`Haveyoudone?’askedmycompanionquietly。
`Yes;——Iknowyouhatemeformyimpertinence,butIdon’tcareifitonlyconducestopreserveyoufromthatfatalmistake。’
`Well!’returnedhe,witharatherwintrysmile——`I’mgladyouhaveovercome,orforgottenyourownafflictionssofarastobeabletostudysodeeplytheaffairsofothers,andtroubleyourhead,sounnecessarily,aboutthefanciedorpossiblecalamitiesoftheirfuturelife。’
Weparted——somewhatcoldlyagain;butstillwedidnotceasetobefriends;andmywell-meantwarning,thoughitmighthavebeenmorejudiciouslydelivered,aswellasmorethankfullyreceived,wasnotwhollyunproductiveofthedesiredeffect:hisvisittotheWilsonswasnotrepeated,and,though,inoursubsequentinterviews,henevermentionedhernametome,norItohim,——Ihavereasontobelieveheponderedmywordsinhismind,eagerlythoughcovertlysoughtinformationrespectingthefairladyfromotherquarters,secretlycomparedmycharacterofherwithwhathehadhimselfobservedandwhatheheardfromothers,andfinallycametotheconclusionthat,allthingsconsidered,shehadmuchbetterremainMissWilsonofRyecoteFarm,thanbetransmutedintoMrs。LawrenceofWoodfordHall。Ibelieve,too,thathesoonlearnedtocontemplatewithsecretamazementhisformerpredilection,andtocongratulatehimselfontheluckyescapehehadmade;butheneverconfessedittome,orhintedonewordofacknowledgmentforthepartIhadhadinhisdeliverance——butthiswasnotsurprisingtoanyonethatknewhimasIdid。
AsforJaneWilson,she,ofcourse,wasdisappointedandembitteredbythesuddencoldneglect,andultimatedesertionofherformeradmirer。
HadIdonewrongtoblighthercherishedhopes?Ithinknot;andcertainlymyconsciencehasneveraccusedme,fromthatdaytothis,ofanyevildesigninthematter。
TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter47CHAPTERXLVIISTARTLINGINTELLIGENCEOnemorning,aboutthebeginningofNovember,whileIwasinditingsomebusinessletters,shortlyafterbreakfast,ElizaMillwardcametocalluponmysister。RosehadneitherthediscriminationnorthevirulencetoregardthelittledemonasIdid,andtheystillpreservedtheirformerintimacy。Atthemomentofherarrival,however,therewasnooneintheroombutFergusandmyself,mymotherandsisterbeingbothofthemabsent,`onhouseholdcaresintent;“butIwasnotgoingtolaymyselfoutforheramusement,whoeverelsemightsoincline:Imerelyhonouredherwithacarelesssalutationandafewwordsofcourse,’andthenwentonwithmywriting,leavingmybrothertobemorepoliteifhechose。Butshewantedtoteazeme。
`Whatapleasureitistofindyouathome,Mr。Markham!’saidshe,withadisingenuouslymalicioussmile。`Isoseldomseeyounow,foryounevercometothevicarage。PapaisquiteoffendedIcantellyou,’
sheaddedplayfully,lookingintomyfacewithanimpertinentlaugh,assheseatedherself,halfbesideandhalfbeforemydesk,offthecornerofthetable。
`Ihavehadagooddealtodooflate,’saidI,withoutlookingupfrommyletter。
`Haveyouindeed!Somebodysaidyouhadbeenstrangelyneglectingyourbusinesstheselastfewmonths。’
`Somebodysaidwrong,for,theselasttwomonthsespecially,Ihavebeenparticularlyploddinganddiligent。’
`Ah!Well,there’snothinglikeactiveemployment,Isuppose,toconsoletheafflicted;——and,excuseme,Mr。Markham,butyoulooksoveryfarfromwell,andhavebeen,byallaccounts,somoodyandthoughtfuloflate,——Icouldalmostthinkyouhavesomesecretcarepreyingonyourspirits。Formerly,’saidshetimidly,`Icouldhaveventuredtoaskyouwhatitwas,andwhatIcoulddotocomfortyou:Idarenotdoitnow。’
`You’reverykind,MissEliza。WhenIthinkyoucandoanythingtocomfortme,I’llmakeboldtotellyou。’
`Praydo——IsupposeImayn’tguesswhatitisthattroublesyou?’
`There’snonecessity,forI’lltellyouplainly。Thethingthattroublesmethemostatpresent,isayoungladysittingatmyelbow,andpreventingmefromfinishingmyletter,andthereafter,repairingtomydailybusiness。’
Beforeshecouldreplytothisungallantspeech,Roseenteredtheroom;andMissElizarisingtogreether,theybothseatedthemselvesnearthefire,wherethatidlelad,Fergus,wasstanding,leaninghisshoulderagainstthecornerofthechimneypiecewithhislegscrossedandhishandsinhisbreechespockets。
`Now,Rose,I’lltellyouapieceofnews——Ihopeyou’venothearditbefore,forgood,badorindifferent,onealwayslikestobethefirsttotell——It’saboutthatsadMrs。Graham`Hush——sh——sh!’whisperedFergus,inatoneofsolemnimport。
`“Wenevermentionher;hernameisneverheard。”’Andglancingup,Icaughthimwithhiseyeaskanceonme,andhisfingerpointedtohisforehead;
then,winkingattheyoungladywithadolefulshakeofthehead,hewhispered——amonomania——Butdon’tmentionit——allrightbutthat。’
`Ishouldbesorrytoinjureanyone’sfeelings,’returnedshe,speakingbelowherbreath,`anothertime,perhaps。’
`Speakout,MissEliza!’saidI,notdeigningtonoticetheother’sbuffooneries,`youneedn’tfeartosayanythinginmypresence——thatistrue。’
`Well,’answeredshe,`perhapsyouknowalreadythatMrs。Graham’shusbandisnotreallydead,andthatshehadrunawayfromhim?’Istarted,andfeltmyfaceglow;butIbentitovermyletter,andwentonfoldingitupassheproceeded,`butperhapsyoudidnotknowthatsheisnowgonebacktohimagain,andthataperfectreconciliationhastakenplacebetweenthem?Onlythink,’shecontinued,turningtotheconfoundedRose,`whatafoolthemanmustbe!’
`Andwhogaveyouthispieceofintelligence,MissEliza?’saidI,interruptingmysister’sexclamations。
`Ihaditfromaveryauthenticsource,sir。’
`Fromwhom,mayIask?’
`FromoneoftheservantsatWoodford。’
`Oh!IwasnotawarethatyouwereonsuchintimatetermswithMr。Lawrence’shousehold。’
`Itwasnotfromthemanhimself,thatIheardit;buthetolditinconfidencetoourmaidSarah,andSarahtoldittome。’
`Inconfidence,Isuppose;andyoutellitinconfidencetous;
butIcantellyouthatitisbutalamestoryafterall,andscarcelyonehalfofittrue。’
WhileIspoke,Icompletedthesealinganddirectionofmyletters,withasomewhatunsteadyhand,inspiteofallmyeffortstoretaincomposure,andinspiteofmyfirmconvictionthatthestorywasalameone——thatthesupposedMrs。Graham,mostcertainly,hadnotvoluntarilygonebacktoherhusband,ordreamtofareconciliation。Mostlikely,shewasgoneaway,andthetale-bearingservant,notknowingwhatwasbecomeofher,hadconjecturedthatsuchwasthecase,andourfairvisitorhaddetaileditasacertainty,delightedwithsuchanopportunityoftormentingme。Butitwaspossible——rarelypossible,thatsomeonemighthavebetrayedher,andshehadbeentakenawaybyforce。Determinedtoknowtheworst,Ihastilypocketedmytwoletters,andmutteringsomethingaboutbeingtoolateforthepost,lefttheroom,rushedintotheyardandvociferouslycalledformyhorse。Noonebeingthere,Idraggedhimoutofthestablemyself,strappedthesaddleontohisbackandthebridleontohishead,mounted,andspeedilygallopedawaytoWoodford。Ifounditsownerpensivelystrollinginthegrounds。
`Isyoursistergone?’weremyfirstwordsasIgraspedhishand,insteadoftheusualenquiryafterhishealth。
`Yes;she’sgone,’washisanswer,socalmlyspoken,thatmyterrorwasatonceremoved。
`IsupposeImayn’tknowwheresheis?’saidI,asIdidmountedandrelinquishedmyhorsetothegardener,who,beingtheonlyservantwithincall,hadbeensummonedbyhismaster,fromhisemploymentofrakingupthedeadleavesonthelawn,totakehimtothestables。
Mycompaniongravelytookmyarm,andleadingmeawaytothegarden,thusansweredmyquestion:——
`SheisatGrassdaleManor,in——hire。’
`Where?’criedI,withaconvulsivestart。
`AtGrassdaleManor。’
`Howwasit?’Igasped。`Whobetrayedher?’
`Shewentofherownaccord。’
`Impossible,Lawrence!!Shecouldnotbesofrantic!’exclaimedI,vehementlygraspinghisarm,asiftoforcehimtounsaythosehatefulwords。
`Shedid,’persistedheinthesamegrave,collectedmannerasbefore`andnotwithoutreason,’hecontinued,gentlydisengaginghimselffrommygrasp:`Mr。Huntingdonisill。’
`Andsoshewenttonursehim?’
`Yes。’
`Fool!’Icouldnothelpexclaiming——andLawrencelookedupwitharatherreproachfulglance。`Ishedyingthen?’
`Ithinknot,Markham。’
`Andhowmanymorenurseshashe?——Howmanyladiesaretherebesides,totakecareofhim?’
`None:hewasalone,orshewouldnothavegone。’
`Oh,confoundit!thisisintolerable!’
`Whatis?Thatheshouldbealone?’
Iattemptednoreply,forIwasnotsurethatthiscircumstancedidnotpartlyconducetomydistraction。Ithereforecontinuedtopacethewalkinsilentanguish,withmyhandpressedtomyforehead;thensuddenlypausingandturningtomycompanion,Iimpatientlyexclaimed,`Whydidshetakethisinfatuatedstep?Whatfiendpersuadedhertoit?’
`Nothingpersuadedherbutherownsenseofduty。’
`Humbug!’
`Iwashalfinclinedtosaysomyself,Markham,atfirst。Iassureyouitwasnotbymyadvicethatshewent,forIdetestthatmanasferventlyasyoucando——except,indeed,thathisreformationwouldgivememuchgreaterpleasurethanhisdeath:——ButallIdidwastoinformherofthecircumstanceofhisillnesstheconsequenceofafallfromhishorseinhunting,andtotellherthatthatunhappyperson,MissMyers,hadlefthimsometimeago。
`Itwasilldone!Now,whenhefindstheconvenienceofherpresence,hewillmakeallmanneroflyingspeechesandfalse,fairpromisesforthefuture,andshewillbelievehim,andthenherconditionwillbetentimesworseandtentimesmoreirremediablethanbefore。’
`Theredoesnotappeartobemuchgroundforsuchapprehensionsatpresent,’saidhe,producingaletterfromhispocket:`fromtheaccountIreceivedthismorning,Ishouldsay——’
Itwasherwriting!Byanirresistibleimpulse,Iheldoutmyhand,andthewords——`Letmeseeit,’involuntarilypassedmylips。
Hewasevidentlyreluctanttogranttherequest,butwhilehehesitated,Isnatcheditfromhishand。Recollectingmyself,however,theminuteafter,Iofferedtorestoreit。
`Here,takeit,’saidI,`ifyoudon’twantmetoreadit。’
`No,’repliedhe,`youmayreaditifyoulike。’
Ireaditandsomayyou。
Grassdale,Nov。4th。
DearFrederick,Iknowyouwillbeanxioustohearfromme:andIwilltellyouallIcan。Mr。Huntingdonisveryill,butnotdying,orinanyimmediatedanger;andheisratherbetteratpresentthanhewaswhenIcame。Ifoundthehouseinsadconfusion:Mrs。Greaves,Benson,everydecentservanthadleft,andthosethatwerecometosupplytheirplaceswereanegligent,disorderlyset,tosaynoworse——ImustchangethemagainifIstay。A
professionalnurse,agrim,hardoldwoman,hadbeenhiredtoattendthewretchedinvalid。Hesuffersmuch,andhasnofortitudetobearhimthrough。
Theimmediateinjurieshesustainedfromtheaccident,however,werenotverysevere,andwould,asthedoctorsays,havebeenbuttriflingtoamanoftemperatehabits;butwithhimitisverydifferent。Onthenightofmyarrival,whenIfirstenteredhisroom,hewaslyinginakindofhalfdelirium。HedidnotnoticemetillIspoke;andthen,hemistookmeforanother。
`Isityou,Alice,comeagain?’hemurmured。`Whatdidyouleavemefor?’
`ItisI,Arthur——itisHelen,yourwife,’ireplied。
`Mywife!’saidhe,withastart——`ForHeaven’ssake,don’tmentionher——Ihavenone。deviltakeher,’hecried,amomentafter,——`andyoutoo!Whatdidyoudoitfor?’
Isaidnomore;butobservingthathekeptgazingtowardsthefootofthebed,Iwentandsatthere,placingthelightsoastoshinefulluponme;forIthoughthemightbedying,andIwantedhimtoknowme。Foralongtime,helaysilentlylookinguponme,firstwithavacantstare,thenwithafixedgazeofstrange,growingintensity。Atlasthestartledmebysuddenlyraisinghimselfonhiselbowanddemandinginahorrifiedwhisper,withhiseyesstillfixeduponme,——`Whoisit?’