Yes,returned。HowandwhyshouldIdoubtitforaninstant。WhatotherconstructioncouldIpossiblyputuponsuchconduct,onthepartofaladysobeautifulsowealthyevidentlysoaccomplishedofsohighbreedingofsoloftyapositioninsocietyineveryregardsoentirelyrespectableasIfeltassuredwasMadameLalande?Yes,shelovedmeshereturnedtheenthusiasmofmylove,withanenthusiasmasblindasuncompromisingasuncalculatingasabandonedandasutterlyunboundedasmyown!
Thesedeliciousfanciesandreflections,however,werenowinterruptedbythefallingofthedrop-curtain。Theaudiencearose;
andtheusualtumultimmediatelysupervened。QuittingTalbotabruptly,ImadeeveryefforttoforcemywayintocloserproximitywithMadameLalande。Havingfailedinthis,onaccountofthecrowd,Iatlengthgaveupthechase,andbentmystepshomeward;consolingmyselfformydisappointmentinnothavingbeenabletotoucheventhehemofherrobe,bythereflectionthatIshouldbeintroducedbyTalbot,indueform,uponthemorrow。
Thismorrowatlastcame,thatistosay,adayfinallydawneduponalongandwearynightofimpatience;andthenthehoursuntil“one“
weresnail-paced,dreary,andinnumerable。ButevenStamboul,itissaid,shallhaveanend,andtherecameanendtothislongdelay。
Theclockstruck。Asthelastechoceased,IsteppedintoB’sandinquiredforTalbot。
“Out。”saidthefootmanTalbot’sown。
“Out!”Ireplied,staggeringbackhalfadozenpaces“letmetellyou,myfinefellow,thatthisthingisthoroughlyimpossibleandimpracticable;Mr。Talbotisnotout。Whatdoyoumean?”
“Nothing,sir;onlyMr。Talbotisnotin,that’sall。HerodeovertoS,immediatelyafterbreakfast,andleftwordthathewouldnotbeintownagainforaweek。”
Istoodpetrifiedwithhorrorandrage。Iendeavoredtoreply,butmytonguerefuseditsoffice。AtlengthIturnedonmyheel,lividwithwrath,andinwardlyconsigningthewholetribeoftheTalbotstotheinnermostregionsofErebus。Itwasevidentthatmyconsideratefriend,ilfanatico,hadquiteforgottenhisappointmentwithmyselfhadforgottenitassoonasitwasmade。Atnotimewasheaveryscrupulousmanofhisword。Therewasnohelpforit;sosmotheringmyvexationaswellasIcould,Istrolledmoodilyupthestreet,propoundingfutileinquiriesaboutMadameLalandetoeverymaleacquaintanceImet。Byreportshewasknown,Ifound,toall-tomanybysightbutshehadbeenintownonlyafewweeks,andtherewereveryfew,therefore,whoclaimedherpersonalacquaintance。Thesefew,beingstillcomparativelystrangers,couldnot,orwouldnot,takethelibertyofintroducingmethroughtheformalityofamorningcall。WhileIstoodthusindespair,conversingwithatriooffriendsupontheallabsorbingsubjectofmyheart,itsohappenedthatthesubjectitselfpassedby。
“AsIlive,theresheis!”criedone。
“Surprisinglybeautiful!”exclaimedasecond。
“Anangeluponearth!”ejaculatedathird。
Ilooked;andinanopencarriagewhichapproachedus,passingslowlydownthestreet,sattheenchantingvisionoftheopera,accompaniedbytheyoungerladywhohadoccupiedaportionofherbox。
“Hercompanionalsowearsremarkablywell。”saidtheoneofmytriowhohadspokenfirst。
“Astonishingly。”saidthesecond;“stillquiteabrilliantair,butartwilldowonders。Uponmyword,shelooksbetterthanshedidatParisfiveyearsago。Abeautifulwomanstill;don’tyouthinkso,Froissart?Simpson,Imean。”
“Still!”saidI,“andwhyshouldn’tshebe?Butcomparedwithherfriendsheisasarushlighttotheeveningstaraglow
wormtoAntares。
“Ha!ha!ha!why,Simpson,youhaveanastonishingtactatmakingdiscoveriesoriginalones,Imean。”Andhereweseparated,whileoneofthetriobeganhummingagayvaudeville,ofwhichIcaughtonlythelines-
Ninon,Ninon,Ninonabas-
AbasNinonDeL’Enclos!
Duringthislittlescene,however,onethinghadservedgreatlytoconsoleme,althoughitfedthepassionbywhichIwasconsumed。AsthecarriageofMadameLalanderolledbyourgroup,Ihadobservedthatsherecognizedme;andmorethanthis,shehadblessedme,bythemostseraphicofallimaginablesmiles,withnoequivocalmarkoftherecognition。
Asforanintroduction,IwasobligedtoabandonallhopeofituntilsuchtimeasTalbotshouldthinkpropertoreturnfromthecountry。
InthemeantimeIperseveringlyfrequentedeveryreputableplaceofpublicamusement;and,atlength,atthetheatre,whereIfirstsawher,Ihadthesupremeblissofmeetingher,andofexchangingglanceswithheronceagain。Thisdidnotoccur,however,untilthelapseofafortnight。Everyday,intheinterim,IhadinquiredforTalbotathishotel,andeverydayhadbeenthrownintoaspasmofwrathbytheeverlasting“Notcomehomeyet“ofhisfootman。
Upontheeveninginquestion,therefore,Iwasinaconditionlittleshortofmadness。MadameLalande,Ihadbeentold,wasaParisian
hadlatelyarrivedfromParismightshenotsuddenlyreturn?
returnbeforeTalbotcamebackandmightshenotbethuslosttomeforever?Thethoughtwastooterribletobear。Sincemyfuturehappinesswasatissue,Iresolvedtoactwithamanlydecision。Inaword,uponthebreakingupoftheplay,Itracedtheladytoherresidence,notedtheaddress,andthenextmorningsentherafullandelaborateletter,inwhichIpouredoutmywholeheart。
Ispokeboldly,freelyinaword,Ispokewithpassion。I
concealednothingnothingevenofmyweakness。Ialludedtotheromanticcircumstancesofourfirstmeetingeventotheglanceswhichhadpassedbetweenus。IwentsofarastosaythatIfeltassuredofherlove;whileIofferedthisassurance,andmyownintensityofdevotion,astwoexcusesformyotherwiseunpardonableconduct。Asathird,IspokeofmyfearthatshemightquitthecitybeforeIcouldhavetheopportunityofaformalintroduction。I
concludedthemostwildlyenthusiasticepistleeverpenned,withafrankdeclarationofmyworldlycircumstancesofmyaffluence
andwithanofferofmyheartandofmyhand。
InanagonyofexpectationIawaitedthereply。Afterwhatseemedthelapseofacenturyitcame。
Yes,actuallycame。Romanticasallthismayappear,IreallyreceivedaletterfromMadameLalandethebeautiful,thewealthy,theidolizedMadameLalande。Hereyeshermagnificenteyes,hadnotbeliedhernobleheart。LikeatrueFrenchwomanasshewasshehadobeyedthefrankdictatesofherreasonthegenerousimpulsesofhernaturedespisingtheconventionalpruderiesoftheworld。
Shehadnotscornedmyproposals。Shehadnotshelteredherselfinsilence。Shehadnotreturnedmyletterunopened。Shehadevensentme,inreply,onepennedbyherownexquisitefingers。Itranthus:
“MonsieurSimpsonvillpardonnemefornotcomposedebutefulletongofhiscontreesovellasmight。ItisonlydelatedatIamarrive,andnotyetavedoopportunitefortol’etudier。
“Viddisapologieforthemaniere,Ivillnowsaydat,helas!-
MonsieurSimpsonaveguessbutdetootrue。NeedIsaydemore?
Helas!amInotreadyspeakdetoomoshe?
“EUGENIELALAND。”
ThisnoblespiritednoteIkissedamilliontimes,andcommitted,nodoubt,onitsaccount,athousandotherextravagancesthathavenowescapedmymemory。StillTalbotwouldnotreturn。Alas!couldhehaveformedeventhevaguestideaofthesufferinghisabsencehadoccasionedhisfriend,wouldnothissympathizingnaturehaveflownimmediatelytomyrelief?Still,however,hecamenot。Iwrote。Hereplied。Hewasdetainedbyurgentbusinessbutwouldshortlyreturn。HebeggedmenottobeimpatienttomoderatemytransportstoreadsoothingbookstodrinknothingstrongerthanHock
andtobringtheconsolationsofphilosophytomyaid。Thefool!ifhecouldnotcomehimself,why,inthenameofeverythingrational,couldhenothaveenclosedmealetterofpresentation?Iwrotehimagain,entreatinghimtoforwardoneforthwith。Myletterwasreturnedbythatfootman,withthefollowingendorsementinpencil。
Thescoundrelhadjoinedhismasterinthecountry:
“LeftS-yesterday,forpartsunknowndidnotsaywhereorwhenbebacksothoughtbesttoreturnletter,knowingyourhandwriting,andashowyouisalways,moreorless,inahurry。
“Yourssincerely,“STUBBS。”
Afterthis,itisneedlesstosay,thatIdevotedtotheinfernaldeitiesbothmasterandvalet:buttherewaslittleuseinanger,andnoconsolationatallincomplaint。
ButIhadyetaresourceleft,inmyconstitutionalaudacity。
Hithertoithadservedmewell,andInowresolvedtomakeitavailmetotheend。Besides,afterthecorrespondencewhichhadpassedbetweenus,whatactofmereinformalitycouldIcommit,withinbounds,thatoughttoberegardedasindecorousbyMadameLalande?
Sincetheaffairoftheletter,Ihadbeeninthehabitofwatchingherhouse,andthusdiscoveredthat,abouttwilight,itwashercustomtopromenade,attendedonlybyanegroinlivery,inapublicsquareoverlookedbyherwindows。Here,amidtheluxuriantandshadowinggroves,inthegraygloomofasweetmidsummerevening,I
observedmyopportunityandaccostedher。
Thebettertodeceivetheservantinattendance,Ididthiswiththeassuredairofanoldandfamiliaracquaintance。WithapresenceofmindtrulyParisian,shetookthecueatonce,and,togreetme,heldoutthemostbewitchinglylittleofhands。Thevaletatoncefellintotherear,andnow,withheartsfulltooverflowing,wediscoursedlongandunreservedlyofourlove。
AsMadameLalandespokeEnglishevenlessfluentlythanshewroteit,ourconversationwasnecessarilyinFrench。Inthissweettongue,soadaptedtopassion,Igaveloosetotheimpetuousenthusiasmofmynature,and,withalltheeloquenceIcouldcommand,besoughthertoconsenttoanimmediatemarriage。
Atthisimpatienceshesmiled。Sheurgedtheoldstoryofdecorum-
thatbug-bearwhichdeterssomanyfromblissuntiltheopportunityforblisshasforevergoneby。Ihadmostimprudentlymadeitknownamongmyfriends,sheobserved,thatIdesiredheracquaintance-thusthatIdidnotpossessitthus,again,therewasnopossibilityofconcealingthedateofourfirstknowledgeofeachother。Andthensheadverted,withablush,totheextremerecencyofthisdate。Towedimmediatelywouldbeimproperwouldbeindecorouswouldbeoutre。Allthisshesaidwithacharmingairofnaivetewhichenrapturedwhileitgrievedandconvincedme。Shewentevensofarastoaccuseme,laughingly,ofrashnessofimprudence。ShebademerememberthatIreallyevenknownotwhoshewaswhatwereherprospects,herconnections,herstandinginsociety。Shebeggedme,butwithasigh,toreconsidermyproposal,andtermedmyloveaninfatuationawillo’thewispafancyorfantasyofthemomentabaselessandunstablecreationratheroftheimaginationthanoftheheart。Thesethingssheutteredastheshadowsofthesweettwilightgathereddarklyandmoredarklyaroundusandthen,withagentlepressureofherfairy-likehand,overthrew,inasinglesweetinstant,alltheargumentativefabricshehadreared。
IrepliedasbestIcouldasonlyatruelovercan。Ispokeatlength,andperseveringlyofmydevotion,ofmypassionofherexceedingbeauty,andofmyownenthusiasticadmiration。Inconclusion,Idwelt,withaconvincingenergy,upontheperilsthatencompassthecourseoflovethatcourseoftruelovethatneverdidrunsmoothandthusdeducedthemanifestdangerofrenderingthatcourseunnecessarilylong。
Thislatterargumentseemedfinallytosoftentherigorofherdetermination。Sherelented;buttherewasyetanobstacle,shesaid,whichshefeltassuredIhadnotproperlyconsidered。Thiswasadelicatepointforawomantourge,especiallyso;inmentioningit,shesawthatshemustmakeasacrificeofherfeelings;still,forme,everysacrificeshouldbemade。Shealludedtothetopicofage。WasIawarewasIfullyawareofthediscrepancybetweenus?
Thattheageofthehusband,shouldsurpassbyafewyearsevenbyfifteenortwentytheageofthewife,wasregardedbytheworldasadmissible,and,indeed,asevenproper,butshehadalwaysentertainedthebeliefthattheyearsofthewifeshouldneverexceedinnumberthoseofthehusband。Adiscrepancyofthisunnaturalkindgaverise,toofrequently,alas!toalifeofunhappiness。Nowshewasawarethatmyownagedidnotexceedtwoandtwenty;andI,onthecontrary,perhaps,wasnotawarethattheyearsofmyEugenieextendedveryconsiderablybeyondthatsum。