agrainoftruerepentanceforaviciousandabominablelife
fortwenty-fouryearspast,itwasthen。
On,whatafelicityis
ittomankind,saidItomyself,thattheycannotseeintothe
heartsofoneanother!
HowhappyhaditbeenformeifIhad
beenwifetoamanofsomuchhonesty,andsomuchaffection
fromthebeginning!
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Part6
Thenitoccurredtome,’WhatanabominablecreatureamI!
andhowisthisinnocentgentlemangoingtobeabusedbyme!
Howlittledoeshethink,thathavingdivorcedawhore,heis
throwinghimselfintothearmsofanother!thatheisgoingto
marryonethathaslainwithtwobrothers,andhashadthree
childrenbyherownbrother!onethatwasborninNewgate,
whosemotherwasawhore,andisnowatransportedthief!
onethathaslainwiththirteenmen,andhashadachildsince
hesawme!
Poorgentleman!’saidI,’whatishegoingtodo?’
Afterthisreproachingmyselfwasover,itfollowingthus:
’Well,ifImustbehiswife,ifitpleaseGodtogivemegrace,
I’llbeatruewifetohim,andlovehimsuitablytothestrange
excessofhispassionforme;Iwillmakehimamendsifpossible,
bywhatheshallsee,forthecheatsandabusesIputuponhim,
whichhedoesnotsee。’
Hewasimpatientformycomingoutofmychamber,but
findingmelong,hewentdownstairsandtalkedwithmy
landlordabouttheparson。
Mylandlord,anofficiousthoughwell-meaningfellow,hadsent
awayfortheneighbouringclergyman;andwhenmygentleman
begantospeakofittohim,andtalkofsendingforhim,’Sir,’
sayshetohim,’myfriendisinthehouse’;sowithoutanymore
wordshebroughtthemtogether。
Whenhecametotheminister,
heaskedhimifhewouldventuretomarryacoupleofstrangers
thatwerebothwilling。
TheparsonsaidthatMr——hadsaid
somethingtohimofit;thathehopeditwasnoclandestine
business;thatheseemedtobeagravegentleman,andhe
supposedmadamwasnotagirl,sothattheconsentoffriends
shouldbewanted。
’Toputyououtofdoubtofthat,’saysmy
gentleman,’readthispaper’;andouthepullsthelicense。
’I
amsatisfied,’saystheminister;’whereisthelady?’
’You
shallseeherpresently,’saysmygentleman。
Whenhehadsaidthushecomesupstairs,andIwasbythat
timecomeoutofmyroom;sohetellsmetheministerwas
below,andthathehadtalkedwithhim,andthatuponshowing
himthelicense,hewasfreetomarryuswithallhisheart,’but
heaskstoseeyou’;soheaskedifIwouldlethimcomeup。
’’Tistimeenough,’saidI,’inthemorning,isitnot?’
’Why,’
saidhe,’mydear,heseemedtoscruplewhetheritwasnot
someyounggirlstolenfromherparents,andIassuredhimwe
werebothofagetocommandourownconsent;andthatmade
himasktoseeyou。’
’Well,’saidI,’doasyouplease’;soup
theybringstheparson,andamerry,goodsortofgentleman
hewas。
Hehadbeentold,itseems,thatwehadmetthereby
accident,thatIcameintheChestercoach,andmygentleman
inhisowncoachtomeetme;thatweweretohavemetlast
nightatStony-Stratford,butthathecouldnotreachsofar。
’Well,sir,’saystheparson,’everyillturnhassomegoodinit。
Thedisappointment,sir,’sayshetomygentleman,’wasyours,
andthegoodturnismine,forifyouhadmetatStony-Stratford
Ihadnothadthehonourtomarryyou。
Landlord,haveyoua
CommonPrayerBook?’
IstartedasifIhadbeenfrightened。
’Lord,sir,’saysI,’what
doyoumean?
What,tomarryinaninn,andatnighttoo?’
’Madam,’saystheminister,’ifyouwillhaveitbeinthechurch,
youshall;butIassureyouyourmarriagewillbeasfirmhere
asinthechurch;wearenottiedbythecanonstomarrynowhere
butinthechurch;andifyouwillhaveitinthechurch,it
willbeapublicasacountyfair;andasforthetimeofday,it
doesnotatallweighinthiscase;ourprincesaremarriedin
theirchambers,andateightorteno’clockatnight。’
IwasagreatwhilebeforeIcouldbepersuaded,andpretended
nottobewillingatalltobemarriedbutinthechurch。
But
itwasallgrimace;soIseemedatlasttobeprevailedon,and
mylandlordandhiswifeanddaughterwerecalledup。
landlordwasfatherandclerkandalltogether,andwewere
married,andverymerrywewere;thoughIconfessthe
self-reproacheswhichIhaduponmebeforelayclosetome,
andextortedeverynowandthenadeepsighfromme,which
mybridegroomtooknoticeof,andendeavouredtoencourage
me,thinking,poorman,thatIhadsomelittlehesitationsat
thestepIhadtakensohastily。
Weenjoyedourselvesthateveningcompletely,andyetallwas
keptsoprivateintheinnthatnotaservantinthehouseknew
ofit,formylandladyandherdaughterwaitedonme,and
wouldnotletanyofthemaidscomeupstairs,exceptwhilewe
wereatsupper。
Mylandlady’sdaughterIcalledmybridesmaid;
andsendingforashopkeeperthenextmorning,Igavetheyoung
womanagoodsuitofknots,asgoodasthetownwouldafford,
andfindingitwasalace-makingtown,Igavehermothera
pieceofbone-laceforahead。
Onereasonthatmylandlordwassoclosewas,thathewas
unwillingtheministeroftheparishshouldhearofit;butfor
allthatsomebodyheardofit,soatthatwehadthebellsset
a-ringingthenextmorningearly,andthemusic,suchasthe
townwouldafford,underourwindow;butmylandlord
brazeneditout,thatweweremarriedbeforewecamethither,
onlythat,beinghisformerguests,wewouldhaveour
wedding-supperathishouse。
Wecouldnotfindinourheartstostirthenextday;for,in
short,havingbeendisturbedbythebellsinthemorning,and
havingperhapsnotsleptovermuchbefore,weweresosleepy
afterwardsthatwelayinbedtillalmosttwelveo’clock。
Ibeggedmylandladythatwemightnothaveanymoremusic
inthetown,norringingofbells,andshemanageditsowell
thatwewereveryquiet;butanoddpassageinterruptedallmy
mirthforagoodwhile。
Thegreatroomofthehouselooked
intothestreet,andmynewspousebeingbelowstairs,Ihad
walkedtotheendoftheroom;anditbeingapleasant,warm
day,Ihadopenedthewindow,andwasstandingatitforsome
air,whenIsawthreegentlemencomebyonhorsebackandgo
intoaninnjustagainstus。
Itwasnottobeconcealed,norwasitsodoubtfulastoleave
meanyroomtoquestionit,butthesecondofthethreewas
myLancashirehusband。
Iwasfrightenedtodeath;Inever
wasinsuchaconsternationinmylife;IthoughIshouldhave
sunkintotheground;mybloodranchillinmyveins,andI
trembledasifIhadbeeninacoldfitofague。
Isay,there
wasnoroomtoquestionthetruthofit;Iknewhisclothes,I
knewhishorse,andIknewhisface。
ThefirstsensiblereflectImadewas,thatmyhusbandwas
notbytoseemydisorder,andthatIwasverygladofit。
The
gentlemenhadnotbeenlonginthehousebuttheycameto
thewindowoftheirroom,asisusual;butmywindowwas
shut,youmaybesure。
However,Icouldnotkeepfrom
peepingatthem,andthereIsawhimagain,heardhimcallout
tooneoftheservantsofthehouseforsomethinghewanted,
andreceivedalltheterrifyingconfirmationsofitsbeingthe
samepersonthatwerepossibletobehad。
Mynextconcernwastoknow,ifpossible,whatwashisbusiness
there;butthatwasimpossible。
Sometimesmyimagination
formedanideaofonefrightfulthing,sometimesofanother;
sometimeIthoughthehaddiscoveredme,andwascometo
upbraidmewithingratitudeandbreachofhonour;andevery
momentIfanciedhewascomingupthestairstoinsultme;and
innumerablefanciescameintomyheadofwhatwasneverin
hishead,norevercouldbe,unlessthedevilhadrevealeditto
him。
Iremainedinthisfrightnearlytwohours,andscarceeverkept
myeyefromthewindowordooroftheinnwheretheywere。
Atlast,hearingagreatclatterinthepassageoftheirinn,Iran
tothewindow,and,tomygreatsatisfaction,sawthemallthree
gooutagainandtravelonwestward。
Hadtheygonetowards
London,Ishouldhavebeenstillinafright,lestIshouldmeet
himontheroadagain,andthatheshouldknowme;buthe
wentthecontraryway,andsoIwaseasedofthatdisorder。
Weresolvedtobegoingthenextday,butaboutsixo’clock
atnightwewerealarmedwithagreatuproarinthestreet,and
peopleridingasiftheyhadbeenoutoftheirwits;andwhat
wasitbutahue-and-cryafterthreehighwaymenthathad
robbedtwocoachesandsomeothertravellersnearDunstable
Hill,andnoticehad,itseems,beengiventhattheyhadbeen
seenatBrickhillatsuchahouse,meaningthehousewhere
thosegentlemenhadbeen。
Thehousewasimmediatelybesetandsearched,buttherewere
witnessesenoughthatthegentlemenhadbeengoneoverthree
hours。
Thecrowdhavinggatheredabout,wehadthenews
presently;andIwasheartilyconcernednowanotherway。