"Thenbehold,thesmokesuddenlydecreased。Were—
doubledoureffortstofloodthebottomoftheship。Intwodaystherewasnosmokeatall。Everybodywasonthebroadgrin。ThiswasonaFriday。OnSaturdaynowork,butsailingtheshipofcoursewasdone。Themenwashedtheirclothesandtheirfacesforthefirsttimeinafortnight,andhadaspecialdinnergiventhem。Theyspokeofspontaneouscombustionwithcontempt,andimpliedTHEYweretheboystoputoutcombustions。Some—
howweallfeltasthoughweeachhadinheritedalargefortune。Butabeastlysmellofburninghungabouttheship。CaptainBeardhadholloweyesandsunkencheeks。
Ihadnevernoticedsomuchbeforehowtwistedandbowedhewas。HeandMahonprowledsoberlyabouthatchesandventilators,sniffing。ItstruckmesuddenlypoorMahonwasavery,veryoldchap。Astome,IwasaspleasedandproudasthoughIhadhelpedtowinagreatnavalbattle。O!Youth!
"Thenightwasfine。Inthemorningahomeward—
boundshippassedushulldown,——thefirstwehadseenformonths;butwewerenearingthelandatlast,JavaHeadbeingabout190milesoff,andnearlyduenorth。
"Nextdayitwasmywatchondeckfromeighttotwelve。Atbreakfastthecaptainobserved,’It’swonder—
fulhowthatsmellhangsaboutthecabin。’Aboutten,thematebeingonthepoop,Isteppeddownonthemain—
deckforamoment。Thecarpenter’sbenchstoodabaftthemainmast:Ileanedagainstitsuckingatmypipe,andthecarpenter,ayoungchap,cametotalktome。Heremarked,’Ithinkwehavedoneverywell,haven’twe?’
andthenIperceivedwithannoyancethefoolwastry—
ingtotiltthebench。Isaidcurtly,’Don’t,Chips,’andimmediatelybecameawareofaqueersensation,ofanabsurddelusion,——Iseemedsomehowtobeintheair。I
heardallroundmelikeapent—upbreathreleased——asifathousandgiantssimultaneouslyhadsaidPhoo!——
andfeltadullconcussionwhichmademyribsachesud—
denly。Nodoubtaboutit——Iwasintheair,andmybodywasdescribingashortparabola。Butshortasitwas,Ihadthetimetothinkseveralthoughtsin,asfarasIcanremember,thefollowingorder:’Thiscan’tbethecarpenter——Whatisit?——Someaccident——Submarinevolcano?——Coals,gas!——ByJove!wearebeingblownup——Everybody’sdead——Iamfallingintotheafter—
hatch——Iseefireinit。’
"Thecoal—dustsuspendedintheairoftheholdhadgloweddull—redatthemomentoftheexplosion。Inthetwinklingofaneye,inaninfinitesimalfractionofasecondsincethefirsttiltofthebench,Iwassprawlingfulllengthonthecargo。Ipickedmyselfupandscram—
bledout。Itwasquicklikearebound。Thedeckwasawildernessofsmashedtimber,lyingcrosswiseliketreesinawoodafterahurricane;animmensecurtainofsoiledragswavedgentlybeforeme——itwasthemainsailblowntostrips。Ithought,Themastswillbetopplingoverdirectly;andtogetoutofthewayboltedonall—fourstowardsthepoop—ladder。ThefirstpersonIsawwasMahon,witheyeslikesaucers,hismouthopen,andthelongwhitehairstandingstraightonendroundhisheadlikeasilverhalo。Hewasjustabouttogodownwhenthesightofthemain—deckstirring,heavingup,andchangingintosplintersbeforehiseyes,petrifiedhimonthetopstep。Istaredathiminunbelief,andhestaredatmewithaqueerkindofshockedcuriosity。IdidnotknowthatIhadnohair,noeyebrows,noeyelashes,thatmyyoungmustachewasburntoff,thatmyfacewasblack,onecheeklaidopen,mynosecut,andmychinbleeding。Ihadlostmycap,oneofmyslippers,andmyshirtwastorntorags。OfallthisIwasnotaware。
Iwasamazedtoseetheshipstillafloat,thepoop—deckwhole——and,mostofall,toseeanybodyalive。Alsothepeaceoftheskyandtheserenityoftheseawereistinctlysurprising。IsupposeIexpectedtoseethemconvulsedwithhorror……Passthebottle。
"Therewasavoicehailingtheshipfromsomewhere——intheair,inthesky——Icouldn’ttell。PresentlyI
sawthecaptain——andhewasmad。Heaskedmeeagerly,’Where’sthecabin—table?’andtohearsuchaquestionwasafrightfulshock。Ihadjustbeenblownup,youunderstand,andvibratedwiththatexperience,——Iwasn’tquitesurewhetherIwasalive。Mahonbegantostampwithbothfeetandyelledathim,’GoodGod!don’tyouseethedeck’sblownoutofher?’Ifoundmyvoice,andstammeredoutasifconsciousofsomegrossneglectofduty,’Idon’tknowwherethecabin—tableis。’Itwaslikeanabsurddream。
"Doyouknowwhathewantednext?Well,hewantedtotrimtheyards。Veryplacidly,andasiflostinthought,heinsistedonhavingtheforeyardsquared。
’Idon’tknowifthere’sanybodyalive,’saidMahon,almosttearfully。’Surely,’hesaidgently,’therewillbeenoughlefttosquaretheforeyard。’
"Theoldchap,itseems,wasinhisownberth,wind—
ingupthechronometers,whentheshocksenthimspin—
ning。Immediatelyitoccurredtohim——ashesaidafter—
wards——thattheshiphadstrucksomething,andheranoutintothecabin。There,hesaw,thecabin—tablehadvanishedsomewhere。Thedeckbeingblownup,ithadfallendownintothelazaretteofcourse。Wherewehadourbreakfastthatmorninghesawonlyagreatholeinthefloor。Thisappearedtohimsoawfullymysterious,andimpressedhimsoimmensely,thatwhathesawandheardafterhegotondeckweremeretriflesincom—
parison。And,mark,henoticeddirectlythewheelde—
sertedandhisbarkoffhercourse——andhisonlythoughtwastogetthatmiserable,stripped,undecked,smolderingshellofashipbackagainwithherheadpointingatherportofdestination。Bankok!That’swhathewasafter。Itellyouthisquiet,bowed,bandy—
legged,almostdeformedlittlemanwasimmenseinthesinglenessofhisideaandinhisplacidignoranceofouragitation。Hemotionedusforwardwithacom—
mandinggesture,andwenttotakethewheelhim—
self。
"Yes;thatwasthefirstthingwedid——trimtheyardsofthatwreck!Noonewaskilled,orevendisabled,buteveryonewasmoreorlesshurt。Youshouldhaveseenthem!Somewereinrags,withblackfaces,likecoal—
heavers,likesweeps,andhadbulletheadsthatseemedcloselycropped,butwereinfactsingedtotheskin。
Others,ofthewatchbelow,awakenedbybeingshotoutfromtheircollapsingbunks,shiveredincessantly,andkeptongroaningevenaswewentaboutourwork。Buttheyallworked。ThatcrewofLiverpoolhardcaseshadinthemtherightstuff。It’smyexperiencetheyalwayshave。Itistheseathatgivesit——thevastness,thelone—
linesssurroundingtheirdarkstolidsouls。Ah!Well!
westumbled,wecrept,wefell,webarkedourshinsonthewreckage,wehauled。Themastsstood,butwedidnotknowhowmuchtheymightbecharreddownbelow。
Itwasnearlycalm,butalongswellranfromthewestandmadeherroll。Theymightgoatanymoment。Welookedatthemwithapprehension。Onecouldnotfore—
seewhichwaytheywouldfall。
"Thenweretreatedaftandlookedaboutus。Thedeckwasatangleofplanksonedge,ofplanksonend,ofsplinters,ofruinedwoodwork。Themastsrosefromthatchaoslikebigtreesaboveamattedundergrowth。
Theintersticesofthatmassofwreckagewerefullofsomethingwhitish,sluggish,stirring——ofsomethingthatwaslikeagreasyfog。Thesmokeoftheinvisiblefirewascomingupagain,wastrailing,likeapoisonousthickmistinsomevalleychokedwithdeadwood。Alreadylazywispswerebeginningtocurlupwardsamongstthemassofsplinters。Hereandthereapieceoftimber,stuckupright,resembledapost。Halfofafife—railhadbeenshotthroughtheforesail,andtheskymadeapatchofgloriousblueintheignoblysoiledcanvas。A
portionofseveralboardsholdingtogetherhadfallenacrosstherail,andoneendprotrudedoverboard,likeagangwayleadinguponnothing,likeagangwayleadingoverthedeepsea,leadingtodeath——asifinvitingustowalktheplankatonceandbedonewithourridiculoustroubles。Andstilltheair,thesky——aghost,somethinginvisiblewashailingtheship。
"Someonehadthesensetolookover,andtherewasthehelmsman,whohadimpulsivelyjumpedoverboard,anxioustocomeback。Heyelledandswamlustilylikeamerman,keepingupwiththeship。Wethrewhimarope,andpresentlyhestoodamongstusstreamingwithwaterandverycrest—fallen。Thecaptainhadsurren—
deredthewheel,andapart,elbowonrailandchininhand,gazedattheseawistfully。Weaskedourselves,Whatnext?Ithought,Now,thisissomethinglike。
Thisisgreat。Iwonderwhatwillhappen。Oyouth!
"SuddenlyMahonsightedasteamerfarastern。Cap—
tainBeardsaid,’Wemaydosomethingwithheryet。’
Wehoistedtwoflags,whichsaidintheinternationallanguageofthesea,’Onfire。Wantimmediateassis—
tance。’Thesteamergrewbiggerrapidly,andby—and—
byspokewithtwoflagsonherforemast,’Iamcomingtoyourassistance。’
"Inhalfanhourshewasabreast,towindward,withinhail,androllingslightly,withherenginesstopped。Welostourcomposure,andyelledalltogetherwithexcite—
ment,’We’vebeenblownup。’Amaninawhitehelmet,onthebridge,cried,’Yes!Allright!allright!’andhenoddedhishead,andsmiled,andmadesoothingmo—
tionswithhishandasthoughatalotoffrightenedchil—
dren。Oneoftheboatsdroppedinthewater,andwalkedtowardsusupontheseawithherlongoars。FourCalashespulledaswingingstroke。ThiswasmyfirstsightofMalayseamen。I’veknownthemsince,butwhatstruckmethenwastheirunconcern:theycamealongside,andeventhebowmanstandingupandholdingtoourmain—chainswiththeboat—hookdidnotdeigntolifthisheadforaglance。Ithoughtpeoplewhohadbeenblownupdeservedmoreattention。
"Alittleman,drylikeachipandagilelikeamonkey,clamberedup。Itwasthemateofthesteamer。Hegaveonelook,andcried,’Oboys——youhadbetterquit。’
"Weweresilent。Hetalkedapartwiththecaptainforatime,——seemedtoarguewithhim。Thentheywentawaytogethertothesteamer。
"WhenourskippercamebackwelearnedthatthesteamerwastheSommerville,CaptainNash,fromWestAustraliatoSingaporeviaBataviawithmails,andthattheagreementwassheshouldtowustoAnjerorBa—
tavia,ifpossible,wherewecouldextinguishthefirebyscuttling,andthenproceedonourvoyage——toBankok!
Theoldmanseemedexcited。’Wewilldoityet,’hesaidtoMahon,fiercely。Heshookhisfistatthesky。
Nobodyelsesaidaword。
"Atnoonthesteamerbegantotow。Shewentaheadslimandhigh,andwhatwasleftoftheJudeafollowedattheendofseventyfathomoftow—rope,——followedherswiftlylikeacloudofsmokewithmastheadspro—
trudingabove。Wewentalofttofurlthesails。Wecoughedontheyards,andwerecarefulaboutthebunts。
Doyouseethelotofusthere,puttinganeatfurlonthesailsofthatshipdoomedtoarrivenowhere?Therewasnotamanwhodidn’tthinkthatatanymomentthemastswouldtoppleover。Fromaloftwecouldnotseetheshipforsmoke,andtheyworkedcarefully,passingthegasketswitheventurns。’Harborfurl——aloftthere!’criedMahonfrombelow。
"Youunderstandthis?Idon’tthinkoneofthosechapsexpectedtogetdownintheusualway。WhenwedidIheardthemsayingtoeachother,’Well,I
thoughtwewouldcomedownoverboard,inalump——
sticksandall——blamemeifIdidn’t。’’That’swhatI
wasthinkingtomyself,’wouldanswerwearilyanotherbatteredandbandagedscarecrow。And,mind,theseweremenwithoutthedrilled—inhabitofobedience。Toanonlookertheywouldbealotofprofanescallywagswithoutaredeemingpoint。Whatmadethemdoit——
whatmadethemobeymewhenI,thinkingconsciouslyhowfineitwas,madethemdropthebuntoftheforesailtwicetotryanddoitbetter?What?Theyhadnopro—
fessionalreputation——noexamples,nopraise。Itwasn’tasenseofduty;theyallknewwellenoughhowtoshirk,andlaze,anddodge——whentheyhadamindtoit——andmostlytheyhad。Wasitthetwopoundstenamonththatsentthemthere?Theydidn’tthinktheirpayhalfgoodenough。No;itwassomethinginthem,somethinginbornandsubtleandeverlasting。Idon’tsayposi—
tivelythatthecrewofaFrenchorGermanmerchant—
manwouldn’thavedoneit,butIdoubtwhetheritwouldhavebeendoneinthesameway。Therewasacomplete—
nessinit,somethingsolidlikeaprinciple,andmasterfullikeaninstinct——adisclosureofsomethingsecret——ofthathiddensomething,thatgift,ofgoodorevilthatmakesracialdifference,thatshapesthefateofnations。
"Itwasthatnightattenthat,forthefirsttimesincewehadbeenfightingit,wesawthefire。Thespeedofthetowinghadfannedthesmolderingdestruction。A
bluegleamappearedforward,shiningbelowthewreckofthedeck。Itwaveredinpatches,itseemedtostirandcreeplikethelightofaglowworm。Isawitfirst,andtoldMahon。’Thenthegame’sup,’hesaid。’Wehadbetterstopthistowing,orshewillburstoutsuddenlyforeandaftbeforewecanclearout。’Wesetupayell;
rangbellstoattracttheirattention;theytowedon。AtlastMahonandIhadtocrawlforwardandcuttheropewithanax。Therewasnotimetocastoffthelashings。
Redtonguescouldbeseenlickingthewildernessofsplintersunderourfeetaswemadeourwaybacktothepoop。
"Ofcoursetheyverysoonfoundoutinthesteamerthattheropewasgone。Shegavealoudblastofherwhistle,herlightswereseensweepinginawidecircle,shecameuprangingclosealongside,andstopped。Wewereallinatightgrouponthepooplookingather。Everymanhadsavedalittlebundleorabag。Suddenlyacon—
icalflamewithatwistedtopshotupforwardandthrewupontheblackseaacircleoflight,withthetwovesselssidebysideandheavinggentlyinitscenter。CaptainBeardhadbeensittingonthegratingsstillandmuteforhours,butnowheroseslowlyandadvancedinfrontofus,tothemizzen—shrouds。CaptainNashhailed:’Comealong!Looksharp。Ihavemail—bagsonboard。IwilltakeyouandyourboatstoSingapore。’
"’Thankyou!No!’saidourskipper。’Wemustseethelastoftheship。’
"’Ican’tstandbyanylonger,’shoutedtheother。
’Mails——youknow。’
"’Ay!ay!Weareallright。’
"’Verywell!I’llreportyouinSingapore……
Good—by!’
"Hewavedhishand。Ourmendroppedtheirbundlesquietly。Thesteamermovedahead,andpassingoutofthecircleoflight,vanishedatoncefromoursight,daz—
zledbythefirewhichburnedfiercely。AndthenIknewthatIwouldseetheEastfirstascommanderofasmallboat。Ithoughtitfine;andthefidelitytotheoldshipwasfine。Weshouldseethelastofher。Ohtheglamourofyouth!Ohthefireofit,moredazzlingthantheflamesoftheburningship,throwingamagiclightonthewideearth,leapingaudaciouslytothesky,presentlytobequenchedbytime,morecruel,morepitiless,morebitterthanthesea——andliketheflamesoftheburningshipsurroundedbyanimpenetrablenight……
"Theoldmanwarnedusinhisgentleandinflexiblewaythatitwaspartofourdutytosavefortheunder—
writersasmuchaswecouldoftheship’sgear。Accord—
ingwewenttoworkaft,whilesheblazedforwardtogiveusplentyoflight。Weluggedoutalotofrubbish。
Whatdidn’twesave?Anoldbarometerfixedwithanabsurdquantityofscrewsnearlycostmemylife:asuddenrushofsmokecameuponme,andIjustgotawayintime。Therewerevariousstores,boltsofcanvas,coilsofrope;thepooplookedlikeamarinebazaar,andtheboatswerelumberedtothegunwales。Onewouldhavethoughttheoldmanwantedtotakeasmuchashecouldofhisfirstcommandwithhim。Hewasveryveryquiet,butoffhisbalanceevidently。Wouldyoubelieveit?Hewantedtotakealengthofoldstream—cableandakedge—anchorwithhiminthelong—boat。Wesaid,’Ay,ay,sir,’deferentially,andonthequietletthethingslipoverboard。Theheavymedicine—chestwentthatway,twobagsofgreencoffee,tinsofpaint——fancy,paint!——awholelotofthings。ThenIwasorderedwithtwohandsintotheboatstomakeastowageandgetthemreadyagainstthetimeitwouldbeproperforustoleavetheship。
"Weputeverythingstraight,steppedthelong—boat’smastforourskipper,whowasinchargeofher,andI
wasnotsorrytositdownforamoment。Myfacefeltraw,everylimbachedasifbroken,Iwasawareofallmyribs,andwouldhavesworntoatwistintheback—
bone。Theboats,fastastern,layinadeepshadow,andallaroundIcouldseethecircleofthesealightedbythefire。Agiganticflamearoseforwardstraightandclear。
Itflaredthere,withnoiseslikethewhirofwings,withrumblesasofthunder。Therewerecracks,detonations,andfromtheconeofflamethesparksflewupwards,asmanisborntotrouble,toleakyships,andtoshipsthatburn。
"Whatbotheredmewasthattheship,lyingbroadsidetotheswellandtosuchwindastherewas——amerebreath——
theboatswouldnotkeepasternwheretheyweresafe,butpersisted,inapig—headedwayboatshave,ingettingunderthecounterandthenswingingalongside。Theywereknockingaboutdangerouslyandcomingneartheflame,whiletheshiprolledonthem,and,ofcourse,therewasalwaysthedangerofthemastsgoingoverthesideatanymoment。Iandmytwoboat—keeperskeptthemoffasbestwecouldwithoarsandboat—hooks;buttobeconstantlyatitbecameexasperating,sincetherewasnoreasonwhyweshouldnotleaveatonce。Wecouldnotseethoseonboard,norcouldweimaginewhatcausedthedelay。Theboat—keeperswereswearingfeebly,andI
hadnotonlymyshareofthework,butalsohadtokeepatittwomenwhoshowedaconstantinclinationtolaythemselvesdownandletthingsslide。
"AtlastIhailed’Ondeckthere,’andsomeonelookedover。’We’rereadyhere,’Isaid。Theheaddisap—
peared,andverysoonpoppedupagain。’Thecaptainsays,Allright,sir,andtokeeptheboatswellclearoftheship。’
"Halfanhourpassed。Suddenlytherewasafrightfulracket,rattle,clankingofchain,hissofwater,andmil—
lionsofsparksflewupintotheshiveringcolumnofsmokethatstoodleaningslightlyabovetheship。Thecat—
headshadburnedaway,andthetwored—hotanchorshadgonetothebottom,tearingoutafterthemtwohundredfathomofred—hotchain。Theshiptrembled,themassofflameswayedasifreadytocollapse,andtheforetop—
gallant—mastfell。Itdarteddownlikeanarrowoffire,shotunder,andinstantlyleapingupwithinanoar’s—
lengthoftheboats,floatedquietly,veryblackontheluminoussea。Ihailedthedeckagain。Aftersometimeamaninanunexpectedlycheerfulbutalsomuffledtone,asthoughhehadbeentryingtospeakwithhismouthshut,informedme,’Comingdirectly,sir,’andvanished。
ForalongtimeIheardnothingbutthewhirandroarofthefire。Therewerealsowhistlingsounds。Theboatsjumped,tuggedatthepainters,ranateachotherplay—
fully,knockedtheirsidestogether,or,dowhatwewould,swunginabunchagainsttheship’sside。Icouldn’tstanditanylonger,andswarminguparope,clamberedaboardoverthestern。
"Itwasasbrightasday。Cominguplikethis,thesheetoffirefacingme,wasaterrifyingsight,andtheheatseemedhardlybearableatfirst。Onasetteecushiondraggedoutofthecabin,CaptainBeard,withhislegsdrawnupandonearmunderhishead,sleptwiththelightplayingonhim。Doyouknowwhattherestwerebusyabout?Theyweresittingondeckrightaft,roundanopencase,eatingbreadandcheeseanddrinkingbottledstout。
"Onthebackgroundofflamestwistinginfiercetonguesabovetheirheadstheyseemedathomelikesalamanders,andlookedlikeabandofdesperatepirates。Thefiresparkledinthewhitesoftheireyes,gleamedonpatchesofwhiteskinseenthroughthetornshirts。Eachhadthemarksasofabattleabouthim——bandagedheads,tied—uparms,astripofdirtyragroundaknee——andeachmanhadabottlebetweenhislegsandachunkofcheeseinhishand。Mahongotup。Withhishandsomeanddisreputablehead,hishookedprofile,hislongwhitebeard,andwithanuncorkedbottleinhishand,here—
sembledoneofthoserecklesssea—robbersofoldmakingmerryamidstviolenceanddisaster。’Thelastmealonboard,’heexplainedsolemnly。’Wehadnothingtoeatallday,anditwasnouseleavingallthis。’Heflourishedthebottleandindicatedthesleepingskipper。’Hesaidhecouldn’tswallowanything,soIgothimtoliedown,’
hewenton;andasIstared,’Idon’tknowwhetheryouareaware,youngfellow,themanhadnosleeptospeakoffordays——andtherewillbedam’littlesleepintheboats。’’Therewillbenoboatsby—and—byifyoufoolaboutmuchlonger,’Isaid,indignantly。Iwalkeduptotheskipperandshookhimbytheshoulder。Atlastheopenedhiseyes,butdidnotmove。’Timetoleaveher,sir,’Isaid,quietly。
"Hegotuppainfully,lookedattheflames,attheseasparklingroundtheship,andblack,blackasinkfartheraway;helookedatthestarsshiningdimthroughathinveilofsmokeinaskyblack,blackasErebus。
"’Youngestfirst,’hesaid。
"Andtheordinaryseaman,wipinghismouthwiththebackofhishand,gotup,clamberedoverthetaffrail,andvanished。Othersfollowed。One,onthepointofgoingover,stoppedshorttodrainhisbottle,andwithagreatswingofhisarmflungitatthefire。’Takethis!’hecried。
"Theskipperlingereddisconsolately,andwelefthimtocommunealoneforawhilewithhisfirstcommand。
ThenIwentupagainandbroughthimawayatlast。Itwastime。Theironworkonthepoopwashottothetouch。
"Thenthepainterofthelong—boatwascut,andthethreeboats,tiedtogether,driftedclearoftheship。Itwasjustsixteenhoursaftertheexplosionwhenweaban—
donedher。Mahonhadchargeofthesecondboat,andI
hadthesmallest——the14—footthing。Thelong—boatwouldhavetakenthelotofus;buttheskippersaidwemustsaveasmuchpropertyaswecould——fortheunder—
writers——andsoIgotmyfirstcommand。Ihadtwomenwithme,abagofbiscuits,afewtinsofmeat,andabreakerofwater。Iwasorderedtokeepclosetothelong—boat,thatincaseofbadweatherwemightbetakenintoher。
"AnddoyouknowwhatIthought?IthoughtI
wouldpartcompanyassoonasIcould。Iwantedtohavemyfirstcommandalltomyself。Iwasn’tgoingtosailinasquadroniftherewereachanceforindepend—
entcruising。Iwouldmakelandbymyself。Iwouldbeattheotherboats。Youth!Allyouth!Thesilly,charming,beautifulyouth。
"Butwedidnotmakeastartatonce。Wemustseethelastoftheship。Andsotheboatsdriftedaboutthatnight,heavingandsettingontheswell。Themendozed,waked,sighed,groaned。Ilookedattheburningship。
"Betweenthedarknessofearthandheavenshewasburningfiercelyuponadiscofpurpleseashotbytheblood—redplayofgleams;uponadiscofwaterglitter—
ingandsinister。Ahigh,clearflame,animmenseandlonelyflame,ascendedfromtheocean,andfromitssum—
mittheblacksmokepouredcontinuouslyatthesky。Sheburnedfuriously,mournfulandimposinglikeafuneralpilekindledinthenight,surroundedbythesea,watchedoverbythestars。Amagnificentdeathhadcomelikeagrace,likeagift,likearewardtothatoldshipattheendofherlaboriousdays。Thesurrenderofherwearyghosttothekeepingofstarsandseawasstirringlikethesightofaglorioustriumph。Themastsfelljustbeforedaybreak,andforamomenttherewasaburstandtur—
moilofsparksthatseemedtofillwithflyingfirethenightpatientandwatchful,thevastnightlyingsilentuponthesea。Atdaylightshewasonlyacharredshell,float—
ingstillunderacloudofsmokeandbearingaglowingmassofcoalwithin。
"Thentheoarsweregotout,andtheboatsforminginalinemovedroundherremainsasifinprocession——thelong—boatleading。Aswepulledacrosshersternaslimdartoffireshotoutviciouslyatus,andsuddenlyshewentdown,headfirst,inagreathissofsteam。Theunconsumedsternwasthelasttosink;butthepainthadgone,hadcracked,hadpeeledoff,andtherewerenoletters,therewasnoword,nostubborndevicethatwaslikehersoul,toflashattherisingsunhercreedandhername。
"Wemadeourwaynorth。Abreezesprangup,andaboutnoonalltheboatscametogetherforthelasttime。
Ihadnomastorsailinmine,butImadeamastoutofaspareoarandhoistedaboat—awningforasail,withaboat—hookforayard。Shewascertainlyover—masted,butIhadthesatisfactionofknowingthatwiththewindaftIcouldbeattheothertwo。Ihadtowaitforthem。
Thenweallhadalookatthecaptain’schart,and,afterasociablemealofhardbreadandwater,gotourlastinstructions。Theseweresimple:steernorth,andkeeptogetherasmuchaspossible。’Becarefulwiththatjuryrig,Marlow,’saidthecaptain;andMahon,asI
sailedproudlypasthisboat,wrinkledhiscurvednoseandhailed,’Youwillsailthatshipofyoursunderwater,ifyoudon’tlookout,youngfellow。’Hewasamaliciousoldman——andmaythedeepseawherehesleepsnowrockhimgently,rockhimtenderlytotheendoftime!
"Beforesunsetathickrain—squallpassedoverthetwoboats,whichwerefarastern,andthatwasthelastI
sawofthemforatime。NextdayIsatsteeringmycockle—shell——myfirstcommand——withnothingbutwaterandskyaroundme。Ididsightintheafternoontheuppersailsofashipfaraway,butsaidnothing,andmymendidnotnoticeher。YouseeIwasafraidshemightbehomewardbound,andIhadnomindtoturnbackfromtheportalsoftheEast。IwassteeringforJava——
anotherblessedname——likeBankok,youknow。Isteeredmanydays。
"Ineednottellyouwhatitistobeknockingaboutinanopenboat。Iremembernightsanddaysofcalmwhenwepulled,wepulled,andtheboatseemedtostandstill,asifbewitchedwithinthecircleoftheseahorizon。I
remembertheheat,thedelugeofrain—squallsthatkeptusbalingfordearlife(butfilledourwater—cask),andI
remembersixteenhoursonendwithamouthdryasacinderandasteering—oaroverthesterntokeepmyfirstcommandheadontoabreakingsea。IdidnotknowhowgoodamanIwastillthen。Irememberthedrawnfaces,thedejectedfiguresofmytwomen,andIremembermyyouthandthefeelingthatwillnevercomebackanymore——thefeelingthatIcouldlastforever,outlastthesea,theearth,andallmen;thedeceitfulfeelingthatluresusontojoys,toperils,tolove,tovaineffort——todeath;thetriumphantconvictionofstrength,theheatoflifeinthehandfulofdust,theglowintheheartthatwitheveryyeargrowsdim,growscold,growssmall,andexpires——andexpires,toosoon——beforelifeitself。
"AndthisishowIseetheEast。Ihaveseenitssecretplacesandhavelookedintoitsverysoul;butnowIseeitalwaysfromasmallboat,ahighoutlineofmountains,blueandafarinthemorning;likefaintmistatnoon;ajaggedwallofpurpleatsunset。Ihavethefeeloftheoarinmyhand,thevisionofascorchingblueseainmyeyes。AndIseeabay,awidebay,smoothasglassandpolishedlikeice,shimmeringinthedark。Aredlightburnsfaroffuponthegloomoftheland,andthenightissoftandwarm。Wedragattheoarswithachingarms,andsuddenlyapuffofwind,apufffaintandtepidandladenwithstrangeodorsofblossoms,ofaromaticwood,comesoutofthestillnight——thefirstsighoftheEastonmyface。ThatIcanneverforget。Itwasimpalpableandenslaving,likeacharm,likeawhisperedpromiseofmysteriousdelight。
"Wehadbeenpullingthisfinishingspellforelevenhours。Twopulled,andhewhoseturnitwastorestsatatthetiller。Wehadmadeouttheredlightinthatbayandsteeredforit,guessingitmustmarksomesmallcoastingport。Wepassedtwovessels,outlandishandhigh—sterned,sleepingatanchor,and,approachingthelight,nowverydim,rantheboat’snoseagainsttheendofajuttingwharf。Wewereblindwithfatigue。Mymendroppedtheoarsandfelloffthethwartsasifdead。
Imadefasttoapile。Acurrentrippledsoftly。Thescentedobscurityoftheshorewasgroupedintovastmasses,adensityofcolossalclumpsofvegetation,prob—
ably——muteandfantasticshapes。Andattheirfootthesemicircleofabeachgleamedfaintly,likeanillusion。
Therewasnotalight,notastir,notasound。Themys—
teriousEastfacedme,perfumedlikeaflower,silentlikedeath,darklikeagrave。
"AndIsatwearybeyondexpression,exultinglikeaconqueror,sleeplessandentrancedasifbeforeapro—
found,afatefulenigma。
"Asplashingofoars,ameasureddipreverberatingonthelevelofwater,intensifiedbythesilenceoftheshoreintoloudclaps,mademejumpup。Aboat,aEuropeanboat,wascomingin。Iinvokedthenameofthedead;Ihailed:Judeaahoy!Athinshoutan—
swered。
"Itwasthecaptain。Ihadbeatentheflagshipbythreehours,andIwasgladtoheartheoldman’svoice,tremu—
lousandtired。’Isityou,Marlow?’’Mindtheendofthatjetty,sir,’Icried。
"Heapproachedcautiously,andbroughtupwiththedeep—sealead—linewhichwehadsaved——fortheunder—
writers。Ieasedmypainterandfellalongside。Hesat,abrokenfigureatthestern,wetwithdew,hishandsclaspedinhislap。Hismenwereasleepalready。’I
hadaterribletimeofit,’hemurmured。’Mahonisbe—
hind——notveryfar。’Weconversedinwhispers,inlowwhispers,asifafraidtowakeuptheland。Guns,thun—
der,earthquakeswouldnothaveawakenedthemenjustthen。
"Lookingaroundaswetalked,Isawawayatseaabrightlighttravelinginthenight。’There’sasteamerpassingthebay,’Isaid。Shewasnotpassing,shewasentering,andsheevencamecloseandanchored。’I
wish,’saidtheoldman,’youwouldfindoutwhethersheisEnglish。Perhapstheycouldgiveusapassagesome—
where。’Heseemednervouslyanxious。SobydintofpunchingandkickingIstartedoneofmymenintoastateofsomnambulism,andgivinghimanoar,tookanotherandpulledtowardsthelightsofthesteamer。
"Therewasamurmurofvoicesinher,metallichollowclangsoftheengine—room,footstepsonthedeck。Herportsshone,roundlikedilatedeyes。Shapesmovedabout,andtherewasashadowymanhighuponthebridge。Heheardmyoars。
"Andthen,beforeIcouldopenmylips,theEastspoketome,butitwasinaWesternvoice。Atorrentofwordswaspouredintotheenigmatical,thefatefulsilence;
outlandish,angrywords,mixedwithwordsandevenwholesentencesofgoodEnglish,lessstrangebutevenmoresurprising。Thevoicesworeandcursedviolently;
itriddledthesolemnpeaceofthebaybyavolleyofabuse。ItbeganbycallingmePig,andfromthatwentcrescendointounmentionableadjectives——inEnglish。
Themanupthereragedaloudintwolanguages,andwithasincerityinhisfurythatalmostconvincedmeI
had,insomeway,sinnedagainsttheharmonyoftheuniverse。Icouldhardlyseehim,butbegantothinkhewouldworkhimselfintoafit。
"Suddenlyheceased,andIcouldhearhimsnortingandblowinglikeaporpoise。Isaid——
"’Whatsteameristhis,pray?’
"’Eh?What’sthis?Andwhoareyou?’
"’CastawaycrewofanEnglishbarkburntatsea。
Wecamehereto—night。Iamthesecondmate。Thecaptainisinthelong—boat,andwishestoknowifyouwouldgiveusapassagesomewhere。’
"’Oh,mygoodness!Isay……ThisistheCelestialfromSingaporeonherreturntrip。I’llarrangewithyourcaptaininthemorning,……and,……Isay,……didyouhearmejustnow?’
"’Ishouldthinkthewholebayheardyou。’
"’Ithoughtyouwereashore—boat。Now,lookhere——
thisinfernallazyscoundrelofacaretakerhasgonetosleepagain——cursehim。Thelightisout,andInearlyranfouloftheendofthisdamnedjetty。Thisisthethirdtimeheplaysmethistrick。Now,Iaskyou,cananybodystandthiskindofthing?It’senoughtodriveamanoutofhismind。I’llreporthim……I’llgettheAssistantResidenttogivehimthesack,by……See——
there’snolight。It’sout,isn’tit?Itakeyoutowitnessthelight’sout。Thereshouldbealight,youknow。A
redlightonthe——’
"’Therewasalight,’Isaid,mildly。
"’Butit’sout,man!What’stheuseoftalkinglikethis?Youcanseeforyourselfit’sout——don’tyou?IfyouhadtotakeavaluablesteameralongthisGod—for—
sakencoastyouwouldwantalighttoo。I’llkickhimfromendtoendofhismiserablewharf。You’llseeifI
don’t。Iwill——’
"’SoImaytellmycaptainyou’lltakeus?’Ibrokein。
"’Yes,I’lltakeyou。Goodnight,’hesaid,brusquely。
"Ipulledback,madefastagaintothejetty,andthenwenttosleepatlast。IhadfacedthesilenceoftheEast。Ihadheardsomeofitslanguages。ButwhenI
openedmyeyesagainthesilencewasascompleteasthoughithadneverbeenbroken。Iwaslyinginafloodoflight,andtheskyhadneverlookedsofar,sohigh,before。Iopenedmyeyesandlaywithoutmoving。
"AndthenIsawthemenoftheEast——theywerelookingatme。Thewholelengthofthejettywasfullofpeople。Isawbrown,bronze,yellowfaces,theblackeyes,theglitter,thecolorofanEasterncrowd。Andallthesebeingsstaredwithoutamur—
mur,withoutasigh,withoutamovement。Theystareddownattheboats,atthesleepingmenwhoatnighthadcometothemfromthesea。Nothingmoved。
Thefrondsofpalmsstoodstillagainstthesky。Notabranchstirredalongtheshore,andthebrownroofsofhiddenhousespeepedthroughthegreenfoliage,throughthebigleavesthathungshiningandstilllikeleavesforgedofheavymetal。ThiswastheEastoftheancientnavigators,soold,somysterious,resplendentandsomber,livingandunchanged,fullofdangerandprom—
ise。Andthesewerethemen。Isatupsuddenly。A
waveofmovementpassedthroughthecrowdfromendtoend,passedalongtheheads,swayedthebodies,ranalongthejettylikearippleonthewater,likeabreathofwindonafield——andallwasstillagain。Iseeitnow——thewidesweepofthebay,theglitteringsands,thewealthofgreeninfiniteandvaried,theseablueliketheseaofadream,thecrowdofattentivefaces,theblazeofvividcolor——thewaterreflectingitall,thecurveoftheshore,thejetty,thehigh—sternedoutlandishcraftfloat—
ingstill,andthethreeboatswithtiredmenfromtheWestsleepingunconsciousofthelandandthepeopleandoftheviolenceofsunshine。Theysleptthrownacrossthethwarts,curledonbottom—boards,inthecare—
lessattitudesofdeath。Theheadoftheoldskipper,leaningbackinthesternofthelong—boat,hadfallenonhisbreast,andhelookedasthoughhewouldneverwake。
FartheroutoldMahon’sfacewasupturnedtothesky,withthelongwhitebeardspreadoutonhisbreast,asthoughhehadbeenshotwherehesatatthetiller;andaman,allinaheapinthebowsoftheboat,sleptwithbotharmsembracingthestem—headandwithhischeeklaidonthegunwale。TheEastlookedatthemwithoutasound。
"Ihaveknownitsfascinationssince:Ihaveseenthemysteriousshores,thestillwater,thelandsofbrownna—
tions,whereastealthyNemesisliesinwait,pursues,overtakessomanyoftheconqueringrace,whoareproudoftheirwisdom,oftheirknowledge,oftheirstrength。
ButformealltheEastiscontainedinthatvisionofmyyouth。ItisallinthatmomentwhenIopenedmyyoungeyesonit。Icameuponitfromatusslewiththesea——
andIwasyoung——andIsawitlookingatme。Andthisisallthatisleftofit!Onlyamoment;amomentofstrength,ofromance,ofglamour——ofyouth!……A
flickofsunshineuponastrangeshore,thetimetore—
member,thetimeforasigh,and——good—by!——Night——
Good—by……!"
Hedrank。
"Ah!Thegoodoldtime——thegoodoldtime。Youthandthesea。Glamourandthesea!Thegood,strongsea,thesalt,bittersea,thatcouldwhispertoyouandroaratyouandknockyourbreathoutofyou。"
Hedrankagain。
"Byallthat’swonderful,itisthesea,Ibelieve,theseaitself——orisityouthalone?Whocantell?Butyouhere——youallhadsomethingoutoflife:money,love——
whateveronegetsonshore——and,tellme,wasn’tthatthebesttime,thattimewhenwewereyoungatsea;youngandhadnothing,ontheseathatgivesnothing,excepthardknocks——andsometimesachancetofeelyourstrength——thatonly——whatyouallregret?"
Andweallnoddedathim:themanoffinance,themanofaccounts,themanoflaw,weallnoddedathimoverthepolishedtablethatlikeastillsheetofbrownwaterreflectedourfaces,lined,wrinkled;ourfacesmarkedbytoil,bydeceptions,bysuccess,bylove;ourwearyeyeslookingstill,lookingalways,lookinganxiouslyforsomethingoutoflife,thatwhileitisexpectedisalreadygone——haspassedunseen,inasigh,inaflash——togetherwiththeyouth,withthestrength,withtheromanceofillusions。