byJosephConrad"……ButtheDwarfanswered:No;
somethinghumanisdearertomethanthewealthofalltheworld。"GRIMM’STALES。
TOMYWIFE
YOUTH:ANARRATIVE
THIScouldhaveoccurrednowherebutinEngland,wheremenandseainterpenetrate,sotospeak——theseaenteringintothelifeofmostmen,andthemenknow—
ingsomethingoreverythingaboutthesea,inthewayofamusement,oftravel,orofbread—winning。
Weweresittingroundamahoganytablethatreflectedthebottle,theclaret—glasses,andourfacesasweleanedonourelbows。Therewasadirectorofcompanies,anaccountant,alawyer,Marlow,andmyself。Thedirec—
torhadbeenaCONWAYboy,theaccountanthadservedfouryearsatsea,thelawyer——afinecrustedTory,HighChurchman,thebestofoldfellows,thesoulofhonor——
hadbeenchiefofficerintheP。&;O。serviceinthegoodolddayswhenmail—boatsweresquare—riggedatleastontwomasts,andusedtocomedowntheChinaSeabeforeafairmonsoonwithstun’—sailssetalowandaloft。Weallbeganlifeinthemerchantservice。Betweenthefiveofustherewasthestrongbondofthesea,andalsothefellowshipofthecraft,whichnoamountofenthusiasmforyachting,cruising,andsooncangive,sinceoneisonlytheamusementoflifeandtheotherislifeitself。
Marlow(atleastIthinkthatishowhespelthisname)
toldthestory,orratherthechronicle,ofavoyage:
"Yes,IhaveseenalittleoftheEasternseas;butwhatIrememberbestismyfirstvoyagethere。Youfellowsknowtherearethosevoyagesthatseemorderedfortheillustrationoflife,thatmightstandforasymbolofexistence。Youfight,work,sweat,nearlykillyourself,sometimesdokillyourself,tryingtoaccomplishsome—
thing——andyoucan’t。Notfromanyfaultofyours。
Yousimplycandonothing,neithergreatnorlittle——
notathingintheworld——notevenmarryanoldmaid,orgetawretched600—toncargoofcoaltoitsportofdesti—
nation。
"Itwasaltogetheramemorableaffair。ItwasmyfirstvoyagetotheEast,andmyfirstvoyageassecondmate;itwasalsomyskipper’sfirstcommand。You’lladmititwastime。Hewassixtyifaday;alittleman,withabroad,notverystraightback,withbowedshoul—
dersandonelegmorebandythantheother,hehadthatqueertwisted—aboutappearanceyouseesoofteninmenwhoworkinthefields。Hehadanut—crackerface——chinandnosetryingtocometogetheroverasunkenmouth——
anditwasframediniron—grayfluffyhair,thatlookedlikeachinstrapofcotton—woolsprinkledwithcoal—dust。
Andhehadblueeyesinthatoldfaceofhis,whichwereamazinglylikeaboy’s,withthatcandidexpressionsomequitecommonmenpreservetotheendoftheirdaysbyarareinternalgiftofsimplicityofheartandrectitudeofsoul。Whatinducedhimtoacceptmewasawonder。
IhadcomeoutofacrackAustralianclipper,whereI
hadbeenthirdofficer,andheseemedtohaveaprejudiceagainstcrackclippersasaristocraticandhigh—toned。
Hesaidtome,’Youknow,inthisshipyouwillhavetowork。’IsaidIhadtoworkineveryshipIhadeverbeenin。’Ah,butthisisdifferent,andyougentlemenoutofthembigships;……butthere!Idaresayyouwilldo。Jointo—morrow。’
"Ijoinedto—morrow。Itwastwenty—twoyearsago;
andIwasjusttwenty。Howtimepasses!Itwasoneofthehappiestdaysofmylife。Fancy!Secondmateforthefirsttime——areallyresponsibleofficer!Iwouldn’thavethrownupmynewbilletforafortune。Thematelookedmeovercarefully。Hewasalsoanoldchap,butofanotherstamp。HehadaRomannose,asnow—white,longbeard,andhisnamewasMahon,butheinsistedthatitshouldbepronouncedMann。Hewaswellconnected;
yettherewassomethingwrongwithhisluck,andhehadnevergoton。
"Astothecaptain,hehadbeenforyearsincoasters,thenintheMediterranean,andlastintheWestIndiantrade。HehadneverbeenroundtheCapes。Hecouldjustwriteakindofsketchyhand,anddidn’tcareforwritingatall。Bothwerethoroughgoodseamenofcourse,andbetweenthosetwooldchapsIfeltlikeasmallboybetweentwograndfathers。
"Theshipalsowasold。HernamewastheJudea。
Queername,isn’tit?ShebelongedtoamanWilmer,Wilcox——somenamelikethat;buthehasbeenbankruptanddeadthesetwentyyearsormore,andhisnamedon’tmatter。ShehadbeenlaidupinShadwellbasinforeversolong。Youcanimagineherstate。Shewasallrust,dust,grime——sootaloft,dirtondeck。Tomeitwaslikecomingoutofapalaceintoaruinedcottage。Shewasabout400tons,hadaprimitivewindlass,woodenlatchestothedoors,notabitofbrassabouther,andabigsquarestern。Therewasonit,belowhernameinbigletters,alotofscrollwork,withthegiltoff,andsomesortofacoatofarms,withthemotto’DoorDie’under—
neath。Irememberittookmyfancyimmensely。Therewasatouchofromanceinit,somethingthatmademelovetheoldthing——somethingthatappealedtomyyouth!
"WeleftLondoninballast——sandballast——toloadacargoofcoalinanorthernportforBankok。Bankok!
Ithrilled。Ihadbeensixyearsatsea,buthadonlyseenMelbourneandSydney,verygoodplaces,charmingplacesintheirway——butBankok!
"WeworkedoutoftheThamesundercanvas,withaNorthSeapilotonboard。HisnamewasJermyn,andhedodgedalldaylongaboutthegalleydryinghishand—
kerchiefbeforethestove。Apparentlyheneverslept。
Hewasadismalman,withaperpetualtearsparklingattheendofhisnose,whoeitherhadbeenintrouble,orwasintrouble,orexpectedtobeintrouble——couldn’tbehappyunlesssomethingwentwrong。Hemistrustedmyyouth,mycommon—sense,andmyseamanship,andmadeapointofshowingitinahundredlittleways。I
daresayhewasright。ItseemstomeIknewverylittlethen,andIknownotmuchmorenow;butIcherishahateforthatJermyntothisday。
"WewereaweekworkingupasfarasYarmouthRoads,andthenwegotintoagale——thefamousOctobergaleoftwenty—twoyearsago。Itwaswind,lightning,sleet,snow,andaterrificsea。Wewereflyinglight,andyoumayimaginehowbaditwaswhenItellyouwehadsmashedbulwarksandafloodeddeck。Onthesecondnightsheshiftedherballastintotheleebow,andbythattimewehadbeenblownoffsomewhereontheDoggerBank。Therewasnothingforitbutgobelowwithshovelsandtrytorighther,andtherewewereinthatvasthold,gloomylikeacavern,thetallowdipsstuckandflickeringonthebeams,thegalehowlingabove,theshiptossingaboutlikemadonherside;thereweallwere,Jermyn,thecaptain,everyone,hardlyabletokeepourfeet,engagedonthatgravedigger’swork,andtry—
ingtotossshovelfulsofwetsanduptowindward。Ateverytumbleoftheshipyoucouldseevaguelyinthedimlightmenfallingdownwithagreatflourishofshov—
els。Oneoftheship’sboys(wehadtwo),impressedbytheweirdnessofthescene,weptasifhisheartwouldbreak。Wecouldhearhimblubberingsomewhereintheshadows。
"Onthethirddaythegalediedout,andby—and—byanorth—countrytugpickedusup。WetooksixteendaysinalltogetfromLondontotheTyne!Whenwegotintodockwehadlostourturnforloading,andtheyhauledusofftoatierwhereweremainedforamonth。
Mrs。Beard(thecaptain’snamewasBeard)camefromColchestertoseetheoldman。Shelivedonboard。Thecrewofrunnershadleft,andthereremainedonlytheofficers,oneboy,andthesteward,amulattowhoan—
sweredtothenameofAbraham。Mrs。Beardwasanoldwoman,witharaceallwrinkledandruddylikeawinterapple,andthefigureofayounggirl。Shecaughtsightofmeonce,sewingonabutton,andinsistedonhavingmyshirtstorepair。Thiswassomethingdifferentfromthecaptains’wivesIhadknownonboardcrackclippers。
WhenIbroughthertheshirts,shesaid:’Andthesocks?Theywantmending,Iamsure,andJohn’s——
CaptainBeard’s——thingsareallinordernow。Iwouldbegladofsomethingtodo。’Blesstheoldwoman。Sheoverhauledmyoutfitforme,andmeantimeIreadforthefirsttime’SartorResartus’andBurnaby’s’RidetoKhiva。’Ididn’tunderstandmuchofthefirstthen;
butIrememberIpreferredthesoldiertothephilosopheratthetime;apreferencewhichlifehasonlyconfirmed。
Onewasaman,andtheotherwaseithermore——orless。
However,theyarebothdead,andMrs。Beardisdead,andyouth,strength,genius,thoughts,achievements,simplehearts——alldie……Nomatter。
"Theyloadedusatlast。Weshippedacrew。Eightableseamenandtwoboys。Wehauledoffoneeveningtothebuoysatthedock—gates,readytogoout,andwithafairprospectofbeginningthevoyagenextday。Mrs。
Beardwastostartforhomebyalatetrain。Whentheshipwasfastwewenttotea。Wesatrathersilentthroughthemeal——Mahon,theoldcouple,andI。I
finishedfirst,andslippedawayforasmoke,mycabinbeinginadeck—housejustagainstthepoop。Itwashighwater,blowingfreshwithadrizzle;thedoubledock—
gateswereopened,andthesteamcolliersweregoinginandoutinthedarknesswiththeirlightsburningbright,agreatplashingofpropellers,rattlingofwinches,andalotofhailingonthepier—heads。Iwatchedtheprocessionofhead—lightsglidinghighandofgreenlightsglidinglowinthenight,whensuddenlyaredgleamflashedatme,vanished,cameintoviewagain,andremained。Thefore—endofasteamerloomedupclose。
Ishouteddownthecabin,’Comeup,quick!’andthenheardastartledvoicesayingafarinthedark,’Stopher,sir。’Abelljingled。Anothervoicecriedwarningly,’Wearegoingrightintothatbark,sir。’Theanswertothiswasagruff’Allright,’andthenextthingwasaheavycrashasthesteamerstruckaglancingblowwiththebluffofherbowaboutourfore—rigging。Therewasamomentofconfusion,yelling,andrunningabout。
Steamroared。Thensomebodywasheardsaying,’Allclear,sir。’……’Areyouallright?’askedthegruffvoice。Ihadjumpedforwardtoseethedamage,andhailedback,’Ithinkso。’’Easyastern,’saidthegruffvoice。Abelljingled。’Whatsteameristhat?’
screamedMahon。Bythattimeshewasnomoretousthanabulkyshadowmaneuveringalittlewayoff。Theyshoutedatussomename——awoman’sname,MirandaorMelissa——orsomesuchthing。’Thismeansanothermonthinthisbeastlyhole,’saidMahontome,aswepeeredwithlampsaboutthesplinteredbulwarksandbrokenbraces。’Butwhere’sthecaptain?’
"Wehadnotheardorseenanythingofhimallthattime。Wewentafttolook。Adolefulvoicearosehail—
ingsomewhereinthemiddleofthedock,’Judeaahoy!’……Howthedevildidhegetthere?……’Hallo!’
weshouted。’Iamadriftinourboatwithoutoars,’hecried。Abelatedwatermanofferedhisservices,andMahonstruckabargainwithhimforhalf—a—crowntotowourskipperalongside;butitwasMrs。Beardthatcameuptheladderfirst。Theyhadbeenfloatingaboutthedockinthatmizzlycoldrainfornearlyanhour。I
wasneversosurprisedinmylife。
"Itappearsthatwhenheheardmyshout’Comeup,’
heunderstoodatoncewhatwasthematter,caughtuphiswife,ranondeck,andacross,anddownintoourboat,whichwasfasttotheladder。Notbadforasixty—year—
old。Justimaginethatoldfellowsavingheroicallyinhisarmsthatoldwoman——thewomanofhislife。Hesetherdownonathwart,andwasreadytoclimbbackonboardwhenthepaintercameadriftsomehow,andawaytheywenttogether。Ofcourseintheconfusionwedidnothearhimshouting。Helookedabashed。Shesaidcheerfully,’Isupposeitdoesnotmattermylosingthetrainnow?’’No,Jenny——yougobelowandgetwarm,’hegrowled。Thentous:’Asailorhasnobusi—
nesswithawife——Isay。ThereIwas,outoftheship。
Well,noharmdonethistime。Let’sgoandlookatwhatthatfoolofasteamersmashed。’
"Itwasn’tmuch,butitdelayedusthreeweeks。Attheendofthattime,thecaptainbeingengagedwithhisagents,IcarriedMrs。Beard’sbagtotherailway—sta—
tionandputherallcomfyintoathird—classcarriage。
Sheloweredthewindowtosay,’Youareagoodyoungman。IfyouseeJohn——CaptainBeard——withouthismuffleratnight,justremindhimfrommetokeephisthroatwellwrappedup。’’Certainly,Mrs。Beard,’I
said。’Youareagoodyoungman;Inoticedhowat—
tentiveyouaretoJohn——toCaptain——’Thetrainpulledoutsuddenly;Itookmycapofftotheoldwoman:Ineversawheragain……Passthebottle。
"Wewenttoseanextday。WhenwemadethatstartforBankokwehadbeenalreadythreemonthsoutofLondon。Wehadexpectedtobeafortnightorso——attheoutside。
"ItwasJanuary,andtheweatherwasbeautiful——thebeautifulsunnywinterweatherthathasmorecharmthaninthesummer—time,becauseitisunexpected,andcrisp,andyouknowitwon’t,itcan’t,lastlong。It’slikeawindfall,likeagodsend,likeanunexpectedpieceofluck。
"ItlastedalldowntheNorthSea,alldownChannel;
anditlastedtillwewerethreehundredmilesorsotothewestwardoftheLizards:thenthewindwentroundtothesou’westandbegantopipeup。Intwodaysitblewagale。TheJudea,hoveto,wallowedontheAtlanticlikeanoldcandlebox。Itblewdayafterday:itblewwithspite,withoutinterval,withoutmercy,withoutrest。
Theworldwasnothingbutanimmensityofgreatfoam—
ingwavesrushingatus,underaskylowenoughtotouchwiththehandanddirtylikeasmokedceiling。Inthestormyspacesurroundingustherewasasmuchflyingsprayasair。Dayafterdayandnightafternighttherewasnothingroundtheshipbutthehowlofthewind,thetumultofthesea,thenoiseofwaterpouringoverherdeck。Therewasnorestforherandnorestforus。
Shetossed,shepitched,shestoodonherhead,shesatonhertail,sherolled,shegroaned,andwehadtoholdonwhileondeckandclingtoourbunkswhenbelow,inaconstanteffortofbodyandworryofmind。
"OnenightMahonspokethroughthesmallwindowofmyberth。Itopenedrightintomyverybed,andI
waslyingtheresleepless,inmyboots,feelingasthoughIhadnotsleptforyears,andcouldnotifItried。Hesaidexcitedly——
"’Yougotthesounding—rodinhere,Marlow?Ican’tgetthepumpstosuck。ByGod!it’snochild’splay。’
"Igavehimthesounding—rodandlaydownagain,tryingtothinkofvariousthings——butIthoughtonlyofthepumps。WhenIcameondecktheywerestillatit,andmywatchrelievedatthepumps。Bythelightofthelanternbroughtondecktoexaminethesounding—
rodIcaughtaglimpseoftheirweary,seriousfaces。
Wepumpedallthefourhours。Wepumpedallnight,allday,alltheweek,——watchandwatch。Shewaswork—
ingherselfloose,andleakedbadly——notenoughtodrownusatonce,butenoughtokilluswiththeworkatthepumps。Andwhilewepumpedtheshipwasgoingfromuspiecemeal:thebulwarkswent,thestanchionsweretornout,theventilatorssmashed,thecabin—doorburstin。Therewasnotadryspotintheship。Shewasbeingguttedbitbybit。Thelong—boatchanged,asifbymagic,intomatchwoodwhereshestoodinhergripes。
Ihadlashedhermyself,andwasratherproudofmyhandiwork,whichhadwithstoodsolongthemaliceofthesea。Andwepumped。Andtherewasnobreakintheweather。Theseawaswhitelikeasheetoffoam,likeacaldronofboilingmilk;therewasnotabreakintheclouds,no——notthesizeofaman’shand——no,notforsomuchastenseconds。Therewasforusnosky,therewereforusnostars,nosun,nouniverse——nothingbutangrycloudsandaninfuriatedsea。Wepumpedwatchandwatch,fordearlife;anditseemedtolastformonths,foryears,foralleternity,asthoughwehadbeendeadandgonetoahellforsailors。Weforgotthedayoftheweek,thenameofthemonth,whatyearitwas,andwhetherwehadeverbeenashore。Thesailsblewaway,shelaybroadsideonunderaweather—cloth,theoceanpouredoverher,andwedidnotcare。Weturnedthosehandles,andhadtheeyesofidiots。AssoonaswehadcrawledondeckIusedtotakearoundturnwitharopeaboutthemen,thepumps,andthemainmast,andweturned,weturnedincessantly,withthewatertoourwaists,toournecks,overourheads。Itwasallone。
Wehadforgottenhowitfelttobedry。
"Andtherewassomewhereinmethethought:ByJove!thisisthedeuceofanadventure——somethingyoureadabout;anditismyfirstvoyageassecondmate——
andIamonlytwenty——andhereIamlastingitoutaswellasanyofthesemen,andkeepingmychapsuptothemark。Iwaspleased。Iwouldnothavegivenuptheexperienceforworlds。Ihadmomentsofexultation。
Whenevertheolddismantledcraftpitchedheavilywithhercounterhighintheair,sheseemedtometothrowup,likeanappeal,likeadefiance,likeacrytothecloudswithoutmercy,thewordswrittenonherstern:’Judea,London。DoorDie。’
"Oyouth!Thestrengthofit,thefaithofit,theimaginationofit!Tomeshewasnotanoldrattle—trapcartingabouttheworldalotofcoalforafreight——tomeshewastheendeavor,thetest,thetrialoflife。I
thinkofherwithpleasure,withaffection,withregret——
asyouwouldthinkofsomeonedeadyouhaveloved。I
shallneverforgether……Passthebottle。
"Onenightwhentiedtothemast,asIexplained,wewerepumpingon,deafenedwiththewind,andwithoutspiritenoughinustowishourselvesdead,aheavyseacrashedaboardandsweptcleanoverus。AssoonasI
gotmybreathIshouted,asindutybound,’Keepon,boys!’whensuddenlyIfeltsomethinghardfloatingondeckstrikethecalfofmyleg。Imadeagrabatitandmissed。Itwassodarkwecouldnotseeeachother’sfaceswithinafoot——youunderstand。
"Afterthatthumptheshipkeptquietforawhile,andthething,whateveritwas,struckmylegagain。
ThistimeIcaughtit——anditwasasauce—pan。Atfirst,beingstupidwithfatigueandthinkingofnothingbutthepumps,IdidnotunderstandwhatIhadinmyhand。
Suddenlyitdawneduponme,andIshouted,’Boys,thehouseondeckisgone。Leavethis,andlet’slookforthecook。’
"Therewasadeck—houseforward,whichcontainedthegalley,thecook’sberth,andthequartersofthecrew。Aswehadexpectedfordaystoseeitsweptaway,thehandshadbeenorderedtosleepinthecabin——theonlysafeplaceintheship。Thesteward,Abraham,however,persistedinclingingtohisberth,stupidly,likeamule——fromsheerfrightIbelieve,likeananimalthaton’tleaveastablefallinginanearthquake。Sowewenttolookforhim。Itwaschancingdeath,sinceonceoutofourlashingswewereasexposedasifonaraft。
Butwewent。Thehousewasshatteredasifashellhadexplodedinside。Mostofithadgoneoverboard——stove,men’squarters,andtheirproperty,allwasgone;buttwoposts,holdingaportionofthebulkheadtowhichAbraham’sbunkwasattached,remainedasifbyamir—
acle。Wegropedintheruinsandcameuponthis,andtherehewas,sittinginhisbunk,surroundedbyfoamandwreckage,jabberingcheerfullytohimself。Hewasoutofhismind;completelyandforevermad,withthissuddenshockcominguponthefag—endofhisendurance。
Wesnatchedhimup,luggedhimaft,andpitchedhimhead—firstdownthecabincompanion。Youunderstandtherewasnotimetocarryhimdownwithinfinitepre—
cautionsandwaittoseehowhegoton。Thosebelowwouldpickhimupatthebottomofthestairsallright。
Wewereinahurrytogobacktothepumps。Thatbusi—
nesscouldnotwait。Abadleakisaninhumanthing。
"Onewouldthinkthatthesolepurposeofthatfiend—
ishgalehadbeentomakealunaticofthatpoordevilofamulatto。Iteasedbeforemorning,andnextdaytheskycleared,andastheseawentdowntheleaktookup。
Whenitcametobendingafreshsetofsailsthecrewdemandedtoputback——andreallytherewasnothingelsetodo。Boatsgone,deckssweptclean,cabingutted,menwithoutastitchbutwhattheystoodin,storesspoiled,shipstrained。Weputherheadforhome,and——wouldyoubelieveit?Thewindcameeastrightinourteeth。
Itblewfresh,itblewcontinuously。Wehadtobeatupeveryinchoftheway,butshedidnotleaksobadly,thewaterkeepingcomparativelysmooth。Twohours’
pumpingineveryfourisnojoke——butitkeptherafloatasfarasFalmouth。
"Thegoodpeoplethereliveoncasualtiesofthesea,andnodoubtweregladtoseeus。Ahungrycrowdofshipwrightssharpenedtheirchiselsatthesightofthatcarcassofaship。And,byJove!theyhadprettypick—
ingsoffusbeforetheyweredone。Ifancytheownerwasalreadyinatightplace。Thereweredelays。Thenitwasdecidedtotakepartofthecargooutandcalkhertopsides。Thiswasdone,therepairsfinished,cargore—
shipped;anewcrewcameonboard,andwewentout——
forBankok。Attheendofaweekwewerebackagain。
Thecrewsaidtheyweren’tgoingtoBankok——ahundredandfiftydays’passage——inasomethinghookerthatwantedpumpingeighthoursoutofthetwenty—four;
andthenauticalpapersinsertedagainthelittlepara—
graph:’Judea。Bark。TynetoBankok;coals;putbacktoFalmouthleakyandwithcrewrefusingduty。’
"Thereweremoredelays——moretinkering。Theownercamedownforaday,andsaidshewasasrightasalittlefiddle。PooroldCaptainBeardlookedliketheghostofaGeordieskipper——throughtheworryandhumiliationofit。Rememberhewassixty,anditwashisfirstcommand。Mahonsaiditwasafoolishbusiness,andwouldendbadly。Ilovedtheshipmorethanever,andwantedawfullytogettoBankok。ToBankok!
Magicname,blessedname。Mesopotamiawasn’tapatchnit。RememberIwastwenty,anditwasmyfirstsecondmate’sbillet,andtheEastwaswaitingforme。
"Wewentoutandanchoredintheouterroadswithafreshcrew——thethird。Sheleakedworsethanever。
Itwasasifthoseconfoundedshipwrightshadactuallymadeaholeinher。Thistimewedidnotevengooutside。Thecrewsimplyrefusedtomanthewindlass。
"Theytowedusbacktotheinnerharbor,andwebe—
cameafixture,afeature,aninstitutionoftheplace。
Peoplepointedusouttovisitorsas’That’erebarkthat’sgoingtoBankok——hasbeenheresixmonths——putbackthreetimes。’Onholidaysthesmallboyspullingaboutinboatswouldhail,’Judea,ahoy!’andifaheadshowedabovetherailshouted,’Whereyouboundto?——
Bankok?’andjeered。Wewereonlythreeonboard。
Thepooroldskippermoonedinthecabin。Mahonun—
dertookthecooking,andunexpectedlydevelopedallaFrenchman’sgeniusforpreparingnicelittlemesses。I
lookedlanguidlyaftertherigging。WebecamecitizensofFalmouth。Everyshopkeeperknewus。Atthebar—
ber’sortobacconist’stheyaskedfamiliarly,’DoyouthinkyouwillevergettoBankok?’Meantimetheowner,theunderwriters,andthechartererssquabbledamongstthemselvesinLondon,andourpaywenton……Passthebottle。
"Itwashorrid。Morallyitwasworsethanpumpingforlife。Itseemedasthoughwehadbeenforgottenbytheworld,belongedtonobody,wouldgetnowhere;itseemedthat,asifbewitched,wewouldhavetoliveforeverandeverinthatinnerharbor,aderisionandaby—
wordtogenerationsoflong—shoreloafersanddishonestboatmen。Iobtainedthreemonths’payandafivedays’
leave,andmadearushforLondon。Ittookmeadaytogetthereandprettywellanothertocomeback——butthreemonths’paywentallthesame。Idon’tknowwhatIdidwithit。Iwenttoamusic—hall,Ibelieve,lunched,dined,andsuppedinaswellplaceinRegentStreet,andwasbacktotime,withnothingbutacompletesetofByron’sworksandanewrailwayrugtoshowforthreemonths’work。Theboatmanwhopulledmeofftotheshipsaid:’Hallo!Ithoughtyouhadlefttheoldthing。
SHEwillnevergettoBankok。’’That’sallYOUknowaboutit,’Isaidscornfully——butIdidn’tlikethatproph—
ecyatall。
"Suddenlyaman,somekindofagenttosomebody,appearedwithfullpowers。Hehadgrogblossomsalloverhisface,anindomitableenergy,andwasajollysoul。Weleapedintolifeagain。Ahulkcamealong—
side,tookourcargo,andthenwewentintodrydocktogetourcopperstripped。Nowondersheleaked。Thepoorthing,strainedbeyondendurancebythegale,had,asifindisgust,spatoutalltheoakumofherlowerseams。Shewasrecalked,newcoppered,andmadeastightasabottle。Wewentbacktothehulkandre—
shippedourcargo。
"Thenonafinemoonlightnight,alltheratslefttheship。
"Wehadbeeninfestedwiththem。Theyhaddestroyedoursails,consumedmorestoresthanthecrew,affablysharedourbedsandourdangers,andnow,whentheshipwasmadeseaworthy,concludedtoclearout。I
calledMahontoenjoythespectacle。Ratafterratap—
pearedonourrail,tookalastlookoverhisshoulder,andleapedwithahollowthudintotheemptyhulk。
Wetriedtocountthem,butsoonlostthetale。Mahonsaid:’Well,well!don’ttalktomeabouttheintelligenceofrats。Theyoughttohaveleftbefore,whenwehadthatnarrowsqueakfromfoundering。Thereyouhavetheproofhowsillyisthesuperstitionaboutthem。Theyleaveagoodshipforanoldrottenhulk,wherethereisnothingtoeat,too,thefools!……Idon’tbelievetheyknowwhatissafeorwhatisgoodforthem,anymorethanyouorI。’
"Andaftersomemoretalkweagreedthatthewisdomofratshadbeengrosslyoverrated,beinginfactnogreaterthanthatofmen。
"Thestoryoftheshipwasknown,bythis,alluptheChannelfromLand’sEndtotheForelands,andwecouldgetnocrewonthesouthcoast。TheysentusoneallcompletefromLiverpool,andweleftoncemore——forBankok。
"Wehadfairbreezes,smoothwaterrightintothetropics,andtheoldJudealumberedalonginthesun—
shine。Whenshewenteightknotseverythingcrackedaloft,andwetiedourcapstoourheads;butmostlyshestrolledonattherateofthreemilesanhour。Whatcouldyouexpect?Shewastired——thatoldship。Heryouthwaswheremineis——whereyoursis——youfellowswholistentothisyarn;andwhatfriendwouldthrowyouryearsandyourwearinessinyourface?Wedidn’tgrumbleather。Tousaft,atleast,itseemedasthoughwehadbeenborninher,rearedinher,hadlivedinherforages,hadneverknownanyothership。Iwouldjustassoonhaveabusedtheoldvillagechurchathomefornotbeingacathedral。
"Andformetherewasalsomyyouthtomakemepa—
tient。TherewasalltheEastbeforeme,andalllife,andthethoughtthatIhadbeentriedinthatshipandhadcomeoutprettywell。AndIthoughtofmenofoldwho,centuriesago,wentthatroadinshipsthatsailednobetter,tothelandofpalms,andspices,andyellowsands,andofbrownnationsruledbykingsmorecruelthanNerotheRomanandmoresplendidthanSolomontheJew。Theoldbarklumberedon,heavywithherageandtheburdenofhercargo,whileIlivedthelifeofyouthinignoranceandhope。Shelumberedonthroughaninterminableprocessionofdays;andthefreshgild—
ingflashedbackatthesettingsun,seemedtocryoutoverthedarkeningseathewordspaintedonherstern,’Judea,London。DoorDie。’
"ThenweenteredtheIndianOceanandsteerednorth—
erlyforJavaHead。Thewindswerelight。Weeksslippedby。Shecrawledon,doordie,andpeopleathomebegantothinkofpostingusasoverdue。
"OneSaturdayevening,Ibeingoffduty,themenaskedmetogivethemanextrabucketofwaterorso——
forwashingclothes。AsIdidnotwishtoscrewonthefresh—waterpumpsolate,Iwentforwardwhistling,andwithakeyinmyhandtounlocktheforepeakscuttle,intendingtoservethewateroutofasparetankwekeptthere。
"Thesmelldownbelowwasasunexpectedasitwasfrightful。Onewouldhavethoughthundredsofpar—
affin—lampshadbeenflaringandsmokinginthatholefordays。Iwasgladtogetout。Themanwithmecoughedandsaid,’Funnysmell,sir。’Ianswerednegli—
gently,’It’sgoodforthehealth,theysay,’andwalkedaft。
"ThefirstthingIdidwastoputmyheaddownthesquareofthemidshipventilator。AsIliftedthelidavisiblebreath,somethinglikeathinfog,apuffoffainthaze,rosefromtheopening。Theascendingairwashot,andhadaheavy,sooty,paraffinysmell。Igaveonesniff,andputdownthelidgently。Itwasnousechokingmy—
self。Thecargowasonfire。
"Nextdayshebegantosmokeinearnest。Youseeitwastobeexpected,forthoughthecoalwasofasafekind,thatcargohadbeensohandled,sobrokenupwithhandling,thatitlookedmorelikesmithycoalthanany—
thingelse。Thenithadbeenwetted——morethanonce。
Itrainedallthetimeweweretakingitbackfromthehulk,andnowwiththislongpassageitgotheated,andtherewasanothercaseofspontaneouscombustion。
"Thecaptaincalledusintothecabin。Hehadachartspreadonthetable,andlookedunhappy。Hesaid,’ThecoastofWestAustraliaisnear,butImeantoproceedtoourdestination。Itisthehurricanemonthtoo;butwewilljustkeepherheadforBankok,andfightthefire。
Nomoreputtingbackanywhere,ifweallgetroasted。
Wewilltryfirsttostiflethis’eredamnedcombustionbywantofair。’
"Wetried。Webatteneddowneverything,andstillshesmoked。Thesmokekeptcomingoutthroughim—
perceptiblecrevices;itforceditselfthroughbulkheadsandcovers;itoozedhereandthereandeverywhereinslenderthreads,inaninvisiblefilm,inanincomprehen—
siblemanner。Itmadeitswayintothecabin,intotheforecastle;itpoisonedtheshelteredplacesonthedeck,itcouldbesniffedashighasthemainyard。Itwasclearthatifthesmokecameouttheaircamein。Thiswasdisheartening。Thiscombustionrefusedtobestifled。
"Weresolvedtotrywater,andtookthehatchesoff。
Enormousvolumesofsmoke,whitish,yellowish,thick,greasy,misty,choking,ascendedashighasthetrucks。
Allhandsclearedoutaft。Thenthepoisonouscloudblewaway,andwewentbacktoworkinasmokethatwasnothickernowthanthatofanordinaryfactorychimney。
"Weriggedtheforcepump,gotthehosealong,andby—and—byitburst。Well,itwasasoldastheship——aprehistorichose,andpastrepair。Thenwepumpedwiththefeeblehead—pump,drewwaterwithbuckets,andinthiswaymanagedintimetopourlotsofIndianOceanintothemainhatch。Thebrightstreamflashedinsun—
shine,fellintoalayerofwhitecrawlingsmoke,andvan—
ishedontheblacksurfaceofcoal。Steamascendedminglingwiththesmoke。Wepouredsaltwaterasintoabarrelwithoutabottom。Itwasourfatetopumpinthatship,topumpoutofher,topumpintoher;andafterkeepingwateroutofhertosaveourselvesfrombeingdrowned,wefranticallypouredwaterintohertosaveourselvesfrombeingburnt。
"Andshecrawledon,doordie,inthesereneweather。
Theskywasamiracleofpurity,amiracleofazure。
Theseawaspolished,wasblue,waspellucid,wasspark—
linglikeapreciousstone,extendingonallsides,allroundtothehorizon——asifthewholeterrestrialglobehadbeenonejewel,onecolossalsapphire,asinglegemfashionedintoaplanet。AndonthelusterofthegreatcalmwaterstheJudeaglidedimperceptibly,envelopedinlanguidanduncleanvapors,inalazycloudthatdriftedtoleeward,lightandslow:apestiferousclouddefilingthesplendorofseaandsky。
"Allthistimeofcoursewesawnofire。Thecargosmolderedatthebottomsomewhere。OnceMahon,aswewereworkingsidebyside,saidtomewithaqueersmile:’Now,ifsheonlywouldspringatidyleak——
likethattimewhenwefirstlefttheChannel——itwouldputastopperonthisfire。Wouldn’tit?’Iremarkedirrelevantly,’Doyouremembertherats?’
"Wefoughtthefireandsailedtheshiptooascarefullyasthoughnothinghadbeenthematter。Thestewardcookedandattendedonus。Oftheothertwelvemen,eightworkedwhilefourrested。Everyonetookhisturn,captainincluded。Therewasequality,andifnotexactlyfraternity,thenadealofgoodfeeling。Some—
timesaman,ashedashedabucketfulofwaterdownthehatchway,wouldyellout,’HurrahforBankok!’andtherestlaughed。Butgenerallyweweretaciturnandseri—
ous——andthirsty。Oh!howthirsty!Andwehadtobecarefulwiththewater。Strictallowance。Theshipsmoked,thesunblazed……Passthebottle。
"Wetriedeverything。Weevenmadeanattempttodigdowntothefire。Nogood,ofcourse。Nomancouldremainmorethanaminutebelow。Mahon,whowentfirst,faintedthere,andthemanwhowenttofetchhimoutdidlikewise。Weluggedthemoutondeck。
ThenIleapeddowntoshowhoweasilyitcouldbedone。
Theyhadlearnedwisdombythattime,andcontentedthemselvesbyfishingformewithachain—hooktiedtoabroom—handle,Ibelieve。Ididnotoffertogoandfetchupmyshovel,whichwasleftdownbelow。
"Thingsbegantolookbad。Weputthelong—boatintothewater。Thesecondboatwasreadytoswingout。
Wehadalsoanother,afourteen—footthing,ondavitsaft,whereitwasquitesafe。