythingelse。Ofcoursecertainfactsstoodbeforehim,clearandpainful,buthissadnesswentbeyondallthathecouldrememberorimagine;herealizedthathewaspowerlesstoconsolehimselfunaided。Littlebylittlehebegantodeveloptheexpectationthatthisdaysomethingimportant,somethingdecisive,wastohappentohim。
  Hisattackofyesterdayhadbeenaslightone。Exceptingsomelittleheavinessintheheadandpaininthelimbs,hedidnotfeelanyparticulareffects。Hisbrainworkedallright,thoughhissoulwasheavywithinhim。
  Heroselate,andimmediatelyuponwakingrememberedallaboutthepreviousevening;healsoremembered,thoughnotquitesoclearly,how,halfanhourafterhisfit,hehadbeencarriedhome。
  HesoonheardthatamessengerfromtheEpanchins’hadalreadybeentoinquireafterhim。Athalf-pastelevenanotherarrived;
  andthispleasedhim。
  VeraLebedeffwasoneofthefirsttocometoseehimandofferherservices。Nosoonerdidshecatchsightofhimthansheburstintotears;butwhenhetriedtosoothehershebegantolaugh。
  Hewasquitestruckbythegirl’sdeepsympathyforhim;heseizedherhandandkissedit。Veraflushedcrimson。
  "Oh,don’t,don’t!"sheexclaimedinalarm,snatchingherhandaway。Shewenthastilyoutoftheroominastateofstrangeconfusion。
  Lebedeffalsocametoseetheprince,inagreathurrytogetawaytothe"deceased,"ashecalledGeneralIvolgin,whowasalivestill,butveryill。Coliaalsoturnedup,andbeggedtheprinceforpity’ssaketotellhimallheknewabouthisfatherwhichhadbeenconcealedfromhimtillnow。Hesaidhehadfoundoutnearlyeverythingsinceyesterday;thepoorboywasinastateofdeepaffliction。Withallthesympathywhichhecouldbringintoplay,theprincetoldColiathewholestorywithoutreserve,detailingthefactsasclearlyashecould。ThetalestruckColialikeathunderbolt。Hecouldnotspeak。Helistenedsilently,andcriedsoftlytohimselfthewhile。Theprinceperceivedthatthiswasanimpressionwhichwouldlastforthewholeoftheboy’slife。Hemadehastetoexplainhisviewofthematter,andpointedoutthattheoldman’sapproachingdeathwasprobablybroughtonbyhorroratthethoughtofhisaction;andthatitwasnoteveryonewhowascapableofsuchafeeling。
  Colia’seyesflashedashelistened。
  "GaniaandVariaandPtitsinareaworthlesslot!Ishallnotquarrelwiththem;butfromthismomentourfeetshallnottravelthesameroad。Oh,prince,Ihavefeltmuchthatisquitenewtomesinceyesterday!Itisalessonforme。Ishallnowconsidermymotherasentirelymyresponsibility;thoughshemaybesafeenoughwithVaria。Still,meatanddrinkisnoteverything。"
  Hejumpedupandhurriedoff,rememberingsuddenlythathewaswantedathisfather’sbedside;butbeforehewentoutoftheroomheinquiredhastilyaftertheprince’shealth,andreceivingthelatter’sreply,added:
  "Isn’ttheresomethingelse,prince?Iheardyesterday,butI
  havenorighttotalkaboutthis……Ifyoueverwantatruefriendandservant——neitheryounorIaresoveryhappy,arewe?——
  cometome。Iwon’taskyouquestions,though。"
  Heranoffandlefttheprincemoredejectedthanever。
  Everyoneseemedtobespeakingprophetically,hintingatsomemisfortuneorsorrowtocome;theyhadalllookedathimasthoughtheyknewsomethingwhichhedidnotknow。Lebedeffhadaskedquestions,Coliahadhinted,andVerahadshedtears。Whatwasit?
  Atlast,withasighofannoyance,hesaidtohimselfthatitwasnothingbuthisowncursedsicklysuspicion。Hisfacelightedupwithjoywhen,atabouttwoo’clock,heespiedtheEpanchinscomingalongtopayhimashortvisit,"justforaminute。"Theyreallyhadonlycomeforaminute。
  LizabethaProkofievnahadannounced,directlyafterlunch,thattheywouldalltakeawalktogether。Theinformationwasgivenintheformofacommand,withoutexplanation,drilyandabruptly。
  Allhadissuedforthinobediencetothemandate;thatis,thegirls,mamma,andPrinceS。LizabethaProkofievnawentoffinadirectionexactlycontrarytotheusualone,andallunderstoodverywellwhatshewasdrivingat,butheldtheirpeace,fearingtoirritatethegoodlady。She,asthoughanxioustoavoidanyconversation,walkedahead,silentandalone。AtlastAdelaidaremarkedthatitwasnouseracingalongatsuchapace,andthatshecouldnotkeepupwithhermother。
  "Lookhere,"saidLizabethaProkofievna,turningroundsuddenly;
  "wearepassinghishouse。WhateverAglayamaythink,andinspiteofanythingthatmayhappen,heisnotastrangertous;
  besideswhich,heisillandinmisfortune。I,forone,shallcallinandseehim。Letanyonefollowmewhocaresto。"
  Ofcourseeveryoneofthemfollowedher。
  Theprincehastenedtoapologize,veryproperly,foryesterday’smishapwiththevase,andforthescenegenerally。
  "Oh,that’snothing,"repliedLizabetha;"I’mnotsorryforthevase,I’msorryforyou。H’m!soyoucanseethattherewasa’scene,’canyou?Well,itdoesn’tmattermuch,foreveryonemustrealizenowthatitisimpossibletobehardonyou。Well,aurevoir。Iadviseyoutohaveawalk,andthengotosleepagainifyoucan。Comeinasusual,ifyoufeelinclined;andbeassured,onceforall,whateverhappens,andwhatevermayhavehappened,youshallalwaysremainthefriendofthefamily——mine,atallevents。Icananswerformyself。"
  Inresponsetothischallengealltheotherschimedinandre-
  echoedmamma’ssentiments。
  Andsotheytooktheirdeparture;butinthishastyandkindlydesignedvisittherewashiddenafundofcrueltywhichLizabethaProkofievnaneverdreamedof。Inthewords"asusual,"andagaininheradded,"mine,atallevents,"thereseemedanominousknellofsomeeviltocome。
  TheprincebegantothinkofAglaya。Shehadcertainlygivenhimawonderfulsmile,bothatcomingandagainatleave-taking,buthadnotsaidaword,notevenwhentheothersallprofessedtheirfriendshipforhim。Shehadlookedveryintentlyathim,butthatwasall。Herfacehadbeenpalerthanusual;shelookedasthoughshehadsleptbadly。
  Theprincemadeuphismindthathewouldmakeapointofgoingthere"asusual,"tonight,andlookedfeverishlyathiswatch。
  VeracameinthreeminutesaftertheEpanchinshadleft。"LefNicolaievitch,"shesaid,"AglayaIvanovnahasjustgivenmeamessageforyou。"
  Theprincetrembled。
  "Isitanote?"
  "No,averbalmessage;shehadhardlytimeevenforthat。Shebegsyouearnestlynottogooutofthehouseforasinglemomentallto-day,untilseveno’clockintheevening。Itmayhavebeennine;Ididn’tquitehear。"
  "But——but,whyisthis?Whatdoesitmean?"
  "Idon’tknowatall;butshesaidIwastotellyouparticularly。"
  "Didshesaythat?"
  "Notthoseverywords。Sheonlyjusthadtimetowhisperasshewentby;butbythewayshelookedatmeIknewitwasimportant。
  Shelookedatmeinawaythatmademyheartstopbeating。"
  Theprinceaskedafewmorequestions,andthoughhelearnednothingelse,hebecamemoreandmoreagitated。
  Leftalone,helaydownonthesofa,andbegantothink。
  "Perhaps,"hethought,"someoneistobewiththemuntilninetonightandsheisafraidthatImaycomeandmakeafoolofmyselfagain,inpublic。"Sohespenthistimelongingfortheeveningandlookingathiswatch。Buttheclearing-upofthemysterycamelongbeforetheevening,andcameintheformofanewandagonizingriddle。
  HalfanhouraftertheEpanchinshadgone,Hippolytearrived,sotiredthat,almostunconscious,hesankintoachair,andbrokeintosuchafitofcoughingthathecouldnotstop。Hecoughedtillthebloodcame。Hiseyesglittered,andtworedspotsonhischeeksgrewbrighterandbrighter。Theprincemurmuredsomethingtohim,butHippolyteonlysignedthathemustbeleftaloneforawhile,andsatsilent。Atlasthecametohimself。
  "Iamoff,"hesaid,hoarsely,andwithdifficulty。
  "ShallIseeyouhome?"askedtheprince,risingfromhisseat,butsuddenlystoppingshortasherememberedAglaya’sprohibitionagainstleavingthehouse。Hippolytelaughed。
  "Idon’tmeanthatIamgoingtoleaveyourhouse,"hecontinued,stillgaspingandcoughing。"Onthecontrary,Ithoughtitabsolutelynecessarytocomeandseeyou;otherwiseIshouldnothavetroubledyou。Iamoffthere,youknow,andthistimeI
  believe,seriously,thatIamoff!It’sallover。Ididnotcomehereforsympathy,believeme。Ilaydownthismorningatteno’clockwiththeintentionofnotrisingagainbeforethattime;
  butIthoughtitoverandrosejustoncemoreinordertocomehere;fromwhichyoumaydeducethatIhadsomereasonforwishingtocome。"
  "Itgrievesmetoseeyouso,Hippolyte。Whydidn’tyousendmeamessage?Iwouldhavecomeupandsavedyouthistrouble。"
  "Well,well!Enough!You’vepitiedme,andthat’sallthatgoodmannersexact。Iforgot,howareyou?"
  "I’mallright;yesterdayIwasalittle——"
  "Iknow,Iheard;thechinavasecaughtit!I’msorryIwasn’tthere。I’vecomeaboutsomethingimportant。InthefirstplaceI
  had,thepleasureofseeingGavrilaArdalionovitchandAglayaIvanovnaenjoyingarendezvousonthegreenbenchinthepark。I
  wasastonishedtoseewhatafoolamancanlook。IremarkeduponthefacttoAglayaIvanovnawhenhehadgone。Idon’tthinkanythingeversurprisesyou,prince!"addedHippolyte,gazingincredulouslyattheprince’scalmdemeanour。"Tobeastonishedbynothingisasign,theysay,ofagreatintellect。Inmyopinionitwouldserveequallywellasasignofgreatfoolishness。Iamnothintingaboutyou;pardonme!Iamveryunfortunatetodayinmyexpressions。
  "IknewyesterdaythatGavrilaArdalionovitch——"begantheprince,andpausedinevidentconfusion,thoughHippolytehadshownannoyanceathisbetrayingnosurprise。
  "Youknewit?Come,that’snews!Butno——perhapsbetternottellme。Andwereyouawitnessofthemeeting?"
  "IfyouwerethereyourselfyoumusthaveknownthatIwasNOT
  there!"
  "Oh!butyoumayhavebeensittingbehindthebushessomewhere。
  However,Iamveryglad,onyouraccount,ofcourse。IwasbeginningtobeafraidthatMr。Gania——mighthavethepreference!"
  "MayIaskyou,Hippolyte,nottotalkofthissubject?Andnottousesuchexpressions?"
  "Especiallyasyouknowall,eh?"
  "Youarewrong。Iknowscarcelyanything,andAglayaIvanovnaisawarethatIknownothing。Iknewnothingwhateveraboutthismeeting。Yousaytherewasameeting。Verywell;let’sleaveitso——"
  "Why,whatdoyoumean?Yousaidyouknew,andnowsuddenlyyouknownothing!Yousay’verywell;let’sleaveitso。’ButIsay,don’tbesoconfiding,especiallyasyouknownothing。YouareconfidingsimplyBECAUSEyouknownothing。Butdoyouknowwhatthesegoodpeoplehaveintheirminds’eye——Ganiaandhissister?
  Perhapsyouaresuspicious?Well,well,I’lldropthesubject!"
  headded,hastily,observingtheprince’simpatientgesture。"ButI’vecometoyouonmyownbusiness;Iwishtomakeyouaclearexplanation。Whatanuisanceitisthatonecannotdiewithoutexplanations!Ihavemadesuchaquantityofthemalready。DoyouwishtohearwhatIhavetosay?"
  "Speakaway,Iamlistening。"
  "Verywell,butI’llchangemymind,andbeginaboutGania。Justfancytobeginwith,ifyoucan,thatI,too,wasgivenanappointmentatthegreenbenchtoday!However,Iwon’tdeceiveyou;Iaskedfortheappointment。IsaidIhadasecrettodisclose。Idon’tknowwhetherIcametheretooearly,IthinkI
  musthave;butscarcelyhadIsatdownbesideAglayaIvanovnathanIsawGavrilaArdalionovitchandhissisterVariacomingalong,arminarm,justasthoughtheywereenjoyingamorningwalktogether。Bothofthemseemedverymuchastonished,nottosaydisturbed,atseeingme;theyevidentlyhadnotexpectedthepleasure。AglayaIvanovnablushedup,andwasactuallyalittleconfused。Idon’tknowwhetheritwasmerelybecauseIwasthere,orwhetherGania’sbeautywastoomuchforher!Butanyway,sheturnedcrimson,andthenfinishedupthebusinessinaveryfunnymanner。Shejumpedupfromherseat,bowedbacktoGania,smiledtoVaria,andsuddenlyobserved:’Ionlycameheretoexpressmygratitudeforallyourkindwishesonmybehalf,andtosaythatifIfindIneedyourservices,believeme——’Hereshebowedthemaway,asitwere,andtheybothmarchedoffagain,lookingveryfoolish。Ganiaevidentlycouldnotmakeheadnortailofthematter,andturnedasredasalobster;butVariaunderstoodatoncethattheymustgetawayasquicklyastheycould,soshedraggedGaniaaway;sheisagreatdealclevererthanheis。Asformyself,IwenttheretoarrangeameetingtobeheldbetweenAglayaIvanovnaandNastasiaPhilipovna。"
  "NastasiaPhilipovna!"criedtheprince。
  "Aha!Ithinkyouaregrowinglesscool,myfriend,andarebeginningtobeatriflesurprised,aren’tyou?I’mgladthatyouarenotaboveordinaryhumanfeelings,foronce。I’llconsoleyoualittlenow,afteryourconsternation。SeewhatIgetforservingayoungandhigh-souledmaiden!ThismorningIreceivedaslapinthefacefromthelady!"
  "A——amoralone?"askedtheprince,involuntarily。
  "Yes——notaphysicalone!Idon’tsupposeanyone——evenawoman——
  wouldraiseahandagainstmenow。EvenGaniawouldhesitate!I
  didthinkatonetimeyesterday,thathewouldflyatme,though。
  IbetanythingthatIknowwhatyouarethinkingofnow!Youarethinking:’Ofcourseonecan’tstrikethelittlewretch,butonecouldsuffocatehimwithapillow,orawettowel,whenheisasleep!OneOUGHTtogetridofhimsomehow。’Icanseeinyourfacethatyouarethinkingthatatthisverysecond。"
  "Ineverthoughtofsuchathingforamoment,"saidtheprince,withdisgust。
  "Idon’tknow——IdreamedlastnightthatIwasbeingsuffocatedwithawetclothby——somebody。I’lltellyouwhoitwas——Rogojin!
  Whatdoyouthink,canamanbesuffocatedwithawetcloth?"
  "Idon’tknow。"
  "I’veheardso。Well,we’llleavethatquestionjustnow。WhyamIascandal-monger?Whydidshecallmeascandal-monger?Andmind,AFTERshehadheardeverywordIhadtotellher,andhadaskedallsortsofquestionsbesides——butsuchisthewayofwomen。ForHERsakeIenteredintorelationswithRogojin——aninterestingman!AtHERrequestIarrangedapersonalinterviewbetweenherselfandNastasiaPhilipovna。CouldshehavebeenangrybecauseIhintedthatshewasenjoyingNastasiaPhilipovna’s’leavings’?Why,Ihavebeenimpressingituponherallthiswhileforherowngood。TwolettershaveIwrittenherinthatstrain,andIbeganstraightofftodayaboutitsbeinghumiliatingforher。Besides,theword’leavings’isnotmyinvention。Atallevents,theyalluseditatGania’s,andsheuseditherself。SowhyamIascandal-monger?Isee——Iseeyouaretremendouslyamused,atthismoment!Probablyyouarelaughingatmeandfittingthosesillylinestomycase——
  "’MaybesadLoveuponhissettingsmiles,Andwithvainhopeshisfarewellhourbeguiles。
  "Ha,ha,ha!"
  Hippolytesuddenlyburstintoafitofhystericallaughter,whichturnedintoachokingcough。
  "Observe,"hegasped,throughhiscoughing,"whatafellowGaniais!HetalksaboutNastasia’s’leavings,’butwhatdoeshewanttotakehimself?"
  Theprincesatsilentforalongwhile。Hismindwasfilledwithdreadandhorror。
  "YouspokeofameetingwithNastasiaPhilipovna,"hesaidatlast,inalowvoice。
  "Oh——come!SurelyyoumustknowthatthereistobeameetingtodaybetweenNastasiaandAglayaIvanovna,andthatNastasiahasbeensentforonpurpose,throughRogojin,fromSt。Petersburg?
  IthasbeenbroughtaboutbyinvitationofAglayaIvanovnaandmyownefforts,andNastasiaisatthismomentwithRogojin,notfarfromhere——atDanaAlexeyevna’s——thatcuriousfriendofhers;andtothisquestionablehouseAglayaIvanovnaistoproceedforafriendlychatwithNastasiaPhilipovna,andforthesettlementofseveralproblems。Theyaregoingtoplayatarithmetic——didn’tyouknowaboutit?Wordofhonour?"
  "It’samostimprobablestory。"
  "Oh,verywell!ifit’simprobable——itis——that’sall!Andyet——
  whereshouldyouhaveheardit?ThoughImustsay,ifaflycrossestheroomit’sknownallovertheplacehere。However,I’vewarnedyou,andyoumaybegratefultome。Well——aurevoir——
  probablyinthenextworld!Onemorething——don’tthinkthatIamtellingyouallthisforyoursake。Oh,dear,no!DoyouknowthatIdedicatedmyconfessiontoAglayaIvanovna?Ididthough,andhowshetookit,ha,ha!Oh,no!Iamnotactingfromanyhigh,exaltedmotives。ButthoughImayhavebehavedlikeacadtoyou,IhavenotdoneHERanyharm。Idon’tapologizeformywordsabout’leavings’andallthat。Iamatoningforthat,yousee,bytellingyoutheplaceandtimeofthemeeting。Goodbye!
  Youhadbettertakeyourmeasures,ifyouareworthythenameofaman!Themeetingisfixedforthisevening——that’scertain。"
  Hippolytewalkedtowardsthedoor,buttheprincecalledhimbackandhestopped。
  "ThenyouthinkAglayaIvanovnaherselfintendstogotoNastasiaPhilipovna’stonight?"heasked,andbrighthecticspotscameoutonhischeeksandforehead。
  "Idon’tknowabsolutelyforcertain;butinallprobabilityitisso,"repliedHippolyte,lookinground。"Nastasiawouldhardlygotoher;andtheycan’tmeetatGania’s,withamannearlydeadinthehouse。"
  "It’simpossible,forthatveryreason,"saidtheprince。"Howwouldshegetoutifshewishedto?Youdon’tknowthehabitsofthathouse——sheCOULDnotgetawayalonetoNastasiaPhilipovna’s!It’sallnonsense!"
  "Lookhere,mydearprince,noonejumpsoutofthewindowiftheycanhelpit;butwhenthere’safire,thedandiestgentlemanorthefinestladyintheworldwillskipout!Whenthemomentcomes,andthere’snothingelsetobedone——ouryoungladywillgotoNastasiaPhilipovna’s!Don’ttheylettheyoungladiesoutofthehousealone,then?"
  "Ididn’tmeanthatexactly。"
  "Ifyoudidn’tmeanthat,thenshehasonlytogodownthestepsandwalkoff,andsheneednevercomebackunlessshechooses:
  Shipsareburnedbehindonesometimes,andonedoesn’tcaretoreturnwhenceonecame。Lifeneednotconsistonlyoflunches,anddinners,andPrinceS’s。ItstrikesmeyoutakeAglayaIvanovnaforsomeconventionalboarding-schoolgirl。Isaidsotoher,andshequiteagreedwithme。Waittillsevenoreighto’clock。InyourplaceIwouldsendsomeonetheretokeepwatch,soastoseizetheexactmomentwhenshestepsoutofthehouse。
  SendColia。He’llplaythespywithpleasure——foryouatleast。
  Ha,ha,ha!"
  Hippolytewentout。
  Therewasnoreasonfortheprincetosetanyonetowatch,evenifhehadbeencapableofsuchathing。Aglaya’scommandthatheshouldstayathomealldayseemedalmostexplainednow。Perhapsshemeanttocallforhim,herself,oritmightbe,ofcourse,thatshewasanxioustomakesureofhisnotcomingthere,andthereforebadehimremainathome。Hisheadwhirled;thewholeroomseemedtobeturninground。Helaydownonthesofa,andclosedhiseyes。
  Onewayortheotherthequestionwastobedecidedatlast——
  finally。
  Oh,no,hedidnotthinkofAglayaasaboarding-schoolmiss,orayoungladyoftheconventionaltype!Hehadlongsincefearedthatshemighttakesomesuchstepasthis。ButwhydidshewishtoseeNastasia?
  Heshiveredalloverashelay;hewasinhighfeveragain。
  No!hedidnotaccountherachild。Certainofherlooks,certainofherwords,oflate,hadfilledhimwithapprehension。Attimesithadstruckhimthatshewasputtingtoogreatarestraintuponherself,andherememberedthathehadbeenalarmedtoobservethis。Hehadtried,allthesedays,todriveawaytheheavythoughtsthatoppressedhim;butwhatwasthehiddenmysteryofthatsoul?Thequestionhadlongtormentedhim,althoughheimplicitlytrustedthatsoul。Andnowitwasalltobeclearedup。Itwasadreadfulthought。And"thatwoman"again!Whydidhealwaysfeelasthough"thatwoman"werefatedtoappearateachcriticalmomentofhislife,andtearthethreadofhisdestinylikeabitofrottenstring?ThathealwaysHADfeltthishewasreadytoswear,althoughhewashalfdeliriousatthemoment。Ifhehadtriedtoforgether,allthistime,itwassimplybecausehewasafraidofher。Didhelovethewomanorhateher?Thisquestionhedidnotonceaskhimselftoday;hisheartwasquitepure。Heknewwhomheloved。Hewasnotsomuchafraidofthismeeting,norofitsstrangeness,norofanyreasonstheremightbeforit,unknowntohimself;hewasafraidofthewomanherself,NastasiaPhilipovna。Heremembered,somedaysafterwards,howduringallthosefeveredhourshehadseenbutHEReyes,HERlook,hadheardHERvoice,strangewordsofhers;
  herememberedthatthiswasso,althoughhecouldnotrecollectthedetailsofhisthoughts。
  HecouldrememberthatVerabroughthimsomedinner,andthathetookit;butwhetherhesleptafterdinner,orno,hecouldnotrecollect。
  HeonlyknewthathebegantodistinguishthingsclearlyfromthemomentwhenAglayasuddenlyappeared,andhejumpedupfromthesofaandwenttomeether。Itwasjustaquarterpastseventhen。
  Aglayawasquitealone,anddressed,apparentlyhastily,inalightmantle。Herfacewaspale,asithadbeeninthemorning,andhereyeswereablazewithbrightbutsubduedfire。Hehadneverseenthatexpressioninhereyesbefore。
  Shegazedattentivelyathim。
  "Youarequiteready,Iobserve,"shesaid,withabsolutecomposure,"dressed,andyourhatinyourhand。Iseesomebodyhasthoughtfittowarnyou,andIknowwho。Hippolyte?"
  "Yes,hetoldme,"saidtheprince,feelingonlyhalfalive。
  "Comethen。Youknow,Isuppose,thatyoumustescortmethere?
  Youarewellenoughtogoout,aren’tyou?"
  "Iamwellenough;butisitreallypossible?——"
  Hebrokeoffabruptly,andcouldnotaddanotherword。Thiswashisoneattempttostopthemadchild,and,afterhehadmadeit,hefollowedherasthoughhehadnowillofhisown。Confusedashisthoughtswere,hewas,nevertheless,capableofrealizingthefactthatifhedidnotgowithher,shewouldgoalone,andsohemustgowithheratallhazards。Heguessedthestrengthofherdetermination;itwasbeyondhimtocheckit。
  Theywalkedsilently,andsaidscarcelyawordalltheway。Heonlynoticedthatsheseemedtoknowtheroadverywell;andonce,whenhethoughtitbettertogobyacertainlane,andremarkedtoherthatitwouldbequieterandlesspublic,sheonlysaid,"it’sallthesame,"andwenton。
  WhentheywerealmostarrivedatDariaAlexeyevna’shouseitwasalargewoodenstructureofancientdate,agorgeously-dressedladyandayounggirlcameoutofit。Boththeseladiestooktheirseatsinacarriage,whichwaswaitingatthedoor,talkingandlaughingloudlythewhile,anddroveawaywithoutappearingtonoticetheapproachingcouple。
  Nosoonerhadthecarriagedrivenoffthanthedooropenedoncemore;andRogojin,whohadapparentlybeenawaitingthem,lettheminandcloseditafterthem。
  "Thereisnotanothersoulinthehousenowexceptingourfourselves,"hesaidaloud,lookingattheprinceinastrangeway。
  NastasiaPhilipovnawaswaitingfortheminthefirstroomtheywentinto。Shewasdressedverysimply,inblack。
  Sheroseattheirentrance,butdidnotsmileorgiveherhand,eventotheprince。HeranxiouseyeswerefixeduponAglaya。Bothsatdown,atalittledistancefromoneanother——Aglayaonthesofa,inthecorneroftheroom,Nastasiabythewindow。TheprinceandRogojinremainedstanding,andwerenotinvitedtosit。
  MuishkinglancedatRogojininperplexity,butthelatteronlysmileddisagreeably,andsaidnothing。Thesilencecontinuedforsomefewmoments。
  AnominousexpressionpassedoverNastasiaPhilipovna’sface,ofasudden。Itbecameobstinate-looking,hard,andfullofhatred;
  butshedidnottakehereyesoffhervisitorsforamoment。
  Aglayawasclearlyconfused,butnotfrightened。Onenteringshehadmerelyglancedmomentarilyatherrival,andthenhadsatstill,withhereyesontheground,apparentlyinthought。Onceortwicesheglancedcasuallyroundtheroom。Ashadeofdisgustwasvisibleinherexpression;shelookedasthoughshewereafraidofcontaminationinthisplace。
  Shemechanicallyarrangedherdress,andfidgeteduncomfortably,eventuallychangingherseattotheotherendofthesofa。
  Probablyshewasunconsciousofherownmovements;butthisveryunconsciousnessaddedtotheoffensivenessoftheirsuggestedmeaning。
  AtlengthshelookedstraightintoNastasia’seyes,andinstantlyreadalltherewastoreadinherrival’sexpression。Womanunderstoodwoman!Aglayashuddered。
  "YouknowofcoursewhyIrequestedthismeeting?"shesaidatlast,quietly,andpausingtwiceinthedeliveryofthisveryshortsentence。
  "No——Iknownothingaboutit,"saidNastasia,drilyandabruptly。
  Aglayablushed。Perhapsitstruckherasverystrangeandimpossiblethatsheshouldreallybesittinghereandwaitingfor"thatwoman’s"replytoherquestion。
  AtthefirstsoundofNastasia’svoiceashudderranthroughherframe。Ofcourse"thatwoman"observedandtookinallthis。
  "Youknowquitewell,butyouarepretendingtobeignorant,"
  saidAglaya,verylow,withhereyesontheground。
  "WhyshouldI?"askedNastasiaPhilipovna,smilingslightly。
  "Youwanttotakeadvantageofmyposition,nowthatIaminyourhouse,"continuedAglaya,awkwardly。
  "ForthatpositionYOUaretoblameandnotI,"saidNastasia,flaringupsuddenly。"_I_didnotinviteYOU,butyoume;andtothismomentIamquiteignorantastowhyIamthushonoured。"
  Aglayaraisedherheadhaughtily。
  "Restrainyourtongue!"shesaid。"Ididnotcomeheretofightyouwithyourownweapons。
  "Oh!thenyoudidcome’tofight,’Imayconclude?Dearme!——andIthoughtyouwerecleverer——"
  Theylookedatoneanotherwithundisguisedmalice。Oneofthesewomenhadwrittentotheother,solately,suchlettersaswehaveseen;anditallwasdispersedattheirfirstmeeting。Yetitappearedthatnotoneofthefourpersonsintheroomconsideredthisinanydegreestrange。
  Theprincewho,uptoyesterday,wouldnothavebelievedthathecouldevendreamofsuchanimpossiblesceneasthis,stoodandlistenedandlookedon,andfeltasthoughhehadlongforeseenitall。Themostfantasticdreamseemedsuddenlytohavebeenmetamorphosedintothemostvividreality。
  Oneofthesewomensodespisedtheother,andsolongedtoexpresshercontemptforherperhapsshehadonlycomeforthatverypurpose,asRogojinsaidnextday,thathowsoeverfantasticalwastheotherwoman,howsoeverafflictedherspiritanddisturbedherunderstanding,nopreconceivedideaofherscouldpossiblystandupagainstthatdeadlyfemininecontemptofherrival。TheprincefeltsurethatNastasiawouldsaynothingaboutthelettersherself;buthecouldjudgebyherflashingeyesandtheexpressionofherfacewhatthethoughtofthoselettersmustbecostingheratthismoment。HewouldhavegivenhalfhislifetopreventAglayafromspeakingofthem。ButAglayasuddenlybracedherselfup,andseemedtomasterherselffully,allinaninstant。
  "Youhavenotquiteunderstood,"shesaid。"Ididnotcometoquarrelwithyou,thoughIdonotlikeyou。Icametospeaktoyouas……asonehumanbeingtoanother。IcamewithmymindmadeupastowhatIhadtosaytoyou,andIshallnotchangemyintention,althoughyoumaymisunderstandme。Somuchtheworseforyou,notformyself!Iwishedtoreplytoallyouhavewrittentomeandtoreplypersonally,becauseIthinkthatisthemoreconvenientway。Listentomyreplytoallyourletters。
  IbegantobesorryforPrinceLefNicolaievitchontheverydayImadehisacquaintance,andwhenIheard——afterwards——ofallthattookplaceatyourhouseintheevening,Iwassorryforhimbecausehewassuchasimple-mindedman,andbecausehe,inthesimplicityofhissoul,believedthathecouldbehappywithawomanofyourcharacter。WhatIfearedactuallytookplace;youcouldnotlovehim,youtorturedhim,andthrewhimover。Youcouldnotlovehimbecauseyouaretooproud——no,notproud,thatisanerror;becauseyouaretoovain——no,notquitethateither;
  tooself-loving;youareself-lovingtomadness。Yourletterstomeareaproofofit。Youcouldnotlovesosimpleasoulashis,andperhapsinyourheartyoudespisedhimandlaughedathim。
  Allyoucouldlovewasyourshameandtheperpetualthoughtthatyouweredisgracedandinsulted。Ifyouwerelessshameful,orhadnocauseatallforshame,youwouldbestillmoreunhappythanyouarenow。
  Aglayabroughtoutthesethrongingwordswithgreatsatisfaction。
  Theycamefromherlipshurriedlyandimpetuously,andhadbeenpreparedandthoughtoutlongago,evenbeforeshehadeverdreamedofthepresentmeeting。ShewatchedwitheagernesstheeffectofherspeechasshowninNastasia’sface,whichwasdistortedwithagitation。
  "Youremember,"shecontinued,"hewrotemealetteratthattime;hesaysyouknowallaboutthatletterandthatyouevenreadit。Iunderstandallbymeansofthisletter,andunderstanditcorrectly。Hehassinceconfirmeditalltome——whatInowsaytoyou,wordforword。AfterreceivinghisletterIwaited;I
  guessedthatyouwouldsooncomebackhere,becauseyoucouldneverdowithoutPetersburg;youarestilltooyoungandlovelyfortheprovinces。However,thisisnotmyownidea,"sheadded,blushingdreadfully;andfromthismomentthecolourneverlefthercheekstotheendofherspeech。WhenInextsawtheprinceI
  begantofeelterriblypainedandhurtonhisaccount。Donotlaugh;ifyoulaughyouareunworthyofunderstandingwhatI
  say。"
  "SurelyyouseethatIamnotlaughing,"saidNastasia,sadlyandsternly。
  "However,it’sallthesametome;laughornot,justasyouplease。WhenIaskedhimaboutyou,hetoldmethathehadlongsinceceasedtoloveyou,thattheveryrecollectionofyouwasatorturetohim,butthathewassorryforyou;andthatwhenhethoughtofyouhisheartwaspierced。IoughttotellyouthatI
  neverinmylifemetamananythinglikehimfornoblesimplicityofmindandforboundlesstrustfulness。Iguessedthatanyonewholikedcoulddeceivehim,andthathewouldimmediatelyforgiveanyonewhodiddeceivehim;anditwasforthisthatIgrewtolovehim——"
  Aglayapausedforamoment,asthoughsuddenlybroughtupinastonishmentthatshecouldhavesaidthesewords,butatthesametimeagreatprideshoneinhereyes,likeadefiantassertionthatitwouldnotmattertoherif"thiswoman"laughedinherfacefortheadmissionjustmade。
  "Ihavetoldyouallnow,andofcourseyouunderstandwhatI
  wishofyou。"
  "PerhapsIdo;buttellmeyourself,"saidNastasiaPhilipovna,quietly。
  Aglayaflushedupangrily。
  "Iwishedtofindoutfromyou,"shesaid,firmly,"bywhatrightyoudaretomeddlewithhisfeelingsforme?Bywhatrightyoudaredsendmethoseletters?Bywhatrightdoyoucontinuallyremindbothmeandhimthatyoulovehim,afteryouyourselfthrewhimoverandranawayfromhiminsoinsultingandshamefulaway?"
  "InevertoldeitherhimoryouthatIlovedhim!"repliedNastasiaPhilipovna,withaneffort。"And——andIdidrunawayfromhim——youarerightthere,"sheadded,scarcelyaudibly。
  "Nevertoldeitherhimorme?"criedAglaya。"Howaboutyourletters?Whoaskedyoutotrytopersuademetomarryhim?Wasnotthatadeclarationfromyou?Whydoyouforceyourselfuponusinthisway?IconfessIthoughtatfirstthatyouwereanxioustoarouseanaversionforhiminmyheartbyyourmeddling,inorderthatImightgivehimup;anditwasonlyafterwardsthatIguessedthetruth。Youimaginedthatyouweredoinganheroicaction!Howcouldyouspareanyloveforhim,whenyouloveyourownvanitytosuchanextent?Whycouldyounotsimplygoawayfromhere,insteadofwritingmethoseabsurdletters?WhydoyounotNOWmarrythatgenerousmanwholovesyou,andhasdoneyouthehonourofofferingyouhishand?Itisplainenoughwhy;ifyoumarryRogojinyouloseyourgrievance;
  youwillhavenothingmoretocomplainof。Youwillbereceivingtoomuchhonour。EvgeniePavlovitchwassayingtheotherdaythatyouhadreadtoomanypoemsandaretoowelleducatedfor——yourposition;andthatyouliveinidleness。Addtothisyourvanity,and,thereyouhavereasonenough——"
  "Anddoyounotliveinidleness?"
  Thingshadcometothisunexpectedpointtooquickly。UnexpectedbecauseNastasiaPhilipovna,onherwaytoPavlofsk,hadthoughtandconsideredagooddeal,andhadexpectedsomethingdifferent,thoughperhapsnotaltogethergood,fromthisinterview;butAglayahadbeencarriedawaybyherownoutburst,justasarollingstonegathersimpetusasitcareersdownhill,andcouldnotrestrainherselfinthesatisfactionofrevenge。
  Itwasstrange,NastasiaPhilipovnafelt,toseeAglayalikethis。Shegazedather,andcouldhardlybelievehereyesandearsforamomentortwo。
  Whethershewereawomanwhohadreadtoomanypoems,asEvgeniePavlovitchsupposed,orwhethersheweremad,astheprincehadassuredAglaya,atallevents,thiswasawomanwho,inspiteofheroccasionallycynicalandaudaciousmanner,wasfarmorerefinedandtrustfulandsensitivethanappeared。Therewasacertainamountofromanticdreaminessandcapriceinher,butwiththefantasticwasmingledmuchthatwasstronganddeep。
  Theprincerealizedthis,andgreatsufferingexpresseditselfinhisface。
  Aglayaobservedit,andtrembledwithanger。
  "Howdareyouspeaksotome?"shesaid,withahaughtinesswhichwasquiteindescribable,replyingtoNastasia’slastremark。
  "YoumusthavemisunderstoodwhatIsaid,"saidNastasia,insomesurprise。
  "Ifyouwishedtopreserveyourgoodname,whydidyounotgiveupyour——your’guardian,’Totski,withoutallthattheatricalposturing?"saidAglaya,suddenlyaproposofnothing。
  "Whatdoyouknowofmyposition,thatyoudaretojudgeme?"
  criedNastasia,quiveringwithrage,andgrowingterriblywhite。
  "Iknowthismuch,thatyoudidnotgoouttohonestwork,butwentawaywitharichman,Rogojin,inordertoposeasafallenangel。Idon’twonderthatTotskiwasnearlydriventosuicidebysuchafallenangel。"
  "Silence!"criedNastasiaPhilipovna。"Youareaboutasfittounderstandmeasthehousemaidhere,whoborewitnessagainstherloverincourttheotherday。Shewouldunderstandmebetterthanyoudo。"
  "Probablyanhonestgirllivingbyherowntoil。Whydoyouspeakofahousemaidsocontemptuously?"
  "Idonotdespisetoil;Idespiseyouwhenyouspeakoftoil。"
  "Ifyouhadcaredtobeanhonestwoman,youwouldhavegoneoutasalaundress。"
  Bothhadrisen,andweregazingatoneanotherwithpallidfaces。
  "Aglaya,don’t!Thisisunfair,"criedtheprince,deeplydistressed。
  Rogojinwasnotsmilingnow;hesatandlistenedwithfoldedarms,andlipstightcompressed。
  "There,lookather,"criedNastasia,tremblingwithpassion。
  "Lookatthisyounglady!AndIimaginedheranangel!Didyoucometomewithoutyourgoverness,AglayaIvanovna?Oh,fie,nowshallIjusttellyouwhyyoucameheretoday?ShallItellyouwithoutanyembellishments?Youcamebecauseyouwereafraidofme!"
  "AfraidofYOU?"askedAglaya,besideherselfwithnaiveamazementthattheothershoulddaretalktoherlikethis。
  "Yes,me,ofcourse!Ofcourseyouwereafraidofme,oryouwouldnothavedecidedtocome。Youcannotdespiseoneyoufear。
  AndtothinkthatIhaveactuallyesteemedyouuptothisverymoment!Doyouknowwhyyouareafraidofme,andwhatisyourobjectnow?Youwishedtosatisfyyourselfwithyourowneyesastowhichhelovesbest,myselforyou,becauseyouarefearfullyjealous。"
  "Hehastoldmealreadythathehatesyou,"murmuredAglaya,scarcelyaudibly。
  "Perhaps,perhaps!Iamnotworthyofhim,Iknow。ButIthinkyouarelying,allthesame。Hecannothateme,andhecannothavesaidso。Iamreadytoforgiveyou,inconsiderationofyourposition;butIconfessIthoughtbetterofyou。Ithoughtyouwerewiser,andmorebeautiful,too;Idid,indeed!Well,takeyourtreasure!See,heisgazingatyou,hecan’trecollecthimself。Takehim,butononecondition;goawayatonce,thisinstant!"
  Shefellbackintoachair,andburstintotears。Butsuddenlysomenewexpressionblazedinhereyes。ShestaredfixedlyatAglaya,androsefromherseat。
  "Orwouldyoulikemetobidhim,BIDHIM,doyouhear,COMMAND
  HIM,now,atonce,tothrowyouup,andremainmineforever?
  ShallI?Hewillstay,andhewillmarrymetoo,andyoushalltrothomeallalone。ShallI?——shallIsaytheword?"shescreamedlikeamadwoman,scarcelybelievingherselfthatshecouldreallypronouncesuchwildwords。
  Aglayahadmadeforthedoorinterror,butshestoppedatthethreshold,andlistened。"ShallIturnRogojinoff?Ha!ha!youthoughtIwouldmarryhimforyourbenefit,didyou?Why,I’llcalloutNOW,ifyoulike,inyourpresence,’Rogojin,getout!’
  andsaytotheprince,’Doyourememberwhatyoupromisedme?’
  Heavens!whatafoolIhavebeentohumiliatemyselfbeforethem!
  Why,prince,youyourselfgavemeyourwordthatyouwouldmarrymewhateverhappened,andwouldneverabandonme。Yousaidyoulovedmeandwouldforgivemeall,and——andresp——yes,youevensaidthat!Ionlyranawayfromyouinordertosetyoufree,andnowIdon’tcaretoletyougoagain。Whydoesshetreatmeso——
  soshamefully?Iamnotaloosewoman——askRogojinthere!He’lltellyou。Willyougoagainnowthatshehasinsultedme,beforeyoureyes,too;turnawayfrommeandleadheraway,arm-in-arm?
  Mayyoubeaccursedtoo,foryouweretheonlyoneItrustedamongthemall!Goaway,Rogojin,Idon’twantyou,"shecontinued,blindwithfury,andforcingthewordsoutwithdrylipsanddistortedfeatures,evidentlynotbelievingasinglewordofherowntirade,but,atthesametime,doingherutmosttoprolongthemomentofself-deception。
  Theoutburstwassoterriblyviolentthattheprincethoughtitwouldhavekilledher。
  "Thereheis!"sheshriekedagain,pointingtotheprinceandaddressingAglaya。"Thereheis!andifhedoesnotapproachmeatonceandtakeMEandthrowyouover,thenhavehimforyourown——Igivehimuptoyou!Idon’twanthim!"
  BothsheandAglayastoodandwaitedasthoughinexpectation,andbothlookedattheprincelikemadwomen。
  Buthe,perhaps,didnotunderstandthefullforceofthischallenge;infact,itiscertainhedidnot。Allhecouldseewasthepoordespairingfacewhich,ashehadsaidtoAglaya,"hadpiercedhisheartforever。"
  Hecouldbearitnolonger,andwithalookofentreaty,mingledwithreproach,headdressedAglaya,pointingtoNastasiathewhile:
  "Howcanyou?"hemurmured;"sheissounhappy。"
  Buthehadnotimetosayanotherwordbefore。Aglaya’sterriblelookberefthimofspeech。Inthatlookwasembodiedsodreadfulasufferingandsodeadlyahatred,thathegaveacryandflewtoher;butitwastoolate。
  Shecouldnotholdoutlongenougheventowitnesshismovementinherdirection。Shehadhiddenherfaceinherhands,criedonce"Oh,myGod!"andrushedoutoftheroom。Rogojinfollowedhertoundotheboltsofthedoorandletheroutintothestreet。
  Theprincemadearushafterher,buthe,wascaughtandheldback。Thedistorted,lividfaceofNastasiagazedathimreproachfully,andherbluelipswhispered:
  "What?Wouldyougotoher——toher?"
  Shefellsenselessintohisarms。
  Heraisedher,carriedherintotheroom,placedherinanarm-
  chair,andstoodoverher,stupefied。Onthetablestoodatumblerofwater。Rogojin,whonowreturned,tookthisandsprinkledalittleinherface。Sheopenedhereyes,butforamomentsheunderstoodnothing。
  Suddenlyshelookedaround,shuddered,gavealoudcry,andthrewherselfintheprince’sarms。
  "Mine,mine!"shecried。"Hastheproudyoungladygone?Ha,ha,ha!"shelaughedhysterically。"AndIhadgivenhimuptoher!
  Why——whydidI?Mad——mad!Getaway,Rogojin!Ha,ha,ha!"
  Rogojinstaredintentlyatthem;thenhetookhishat,andwithoutaword,lefttheroom。
  Afewmomentslater,theprincewasseatedbyNastasiaonthesofa,gazingintohereyesandstrokingherfaceandhair,ashewouldalittlechild’s。Helaughedwhenshelaughed,andwasreadytocrywhenshecried。Hedidnotspeak,butlistenedtoherexcited,disconnectedchatter,hardlyunderstandingawordofitthewhile。Nosoonerdidhedetecttheslightestappearanceofcomplaining,orweeping,orreproaching,thanhewouldsmileatherkindly,andbeginstrokingherhairandhercheeks,soothingandconsolingheroncemore,asifshewereachild。
  IX。
  AFORTNIGHThadpassedsincetheeventsrecordedinthelastchapter,andthepositionoftheactorsinourstoryhadbecomesochangedthatitisalmostimpossibleforustocontinuethetalewithoutsomefewexplanations。Yetwefeelthatweoughttolimitourselvestothesimplerecordoffacts,withoutmuchattemptatexplanation,foraverypatentreason:becauseweourselveshavethegreatestpossibledifficultyinaccountingforthefactstoberecorded。Suchastatementonourpartmayappearstrangetothereader。Howisanyonetotellastorywhichhecannotunderstandhimself?Inordertokeepclearofafalseposition,wehadperhapsbettergiveanexampleofwhatwemean;
  andprobablytheintelligentreaderwillsoonunderstandthedifficulty。Moreespeciallyareweinclinedtotakethiscoursesincetheexamplewillconstituteadistinctmarchforwardofourstory,andwillnothindertheprogressoftheeventsremainingtoberecorded。
  Duringthenextfortnight——thatis,throughtheearlypartofJuly——thehistoryofourherowascirculatedintheformofstrange,diverting,mostunlikely-soundingstories,whichpassedfrommouthtomouth,throughthestreetsandvillasadjoiningthoseinhabitedbyLebedeff,Ptitsin,NastasiaPhilipovnaandtheEpanchins;infact,prettywellthroughthewholetownanditsenvirons。Allsociety——boththeinhabitantsoftheplaceandthosewhocamedownofaneveningforthemusic——hadgotholdofoneandthesamestory,inathousandvarietiesofdetail——astohowacertainyoungprincehadraisedaterriblescandalinamostrespectablehousehold,hadthrownoveradaughterofthefamily,towhomhewasengaged,andhadbeencapturedbyawomanofshadyreputationwhomhewasdeterminedtomarryatonce——
  breakingoffalloldtiesforthesatisfactionofhisinsaneidea;and,inspiteofthepublicindignationrousedbyhisaction,themarriagewastotakeplaceinPavlofskopenlyandpublicly,andtheprincehadannouncedhisintentionofgoingthroughwithitwithheaderectandlookingthewholeworldintheface。Thestorywassoartfullyadornedwithscandalousdetails,andpersonsofsogreateminenceandimportancewereapparentlymixedupinit,while,atthesametime,theevidencewassocircumstantial,thatitwasnowonderthemattergavefoodforplentyofcuriosityandgossip。
  Accordingtothereportsofthemosttalentedgossip-mongers——
  thosewho,ineveryclassofsociety,arealwaysinhastetoexplaineveryeventtotheirneighbours——theyounggentlemanconcernedwasofgoodfamily——aprince——fairlyrich——weakofintellect,butademocratandadabblerintheNihilismoftheperiod,asexposedbyMr。Turgenieff。HecouldhardlytalkRussian,buthadfalleninlovewithoneoftheMissEpanchins,andhissuitmetwithsomuchencouragementthathehadbeenreceivedinthehouseastherecognizedbridegroom-to-beoftheyounglady。ButliketheFrenchmanofwhomthestoryistoldthathestudiedforholyorders,tookalltheoaths,wasordainedpriest,andnextmorningwrotetohisbishopinforminghimthat,ashedidnotbelieveinGodandconsidereditwrongtodeceivethepeopleandliveupontheirpockets,hebeggedtosurrendertheordersconferreduponhimthedaybefore,andtoinformhislordshipthathewassendingthislettertothepublicpress,——
  likethisFrenchman,theprinceplayedafalsegame。Itwasrumouredthathehadpurposelywaitedforthesolemnoccasionofalargeeveningpartyatthehouseofhisfuturebride,atwhichhewasintroducedtoseveraleminentpersons,inorderpubliclytomakeknownhisideasandopinions,andtherebyinsultthe"big-wigs,"andtothrowoverhisbrideasoffensivelyaspossible;andthat,resistingtheservantswhoweretoldofftoturnhimoutofthehouse,hehadseizedandthrowndownamagnificentchinavase。Asacharacteristicadditiontotheabove,itwascurrentlyreportedthattheyoungprincereallylovedtheladytowhomhewasengaged,andhadthrownheroveroutofpurelyNihilisticmotives,withtheintentionofgivinghimselfthesatisfactionofmarryingafallenwomaninthefaceofalltheworld,therebypublishinghisopinionthatthereisnodistinctionbetweenvirtuousanddisreputablewomen,butthatallwomenarealike,free;anda"fallen"woman,indeed,somewhatsuperiortoavirtuousone。
  Itwasdeclaredthathebelievedinnoclassesoranythingelse,excepting"thewomanquestion。"
  Allthislookedlikelyenough,andwasacceptedasfactbymostoftheinhabitantsoftheplace,especiallyasitwasborneout,moreorless,bydailyoccurrences。
  Ofcoursemuchwassaidthatcouldnotbedeterminedabsolutely。
  Forinstance,itwasreportedthatthepoorgirlhadsolovedherfuturehusbandthatshehadfollowedhimtothehouseoftheotherwoman,thedayaftershehadbeenthrownover;otherssaidthathehadinsistedonhercoming,himself,inordertoshameandinsultherbyhistauntsandNihilisticconfessionswhenshereachedthehouse。Howeverallthesethingsmightbe,thepublicinterestinthemattergrewdaily,especiallyasitbecameclearthatthescandalousweddingwasundoubtedlytotakeplace。
  Sothatifourreadersweretoaskanexplanation,notofthewildreportsabouttheprince’sNihilisticopinions,butsimplyastohowsuchamarriagecouldpossiblysatisfyhisrealaspirations,orastothespiritualconditionofourheroatthistime,weconfessthatweshouldhavegreatdifficultyingivingtherequiredinformation。
  Allweknowis,thatthemarriagereallywasarranged,andthattheprincehadcommissionedLebedeffandKellertolookafterallthenecessarybusinessconnectedwithit;thathehadrequestedthemtosparenoexpense;thatNastasiaherselfwashurryingonthewedding;thatKellerwastobetheprince’sbestman,athisownearnestrequest;andthatBurdovskywastogiveNastasiaaway,tohisgreatdelight。TheweddingwastotakeplacebeforethemiddleofJuly。
  But,besidestheabove,wearecognizantofcertainotherundoubtedfacts,whichpuzzleusagooddealbecausetheyseemflatlytocontradicttheforegoing。
  Wesuspect,forinstance,thathavingcommissionedLebedeffandtheothers,asabove,theprinceimmediatelyforgotallaboutmastersofceremoniesandeventheceremonyitself;andwefeelquitecertainthatinmakingthesearrangementshedidsoinorderthathemightabsolutelyescapeallthoughtofthewedding,andevenforgetitsapproachifhecould,bydetailingallbusinessconcerningittoothers。