itwavedherdroopingringlets,andimpartedaliveliercolourtoherusuallytoopallidlipandcheek。Shefeltitsexhilaratinginfluence,andsodidI——Ifeltittinglingthroughmyframe,butdarednotgivewaytoitwhilesheremainedsoquiet。Therewasanaspectofsubduedexhilarationinherface,thatkindledintoalmostasmileofexalted,gladintelligenceashereyemetmine。Neverhadshelookedsolovely:neverhadmyheartsowarmlycleavedtoherasnow。Hadwebeenlefttwominuteslonger,standingtherealone,Icannotanswerfortheconsequences。Happilyformydiscretion,perhapsformyenjoymentduringtheremainderoftheday,wewerespeedilysummonedtotherepast——averyrespectablecollation,whichRose,assistedbyMissWilsonandEliza,who,havingsharedherseatinthecarriage,hadarrivedwithheralittlebeforetherest,hadsetoutuponanelevatedplatformoverlookingthesea,andshelteredfromthehotsunbyashelvingrockandoverhangingtrees。
MrsGrahamseatedherselfatadistancefromme。Elizawasmynearestneighbour。Sheexertedherselftobeagreeable,inhergentle,unobtrusiveway,andwas,nodoubt,asfascinatingandcharmingasever,ifIcouldonlyhavefeltit。Butsoon,myheartbegantowarmtowardsheronceagain;andwewereallverymerryandhappytogether——asfarasIcouldsee——throughouttheprotracted,socialmeal,Whenthatwasover,RosesummonedFergustohelphertogatherupthefragments,andtheknives,dishes,etc。,andrestorethemtothebaskets;andMrsGrahamtookhercamp-toolanddrawingmaterials;andhavingbeggedMissMillwardtotakechargeofherpreciousson,andstrictlyenjoinedhimnottowanderfromhisnewguardian’sside,sheleftusandproceededalongthesteep,stonyhill,toaloftier,moreprecipitouseminenceatsomedistance,whenceastillfinerprospectwastobehad,whereshepreferredtakinghersketch,thoughsomeoftheladiestoldheritwasafrightfulplace,andadvisedhernottoattemptit。
Whenshewasgone,Ifeltasiftherewastobenomorefun——thoughitisdifficulttosaywhatshehadcontributedtothehilarityoftheparty。Nojests,andlittlelaughterhadescapedherlips;buthersmilehadanimatedmymirth,akeenobservationoracheerfulwordfromherhadinsensiblysharpenedmywits,andthrownaninterestoverallthatwasdoneandsaidbytherest。EvenmyconversationwithEliza,hadbeenenlivenedbyherpresence,thoughIknewitnot;andnowthatshewasgone,Eliza’splayfulnonsenseceasedtoamuseme——nay,grewwearisometomysoul,andIgrewwearyofamusingher:Ifeltmyselfdrawnbyanirresistibleattractiontothatdistantpointwherethefairartistsatandpliedhersolitarytask——andnotlongdidIattempttoresistit:whilemylittleneighbourwasexchangingafewwordswithMissWilson,Iroseandcannilyslippedaway。Afewrapidstrides,andalittleactiveclambering,soonbroughtmetotheplacewhereshewasseated——anarrowledgeofrockattheveryvergeofthecliff,whichdescendedwithasteep,precipitousshaft,quitedowntotherockyshore。
Shedidnothearmecoming:thefallingofmyshadowacrossherpapergaveheranelectricstart;andshelookedhastilyround——anyotherladyofmyacquaintancewouldhavescreamedundersuchasuddenalarm。
`Oh!Ididn’tknowitwasyou——Whydidyoustartlemeso?’saidshe,somewhattestily,`Ihateanybodytocomeuponmesounexpectedly。’
`Why,whatdidyoutakemefor?’saidI;`ifIhadknownyouweresonervous,Iwouldhavebeenmorecautious;but——`’
`Well,nevermind。Whatdidyoucomefor?aretheyallcoming?’
`No;thislittleledgecouldscarcelycontainthemall,’
`I’mglad,forI’mtiredoftalking。’
`Wellthen,Iwon’ttalk,I’llonlysitandwatchyourdrawing。’
`Oh,butyouknowIdon’tlikethat,’
`ThenI’llcontentmyselfwithadmiringthismagnificentprospect。’
Shemadenoobjectiontothis;and,forsometime,sketchedawayinsilence。ButIcouldnothelpstealingaglance,nowandthen,fromthesplendidviewatourfeettotheelegantwhitehandthatheldthepencil,andthegracefulneckandglossyravencurlsthatdroopedoverthepaper。
`Now,’thoughtI,`ifIhadbutapencilandamorselofpaper,Icouldmakealoveliersketchthanhers,admittingIhadthepowertodelineatefaithfullywhatisbeforeme。’
Butthoughthissatisfactionwasdeniedme,Iwasverywellcontenttositbesideherthere,andsaynothing。
`Areyoutherestill,MrMarkham?’saidshe,atlength,lookingrounduponme——forIwasseatedalittlebehindonamossyprojectionofthecliff——`Whydon’tyougoandamuseyourselfwithyourfriends?’
`BecauseIamtiredofthem,likeyou;andIshallhaveenoughofthemto-morrow——oratanytimehence;butyou,ImaynothavethepleasureofseeingagainforIknownothowlong,’
`WhatwasArthurdoingwhenyoucameaway?’
`HewaswithMissMillwardwhereyoulefthim——allright,buthopingmammawouldnotbelongaway。Youdidn’tentrusthimtome,bytheby,’Igrumbled,`thoughIhadthehonourofamuchlongeracquaintance;
butMissMillwardhastheartofconciliatingandamusingchildren,’I
carelesslyadded;`ifsheisgoodfornothingelse。’
`MissMillwardhasmanyestimablequalities,whichsuchasyoucannotbeexpectedtoperceiveorappreciate。WillyoutellArthurthatIshallcomeinafewminutes?’
`Ifthatbethecase,Iwillwait,withyourpermission,tillthosefewminutesarepast;andthenIcanassistyoutodescendthisdifficultpath。’
`Thankyou——Ialwaysmanagebest,onsuchoccasions,withoutassistance。’
`But,atleast,Icancarryyourstoolandsketch-book,’
Shedidnotdenymethisfavour;butIwasratheroffendedatherevidentdesiretoberidofme,andwasbeginningtorepentofmypertinacity,whenshesomewhatappeasedmebyconsultingmytasteandjudgmentaboutsomedoubtfulmatterinherdrawing。Myopinion,happily,metherapprobation,andtheimprovementIsuggestedwasadoptedwithouthesitation。
`Ihaveoftenwishedinvain,’saidshe,`foranother’sjudgmenttoappealtowhenIcouldscarcelytrustthedirectionofmyowneyeandhead,theyhavingbeensolongoccupiedwiththecontemplationofasingleobject,astobecomealmostincapableofformingaproperidearespectingit。’
`That,’repliedI,`isonlyoneofmanyevilstowhichasolitarylifeexposesus。’
`True,’saidshe;andagainwerelapsedintosilence。
Abouttwominutesafter,however,shedeclaredhersketchcompletedandclosedthebook。
Onreturningtothesceneofourrepast,wefoundallthecompanyhaddesertedit,withtheexceptionofthree——MaryMillward,RichardWilson,andArthurGraham。Theyoungergentlemanlayfastasleepwithhisheadpillowedonthelady’slap;theotherwasseatedbesideherwithapocketeditionofsomeclassicauthorinhishand。Heneverwentanywherewithoutsuchacompanionwherewithtoimprovehisleisuremoments:alltimeseemedlostthatwasnotdevotedtostudy,orexacted,byhisphysicalnature,forthebaresupportoflife。Evennow,hecouldnotabandonhimselftotheenjoymentofthatpureairandbalmysunshine——thatsplendidprospect,andthosesoothingsounds,themusicofthewavesandofthesoftwindintheshelteringtreesabovehim——notevenwithaladybyhissidethoughnotaverycharmingone,Iwillallow——hemustpullouthisbook,andmakethemostofhistimewhiledigestinghistemperatemeal,andreposinghiswearylimbs,unusedtosomuchexercise。
Perhaps,however,hesparedamomenttoexchangeawordoraglancewithhiscompanionnowandthen——atanyrate,shedidnotappearatallresentfulofhisconduct;forherhomelyfeaturesworeanexpressionofunusualcheerfulnessandserenity,andshewasstudyinghispale,thoughtfulfacewithgreatcomplacencywhenwearrived。
Thejourneyhomewardwasbynomeanssoagreeable,tome,astheformerpartoftheday;fornowMrsGrahamwasinthecarriage,andElizaMillwardwasthecompanionofmywalk。Shehadobservedmypreferencefortheyoungwidow,andevidentlyfeltherselfneglected。Shedidnotmanifestherchagrinbykeenreproaches,bittersarcasms,orpouting,sullensilence——anyoralloftheseIcouldeasilyhaveendured,orlightlylaughedaway;butsheshoweditbyakindofgentlemelancholy,amild,reproachfulsadnessthatcutmetotheheart。Itriedtocheerherup,andapparentlysucceededinsomedegree,beforethewalkwasover;butintheveryactmyconsciencereprovedme,knowing,asIdid,thatsoonerorlater,thetiemustbebroken,andthiswasonlynourishingfalsehopes,andputtingofftheevilday。
Whenthepony-carriagehadapproachedasnearWildfellHallastheroadwouldpermit——unless,indeed,itproceededupthelongroughlane,whichMrsGrahamwouldnotallow——theyoungwidowandhersonalighted,relinquishingthedriver’sseattoRose;andIpersuadedElizatotakethelatter’splace。Havingputhercomfortablyin,bidhertakecareoftheeveningair,andwishedherakindgoodnight,Ifeltconsiderablyrelieved,andhastenedtooffermyservicestoMrsGrahamtocarryherapparatusupthefields,butshehadalreadyhunghercamp-stoolonherarmandtakenhersketchbookinherhand;andinsisteduponbiddingmeadieuthenandthere,withtherestofthecompany。Butthistime,shedeclinedmyprofferedaidinsokindandfriendlyamanner,thatIalmostforgaveher。
TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter8CHAPTER8ThePresentSixweekshadpassedaway。ItwasasplendidmorningaboutthecloseofJune。Mostofthehaywascut,butthelastweekhadbeenveryunfavourable;
andnowthatfineweatherwascomeatlast,beingdeterminedtomakethemostofit,Ibadgatheredallhandstogetherintothehayfield,andwasworkingawaymyself,inthemidstofthem,inmyshirtsleeves,withalight,shadystrawhatonmyhead,catchinguparmfulsofmoist,reekinggrass,andshakingitouttothefourwindsofheaven,attheheadofagoodlyfileofservantsandhirelings——intendingsotolabour,frommorningtonight,withasmuchzealandassiduityasIcouldlookforfromanyofthem,aswelltoprospertheworkbymyownexertionastoanimatetheworkersbymyexample——when,lo!myresolutionswereoverthrowninamoment,bythesimplefactofmybrother’srunninguptomeandputtingintomyhandasmallparcel,justarrivedfromLondon,whichIhadbeenforsometimeexpecting。Itoreoffthecover,anddisclosedanelegantandportableeditionof`Marmion’。
`IguessIknowwhothat’sfor,’saidFergus,whostoodlookingonwhileIcomplacentlyexaminedthevolume。That’sforMissEliza,now。’
Hepronouncedthiswithatoneandlooksoprodigiouslyknowing,thatIwasgladtocontradicthim。
`You’rewrong,mylad,’saidI;andtakingupmycoat,,Idepositedthebookinoneofitspockets,andthenputitoni。e。thecoat。`Nowcomehere,youidledog,andmakeyourselfusefulforonce,’Icontinued——`Pulloffyourcoat,andtakemyplaceinthefieldtillIcomeback。’
Tillyoucomeback?——andwhereareyougoing,pray?’
`Nomatter——where——thewhenisallthatconcernsyou;——andIshallbebackbydinner,atleast。’
`Ohho!andI’mtolabourawaytillthen,amI?——andtokeepallthesefellowshardatitbesides?——Well,well!I’llsubmit——foronceinaway——Come,mylads,youmustlooksharp:I’mcomingtohelpyounow;——andwoebetothatman,orwomaneither,thatpausesforamomentamongstyou——whethertostareabouthim,toscratchhishead,orblowhisnose——nopretextwillserve——nothingbutwork,workinthesweatofyourface,’——etc。,etc。
Leavinghimthusharanguingthepeople,moretotheiramusementthanedification,Ireturnedtothehouse,andhavingmadesomealterationinmytoilet,hastenedawaytoWildfellHall,withthebookinmypocket;
foritwasdestinedfortheshelvesofMrsGraham。
`What,then,hadsheandyougotonsowelltogetherastocometothegivingandreceivingofpresents?’——Notprecisely,oldbuck;thiswasmyfirstexperimentinthatline;andIwasveryanxioustoseetheresultofit。
Wehadmetseveraltimessincethe——Bayexcursion,andIhadfoundshewasnotaversetomycompany,providedIconfinedmyconversationtothediscussionofabstractmatters,ortopicsofcommoninterest;——themomentItoucheduponthesentimentalorthecomplimentary,ormadetheslightestapproachtotendernessinwordorlook,Iwasnotonlypunishedbyanimmediatechangeinhermanneratthetime,butdoomedtofindhermorecoldanddistant,ifnotentirelyinaccessible,whennextIsoughthercompany。Thiscircumstancedidnotgreatlydisconcertme,however,becauseIattributedit,notsomuchtoanydislikeofmyperson,astosomeabsoluteresolutionagainstasecondmarriageformedpriortothetimeofouracquaintance,whetherfromexcessofaffectionforherlatehusband,orbecauseshehadhadenoughofhimandthematrimonialstatetogether。Atfirst,indeed,shehadseemedtotakeapleasureinmortifyingmyvanityandcrushingmypresumption——relentlesslynippingoffbudbybudastheyventuredtoappear;andthen,Iconfess,Iwasdeeplywounded,though,atthesametime,stimulatedtoseekrevenge;——butlatterly,finding,beyondadoubt,thatIwasnotthatempty-headedcoxcombshehadfirstsupposedme,shehadrepulsedmymodestadvancesinquiteadifferentspirit。
Itwasakindofserious,almostsorrowfuldispleasure,whichIsoonlearnedcarefullytoavoidawakening。