Thepiazzasofthemainbuildingandwesternwinghadnofloors,asisusual;butatthedoorsandateachwindow,large,flatirregularslabsofgranitelayimbeddedinthedeliciousturf,affordingcomfortablefootinginallweather。Excellentpathsofthesamematerialnotnicelyadapted,butwiththevelvetysodfillingfrequentintervalsbetweenthestones,ledhitherandthitherfromthehouse,toacrystalspringaboutfivepacesoff,totheroad,ortooneortwoouthousesthatlaytothenorth,beyondthebrook,andwerethoroughlyconcealedbyafewlocustsandcatalpas。
Notmorethansixstepsfromthemaindoorofthecottagestoodthedeadtrunkofafantasticpear-tree,soclothedfromheadtofootinthegorgeousbignoniablossomsthatonerequirednolittlescrutinytodeterminewhatmannerofsweetthingitcouldbe。Fromvariousarmsofthistreehungcagesofdifferentkinds。Inone,alargewickercylinderwitharingattop,revelledamockingbird;inanotheranoriole;inathirdtheimpudentbobolinkwhilethreeorfourmoredelicateprisonswereloudlyvocalwithcanaries。
Thepillarsofthepiazzawereenwreathedinjasmineandsweethoneysuckle;whilefromtheangleformedbythemainstructureanditswestwing,infront,sprangagrape-vineofunexampledluxuriance。Scorningallrestraint,ithadclamberedfirsttothelowerroofthentothehigher;andalongtheridgeofthislatteritcontinuedtowritheon,throwingouttendrilstotherightandleft,untilatlengthitfairlyattainedtheeastgable,andfelltrailingoverthestairs。
Thewholehouse,withitswings,wasconstructedoftheold-fashionedDutchshinglesbroad,andwithunroundedcorners。ItisapeculiarityofthismaterialtogivehousesbuiltofittheappearanceofbeingwideratbottomthanattopafterthemannerofEgyptianarchitecture;andinthepresentinstance,thisexceedinglypicturesqueeffectwasaidedbynumerouspotsofgorgeousflowersthatalmostencompassedthebaseofthebuildings。
Theshingleswerepaintedadullgray;andthehappinesswithwhichthisneutraltintmeltedintothevividgreenofthetuliptreeleavesthatpartiallyovershadowedthecottage,canreadilybeconceivedbyanartist。
Fromthepositionnearthestonewall,asdescribed,thebuildingswereseenatgreatadvantageforthesoutheasternanglewasthrownforwardsothattheeyetookinatoncethewholeofthetwofronts,withthepicturesqueeasterngable,andatthesametimeobtainedjustasufficientglimpseofthenorthernwing,withpartsofaprettyrooftothespring-house,andnearlyhalfofalightbridgethatspannedthebrookinthenearvicinityofthemainbuildings。
Ididnotremainverylongonthebrowofthehill,althoughlongenoughtomakeathoroughsurveyofthesceneatmyfeet。ItwasclearthatIhadwanderedfromtheroadtothevillage,andIhadthusgoodtraveller’sexcusetoopenthegatebeforeme,andinquiremyway,atallevents;so,withoutmoreado,Iproceeded。
Theroad,afterpassingthegate,seemedtolieuponanaturalledge,slopinggraduallydownalongthefaceofthenorth-easterncliffs。Itledmeontothefootofthenorthernprecipice,andthenceoverthebridge,roundbytheeasterngabletothefrontdoor。Inthisprogress,Itooknoticethatnosightoftheout-housescouldbeobtained。
AsIturnedthecornerofthegable,themastiffboundedtowardsmeinsternsilence,butwiththeeyeandthewholeairofatiger。I
heldhimoutmyhand,however,intokenofamityandIneveryetknewthedogwhowasproofagainstsuchanappealtohiscourtesy。Henotonlyshuthismouthandwaggedhistail,butabsolutelyofferedmehispaw-afterwardextendinghiscivilitiestoPonto。
Asnobellwasdiscernible,Irappedwithmystickagainstthedoor,whichstoodhalfopen。Instantlyafigureadvancedtothethresholdthatofayoungwomanabouttwenty-eightyearsofageslender,orratherslight,andsomewhatabovethemediumheight。Assheapproached,withacertainmodestdecisionofstepaltogetherindescribable。Isaidtomyself,“SurelyhereIhavefoundtheperfectionofnatural,incontradistinctionfromartificialgrace。”
Thesecondimpressionwhichshemadeonme,butbyfarthemorevividofthetwo,wasthatofenthusiasm。Sointenseanexpressionofromance,perhapsIshouldcallit,orofunworldliness,asthatwhichgleamedfromherdeep-seteyes,hadneversosunkintomyheartofheartsbefore。Iknownothowitis,butthispeculiarexpressionoftheeye,wreathingitselfoccasionallyintothelips,isthemostpowerful,ifnotabsolutelythesolespell,whichrivetsmyinterestinwoman。“Romance,providedmyreadersfullycomprehendedwhatI
wouldhereimplybytheword“romance“and“womanliness“seemtomeconvertibleterms:and,afterall,whatmantrulylovesinwoman,issimplyherwomanhood。TheeyesofAnnieIheardsomeonefromtheinteriorcallher“Annie,darling!”were“spiritualgrey;“herhair,alightchestnut:thisisallIhadtimetoobserveofher。
Athermostcourteousofinvitations,Ienteredpassingfirstintoatolerablywidevestibule。Havingcomemainlytoobserve,ItooknoticethattomyrightasIsteppedin,wasawindow,suchasthoseinfrontofthehouse;totheleft,adoorleadingintotheprincipalroom;while,oppositeme,anopendoorenabledmetoseeasmallapartment,justthesizeofthevestibule,arrangedasastudy,andhavingalargebowwindowlookingouttothenorth。
Passingintotheparlor,IfoundmyselfwithMr。Landorforthis,Iafterwardsfound,washisname。Hewascivil,evencordialinhismanner,butjustthen,Iwasmoreintentonobservingthearrangementsofthedwellingwhichhadsomuchinterestedme,thanthepersonalappearanceofthetenant。
Thenorthwing,Inowsaw,wasabed-chamber,itsdooropenedintotheparlor。Westofthisdoorwasasinglewindow,lookingtowardthebrook。Atthewestendoftheparlor,wereafireplace,andadoorleadingintothewestwingprobablyakitchen。
Nothingcouldbemorerigorouslysimplethanthefurnitureoftheparlor。Onthefloorwasaningraincarpet,ofexcellenttextureawhiteground,spottedwithsmallcirculargreenfigures。Atthewindowswerecurtainsofsnowywhitejaconetmuslin:theyweretolerablyfull,andhungdecisively,perhapsratherformallyinsharp,parallelplaitstothefloorjusttothefloor。ThewallswerepreparedwithaFrenchpaperofgreatdelicacy,asilverground,withafaintgreencordrunningzig-zagthroughout。ItsexpansewasrelievedmerelybythreeofJulien’sexquisitelithographsatroiscrayons,fastenedtothewallwithoutframes。OneofthesedrawingswasasceneofOrientalluxury,orrathervoluptuousness;anotherwasa“carnivalpiece。”spiritedbeyondcompare;thethirdwasaGreekfemaleheadafacesodivinelybeautiful,andyetofanexpressionsoprovokinglyindeterminate,neverbeforearrestedmyattention。
Themoresubstantialfurnitureconsistedofaroundtable,afewchairsincludingalargerocking-chair,andasofa,orrather“settee;“itsmaterialwasplainmaplepaintedacreamywhite,slightlyinterstripedwithgreen;theseatofcane。Thechairsandtablewere“tomatch。”buttheformsofallhadevidentlybeendesignedbythesamebrainwhichplanned“thegrounds;“itisimpossibletoconceiveanythingmoregraceful。
Onthetablewereafewbooks,alarge,square,crystalbottleofsomenovelperfume,aplaingroundglassastralnotsolarlampwithanItalianshade,andalargevaseofresplendently-bloomingflowers。Flowers,indeed,ofgorgeouscoloursanddelicateodourformedthesolemeredecorationoftheapartment。Thefire-placewasnearlyfilledwithavaseofbrilliantgeranium。Onatriangularshelfineachangleoftheroomstoodalsoasimilarvase,variedonlyastoitslovelycontents。Oneortwosmallerbouquetsadornedthemantel,andlatevioletsclusteredabouttheopenwindows。
Itisnotthepurposeofthisworktodomorethangiveindetail,apictureofMr。Landor’sresidenceasIfoundit。HowhemadeitwhatitwasandwhywithsomeparticularsofMr。Landorhimselfmay,possiblyformthesubjectofanotherarticle。
Whatsayofit?whatsayofCONSCIENCEgrim,Thatspectreinmypath?
_Chamberlayne’sPharronida。_
LETmecallmyself,forthepresent,WilliamWilson。Thefairpagenowlyingbeforemeneednotbesulliedwithmyrealappellation。Thishasbeenalreadytoomuchanobjectforthescornforthehorrorforthedetestationofmyrace。Totheuttermostregionsoftheglobehavenottheindignantwindsbruiteditsunparalleledinfamy?Oh,outcastofalloutcastsmostabandoned!
totheearthartthounotforeverdead?toitshonors,toitsflowers,toitsgoldenaspirations?andacloud,dense,dismal,andlimitless,doesitnothangeternallybetweenthyhopesandheaven?
Iwouldnot,ifIcould,hereorto-day,embodyarecordofmylateryearsofunspeakablemisery,andunpardonablecrime。Thisepoch
theselateryearstookuntothemselvesasuddenelevationinturpitude,whoseoriginaloneitismypresentpurposetoassign。Menusuallygrowbasebydegrees。Fromme,inaninstant,allvirtuedroppedbodilyasamantle。FromcomparativelytrivialwickednessI
passed,withthestrideofagiant,intomorethantheenormitiesofanElah-Gabalus。Whatchancewhatoneeventbroughtthisevilthingtopass,bearwithmewhileIrelate。Deathapproaches;andtheshadowwhichforerunshimhasthrownasofteninginfluenceovermyspirit。Ilong,inpassingthroughthedimvalley,forthesympathyIhadnearlysaidforthepityofmyfellowmen。IwouldfainhavethembelievethatIhavebeen,insomemeasure,theslaveofcircumstancesbeyondhumancontrol。Iwouldwishthemtoseekoutforme,inthedetailsIamabouttogive,somelittleoasisoffatalityamidawildernessoferror。Iwouldhavethemallowwhattheycannotrefrainfromallowingthat,althoughtemptationmayhaveerewhileexistedasgreat,manwasneverthus,atleast,temptedbeforecertainly,neverthusfell。Andisitthereforethathehasneverthussuffered?HaveInotindeedbeenlivinginadream?AndamInotnowdyingavictimtothehorrorandthemysteryofthewildestofallsublunaryvisions?
Iamthedescendantofaracewhoseimaginativeandeasilyexcitabletemperamenthasatalltimesrenderedthemremarkable;and,inmyearliestinfancy,Igaveevidenceofhavingfullyinheritedthefamilycharacter。AsIadvancedinyearsitwasmorestronglydeveloped;becoming,formanyreasons,acauseofseriousdisquietudetomyfriends,andofpositiveinjurytomyself。Igrewself-willed,addictedtothewildestcaprices,andapreytothemostungovernablepassions。Weak-minded,andbesetwithconstitutionalinfirmitiesakintomyown,myparentscoulddobutlittletochecktheevilpropensitieswhichdistinguishedme。Somefeebleandill-directedeffortsresultedincompletefailureontheirpart,and,ofcourse,intotaltriumphonmine。Thenceforwardmyvoicewasahouseholdlaw;
andatanagewhenfewchildrenhaveabandonedtheirleading-strings,Iwaslefttotheguidanceofmyownwill,andbecame,inallbutname,themasterofmyownactions。
Myearliestrecollectionsofaschool-life,areconnectedwithalarge,rambling,Elizabethanhouse,inamisty-lookingvillageofEngland,wherewereavastnumberofgiganticandgnarledtrees,andwhereallthehouseswereexcessivelyancient。Intruth,itwasadream-likeandspirit-soothingplace,thatvenerableoldtown。Atthismoment,infancy,Ifeeltherefreshingchillinessofitsdeeply-shadowedavenues,inhalethefragranceofitsthousandshrubberies,andthrillanewwithundefinabledelight,atthedeephollownoteofthechurch-bell,breaking,eachhour,withsullenandsuddenroar,uponthestillnessoftheduskyatmosphereinwhichthefrettedGothicsteeplelayimbeddedandasleep。
Itgivesme,perhaps,asmuchofpleasureasIcannowinanymannerexperience,todwelluponminuterecollectionsoftheschoolanditsconcerns。SteepedinmiseryasIammisery,alas!onlytooreal
Ishallbepardonedforseekingrelief,howeverslightandtemporary,intheweaknessofafewramblingdetails。These,moreover,utterlytrivial,andevenridiculousinthemselves,assume,tomyfancy,adventitiousimportance,asconnectedwithaperiodandalocalitywhenandwhereIrecognisethefirstambiguousmonitionsofthedestinywhichafterwardssofullyovershadowedme。Letmethenremember。
Thehouse,Ihavesaid,wasoldandirregular。Thegroundswereextensive,andahighandsolidbrickwall,toppedwithabedofmortarandbrokenglass,encompassedthewhole。Thisprison-likerampartformedthelimitofourdomain;beyonditwesawbutthriceaweekonceeverySaturdayafternoon,when,attendedbytwoushers,wewerepermittedtotakebriefwalksinabodythroughsomeoftheneighbouringfieldsandtwiceduringSunday,whenwewereparadedinthesameformalmannertothemorningandeveningserviceintheonechurchofthevillage。Ofthischurchtheprincipalofourschoolwaspastor。WithhowdeepaspiritofwonderandperplexitywasI