consequence;but,however,thatshewouldtalkwithme,and
  lethimknowmyanswer,usingatthesametimesomearguments
  topersuadehimnottodesireit,andthatitcouldbeofno
  servicetohim,seeingshehopedhehadnodesiretorenewa
  correspondencewithme,andthatonmyaccountitwasakind
  ofputtingmylifeinhishands。
  Hetoldherhehadagreatdesiretoseeme,thathewould
  giveheranyassurancesthatwereinhispower,nottotake
  anyadvantagesofme,andthatinthefirstplacehewouldgive
  meageneralreleasefromalldemandsofanykind。
  Sheinsisted
  howitmighttendtoafurtherdivulgingthesecret,andmight
  intheendbeinjurioustohim,entreatinghimnottopressfor
  it;soatlength
  hedesisted。
  Theyhadsomediscourseuponthesubjectofthethingshehad
  lost,andheseemedtobeverydesirousofhisgoldwatch,and
  toldherifshecouldprocurethatforhim,hewouldwillingly
  giveasmuchforitasitwasworth。
  Shetoldhimshewould
  endeavourtoprocureitforhim,andleavethevaluingitto
  himself。
  Accordinglythenextdayshecarriedthewatch,andhegave
  herthirtyguineasforit,whichwasmorethanIshouldhave
  beenabletomakeofit,thoughitseemsitcostmuchmore。
  Hespokesomethingofhisperiwig,whichitseemscosthim
  threescoreguineas,andhissnuff-box,andinafewdaysmore
  shecarriedthemtoo;whichobligedhimverymuch,andhe
  gaveherthirtymore。
  ThenextdayIsenthimhisfinesword
  andcanegratis,anddemandednothingofhim,butIhadno
  mindtoseehim,unlessithadbeensothathemightbesatisfied
  Iknewwhohewas,whichhewasnotwillingto。
  Thenheenteredintoalongtalkwithherofthemannerhow
  shecametoknowallthismatter。
  Sheformedalongtaleof
  thatpart;howshehaditfromonethatIhadtoldthewhole
  storyto,andthatwastohelpmedisposeofthegoods;and
  thisconfidantebroughtthethingstoher,shebeingbyprofession
  apawnbroker;andshehearingofhisworship’sdisaster,guessed
  atthethingingeneral;thathavinggottenthethingsintoher
  hands,shehadresolvedtocomeandtryasshehaddone。
  She
  thengavehimrepeatedassurancesthatitshouldnevergoout
  ofhermouth,andthoughsheknewthewomanverywell,yet
  shehadnotletherknow,meaningme,anythingofit;thatis
  tosay,whothepersonwas,which,bytheway,wasfalse;but,
  however,itwasnottohisdamage,forIneveropenedmy
  mouthofittoanybody。
  Ihadagreatmanythoughtsinmyheadaboutmyseeinghim
  again,andwasoftensorrythatIhadrefusedit。
  Iwaspersuaded
  thatifIhadseenhim,andlethimknowthatIknewhim,I
  shouldhavemadesomeadvantageofhim,andperhapshave
  hadsomemaintenancefromhim;andthoughitwasalife
  wickedenough,yetitwasnotsofullofdangerasthisIwas
  engagedin。
  However,thosethoughtsworeoff,andIdeclined
  seeinghimagain,forthattime;butmygovernesssawhim
  often,andhewasverykindtoher,givinghersomethingalmost
  everytimehesawher。
  Onetimeinparticularshefoundhim
  verymerry,andasshethoughthehadsomewineinhishead,
  andhepressedheragainveryearnestlytolethimseethat
  womanthat,ashesaid,hadbewitchedhimsothatnight,my
  governess,whowasfromthebeginningformyseeinghim,
  toldhimhewassodesirousofitthatshecouldalmostyield
  ofit,ifshecouldprevailuponme;addingthatifhewould
  pleasetocometoherhouseintheevening,shewould
  endeavourit,uponhisrepeatedassurancesofforgettingwhat
  waspast。
  Accordinglyshecametome,andtoldmeallthediscourse;
  inshort,shesoonbiassedmetoconsent,inacasewhichIhad
  someregretinmymindfordecliningbefore;soIpreparedto
  seehim。
  Idressedmetoalltheadvantagepossible,Iassure
  you,andforthefirsttimeusedalittleart;Isayforthefirst
  time,forIhadneveryieldedtothebasenessofpaintbefore,
  havingalwayshadvanityenoughtobelieveIhadnoneedofit。
  Atthehourappointedhecame;andassheobservedbefore,
  soitwasplainstill,thathehadbeendrinking,thoughveryfar
  fromwhatwecallbeingindrink。
  Heappearedexceeding
  pleasedtoseeme,andenteredintoalongdiscoursewithme
  upontheoldaffair。
  Ibeggedhispardonveryoftenformy
  shareofit,protestedIhadnotanysuchdesignwhenfirstI
  methim,thatIhadnotgoneoutwithhimbutthatItookhim
  foraverycivilgentleman,andthathemademesomany
  promisesofofferingnouncivilitytome。
  Heallegedthewinehedrank,andthathescarceknewwhat
  hedid,andthatifithadnotbeenso,Ishouldneverhavelet
  himtakethefreedomwithmethathehaddone。
  Heprotested
  tomethathenevertouchedanywomanbutmesincehewas
  marriedtohiswife,anditwasasurpriseuponhim;complimented
  meuponbeingsoparticularlyagreeabletohim,andthelike;
  andtalkedsomuchofthatkind,tillIfoundhehadtalked
  himselfalmostintoatempertodothesamethingoveragain。
  ButItookhimupshort。
  IprotestedIhadneversufferedany
  mantotouchmesincemyhusbanddied,whichwasneareight
  years。
  Hesaidhebelievedittobesotruly;andaddedthat
  madamhadintimatedasmuchtohim,andthatitwashis
  opinionofthatpartwhichmadehidesiretoseemeagain;and
  thatsincehehadoncebrokeinuponhisvirtuewithme,and
  foundnoillconsequences,hecouldbesafeinventuringthere
  again;andso,inshort,itwentontowhatIexpected,andto
  whatwillnotbearrelating。
  Myoldgovernesshadforeseenit,aswellasI,andtherefore
  ledhimintoaroomwhichhadnotabedinit,andyethada
  chamberwithinitwhichhadabed,whitherwewithdrewfor
  therestofthenight;and,inshort,aftersometimebeing
  together,hewenttobed,andlaythereallnight。
  Iwithdrew,
  butcameagainundressedinthemorning,beforeitwasday,
  andlaywithhimtherestofthetime。
  Thus,yousee,havingcommittedacrimeonceisasadhandle
  tothecommittingofitagain;whereasalltheregretand
  reflectionswearoffwhenthetemptationrenewsitself。
  Had
  Inotyieldedtoseehimagain,thecorruptdesireinhimhad
  wornoff,and’tisveryprobablehehadneverfallenintoit
  withanybodyelse,asIreallybelievehehadnotdonebefore。
  Whenhewentaway,ItoldhimIhopedhewassatisfiedhe
  hadnotbeenrobbedagain。
  Hetoldmehewassatisfiedin
  thatpoint,andcouldtrustmeagain,andputtinghishandin
  hispocket,gavemefiveguineas,whichwasthefirstmoney
  Ihadgainedthatwayformanyyears。
  Ihadseveralvisitsofthelikekindfromhim,buthenever
  cameintoasettledwayofmaintenance,whichwaswhatI
  wouldhavebestpleasedwith。
  Once,indeed,heaskedme
  howIdidtolive。
  Iansweredhimprettyquick,thatIassured
  himIhadnevertakenthatcoursethatItookwithhim,but
  thatindeedIworkedatmyneedle,andcouldjustmaintain
  myself;thatsometimeitwasasmuchasIwasabletodo,and
  Ishiftedhardenough。
  Heseemedtoreflectuponhimselfthatheshouldbethefirst
  persontoleadmeintothat,whichheassuredmehenever
  intendedtodohimself;andittouchedhimalittle,hesaid,
  thatheshouldbethecauseofhisownsinandminetoo。
  He
  wouldoftenmakejustreflectionsalsouponthecrimeitself,
  andupontheparticularcircumstancesofitwithrespectto
  himself;howwineintroducedtheinclinationshowthedevil
  ledhimtotheplace,andfoundoutanobjecttotempthim,
  andhemadethemoralalwayshimself。
  Whenthesethoughtswereuponhimhewouldgoaway,and
  perhapsnotcomeagaininamonth’stimeorlonger;butthen
  astheseriouspartworeoff,thelewdpartwouldwearin,and
  thenhecamepreparedforthewickedpart。
  Thuswelivedfor
  sometime;thoughthedidnotkeep,astheycallit,yethe
  neverfaileddoingthingsthatwerehandsome,andsufficient
  tomaintainmewithoutworking,and,whichwasbetter,
  withoutfollowingmyoldtrade。
  Butthisaffairhaditsendtoo;forafteraboutayear,Ifound
  thathedidnotcomesooftenasusual,andatlastheleftif
  offaltogetherwithoutanydisliketobiddingadieu;andso
  therewasanendofthatshortsceneoflife,whichaddedno
  greatstoretome,onlytomakemoreworkforrepentance。
  However,duringthisintervalIconfinedmyselfprettymuch
  athome;atleast,beingthusprovidedfor,Imadenoadventures,
  no,notforaquarterofayearafterheleftme;butthenfinding
  thefundfail,andbeinglothtospenduponthemainstock,I
  begantothinkofmyoldtrade,andtolookabroadintothe
  streetagain;andmyfirststepwasluckyenough。
  Ihaddressedmyselfupinaverymeanhabit,forasIhad
  severalshapestoappearin,Iwasnowinanordinarystuff-gown,
  ablueapron,andastrawhatandIplacedmyselfatthedoor
  oftheThreeCupsInninSt。JohnStreet。
  Therewereseveral
  carriersusedtheinn,andthestage-coachesforBarnet,for
  Totteridge,andothertownsthatwaystoodalwaysinthestreet
  intheevening,whentheypreparedtosetout,sothatIwas
  readyforanythingthatoffered,foreitheroneorother。
  The
  meaningwasthis;peoplecomefrequentlywithbundlesand
  smallparcelstothoseinns,andcallforsuchcarriersorcoaches
  astheywant,tocarrythemintothecountry;andtheregenerally
  attendwomen,porters’wivesordaughters,readytotakein
  suchthingsfortheirrespectivepeoplethatemploythem。
  IthappenedveryoddlythatIwasstandingattheinngate,and
  awomanthathadstoodtherebefore,andwhichwasthe
  porter’swifebelongingtotheBarnetstage-coach,having
  observedme,askedifIwaitedforanyofthecoaches。