Iwalkedfrequentlyout
intothevillagesroundthetown,toseeifnothingwouldfall
inmywaythere;andgoingbyahousenearStepney,Isawon
thewindow-boardtworings,oneasmalldiamondring,and
theotheragoldring,tobesurelaidtherebysomethoughtless
lady,thathadmoremoneythenforecast,perhapsonlytill
shewashedherhands。
IwalkedseveraltimesbythewindowtoobserveifIcould
seewhethertherewasanybodyintheroomorno,andIcould
seenobody,butstillIwasnotsure。
Itcamepresentlyintomy
thoughtstorapattheglass,asifIwantedtospeakwith
somebody,andifanybodywastheretheywouldbesureto
cometothewindow,andthenIwouldtellthemtoremove
thoserings,forthatIhadseentwosuspiciousfellowstake
noticeofthem。
Thiswasareadythought。
Irappedonceor
twiceandnobodycame,when,seeingthecoastclear,Ithrust
hardagainstthesquareoftheglass,andbrokeitwithvery
littlenoise,andtook
outthetworings,andwalkedawaywith
themverysafe。
Thediamondringwasworthabout#3,and
theotherabout9s。
Iwasnowatalossforamarketformygoods,andespecially
formytwopiecesofsilk。
Iwasverylothtodisposeofthem
foratrifle,asthepoorunhappythievesingeneraldo,who,
aftertheyhaveventuredtheirlivesforperhapsathingofvalue,
arefaintosellitforasongwhentheyhavedone;butIwas
resolvedIwouldnotdothus,whatevershiftImade,unlessI
wasdriventothelastextremity。
However,Ididnotwellknow
whatcoursetotake。
AtlastIresolvedtogotomyoldgoverness,
andacquaintmyselfwithheragain。
Ihadpunctuallysupplied
the#5ayeartoherformylittleboyaslongasIwasable,but
atlastwasobligedtoputastoptoit。
However,Ihadwritten
alettertoher,whereinIhadtoldherthatmycircumstances
werereducedverylow;thatIhadlostmyhusband,andthatI
wasnotabletodoitanylonger,andsobeggedthatthepoor
childmightnotsuffertoomuchforitsmother’smisfortunes。
Inowmadeheravisit,andIfoundthatshedrovesomething
oftheoldtradestill,butthatshewasnotinsuchflourishing
circumstancesasbefore;forshehadbeensuedbyacertain
gentlemanwhohadhadhisdaughterstolenfromhim,andwho,
itseems,shehadhelpedtoconveyaway;anditwasvery
narrowlythatsheescapedthegallows。
Theexpensealsohad
ravagedher,andshewasbecomeverypoor;herhousewas
butmeanlyfurnished,andshewasnotinsuchreputeforher
practiceasbefore;however,shestooduponherlegs,asthey
say,andashewasastirring,bustlingwoman,andhadsome
stockleft,shewasturnedpawnbroker,andlivedprettywell。
Shereceivedmeverycivilly,andwithherusualobliging
mannertoldmeshewouldnothavethelessrespectformefor
mybeingreduced;thatshehadtakencaremyboywasvery
welllookedafter,thoughIcouldnotpayforhim,andthatthe
womanthathadhimwaseasy,sothatIneedednottotrouble
myselfabouthimtillImightbebetterabletodoiteffectually。
ItoldherthatIhadnotmuchmoneyleft,butthatIhadsome
thingsthatweremoney’sworth,ifshecouldtellmehowI
mightturnthemintomoney。
SheaskedmewhatitwasIhad。
Ipulledoutthestringofgoldbeads,andtoldheritwasone
ofmyhusband’spresentstome;thenIshowedherthetwo
parcelsofsilk,whichItoldherIhadfromIreland,andbrought
uptotownwithme;andthelittlediamondring。
Astothe
smallparcelofplateandspoons,Ihadfoundmeanstodispose
ofthemmyselfbefore;andasforthechildbed-linenIhad,she
offeredmetotakeitherself,believingittohavebeenmyown。
Shetoldmethatshewasturnedpawnbroker,andthatshe
wouldsellthosethingsformeaspawntoher;andsoshesent
presentlyforproperagentsthatboughtthem,beinginher
hands,withoutanyscruple,andgavegoodpricestoo。
Inowbegantothinkthisnecessarywomanmighthelpmea
littleinmylowconditiontosomebusiness,forIwouldgladly
haveturnedmyhandtoanyhonestemploymentifIcouldhave
gotit。
Buthereshewasdeficient;honestbusinessdidnot
comewithinherreach。
IfIhadbeenyounger,perhapsshe
mighthavehelpedmetoaspark,butmythoughtswereoff
thatkindoflivelihood,asbeingquiteoutofthewayafterfifty,
whichwasmycase,andsoItoldher。
Sheinvitedmeatlasttocome,andbeatherhousetillIcould
findsomethingtodo,anditshouldcostmeverylittle,andthis
Igladlyacceptedof。
Andnowlivingalittleeasier,Ientered
intosomemeasurestohavemylittlesonbymylasthusband
takenoff;andthisshemadeeasytoo,reservingapayment
onlyof#5ayear,ifIcouldpayit。
Thiswassuchahelptome,
thatforagoodwhileIleftoffthewickedtradethatIhadso
newlytakenup;andgladlyIwouldhavegotmybreadbythe
helpofmyneedleifIcouldhavegotwork,butthatwasvery
hardtodoforonethathadnomannerofacquaintanceinthe
world。
However,atlastIgotsomequiltingworkforladies’beds,
petticoats,andthelike;andthisIlikedverywell,andworked
veryhard,andwiththisIbegantolive;butthediligentdevil,
whoresolvedIshouldcontinueinhisservice,continually
promptedmetogooutandtakeawalk,thatistosay,tosee
ifanythingwouldofferintheoldway。
OneeveningIblindlyobeyedhissummons,andfetchedalong
circuitthroughthestreets,butmetwithnopurchase,andcame
homeverywearyandempty;butnotcontentwiththat,Iwent
outthenexteveningtoo,whengoingbyanalehouseIsawthe
doorofalittleroomopen,nexttheverystreet,andonthetable
asilvertankard,thingsmuchinuseinpublic-housesatthat
time。
Itseemssomecompanyhadbeendrinkingthere,andthe
carelessboyshadforgottotakeitaway。
Iwentintotheboxfrankly,andsettingthesilvertankardon
thecornerofthebench,Isatdownbeforeit,andknockedwith
myfoot;aboycamepresently,andIbadehimfetchmeapint
ofwarmale,foritwascoldweather;theboyran,andIheard
himgodownthecellartodrawtheale。
Whiletheboywas
gone,anotherboycameintotheroom,andcried,’D’yecall?’
Ispokewithamelancholyair,andsaid,’No,child;theboyis
goneforapintofaleforme。’
WhileIsathere,Iheardthewomaninthebarsay,’Arethey
allgoneinthefive?’whichwastheboxIsatin,andtheboy
said,’Yes。’
’Whofetchedthetankardaway?’saysthewoman。
’Idid,’saysanotherboy;’that’sit,’pointing,itseems,to
anothertankard,whichhehadfetchedfromanotherboxby
mistake;orelseitmustbe,thattherogueforgotthathehad
notbroughtitin,whichcertainlyhehadnot。
Iheardallthis,muchtomysatisfaction,forIfoundplainly
thatthetankardwasnotmissed,andyettheyconcludeditwas
fetchedaway;soIdrankmyale,calledtopay,andasIwent
awayIsaid,’Takecareofyourplate,child,’meaningasilver
pintmug,whichhebroughtmedrinkin。
Theboysaid,’Yes,
madam,verywelcome,’andawayIcame。
Icamehometomygoverness,andnowIthoughtitwasa
timetotryher,thatifImightbeputtothenecessityofbeing
exposed,shemightoffermesomeassistance。
WhenIhad
beenathomesometime,andhadanopportunityoftalkingto
her,ItoldherIhadasecretofthegreatestconsequenceinthe
worldtocommittoher,ifshehadrespectenoughformeto
keepitasecret。
Shetoldmeshehadkeptoneofmysecrets
faithfully;whyshouldIdoubtherkeepinganother?
Itoldher
thestrangestthingintheworldhadbefallenme,andthatit
hadmadeathiefofme,evenwithoutanydesign,andsotold
herthewholestoryofthetankard。
’Andhaveyoubroughtit
awaywithyou,mydear?’saysshe。
’TobesureIhave,’says
I,andshowedither。
’ButwhatshallIdonow,’saysI;’must
notcarryitagain?’
’Carryitagain!’saysshe。
’Ay,ifyouaremindedtobesent
toNewgateforstealingit。’
’Why,’saysI,’theycan’tbeso
basetostopme,whenIcarryittothemagain?’
’Youdon’t
knowthosesortofpeople,child,’saysshe;’they’llnotonly
carryyoutoNewgate,buthangyoutoo,withoutanyregard
tothehonestyofreturningit;orbringinanaccountofallthe
othertankardstheyhavelost,foryoutopayfor。’
’Whatmust
Ido,then?’saysI。
’Nay,’saysshe,’asyouhaveplayedthe
cunningpartandstoleit,youmuste’enkeepit;there’sno
goingbacknow。
Besides,child,’saysshe,’don’tyouwantit
morethantheydo?
Iwishyoucouldlightofsuchabargain
onceaweek。’
Thisgavemeanewnotionofmygoverness,andthatsince
shewasturnedpawnbroker,shehadasortofpeopleabout
herthatwerenoneofthehonestonesthatIhadmetwith
therebefore。
IhadnotbeenlongtherebutIdiscovereditmoreplainlythan