mydear，’saysI，’youwillseereasonformycapitulations，
　　andthatIneitherhavebeenthecauseofthismatter，norcould
　　beso，andthatIcouldknownothingofitbeforenow。’
　　’Iamfullysatisfiedofthat，’sayshe，’but’tisadreadfulsurprise
　　tome；however，Iknowaremedyforitall，andaremedy
　　thatshallputanendtoyourdifficulties，withoutyourgoingto
　　England。’
　　’Thatwouldbestrange，’saidI，’asalltherest。’
　　’No，no，’sayshe，’I’llmakeiteasy；there’snobodyintheway
　　ofitbutmyself。’
　　Helookedalittledisorderedwhenhesaid
　　this，butIdidnotapprehendanythingfromitatthattime，
　　believing，asitusedtobesaid，thattheywhodothosethings
　　nevertalkofthem，orthattheywhotalkofsuchthingsnever
　　dothem。
　　Butthingswerenotcometotheirheightwithhim，andI
　　observedhebecamepensiveandmelancholy；andinaword，
　　asIthought，alittledistemperedinhishead。
　　Iendeavoured
　　totalkhimintotemper，andtoreasonhimintoakindofscheme
　　forourgovernmentintheaffair，andsometimeshewouldbe
　　well，andtalkwithsomecourageaboutit；buttheweightof
　　itlaytooheavyuponhisthoughts，and，inshort，itwentsofar
　　thathemadeattemptsuponhimself，andinoneofthemhad
　　actuallystrangledhimselfandhadnothismothercomeinto
　　theroomintheverymoment，hehaddied；butwiththehelp
　　ofaNegroservantshecuthimdownandrecoveredhim。
　　Thingswerenowcometoalamentableheightinthefamily。
　　Mypityforhimnowbegantorevivethataffectionwhichat
　　firstIreallyhadforhim，andIendeavouredsincerely，byall
　　thekindcarriageIcould，tomakeupthebreach；but，inshort，
　　ithadgottentoogreatahead，itpreyeduponhisspirits，and
　　itthrewhimintoalong，lingeringconsumption，thoughit
　　happenednottobemortal。
　　InthisdistressIdidnotknow
　　whattodo，ashislifewasapparentlydeclining，andImight
　　perhapshavemarriedagainthere，verymuchtomyadvantage；
　　ithadbeencertainlymybusinesstohavestayedinthecountry，
　　butmymindwasrestlesstoo，anduneasy；Ihankeredafter
　　comingtoEngland，andnothingwouldsatisfymewithoutit。
　　Inshort，byanunweariedimportunity，myhusband，whowas
　　apparentlydecaying，asIobserved，wasatlastprevailedwith；
　　andsomyownfatepushingmeon，thewaywasmadeclear
　　forme，andmymotherconcurring，Iobtainedaverygood
　　cargoformycomingtoEngland。
　　WhenIpartedwithmybrotherforsuchIamnowtocall
　　him，weagreedthatafterIarrivedheshouldpretendtohave
　　anaccountthatIwasdeadinEngland，andsomightmarry
　　againwhenhewould。
　　Hepromised，andengagedtometo
　　correspondwithmeasasister，andtoassistandsupportme
　　aslongasIlived；andthatifhediedbeforeme，hewouldleave
　　sufficienttohismothertotakecareofmestill，inthenameof
　　asister，andhewasinsomerespectscarefulofme，whenhe
　　heardofme；butitwassooddlymanagedthatIfeltthe
　　disappointmentsverysensiblyafterwards，asyoushallhearin
　　itstime。
　　IcameawayforEnglandinthemonthofAugust，afterIhad
　　beeneightyearsinthatcountry；andnowanewsceneof
　　misfortunesattendedme，whichperhapsfewwomenhave
　　gonethroughthelifeof。
　　Wehadanindifferentgoodvoyagetillwecamejustuponthe
　　coastofEngland，andwherewearrivedintwo-and-thirtydays，
　　butwerethenruffledwithtwoorthreestorms，oneofwhich
　　droveusawaytothecoastofIreland，andweputinatKinsdale。
　　Weremainedthereaboutthirteendays，gotsomerefreshment
　　onshore，andputtoseaagain，thoughwemetwithverybad
　　weatheragain，inwhichtheshipsprunghermainmast，asthey
　　calledit，forIknewnotwhattheymeant。
　　Butwegotatlast
　　intoMilfordHaven，inWales，where，thoughitwasremote
　　fromourport，yethavingmyfootsafeuponthefirmground
　　ofmynativecountry，theisleofBritain，Iresolvedtoventure
　　itnomoreuponthewaters，whichhadbeensoterribletome；
　　sogettingmyclothesandmoneyonshore，withmybillsof
　　loadingandotherpapers，IresolvedtocomeforLondon，and
　　leavetheshiptogettoherportasshecould；theportwhither
　　shewasboundwastoBristol，wheremybrother’schief
　　correspondentlived。
　　IgottoLondoninaboutthreeweeks，whereIheardalittle
　　whileafterthattheshipwasarrivedinBristol，butatthesame
　　timehadthemisfortunetoknowthatbytheviolentweather
　　shehadbeenin，andthebreakingofhermainmast，shehad
　　greatdamageonboard，andthatagreatpartofhercargowas
　　spoiled。
　　Ihadnowanewsceneoflifeuponmyhands，andadreadful
　　appearanceithad。
　　Iwascomeawaywithakindoffinal
　　farewell。
　　WhatIbroughtwithmewasindeedconsiderable，
　　haditcomesafe，andbythehelpofit，Imighthavemarried
　　againtolerablywell；butasitwas，Iwasreducedtobetween
　　twoorthreehundredpoundsinthewhole，andthiswithout
　　anyhopeofrecruit。
　　Iwasentirelywithoutfriends，nay，even
　　somuchaswithoutacquaintance，forIfounditwasabsolutely
　　necessarynottoreviveformeracquaintances；andasformy
　　subtlefriendthatsetmeupformerlyforafortune，shewas
　　dead，andherhusbandalso；asIwasinformed，uponsending
　　apersonunknowntoinquire。
　　Thelookingaftermycargoofgoodssoonafterobligedmeto
　　takeajourneytoBristol，andduringmyattendanceuponthat
　　affairItookthediversionofgoingtotheBath，forasIwas
　　stillfarfrombeingold，somyhumour，whichwasalwaysgay，
　　continuedsotoanextreme；andbeingnow，asitwere，a
　　womanoffortunethoughIwasawomanwithoutafortune，
　　Iexpectedsomethingorothermighthappeninmywaythat
　　mightmendmycircumstances，ashadbeenmycasebefore。
　　TheBathisaplaceofgallantryenough；expensive，andfull
　　ofsnares。
　　Iwentthither，indeed，intheviewoftakinganything
　　thatmightoffer，butImustdomyselfjustice，astoprotestI
　　knewnothingamiss；Imeantnothingbutinanhonestway，nor
　　hadIanythoughtsaboutmeatfirstthatlookedthewaywhich
　　afterwardsIsufferedthemtobeguided。
　　HereIstayedthewholelatterseason，asitiscalledthere，
　　andcontractedsomeunhappyacquaintances，whichrather
　　promptedthefolliesIfellafterwardsintothanfortifiedme
　　againstthem。
　　Ilivedpleasantlyenough，keptgoodcompany，
　　thatistosay，gay，finecompany；buthadthediscouragement
　　tofindthiswayoflivingsunkmeexceedingly，andthatasI
　　hadnosettledincome，sospendinguponthemainstockwas
　　butacertainkindofbleedingtodeath；andthisgavememany
　　sadreflectionsintheintervalofmyotherthoughts。
　　However，
　　Ishookthemoff，andstillflatteredmyselfthatsomethingor
　　othermightofferformyadvantage。
　　ButIwasinthewrongplaceforit。
　　IwasnotnowatRedriff，
　　where，ifIhadsetmyselftolerablyup，somehonestseacaptain
　　orothermighthavetalkedwithmeuponthehonourableterms
　　ofmatrimony；butIwasattheBath，wheremenfindamistress
　　sometimes，butveryrarelylookforawife；andconsequently
　　alltheparticularacquaintancesawomancanexpecttomake
　　theremusthavesometendencythatway。
　　Ihadspentthefirstseasonwellenough；forthoughIhad
　　contractedsomeacquaintancewithagentlemanwhocameto
　　theBathforhisdiversion，yetIhadenteredintonofelonious
　　treaty，asitmightbecalled。
　　Ihadresistedsomecasualoffers
　　ofgallantry，andhadmanagedthatwaywellenough。
　　Iwas
　　notwickedenoughtocomeintothecrimeforthemerevice
　　ofit，andIhadnoextraordinaryoffersmademethattempted
　　mewiththemainthingwhichIwanted。
　　However，Iwentthislengththefirstseason，viz。Icontracted
　　anacquaintancewithawomaninwhosehouseIlodged，who，
　　thoughshedidnotkeepanillhouse，aswecallit，yethadnone
　　ofthebestprinciplesinherself。
　　Ihadonalloccasionsbehaved
　　myselfsowellasnottogettheleastsluruponmyreputation
　　onanyaccountwhatever，andallthementhatIhadconversed
　　withwereofsogoodreputationthatIhadnotgiventheleast
　　reflectionbyconversingwiththem；nordidanyofthemseem
　　tothinktherewasroomforawickedcorrespondence，ifthey
　　hadanyofthemofferedit；yettherewasonegentleman，as
　　above，whoalwayssingledmeoutforthediversionofmy
　　company，ashecalledit，which，ashewaspleasedtosay，was
　　veryagreeabletohim，butatthattimetherewasnomoreinit。
　　IhadmanymelancholyhoursattheBathafterthecompany
　　wasgone；forthoughIwenttoBristolsometimeforthe
　　disposingmyeffects，andforrecruitsofmoney，yetIchoseto
　　comebacktoBathformyresidence，becausebeingongood
　　termswiththewomaninwhosehouseIlodgedinthesummer，
　　IfoundthatduringthewinterIlivedrathercheapertherethan
　　Icoulddoanywhereelse。
　　Here，Isay，Ipassedthewinteras
　　heavilyasIhadpassedtheautumncheerfully；buthaving
　　contractedanearerintimacywiththesaidwomaninwhose
　　houseIlodged，Icouldnotavoidcommunicatingtoher
　　somethingofwhatlayhardestuponmymindandparticularly
　　thenarrownessofmycircumstances，andthelossofmyfortune
　　bythedamageofmygoodsatsea。
　　Itoldheralso，thatIhad
　　amotherandabrotherinVirginiaingoodcircumstances；and
　　asIhadreallywrittenbacktomymotherinparticularto
　　representmycondition，andthegreatlossIhadreceived，
　　whichindeedcametoalmost#500，soIdidnotfailtoletmy
　　newfriendknowthatIexpectedasupplyfromthence，andso
　　indeedIdid；andastheshipswentfromBristoltoYorkRiver，
　　inVirginia，andbackagaingenerallyinlesstimefromLondon，
　　andthatmybrothercorrespondedchieflyatBristol，Ithought
　　itwasmuchbetterformetowaithereformyreturnsthanto
　　gotoLondon，wherealsoIhadnottheleastacquaintance。
　　Mynewfriendappearedsensiblyaffectedwithmycondition，
　　andindeedwassoverykindastoreducetherateofmyliving
　　withhertosolowapriceduringthewinter，thatsheconvinced
　　meshegotnothingbyme；andasforlodging，duringthewinter
　　Ipaidnothingatall。