XIII。THEEVENTSOFONEDAY
1。THEFIFTHOFJANUARY。BEFOREDAWN
Wepassovertheinterveningweeks。Thetimeofthestoryisthusadvancedmorethanaquarterofayear。
Onthemidnightprecedingthemorningwhichwouldmakeherthewifeofamanwhosepresencefascinatedherintoinvoluntarinessofbearing,andwhominabsenceshealmostdreaded,Cytherealayinherlittlebed,vainlyendeavouringtosleep。
Shehadbeenlookingbackamidtheyearsofhershortthoughvariedpast,andthinkingofthethresholduponwhichshestood。DaysandmonthshaddimmedtheformofEdwardSpringrovelikethegauzesofavanishingstage-scene,buthisdyingvoicecouldstillbeheardfaintlybehind。Thatasoftsmallchordinherstillvibratedtruetohismemory,shewouldnotadmit:thatshedidnotapproachManstonwithfeelingswhichcouldbyanystretchofwordsbecalledhymeneal,shecalmlyowned。
'WhydoImarryhim?'shesaidtoherself。'BecauseOwen,dearOwenmybrother,wishesmetomarryhim。BecauseMr。Manstonis,andhasbeen,uniformlykindtoOwen,andtome。“Actinobediencetothedictatesofcommon-sense,“Owensaid,“anddreadthesharpstingofpoverty。Howmanythousandsofwomenlikeyoumarryeveryyearforthesamereason,tosecureahome,andmereordinary,materialcomforts,whichafterallgofartomakelifeendurable,evenifnotsupremelyhappy。“
''Tisright,Isuppose,forhimtosaythat。O,ifpeopleonlyknewwhatatimidityandmelancholyuponthesubjectofherfuturegrowsupintheheartofafriendlesswomanwhoisblownaboutlikeareedshakenwiththewind,asIam,theywouldnotcallthisresignationofone'sselfbythenameofschemingtogetahusband。Schemetomarry?I'dratherschemetodie!IknowIamnotpleasingmyheart;IknowthatifIonlywereconcerned,Ishouldlikeriskingasinglefuture。ButwhyshouldIpleasemyuselessselfovermuch,whenbydoingotherwiseIpleasethosewhoaremorevaluablethanI?'
Inthemidstofdesultoryreflectionslikethese,whichalternatedwithsurmisesastotheinexplicableconnectionthatappearedtoexistbetweenherintendedhusbandandMissAldclyffe,shehearddullnoisesoutsidethewallsofthehouse,whichshecouldnotquitefancytobecausedbythewind。Sheseemeddoomedtosuchdisturbancesatcriticalperiodsofherexistence。'Itisstrange,'
shepondered,'thatthismylastnightinKnapwaterHouseshouldbedisturbedpreciselyasmyfirstwas,nooccurrenceofthekindhavingintervened。'
Astheminutesglidedbythenoiseincreased,soundingasifsomeonewerebeatingthewallbelowherwindowwithabunchofswitches。
Shewouldgladlyhaveleftherroomandgonetostaywithoneofthemaids,buttheywerewithoutdoubtallasleep。
Theonlypersoninthehouselikelytobeawake,orwhowouldhavebrainsenoughtocomprehendhernervousness,wasMissAldclyffe,butCythereanevercaredtogotoMissAldclyffe'sroom,thoughshewasalwayswelcomethere,andwasoftenalmostcompelledtogoagainstherwill。
Theoft-repeatednoiseofswitchesgrewheavieruponthewall,andwasnowintermingledwithcreaks,andarattlingliketherattlingofdice。Thewindblewstronger;therecamefirstasnapping,thenacrash,andsomeportionofthemysterywasrevealed。Itwasthebreakingoffandfallofabranchfromoneofthelargetreesoutside。Thesmackingagainstthewall,andtheintermediaterattling,ceasedfromthattime。
Well,itwasthetreewhichhadcausedthenoises。Theunexplainedmatterwasthatneitherofthetreesevertouchedthewallsofthehouseduringthehighestwind,andthattreescouldnotrattlelikeamanplayingcastanetsorshakingdice。
Shethought,'IsittheintentionofFatethatsomethingconnectedwiththesenoisesshallinfluencemyfutureasinthelastcaseofthekind?'
Duringthedilemmashefellintoatroubledsleep,anddreamtthatshewasbeingwhippedwithdrybonessuspendedonstrings,whichrattledateveryblowlikethoseofamalefactoronagibbet;thatsheshiftedandshrankandavoidedeveryblow,andtheyfellthenuponthewalltowhichshewastied。Shecouldnotseethefaceoftheexecutionerforhismask,buthisformwaslikeManston's。
'ThankHeaven!'shesaid,whensheawokeandsawafaintlightstrugglingthroughherblind。'Nowwhatwerethosenoises?'Tosettlethatquestionseemedmoretoherthantheeventoftheday。
Shepulledtheblindasideandlookedout。Allwasplain。Theeveningprevioushadclosedinwithagreydrizzle,borneuponapiercingairfromthenorth,andnowitseffectswerevisible。Thehoarydrizzlestillcontinued;butthetreesandshrubswereladenwithiciclestoanextentsuchasshehadneverbeforewitnessed。A
shootofthediameterofapin'sheadwasicedasthickasherfinger;alltheboughsintheparkwerebentalmosttotheearthwiththeimmenseweightoftheglisteningincumbrance;thewalkswerelikealooking-glass。Manyboughshadsnappedbeneaththeirburden,andlayinheapsupontheicygrass。Oppositehereye,onthenearesttree,wasafreshyellowscar,showingwherethebranchthathadterrifiedherhadbeensplinteredfromthetrunk。
'Inevercouldhavebelieveditpossible,'shethought,surveyingthebowed-downbranches,'thattreeswouldbendsofaroutoftheirtruepositionswithoutbreaking。'Bywatchingatwigshecouldseeadropcollectuponitfromthehoaryfog,sinktothelowestpoint,andtherebecomecoagulatedastheothershaddone。
'OrthatIcouldsoexactlyhaveimitatedthem,'shecontinued。'OnthismorningIamtobemarried——unlessthisisaschemeofthegreatMothertohinderaunionofwhichshedoesnotapprove。Isitpossibleformyweddingtotakeplaceinthefaceofsuchweatherasthis?'
2。MORNING
HerbrotherOwenwasstayingwithManstonattheOldHouse。
Contrarytotheopinionofthedoctors,thewoundhadhealedafterthefirstsurgicaloperation,andhislegwasgraduallyacquiringstrength,thoughhecouldonlyasyetgetaboutoncrutches,orride,orbedraggedinachair。
MissAldclyffehadarrangedthatCythereashouldbemarriedfromKnapwaterHouse,andnotfromherbrother'slodgingsatBudmouth,whichwasCytherea'sfirstidea。Owen,too,seemedtoprefertheplan。Thecapriciousoldmaidhadlatterlytakentothecontemplationoftheweddingwithevengreaterwarmththanhadatfirstinspiredher,andappeareddeterminedtodoeverythinginherpower,consistentwithherdignity,torendertheadjunctsoftheceremonypleasingandcomplete。
Buttheweatherseemedinflatcontradictionofthewholeproceeding。Ateighto'clockthecoachmancreptuptotheHousealmostuponhishandsandknees,enteredthekitchen,andstoodwithhisbacktothefire,pantingfromhisexertionsinpedestrianism。
ThekitchenwasbyfarthepleasantestapartmentinKnapwaterHouseonsuchamorningasthis。Thevastfirewasthecentreofthewholesystem,likeasun,andthrewitswarmraysuponthefiguresofthedomestics,wheelingaboutitintrueplanetarystyle。A
nervously-feebleimitationofitsflickerwascontinuallyattemptedbyafamilyofpolishedmetallicutensilsstandinginrowsandgroupsagainstthewallsopposite,thewholecollectionofshinesnearlyannihilatingtheweakdaylightfromoutside。Astepfurtherin,andthenostrilsweregreetedbythescentofgreenherbsjustgathered,andtheeyebytheplumpformofthecook,wholesome,white-aproned,andfloury——lookingasedibleasthefoodshemanipulated——hermovementsbeingsupportedandassistedbyhersatellites,thekitchenandscullerymaids。Minuterecurrentsoundsprevailed——theclickofthesmoke-jack,theflapoftheflames,andthelighttouchesofthewomen'sslippersuponthestonefloor。
Thecoachmanhemmed,spreadhisfeetmorefirmlyuponthehearthstone,andlookedhardatasmallplateintheextremecornerofthedresser。
'Noweddenthismornen——that'smyopinion。Infact,therecan'tbe,'hesaidabruptly,asifthewordswerethemeretorsoofamany-memberedthoughtthathadexistedcompleteinhishead。
Thekitchen-maidwastoastingasliceofbreadattheendofaverylongtoasting-fork,whichsheheldatarm'slengthtowardstheunapproachablefire,travestyingtheFlanconnadeinfencing。
'Badoutofdoors,isn'tit?'shesaid,withalookofcommiserationforthingsingeneral。
'Bad?Notevenalivensoul,gentleorsimple,canstandonlevelground。Astogettenuphilltothechurch,'tisperfectlunacy。
AndIspeakoffoot-passengers。Astohorsesandcarriage,'tismurdertothinkof'em。Iamgoingtosendstraightasalineintothebreakfast-room,andsay'tisacloser……Hullo——here'sClerkCrickettandJohnDaya-comen!Nowjustlookat'emandpictureaweddenifyoucan。'
Alleyeswereturnedtothewindow,fromwhichtheclerkandgardenerwereseencrossingthecourt,bowedandstoopinglikeBelandNebo。
'You'llhavetogoifitbreaksallthehorses'legsinthecounty,'
saidthecook,turningfromthespectacle,knockingopentheoven-
doorwiththetongs,glancingcriticallyin,andslammingittogetherwithaclang。
'O,O;whyshallI?'askedthecoachman,includinginhisauditorybyaglancetheclerkandgardenerwhohadjustentered。
'BecauseMr。Manstonisinthebusiness。Didyoueverknowhimtogiveupforweatherofanykind,orforanyothermortalthinginheavenorearth?'
'——Mornenso's——suchasitis!'interruptedMr。Crickettcheerily,comingforwardtotheblazeandwarmingonehandwithoutlookingatthefire。'Mr。Manstongieupforanythinginheavenorearth,didyousay?Youmightha'cutitshortbysayen“toMissAldclyffe,“andleavenoutheavenandearthastrifles。Butitmightbeputoff;puttenoffathingisn'tgettenridofathing,ifthatthingisawoman。Ono,no!'
Thecoachmanandgardenernownaturallysubsidedintosecondaries。
Thecookwentonrathersharply,asshedribbledmilkintotheexactcentreofalittlecraterofflourinaplatter——
'Itmightbeinthiscase;she'ssoindifferent。'
'Dangmyoldsides!andsoitmightbe。Ihaveabitofnews——I
thoughttherewassomethinguponmytongue;but'tisasecret;notaword,mind,notaword。Why,MissHintontookaholidayyesterday。'
'Yes?'inquiredthecook,lookingupwithperplexedcuriosity。
'D'yethinkthat'sall?'
'Don'tbesothree-cunning——ifitisall,deliveryoufromtheevilofraisingawoman'sexpectationswrongfully;I'llskimmeryourpateassureasyoucryAmen!'
'Well,itisn'tall。WhenIgothomelastnightmywifesaid,“MissAdelaidetookaholidaythismornen,“saysshemywife,thatis;
“walkedovertoNetherMynton,metthecomenman,andgotmarried!”
saysshe。'
'Gotmarried!what,Lord-a-mercy,didSpringrovecome?'
'Springrove,no——no——Springrove'snothentodowi'it——'twasFarmerBollens。They'vebeenplayingbo-peepforthesetwoorthreemonthsseemingly。WhilstMasterTeddySpringrovehasbeendaddlen,andhawken,andspettenabouthavingher,she'squietlylefthimallforsook。Servehimright。Idon'tblamethelittlewomanabit。'
'FarmerBollensisoldenoughtobeherfather!'
'Ay,quite;andrichenoughtobetenfathers。Theysayhe'ssorichthathehasbusinessineverybank,andmeasureshismoneyinhalf-pintcups。'
'Lord,Iwishitwasme,don'tIwish'twasme!'saidthescullery-
maid。
'Yes,'twasasneatabitofstitchingaseverIheardof,'
continuedtheclerk,withafixedeye,asifhewerewatchingtheprocessfromadistance。'Notasoulknewanythingaboutit,andmywifeistheonlyoneinourparishwhoknowsityet。MissHintoncamebackfromthewedden,wenttoMr。Manston,puffedherselfoutlarge,andsaidshewasMrs。Bollens,butthatifhewished,shehadnoobjectiontokeeponthehousetilltheregulartimeofgivingnoticehadexpired,ortillhecouldgetanothertenant。'
'Justlikeherindependence,'saidthecook。
'Well,independentorno,she'sMrs。Bollensnow。Ah,IshallneverforgetoncewhenIwentbyFarmerBollens'sgarden——yearsagonow——
years,whenhewastakingupashleaftaties。AmerryfellerIwasatthattime,averymerryfeller——for'twasbeforeItookholyorders,anditdidn'tprickmyconscienceas'twouldnow。“Farmer,“
saysI,“littletatiesseemtoturnoutsmallthisyear,don'tem?”
“Ono,Crickett,“sayshe,“somebefair-sized。“He'sadullman——
FarmerBollensis——healwayswas。However,that'sneitherherenorthere;he'sa-marriedtoasharpwoman,andifIdon'tmakeamistakeshe'llbringhimaprettygoodfamily,giehertime。'
'Well,itdon'tmatter;there'saProvidenceinit,'saidthescullery-maid。'GodA'mightyalwayssendsbreadaswellaschildren。'
'But'tisthebreadtoonehouseandthechildrentoanotherveryoften。However,IthinkIcanseemyladyHinton'sreasonforchosenyesterdaytosickness-or-health-it。Youryoungmiss,andthatone,hadcrossedoneanother'spathinregardtoyoungMasterSpringrove;andIexpectthatwhenAddyHintonfoundMissGrayewasn'tcarentohaveen,shethoughtshe'dbebeforehandwithheroldenemyinmarryingsomebodyelsetoo。That'smaids'logicallover,andmaids'malicelikewise。'
Womenwhoarebadenoughtodivideagainstthemselvesunderaman'spartialityaregoodenoughtoinstantlyuniteinacommoncauseagainsthisattack。'I'lljusttellyouonethingthen,'saidthecook,shakingoutherwordstothetimeofawhiskshewasbeatingeggswith。'Whatevermaids'logicisandmaids'malicetoo,ifCythereaGrayeevennowknowsthatyoungSpringroveisfreeagain,she'llflingoverthestewardassoonaslookathim。'
'No,no:notnow,'thecoachmanbrokeinlikeamoderator。
'There'shonourinthatmaid,ifevertherewasinone。NoMissHinton'stricksinher。She'llsticktoManston。'
'Pifh!'
'Don'tletawordbesaidtilltheweddenisover,forHeaven'ssake,'theclerkcontinued。'MissAldclyffewouldfairlyhangandquarterme,ifmynewsbrokeoffthatthereweddenatalastminutelikethis。'
'Thenyouhadbettergetyourwifetoboltyouintheclosetforanhourortwo,foryou'llchatterityourselftothewholeboilingparishifshedon't!'Tisapoorwomanlyfeller!'
'Youshouldn'tha'begunit,clerk。Iknewhow'twouldbe,'saidthegardenersoothingly,inawhispertotheclerk'smangledremains。
Theclerkturnedandsmiledatthefire,andwarmedhisotherhand。
3。NOON
Theweathergaveway。Inhalf-an-hourtherebeganarapidthaw。Byteno'clocktheroads,thoughstilldangerous,werepracticabletotheextentofthehalf-milerequiredbythepeopleofKnapwaterPark。Onemassofheavyleadencloudspreadoverthewholesky;theairbegantofeeldampandmildoutofdoors,thoughstillcoldandfrostywithin。
Theyreachedthechurchandpassedupthenave,thedeep-colouredglassofthenarrowwindowsrenderingthegloomofthemorningalmostnightitselfinsidethebuilding。Thentheceremonybegan。
Theonlywarmthorspiritimportedintoitcamefromthebridegroom,whoretainedavigorous——evenSpenserian——bridal-moodthroughoutthemorning。
Cythereawasasfirmasheatthiscriticalmoment,butascoldastheairsurroundingher。Thefewpersonsformingthewedding-partywereconstrainedinmovementandtone,andfromthenaveofthechurchcameoccasionalcoughs,emittedbythosewho,inspiteoftheweather,hadassembledtoseetheterminationofCytherea'sexistenceasasinglewoman。Manypoorpeoplelovedher。Theypitiedhersuccess,why,theycouldnottell,exceptthatitwasbecausesheseemedtostandmorelikeastatuethanCythereaGraye。
Yetshewasprettilyandcarefullydressed;astrangecontradictioninaman'sideaofthings——asaddening,perplexingcontradiction。
Arethereanypointsinwhichadifferenceofsexamountstoadifferenceofnature?Thenthisissurelyone。Notsomuch,asitiscommonlyput,inregardtotheamountofconsiderationgiven,butintheconceptionofthethingconsidered。Amanemasculatedbycoxcombrymayspendmoretimeuponthearrangementofhisclothesthananywoman,buteventhenthereisnofetichisminhisideaofthem——theyarestillonlyacoveringheusesforatime。ButherewasCytherea,inthebottomofherheartalmostindifferenttolife,yetpossessinganinstinctwithwhichherhearthadnothingtodo,theinstincttobeparticularlyregardfulofthosesorrytrifles,herrobe,herflowers,herveil,andhergloves。
Theirrevocablewordsweresoonspoken——theindeliblewritingsoonwritten——andtheycameoutofthevestry。Candleshadbeennecessaryheretoenablethemtosigntheirnames,andontheirreturntothechurchthelightfromthecandlesstreamedfromthesmallopendoor,andacrossthechanceltoablackchestnutscreenonthesouthside,dividingitfromasmallchapelorchantry,erectedforthesoul'speaceofsomeAldclyffeofthepast。Throughtheopen-workofthisscreencouldnowbeseenilluminated,insidethechantry,therecliningfiguresofcross-leggedknights,dampandgreenwithage,andabovethemahugeclassicmonument,alsoinscribedtotheAldclyffefamily,heavilysculpturedincadaverousmarble。
Leaninghere——almosthangingtothemonument——wasEdwardSpringrove,orhisspirit。
Theweakdaylightwouldneverhaverevealedhim,shadedashewasbythescreen;buttheunexpectedraysofcandle-lightinthefrontshowedhimforthinstartlingrelieftoanyandallofthosewhoseeyeswanderedinthatdirection。Thesightwasasadone——sadbeyondalldescription。Hiseyeswerewild,theirorbitsleaden。
Hisfacewasofasicklypaleness,hishairdryanddisordered,hislipspartedasifhecouldgetnobreath。Hisfigurewasspectre-
thin。Hisactionsseemedbeyondhisowncontrol。
Manstondidnotseehim;Cythereadid。Thehealingeffectuponherheartofayear'ssilence——ayearandahalf'sseparation——wasundoneinaninstant。Oneofthosestrangerevivalsofpassionbymeresight——commonerinwomenthaninmen,andinoppressedwomencommonestofall——hadtakenplaceinher——sotranscendently,thateventoherselfitseemedmorelikeanewcreationthanarevival。
Marryingforahome——whatamockeryitwas!
Itmaybesaidthatthemeansmostpotentforrekindlingoldloveinamaiden'sheartare,toseeherloverinlaughterandgoodspiritsinherdespitewhenthebreachhasbeenowingtoaslightfromherself;whenowingtoaslightfromhim,toseehimsufferingforhisownfault。Ifheishappyinaclearconscience,sheblameshim;ifheismiserablebecausedeeplytoblame,sheblamesherself。
ThelatterwasCytherea'scasenow。
First,anagonyoffacetoldofthesuppressedmiserywithinher,whichpresentlycouldbesuppressednolonger。Whentheywerecomingoutoftheporch,therebrokefromherinalowplaintivescreamthewords,'He'sdying——dying!OGod,saveus!'Shebegantosinkdown,andwouldhavefallenhadnotManstoncaughther。Thechiefbridesmaidappliedhervinaigrette。
'Whatdidshesay?'inquiredManston。
Owenwastheonlyonetowhomthewordswereintelligible,andhewasfartoodeeplyimpressed,orratheralarmed,toreply。Shedidnotfaint,andsoonbegantorecoverherself-command。Owentookadvantageofthehindrancetostepbacktowheretheapparitionhadbeenseen。HewasenragedwithSpringroveforwhatheconsideredanunwarrantableintrusion。
ButEdwardwasnotinthechantry。Ashehadcome,sohehadgone,nobodycouldtellhoworwhither。
4。AFTERNOON
ItmightalmosthavebeenbelievedthatatransmutationhadtakenplaceinCytherea'sidiosyncrasy,thathermoralnaturehadfled。
Thewedding-partyreturnedtothehouse。Assoonashecouldfindanopportunity,Owentookhissisterasidetospeakprivatelywithheronwhathadhappened。Theexpressionofherfacewashard,wild,andunreal——anexpressionhehadneverseentherebefore,anditdisturbedhim。Hespoketoherseverelyandsadly。
'Cytherea,'hesaid,'Iknowthecauseofthisemotionofyours。
Butrememberthis,therewasnoexcuseforit。Youshouldhavebeenwomanenoughtocontrolyourself。Rememberwhosewifeyouare,anddon'tthinkanythingmoreofamean-spiritedfellowlikeSpringrove;
hehadnobusinesstocomethereashedid。Youarealtogetherwrong,Cytherea,andIamvexedwithyoumorethanIcansay——veryvexed。'
'Sayashamedofmeatonce,'shebitterlyanswered。
'Iamashamedofyou,'heretortedangrily;'themoodhasnotleftyouyet,then?'
'Owen,'shesaid,andpaused。Herliptrembled;hereyetoldofsensationstoodeepfortears。'No,Owen,ithasnotleftme;andI
willbehonest。Iownnowtoyou,withoutanydisguiseofwords,whatlastnightIdidnotowntomyself,becauseIhardlyknewofit。IloveEdwardSpringrovewithallmystrength,andheart,andsoul。Youcallmeawantonforit,don'tyou?Idon'tcare;Ihavegonebeyondcaringforanything!'Shelookedstonilyintohisfaceandmadethespeechcalmly。
'Well,poorCytherea,don'ttalklikethat!'hesaid,alarmedathermanner。
'IthoughtthatIdidnotlovehimatall,'shewentonhysterically。'Ayearandahalfhadpassedsincewemet。Icouldgobythegateofhisgardenwithoutthinkingofhim——lookathisseatinchurchandnotcare。ButIsawhimthismorning——dyingbecausehelovesmeso——Iknowitisthat!CanIhelplovinghimtoo?No,Icannot,andIwilllovehim,andIdon'tcare!Wehavebeenseparatedsomehowbysomecontrivance——Iknowwehave。O,ifI
couldonlydie!'
Heheldherinhisarms。'Manyawomanhasgonetoruinherself,'
hesaid,'andbroughtthosewholoveherintodisgrace,byactinguponsuchimpulsesaspossessyounow。Ihaveareputationtoloseaswellasyou。ItseemsthatdowhatIwillbywayofremedyingthestainswhichfelluponus,itisalldoomedtobeundoneagain。'
Hisvoicegrewhuskyashemadethereply。
Therightandonlyeffectivechordhadbeentouched。SinceshehadseenEdward,shehadthoughtonlyofherselfandhim。Owen——hername——position——future——hadbeenasiftheydidnotexist。
'Iwon'tgivewayandbecomeadisgracetoYOU,atanyrate,'shesaid。
'Besides,yourdutytosociety,andthoseaboutyou,requiresthatyoushouldlivewithatanyratealltheappearanceofagoodwife,andtrytoloveyourhusband。'
'Yes——mydutytosociety,'shemurmured。'Butah,Owen,itisdifficulttoadjustourouterandinnerlifewithperfecthonestytoall!Thoughitmayberighttocaremoreforthebenefitofthemanythanfortheindulgenceofyourownsingleself,whenyouconsiderthatthemany,anddutytothem,onlyexisttoyouthroughyourownexistence,whatcanbesaid?Whatdoourownacquaintancescareaboutus?Notmuch。Ithinkofmine。Minewillnowdotheylearnallthewickedfrailtyofmyheartinthisaffairlookatme,smilesickly,andcondemnme。Andperhaps,farintimetocome,whenIamdeadandgone,someother'saccent,orsomeother'ssong,orthought,likeanoldoneofmine,willcarrythembacktowhatI
usedtosay,andhurttheirheartsalittlethattheyblamedmesosoon。Andtheywillpausejustforaninstant,andgiveasightome,andthink,“Poorgirl!”believingtheydogreatjusticetomymemorybythis。Buttheywillnever,neverrealizethatitwasmysingleopportunityofexistence,aswellasofdoingmyduty,whichtheyareregarding;theywillnotfeelthatwhattothemisbutathought,easilyheldinthosetwowordsofpity,“Poorgirl!”wasawholelifetome;asfullofhours,minutes,andpeculiarminutes,ofhopesanddreads,smiles,whisperings,tears,astheirs:thatitwasmyworld,whatistothemtheirworld,andtheyinthatlifeofmine,howevermuchIcaredforthem,onlyasthethoughtIseemtothemtobe。Nobodycanenterintoanother'snaturetruly,that'swhatissogrievous。'
'Well,itcannotbehelped,'saidOwen。
'Butwemustnotstayhere,'shecontinued,startingupandgoing。
'Weshallbemissed。I'lldomybest,Owen——Iwill,indeed。'
Ithadbeendecidedthatonaccountofthewretchedstateoftheroads,thenewly-marriedpairshouldnotdrivetothestationtillthelatesthourintheafternoonatwhichtheycouldgetatraintotakethemtoSouthamptontheirdestinationthatnightbyareasonabletimeintheevening。TheyintendedthenextmorningtocrosstoHavre,andthencetoParis——aplaceCythereahadnevervisited——fortheirweddingtour。
Theafternoondrewon。Thepackingwasdone。Cythereawassorestlessthatshecouldstaystillnowhere。MissAldclyffe,who,thoughshetooklittlepartintheday'sproceedings,was,asitwere,instinctivelyconsciousofalltheirmovements,putdownhercharge'sagitationforonceasthenaturalresultofthenovelevent,andManstonhimselfwasasindulgentascouldbewished。
AtlengthCythereawanderedaloneintotheconservatory。Wheninit,shethoughtshewouldrunacrosstothehot-houseintheoutergarden,havinginherheartawhimsicaldesirethatsheshouldalsoliketotakealastlookatthefamiliarflowersandluxuriantleavescollectedthere。Shepulledonapairofovershoes,andthithershewent。Notasoulwasinoraroundtheplace。ThegardenerwasmakingmerryonManston'sandheraccount。
Thehappinessthatagenerousspiritderivesfromthebeliefthatitexistsinothersisoftengreaterthantheprimaryhappinessitself。
Thegardenerthought'Howhappytheyare!'andthethoughtmadehimhappierthanthey。
Comingoutoftheforcing-houseagain,shewasonthepointofreturningindoors,whenafeelingthatthesemomentsofsolitudewouldbeherlastoffreedominducedhertoprolongthemalittle,andshestoodstill,unheedingthewintryaspectofthecurly-leavedplants,thestraw-coveredbeds,andthebarefruit-treesaroundher。
Thegarden,nopartofwhichwasvisiblefromthehouse,slopeddowntoanarrowriveratthefoot,dividingitfromthemeadowswithout。
Amanwaslingeringalongthepublicpathontheothersideoftheriver;shefanciedsheknewtheform。Herresolutions,takeninthepresenceofOwen,didnotfailhernow。Shehopedandprayedthatitmightnotbeonewhohadstolenherheartaway,andstillkeptit。Whyshouldhehavereappearedatall,whenhehaddeclaredthathewentoutofhersightforever?
Shehastilyhidherself,inthelowestcornerofthegardenclosetotheriver。Alargedeadtree,thicklyrobedinivy,hadbeenconsiderablydepressedbyitsicyloadofthemorning,andhunglowoverthestream,whichhereranslowanddeep。Thetreescreenedherfromtheeyesofanypasserontheotherside。
Shewaitedtimidly,andhertimidityincreased。Shewouldnotallowherselftoseehim——shewouldhearhimpass,andthenlooktoseeifithadbeenEdward。
But,beforesheheardanything,shebecameawareofanobjectreflectedinthewaterfromunderthetreewhichhungovertheriverinsuchawaythat,thoughhidingtheactualpath,andobjectsuponit,itpermittedtheirreflectedimagestopassbeneathitsboughs。
Thereflectedformwasthatofthemanshehadseenfurtheroff,butbeinginverted,shecouldnotdefinitelycharacterizehim。
HewaslookingattheupperwindowsoftheHouse——athers——wasitEdward,indeed?Ifso,hewasprobablythinkinghewouldliketosayonepartingword。Hecamecloser,gazedintothestream,andwalkedveryslowly。ShewasalmostcertainthatitwasEdward。Shekeptmoresafelyhidden。Consciencetoldherthatsheoughtnottoseehim。Butshesuddenlyaskedherselfaquestion:'Canitbepossiblethatheseesmyreflectedimage,asIseehis?Ofcoursehedoes!'
Hewaslookingatherinthewater。
Shecouldnothelpherselfnow。Shesteppedforwardjustasheemergedfromtheothersideofthetreeandappearederectbeforeher。ItwasEdwardSpringrove——tilltheinvertedvisionmethiseye,dreamingnomoreofseeinghisCythereatherethanofseeingthedeadthemselves。
'Cytherea!'
'Mr。Springrove,'shereturned,inalowvoice,acrossthestream。
Hewasthefirsttospeakagain。
'Sincewehavemet,Iwanttotellyousomething,beforewebecomequiteasstrangerstoeachother。'
'No——notnow——Ididnotmeantospeak——itisnotright,Edward。'
Shespokehurriedlyandturnedawayfromhim,beatingtheairwithherhand。
'Notonecommonwordofexplanation?'heimplored。'Don'tthinkI
ambadenoughtotrytoleadyouastray。Well,go——itisbetter。'
Theireyesmetagain。Shewasnearlychoked。O,howshelonged——
anddreaded——tohearhisexplanation!
'Whatisit?'shesaiddesperately。
'ItisthatIdidnotcometothechurchthismorninginordertodistressyou:Ididnot,Cytherea。Itwastotrytospeaktoyoubeforeyouwere——married。'
Hesteppedcloser,andwenton,'Youknowwhathastakenplace?
Surelyyoudo?——mycousinismarried,andIamfree。'
'Married——andnottoyou?'Cythereafaltered,inaweakwhisper。
'Yes,shewasmarriedyesterday!Arichmanhadappeared,andshejiltedme。Shesaidsheneverwouldhavejiltedastranger,butthatbyjiltingme,sheonlyexercisedtherighteverybodyhasofsnubbingtheirownrelations。Butthat'snothingnow。Icametoyoutoaskoncemoreif……ButIwastoolate。'
'But,Edward,what'sthat,what'sthat!'shecried,inanagonyofreproach。'Whydidyouleavemetoreturntoher?Whydidyouwritemethatcruel,cruelletterthatnearlykilledme!'
'Cytherea!Why,youhadgrowntolove——like——Mr。Manston,andhowcouldyoubeanythingtome——orcareforme?SurelyIactednaturally?'
'Ono——never!Ilovedyou——onlyyou——nothim——alwaysyou!——tilllately……Itrytolovehimnow。'
'Butthatcan'tbecorrect!MissAldclyffetoldmethatyouwantedtohearnomoreofme——provedittome!'saidEdward。
'Never!shecouldn't。'
'Shedid,Cytherea。Andshesentmealetter——alove-letter,youwrotetoMr。Manston。'
'Alove-letterIwrote?'
'Yes,alove-letter——youcouldnotmeethimjustthen,yousaidyouweresorry,buttheemotionyouhadfeltwithhimmadeyouforgetfulofrealities。'
Thestrifeofthoughtintheunhappygirlwholistenedtothisdistortionofhermeaningcouldfindnoventinwords。Andthentherefollowedtheslowrevelationinreturn,bringingwithitallthemiseryofanexplanationwhichcomestoolate。ThequestionwhetherMissAldclyffewereschemerordupewasalmostpassedoverbyCytherea,undertheimmediateoppressivenessofherdespairinthesensethatherpositionwasirretrievable。
NotsoSpringrove。Hesawthroughallthecunninghalf-
misrepresentations——worsethandownrightlies——whichhadjustbeensufficienttoturnthescalebothwithhimandwithher;andfromthebottomofhissoulhecursedthewomanandmanwhohadbroughtallthisagonyuponhimandhisLove。Buthecouldnotaddmoremiserytothefutureofthepoorchildbyrevealingtoomuch。Thewholeschemesheshouldneverknow。
'Iwasindifferenttomyownfuture,'Edwardsaid,'andwasurgedtopromiseadherencetomyengagementwithmycousinAdelaidebyMissAldclyffe:nowyouaremarriedIcannottellyouhow,butitwasonaccountofmyfather。Beingforbiddentothinkofyou,whatdidI
careaboutanything?Mynewthoughtthatyoustilllovedmewasfirstraisedbywhatmyfathersaidintheletterannouncingmycousin'smarriage。HesaidthatalthoughyouweretobemarriedonOldChristmasDay——thatisto-morrow——hehadnoticedyourappearancewithpity:hethoughtyoulovedmestill。Itwasenoughforme——I
camedownbytheearliestmorningtrain,thinkingIcouldseeyousometimeto-day,theday,asIthought,beforeyourmarriage,hoping,buthardlydaringtohope,thatyoumightbeinducedtomarryme。Ihurriedfromthestation;whenIreachedthevillageI
sawidlersaboutthechurch,andtheprivategateleadingtotheHouseopen。Iranintothechurchbythesmalldoorandsawyoucomeoutofthevestry;Iwastoolate。Ihavenowtoldyou。Iwascompelledtotellyou。O,mylostdarling,nowIshalllivecontent——ordiecontent!'
'Iamtoblame,Edward,Iam,'shesaidmournfully;'Iwastaughttodreadpauperism;mynightsweremadesleepless;therewascontinuallyreiteratedinmyearstillIbelievedit——
'“Theworldanditswayshaveacertainworth,AndtopressapointwheretheseopposeWereasimplepolicy。“
ButIwillsaynothingaboutwhoinfluenced——whopersuaded。Theactismine,afterall。Edward,ImarriedtoescapedependenceformybreaduponthewhimofMissAldclyffe,orotherslikeher。Itwasclearlyrepresentedtomethatdependenceisbearableifwehaveanotherplacewhichwecancallhome;buttobeadependentandtohavenootherspotforthehearttoanchorupon——O,itismournfulandharassing!……Butthatwithoutwhichallpersuasionwouldhavebeenasair,wasaddedbymymiserableconvictionthatyouwerefalse;thatdidit,thatturnedme!Youweretobeconsideredasnobodytome,andMr。Manstonwasinvariablykind。Well,thedeedisdone——Imustabidebyit。IshallneverlethimknowthatIdonotlovehim——never。Ifthingshadonlyremainedastheyseemedtobe,ifyouhadreallyforgottenmeandmarriedanotherwoman,I
couldhaveborneitbetter。IwishIdidnotknowthetruthasI
knowitnow!Butourlife,whatisit?Letusbebrave,Edward,andliveoutourfewremainingyearswithdignity。Theywillnotbelong。O,Ihopetheywillnotbelong!……Now,good-bye,good-
bye!'
'IwishIcouldbenearandtouchyouonce,justonce,'saidSpringrove,inavoicewhichhevainlyendeavouredtokeepfirmandclear。
Theylookedattheriver,thenintoit;ashoalofminnowswasfloatingoverthesandybottom,liketheblackdashesonminiver;
thoughnarrow,thestreamwasdeep,andtherewasnobridge。
'Cytherea,reachoutyourhandthatImayjusttouchitwithmine。'
Shesteppedtothebrinkandstretchedoutherhandandfingerstowardshis,butnotintothem。Theriverwastoowide。
'Nevermind,'saidCytherea,hervoicebrokenbyagitation,'Imustbegoing。Godblessandkeepyou,myEdward!Godblessyou!'
'Imusttouchyou,Imustpressyourhand,'hesaid。
Theycamenear——nearer——nearerstill——theirfingersmet。Therewasalongfirmclasp,socloseandstillthateachhandcouldfeeltheother'spulsethrobbingbesideitsown。
'MyCytherea!mystolenpetlamb!'
Sheglancedamutefarewellfromherlargeperturbedeyes,turned,andranupthegardenwithoutlookingback。Allwasoverbetweenthem。Theriverflowedonasquietlyandobtuselyasever,andtheminnowsgatheredagainintheirfavouritespotasiftheyhadneverbeendisturbed。
Nobodyindoorsguessedfromhercountenanceandbearingthatherheartwasneartobreakingwiththeintensityofthemiserywhichgnawedthere。Atthesetimesawomandoesnotfaint,orweep,orscream,asshewillinthemomentofsuddenshocks。Whenlancedbyamentalagonyofsuchrefinedandspecialtorturethatitisindescribablebymen'swords,shemovesamongheracquaintancesmuchasbefore,andcontrivessotocastheractionsintheoldmouldsthatsheisonlyconsideredtoberatherdullerthanusual。
5。HALF-PASTTWOTOFIVEO'CLOCKP。M。
Owenaccompaniedthenewly-marriedcoupletotherailway-station,andinhisanxietytoseethelastofhissister,leftthebroughamandstooduponhiscrutcheswhilstthetrainwasstarting。
Whenthehusbandandwifewereabouttoentertherailway-carriagetheysawoneoftheporterslookingfrequentlyandfurtivelyatthem。Hewaspale,andapparentlyveryill。
'Lookatthatpoorsickman,'saidCythereacompassionately,'surelyheoughtnottobehere。'
'He'sbeenveryqueerto-day,madam,veryqueer,'anotherporteranswered。'Hedohardlyhearwhenhe'sspokento,andd'seemgiddy,orasifsomethingwasonhismind。He'sbeenlikeitforthismonthpast,butnothingsobadasheisto-day。'
'Poorthing。'
Shecouldnotresistaninnatedesiretodosomejustthingonthismostdeceitfulandwretcheddayofherlife。Goinguptohimshegavehimmoney,andtoldhimtosendtotheoldmanor-houseforwineorwhateverhewanted。
Thetrainmovedoffasthetremblingmanwasmurmuringhisincoherentthanks。Owenwavedhishand;Cythereasmiledbacktohimasifitwereunknowntoherthatsheweptallthewhile。
OwenwasdrivenbacktotheOldHouse。Buthecouldnotrestinthelonelyplace。Hisconsciencebegantoreproachhimforhavingforcedonthemarriageofhissisterwithalittletoomuchperemptoriness。Takinguphiscrutcheshewentoutofdoorsandwanderedaboutthemuddyroadswithnoobjectinviewsavethatofgettingridoftime。
Thecloudswhichhadhungsolowanddenselyduringthedayclearedfromthewestjustnowasthesunwassetting,callingforthaweaklytwitterfromafewsmallbirds。Owencrawleddownthepathtothewaterfall,andlingeredthereabouttillthesolitudeoftheplaceoppressedhim,whenheturnedbackandintotheroadtothevillage。Hewassad;hesaidtohimself——
'Ifthereiseveranymeaninginthoseheavyfeelingswhicharecalledpresentiments——andIdon'tbelievethereis——therewillbeinmineto-day……PoorlittleCytherea!'
Atthatmomentthelastlowraysofthesuntouchedtheheadandshouldersofamanwhowasapproaching,andshowedhimuptoOwen'sview。ItwasoldMr。Springrove。TheyhadgrownfamiliarwitheachotherbyreasonofOwen'svisitstoKnapwaterduringthepastyear。ThefarmerinquiredhowOwen'sfootwasprogressing,andwasgladtoseehimsonimbleagain。
'Howisyourson?'saidOwenmechanically。
'Heisathome,sittingbythefire,'saidthefarmer,inasadvoice。'ThismorningheslippedindoorsfromGodknowswhere,andtherehesitsandmopes,andthinks,andthinks,andpresseshisheadsohard,thatIcan'thelpfeelingforhim。'
'Ishemarried?'saidOwen。Cythereahadfearedtotellhimoftheinterviewinthegarden。
'No。Ican'tquiteunderstandhowthematterrests……Ah!
Edward,too,whostartedwithsuchpromise;thatheshouldnowhavebecomesuchacarelessfellow——notamonthinoneplace。There,Mr。
Graye,Iknowwhatitismainlyowingto。Ifithadn'tbeenforthatheartaffair,hemighthavedone——butthelesssaidabouthimthebetter。Idon'tknowwhatweshouldhavedoneifMissAldclyffehadinsistedupontheconditionsoftheleases。Yourbrother-in-
law,thesteward,hadahandinmakingitlightforus,Iknow,andIheartilythankhimforit。'Heceasedspeaking,andlookedroundatthesky。
'Haveyouheardo'what'shappened?'hesaidsuddenly;'Iwasjustcomingouttolearnaboutit。'
'Ihaven'theardofanything。'
'Itissomethingveryserious,thoughIdon'tknowwhat。AllIknowiswhatIheardamancalloutbynow——thatitverymuchconcernssomebodywholivesintheparish。'
Itseemssingularenough,eventomindswhohavenodimbeliefsinadumbrationandpresentiment,thatatthatmomentnottheshadowofathoughtcrossedOwen'smindthatthesomebodywhomthematterconcernedmightbehimself,oranybelongingtohim。Theeventabouttotranspirewasasportentoustothewomanwhosewelfarewasmoredeartohimthanhisown,asany,shortofdeathitself,couldpossiblybe;andeverafterwards,whenheconsideredtheeffectoftheknowledgethenexthalf-hourconveyedtohisbrain,evenhispracticalgoodsensecouldnotrefrainfromwonderthatheshouldhavewalkedtowardthevillageafterhearingthosewordsofthefarmer,insoleisurelyandunconcernedaway。'HowunutterablymeanmustmyintelligencehaveappearedtotheeyeofaforeseeingGod,'hefrequentlysaidinafter-time。'Columbusontheeveofhisdiscoveryofaworldwasnotsocontemptiblyunaware。'
Afterafewadditionalwordsofcommon-placethefarmerlefthim,and,ashasbeensaid,Owenproceededslowlyandindifferentlytowardsthevillage。
Thelabouringmenhadjustleftwork,andpassedtheparkgate,whichopenedintothestreetasOwencamedowntowardsit。Theywentalonginadrift,earnestlytalking,andwerefinallyabouttoturninattheirrespectivedoorways。Butuponseeinghimtheylookedsignificantlyatoneanother,andpaused。Hecameintotheroad,onthatsideofthevillage-greenwhichwasoppositetherowofcottages,andturnedroundtotheright。WhenOwenturned,alleyesturned;oneortwomenwenthurriedlyindoors,andafterwardsappearedatthedoorstepwiththeirwives,whoalsocontemplatedhim,talkingastheylooked。Theyseemeduncertainhowtoactinsomematter。
'Iftheywantme,surelytheywillcallme,'hethought,wonderingmoreandmore。Hecouldnolongerdoubtthathewasconnectedwiththesubjectoftheirdiscourse。
Thefirstwhoapproachedhimwasaboy。
'Whathasoccurred?'saidOwen。
'O,amanha'gotcrazy-religious,andsentforthepa'son。'
'Isthatall?'
'Yes,sir。Hewishedhewasdead,hesaid,andhe'salmostoutofhismindwi'wishenitsomuch。ThatwasbeforeMr。Raunhamcame。'
'Whoishe?'saidOwen。
'JosephChinney,oneoftherailway-porters;heusedtobenight-
porter。'
'Ah——themanwhowasillthisafternoon;bytheway,hewastoldtocometotheOldHouseforsomething,buthehasn'tbeen。Buthasanythingelsehappened——anythingthatconcernstheweddingto-day?'
'No,sir。'
ConcludingthattheconnectionwhichhadseemedtobetracedbetweenhimselfandtheeventmustinsomewayhavearisenfromCytherea'sfriendlinesstowardstheman,Owenturnedaboutandwenthomewardsinamuchquieterframeofmind——yetscarcelysatisfiedwiththesolution。Theroutehehadchosenledthroughthedairy-yard,andheopenedthegate。
Fiveminutesbeforethispointoftime,EdwardSpringrovewaslookingoveroneofhisfather'sfieldsatanoutlyinghamletofthreeorfourcottagessomemileandahalfdistant。Aturnpike-
gatewasclosebythegateofthefield。
ThecarriertoCasterbridgecameupasEdwardsteppedintotheroad,andjumpeddownfromthevantopaytoll。HerecognizedSpringrove。
'Thisisaprettyset-toinyourplace,sir,'hesaid。'Youdon'tknowaboutit,Isuppose?'
'What?'saidSpringrove。
Thecarrierpaidhisdues,cameuptoEdward,andspoketenwordsinaconfidentialwhisper:thensprangupontheshaftsofhisvehicle,gaveaclinchingnodofsignificancetoSpringrove,andrattledaway。
Edwardturnedpalewiththeintelligence。Hisfirstthoughtwas,'Bringherhome!'
Thenext——didOwenGrayeknowwhathadbeendiscovered?Heprobablydidbythattime,butnorisksofprobabilitymustberunbyawomanheloveddearerthanalltheworldbesides。Hewouldatanyratemakeperfectlysurethatherbrotherwasinpossessionoftheknowledge,bytellingithimwithhisownlips。
Offheraninthedirectionoftheoldmanor-house。
Thepathwasacrossarableland,andwasploughedupwiththerestofthefieldeveryautumn,afterwhichitwastroddenoutafresh。
Thethawhadsoloosenedthesoftearth,thatlumpsofstiffmudwereliftedbyhisfeetateveryleaphetook,andflungagainsthimbyhisrapidmotion,asitweredoggedlyimpedinghim,andincreasingtenfoldthecustomaryeffortofrunning,Butheranon——uphill,anddownhill,thesamepacealike——liketheshadowofacloud。Hisnearestdirection,too,likeOwen's,wasthroughthedairy-barton,andasOwenenteredithesawthefigureofEdwardrapidlydescendingtheoppositehill,atadistanceoftwoorthreehundredyards。Owenadvancedamidthecows。
Thedairyman,whohadhithertobeentalkingloudlyonsomeabsorbingsubjecttothemaidsandmenmilkingaroundhim,turnedhisfacetowardstheheadofthecowwhenOwenpassed,andceasedspeaking。
Owenapproachedhimandsaid——
'Asingularthinghashappened,Ihear。Themanisnotinsane,I
suppose?'
'Nothe——he'ssensibleenough,'saidthedairyman,andpaused。Hewasamannoisywithhisassociates——stolidandtaciturnwithstrangers。
'IsittruethatheisChinney,therailway-porter?'
'That'stheman,sir。'Themaidsandmensittingunderthecowswereallattentivelylisteningtothisdiscourse,milkingirregularly,andsoftlydirectingthejetsagainstthesidesofthepail。
Owencouldcontainhimselfnolonger,muchashisminddreadedanythingofthenatureofridicule。'Thepeopleallseemtolookatme,asifsomethingseriouslyconcernedme;isitthisstupidmatter,orwhatisit?'
'Surely,sir,youknowbetterthananybodyelseifsuchastrangethingconcernsyou。'
'Whatstrangething?'
'Don'tyouknow!HisconfessingtoParsonRaunham。'
'Whatdidheconfess?Tellme。'
'Ifyoureallyha'n'theard,'tisthis。Hewasasusualondutyatthestationonthenightofthefirelastyear,otherwisehewouldn'tha'knownit。'
'Knownwhat?ForGod'ssaketell,man!'
Butatthisinstantthetwooppositegatesofthedairy-yard,oneontheeast,theotheronthewestside,slammedalmostsimultaneously。
Therectorfromone,Springrovefromtheother,camestridingacrossthebarton。
Edwardwasnearest,andspokefirst。Hesaidinalowvoice:'Yoursisterisnotlegallymarried!Hisfirstwifeisstillliving!HowitcomesoutIdon'tknow!'
'O,hereyouareatlast,Mr。Graye,thankHeaven!'saidtherectorbreathlessly。'IhavebeentotheOldHouse,andthentoMissAldclyffe'slookingforyou——somethingveryextraordinary。'HebeckonedtoOwen,afterwardsincludedSpringroveinhisglance,andthethreesteppedasidetogether。
'Aporteratthestation。Hewasacuriousnervousman。Hehadbeeninastrangestateallday,buthewouldn'tgohome。Yoursisterwaskindtohim,itseems,thisafternoon。Whensheandherhusbandhadgone,hewentonwithhiswork,shiftingluggage-vans。
Well,hegotintheway,asifhewerequitelosttowhatwasgoingon,andtheysenthimhomeatlast。Thenhewishedtoseeme。I
wentdirectly。Therewassomethingonhismind,hesaid,andtoldit。AboutthetimewhenthefireoflastNovembertwelvemonthwasgotunder,whilsthewasbyhimselfintheporter'sroom,almostasleep,somebodycametothestationandtriedtoopenthedoor。HewentoutandfoundthepersontobetheladyhehadaccompaniedtoCarrifordearlierintheevening,Mrs。Manston。Sheasked,whenwouldbeanothertraintoLondon?Thefirstthenextmorning,hetoldher,wasataquarter-pastsixo'clockfromBudmouth,butthatitwasexpress,anddidn'tstopatCarrifordRoad——itdidn'tstoptillitgottoAnglebury。“HowfarisittoAnglebury?”shesaid。
Hetoldher,andshethankedhim,andwentawayuptheline。Inashorttimesheranbackandtookoutherpurse。“Don'tonanyaccountsayawordinthevillageoranywherethatIhavebeenhere,orasinglebreathaboutme——I'mashamedevertohavecome。“Hepromised;shetookouttwosovereigns。“SwearitontheTestamentinthewaiting-room,“shesaid,“andI'llpayyouthese。“Hegotthebook,tookanoathuponit,receivedthemoney,andshelefthim。Hewasoffdutyathalf-pastfive。Hehaskeptsilenceallthroughtheinterveningtimetillnow,butlatelytheknowledgehepossessedweighedheavilyuponhisconscienceandweakmind。Yetthenearercamethewedding-day,themorehefearedtotell。Theactualmarriagefilledhimwithremorse。Hesaysyoursister'skindnessafterwardswaslikeaknifegoingthroughhisheart。Hethoughthehadruinedher。'
'Butwhatevercanbedone?Whydidn'thespeaksooner?'criedOwen。
'Heactuallycalledatmyhousetwiceyesterday,'therectorcontinued,'resolved,itseems,tounburdenhismind。Iwasoutbothtimes——heleftnomessage,and,theysay,helookedrelievedthathisobjectwasdefeated。ThenhesaysheresolvedtocometoyouattheOldHouselastnight——started,reachedthedoor,anddreadedtoknock——andthenwenthomeagain。'
'Herewillbeataleforthenewsmongersofthecounty,'saidOwenbitterly。'Theideaofhisnotopeninghismouthsooner——thecriminalityofthething!'
'Ah,that'stheinconsistencyofaweaknature。Butnowthatitisputtousinthisway,howmuchmoreprobableitseemsthatsheshouldhaveescapedthanhavebeenburnt——'
'Youwill,ofcourse,gostraighttoMr。Manston,andaskhimwhatitallmeans?'Edwardinterrupted。
'OfcourseIshall!Manstonhasnorighttocarryoffmysisterunlesshe'sherhusband,'saidOwen。'Ishallgoandseparatethem。'
'Certainlyyouwill,'saidtherector。
'Where'stheman?'
'Inhiscottage。'
''Tisnousegoingtohim,either。Imustgooffatonceandovertakethem——laythecasebeforeManston,andaskhimforadditionalandcertainproofsofhisfirstwife'sdeath。Anup-
trainpassessoon,Ithink。'
'Wherehavetheygone?'saidEdward。
'ToParis——asfarasSouthamptonthisafternoon,toproceedto-
morrowmorning。'
'WhereinSouthampton?'
'Ireallydon'tknow——somehotel。IonlyhavetheirParisaddress。
ButIshallfindthembymakingafewinquiries。'
Therectorhadinthemeantimebeentakingouthispocket-book,andnowopeneditatthefirstpage,whereonitwashiscustomeverymonthtogumasmallrailwaytime-table——cutfromthelocalnewspaper。
'Theafternoonexpressisjustgone,'hesaid,holdingopenthepage,'andthenexttraintoSouthamptonpassesattenminutestosixo'clock。Nowitwants——letmesee——five-and-fortyminutestothattime。Mr。Graye,myadviceisthatyoucomewithmetotheporter'scottage,whereIwillshortlywriteoutthesubstanceofwhathehassaid,andgethimtosignit。YouwillthenhavefarbettergroundsforinterferingbetweenMr。andMrs。Manstonthanifyouwenttothemwithamerehearsaystory。'
Thesuggestionseemedagoodone。'Yes,therewillbetimebeforethetrainstarts,'saidOwen。
Edwardhadbeenmusingrestlessly。
'LetmegotoSouthamptoninyourplace,onaccountofyourlameness?'hesaidsuddenlytoGraye。
'Iammuchobligedtoyou,butIthinkIcanscarcelyaccepttheoffer,'returnedOwencoldly。'Mr。Manstonisanhonourableman,andIhadmuchbetterseehimmyself。'
'Thereisnodoubt,'saidMr。Raunham,'thatthedeathofhiswifewasfullybelievedinbyhimself。'
'Nonewhatever,'saidOwen;'andthenewsmustbebrokentohim,andthequestionofotherproofsasked,inafriendlyway。ItwouldnotdoforMr。Springrovetoappearinthecaseatall。'Hestillspokerathercoldly;therecollectionoftheattachmentbetweenhissisterandEdwardwasnotapleasantonetohim。
'Youwillneverfindthem,'saidEdward。'YouhaveneverbeentoSouthampton,andIknoweveryhousethere。'
'Thatmakeslittledifference,'saidtherector;'hewillhaveacab。CertainlyMr。Grayeisthepropermantogoontheerrand。'
'Stay;I'lltelegraphtoaskthemtomeetmewhenIarriveattheterminus,'saidOwen;'thatis,iftheirtrainhasnotalreadyarrived。'
Mr。Raunhampulledouthispocket-bookagain。'Thetwo-thirtytrainreachedSouthamptonaquarterofanhourago,'hesaid。
Itwastoolatetocatchthematthestation。Nevertheless,therectorsuggestedthatitwouldbeworthwhiletodirectamessageto'alltherespectablehotelsinSouthampton,'onthechanceofitsfindingthem,andthussavingadealofpersonallabourtoOweninsearchingabouttheplace。
'I'llgoandtelegraph,whilstyoureturntotheman,'saidEdward——
anofferwhichwasaccepted。Grayeandtherectorthenturnedoffinthedirectionoftheporter'scottage。
Edward,todespatchthemessageatonce,hurriedlyfollowedtheroadtowardsthestation,stillrestlesslythinking。AllOwen'sproceedingswerebasedontheassumption,naturalunderthecircumstances,ofManston'sgoodfaith,andthathewouldreadilyacquiesceinanyarrangementwhichshouldclearupthemystery。
'But,'thoughtEdward,'suppose——andHeavenforgiveme,Icannothelpsupposingit——thatManstonisnotthathonourableman,whatwillayoungandinexperiencedfellowlikeOwendo?Willhenotbehoodwinkedbysomespeciousstoryoranother,framedtolasttillManstongetstiredofpoorCytherea?Andthenthedisclosureofthetruthwillruinandblackenboththeirfuturesirremediably。'
However,heproceededtoexecutehiscommission。ThisheputintheformofasimplerequestfromOwentoManston,thatManstonwouldcometotheSouthamptonplatform,andwaitforOwen'sarrival,ashevaluedhisreputation。Themessagewasdirectedastherectorhadsuggested,Edwardguaranteeingtotheclerkwhosentitoffthateveryexpenseconnectedwiththesearchwouldbepaid。
Nosoonerhadthetelegrambeendespatchedthanhisheartsankwithinhimatthewantofforesightshowninsendingit。HadManston,allthetime,aknowledgethathisfirstwifelived,thetelegramwouldbeaforewarningwhichmightenablehimtodefeatOwenstillmoresignally。
Whilstthemachinewasstillgivingoffitsmultitudinousseriesofraps,Edwardheardapowerfulrushundertheshedoutside,followedbyalongsonorouscreak。Itwasatrainofsomesort,stealingsoftlyintothestation,anditwasanup-train。Therewastheringofabell。Itwascertainlyapassengertrain。
Yetthebooking-officewindowwasclosed。
'Ho,ho,John,seventeenminutesaftertimeandonlythreestationsuptheline。Theinclineagain?'Thevoicewasthestationmaster's,andthereplyseemedtocomefromtheguard。
'Yes,theothersideofthecutting。Thethawhasmadeitallinaperfectcloudoffog,andtherailsareasslipperyasglass。Wehadtobringthemthroughthecuttingattwice。'
'Anybodyelseforthefour-forty-fiveexpress?'thevoicecontinued。
Thefewpassengers,havingcrossedovertotheothersidelongbeforethistime,hadtakentheirplacesatonce。
AconvictionsuddenlybrokeinuponEdward'smind;thenawishoverwhelmedhim。Theconviction——asstartlingasitwassudden——wasthatManstonwasavillain,whoatsomeearliertimehaddiscoveredthathiswifelived,andhadbribedhertokeepoutofsight,thathemightpossessCytherea。Thewishwas——toproceedatoncebythisverytrainthatwasstarting,findManstonbeforehewouldexpectfromthewordsofthetelegramifhegotitthatanybodyfromCarrifordcouldbewithhim——chargehimboldlywiththecrime,andtrusttohisconsequentconfusionifhewereguiltyforasolutionoftheextraordinaryriddle,andthereleaseofCytherea!
Theticket-officehadbeenlockedupattheexpirationofthetimeatwhichthetrainwasdue。Rushingoutastheguardblewhiswhistle,Edwardopenedthedoorofacarriageandleaptin。Thetrainmovedalong,andhewassoonoutofsight。
Springrovehadlongsincepassedthatpeculiarlinewhichliesacrossthecourseoffallinginlove——if,indeed,itmaynotbecalledtheinitialitselfofthecompletepassion——alongingtocherish;whenthewomanisshiftedinaman'smindfromtheregionofmereadmirationtotheregionofwarmfellowship。Atthisassumptionofhernature,shechangestohimintone,hue,andexpression。Allaboutthelovedonethatsaid'She'before,says'We'now。Eyesthatweretobesubduedbecomeeyestobefearedfor:abrainthatwastobeprobedbycynicismbecomesabrainthatistobetenderlyassisted;feetthatweretobetestedinthedancebecomefeetthatarenottobedistressed;theonce-criticizedaccent,manner,anddress,becometheclientsofaspecialpleader。
6。FIVETOEIGHTO'CLOCKP。M。
Nowthathewasfairlyonthetrack,andhadbeguntocooldown,Edwardrememberedthathehadnothingtoshow——nolegalauthoritywhatevertoquestionManstonorinterferebetweenhimandCythereaashusbandandwife。Henowsawthewisdomoftherectorinobtainingasignedconfessionfromtheporter。Thedocumentwouldnotbeadeath-bedconfession——perhapsnotworthanythinglegally——
butitwouldbeheldbyOwen;andhealone,asCytherea'snaturalguardian,couldseparatethemonthemeregroundofanunprovedprobability,orwhatmightperhapsbecalledthehallucinationofanidiot。Edwardhimself,however,wasasfirmlyconvincedastherectorhadbeenofthetruthoftheman'sstory,andpacedbackwardandforwardthesolitarycompartmentasthetrainwoundthroughthedarkheatheryplains,themazywoods,andmoaningcoppices,asresolvedasevertopounceonManston,andchargehimwiththecrimeduringthecriticalintervalbetweenthereceptionofthetelegramandthehouratwhichOwen'strainwouldarrive——trustingtocircumstancesforwhatheshouldsayanddoafterwards,butmakinguphismindtobeareadysecondtoOweninanyemergencythatmightarise。
Atthirty-threeminutespastsevenhestoodontheplatformofthestationatSouthampton——aclearhourbeforethetraincontainingOwencouldpossiblyarrive。
Makingafewinquirieshere,buttooimpatienttopursuehisinvestigationcarefullyandinductively,hewentintothetown。
Attheexpirationofanotherhalf-hourhehadvisitedsevenhotelsandinns,largeandsmall,askingthesamequestionsateach,andalwaysreceivingthesamereply——nobodyofthatname,oransweringtothatdescription,hadbeenthere。Aboyfromthetelegraph-
officehadcalled,askingforthesamepersons,iftheyrecollectedrightly。
Hereflectedawhile,struckagainbyapainfulthoughtthattheymightpossiblyhavedecidedtocrosstheChannelbythenight-boat。
Thenhehastenedofftoanotherquarterofthetowntopursuehisinquiriesamonghotelsofthemoreold-fashionedandquietclass。
Hisstainedandwearyappearanceobtainedforhimbutamodicumofcivility,whereverhewent,whichmadehistaskyetmoredifficult。
Hecalledatthreeseveralhousesinthisneighbourhood,withthesameresultasbefore。Heenteredthedoorofthefourthhousewhilsttheclockofthenearestchurchwasstrikingeight。
'HaveatallgentlemannamedManston,andayoungwifearrivedherethisevening?'heaskedagain,inwordswhichhadgrownoddtohisearsfromveryfamiliarity。
'Anew-marriedcouple,didyousay?'
'Theyare,thoughIdidn'tsayso。'
'Theyhavetakenasitting-roomandbedroom,numberthirteen。'
'Aretheyindoors?'
'Idon'tknow。Eliza!'
'Yes,m'm。'
'Seeifnumberthirteenisin——thatgentlemanandhiswife。'
'Yes,m'm。'
'Hasanytelegramcomeforthem?'saidEdward,whenthemaidhadgoneonhererrand。
'No——nothingthatIknowof。'
'SomebodydidcomeandaskifaMr。andMrs。Masters,orsomesuchname,wereherethisevening,'saidanothervoicefromthebackofthebar-parlour。
'Anddidtheygetthemessage?'
'Ofcoursetheydidnot——theywerenothere——theydidn'tcometillhalf-an-hourafterthat。Themanwhomadeinquiriesleftnomessage。Itoldthemwhentheycamethatthey,oranamesomethingliketheirs,hadbeenaskedfor,buttheydidn'tseemtounderstandwhyitshouldbe,andsothematterdropped。'
Thechambermaidcameback。'Thegentlemanisnotin,buttheladyis。WhoshallIsay?'
'Nobody,'saidEdward。Foritnowbecamenecessarytoreflectuponhismethodofproceeding。Hisobjectinfindingtheirwhereabouts——
apartfromthewishtoassistOwen——hadbeentoseeManston,askhimflatlyforanexplanation,andconfirmtherequestofthemessageinthepresenceofCytherea——soastopreventthepossibilityofthesteward'spalmingoffastoryuponCytherea,oreludingherbrotherwhenhecame。Buthereweretwoimportantmodificationsoftheexpectedconditionofaffairs。Thetelegramhadnotbeenreceived,andCythereawasinthehousealone。
HehesitatedastotheproprietyofintrudinguponherinManston'sabsence。Besides,thewomenatthebottomofthestairswouldseehim——hisintrusionwouldseemodd——andManstonmightreturnatanymoment。Hecertainlymightcall,andwaitforManstonwiththeaccusationuponhistongue,ashehadintended。Butitwasadoubtfulcourse。ThatideahadbeenbasedupontheassumptionthatCythereawasnotmarried。Ifthefirstwifewerereallydeadafterall——andhefeltsickatthethought——Cythereaasthesteward'swifemightinafter-years——perhaps,atonce——besubjectedtoindignityandcrueltyonaccountofanoldlover'sinterferencenow。
Yes,perhapstheannouncementwouldcomemostproperlyandsafelyforherfromherbrotherOwen,thetimeofwhosearrivalhadalmostexpired。
But,onturninground,hesawthatthestaircaseandpassagewerequitedeserted。Heandhiserrandhadascompletelydiedfromthemindsoftheattendantsasiftheyhadneverbeen。TherewasabsolutelynothingbetweenhimandCytherea'spresence。Reasonwaspowerlessnow;hemustseeher——rightorwrong,fairorunfairtoManston——offensivetoherbrotherorno。Hislipsmustbethefirsttotellthealarmingstorytoher。Wholovedherashe!Hewentbacklightlythroughthehall,upthestairs,twoatatime,andfollowedthecorridortillhecametothedoornumberedthirteen。
Heknockedsoftly:nobodyanswered。
TherewasnotimetoloseifhewouldspeaktoCythereabeforeManstoncame。Heturnedthehandleofthedoorandlookedin。Thelamponthetableburnedlow,andshowedwritingmaterialsopenbesideit;thechieflightcamefromthefire,thedirectraysofwhichwereobscuredbyasweetfamiliaroutlineofheadandshoulders——stillasprecioustohimasever。