Whatdidhethinkofallthistime,then?Whatdidhewishfor?
Thereisnodoubtthathewasaperfectlyfreeagentallthrough,andthatasfarasNastasiawasconcerned,therewasnoforceofanykindbroughttobearonhim。Nastasiawishedforaspeedymarriage,true!——buttheprinceagreedatoncetoherproposals;
heagreed,infact,socasuallythatanyonemightsupposehewasbutaccedingtothemostsimpleandordinarysuggestion。
Therearemanystrangecircumstancessuchasthisbeforeus;butinouropiniontheydobutdeepenthemystery,anddonotinthesmallestdegreehelpustounderstandthecase。
However,letustakeonemoreexample。Thus,weknowforafactthatduringthewholeofthisfortnighttheprincespentallhisdaysandeveningswithNastasia;hewalkedwithher,drovewithher;hebegantoberestlesswheneverhepassedanhourwithoutseeingher——infact,toallappearances,hesincerelylovedher。
Hewouldlistentoherforhoursatatimewithaquietsmileonhisface,scarcelysayingawordhimself。Andyetweknow,equallycertainly,thatduringthisperiodheseveraltimessetoff,suddenly,totheEpanchins’,notconcealingthefactfromNastasiaPhilipovna,anddrivingthelattertoabsolutedespair。
WeknowalsothathewasnotreceivedattheEpanchins’solongastheyremainedatPavlofsk,andthathewasnotallowedaninterviewwithAglaya;——butnextdayhewouldsetoffoncemoreonthesameerrand,apparentlyquiteobliviousofthefactofyesterday’svisithavingbeenafailure,——and,ofcourse,meetingwithanotherrefusal。Weknow,too,thatexactlyanhourafterAglayahadfledfromNastasiaPhilipovna’shouseonthatfatefulevening,theprincewasattheEpanchins’,——andthathisappearancetherehadbeenthecauseofthegreatestconsternationanddismay;forAglayahadnotbeenhome,andthefamilyonlydiscoveredthen,forthefirsttime,thatthetwoofthemhadbeentoNastasia’shousetogether。
ItwassaidthatElizabethaProkofievnaandherdaughtershadthereandthendenouncedtheprinceinthestrongestterms,andhadrefusedanyfurtheracquaintanceandfriendshipwithhim;
theirrageanddenunciationsbeingredoubledwhenVariaArdalionovnasuddenlyarrivedandstatedthatAglayahadbeenatherhouseinaterriblestateofmindforthelasthour,andthatsherefusedtocomehome。
Thislastitemofnews,whichdisturbedLizabethaProkofievnamorethananythingelse,wasperfectlytrue。OnleavingNastasia’s,Aglayahadfeltthatshewouldratherdiethanfaceherpeople,andhadthereforegonestraighttoNinaAlexandrovna’s。Onreceivingthenews,LizabethaandherdaughtersandthegeneralallrushedofftoAglaya,followedbyPrinceLefNicolaievitch——undeterredbyhisrecentdismissal;butthroughVariahewasrefusedasightofAglayaherealso。TheendoftheepisodewasthatwhenAglayasawhermotherandsisterscryingoverherandnotutteringawordofreproach,shehadflungherselfintotheirarmsandgonestraighthomewiththem。
ItwassaidthatGaniamanagedtomakeafoolofhimselfevenonthisoccasion;for,findinghimselfalonewithAglayaforaminuteortwowhenVariahadgonetotheEpanchins’,hehadthoughtitafittingopportunitytomakeadeclarationofhislove,andonhearingthisAglaya,inspiteofherstateofmindatthetime,hadsuddenlyburstoutlaughing,andhadputastrangequestiontohim。Sheaskedhimwhetherhewouldconsenttoholdhisfingertoalightedcandleinproofofhisdevotion!
Gania——itwassaid——lookedsocomicallybewilderedthatAglayahadalmostlaughedherselfintohysterics,andhadrushedoutoftheroomandupstairs,——whereherparentshadfoundher。
Hippolytetoldtheprincethislaststory,sendingforhimonpurpose。WhenMuishkinheardaboutthecandleandGania’sfingerhehadlaughedsothathehadquiteastonishedHippolyte,——andthenshudderedandburstintotears。Theprince’sconditionduringthosedayswasstrangeandperturbed。Hippolyteplainlydeclaredthathethoughthewasoutofhismind;——this,however,washardlytobereliedupon。
Offeringallthesefactstoourreadersandrefusingtoexplainthem,wedonotforamomentdesiretojustifyourhero’sconduct。Onthecontrary,wearequitepreparedtofeelourshareoftheindignationwhichhisbehaviourarousedintheheartsofhisfriends。EvenVeraLebedeffwasangrywithhimforawhile;
sowasColia;sowasKeller,untilhewasselectedforbestman;
sowasLebedeffhimself,——whobegantointrigueagainsthimoutofpureirritation;——butofthisanon。InfactweareinfullaccordwithcertainforciblewordsspokentotheprincebyEvgeniePavlovitch,quiteunceremoniously,duringthecourseofafriendlyconversation,sixorsevendaysaftertheeventsatNastasiaPhilipovna’shouse。
WemayremarkherethatnotonlytheEpanchinsthemselves,butallwhohadanythingtodowiththem,thoughtitrighttobreakwiththeprinceinconsequenceofhisconduct。PrinceS。evenwentsofarastoturnawayandcuthimdeadinthestreet。ButEvgeniePavlovitchwasnotafraidtocompromisehimselfbypayingtheprinceavisit,anddidso,inspiteofthefactthathehadrecommencedtovisitattheEpanchins’,wherehewasreceivedwithredoubledhospitalityandkindnessafterthetemporaryestrangement。
EvgeniecalledupontheprincethedayafterthatonwhichtheEpanchinsleftPavlofsk。Heknewofallthecurrentrumours,——infact,hehadprobablycontributedtothemhimself。Theprincewasdelightedtoseehim,andimmediatelybegantospeakoftheEpanchins;——whichsimpleandstraightforwardopeningquitetookEvgenie’sfancy,sothathemeltedatonce,andplungedinmediasreswithoutceremony。
Theprincedidnotknow,uptothis,thattheEpanchinshadlefttheplace。Hegrewverypaleonhearingthenews;butamomentlaterhenoddedhishead,andsaidthoughtfully:
"Iknewitwasboundtobeso。"Thenheaddedquickly:
"Wherehavetheygoneto?"
Evgeniemeanwhileobservedhimattentively,andtherapidityofthequestions,their,simplicity,theprince’scandour,andatthesametime,hisevidentperplexityandmentalagitation,surprisedhimconsiderably。However,hetoldMuishkinallhecould,kindlyandindetail。Theprincehardlyknewanything,forthiswasthefirstinformantfromthehouseholdwhomhehadmetsincetheestrangement。
EvgeniereportedthatAglayahadbeenreallyill,andthatfortwonightsshehadnotsleptatall,owingtohighfever;thatnowshewasbetterandoutofseriousdanger,butstillinanervous,hystericalstate。
"It’sagoodthingthatthereispeaceinthehouse,atallevents,"hecontinued。"Theyneverutterahintaboutthepast,notonlyinAglaya’spresence,butevenamongthemselves。Theoldpeoplearetalkingofatripabroadintheautumn,immediatelyafterAdelaida’swedding;Aglayareceivedthenewsinsilence。"
Evgeniehimselfwasverylikelygoingabroadalso;sowerePrinceS。andhiswife,ifaffairsallowedofit;thegeneralwastostayathome。TheywereallattheirestateofColminanow,abouttwentymilesorsofromSt。Petersburg。PrincessBielokonskihadnotreturnedtoMoscowyet,andwasapparentlystayingonforreasonsofherown。LizabethaProkofievnahadinsistedthatitwasquiteimpossibletoremaininPavlofskafterwhathadhappened。Evgeniehadtoldherofalltherumourscurrentintownabouttheaffair;sothattherecouldbenotalkoftheirgoingtotheirhouseontheYelaginasyet。
"Andinpointoffact,prince,"addedEvgeniePavlovitch,"youmustallowthattheycouldhardlyhavestayedhere,consideringthattheyknewofallthatwentonatyourplace,andinthefaceofyourdailyvisitstotheirhouse,visitswhichyouinsisteduponmakinginspiteoftheirrefusaltoseeyou。"
"Yes——yes,quiteso;youarequiteright。IwishedtoseeAglayaIvanovna,youknow!"saidtheprince,noddinghishead。
"Oh,mydearfellow,"criedEvgenie,warmly,withrealsorrowinhisvoice,"howcouldyoupermitallthattocomeaboutasithas?Ofcourse,ofcourse,Iknowitwasallsounexpected。I
admitthatyou,onlynaturally,lostyourhead,and——andcouldnotstopthefoolishgirl;thatwasnotinyourpower。Iquiteseesomuch;butyoureallyshouldhaveunderstoodhowseriouslyshecaredforyou。Shecouldnotbeartoshareyouwithanother;
andyoucouldbringyourselftothrowawayandshattersuchatreasure!Oh,prince,prince!"
"Yes,yes,youarequiterightagain,"saidthepoorprince,inanguishofmind。"Iwaswrong,Iknow。ButitwasonlyAglayawholookedonNastasiaPhilipovnaso;nooneelsedid,youknow。"
"Butthat’sjusttheworstofitall,don’tyousee,thattherewasabsolutelynothingseriousaboutthematterinreality!"
criedEvgenie,besidehimself:"Excuseme,prince,butIhavethoughtoverallthis;Ihavethoughtagreatdealoverit;I
knowallthathadhappenedbefore;Iknowallthattookplacesixmonthssince;andIknowtherewasNOTHINGseriousaboutthematter,itwasbutfancy,smoke,fantasy,distortedbyagitation,andonlythealarmedjealousyofanabsolutelyinexperiencedgirlcouldpossiblyhavemistakenitforseriousreality。"
HereEvgeniePavlovitchquitelethimselfgo,andgavethereinstohisindignation。
Clearlyandreasonably,andwithgreatpsychologicalinsight,hedrewapictureoftheprince’spastrelationswithNastasiaPhilipovna。EvgeniePavlovitchalwayshadareadytongue,butonthisoccasionhiseloquence,surprisedhimself。"Fromtheverybeginning,"hesaid,"youbeganwithalie;whatbeganwithaliewasboundtoendwithalie;suchisthelawofnature。Idonotagree,infactIamangry,whenIhearyoucalledanidiot;youarefartoointelligenttodeservesuchanepithet;butyouaresofarSTRANGEastobeunlikeothers;thatyoumustallow,yourself。Now,Ihavecometotheconclusionthatthebasisofallthathashappened,hasbeenfirstofallyourinnateinexperienceremarktheexpression’innate,’prince。Thenfollowsyourunheard-ofsimplicityofheart;thencomesyourabsolutewantofsenseofproportiontothiswantyouhaveseveraltimesconfessed;andlastly,amass,anaccumulation,ofintellectualconvictionswhichyou,inyourunexampledhonestyofsoul,acceptunquestionablyasalsoinnateandnaturalandtrue。
Admit,prince,thatinyourrelationswithNastasiaPhilipovnatherehasexisted,fromtheveryfirst,somethingdemocratic,andthefascination,sotospeak,ofthe’womanquestion’?IknowallaboutthatscandaloussceneatNastasiaPhilipovna’shousewhenRogojinbroughtthemoney,sixmonthsago。I’llshowyouyourselfasinalooking-glass,ifyoulike。Iknowexactlyallthatwenton,ineverydetail,andwhythingshaveturnedoutastheyhave。
Youthirsted,whileinSwitzerland,foryourhome-country,forRussia;youread,doubtless,manybooksaboutRussia,excellentbooks,Idaresay,buthurtfultoYOU;andyouarrivedhere;asitwere,onfirewiththelongingtobeofservice。Then,ontheverydayofyourarrival,theytellyouasadstoryofanill-
usedwoman;theytellYOU,aknight,pureandwithoutreproach,thistaleofapoorwoman!ThesamedayyouactuallySEEher;youareattractedbyherbeauty,herfantastic,almostdemoniacal,beauty——Iadmitherbeauty,ofcourse。
"Addtoallthisyournervousnature,yourepilepsy,andyoursuddenarrivalinastrangetown——thedayofmeetingsandofexcitingscenes,thedayofunexpectedacquaintanceships,thedayofsuddenactions,thedayofmeetingwiththethreelovelyEpanchingirls,andamongthemAglaya——addyourfatigue,yourexcitement;addNastasia’seveningparty,andthetoneofthatparty,and——whatwereyoutoexpectofyourselfatsuchamomentasthat?"
"Yes,yes,yes!"saidtheprince,oncemore,noddinghishead,andblushingslightly。"Yes,itwasso,ornearlyso——Iknowit。
Andbesides,yousee,Ihadnotsleptthenightbefore,inthetrain,orthenightbeforethat,either,andIwasverytired。"
"Ofcourse,ofcourse,quiteso;that’swhatIamdrivingat!"
continuedEvgenie,excitedly。"Itisasclearaspossible,andmostcomprehensible,thatyou,inyourenthusiasm,shouldplungeheadlongintothefirstchancethatcameofpubliclyairingyourgreatideathatyou,aprince,andapure-livingman,didnotconsiderawomandisgracedifthesinwerenotherown,butthatofadisgustingsociallibertine!Oh,heavens!it’scomprehensibleenough,mydearprince,butthatisnotthequestion,unfortunately!Thequestionis,wasthereanyrealityandtruthinyourfeelings?Wasitnature,ornothingbutintellectualenthusiasm?Whatdoyouthinkyourself?Wearetold,ofcourse,thatafarworsewomanwasFORGIVEN,butwedon’tfindthatshewastoldthatshehaddonewell,orthatshewasworthyofhonourandrespect!Didnotyourcommon-senseshowyouwhatwastherealstateofthecase,afewmonthslater?Thequestionisnow,notwhethersheisaninnocentwomanIdonotinsistonewayortheother——Idonotwishto;butcanherwholecareerjustifysuchintolerablepride,suchinsolent,rapaciousegotismasshehasshown?Forgiveme,Iamtooviolent,perhaps,but——"
"Yes——Idaresayitisallasyousay;Idaresayyouarequiteright,"mutteredtheprinceoncemore。"Sheisverysensitiveandeasilyputout,ofcourse;butstill,she……"
"Sheisworthyofsympathy?Isthatwhatyouwishedtosay,mygoodfellow?Butthen,forthemeresakeofvindicatingherworthinessofsympathy,youshouldnothaveinsultedandoffendedanobleandgenerousgirlinherpresence!Thisisaterribleexaggerationofsympathy!Howcanyouloveagirl,andyetsohumiliateherastothrowheroverforthesakeofanotherwoman,beforetheveryeyesofthatotherwoman,whenyouhavealreadymadeheraformalproposalofmarriage?AndyouDIDproposetoher,youknow;youdidsobeforeherparentsandsisters。Canyoubeanhonestman,prince,ifyouactso?Iaskyou!Anddidyounotdeceivethatbeautifulgirlwhenyouassuredherofyourlove?"
"Yes,youarequiteright。Oh!IfeelthatIamveryguilty!"
saidMuishkin,indeepestdistress。
"Butasifthatisenough!"criedEvgenie,indignantly。"Asifitisenoughsimplytosay:’IknowIamveryguilty!’Youaretoblame,andyetyoupersevereinevil-doing。Wherewasyourheart,Ishouldliketoknow,yourCHRISTIANHEART,allthattime?Didshelookasthoughsheweresufferingless,atthatmoment?Yousawherface——wasshesufferinglessthantheotherwoman?Howcouldyouseehersufferingandallowittocontinue?Howcouldyou?"
"ButIdidnotallowit,"murmuredthewretchedprince。
"How——whatdoyoumeanyoudidn’tallow?"
"Uponmyword,Ididn’t!TothismomentIdon’tknowhowitallhappened。I——IranafterAglayaIvanovna,butNastasiaPhilipovnafelldowninafaint;andsincethatdaytheywon’tletmeseeAglaya——that’sallIknow。"
"It’sallthesame;yououghttohaverunafterAglayathoughtheotherwasfainting。"
"Yes,yes,Iought——butIcouldn’t!Shewouldhavedied——shewouldhavekilledherself。Youdon’tknowher;andIshouldhavetoldAglayaeverythingafterwards——butIsee,EvgeniePavlovitch,youdon’tknowall。Tellmenow,whyamInotallowedtoseeAglaya?Ishouldhavecleareditallup,youknow。Neitherofthemkepttotherealpoint,yousee。IcouldneverexplainwhatImeantoyou,butIthinkIcouldtoAglaya。Oh!myGod,myGod!YouspokejustnowofAglaya’sfaceatthemomentwhensheranaway。Oh,myGod!Irememberit!Comealong,comealong——
quick!"HepulledatEvgenie’scoat-sleevenervouslyandexcitedly,androsefromhischair。
"Whereto?"
"CometoAglaya——quick,quick!"
"ButItoldyousheisnotatPavlofsk。Andwhatwouldbetheuseifshewere?"
"Oh,she’llunderstand,she’llunderstand!"criedtheprince,claspinghishands。"Shewouldunderstandthatallthisisnotthepoint——notabittherealpoint——itisquiteforeigntotherealquestion。"
"Howcanitbeforeign?YouAREgoingtobemarried,areyounot?
Verywell,thenyouarepersistinginyourcourse。AREyougoingtomarryherornot?"
"Yes,Ishallmarryher——yes。"
"Thenwhyisit’notthepoint’?"
"Oh,no,itisnotthepoint,notabit。Itmakesnodifference,mymarryingher——itmeansnothing。"
"How’meansnothing’?Youaretalkingnonsense,myfriend。Youaremarryingthewomanyouloveinordertosecureherhappiness,andAglayaseesandknowsit。Howcanyousaythatit’s’notthepoint’?"
"Herhappiness?Oh,no!Iamonlymarryingher——well,becauseshewishedit。Itmeansnothing——it’sallthesame。Shewouldcertainlyhavedied。IseenowthatthatmarriagewithRogojinwasaninsaneidea。IunderstandallnowthatIdidnotunderstandbefore;and,doyouknow,whenthosetwostoodoppositetooneanother,IcouldnotbearNastasiaPhilipovna’sface!Youmustknow,EvgeniePavlovitch,Ihavenevertoldanyonebefore——notevenAglaya——thatIcannotbearNastasiaPhilipovna’sface。"Heloweredhisvoicemysteriouslyashesaidthis。YoudescribedthateveningatNastasiaPhilipovna’ssixmonthssinceveryaccuratelyjustnow;butthereisonethingwhichyoudidnotmention,andofwhichyoutooknoaccount,becauseyoudonotknow。ImeanherFACE——Ilookedatherface,yousee。EveninthemorningwhenIsawherportrait,IfeltthatIcouldnotBEAR
tolookatit。Now,there’sVeraLebedeff,forinstance,hereyesarequitedifferent,youknow。I’mAFRAIDofherface!"headded,withrealalarm。
"YouareAFRAIDofit?"
"Yes——she’smad!"hewhispered,growingpale。
"Doyouknowthisforcertain?"askedEvgenie,withthegreatestcuriosity。
"Yes,forcertain——quiteforcertain,now!IhavediscovereditABSOLUTELYforcertain,theselastfewdays。"
"Whatareyoudoing,then?"criedEvgenie,inhorror。"YoumustbemarryinghersolelyoutofFEAR,then!Ican’tmakeheadortailofit,prince。Perhapsyoudon’tevenloveher?"
"Oh,no;Iloveherwithallmysoul。Why,sheisachild!She’sachildnow——arealchild。Oh!youknownothingaboutitatall,Isee。"
"Andareyouassured,atthesametime,thatyouloveAglayatoo?"
"Yes——yes——oh;yes!"
"Howso?DoyouwanttomakeoutthatyoulovethemBOTH?"
"Yes——yes——both!Ido!"
"Excuseme,prince,butthinkwhatyouaresaying!Recollectyourself!"
"WithoutAglaya——I——IMUSTseeAglaya!——Ishalldieinmysleepverysoon——IthoughtIwasdyinginmysleeplastnight。Oh!ifAglayaonlyknewall——Imeanreally,REALLYall!BecauseshemustknowALL——that’sthefirstconditiontowardsunderstanding。Whycannotweeverknowallaboutanother,especiallywhenthatotherhasbeenguilty?ButIdon’tknowwhatI’mtalkingabout——I’msoconfused。Youpainedmesodreadfully。Surely——surelyAglayahasnotthesameexpressionnowasshehadatthemomentwhensheranaway?Oh,yes!IamguiltyandIknowit——Iknowit!ProbablyI
aminfaultallround——Idon’tquiteknowhow——butIaminfault,nodoubt。Thereissomethingelse,butIcannotexplainittoyou,EvgeniePavlovitch。Ihavenowords;butAglayawillunderstand。IhavealwaysbelievedAglayawillunderstand——Iamassuredshewill。"
"No,prince,shewillnot。Aglayalovedlikeawoman,likeahumanbeing,notlikeanabstractspirit。Doyouknowwhat,mypoorprince?Themostprobableexplanationofthematteristhatyouneverlovedeithertheoneortheotherinreality。"
"Idon’tknow——perhapsyouarerightinmuchthatyouhavesaid,EvgeniePavlovitch。Youareverywise,EvgeniePavlovitch——oh!
howmyheadisbeginningtoacheagain!Cometoher,quick——forGod’ssake,come!"
"ButItellyousheisnotinPavlofsk!She’sinColmina。"
"Oh,cometoColmina,then!Come——letusgoatonce!"
"No——no,impossible!"saidEvgenie,rising。
"Lookhere——I’llwritealetter——takealetterforme!"
"No——no,prince;youmustforgiveme,butIcan’tundertakeanysuchcommissions!Ireallycan’t。"
Andsotheyparted。
EvgeniePavlovitchleftthehousewithstrangeconvictions。He,too,feltthattheprincemustbeoutofhismind。
"AndwhatdidhemeanbythatFACE——afacewhichhesofears,andyetsoloves?Andmeanwhilehereallymaydie,ashesays,withoutseeingAglaya,andshewillneverknowhowdevotedlyhelovesher!Ha,ha,ha!Howdoesthefellowmanagetolovetwoofthem?Twodifferentkindsoflove,Isuppose!Thisisveryinteresting——pooridiot!Whatonearthwillbecomeofhimnow?"
X。
THEprincedidnotdiebeforehiswedding——eitherbydayornight,ashehadforetoldthathemight。Veryprobablyhepasseddisturbednights,andwasafflictedwithbaddreams;but,duringthedaytime,amonghisfellow-men,heseemedaskindasever,andevencontented;onlyalittlethoughtfulwhenalone。
Theweddingwashurriedon。ThedaywasfixedforexactlyaweekafterEvgenie’svisittotheprince。Inthefaceofsuchhasteasthis,eventheprince’sbestfriendsifhehadhadanywouldhavefeltthehopelessnessofanyattempttosave"thepoormadman。"RumoursaidthatinthevisitofEvgeniePavlovitchwastobediscernedtheinfluenceofLizabethaProkofievnaandherhusband……Butifthosegoodsouls,intheboundlesskindnessoftheirhearts,weredesirousofsavingtheeccentricyoungfellowfromruin,theywereunabletotakeanystrongermeasurestoattainthatend。Neithertheirposition,northeirprivateinclination,perhapsandonlynaturally,wouldallowthemtouseanymorepronouncedmeans。
Wehaveobservedbeforethatevensomeoftheprince’snearestneighbourshadbeguntoopposehim。VeraLebedeff’spassivedisagreementwaslimitedtothesheddingofafewsolitarytears;
tomorefrequentsittingaloneathome,andtoadiminishedfrequencyinhervisitstotheprince’sapartments。
Coliawasoccupiedwithhisfatheratthistime。Theoldmandiedduringasecondstroke,whichtookplacejusteightdaysafterthefirst。Theprinceshowedgreatsympathyinthegriefofthefamily,andduringthefirstdaysoftheirmourninghewasatthehouseagreatdealwithNinaAlexandrovna。Hewenttothefuneral,anditwasobservablethatthepublicassembledinchurchgreetedhisarrivalanddeparturewithwhisperings,andwatchedhimclosely。
Thesamethinghappenedintheparkandinthestreet,whereverhewent。Hewaspointedoutwhenhedroveby,andheoftenoverheardthenameofNastasiaPhilipovnacoupledwithhisownashepassed。Peoplelookedoutforheratthefuneral,too,butshewasnotthere;andanotherconspicuousabsenteewasthecaptain’swidow,whomLebedeffhadpreventedfromcoming。
Thefuneralserviceproducedagreateffectontheprince。HewhisperedtoLebedeffthatthiswasthefirsttimehehadeverheardaRussianfuneralservicesincehewasalittleboy。
Observingthathewaslookingabouthimuneasily,Lebedeffaskedhimwhomhewasseeking。
"Nothing。IonlythoughtI——"
"IsitRogojin?"
"Why——ishehere?"
"Yes,he’sinchurch。"
"IthoughtIcaughtsightofhiseyes!"mutteredtheprince,inconfusion。"Butwhatofit!——Whyishehere?Washeasked?"
"Oh,dear,no!Why,theydon’tevenknowhim!Anyonecancomein,youknow。Whydoyoulooksoamazed?Ioftenmeethim;I’veseenhimatleastfourtimes,hereatPavlofsk,withinthelastweek。"
"Ihaven’tseenhimonce——sincethatday!"theprincemurmured。
AsNastasiaPhilipovnahadnotsaidawordabouthavingmetRogojinsince"thatday,"theprinceconcludedthatthelatterhadhisownreasonsforwishingtokeepoutofsight。Allthedayofthefuneralourhero,wasinadeeplythoughtfulstate,whileNastasiaPhilipovnawasparticularlymerry,bothinthedaytimeandintheevening。
Coliahadmadeitupwiththeprincebeforehisfather’sdeath,anditwashewhourgedhimtomakeuseofKellerandBurdovsky,promisingtoanswerhimselffortheformer’sbehaviour。NinaAlexandrovnaandLebedefftriedtopersuadehimtohavetheweddinginSt。Petersburg,insteadofinthepublicfashioncontemplated,downhereatPavlofskintheheightoftheseason。
ButtheprinceonlysaidthatNastasiaPhilipovnadesiredtohaveitso,thoughhesawwellenoughwhatpromptedtheirarguments。
ThenextdayKellercametovisittheprince。Hewasinahighstateofdelightwiththepostofhonourassignedtohimatthewedding。
Beforeenteringhestoppedonthethreshold,raisedhishandasifmakingasolemnvow,andcried:
"Iwon’tdrink!"
Thenhewentuptotheprince,seizedbothhishands,shookthemwarmly,anddeclaredthathehadatfirstfelthostiletowardstheprojectofthismarriage,andhadopenlysaidsointhebilliard-rooms,butthatthereasonsimplywasthat,withtheimpatienceofafriend,hehadhopedtoseetheprincemarryatleastaPrincessdeRohanordeChabot;butthatnowhesawthattheprince’swayofthinkingwastentimesmorenoblethanthatof"alltherestputtogether。"Forhedesiredneitherpompnorwealthnorhonour,butonlythetruth!Thesympathiesofexaltedpersonageswerewellknown,andtheprincewastoohighlyplacedbyhiseducation,andsoon,nottobeinsomesenseanexaltedpersonage!
"Butallthecommonherdjudge’differently;inthetown,atthemeetings,inthevillas,attheband,intheinnsandthebilliard-rooms,thecomingeventhasonlytobementionedandthereareshoutsandcriesfromeverybody。Ihaveevenheardtalkofgettingupa’charivari’underthewindowsonthewedding-
night。Soif’youhaveneedofthepistol’ofanhonestman,prince,Iamreadytofirehalfadozenshotsevenbeforeyourisefromyournuptialcouch!"
Kelleralsoadvised,inanticipationofthecrowdmakingarushaftertheceremony,thatafire-hoseshouldbeplacedattheentrancetothehouse;butLebedeffwasopposedtothismeasure,whichhesaidmightresultintheplacebeingpulleddown。
"Iassureyou,prince,thatLebedeffisintriguingagainstyou。
Hewantstoputyouundercontrol。Imaginethat!Totake’fromyoutheuseofyourfree-willandyourmoney——that’istosay,thetwothingsthatdistinguishusfromtheanimals!Ihavehearditsaidpositively。Itisthesobertruth。"
Theprincerecollectedthatsomebodyhadtoldhimsomethingofthekindbefore,andhehad,ofcourse,scoffedatit。Heonlylaughednow,andforgotthehintatonce。
Lebedeffreallyhadbeenbusyforsomelittlewhile;but,asusual,hisplanshadbecometoocomplextosucceed,throughsheerexcessofardour。Whenhecametotheprince——theverydaybeforethewedding——toconfessforhealwaysconfessedtothepersonsagainstwhomheintrigued,especiallywhentheplanfailed,heinformedourherothathehimselfwasabornTalleyrand,butforsomeunknownreasonhadbecomesimpleLebedeff。Hethenproceededtoexplainhiswholegametotheprince,interestingthelatterexceedingly。
AccordingtoLebedeff’saccount,hehadfirsttriedwhathecoulddowithGeneralEpanchin。Thelatterinformedhimthathewishedwelltotheunfortunateyoungman,andwouldgladlydowhathecouldto"savehim,"butthathedidnotthinkitwouldbeseemlyforhimtointerfereinthismatter。LizabethaProkofievnawouldneitherhearnorseehim。PrinceS。andEvgeniePavlovitchonlyshruggedtheirshoulders,andimpliedthatitwasnobusinessoftheirs。However,Lebedeffhadnotlostheart,andwentofftoacleverlawyer,——aworthyandrespectableman,whomheknewwell。
ThisoldgentlemaninformedhimthatthethingwasperfectlyfeasibleifhecouldgetholdofcompetentwitnessesastoMuishkin’smentalincapacity。Then,withtheassistanceofafewinfluentialpersons,hewouldsoonseethematterarranged。
Lebedeffimmediatelyprocuredtheservicesofanolddoctor,andcarriedthelatterawaytoPavlofsktoseetheprince,bywayofviewingtheground,asitwere,andtogivehimLebedeff
counselastowhetherthethingwastobedoneornot。Thevisitwasnottobeofficial,butmerelyfriendly。
Muishkinrememberedthedoctor’svisitquitewell。HerememberedthatLebedeffhadsaidthathelookedill,andhadbetterseeadoctor;andalthoughtheprincescoutedtheidea,Lebedeffhadturnedupalmostimmediatelywithhisoldfriend,explainingthattheyhadjustmetatthebedsideofHippolyte,whowasveryill,andthatthedoctorhadsomethingtotelltheprinceaboutthesickman。
Theprincehad,ofcourse,atoncereceivedhim,andhadplungedintoaconversationaboutHippolyte。HehadgiventhedoctoranaccountofHippolyte’sattemptedsuicide;andhadproceededthereaftertotalkofhisownmalady,——ofSwitzerland,ofSchneider,andsoon;andsodeeplywastheoldmaninterestedbytheprince’sconversationandhisdescriptionofSchneider’ssystem,thathesatonfortwohours。
Muishkingavehimexcellentcigarstosmoke,andLebedeff,forhispart,regaledhimwithliqueurs,broughtinbyVera,towhomthedoctor——amarriedmanandthefatherofafamily——addressedsuchcomplimentsthatshewasfilledwithindignation。Theypartedfriends,and,afterleavingtheprince,thedoctorsaidtoLebedeff:"Ifallsuchpeoplewereputunderrestraint,therewouldbenooneleftforkeepers。"Lebedeffthen,intragictones,toldoftheapproachingmarriage,whereupontheothernoddedhisheadandrepliedthat,afterall,marriageslikethatwerenotsorare;thathehadheardthattheladywasveryfascinatingandofextraordinarybeauty,whichwasenoughtoexplaintheinfatuationofawealthyman;that,further,thankstotheliberalityofTotskiandofRogojin,shepossessed——sohehadheard——notonlymoney,butpearls,diamonds,shawls,andfurniture,andconsequentlyshecouldnotbeconsideredabadmatch。Inbrief,itseemedtothedoctorthattheprince’schoice,farfrombeingasignoffoolishness,denoted,onthecontrary,ashrewd,calculating,andpracticalmind。Lebedeffhadbeenmuchstruckbythispointofview,andheterminatedhisconfessionbyassuringtheprincethathewasready,ifneedbe,toshedhisverylife’sbloodforhim。
Hippolyte,too,wasasourceofsomedistractiontotheprinceatthistime;hewouldsendforhimatanyandeveryhouroftheday。Theylived,——Hippolyteandhismotherandthechildren,——inasmallhousenotfaroff,andthelittleoneswerehappy,ifonlybecausetheywereabletoescapefromtheinvalidintothegarden。TheprincehadenoughtodoinkeepingthepeacebetweentheirritableHippolyteandhismother,andeventuallytheformerbecamesomaliciousandsarcasticonthesubjectoftheapproachingwedding,thatMuishkintookoffenceatlast,andrefusedtocontinuehisvisits。
Acoupleofdayslater,however,Hippolyte’smothercamewithtearsinhereyes,andbeggedtheprincetocomeback,"orHE
wouldeatherupbodily。"SheaddedthatHippolytehadagreatsecrettodisclose。Ofcoursetheprincewent。Therewasnosecret,however,unlesswereckoncertainpantingsandagitatedglancesaroundprobablyallputonastheinvalidbeggedhisvisitorto"bewareofRogojin。"
"Heisthesortofman,"hecontinued,。"whowon’tgiveuphisobject,youknow;heisnotlikeyouandme,prince——hebelongstoquiteadifferentorderofbeings。Ifhesetshisheartonathinghewon’tbeafraidofanything——"andsoon。
Hippolytewasveryill,andlookedasthoughhecouldnotlongsurvive。Hewastearfulatfirst,butgrewmoreandmoresarcasticandmaliciousastheinterviewproceeded。
TheprincequestionedhimindetailastohishintsaboutRogojin。HewasanxioustoseizeuponsomefactswhichmightconfirmHippolyte’svaguewarnings;buttherewerenone;onlyHippolyte’sownprivateimpressionsandfeelings。
However,theinvalid——tohisimmensesatisfaction——endedbyseriouslyalarmingtheprince。
AtfirstMuishkinhadnotcaredtomakeanyreplytohissundryquestions,andonlysmiledinresponsetoHippolyte’sadviceto"runforhislife——abroad,ifnecessary。ThereareRussianpriestseverywhere,andonecangetmarriedallovertheworld。"
ButitwasHippolyte’slastideawhichupsethim。
"WhatIamreallyalarmedabout,though,"hesaid,"isAglayaIvanovna。Rogojinknowshowyouloveher。Loveforlove。YoutookNastasiaPhilipovnafromhim。HewillmurderAglayaIvanovna;forthoughsheisnotyours,ofcourse,now,stillsuchanactwouldpainyou,——wouldn’tit?"
Hehadattainedhisend。Theprinceleftthehousebesidehimselfwithterror。
ThesewarningsaboutRogojinwereexpressedonthedaybeforethewedding。ThateveningtheprincesawNastasiaPhilipovnaforthelasttimebeforetheyweretomeetatthealtar;butNastasiawasnotinapositiontogivehimanycomfortorconsolation。Onthecontrary,sheonlyaddedtohismentalperturbationastheeveningwenton。Uptothistimeshehadinvariablydoneherbesttocheerhim——shewasafraidofhislookingmelancholy;shewouldtrysingingtohim,andtellinghimeverysortoffunnystoryorreminiscencethatshecouldrecall。Theprincenearlyalwayspretendedtobeamused,whetherheweresoactuallyorno;butoftenenoughhelaughedsincerely,delightedbythebrilliancyofherwitwhenshewascarriedawaybyhernarrative,assheveryoftenwas。Nastasiawouldbewildwithjoytoseetheimpressionshehadmade,andtohearhislaughofrealamusement;andshewouldremainthewholeeveninginastateofprideandhappiness。
Butthiseveninghermelancholyandthoughtfulnessgrewwitheveryhour。
TheprincehadtoldEvgeniePavlovitchwithperfectsinceritythathelovedNastasiaPhilipovnawithallhissoul。Inhisloveforhertherewasthesortoftendernessonefeelsforasick,unhappychildwhichcannotbeleftalone。HeneverspokeofhisfeelingsforNastasiatoanyone,noteventoherself。Whentheyweretogethertheyneverdiscussedtheir"feelings,"andtherewasnothingintheircheerful,animatedconversationwhichanoutsidercouldnothaveheard。DariaAlexeyevna,withwhomNastasiawasstaying,toldafterwardshowshehadbeenfilledwithjoyanddelightonlytolookatthem,allthistime。
ThankstothemannerinwhichheregardedNastasia’smentalandmoralcondition,theprincewastosomeextentfreedfromotherperplexities。Shewasnowquitedifferentfromthewomanhehadknownthreemonthsbefore。Hewasnotastonished,forinstance,toseehernowsoimpatienttomarryhim——shewhoformerlyhadweptwithrageandhurledcursesandreproachesathimifhementionedmarriage!"Itshowsthatshenolongerfears,asshedidthen,thatshewouldmakemeunhappybymarryingme,"hethought。Andhefeltsurethatsosuddenachangecouldnotbeanaturalone。Thisrapidgrowthofself-confidencecouldnotbedueonlytoherhatredforAglaya。Tosupposethatwouldbetosuspectthedepthofherfeelings。NorcoulditarisefromdreadofthefatethatawaitedherifshemarriedRogojin。Thesecauses,indeed,aswellasothers,mighthaveplayedapartinit,butthetruereason,Muishkindecided,wastheonehehadlongsuspected——thatthepoorsicksoulhadcometotheendofitsforces。Yetthiswasanexplanationthatdidnotprocurehimanypeaceofmind。Attimesheseemedtobemakingviolenteffortstothinkofnothing,andonewouldhavesaidthathelookedonhismarriageasanunimportantformality,andonhisfuturehappinessasathingnotworthconsidering。AstoconversationssuchastheoneheldwithEvgeniePavlovitch,heavoidedthemasfaraspossible,feelingthattherewerecertainobjectionstowhichhecouldmakenoanswer。
TheprincehadobservedthatNastasiaknewwellenoughwhatAglayawastohim。Heneverspokeofit,buthehadseenherfacewhenshehadcaughthimstartingofffortheEpanchins’houseonseveraloccasions。WhentheEpanchinsleftPavlofsk,shehadbeamedwithradianceandhappiness。Unsuspiciousandunobservantashewas,hehadfearedatthattimethatNastasiamighthavesomeschemeinhermindforasceneorscandalwhichwoulddriveAglayaoutofPavlofsk。Shehadencouragedtherumoursandexcitementamongtheinhabitantsoftheplaceastohermarriagewiththeprince,inordertoannoyherrival;and,findingitdifficulttomeettheEpanchinsanywhere,shehad,ononeoccasion,takenhimforadrivepasttheirhouse。Hedidnotobservewhatwashappeninguntiltheywerealmostpassingthewindows,whenitwastoolatetodoanything。Hesaidnothing,butfortwodaysafterwardshewasill。
Nastasiadidnottrythatparticularexperimentagain。Afewdaysbeforethatfixedforthewedding,shegrewgraveandthoughtful。
Shealwaysendedbygettingthebetterofhermelancholy,andbecomingmerryandcheerfulagain,butnotquitesounaffectedlyhappyasshehadbeensomedaysearlier。
Theprinceredoubledhisattentivestudyofhersymptoms。Itwasamostcuriouscircumstance,inhisopinion,thatsheneverspokeofRogojin。Butonce,aboutfivedaysbeforethewedding,whentheprincewasathome,amessengerarrivedbegginghimtocomeatonce,asNastasiaPhilipovnawasveryill。
Hehadfoundherinaconditionapproachingtoabsolutemadness。
Shescreamed,andtrembled,andcriedoutthatRogojinwashidingoutthereinthegarden——thatshehadseenhimherself——andthathewouldmurderherinthenight——thathewouldcutherthroat。
Shewasterriblyagitatedallday。ButitsohappenedthattheprincecalledatHippolyte’shouselateron,andheardfromhismotherthatshehadbeenintownallday,andhadtherereceivedavisitfromRogojin,whohadmadeinquiriesaboutPavlofsk。Oninquiry,itturnedoutthatRogojinvisitedtheoldladyintownatalmostthesamemomentwhenNastasiadeclaredthatshehadseenhiminthegarden;sothatthewholethingturnedouttobeanillusiononherpart。NastasiaimmediatelywentacrosstoHippolyte’stoinquiremoreaccurately,andreturnedimmenselyrelievedandcomforted。
Onthedaybeforethewedding,theprinceleftNastasiainastateofgreatanimation。Herwedding-dressandallsortsoffineryhadjustarrivedfromtown。Muishkinhadnotimaginedthatshewouldbesoexcitedoverit,buthepraisedeverything,andhispraiserenderedherdoublyhappy。
ButNastasiacouldnothidethecauseofherintenseinterestinherweddingsplendour。Shehadheardoftheindignationinthetown,andknewthatsomeofthepopulacewasgettingupasortofcharivariwithmusic,thatverseshadbeencomposedfortheoccasion,andthattherestofPavlofsksocietymoreorlessencouragedthesepreparations。So,sinceattemptswerebeingmadetohumiliateher,shewantedtoholdherheadevenhigherthanusual,andtooverwhelmthemallwiththebeautyandtasteofhertoilette。"Letthemshoutandwhistle,iftheydare!"Hereyesflashedatthethought。But,underneaththis,shehadanothermotive,ofwhichshedidnotspeak。ShethoughtthatpossiblyAglaya,oratanyratesomeonesentbyher,wouldbepresentincognitoattheceremony,orinthecrowd,andshewishedtobepreparedforthiseventuality。
Theprinceleftherateleven,fullofthesethoughts,andwenthome。Butitwasnottwelveo’clockwhenamessengercametosaythatNastasiawasverybad,andhemustcomeatonce。
Onhurryingbackhefoundhisbridelockedupinherownroomandcouldhearherhystericalcriesandsobs。Itwassometimebeforeshecouldbemadetohearthattheprincehadcome,andthensheopenedthedooronlyjustsufficientlytolethimin,andimmediatelylockeditbehindhim。Shethenfellonherkneesathisfeet。SoatleastDanaAlexeyevnareported。
"WhatamIdoing?WhatamIdoingtoyou?"shesobbedconvulsively,embracinghisknees。
Theprincewasawholehoursoothingandcomfortingher,andlefther,atlength,pacifiedandcomposed。Hesentanothermessengerduringthenighttoinquireafterher,andtwomorenextmorning。
ThelastbroughtbackamessagethatNastasiawassurroundedbyawholearmyofdressmakersandmaids,andwasashappyandasbusyassuchabeautyshouldbeonherweddingmorning,andthattherewasnotavestigeofyesterday’sagitationremaining。Themessageconcludedwiththenewsthatatthemomentofthebearer’sdeparturetherewasagreatconfabulationinprogressastowhichdiamondsweretobeworn,andhow。
Thismessageentirelycalmedtheprince’smind。
Thefollowingreportoftheproceedingsontheweddingdaymaybedependedupon,ascomingfromeye-witnesses。
Theweddingwasfixedforeighto’clockintheevening。NastasiaPhilipovnawasreadyatseven。Fromsixo’clockgroupsofpeoplebegantogatheratNastasia’shouse,attheprince’s,andatthechurchdoor,butmoreespeciallyattheformerplace。Thechurchbegantofillatseven。
ColiaandVeraLebedeffwereveryanxiousontheprince’saccount,buttheyweresobusyoverthearrangementsforreceivingtheguestsafterthewedding,thattheyhadnotmuchtimefortheindulgenceofpersonalfeelings。
Thereweretobeveryfewguestsbesidesthebestmenandsoon;
onlyDanaAlexeyevna,thePtitsins,Gania,andthedoctor。WhentheprinceaskedLebedeffwhyhehadinvitedthedoctor,whowasalmostastranger,Lebedeffreplied:
"Why,hewearsan’order,’anditlookssowell!"
Thisideaamusedtheprince。
KellerandBurdovskylookedwonderfullycorrectintheirdress-
coatsandwhitekidgloves,althoughKellercausedthebridegroomsomealarmbyhisundisguisedlyhostileglancesatthegatheringcrowdofsight-seersoutside。
Atabouthalf-pastseventheprincestartedforthechurchinhiscarriage。
Wemayremarkherethatheseemedanxiousnottoomitasingleoneoftherecognizedcustomsandtraditionsobservedatweddings。Hewishedalltobedoneasopenlyaspossible,and"indueorder。"
Arrivedatthechurch,Muishkin,underKeller’sguidance,passedthroughthecrowdofspectators,amidcontinuouswhisperingandexcitedexclamations。Theprincestayednearthealtar,whileKellermadeoffoncemoretofetchthebride。
OnreachingthegateofDariaAlexeyevna’shouse,Kellerfoundafardensercrowdthanhehadencounteredattheprince’s。TheremarksandexclamationsofthespectatorsherewereofsoirritatinganaturethatKellerwasverynearmakingthemaspeechontheimproprietyoftheirconduct,butwasluckilycaughtbyBurdovsky,intheactofturningtoaddressthem,andhurriedindoors。
NastasiaPhilipovnawasready。Sherosefromherseat,lookedintotheglassandremarked,asKellertoldthetaleafterwards,thatshewas"aspaleasacorpse。"Shethenbentherheadreverently,beforetheikoninthecorner,andlefttheroom。
Atorrentofvoicesgreetedherappearanceatthefrontdoor。Thecrowdwhistled,clappeditshands,andlaughedandshouted;butinamomentortwoisolatedvoicesweredistinguishable。
"Whatabeauty!"criedone。
"Well,sheisn’tthefirstintheworld,northelast,"saidanother。
"Marriagecoverseverything,"observedathird。
"Idefyyoutofindanotherbeautylikethat,"saidafourth。
"She’sarealprincess!I’dsellmysoulforsuchaprincessasthat!"
Nastasiacameoutofthehouselookingaswhiteasanyhandkerchief;butherlargedarkeyesshoneuponthevulgarcrowdlikeblazingcoals。Thespectators’crieswereredoubled,andbecamemoreexultantandtriumphanteverymoment。Thedoorofthecarriagewasopen,andKellerhadgivenhishandtothebridetohelpherin,whensuddenlywithaloudcrysherushedfromhim,straightintothesurgingcrowd。Herfriendsaboutherwerestupefiedwithamazement;thecrowdpartedassherushedthroughit,andsuddenly,atadistanceoffiveorsixyardsfromthecarriage,appearedRogojin。Itwashislookthathadcaughthereyes。
Nastasiarushedtohimlikeamadwoman,andseizedbothhishands。
"Saveme!"shecried。"Takemeaway,anywhereyoulike,quick!"
Rogojinseizedherinhisarmsandalmostcarriedhertothecarriage。Then,inaflash,hetoreahundred-roublenoteoutofhispocketandheldittothecoachman。
"Tothestation,quick!Ifyoucatchthetrainyoushallhaveanother。Quick!"
HeleapedintothecarriageafterNastasiaandbangedthedoor。
Thecoachmandidnothesitateamoment;hewhippedupthehorses,andtheywereoft。
"OnemoresecondandIshouldhavestoppedhim,"saidKeller,afterwards。Infact,heandBurdovskyjumpedintoanothercarriageandsetoffinpursuit;butitstruckthemastheydrovealongthatitwasnotmuchusetryingtobringNastasiabackbyforce。
"Besides,"saidBurdovsky,"theprincewouldnotlikeit,wouldhe?"Sotheygaveupthepursuit。
RogojinandNastasiaPhilipovnareachedthestationjustintimeforthetrain。Ashejumpedoutofthecarriageandwasalmostonthepointofenteringthetrain,Rogojinaccostedayounggirlstandingontheplatformandwearinganold-fashioned,butrespectable-looking,blackcloakandasilkhandkerchiefoverherhead。
"Takefiftyroublesforyourcloak?"heshouted,holdingthemoneyouttothegirl。Beforetheastonishedyoungwomancouldcollectherscatteredsenses,hepushedthemoneyintoherhand,seizedthemantle,andthrewitandthehandkerchiefoverNastasia’sheadandshoulders。Thelatter’swedding-arraywouldhaveattractedtoomuchattention,anditwasnotuntilsometimelaterthatthegirlunderstoodwhyheroldcloakandkerchiefhadbeenboughtatsuchaprice。
Thenewsofwhathadhappenedreachedthechurchwithextraordinaryrapidity。WhenKellerarrived,ahostofpeoplewhomhedidnotknowthrongedaroundtoaskhimquestions。Therewasmuchexcitedtalking,andshakingofheads,evensomelaughter;butnooneleftthechurch,allbeinganxioustoobservehowthenowcelebratedbridegroomwouldtakethenews。Hegrewverypaleuponhearingit,buttookitquitequietly。
"Iwasafraid,"hemuttered,scarcelyaudibly,"butIhardlythoughtitwouldcometothis。"Thenafterashortsilence,headded:"However,inherstate,itisquiteconsistentwiththenaturalorderofthings。"
EvenKelleradmittedafterwardsthatthiswas"extraordinarilyphilosophical"ontheprince’spart。Heleftthechurchquitecalm,toallappearances,asmanywitnesseswerefoundtodeclareafterwards。Heseemedanxioustoreachhomeandbeleftaloneasquicklyaspossible;butthiswasnottobe。Hewasaccompaniedbynearlyalltheinvitedguests,andbesidesthis,thehousewasalmostbesiegedbyexcitedbandsofpeople,whoinsisteduponbeingallowedtoentertheverandah。TheprinceheardKellerandLebedeffremonstratingandquarrellingwiththeseunknownindividuals,andsoonwentouthimself。Heapproachedthedisturbersofhispeace,requestedcourteouslytobetoldwhatwasdesired;thenpolitelyputtingLebedeffandKelleraside,headdressedanoldgentlemanwhowasstandingontheverandahstepsattheheadofthebandofwould-beguests,andcourteouslyrequestedhimtohonourhimwithavisit。Theoldfellowwasquitetakenabackbythis,butentered,followedbyafewmore,whotriedtoappearattheirease。Therestremainedoutside,andpresentlythewholecrowdwascensuringthosewhohadacceptedtheinvitation。Theprinceofferedseatstohisstrangevisitors,teawasserved,andageneralconversationsprangup。Everythingwasdonemostdecorously,totheconsiderablesurpriseoftheintruders。Afewtentativeattemptsweremadetoturntheconversationtotheeventsoftheday,andafewindiscreetquestionswereasked;butMuishkinrepliedtoeverybodywithsuchsimplicityandgood-humour,andatthesametimewithsomuchdignity,andshowedsuchconfidenceinthegoodbreedingofhisguests,thattheindiscreettalkerswerequicklysilenced。Bydegreestheconversationbecamealmostserious。Onegentlemansuddenlyexclaimed,withgreatvehemence:"Whateverhappens,I
shallnotsellmyproperty;Ishallwait。Enterpriseisbetterthanmoney,andthere,sir,youhavemywholesystemofeconomy,ifyouwish!"Headdressedtheprince,whowarmlycommendedhissentiments,thoughLebedeffwhisperedinhisearthatthisgentleman,whotalkedsomuchofhis"property,"hadneverhadeitherhouseorhome。
Nearlyanhourpassedthus,andwhenteawasoverthevisitorsseemedtothinkthatitwastimetogo。Astheywentout,thedoctorandtheoldgentlemanbadeMuishkinawarmfarewell,andalltheresttooktheirleavewithheartyprotestationsofgood-
will,droppingremarkstotheeffectthat"itwasnouseworrying,"andthat"perhapsallwouldturnoutforthebest,"
andsoon。Someoftheyoungerintruderswouldhaveaskedforchampagne,buttheywerecheckedbytheolderones。Whenallhaddeparted,KellerleanedovertoLebedeff,andsaid:
"Withyouandmetherewouldhavebeenascene。Weshouldhaveshoutedandfought,andcalledinthepolice。Buthehassimplymadesomenewfriends——andsuchfriends,too!Iknowthem!"
Lebedeff,whowasslightlyintoxicated,answeredwithasigh:
"Thingsarehiddenfromthewiseandprudent,andrevealeduntobabes。Ihaveappliedthosewordstohimbefore,butnowIaddthatGodhaspreservedthebabehimselffromtheabyss,HeandallHissaints。"
Atlast,abouthalf-pastten,theprincewasleftalone。Hisheadached。Coliawasthelasttogo,afterhavinghelpedhimtochangehisweddingclothes。Theypartedonaffectionateterms,and,withoutspeakingofwhathadhappened,Coliapromisedtocomeveryearlythenextday。Hesaidlaterthattheprincehadgivennohintofhisintentionswhentheysaidgood-bye,buthadhiddenthemevenfromhim。Soontherewashardlyanyoneleftinthehouse。BurdovskyhadgonetoseeHippolyte;KellerandLebedeffhadwanderedofftogethersomewhere。
OnlyVeraLebedeffremainedhurriedlyrearrangingthefurnitureintherooms。Asshelefttheverandah,sheglancedattheprince。Hewasseatedatthetable,withbothelbowsuponit,andhisheadrestingonhishands。Sheapproachedhim,andtouchedhisshouldergently。Theprincestartedandlookedatherinperplexity;heseemedtobecollectinghissensesforaminuteorso,beforehecouldrememberwherehewas。Asrecollectiondawneduponhim,hebecameviolentlyagitated。Allhedid,however,wastoaskVeraveryearnestlytoknockathisdoorandawakehimintimeforthefirsttraintoPetersburgnextmorning。Verapromised,andtheprinceentreatedhernottotellanyoneofhisintention。Shepromisedthis,too;andatlast,whenshehadhalf-closedthedoor,becalledherbackathirdtime,tookherhandsinhis,kissedthem,thenkissedherforehead,andinaratherpeculiarmannersaidtoher,"Untiltomorrow!"
SuchwasVera’sstoryafterwards。
Shewentawayingreatanxietyabouthim,butwhenshesawhiminthemorning,heseemedtobequitehimselfagain,greetedherwithasmile,andtoldherthathewouldverylikelybebackbytheevening。ItappearsthathedidnotconsideritnecessarytoinformanyoneexceptingVeraofhisdeparturefortown。
XI。
ANhourlaterhewasinSt。Petersburg,andbyteno’clockhehadrungthebellatRogojin’s。
Hehadgonetothefrontdoor,andwaskeptwaitingalongwhilebeforeanyonecame。AtlastthedoorofoldMrs。Rogojin’sflatwasopened,andanagedservantappeared。
"ParfenSemionovitchisnotathome,"sheannouncedfromthedoorway。"Whomdoyouwant?"
"ParfenSemionovitch。"
"Heisnotin。"
Theoldwomanexaminedtheprincefromheadtofootwithgreatcuriosity。
"Atalleventstellmewhetherhesleptathomelastnight,andwhetherhecamealone?"
Theoldwomancontinuedtostareathim,butsaidnothing。
"WasnotNastasiaPhilipovnaherewithhim,yesterdayevening?"
"And,pray,whoareyouyourself?"
"PrinceLefNicolaievitchMuishkin;heknowsmewell。"
"Heisnotathome。"
Thewomanloweredhereyes。
"AndNastasiaPhilipovna?"
"Iknownothingaboutit。"
"Stopaminute!Whenwillhecomeback?"
"Idon’tknowthateither。"
Thedoorwasshutwiththesewords,andtheoldwomandisappeared。Theprincedecidedtocomebackwithinanhour。Passingoutofthehouse,hemettheporter。
"IsParfenSemionovitchathome?"heasked。
"Yes。"
"Whydidtheytellmehewasnotathome,then?""Wheredidtheytellyouso,——athisdoor?""No,athismother’sflat;IrangatParfenSemionovitch’sdoorandnobodycame。"
"Well,hemayhavegoneout。Ican’ttell。Sometimeshetakesthekeyswithhim,andleavestheroomsemptyfortwoorthreedays。"
"Doyouknowforcertainthathewasathomelastnight?"
"Yes,hewas。"
"WasNastasiaPhilipovnawithhim?"
"Idon’tknow;shedoesn’tcomeoften。IthinkIshouldhaveknownifshehadcome。"
Theprincewentoutdeepinthought,andwalkedupanddownthepavementforsometime。ThewindowsofalltheroomsoccupiedbyRogojinwereclosed,thoseofhismother’sapartmentswereopen。
Itwasahot,brightday。Theprincecrossedtheroadinordertohaveagoodlookatthewindowsagain;notonlywereRogojin’sclosed,butthewhiteblindswerealldownaswell。
Hestoodthereforaminuteandthen,suddenlyandstrangelyenough,itseemedtohimthatalittlecornerofoneoftheblindswaslifted,andRogojin’sfaceappearedforaninstantandthenvanished。Hewaitedanotherminute,anddecidedtogoandringthebelloncemore;however,hethoughtbetterofitagainandputitoffforanhour。
ThechiefobjectinhismindatthismomentwastogetasquicklyashecouldtoNastasiaPhilipovna’slodging。Herememberedthat,notlongsince,whenshehadleftPavlofskathisrequest,hehadbeggedhertoputupintownatthehouseofarespectablewidow,whohadwell-furnishedroomstolet,neartheIsmailofskybarracks。ProbablyNastasiahadkepttheroomswhenshecamedowntoPavlofskthislasttime;andmostlikelyshewouldhavespentthenightinthem,Rogojinhavingtakenherstraighttherefromthestation。
Theprincetookadroshky。Itstruckhimashedroveonthatheoughttohavebegunbycominghere,sinceitwasmostimprobablethatRogojinshouldhavetakenNastasiatohisownhouselastnight。Herememberedthattheportersaidsheveryrarelycameatall,sothatitwasstilllesslikelythatshewouldhavegonetheresolateatnight。
Vainlytryingtocomforthimselfwiththesereflections,theprincereachedtheIsmailofskybarracksmoredeadthanalive。
TohisconsternationthegoodpeopleatthelodgingshadnotonlyheardnothingofNastasia,butallcameouttolookathimasifhewereamarvelofsomesort。Thewholefamily,ofallages,surroundedhim,andhewasbeggedtoenter。Heguessedatoncethattheyknewperfectlywellwhohewas,andthatyesterdayoughttohavebeenhiswedding-day;andfurtherthattheyweredyingtoaskaboutthewedding,andespeciallyaboutwhyheshouldbeherenow,inquiringforthewomanwhoinallreasonablehumanprobabilitymighthavebeenexpectedtobewithhiminPavlofsk。
Hesatisfiedtheircuriosity,inasfewwordsaspossible,withregardtothewedding,buttheirexclamationsandsighsweresonumerousandsincerethathewasobligedtotellthewholestory——
inashortform,ofcourse。TheadviceofalltheseagitatedladieswasthattheprinceshouldgoatonceandknockatRogojin’suntilhewasletin:andwhenletininsistuponasubstantialexplanationofeverything。IfRogojinwasreallynotathome,theprincewasadvisedtogotoacertainhouse,theaddressofwhichwasgiven,wherelivedaGermanlady,afriendofNastasiaPhilipovna’s。Itwaspossiblethatshemighthavespentthenightthereinheranxietytoconcealherself。
Theprincerosefromhisseatinaconditionofmentalcollapse。
Thegoodladiesreportedafterwardsthat"hispallorwasterribletosee,andhislegsseemedtogivewayunderneathhim。"Withdifficultyhewasmadetounderstandthathisnewfriendswouldbegladofhisaddress,inordertoactwithhimifpossible。
Afteramoment’sthoughthegavetheaddressofthesmallhotel,onthestairsofwhichhehadhadafitsomefiveweekssince。HethensetoffoncemoreforRogojin’s。
ThistimetheyneitheropenedthedooratRogojin’sflatnorattheoneopposite。Theprincefoundtheporterwithdifficulty,butwhenfound,themanwouldhardlylookathimoranswerhisquestions,pretendingtobebusy。Eventually,however,hewaspersuadedtoreplysofarastostatethatRogojinhadleftthehouseearlyinthemorningandgonetoPavlofsk,andthathewouldnotreturntodayatall。
"Ishallwait;hemaycomebackthisevening。"
"Hemaynotbehomeforaweek。"
"Then,atallevents,heDIDsleephere,didhe?"
"Well——hedidsleephere,yes。"