’Everywoman,’shesays,’thatiswithchildhasafather
forit,’andwhetherthatfatherwasahusbandornohusband,
wasnobusinessofhers;herbusinesswastoassistmeinmy
presentcircumstances,whetherIhadahusbandorno。
’For,
madam,’saysshe,’tohaveahusbandthatcannotappear,is
tohavenohusbandinthesenseofthecase;and,therefore,
whetheryouareawifeoramistressisallonetome。’
Ifoundpresently,thatwhetherIwasawhoreorawife,Iwas
topassforawhorehere,soIletthatgo。
Itoldheritwas
true,asshesaid,butthat,however,ifImusttellhermycase,
Imusttellitherasitwas;soIrelatedittoherasshortasI
could,andIconcludedittoherthus。
’Itroubleyouwithall
this,madam,’saidI,’notthat,asyousaidbefore,itismuch
tothepurposeinyouraffair,butthisistothepurpose,namely,
thatIamnotinanypainaboutbeingseen,orbeingpublicor
concealed,for’tisperfectlyindifferenttome;butmydifficulty
is,thatIhavenoacquaintanceinthispartofthenation。’
’Iunderstandyou,madam’saysshe;’youhavenosecurityto
bringtopreventtheparishimpertinencesusualinsuchcases,
andperhaps,’saysshe,’donotknowverywellhowtodispose
ofthechildwhenitcomes。’
’Thelast,’saysI,’isnotsomuch
myconcernasthefirst。’
’Well,madam,’answeredthemidwife,
’dareyouputyourselfintomyhands?
Iliveinsuchaplace;
thoughIdonotinquireafteryou,youmayinquireafterme。
MynameisB——;Iliveinsuchastreet’——namingthestreet——’
atthesignoftheCradle。
Myprofessionisamidwife,andI
havemanyladiesthatcometomyhousetoliein。
Ihavegiven
securitytotheparishingeneraltermstosecurethemfromany
chargefromwhatsoevershallcomeintotheworldundermy
roof。
Ihavebutonequestiontoaskinthewholeaffair,madam,’
saysshe,’andifthatbeansweredyoushallbeentirelyeasyfor
alltherest。’
Ipresentlyunderstoodwhatshemeant,andtoldher,’Madam,
IbelieveIunderstandyou。
IthankGod,thoughIwantfriends
inthispartoftheworld,Idonotwantmoney,sofarasmay
benecessary,thoughIdonotaboundinthatneither’:
thisI
addedbecauseIwouldnotmakeherexpectgreatthings。
’Well,madam,’saysshe,’thatisthethingindeed,without
whichnothingcanbedoneinthesecases;andyet,’saysshe,
’youshallseethatIwillnotimposeuponyou,orofferanything
thatisunkindtoyou,andifyoudesireit,youshallknow
everythingbeforehand,thatyoumaysuityourselftothe
occasion,andbeneithercostlyorsparingasyouseefit。’
Itoldhersheseemedtobesoperfectlysensibleofmycondition,
thatIhadnothingtoaskofherbutthis,thatasIhadtoldher
thatIhadmoneysufficient,butnotagreatquantity,shewould
orderitsothatImightbeataslittlesuperfluouschargeas
possible。
Sherepliedthatshewouldbringinanaccountoftheexpenses
ofitintwoorthreeshapes,andlikeabilloffare,Ishould
chooseasIpleased;andIdesiredhertodoso。
Thenextdayshebroughtit,andthecopyofherthreebills
wasafollows:
Forthreemonths’lodginginherhouse,including
mydiet,at10s。aweek
Foranurseforthemonth,anduseofchildbed
Foraministertochristenthechild,andtothe
godfathersandclerkForasupperatthechristeningifIhadfivefriends
Forherfeesasamidwife,andthetakingoffthe
troubleoftheparish
Tohermaidservantattending。
Thiswasthefirstbill;thesecondwasthesameterms
Forthreemonths’lodginganddiet,etc。,at
Foranurseforthemonth,andtheuseoflinen
Fortheministertochristenthechild,etc。,as
Forsupperandforsweetmeats
Forherfeesasabove
Foraservant-maid
Thiswasthesecond-ratebill;thethird,shesaid,wasfor
adegreehigher,andwhenthefatherorfriendsappeared
Forthreemonths’lodginganddiet,havingtwo
roomsandagarretforaservant
Foranurseforthemonth,andthefinestsuit
ofchildbedlinen
Fortheministertochristenthechild,etc。
Forasuper,thegentlementosendinthe
Formyfees,etc。
Themaid,besidestheirownmaid,only
Ilookeduponallthreebills,andsmiled,andtoldherIdidnot
seebutthatshewasveryreasonableinherdemands,allthings
considered,andforthatIdidnotdoubtbuther
accommodations
weregood。
ShetoldmeIshouldbejudgeofthatwhenIsawthem。
herIwassorrytotellherthatIgearedImustbeherlowest-
ratedcustomer。
’Andperhaps,madam,’saidI,’youwillmake
methelesswelcomeuponthataccount。’
’No,notatall,’said
she;’forwhereIhaveoneofthethirdsortIhavetwoofthe
second,andfourtooneofthefirst,andIgetasmuchbythem
inproportionasbyany;butifyoudoubtmycareofyou,Iwill
allowanyfriendyouhavetooverlookandseeifyouarewell
waitedonorno。’
Thensheexplainedtheparticularsofherbill。
’Inthefirstplace,
madam,’saidshe,’Iwouldhaveyouobservethathereisthree
months’keeping;youarebuttenshillingsaweek;Iundertake
tosayyouwillnotcomplainofmytable。
Isuppose,’saysshe,
’youdonotlivecheaperwhereyouarenow?’
’No,indeed,’
saidI,’notsocheap,forIgivesixshillingsperweekformy
chamber,andfindmyowndietaswellasIcan,whichcosts
meagreatdealmore。’
’Then,madam,’saysshe,’ifthechildshouldnotlive,orshould
bedead-born,asyouknowsometimeshappens,thenthereis
theminister’sarticlesaved;andifyouhavenofriendstocome
toyou,youmaysavetheexpenseofasupper;sothattakethose
articlesout,madam,’saysshe,’yourlyinginwillnotcostyou
above#5,3s。inallmorethanyourordinarychargeof
living。’
ThiswasthemostreasonablethingthatIeverheardof;soI
smiled,andtoldherIwouldcomeandbehercustomer;butI
toldheralso,thatasIhadtwomonthsandmoretodo,Imight
perhapsbeobligedtostaylongerwithherthanthreemonths,
anddesiredtoknowifshewouldnotbeobligedtoremoveme
beforeitwasproper。
No,shesaid;herhousewaslarge,and
besides,sheneverputanybodytoremove,thathadlainin,till
theywerewillingtogo;andifshehadmoreladiesoffered,she
wasnotsoill-belovedamongherneighboursbutshecould
provideaccommodationsfortwenty,iftherewasoccasion。
Ifoundshewasaneminentladyinherway;and,inshort,I
agreedtoputmyselfintoherhands,andpromisedher。
She
thentalkedofotherthings,lookedaboutintomyaccommodations
whereIwas,foundfaultwithmywantingattendanceand
conveniences,andthatIshouldnotbeusedsoatherhouse。
ItoldherIwasshyofspeaking,forthewomanofthehouse
lookedstranger,oratleastIthoughtso,sinceIhadbeenill,
becauseIwaswithchild;andIwasafraidshewouldputsome
affrontorotheruponme,supposingthatIhadbeenableto
givebutaslightaccountofmyself。
’Ohdear,’saidshe,’herladyshipisnostrangertothesethings;
shehastriedtoentertainladiesinyourconditionseveraltimes,
butshecouldnotsecuretheparish;andbesides,sheisnotsucha
niceladyasyoutakehertobe;however,sinceyouarea-going,
youshallnotmeddlewithher,butI’llseeyouarealittlebetter
lookedafterwhileyouareherethanIthinkyouare,anditshall
notcostyouthemoreneither。’
Ididnotunderstandheratall;however,Ithankedher,and
weparted。
Thenextmorningshesentmeachickenroasted
andhot,andapintbottleofsherry,andorderedthemaidto
tellmethatshewastowaitonmeeverydayaslongasIstayed
there。
Thiswassurprisinglygoodandkind,andIaccepteditvery
willingly。
Atnightshesenttomeagain,toknowifIwanted
anything,andhowIdid,andtoorderthemaidtocometoher
inthemorningwithmydinner。
Themaid
hadorderstomake
mesomechocolateinthemorningbeforeshecameaway,and
didso,andatnoonshebroughtmethesweetbreadofabreast
ofveal,whole,andadishofsoupformydinner;andafterthis
mannershenursedmeupatadistance,sothatIwasmightily
wellpleased,andquicklywell,forindeedmydejectionsbefore
weretheprincipalpartofmyillness。
Iexpected,asisusuallythecaseamongsuchpeople,thatthe
servantshesentmewouldhavebeensomeimprudentbrazen
wenchofDruryLanebreeding,andIwasveryuneasyathaving
herwithmeuponthataccount;soIwouldnotletherliein
thathousethefirstnightbyanymeans,buthadmyeyesabout
measnarrowlyasifshehadbeenapublicthief。
Mygentlewomanguessedpresentlywhatwasthematter,and
sentherbackwithashortnote,thatImightdependuponthe
honestyofhermaid;thatshewouldbeanswerableforherupon
allaccounts;andthatshetooknoservantsintoherhouse
withoutverygoodsecurityfortheirfidelity。
Iwasthenperfectly
easy;andindeedthemaid’sbehaviourspokeforitself,fora
modester,quieter,soberergirlnevercameintoanybody’sfamily,
andIfoundhersoafterwards。
AssoonasIwaswellenoughtogoabroad,Iwentwiththe
maidtoseethehouse,andtoseetheapartmentIwastohave;
andeverythingwassohandsomeandsocleanandwell,that,
inshort,Ihadnothingtosay,butwaswonderfullypleased
andsatisfiedwithwhatIhadmetwith,which,considering
themelancholycircumstancesIwasin,wasfarbeyondwhat
Ilookedfor。