Raskolnikov'sthoughtswereinawhirl。Hewasinterribleexasperation。
“Theworstofitistheydon'tdisguiseit;theydon'tcaretostandonceremony!Andhowifyoudidn'tknowmeatall,didyoucometotalktoNikodimFomitchaboutme?Sotheydidn'tcaretohidethattheyaretrackingmelikeapackofdogs。Theysimplyspitinmyface。“Hewasshakingwithrage。“Come,strikemeopenly,don'tplaywithmelikeacatwithamouse。It'shardlycivil,PorfiryPetrovitch,butperhapsIwon'tallowit!Ishallgetupandthrowthewholetruthinyouruglyfaces,andyou'llseehowIdespiseyou。“
Hecouldhardlybreathe。“Andwhatifit'sonlymyfancy?WhatifIammistaken,andthroughinexperienceIgetangryanddon'tkeepupmynastypart?Perhapsit'sallunintentional。Alltheirphrasesaretheusualones,butthereissomethingaboutthem……Itallmightbesaid,butthereissomething。Whydidhesaybluntly,'Withher'?
WhydidZametovaddthatIspokeartfully?Whydotheyspeakinthattone?Yes,thetone……Razumihinissittinghere,whydoesheseenothing?Thatinnocentblockheadneverdoesseeanything!Feverishagain!DidPorfirywinkatmejustnow?Ofcourseit'snonsense!
Whatcouldhewinkfor?Aretheytryingtoupsetmynervesoraretheyteasingme?Eitherit'sillfancyortheyknow!EvenZametovisrude……IsZametovrude?Zametovhaschangedhismind。Iforesawhewouldchangehismind!Heisathomehere,whileit'smyfirstvisit。Porfirydoesnotconsiderhimavisitor;sitswithhisbacktohim。They'reasthickasthieves,nodoubt,overme!Notadoubttheyweretalkingaboutmebeforewecame。Dotheyknowabouttheflat?Ifonlythey'dmakehaste!WhenIsaidthatIranawaytotakeaflatheletitpass……Iputthatincleverlyaboutaflat,itmaybeofuseafterwards……Delirious,indeed……ha-ha-ha!Heknowsallaboutlastnight!Hedidn'tknowofmymother'sarrival!Thehaghadwrittenthedateoninpencil!Youarewrong,youwon'tcatchme!
Therearenofacts……it'sallsupposition!Youproducefacts!Theflatevenisn'tafactbutdelirium。Iknowwhattosaytothem……Dotheyknowabouttheflat?Iwon'tgowithoutfindingout。WhatdidI
comefor?Butmybeingangrynow,maybeisafact!Fool,howirritableIam!Perhapsthat'sright;toplaytheinvalid……Heisfeelingme。Hewilltrytocatchme。WhydidIcome?”
Allthisflashedlikelightningthroughhismind。
PorfiryPetrovitchreturnedquickly。Hebecamesuddenlymorejovial。
“Yourpartyyesterday,brother,hasleftmyheadrather……AndIamoutofsortsaltogether,“hebeganinquiteadifferenttone,laughingtoRazumihin。
“Wasitinteresting?Ileftyouyesterdayatthemostinterestingpoint。Whogotthebestofit?”
“Oh,noone,ofcourse。Theygotontoeverlastingquestions,floatedoffintospace。“
“Onlyfancy,Rodya,whatwegotontoyesterday。Whetherthereissuchathingascrime。Itoldyouthatwetalkedourheadsoff。“
“Whatistherestrange?It'saneverydaysocialquestion,“
Raskolnikovansweredcasually。
“Thequestionwasn'tputquitelikethat,“observedPorfiry。
“Notquite,that'strue,“Razumihinagreedatonce,gettingwarmandhurriedasusual。“Listen,Rodion,andtellusyouropinion,Iwanttohearit。Iwasfightingtoothandnailwiththemandwantedyoutohelpme。Itoldthemyouwerecoming……Itbeganwiththesocialistdoctrine。Youknowtheirdoctrine;crimeisaprotestagainsttheabnormalityofthesocialorganizationandnothingmore,andnothingmore;noothercausesadmitted!……“
“Youarewrongthere,“criedPorfiryPetrovitch;hewasnoticeablyanimatedandkeptlaughingashelookedatRazumihinwhichmadehimmoreexcitedthanever。
“Nothingisadmitted,“Razumihininterruptedwithheat。
“Iamnotwrong。I'llshowyoutheirpamphlets。Everythingwiththemis'theinfluenceofenvironment,'andnothingelse。Theirfavouritephrase!Fromwhichitfollowsthat,ifsocietyisnormallyorganized,allcrimewillceaseatonce,sincetherewillbenothingtoprotestagainstandallmenwillbecomerighteousinoneinstant。
Humannatureisnottakenintoaccount,itisexcluded,it'snotsupposedtoexist!Theydon'trecognisethathumanity,developingbyahistoricallivingprocess,willbecomeatlastanormalsociety,buttheybelievethatasocialsystemthathascomeoutofsomemathematicalbrainisgoingtoorganiseallhumanityatonceandmakeitjustandsinlessinaninstant,quickerthananylivingprocess!That'swhytheyinstinctivelydislikehistory,'nothingbutuglinessandstupidityinit,'andtheyexplainitallasstupidity!
That'swhytheysodislikethelivingprocessoflife;theydon'twantalivingsoul!Thelivingsouldemandslife,thesoulwon'tobeytherulesofmechanics,thesoulisanobjectofsuspicion,thesoulisretrograde!ButwhattheywantthoughitsmellsofdeathandcanbemadeofIndia-rubber,atleastisnotalive,hasnowill,isservileandwon'trevolt!Anditcomesintheendtotheirreducingeverythingtothebuildingofwallsandtheplanningofroomsandpassagesinaphalanstery!Thephalansteryisready,indeed,butyourhumannatureisnotreadyforthephalanstery-itwantslife,ithasn'tcompleteditsvitalprocess,it'stoosoonforthegraveyard!Youcan'tskipovernaturebylogic。Logicpresupposesthreepossibilities,buttherearemillions!Cutawayamillion,andreduceitalltothequestionofcomfort!That'stheeasiestsolutionoftheproblem!It'sseductivelyclearandyoumusn'tthinkaboutit。That'sthegreatthing,youmustn'tthink!Thewholesecretoflifeintwopagesofprint!”
“Nowheisoff,beatingthedrum!Catchholdofhim,do!”laughedPorfiry。“Canyouimagine,“heturnedtoRaskolnikov,“sixpeopleholdingforthlikethatlastnight,inoneroom,withpunchasapreliminary!No,brother,youarewrong,environmentaccountsforagreatdealincrime;Icanassureyouofthat。“
“Oh,Iknowitdoes,butjusttellme:amanoffortyviolatesachildoften;wasitenvironmentdrovehimtoit?”
“Well,strictlyspeaking,itdid,“Porfiryobservedwithnoteworthygravity;“acrimeofthatnaturemaybeverywellascribedtotheinfluenceofenvironment。“
Razumihinwasalmostinafrenzy。“Oh,ifyoulike,“heroared。
“I'llprovetoyouthatyourwhiteeyelashesmayverywellbeascribedtotheChurchofIvantheGreat'sbeingtwohundredandfiftyfeethigh,andIwillproveitclearly,exactly,progressively,andevenwithaLiberaltendency!Iundertaketo!Willyoubetonit?”
“Done!Let'shear,please,howhewillproveit!”
“Heisalwayshumbugging,confoundhim,“criedRazumihin,jumpingupandgesticulating。“What'stheuseoftalkingtoyou!Hedoesallthatonpurpose;youdon'tknowhim,Rodion!Hetooktheirsideyesterday,simplytomakefoolsofthem。Andthethingshesaidyesterday!Andtheyweredelighted!Hecankeepitupforafortnighttogether。Lastyearhepersuadedusthathewasgoingintoamonastery:hestucktoitfortwomonths。Notlongagohetookitintohisheadtodeclarehewasgoingtogetmarried,thathehadeverythingreadyforthewedding。Heorderednewclothesindeed。Weallbegantocongratulatehim。Therewasnobride,nothing,allpurefantasy!”
“Ah,youarewrong!Igottheclothesbefore。Itwasthenewclothesinfactthatmademethinkoftakingyouin。“
“Areyousuchagooddissembler?”Raskolnikovaskedcarelessly。
“Youwouldn'thavesupposedit,eh?Waitabit,Ishalltakeyouin,too。Ha-ha-ha!No,I'lltellyouthetruth。Allthesequestionsaboutcrime,environment,children,recalltomymindanarticleofyourswhichinterestedmeatthetime。'OnCrime'……orsomethingofthesort,Iforgetthetitle,IreaditwithpleasuretwomonthsagointhePeriodicalReview。“
“Myarticle?InthePeriodicalReview?”Raskolnikovaskedinastonishment。“IcertainlydidwriteanarticleuponabooksixmonthsagowhenIlefttheuniversity,butIsentittotheWeeklyReview。“
“ButitcameoutinthePeriodical。“
“AndtheWeeklyReviewceasedtoexist,sothat'swhyitwasn'tprintedatthetime。“
“That'strue;butwhenitceasedtoexist,theWeeklyReviewwasamalgamatedwiththePeriodical,andsoyourarticleappearedtwomonthsagointhelatter。Didn'tyouknow?”
Raskolnikovhadnotknown。
“Why,youmightgetsomemoneyoutofthemforthearticle!Whatastrangepersonyouare!Youleadsuchasolitarylifethatyouknownothingofmattersthatconcernyoudirectly。It'safact,Iassureyou。“
“Bravo,Rodya!Iknewnothingaboutiteither!”criedRazumihin。
“I'llrunto-daytothereading-roomandaskforthenumber。Twomonthsago?Whatwasthedate?Itdoesn'tmatterthough,Iwillfindit。Thinkofnottellingus!”
“Howdidyoufindoutthatthearticlewasmine?It'sonlysignedwithaninitial。“
“Ionlylearntitbychance,theotherday。Throughtheeditor;I
knowhim……Iwasverymuchinterested。“
“Itanalysed,ifIremember,thepsychologyofacriminalbeforeandafterthecrime。“
“Yes,andyoumaintainedthattheperpetrationofacrimeisalwaysaccompaniedbyillness。Very,veryoriginal,but……itwasnotthatpartofyourarticlethatinterestedmesomuch,butanideaattheendofthearticlewhichIregrettosayyoumerelysuggestedwithoutworkingitoutclearly。Thereis,ifyourecollect,asuggestionthattherearecertainpersonswhocan……thatis,notpreciselyareableto,buthaveaperfectrighttocommitbreachesofmoralityandcrimes,andthatthelawisnotforthem。“
Raskolnikovsmiledattheexaggeratedandintentionaldistortionofhisidea。
“What?Whatdoyoumean?Arighttocrime?Butnotbecauseoftheinfluenceofenvironment?”Razumihininquiredwithsomealarmeven。
“No,notexactlybecauseofit,“answeredPorfiry。“Inhisarticleallmenaredividedinto'ordinary'and'extraordinary。'Ordinarymenhavetoliveinsubmission,havenorighttotransgressthelaw,because,don'tyousee,theyareordinary。Butextraordinarymenhavearighttocommitanycrimeandtotransgressthelawinanyway,justbecausetheyareextraordinary。Thatwasyouridea,ifIamnotmistaken?”
“Whatdoyoumean?Thatcan'tberight?”Razumihinmutteredinbewilderment。
Raskolnikovsmiledagain。Hesawthepointatonce,andknewwheretheywantedtodrivehim。Hedecidedtotakeupthechallenge。
“Thatwasn'tquitemycontention,“hebegansimplyandmodestly。
“YetIadmitthatyouhavestateditalmostcorrectly;perhaps,ifyoulike,perfectlyso。“Italmostgavehimpleasuretoadmitthis。“TheonlydifferenceisthatIdon'tcontendthatextraordinarypeoplearealwaysboundtocommitbreachesofmorals,asyoucallit。Infact,Idoubtwhethersuchanargumentcouldbepublished。Isimplyhintedthatan'extraordinary'manhastheright……thatisnotanofficialright,butaninnerrighttodecideinhisownconsciencetooverstep……certainobstacles,andonlyincaseitisessentialforthepracticalfulfilmentofhisideasometimes,perhaps,ofbenefittothewholeofhumanity。Yousaythatmyarticleisn'tdefinite;I
amreadytomakeitasclearasIcan。PerhapsIamrightinthinkingyouwantmeto;verywell。ImaintainthatifthediscoveriesofKeplerandNewtoncouldnothavebeenmadeknownexceptbysacrificingthelivesofone,adozen,ahundred,ormoremen,Newtonwouldhavehadtheright,wouldindeedhavebeenindutybound……toeliminatethedozenorthehundredmenforthesakeofmakinghisdiscoveriesknowntothewholeofhumanity。ButitdoesnotfollowfromthatthatNewtonhadarighttomurderpeoplerightandleftandtostealeverydayinthemarket。Then,Iremember,I
maintaininmyarticlethatall……well,legislatorsandleadersofmen,suchasLycurgus,Solon,Mahomet,Napoleon,andsoon,wereallwithoutexceptioncriminals,fromtheveryfactthat,makinganewlaw,theytransgressedtheancientone,handeddownfromtheirancestorsandheldsacredbythepeople,andtheydidnotstopshortatbloodshedeither,ifthatbloodshed-oftenofinnocentpersonsfightingbravelyindefenceofancientlaw-wereofusetotheircause。It'sremarkable,infact,thatthemajority,indeed,ofthesebenefactorsandleadersofhumanitywereguiltyofterriblecarnage。
Inshort,Imaintainthatallgreatmenorevenmenalittleoutofthecommon,thatistosaycapableofgivingsomenewword,mustfromtheirverynaturebecriminals-moreorless,ofcourse。
Otherwiseit'shardforthemtogetoutofthecommonrut;andtoremaininthecommonrutiswhattheycan'tsubmitto,fromtheirverynatureagain,andtomymindtheyoughtnot,indeed,tosubmittoit。Youseethatthereisnothingparticularlynewinallthat。Thesamethinghasbeenprintedandreadathousandtimesbefore。Asformydivisionofpeopleintoordinaryandextraordinary,Iacknowledgethatit'ssomewhatarbitrary,butIdon'tinsistuponexactnumbers。I
onlybelieveinmyleadingideathatmenareingeneraldividedbyalawofnatureintotwocategories,inferiorordinary,thatis,sotosay,materialthatservesonlytoreproduceitskind,andmenwhohavethegiftorthetalenttoutteranewword。Thereare,ofcourse,innumerablesub-divisions,butthedistinguishingfeaturesofbothcategoriesarefairlywellmarked。Thefirstcategory,generallyspeaking,aremenconservativeintemperamentandlaw-abiding;theyliveundercontrolandlovetobecontrolled。Tomythinkingitistheirdutytobecontrolled,becausethat'stheirvocation,andthereisnothinghumiliatinginitforthem。Thesecondcategoryalltransgressthelaw;theyaredestroyersordisposedtodestructionaccordingtotheircapacities。Thecrimesofthesemenareofcourserelativeandvaried;forthemostparttheyseekinveryvariedwaysthedestructionofthepresentforthesakeofthebetter。Butifsuchaoneisforcedforthesakeofhisideatostepoveracorpseorwadethroughblood,hecan,Imaintain,findwithinhimself,inhisconscience,asanctionforwadingthroughblood-thatdependsontheideaanditsdimensions,notethat。It'sonlyinthatsenseIspeakoftheirrighttocrimeinmyarticleyourememberitbeganwiththelegalquestion。There'snoneedforsuchanxiety,however;themasseswillscarcelyeveradmitthisright,theypunishthemorhangthemmoreorless,andindoingsofulfilquitejustlytheirconservativevocation。Butthesamemassessetthesecriminalsonapedestalinthenextgenerationandworshipthemmoreorless。Thefirstcategoryisalwaysthemanofthepresent,thesecondthemanofthefuture。Thefirstpreservetheworldandpeopleit,thesecondmovetheworldandleadittoitsgoal。Eachclasshasanequalrighttoexist。Infact,allhaveequalrightswithme-andvivelaguerreeternelle-
tilltheNewJerusalem,ofcourse!”
“ThenyoubelieveintheNewJerusalem,doyou?”
“Ido,“Raskolnikovansweredfirmly;ashesaidthesewordsandduringthewholeprecedingtiradehekepthiseyesononespotonthecarpet。
“And……anddoyoubelieveinGod?Excusemycuriosity。“
“Ido,“repeatedRaskolnikov,raisinghiseyestoPorfiry。
“And……doyoubelieveinLazarus'risingfromthedead?”
“I……Ido。Whydoyouaskallthis?”
“Youbelieveitliterally?”
“Literally。“
“Youdon'tsayso……Iaskedfromcuriosity。Excuseme。Butletusgobacktothequestion;theyarenotalwaysexecuted。Some,onthecontrary……“
“Triumphintheirlifetime?Oh,yes,someattaintheirendsinthislife,andthen……“
“Theybeginexecutingotherpeople?”
“Ifit'snecessary;indeed,forthemostparttheydo。Yourremarkisverywitty。“
“Thankyou。Buttellmethis:howdoyoudistinguishthoseextraordinarypeoplefromtheordinaryones?Aretheresignsattheirbirth?Ifeelthereoughttobemoreexactitude,moreexternaldefinition。Excusethenaturalanxietyofapracticallaw-abidingcitizen,butcouldn'ttheyadoptaspecialuniform,forinstance,couldn'ttheywearsomething,bebrandedinsomeway?Foryouknowifconfusionarisesandamemberofonecategoryimaginesthathebelongstotheother,beginsto'eliminateobstacles,'asyousohappilyexpressedit,then……“
“Oh,thatveryoftenhappens!Thatremarkiswittierthantheother。“
“Thankyou。“
“Noreasonto;buttakenotethatthemistakecanonlyariseinthefirstcategory,thatisamongtheordinarypeopleasIperhapsunfortunatelycalledthem。Inspiteoftheirpredispositiontoobedienceverymanyofthem,throughaplayfulnessofnature,sometimesvouchsafedeventothecow,liketoimaginethemselvesadvancedpeople,'destroyers,'andtopushthemselvesintothe'newmovement,'andthisquitesincerely。Meanwhilethereallynewpeopleareveryoftenunobservedbythem,orevendespisedasreactionariesofgrovellingtendencies。ButIdon'tthinkthereisanyconsiderabledangerhere,andyoureallyneednotbeuneasyfortheynevergoveryfar。Ofcourse,theymighthaveathrashingsometimesforlettingtheirfancyrunawaywiththemandtoteachthemtheirplace,butnomore;infact,eventhisisn'tnecessaryastheycastigatethemselves,fortheyareveryconscientious:someperformthisserviceforoneanotherandotherschastisethemselveswiththeirownhands……Theywillimposevariouspublicactsofpenitenceuponthemselveswithabeautifulandedifyingeffect;infactyou'venothingtobeuneasyabout……It'salawofnature。“
“Well,youhavecertainlysetmymindmoreatrestonthatscore;
butthere'sanotherthingworriesme。Tellme,please,aretheremanypeoplewhohavetherighttokillothers,theseextraordinarypeople?Iamreadytobowdowntothem,ofcourse,butyoumustadmitit'salarmingifthereareagreatmanyofthem,eh?”
“Oh,youneedn'tworryaboutthateither,“Raskolnikovwentoninthesametone。“Peoplewithnewideas,peoplewiththefaintestcapacityforsayingsomethingnew,areextremelyfewinnumber,extraordinarilysoinfact。Onethingonlyisclear,thattheappearanceofallthesegradesandsub-divisionsofmenmustfollowwithunfailingregularitysomelawofnature。Thatlaw,ofcourse,isunknownatpresent,butIamconvincedthatitexists,andonedaymaybecomeknown。Thevastmassofmankindismerematerial,andonlyexistsinorderbysomegreateffort,bysomemysteriousprocess,bymeansofsomecrossingofracesandstocks,tobringintotheworldatlastperhapsonemanoutofathousandwithasparkofindependence。Oneintenthousandperhaps-Ispeakroughly,approximately-isbornwithsomeindependence,andwithstillgreaterindependenceoneinahundredthousand。Themanofgeniusisoneofmillions,andthegreatgeniuses,thecrownofhumanity,appearonearthperhapsoneinmanythousandmillions。InfactIhavenotpeepedintotheretortinwhichallthistakesplace。Buttherecertainlyisandmustbeadefinitelaw,itcannotbeamatterofchance。“
“Why,areyoubothjoking?”Razumihincriedatlast。“Thereyousit,makingfunofoneanother。Areyouserious,Rodya?”
Raskolnikovraisedhispaleandalmostmournfulfaceandmadenoreply。Andtheunconcealed,persistent,nervous,anddiscourteoussarcasmofPorfiryseemedstrangetoRazumihinbesidethatquietandmournfulface。
“Well,brother,ifyouarereallyserious……Youareright,ofcourse,insayingthatit'snotnew,thatit'slikewhatwe'vereadandheardathousandtimesalready;butwhatisreallyoriginalinallthis,andisexclusivelyyourown,tomyhorror,isthatyousanctionbloodshedinthenameofconscience,and,excusemysayingso,withsuchfanaticism……That,Itakeit,isthepointofyourarticle。Butthatsanctionofbloodshedbyconscienceistomymind……
moreterriblethantheofficial,legalsanctionofbloodshed……“
“Youarequiteright,itismoreterrible,“Porfiryagreed。
“Yes,youmusthaveexaggerated!Thereissomemistake,Ishallreadit。Youcan'tthinkthat!Ishallreadit。“
“Allthatisnotinthearticle,there'sonlyahintofit,“saidRaskolnikov。
“Yes,yes。“Porfirycouldn'tsitstill。“Yourattitudetocrimeisprettycleartomenow,but……excusemeformyimpertinenceIamreallyashamedtobeworryingyoulikethis,yousee,you'veremovedmyanxietyastothetwogrades'gettingmixed,but……therearevariouspracticalpossibilitiesthatmakemeuneasy!WhatifsomemanoryouthimaginesthatheisaLycurgusorMahomet-afutureoneofcourse-andsupposehebeginstoremoveallobstacles……Hehassomegreatenterprisebeforehimandneedsmoneyforit……andtriestogetit……doyousee?”
Zametovgaveasuddenguffawinhiscorner。Raskolnikovdidnotevenraisehiseyestohim。
“Imustadmit,“hewentoncalmly,“thatsuchcasescertainlymustarise。Thevainandfoolishareparticularlyapttofallintothatsnare;youngpeopleespecially。“
“Yes,yousee。Wellthen?”
“Whatthen?”Raskolnikovsmiledinreply;“that'snotmyfault。Soitisandsoitalwayswillbe。HesaidjustnowhenoddedatRazumihinthatIsanctionbloodshed。Societyistoowellprotectedbyprisons,banishment,criminalinvestigators,penalservitude。
There'snoneedtobeuneasy。Youhavebuttocatchthethief。“
“Andwhatifwedocatchhim?”
“Thenhegetswhathedeserves。“
“Youarecertainlylogical。Butwhatofhisconscience?”
“Whydoyoucareaboutthat?”
“Simplyfromhumanity。“
“Ifhehasaconsciencehewillsufferforhismistake。Thatwillbehispunishment-aswellastheprison。“
“Buttherealgeniuses,“askedRazumihinfrowning,“thosewhohavetherighttomurder?Oughtn'ttheytosufferatallevenforthebloodthey'veshed?”
“Whythewordought?It'snotamatterofpermissionorprohibition。
Hewillsufferifheissorryforhisvictim。Painandsufferingarealwaysinevitableforalargeintelligenceandadeepheart。Thereallygreatmenmust,Ithink,havegreatsadnessonearth,“headdeddreamily,notinthetoneoftheconversation。
Heraisedhiseyes,lookedearnestlyatthemall,smiled,andtookhiscap。Hewastooquietbycomparisonwithhismannerathisentrance,andhefeltthis。Everyonegotup。
“Well,youmayabuseme,beangrywithmeifyoulike,“PorfiryPetrovitchbeganagain,“butIcan'tresist。AllowmeonelittlequestionIknowIamtroublingyou。ThereisjustonelittlenotionIwanttoexpress,simplythatImaynotforgetit。“
“Verygood,tellmeyourlittlenotion,“Raskolnikovstoodwaiting,paleandgravebeforehim。
“Well,yousee……Ireallydon'tknowhowtoexpressitproperly……
It'saplayful,psychologicalidea……Whenyouwerewritingyourarticle,surelyyoucouldn'thavehelped,he-he,fancyingyourself……justalittle,an'extraordinary'man,utteringanewwordinyoursense……That'sso,isn'tit?”
“Quitepossibly,“Raskolnikovansweredcontemptuously。
Razumihinmadeamovement。
“And,ifso,couldyoubringyourselfincaseofworldlydifficultiesandhardshiporforsomeservicetohumanity-tooverstepobstacles?……Forinstance,torobandmurder?”
Andagainhewinkedwithhislefteye,andlaughednoiselesslyjustasbefore。
“IfIdidIcertainlyshouldnottellyou,“Raskolnikovansweredwithdefiantandhaughtycontempt。
“No,Iwasonlyinterestedonaccountofyourarticle,fromaliterarypointofview……“
“Foo,howobviousandinsolentthatis,“Raskolnikovthoughtwithrepulsion。
“Allowmetoobserve,“heanswereddryly,“thatIdon'tconsidermyselfaMahometoraNapoleon,noranypersonageofthatkind,andnotbeingoneofthemIcannottellyouhowIshouldact。“
“Oh,come,don'tweallthinkourselvesNapoleonsnowinRussia?”
PorfiryPetrovitchsaidwithalarmingfamiliarity。
Somethingpeculiarbetrayeditselfintheveryintonationofhisvoice。
“PerhapsitwasoneofthesefutureNapoleonswhodidforAlyonaIvanovnalastweek?”Zametovblurtedoutfromthecorner。
Raskolnikovdidnotspeak,butlookedfirmlyandintentlyatPorfiry。Razumihinwasscowlinggloomily。Heseemedbeforethistobenoticingsomething。Helookedangrilyaround。Therewasaminuteofgloomysilence。Raskolnikovturnedtogo。
“Areyougoingalready?”Porfirysaidamiably,holdingouthishandwithexcessivepoliteness。“Very,verygladofyouracquaintance。
Asforyourrequest,havenouneasiness,writejustasItoldyou,or,betterstill,cometomethereyourselfinadayortwo……
to-morrow,indeed。Ishallbethereateleveno'clockforcertain。
We'llarrangeitall;we'llhaveatalk。Asoneofthelasttobethere,youmightperhapsbeabletotellussomething,“headdedwithamostgood-naturedexpression。
“Youwanttocross-examinemeofficiallyindueform?”Raskolnikovaskedsharply。
“Oh,why?That'snotnecessaryforthepresent。Youmisunderstandme。Ilosenoopportunity,yousee,and……I'vetalkedwithallwhohadpledges……Iobtainedevidencefromsomeofthem,andyouarethelast……Yes,bytheway,“hecried,seeminglysuddenlydelighted,“Ijustremember,whatwasIthinkingof?”heturnedtoRazumihin,“youweretalkingmyearsoffaboutthatNikolay……ofcourse,Iknow,Iknowverywell,“heturnedtoRaskolnikov,“thatthefellowisinnocent,butwhatisonetodo?WehadtotroubleDmitritoo……Thisisthepoint,thisisall:whenyouwentupthestairsitwaspastseven,wasn'tit?”
“Yes,“answeredRaskolnikov,withanunpleasantsensationattheverymomenthespokethatheneednothavesaidit。
“Thenwhenyouwentupstairsbetweensevenandeight,didn'tyouseeinaflatthatstoodopenonasecondstorey,doyouremember,twoworkmenoratleastoneofthem?Theywerepaintingthere,didn'tyounoticethem?It'svery,veryimportantforthem。“
“Painters?No,Ididn'tseethem,“Raskolnikovansweredslowly,asthoughransackinghismemory,whileatthesameinstanthewasrackingeverynerve,almostswooningwithanxietytoconjectureasquicklyaspossiblewherethetraplayandnottooverlookanything。“No,I
didn'tseethem,andIdon'tthinkInoticedaflatlikethatopen……
Butonthefourthstorey“hehadmasteredthetrapnowandwastriumphant“IremembernowthatsomeonewasmovingoutoftheflatoppositeAlyonaIvanovna's……Iremember……Irememberitclearly。
Someporterswerecarryingoutasofaandtheysqueezedmeagainstthewall。Butpainters……no,Idon'trememberthattherewereanypainters,andIdon'tthinkthattherewasaflatopenanywhere,no,therewasn't。“
“Whatdoyoumean?”Razumihinshoutedsuddenly,asthoughhehadreflectedandrealised。“Why,itwasonthedayofthemurderthepainterswereatwork,andhewastherethreedaysbefore?Whatareyouasking?”
“Foo!Ihavemuddledit!”Porfiryslappedhimselfontheforehead。
“Deucetakeit!Thisbusinessisturningmybrain!”headdressedRaskolnikovsomewhatapologetically。“Itwouldbesuchagreatthingforustofindoutwhetheranyonehadseenthembetweensevenandeightattheflat,soIfanciedyoucouldperhapshavetoldussomething……Iquitemuddledit。“
“Thenyoushouldbemorecareful,“Razumihinobservedgrimly。
Thelastwordswereutteredinthepassage。PorfiryPetrovitchsawthemtothedoorwithexcessivepoliteness。
Theywentoutintothestreetgloomyandsullen,andforsomestepstheydidnotsayaword。Raskolnikovdrewadeepbreath。
ChapterSix“IDON'TBELIEVEit,Ican'tbelieveit!”repeatedRazumihin,tryinginperplexitytorefuteRaskolnikov'sarguments。
TheywerebynowapproachingBakaleyev'slodgings,wherePulcheriaAlexandrovnaandDouniahadbeenexpectingthemalongwhile。
Razumihinkeptstoppingonthewayintheheatofdiscussion,confusedandexcitedbytheveryfactthattheywereforthefirsttimespeakingopenlyaboutit。
“Don'tbelieveit,then!”answeredRaskolnikov,withacold,carelesssmile。“Youwerenoticingnothingasusual,butIwasweighingeveryword。“
“Youaresuspicious。Thatiswhyyouweighedtheirwords……h'm……
certainly,Iagree,Porfiry'stonewasratherstrange,andstillmorethatwretchZametov!……Youareright,therewassomethingabouthim-butwhy?Why?”
“Hehaschangedhismindsincelastnight。“
“Quitethecontrary!Iftheyhadthatbrainlessidea,theywoulddotheirutmosttohideit,andconcealtheircards,soastocatchyouafterwards……Butitwasallimpudentandcareless。“
“Iftheyhadhadfacts-Imean,realfacts-oratleastgroundsforsuspicion,thentheywouldcertainlyhavetriedtohidetheirgame,inthehopeofgettingmoretheywouldhavemadeasearchlongagobesides。Buttheyhavenofacts,notone。Itisallmirage-allambiguous。Simplyafloatingidea。Sotheytrytothrowmeoutbyimpudence。Andperhaps,hewasirritatedathavingnofacts,andblurteditoutinhisvexation-orperhapshehassomeplan……
heseemsanintelligentman。Perhapshewantedtofrightenmebypretendingtoknow。Theyhaveapsychologyoftheirown,brother。
Butitisloathsomeexplainingitall。Stop!”
“Andit'sinsulting,insulting!Iunderstandyou。But……sincewehavespokenopenlynowanditisanexcellentthingthatwehaveatlast-IamgladIwillownnowfranklythatInoticeditinthemlongago,thisidea。Ofcoursethemeresthintonly-aninsinuation-butwhyaninsinuationeven?Howdarethey?Whatfoundationhavethey?
IfonlyyouknewhowfuriousIhavebeen。Thinkonly!Simplybecauseapoorstudent,unhingedbypovertyandhypochondria,ontheeveofaseveredeliriousillnessnotethat,suspicious,vain,proud,whohasnotseenasoultospeaktoforsixmonths,inragsandinbootswithoutsoles,hastofacesomewretchedpolicemenandputupwiththeirinsolence;andtheunexpecteddebtthrustunderhisnose,theI。O。U。presentedbyTchebarov,thenewpaint,thirtydegreesReaumurandastiflingatmosphere,acrowdofpeople,thetalkaboutthemurderofapersonwherehehadbeenjustbefore,andallthatonanemptystomach-hemightwellhaveafaintingfit!Andthat,thatiswhattheyfounditallon!Damnthem!Iunderstandhowannoyingitis,butinyourplace,Rodya,Iwouldlaughatthem,orbetterstill,spitintheiruglyfaces,andspitadozentimesinalldirections。I'dhitoutinalldirections,neatlytoo,andsoI'dputanendtoit。Damnthem!Don'tbedownhearted。It'sashame!”
“Hereallyhasputitwell,though,“Raskolnikovthought。
“Damnthem?Butthecross-examinationagain,to-morrow?”hesaidwithbitterness。“MustIreallyenterintoexplanationswiththem?I
feelvexedasitisthatIcondescendedtospeaktoZametovyesterdayintherestaurant……“
“Damnit!IwillgomyselftoPorfiry。Iwillsqueezeitoutofhim,asoneofthefamily:hemustletmeknowtheinsandoutsofitall!AndasforZametov……“
“Atlastheseesthroughhim!”thoughtRaskolnikov。
“Stay!”criedRazumihin,seizinghimbytheshoulderagain。“Stay!
youwerewrong。Ihavethoughtitout。Youarewrong!Howwasthatatrap?Yousaythatthequestionabouttheworkmenwasatrap。Butifyouhaddonethat,couldyouhavesaidyouhadseenthempaintingtheflat……andtheworkmen?Onthecontrary,youwouldhaveseennothing,evenifyouhadseenit。Whowouldownitagainsthimself?”
“IfIhaddonethatthing,IshouldcertainlyhavesaidthatIhadseentheworkmenandtheflat。“Raskolnikovanswered,withreluctanceandobviousdisgust。
“Butwhyspeakagainstyourself?”
“Becauseonlypeasants,orthemostinexperiencednovicesdenyeverythingflatlyatexaminations。Ifamaniseversolittledevelopedandexperienced,hewillcertainlytrytoadmitalltheexternalfactsthatcan'tbeavoided,butwillseekotherexplanationsofthem,willintroducesomespecial,unexpectedturn,thatwillgivethemanothersignificanceandputtheminanotherlight。
PorfirymightwellreckonthatIshouldbesuretoanswerso,andsayIhadseenthemtogiveanairoftruth,andthenmakesomeexplanation。“
“Buthewouldhavetoldyouatonce,thattheworkmencouldnothavebeentheretwodaysbefore,andthatthereforeyoumusthavebeenthereonthedayofthemurderateighto'clock。Andsohewouldhavecaughtyouoveradetail。“
“Yes,thatiswhathewasreckoningon,thatIshouldnothavetimetoreflect,andshouldbeinahurrytomakethemostlikelyanswer,andsowouldforgetthattheworkmencouldnothavebeentheretwodaysbefore。“
“Buthowcouldyouforgetit?”
“Nothingeasier。Itisinjustsuchstupidthingscleverpeoplearemosteasilycaught。Themorecunningamanis,thelesshesuspectsthathewillbecaughtinasimplething。Themorecunningamanis,thesimplerthetraphemustbecaughtin。Porfiryisnotsuchafoolasyouthink……“
“Heisaknavethen,ifthatisso!”
Raskolnikovcouldnothelplaughing。Butattheverymoment,hewasstruckbythestrangenessofhisownfrankness,andtheeagernesswithwhichhehadmadethisexplanation,thoughhehadkeptupalltheprecedingconversationwithgloomyrepulsion,obviouslywithamotive,fromnecessity。
“Iamgettingarelishforcertainaspects!”hethoughttohimself。Butalmostatthesameinstant,hebecamesuddenlyuneasy,asthoughanunexpectedandalarmingideahadoccurredtohim。Hisuneasinesskeptonincreasing。TheyhadjustreachedtheentrancetoBakaleyev's。
“Goinalone!”saidRaskolnikovsuddenly。“Iwillbebackdirectly。“
“Whereareyougoing?Why,wearejusthere。“
“Ican'thelpit……Iwillcomeinhalfanhour。Tellthem。“
“Saywhatyoulike,Iwillcomewithyou。“
“You,too,wanttotortureme!”hescreamed,withsuchbitterirritation,suchdespairinhiseyesthatRazumihin'shandsdropped。
Hestoodforsometimeonthesteps,lookinggloomilyatRaskolnikovstridingrapidlyawayinthedirectionofhislodging。Atlast,grittinghisteethandclenchinghisfist,hesworehewouldsqueezePorfirylikealemonthatveryday,andwentupthestairstoreassurePulcheriaAlexandrovna,whowasbynowalarmedattheirlongabsence。
WhenRaskolnikovgothome,hishairwassoakedwithsweatandhewasbreathingheavily。Hewentrapidlyupthestairs,walkedintohisunlockedroomandatoncefastenedthelatch。Theninsenselessterrorherushedtothecorner,tothatholeunderthepaperwherehehadputthething;puthishandin,andforsomeminutesfeltcarefullyinthehole,ineverycrackandfoldofthepaper。Findingnothing,hegotupanddrewadeepbreath。AshewasreachingthestepsofBakaleyev's,hesuddenlyfanciedthatsomething,achain,astudorevenabitofpaperinwhichtheyhadbeenwrappedwiththeoldwoman'shandwritingonit,mightsomehowhaveslippedoutandbeenlostinsomecrack,andthenmightsuddenlyturnupasunexpected,conclusiveevidenceagainsthim。
Hestoodasthoughlostinthought,andastrange,humiliated,halfsenselesssmilestrayedonhislips。Hetookhiscapatlastandwentquietlyoutoftheroom。Hisideaswerealltangled。Hewentdreamilythroughthegateway。
“Hereheishimself,“shoutedaloudvoice。
Heraisedhishead。
Theporterwasstandingatthedoorofhislittleroomandwaspointinghimouttoashortmanwholookedlikeanartisan,wearingalongcoatandawaistcoat,andlookingatadistanceremarkablylikeawoman。Hestooped,andhisheadinagreasycaphungforward。Fromhiswrinkledflabbyfacehelookedoverfifty;hislittleeyeswerelostinfatandtheylookedoutgrimly,sternlyanddiscontentedly。
“Whatisit?”Raskolnikovasked,goinguptotheporter。
Themanstolealookathimfromunderhisbrowsandhelookedathimattentively,deliberately;thenheturnedslowlyandwentoutofthegateintothestreetwithoutsayingaword。
“Whatisit?”criedRaskolnikov。
“Why,hetherewasaskingwhetherastudentlivedhere,mentionedyournameandwhomyoulodgedwith。Isawyoucomingandpointedyououtandhewentaway。It'sfunny。“
Theportertooseemedratherpuzzled,butnotmuchso,andafterwonderingforamomentheturnedandwentbacktohisroom。
Raskolnikovranafterthestranger,andatoncecaughtsightofhimwalkingalongtheothersideofthestreetwiththesameeven,deliberatestepwithhiseyesfixedontheground,asthoughinmeditation。Hesoonovertookhim,butforsometimewalkedbehindhim。
Atlast,movingontoalevelwithhim,helookedathisface。Themannoticedhimatonce,lookedathimquickly,butdroppedhiseyesagain;andsotheywalkedforaminutesidebysidewithoututteringaword。
“Youwereinquiringforme……oftheporter?”Raskolnikovsaidatlast,butinacuriouslyquietvoice。
Themanmadenoanswer;hedidn'tevenlookathim。Againtheywerebothsilent。
“Whydoyou……comeandaskforme……andsaynothing……What'sthemeaningofit?”
Raskolnikov'svoicebrokeandheseemedunabletoarticulatethewordsclearly。
ThemanraisedhiseyesthistimeandturnedagloomysinisterlookatRaskolnikov。
“Murderer!”hesaidsuddenlyinaquietbutclearanddistinctvoice。
Raskolnikovwentonwalkingbesidehim。Hislegsfeltsuddenlyweak,acoldshiverrandownhisspine,andhisheartseemedtostandstillforamoment,thensuddenlybeganthrobbingasthoughitweresetfree。Sotheywalkedforaboutahundredpaces,sidebysideinsilence。
Themandidnotlookathim。
“Whatdoyoumean……whatis……Whoisamurderer?”mutteredRaskolnikovhardlyaudibly。
“Youareamurderer,“themanansweredstillmorearticulatelyandemphatically,withasmileoftriumphanthatred,andagainhelookedstraightintoRaskolnikov'spalefaceandstrickeneyes。
Theyhadjustreachedthecrossroads。Themanturnedtotheleftwithoutlookingbehindhim。Raskolnikovremainedstanding,gazingafterhim。Hesawhimturnroundfiftypacesawayandlookbackathimstillstandingthere。Raskolnikovcouldnotseeclearly,buthefanciedthathewasagainsmilingthesamesmileofcoldhatredandtriumph。
Withslowfalteringsteps,withshakingknees,Raskolnikovmadehiswaybacktohislittlegarret,feelingchilledallover。Hetookoffhiscapandputitonthetable,andfortenminuteshestoodwithoutmoving。Thenhesankexhaustedonthesofaandwithaweakmoanofpainhestretchedhimselfonit。Sohelayforhalfanhour。
Hethoughtofnothing。Somethoughtsorfragmentsofthoughts,someimageswithoutorderorcoherencefloatedbeforehismind-
facesofpeoplehehadseeninhischildhoodormetsomewhereonce,whomhewouldneverhaverecalled,thebelfryofthechurchatV。,thebilliardtableinarestaurantandsomeofficersplayingbilliards,thesmellofcigarsinsomeundergroundtobaccoshop,atavernroom,abackstaircasequitedark,allsloppywithdirtywaterandstrewnwitheggshells,andtheSundaybellsfloatinginfromsomewhere……Theimagesfollowedoneanother,whirlinglikeahurricane。Someofthemhelikedandtriedtoclutchat,buttheyfadedandallthewhiletherewasanoppressionwithinhim,butitwasnotoverwhelming,sometimesitwasevenpleasant……Theslightshiveringstillpersisted,butthattoowasanalmostpleasantsensation。
HeheardthehurriedfootstepsofRazumihin;heclosedhiseyesandpretendedtobeasleep。Razumihinopenedthedoorandstoodforsometimeinthedoorwayasthoughhesitating,thenhesteppedsoftlyintotheroomandwentcautiouslytothesofa。RaskolnikovheardNastasya'swhisper:
“Don'tdisturbhim!Lethimsleep。Hecanhavehisdinnerlater。“
“Quiteso,“answeredRazumihin。Bothwithdrewcarefullyandclosedthedoor。Anotherhalf-hourpassed。Raskolnikovopenedhiseyes,turnedonhisbackagain,claspinghishandsbehindhishead。
“Whoishe?Whoisthatmanwhosprangoutoftheearth?Wherewashe,whatdidhesee?Hehasseenitall,that'sclear。Wherewashethen?Andfromwheredidhesee?Whyhasheonlynowsprungoutoftheearth?Andhowcouldhesee?Isitpossible?Hm……“continuedRaskolnikov,turningcoldandshivering,“andthejewelcaseNikolayfoundbehindthedoor-wasthatpossible?Aclue?Youmissaninfinitesimallineandyoucanbuilditintoapyramidofevidence!
Aflyflewbyandsawit!Isitpossible?”Hefeltwithsuddenloathinghowweak,howphysicallyweakhehadbecome。“Ioughttohaveknownit,“hethoughtwithabittersmile。“AndhowdaredI,knowingmyself,knowinghowIshouldbe,takeupanaxeandshedblood!I
oughttohaveknownbeforehand……Ah,butIdidknow!”hewhisperedindespair。Attimeshecametoastandstillatsomethought。
“No,thosemenarenotmadeso。TherealMastertowhomallispermittedstormsToulon,makesamassacreinParis,forgetsanarmyinEgypt,wasteshalfamillionmenintheMoscowexpeditionandgetsoffwithajestatVilna。Andaltarsaresetuptohimafterhisdeath,andsoallispermitted。No,suchpeopleitseemsarenotoffleshbutofbronze!”
Onesuddenirrelevantideaalmostmadehimlaugh。Napoleon,thepyramids,Waterloo,andawretchedskinnyoldwoman,apawnbrokerwitharedtrunkunderherbed-it'sanicehashforPorfiryPetrovitchtodigest!Howcantheydigestit!It'stooinartistic。“ANapoleoncreepunderanoldwoman'sbed!Ugh,howloathsome!”
Atmomentshefelthewasraving。Hesankintoastateoffeverishexcitement。“Theoldwomanisofnoconsequence,“hethought,hotlyandincoherently。“Theoldwomanwasamistakeperhaps,butsheisnotwhatmatters!Theoldwomanwasonlyanillness……Iwasinahurrytooverstep……Ididn'tkillahumanbeing,butaprinciple!Ikilledtheprinciple,butIdidn'toverstep,Istoppedonthisside……Iwasonlycapableofkilling。AnditseemsIwasn'tevencapableofthat……
Principle?WhywasthatfoolRazumihinabusingthesocialists?Theyareindustrious,commercialpeople;'thehappinessofall'istheircase。No,lifeisonlygiventomeonceandIshallneverhaveitagain;Idon'twanttowaitfor'thehappinessofall。'Iwanttolivemyself,orelsebetternotliveatall。Isimplycouldn'tpassbymymotherstarving,keepingmytroubleinmypocketwhileIwaitedforthe'happinessofall。'Iamputtingmylittlebrickintothehappinessofallandsomyheartisatpeace。Ha-ha!Whyhaveyouletmeslip?Ionlyliveonce,Itoowant……Ech,Iamanaestheticlouseandnothingmore,“headdedsuddenly,laughinglikeamadman。
“Yes,Iamcertainlyalouse,“hewenton,clutchingattheidea,gloatingoveritandplayingwithitwithvindictivepleasure。“Inthefirstplace,becauseIcanreasonthatIamone,andsecondly,becauseforamonthpastIhavebeentroublingbenevolentProvidence,callingittowitnessthatnotformyownfleshlylustsdidI
undertakeit,butwithagrandandnobleobject-ha-ha!Thirdly,becauseIaimedatcarryingitoutasjustlyaspossible,weighing,measuringandcalculating。OfalltheliceIpickedoutthemostuselessoneandproposedtotakefromheronlyasmuchasIneededforthefirststep,nomorenorlesssotherestwouldhavegonetoamonastery,accordingtoherwill,ha-ha!。AndwhatshowsthatIamutterlyalouse,“headded,grindinghisteeth,“isthatIamperhapsvilerandmoreloathsomethanthelouseIkilled,andIfeltbeforehandthatIshouldtellmyselfsoafterkillingher。Cananythingbecomparedwiththehorrorofthat!Thevulgarity!Theabjectness!Iunderstandthe'prophet'withhissabre,onhissteed:
Allahcommandsand'trembling'creationmustobey!The'prophet'isright,heisrightwhenhesetsabatteryacrossthestreetandblowsuptheinnocentandtheguiltywithoutdeigningtoexplain!It'sforyoutoobey,tremblingcreation,andnottohavedesires,forthat'snotforyou!……Ishallnever,neverforgivetheoldwoman!”
Hishairwassoakedwithsweat,hisquiveringlipswereparched,hiseyeswerefixedontheceiling。
“Mother,sister-howIlovedthem!WhydoIhatethemnow?Yes,I
hatethem,Ifeelaphysicalhatredforthem,Ican'tbearthemnearme……Iwentuptomymotherandkissedher,Iremember……Toembraceherandthinkifsheonlyknew……shallItellherthen?
That'sjustwhatImightdo……ShemustbethesameasIam,“headded,straininghimselftothink,asitwerestrugglingwithdelirium。“Ah,howIhatetheoldwomannow!IfeelIshouldkillheragainifshecametolife!PoorLizaveta!Whydidshecomein?……It'sstrangethough,whyisitIscarcelyeverthinkofher,asthoughIhadn'tkilledher!Lizaveta!Sonia!Poorgentlethings,withgentleeyes……Dearwomen!Whydon'ttheyweep?Whydon'ttheymoan?Theygiveupeverything……theireyesaresoftandgentle……
Sonia,Sonia!GentleSonia!”
Helostconsciousness;itseemedstrangetohimthathedidn'trememberhowhegotintothestreet。Itwaslateevening。Thetwilighthadfallenandthefullmoonwasshiningmoreandmorebrightly;buttherewasapeculiarbreathlessnessintheair。Therewerecrowdsofpeopleinthestreet;workmenandbusinesspeopleweremakingtheirwayhome;otherpeoplehadcomeoutforawalk;therewasasmellofmortar,dustandstagnantwater。Raskolnikovwalkedalong,mournfulandanxious;hewasdistinctlyawareofhavingcomeoutwithapurpose,ofhavingtodosomethinginahurry,butwhatitwashehadforgotten。Suddenlyhestoodstillandsawamanstandingontheothersideofthestreet,beckoningtohim。Hecrossedovertohim,butatoncethemanturnedandwalkedawaywithhisheadhanging,asthoughhehadmadenosigntohim。“Stay,didhereallybeckon?”
Raskolnikovwondered,buthetriedtoovertakehim。Whenhewaswithintenpacesherecognisedhimandwasfrightened;itwasthesamemanwithstoopingshouldersinthelongcoat。Raskolnikovfollowedhimatadistance;hisheartwasbeating;theywentdownaturning;themanstilldidnotlookround。“DoesheknowIamfollowinghim?”
thoughtRaskolnikov。Themanwentintothegatewayofabighouse。
Raskolnikovhastenedtothegateandlookedintoseewhetherhewouldlookroundandsigntohim。Inthecourtyardthemandidturnroundandagainseemedtobeckonhim。Raskolnikovatoncefollowedhimintotheyard,butthemanwasgone。Hemusthavegoneupthefirststaircase。Raskolnikovrushedafterhim。Heheardslowmeasuredstepstwoflightsabove。Thestaircaseseemedstrangelyfamiliar。Hereachedthewindowonthefirstfloor;themoonshonethroughthepaneswithamelancholyandmysteriouslight;thenhereachedthesecondfloor。Bah!thisistheflatwherethepainterswereatwork……
buthowwasithedidnotrecogniseitatonce?Thestepsofthemanabovehaddiedaway。“Sohemusthavestoppedorhiddensomewhere。“Hereachedthethirdstorey,shouldhegoon?Therewasastillnessthatwasdreadful……Buthewenton。Thesoundofhisownfootstepsscaredandfrightenedhim。Howdarkitwas!Themanmustbehidinginsomecornerhere。Ah!theflatwasstandingwideopen,hehesitatedandwentin。Itwasverydarkandemptyinthepassage,asthougheverythinghadbeenremoved;hecreptontiptoeintotheparlourwhichwasfloodedwithmoonlight。Everythingtherewasasbefore,thechairs,thelooking-glass,theyellowsofaandthepicturesintheframes。Ahuge,round,copper-redmoonlookedinatthewindows。“It'sthemoonthatmakesitsostill,weavingsomemystery,“thoughtRaskolnikov。Hestoodandwaited,waitedalongwhile,andthemoresilentthemoonlight,themoreviolentlyhisheartbeat,tillitwaspainful。Andstillthesamehush。Suddenlyheheardamomentarysharpcracklikethesnappingofasplinterandallwasstillagain。A
flyflewupsuddenlyandstruckthewindowpanewithaplaintivebuzz。
Atthatmomenthenoticedinthecornerbetweenthewindowandthelittlecupboardsomethinglikeacloakhangingonthewall。“Whyisthatcloakhere?”hethought,“itwasn'ttherebefore……“Hewentuptoitquietlyandfeltthattherewassomeonehidingbehindit。Hecautiouslymovedthecloakandsaw,sittingonachairinthecorner,theoldwomanbentdoublesothathecouldn'tseeherface;
butitwasshe。Hestoodoverher。“Sheisafraid,“hethought。Hestealthilytooktheaxefromthenooseandstruckheroneblow,thenanotherontheskull。Butstrangetosayshedidnotstir,asthoughsheweremadeofwood。Hewasfrightened,bentdownnearerandtriedtolookather;butshe,too,bentherheadlower。Hebentrightdowntothegroundandpeepedupintoherfacefrombelow,hepeepedandturnedcoldwithhorror:theoldwomanwassittingandlaughing,shakingwithnoiselesslaughter,doingherutmostthatheshouldnothearit。Suddenlyhefanciedthatthedoorfromthebedroomwasopenedalittleandthattherewaslaughterandwhisperingwithin。Hewasovercomewithfrenzyandhebeganhittingtheoldwomanontheheadwithallhisforce,butateveryblowoftheaxethelaughterandwhisperingfromthebedroomgrewlouderandtheoldwomanwassimplyshakingwithmirth。Hewasrushingaway,butthepassagewasfullofpeople,thedoorsoftheflatsstoodopenandonthelanding,onthestairsandeverywherebelowtherewerepeople,rowsofheads,alllooking,buthuddledtogetherinsilenceandexpectation。Somethinggrippedhisheart,hislegswererootedtothespot,theywouldnotmove……Hetriedtoscreamandwokeup。
Hedrewadeepbreath-buthisdreamseemedstrangelytopersist:
hisdoorwasflungopenandamanwhomhehadneverseenstoodinthedoorwaywatchinghimintently。
Raskolnikovhadhardlyopenedhiseyesandheinstantlyclosedthemagain。Helayonhisbackwithoutstirring。
“Isitstilladream?”hewonderedandagainraisedhiseyelidshardlyperceptibly;thestrangerwasstandinginthesameplace,stillwatchinghim。
Hesteppedcautiouslyintotheroom,carefullyclosingthedoorafterhim,wentuptothetable,pausedamoment,stillkeepinghiseyesonRaskolnikovandnoiselesslyseatedhimselfonthechairbythesofa;heputhishatonthefloorbesidehimandleanedhishandsonhiscaneandhischinonhishands。Itwasevidentthathewaspreparedtowaitindefinitely。AsfarasRaskolnikovcouldmakeoutfromhisstolenglances,hewasamannolongeryoung,stout,withafull,fair,almostwhitishbeard。
Tenminutespassed。Itwasstilllight,butbeginningtogetdusk。
Therewascompletestillnessintheroom。Notasoundcamefromthestairs。Onlyabigflybuzzedandflutteredagainstthewindowpane。
Itwasunbearableatlast。Raskolnikovsuddenlygotupandsatonthesofa。
“Come,tellmewhatyouwant。“
“Iknewyouwerenotasleep,butonlypretending,“thestrangeransweredoddly,laughingcalmly。“ArkadyIvanovitchSvidrigailov,allowmetointroducemyself……“
PARTFOUR
ChapterOne“CANthisbestilladream?”Raskolnikovthoughtoncemore。
Helookedcarefullyandsuspiciouslyattheunexpectedvisitor。
“Svidrigailov!Whatnonsense!Itcan'tbe!”hesaidatlastaloudinbewilderment。
Hisvisitordidnotseematallsurprisedatthisexclamation。
“I'vecometoyoufortworeasons。Inthefirstplace,Iwantedtomakeyourpersonalacquaintance,asIhavealreadyheardagreatdealaboutyouthatisinterestingandflattering;secondly,Icherishthehopethatyoumaynotrefusetoassistmeinamatterdirectlyconcerningthewelfareofyoursister,AvdotyaRomanovna。Forwithoutyoursupportshemightnotletmecomenearhernow,forsheisprejudicedagainstme,butwithyourassistanceIreckonon……“
“Youreckonwrongly,“interruptedRaskolnikov。
“Theyonlyarrivedyesterday,mayIaskyou?”
Raskolnikovmadenoreply。
“Itwasyesterday,Iknow。Ionlyarrivedmyselfthedaybefore。
Well,letmetellyouthis,RodionRomanovitch,Idon'tconsideritnecessarytojustifymyself,butkindlytellmewhatwasthereparticularlycriminalonmypartinallthisbusiness,speakingwithoutprejudice,withcommonsense?”
Raskolnikovcontinuedtolookathiminsilence。
“ThatinmyownhouseIpersecutedadefencelessgirland'insultedherwithmyinfamousproposals'-isthatit?Iamanticipatingyou。Butyou'veonlytoassumethatI,too,amamanetnihilhumanum……inaword,thatIamcapableofbeingattractedandfallinginlovewhichdoesnotdependonourwill,theneverythingcanbeexplainedinthemostnaturalmanner。Thequestionis,amIamonster,oramImyselfavictim?AndwhatifIamavictim?InproposingtotheobjectofmypassiontoelopewithmetoAmericaorSwitzerland,Imayhavecherishedthedeepestrespectforher,andmayhavethoughtthatIwaspromotingourmutualhappiness!
Reasonistheslaveofpassion,youknow;why,probably,Iwasdoingmoreharmtomyselfthananyone!”
“Butthat'snotthepoint,“Raskolnikovinterruptedwithdisgust。
“It'ssimplythatwhetheryouarerightorwrong,wedislikeyou。Wedon'twanttohaveanythingtodowithyou。Weshowyouthedoor。Goout!”
Svidrigailovbrokeintoasuddenlaugh。
“Butyou're……butthere'snogettingroundyou,“hesaid,laughinginthefrankestway。“Ihopedtogetroundyou,butyoutookuptherightlineatonce!”
“Butyouaretryingtogetroundmestill!”
“Whatofit?Whatofit?”criedSvidrigailov,laughingopenly。
“ButthisiswhattheFrenchcallbonneguerre,andthemostinnocentformofdeception!……Butstillyouhaveinterruptedme;
onewayoranother,Irepeatagain:therewouldneverhavebeenanyunpleasantnessexceptforwhathappenedinthegarden。MarfaPetrovna……“
“YouhavegotridofMarfaPetrovna,too,sotheysay?”
Raskolnikovinterruptedrudely。
“Oh,you'veheardthat,too,then?You'dbesureto,though……
Butasforyourquestion,Ireallydon'tknowwhattosay,thoughmyownconscienceisquiteatrestonthatscore。Don'tsupposethatIaminanyapprehensionaboutit。Allwasregularandinorder;themedicalinquirydiagnosedapoplexyduetobathingimmediatelyafteraheavydinnerandabottleofwine,andindeeditcouldhaveprovednothingelse。ButI'lltellyouwhatIhavebeenthinkingtomyselfoflate,onmywayhereinthetrain,especially:didn'tIcontributetoallthat……calamity,morally,inaway,byirritationorsomethingofthesort。ButIcametotheconclusionthatthat,too,wasquiteoutofthequestion。“
Raskolnikovlaughed。
“Iwonderyoutroubleyourselfaboutit!”
“Butwhatareyoulaughingat?Onlyconsider,Istruckherjusttwicewithaswitch-therewerenomarkseven……don'tregardmeasacynic,please;Iamperfectlyawarehowatrociousitwasofmeandallthat;butIknowforcertain,too,thatMarfaPetrovnawasverylikelypleasedatmy,sotosay,warmth。Thestoryofyoursisterhadbeenwrungouttothelastdrop;forthelastthreedaysMarfaPetrovnahadbeenforcedtositathome;shehadnothingtoshowherselfwithinthetown。Besides,shehadboredthemsowiththatletteryouheardaboutherreadingtheletter。Andallofasuddenthosetwoswitchesfellfromheaven!Herfirstactwastoorderthecarriagetobegotout……Nottospeakofthefactthattherearecaseswhenwomenarevery,verygladtobeinsultedinspiteofalltheirshowofindignation。Thereareinstancesofitwitheveryone;
humanbeingsingeneral,indeed,greatlylovetobeinsulted,haveyounoticedthat?Butit'sparticularlysowithwomen。Onemightevensayit'stheironlyamusement。“
AtonetimeRaskolnikovthoughtofgettingupandwalkingoutandsofinishingtheinterview。Butsomecuriosityandevenasortofprudencemadehimlingerforamoment。
“Youarefondoffighting?”heaskedcarelessly。
“No,notvery,“Svidrigailovanswered,calmly。“AndMarfaPetrovnaandIscarcelyeverfought。Welivedveryharmoniously,andshewasalwayspleasedwithme。Ionlyusedthewhiptwiceinalloursevenyearsnotcountingathirdoccasionofaveryambiguouscharacter。
Thefirsttime,twomonthsafterourmarriage,immediatelyafterwearrivedinthecountry,andthelasttimewasthatofwhichwearespeaking。DidyousupposeIwassuchamonster,suchareactionary,suchaslavedriver?Ha,ha!Bytheway,doyouremember,RodionRomanovitch,howafewyearsago,inthosedaysofbeneficentpublicity,anobleman,I'veforgottenhisname,wasputtoshameeverywhere,inallthepapers,forhavingthrashedaGermanwomanintherailwaytrain。Youremember?Itwasinthosedays,thatveryyearIbelieve,the'disgracefulactionoftheAge'tookplaceyouknow,'TheEgyptianNights,'thatpublicreading,youremember?Thedarkeyes,youknow!Ah,thegoldendaysofouryouth,wherearethey?。Well,asforthegentlemanwhothrashedtheGerman,Ifeelnosympathywithhim,becauseafterallwhatneedisthereforsympathy?ButImustsaythattherearesometimessuchprovoking'Germans'thatIdon'tbelievethereisaprogressivewhocouldquiteanswerforhimself。Noonelookedatthesubjectfromthatpointofviewthen,butthat'sthetrulyhumanepointofview,Iassureyou。“
Aftersayingthis,Svidrigailovbrokeintoasuddenlaughagain。
Raskolnikovsawclearlythatthiswasamanwithafirmpurposeinhismindandabletokeepittohimself。
“Iexpectyou'venottalkedtoanyoneforsomedays?”heasked。
“Scarcelyanyone。Isupposeyouarewonderingatmybeingsuchanadaptableman?”
“No,Iamonlywonderingatyourbeingtooadaptableaman。“
“BecauseIamnotoffendedattherudenessofyourquestions?Isthatit?Butwhytakeoffence?Asyouasked,soIanswered,“hereplied,withasurprisingexpressionofsimplicity。“Youknow,there'shardlyanythingItakeinterestin,“hewenton,asitweredreamily,“especiallynow,I'venothingtodo……YouarequiteatlibertytoimaginethoughthatIammakinguptoyouwithamotive,particularlyasItoldyouIwanttoseeyoursisteraboutsomething。ButI'llconfessfrankly,Iamverymuchbored。Thelastthreedaysespecially,soIamdelightedtoseeyou……Don'tbeangry,RodionRomanovitch,butyouseemtobesomehowawfullystrangeyourself。Saywhatyoulike,there'ssomethingwrongwithyou,andnow,too……notthisveryminute,Imean,butnow,generally……
Well,well,Iwon't,Iwon't,don'tscowl!Iamnotsuchabear,youknow,asyouthink。“
Raskolnikovlookedgloomilyathim。
“Youarenotabear,perhaps,atall,“hesaid。“Ifancyindeedthatyouareamanofverygoodbreeding,oratleastknowhowonoccasiontobehavelikeone。“
“Iamnotparticularlyinterestedinanyone'sopinion,“
Svidrigailovanswered,drylyandevenwithashadeofhaughtiness,“andthereforewhynotbevulgarattimeswhenvulgarityissuchaconvenientcloakforourclimate……andespeciallyifonehasanaturalpropensitythatway,“headded,laughingagain。
“ButI'veheardyouhavemanyfriendshere。Youare,astheysay,'notwithoutconnections。'Whatcanyouwantwithme,then,unlessyou'vesomespecialobject?”
“That'struethatIhavefriendshere,“Svidrigailovadmitted,notreplyingtothechiefpoint。“I'vemetsomealready。I'vebeenloungingaboutforthelastthreedays,andI'veseenthem,orthey'veseenme。That'samatterofcourse。Iamwelldressedandreckonednotapoorman;theemancipationoftheserfshasn'taffectedme;mypropertyconsistschieflyofforestsandwatermeadows。Therevenuehasnotfallenoff;but……Iamnotgoingtoseethem,Iwassickofthemlongago。I'vebeenherethreedaysandhavecalledonnoone……
Whatatownitis!Howhasitcomeintoexistenceamongus,tellmethat?Atownofofficialsandstudentsofallsorts。Yes,there'sagreatdealIdidn'tnoticewhenIwashereeightyearsago,kickingupmyheels……Myonlyhopenowisinanatomy,byJove,itis!”
“Anatomy?”
“Butasfortheseclubs,Dussauts,parades,orprogress,indeed,maybe-well,allthatcangoonwithoutme,“hewenton,againwithoutnoticingthequestion。“Besides,whowantstobeacard-sharper?”
“Why,haveyoubeenacard-sharperthen?”
“HowcouldIhelpbeing?Therewasaregularsetofus,menofthebestsociety,eightyearsago;wehadafinetime。Andallmenofbreeding,youknow,poets,menofproperty。AndindeedasaruleinourRussiansociety,thebestmannersarefoundamongthosewho'vebeenthrashed,haveyounoticedthat?I'vedeterioratedinthecountry。ButIdidgetintoprisonfordebt,throughalowGreekwhocamefromNezhin。ThenMarfaPetrovnaturnedup;shebargainedwithhimandboughtmeoffforthirtythousandsilverpiecesIowedseventythousand。Wewereunitedinlawfulwedlockandsheboremeoffintothecountrylikeatreasure。YouknowshewasfiveyearsolderthanI。Shewasveryfondofme。ForsevenyearsIneverleftthecountry。And,takenote,thatallmylifesheheldadocumentoverme,theI。O。U。forthirtythousandroubles,soifIweretoelecttoberestiveaboutanythingIshouldbetrappedatonce!Andshewouldhavedoneit!Womenfindnothingincompatibleinthat。“
“Ifithadn'tbeenforthat,wouldyouhavegivenhertheslip?”
“Idon'tknowwhattosay。Itwasscarcelythedocumentrestrainedme。Ididn'twanttogoanywhereelse。MarfaPetrovnaherselfinvitedmetogoabroad,seeingIwasbored,butI'vebeenabroadbefore,andalwaysfeltsickthere。Fornoreason,butthesunrise,thebayofNaples,thesea-youlookatthemanditmakesyousad。
What'smostrevoltingisthatoneisreallysad!No,it'sbetterathome。Hereatleastoneblamesothersforeverythingandexcusesoneself。IshouldhavegoneperhapsonanexpeditiontotheNorthPole,becausej'ailevinmauvaisandhatedrinking,andthere'snothingleftbutwine。Ihavetriedit。But,Isay,I'vebeentoldBergisgoingupinagreatballoonnextSundayfromtheYusupovGardenandwilltakeuppassengersatafee。Isittrue?”
“Why,wouldyougoup?”
“I……No,oh,no,“mutteredSvidrigailovreallyseemingtobedeepinthought。
“Whatdoeshemean?Isheinearnest?”Raskolnikovwondered。
“No,thedocumentdidn'trestrainme,“Svidrigailovwenton,meditatively。“Itwasmyowndoing,notleavingthecountry,andnearlyayearagoMarfaPetrovnagavemebackthedocumentonmynamedayandmademeapresentofaconsiderablesumofmoney,too。
Shehadafortune,youknow。'YouseehowItrustyou,ArkadyIvanovitch'-thatwasactuallyherexpression。Youdon'tbelievesheusedit?ButdoyouknowImanagedtheestatequitedecently,theyknowmeintheneighbourhood。Iorderedbooks,too。MarfaPetrovnaatfirstapproved,butafterwardsshewasafraidofmyover-studying。“
“YouseemtobemissingMarfaPetrovnaverymuch?”
“Missingher?Perhaps。Really,perhapsIam。And,bytheway,doyoubelieveinghosts?”
“Whatghosts?”
“Why,ordinaryghosts。“
“Doyoubelieveinthem?”
“Perhapsnot,pourvousplaire……Iwouldn'tsaynoexactly。“
“Doyouseethem,then?”
Svidrigailovlookedathimratheroddly。
“MarfaPetrovnaispleasedtovisitme,“hesaid,twistinghismouthintoastrangesmile。
“Howdoyoumean'sheispleasedtovisityou'?”
“Shehasbeenthreetimes。Isawherfirstontheverydayofthefuneral,anhouraftershewasburied。ItwasthedaybeforeIlefttocomehere。Thesecondtimewasthedaybeforeyesterday,atdaybreak,onthejourneyatthestationofMalayaVishera,andthethirdtimewastwohoursagointheroomwhereIamstaying。Iwasalone。“
“Wereyouawake?”
“Quiteawake。Iwaswideawakeeverytime。Shecomes,speakstomeforaminuteandgoesoutatthedoor-alwaysatthedoor。Icanalmosthearher。“
“Whatmademethinkthatsomethingofthesortmustbehappeningtoyou?”Raskolnikovsaidsuddenly。
Atthesamemomenthewassurprisedathavingsaidit。Hewasmuchexcited。
“What!Didyouthinkso?”Svidrigailovaskedinastonishment。“Didyoureally?Didn'tIsaythattherewassomethingincommonbetweenus,eh?”
“Youneversaidso!”Raskolnikovcriedsharplyandwithheat。
“Didn'tI?”
“No!”
“IthoughtIdid。WhenIcameinandsawyoulyingwithyoureyesshut,pretending,Isaidtomyselfatonce'here'stheman。'“
“Whatdoyoumeanby'theman?'Whatareyoutalkingabout?”criedRaskolnikov。
“WhatdoImean?Ireallydon'tknow……“Svidrigailovmutteredingenuously,asthoughhe,too,werepuzzled。
Foraminutetheyweresilent。Theystaredineachother'sfaces。
“That'sallnonsense!”Raskolnikovshoutedwithvexation。“Whatdoesshesaywhenshecomestoyou?”
“She!Wouldyoubelieveit,shetalksofthesilliesttriflesand-
manisastrangecreature-itmakesmeangry。ThefirsttimeshecameinIwastiredyouknow:thefuneralservice,thefuneralceremony,thelunchafterwards。AtlastIwasleftaloneinmystudy。Ilightedacigarandbegantothink,shecameinatthedoor。